Having previously struggled with sleep I applied a practical movement to my day of making my life about people, not just me, and what I can bring to any situation for people, not just for myself.

The results were amazing, it blew me away. I felt more settled in my body during the day and slept more soundly at night. But this was not the end, simply the beginning of deepening into this way of living and looking at my sleep and how I am living in the day, so as I can sleep more settled and deeply, to bring more of me to the next day. 

To begin with my sleep was still unsettled, waking, sometimes for hours, the cycle of insomnia continuing, but if I looked at my day, like a science experiment, it was clear to see that without being hard on myself, my movements during the day weren’t supporting myself, my body or my being to go into a deep repose, sleep and true settlement at the end of the day. 

For example I noticed that I was eating chocolate like crazy, not just one or two bits but family sized bars or bags of chocolate buttons a day, but when I came off work for a summer break, no chocolate, no cravings for chocolate, no thoughts of manically needing or buying some. This tells me very clearly there is something going on energetically at work during the day that I do not want to feel and read what’s going on, as the sugar is making me racy and so I can’t clearly read what is going on.  This reaction to the energy I didn’t want to feel and the sugar in my body was setting my body up for more anxiety, and lots of unsettlement. 

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I have grown up on the belief that having enough hours of sleep gives you the energy to get through the next day and if you don’t get enough sleep, you’ll be tired and struggle to get through the day. 

But I have recently discovered this is not the whole truth.

I have had trouble sleeping for about 6 or 7 months now, a culmination of things such as bullying at work, the stress of that, the lack of support felt in a work situation, a death in the family, relationship issues, moving to a new house, a culmination of things I have allowed to unsettle me through the day, whether that be reacting to people or situations or stimulating myself with worry, sugar and anxiety. 

Don’t get me wrong, on a human level there has been a huge amount to deal with at once. People say moving house is one of the most stressful things to do in life, add to this death, work, and relationship issues – it is a lot to deal with by oneself. I need to learn to appreciate just how incredibly I do deal with life, not perfectly, but take a step back and see wow, what I bring to all these situations and dealing with them all at the same time. To feel that strength in me, that part that actually finds it is a breeze, I can deal with it all, it doesn’t rock me. In my core there is a solidness with it. But also to remember to not be hard on myself, give myself a break so to speak and time to feel that part, the solid, steady part, that actually I can deal with this all very easily, and simply, and not focus on the part that wants to stimulate me, complicate things, knock me down and create drama. 

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by Suzanne Cox, Australia.

Most of us don’t know much about our spleen and we certainly don’t have an intimate relationship with it. My relationship with my spleen was not something I was consciously aware of early in life. Yet when I was younger, I grew up in a family where early to bed, early to rise was the way we lived. In bed by about 8:30 to 9pm and up at dawn, or sometimes earlier if a school assignment had to be finished and handed in that day. I never could stay up any later than 9:30pm, which is why I would get up extra early in the morning to finish the school assignment, and I was much fresher and clearer at that time of the morning.  

Once I was in Business College and later at work, my number one priority became my friends and socialising late into the night. I would do this activity on work nights as well as during the weekend, feeling invincible with the heightened stimulation that comes with drinking alcohol, loud music and social activity among close friends and large groups at a venue. I was having so much fun being “out there,” that there was little consideration for “in here” until my body could no longer take it and asked me to stop one night. But I didn’t stop though, arguing with my mother who wanted me to stay in. There was no way I was going to miss out on being with my friends on Thursday night at the local pub. The place was always packed, with so much going on and I certainly did not want to miss out so off I went, with my fever to the pub!

Anon, UK

Not too long ago I noticed a little bump appearing on the back of my neck, right on my spine, half-way between the base of my neck and the base of my skull. I didn’t think much of it, I thought it was a spot, maybe an irritated hair follicle.

Knowing there is a reason for everything and it wasn’t ‘just’ a spot or an accident, it did cross my mind as to wonder why I had a spot there.  I treated it with some tea tree oil, which is a good antibacterial oil, but then realised after a week or two that it was bigger and not going away as a spot usually would.

Rather than dismiss it, I went to the doctor rather than letting things go or thinking it’s no big deal, as I feel it is important to get any medical support we require. What it transpired to be was a small cyst; I was curious as to why, what causes it from a medical perspective, but I also know that our body is constantly telling us everything, and never lies. There was more to this than just being a small cyst, that needed to be cut out and removed, there was the root cause energy behind it, how had I been living that the body needed to clear it with this bump on my neck. This is where the magic of Esoteric Medicine comes in, it works in perfect unison with Western Medicine to look at the whole, it comes from the inside out and Western Medicine meets the issue, illness, ailments, disease from the outside, and together they support one another. Continue reading →

By Anonymous, UK

In January 2018 I was diagnosed with an anal fistula. A fistula is a tunnel that has formed with an opening at either end, one outside the anal entrance and one – or more, as in my experience I had two – inside. It becomes increasingly painful to sit, poo and move around and then very painful 24/7. It can be caused by Crohn’s disease, diverticulitis or certain other bowel conditions. It can develop as a consequence of an abscess forming and then bursting, and often is accompanied by constipation initially. It is notable for the pain experienced.

The main form of treatment is surgery. The fistula or the tunnel can be opened up from one end to the other all in one go or in stages. There is a risk of incontinence in some types of fistula that involve the anal sphincters if they are opened all at once. An alternative approach is to insert a Seton suture – which is usually a length of plastic which is put through the tunnel and tied in a loop and this helps to drain the fistula and it can then be opened up gradually over a number of weeks rather than all at once.

My symptoms had started with what seemed like faecal incontinence which only happened after I had passed stool. I left this alone for a while to see if it would stop on its own, like many of us do. It didn’t, I was leaking poo through the fistula, leaving me sore, uncomfortable, inflamed and concerned. I had bleeding from my anus and a lot of pain. As time went on my anus became swollen and bright red most of the time, looking and feeling a lot like bad sunburn. I didn’t however have an abscess or any other bowel condition, though I regularly had constipation. Continue reading →

by Anon, 42, UK

Osteoporosis is not just an illness for ‘old people’; I know, because I was diagnosed with Osteoporosis at the age of 39.

Most people think of Osteoporosis as an illness that women get when they are older, when their bones become weak and fragile, but it can occur in much younger women, and in men too.

My periods had stopped when I was in my late thirties for around 12 months. When I was being investigated for this, I had a bone density scan and I was told I was on the borderline for having Osteoporosis. Recently I wanted to know if it had gotten worse over the last three years and asked to have another scan. It was then the doctor said I had already been diagnosed with it on the previous scan!

In my search for answers and healing during those three years I used both Esoteric Medicine and Western Medicine together, to support my health and healing, and to get a deeper understanding of the energetic root cause of my illnesses, including looking at what energy I was living in, allowing and choosing that resulted in me being ill. Basically my healing process was a marriage of both Western and Esoteric medicine, one from the outside, the other from the inside, to get to the whole truth of what was going on.

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