I have grown up on the belief that having enough hours of sleep gives you the energy to get through the next day and if you don’t get enough sleep, you’ll be tired and struggle to get through the day.
But I have recently discovered this is not the whole truth.
I have had trouble sleeping for about 6 or 7 months now, a culmination of things such as bullying at work, the stress of that, the lack of support felt in a work situation, a death in the family, relationship issues, moving to a new house, a culmination of things I have allowed to unsettle me through the day, whether that be reacting to people or situations or stimulating myself with worry, sugar and anxiety.
Don’t get me wrong, on a human level there has been a huge amount to deal with at once. People say moving house is one of the most stressful things to do in life, add to this death, work, and relationship issues – it is a lot to deal with by oneself. I need to learn to appreciate just how incredibly I do deal with life, not perfectly, but take a step back and see wow, what I bring to all these situations and dealing with them all at the same time. To feel that strength in me, that part that actually finds it is a breeze, I can deal with it all, it doesn’t rock me. In my core there is a solidness with it. But also to remember to not be hard on myself, give myself a break so to speak and time to feel that part, the solid, steady part, that actually I can deal with this all very easily, and simply, and not focus on the part that wants to stimulate me, complicate things, knock me down and create drama.
I have sought support from Western medicine for my lack of sleep and disturbed sleep, for I know just pushing through is not the answer nor is ignoring the issue in the hope that it will go away, it is not self-loving. So when needed I have used the support of sleeping tablets from the doctor to give me a full night’s sleep, undisturbed, as I know for myself the mixture of lack of sleep and exhaustion is not a good combination for me as I get caught in a cycle of not sleeping, getting more tired, with the exhaustion, then I react more which would make me more tired, more unsettled during the day and hence not sleep well again at night, and round the cycle would continue.
Through my understanding of Esoteric Medicine as presented by Serge Benhayon, I now know it is this unsettlement during the day that leaves me restless at night.Continue reading “Having enough sleep and energy to get through the day.”