791 thoughts on “Breaking free of the uncomfortable comfort”

1. It’s a confronting read for all the right reasons, I can see the abuse I have allowed in my own life with the undercurrent of security being the justification. Abuse can feel so normal especially over a long period, I was reflecting on that today realising how I must have dulled my sensitivity to cope with it all which formed a pattern to desensitise me to it and allow it to become something I accepted. We need role models in society that don’t allow abuse, not just the obvious but the subtleties as well.

2. Rachel, when I first read the beginning of this blog, I was feeling the ‘uncomfortable comfort’ as this is what I am going through currently. My body is feeling such exhaustion, sleep is not enough to quench the thirst to rest, and rest that is not about sitting around doing nothing, but to truly allow the body to feel repose.

   We like to stay safe all the time and as so well expressed every time we are moved, its like that fledging, spreading its wings, ready to leave the nest, not knowing what lays a head, but has a knowing that it needs to leave and doesn’t worry about the future. Whilst us humans are consumed about the ‘what if’s’, and needing to know, which tangles us in more complications.

   Rachel this blog has come at a perfect time, to surrender more to the body, and from time to time, it needs to go through this cycle for it to end, before for the next one appears.

   The medicine my body needed to read and feel – thank you.

3. “How can I ignore such questions, asked of me, by my body, with such poignant and pointed clarity?”

   Love this Rachel, our bodies will always give us an honest answer.

   1. Le, we are masters at ignoring, everything we do is about ignoring the body and the messages it constantly communicates. The body is our best friend, it is the one that will not let you down and it is by your side all the time, more often it is the head that gets in the way and the thoughts we allow in.
      Which is better for the body, the quality of thoughts we entertain or how we take care of our bodies that guarantees the quality of those thoughts?..

4. This is very beautiful and inspiring: ‘Never have I allowed such a level of open vulnerability in my life. Never have I allowed such a level of surrender, never have I stated that I trust myself so deeply and all of the resource that comes, innate, rich and sourced from deep within me.’ Can comfort be uncomfortable? This alone shows it can.

5. This fight that we put up all along – to say that we are not god, every single manouvering to prove that we are not love – this package of abuse of every shade is what we call life. This excruciating pain we call comfort. Sometimes our body starts to say ‘No more’ before we can formulate these two words verbally, and when we can truly say ‘Yes’ to that, that is like the armistice day we have been delaying, and longing for at the same time, has finally come.

6. Holding back and staying in comfort feels awful and there is this feeling of mild depression, so, it’s easy to see how people long term could go into depression. Whereas, when we do things to get out of our comfort, it’s as if the whole world opens up and the potential is presented.

7. Hugely inspiring what you share here, Rachel, and expose so lucidly the abuse that comfort and security can be and so often is.

8. “The doctor can only play his part, the rest is up to me; is my part.” This very wise statement has the power and the potential to turn the doctor/patient relationship right around, for so many give their power away to the medical professionals as they feel there is nothing they can do as far as their health condition is concerned. But you have shown that is definitely not the case. We are responsible for our own health, and as the state of our health is a consequence of the way we choose to live, we always have the power to make a different and more healthy choice.

9. Outstanding to read, a call to ignite the love within and dare to live it everyday, committed to returning to it should we falter.

10. It is only through surrendering to my Father’s will that I embrace everything that is on offer and to do this I surrender to my soul and not give any power to the spirit within me or within others… a work-in-progress that continues to unfold as I learn to listen, trust and respond to the divine essence within me.

11. We are yet to fully recognise that background tension and hurt and its effects on our health but it is something that I can recognise and I’m sure affects many people.

12. It was only in 2015 that a law against coercion and control was passed, allowing emotional and mental abuse to be considered in a UK court of law, rather than physical abuse which was accepted previously. Harder to prove, but now possible.

    1. It’s so important to have a law like this, which is also needed for cyber abuse worldwide. The emotional, mental and financial abuse is devastating in many ways, so it is vital to set standards that it’s not ok by law, until we can take responsibility for ourselves and others by virtue of our own inner authority.

13. “… even one drop of abuse is poison to the whole.” We can see this graphically illustrated if we put one drop of food colour into a glass of water. The whole glass becomes coloured, especially when stirred. Standing up to abuse, whether aimed at ourselves or others, feels so important these days. Left to its own devices it can escalate, through our ignoring the signs and not addressing them. Time to stand up and be counted.

    1. It is a reminder too that as bystanders we enable and contribute to the continuation of abuse in the world.

14. “The price I was paying was high; its coinage the toleration of a constant level of low grade disrespect and the sort of subtle abuse that people learn to cope with, in some way or another. ” When we allow even the minutest subtlest form of abuse, words that may not to some seem hurtful or abusive on the surface, but come with a punch that can send us reeling even though no finger has been laid on us, we are in effect saying yes to abuse and allowing it to continue in every corner of the world. If it is not love, it is abuse and this should be the premise by which we live our lives and then there would be no grey areas as to what we may consider to be abusive and what we may not.

15. When we know we are enough, more than enough, nothing holds us back but it comes from a willingness to deepen the surrender to our being and not from a ‘doing’ which comes from outside ourselves.

16. Reading this again today I feel inspired to drop anything that might be feeding this abuse in my own life. Thank you Rachel Mascord.

17. ‘an abuse that does not mark the flesh, but rather more insidiously leaves its bruises deep and unseen upon the heart and the being.’ This is the kind of abuse that we tend make light of, that we tend to ignore or put up with, deeming it less important or damaging. It is just as important and just as damaging if not more so, for these internal wounds can get deeper and deeper and actually run down the body so that physical illness can occur later on down the line, not to mention depression and other non-physical problems.

18. “For even one drop of abuse is poison to the whole.” – indeed it is and I am slowly working with this truth and allowing myself to see abuse for what it is and realise that one drop counts and building my ‘say-no-to-abuse-muscle’.

19. We are so very used to the safety net of comfort and security that we can blind ourselves to the cost of this in our lives – standards are dropped, abuse is allowed all in the name of holding on to comfort and security. To say no and to step away from the comfort and security without any so called back up plan of security or comfort is something we rarely see today. Rachel what you have shared here is that the comfort and security is not the end all and be all – in fact it is a facade that if we allow ourselves to leave it, we get to feel the strength of the spark – the true being that lies deep within: the Soul. And so it is for us to develop this relationship and invest in this, rather than the relationship with so called comfort and security in life.

20. Abuse is abuse and there are grades of it. At some point we must say no to it and raise the standard so that we can all learn how to live in a truly respectful and caring way.

21. An exquisite piece of writing that moved me to tears today, thank you dear Rachel.

22. Forward stepping in life is an beautiful surrender that has not one ounce of control.

23. Humanity has armoured itself, as you say, from losing the trust of that connection with ourselves and the divine… In gentleness and simplicity we can now return, let go of that which has protected us not, but simply cut us off from who we truly are.

24. ‘Are you at last, willing to let go that fearful control of circumstance that has felt like the only way to make your way through life? Are you willing to know that you are enough, more than enough? Are you yet willing to hand yourself unto God’s way, as he would live on Earth?”’
    What really supports me is to stay connected to my body and express from there, for then I can feel that I am never alone and that God is always walking beside me, reflected to me through another and that I am held in so much love just like the stars in the universe.

25. I experienced many situations by now, where things easily and heavenly constellate and after that my mind kicks in and thinks suddenly “I have to do it”- that I own it, or I want to keep it, don´t want to lose it. To trust and allow heaven working through you and not wanting to interfere with it to get something out of it for your-self is tricky, but my way of saying yes to evolution.

    1. Thank you Stefanie for your words, I can very much relate, beautiful wisdom shared here from your life experience.

26. I have the experience of staying in a job too long as well and the price I paid was a big financial loss. If I had left the company when my whole body communicated ‘go’, I wouldn’t have had any loss. But it felt comfortable staying and getting assignments from them. Comfort is never true and never worth its price.

27. I could feel I held my breath when I read your questions:
    ‘Do you feel the magnitude of the lack of trust you have had in yourself and consequently the lack of surrender to your Father’s Will?’ This feels like a very timely question in my search for a new job. The realization that there is so much more than I can see that influences where I will work and that I don’t have to do it by myself but that God is there with me.

28. It is interesting how being sensitive can be regarded as being obstinate, when an abuse is being exposed.

29. Are we here in this world to be comfortable?
    I live in the USA, where many people are working hard so they can go on vacations, buy a nice house, retire early, and live the good life.
    Sounds nice but statistics are showing that this kind of lifestyle is not very healthy. And the actual quality of that kind of life is not what we thought.
    I feel that being comfortable is boring.
    Watch a young child growing up, they are ready for anything. Ready to learn to walk, and then they are ready to fly!
    We have a natural desire to try new things, learn new skills. When we honor this part of us, it makes for a amazing life.
    There is so much in this world to experience, so let’s get off the couch and get on with it!

    1. Ken we have bought into a picture for how our whole life should be, work hard, retire, and then live the good life, as you say, but none of that is necessarily what we truly feel to do, or will support us to grow ourselves and our communities, or live with joy, purpose and love. As humans we give our power away to some mighty big pictures then move to their beat our whole lives.

30. Saying no to abuse, no matter how ‘small’ it may appear, is saying yes to love and allowing more of that which expands us, to fill us up and move us forth. The alternative is a life lived in seeming ‘comfort’ and stifling contraction.

31. The ‘are you willings’ are quite in my face so to speak. It asks me to become very humble and go to a level of honesty I have not yet made my daily choice so, am I willing to hand myself unto God’s way, as he would live on Earth?

32. “For even one drop of abuse is poison to the whole.” Yes, very true. And it is often in the things we find so very normal as abuse is become so normalised.

33. A brilliant and very exposing sharing Rachel, of how we can sell ourselves short in life, accepting our lot as we have raised to believe is the thing to do. And how our body suffers. I worked under similar conditions for some years, left and then went back for more, such was my lack of love for myself! So, I can relate to these words: “It is an abuse that does not mark the flesh, but rather more insidiously leaves its bruises deep and unseen upon the heart and the being.”. It has taken a while for those inner bruises to heal but by deepening the love I have for myself, and accepting the ever available support all around me, that is indeed happening.

34. It’s so true, we do go from one abusive situation to another, and even tell ourselves that what just happened wasn’t abuse when our bodies so clearly registered it as being so.

    1. Julie – so true. I can so relate to this. Those times where I have told myself what just happened was ok have been so many but I have done this because there was no other yardstick around me supporting me to express what deep down I knew to be true. As a child, I’d experience abuse but because it was so normalised the expectation was that you just suck it up, toughen up and get on with life. Over time we can get so numb to it that we simply don’t register it on the same level we did when we were children.

       1. I agree with you Michelle but as you know when we do ‘suck it up’ we then put a halt to our expression and then our ability to call out that which hurts us gets buried and internalised. Is it any wonder then that we become bitter, angry and resentful of the world around us. There needs to be a healthier way for us to deal with situations and things that hurt us and actually voicing them is a great start, even if to ourselves.

       2. Absolutely. That is why it is so important for those of us who have clocked this to start living much more honestly – to express what we know offering our children that different way so that they don’t have to internalise their hurts like we did but to claim with authority their natural wisdom and worth.

       3. So true, I got so used to being told ‘it’s only a joke’ – when I called out abuse, ( it wasn’t!) or that I was too sensitive. Nowadays I’m really appreciating my sensitivity. If we don’t stand up to even subtle levels of abuse it can escalate.

       4. At school the teenagers I teach dress up abuse daily as ‘we are only playing’, or ‘it was only a joke’ in total denial of the fact that they are hurting and in turn hurting others.

35. I recently realised how after a very expansive moment I can choose an immediate opposite encounter to that moment with an abusive thought or called in anxiousness to avoid the grandness that was there. How much do we consciously choose abuse to not step into the responsibility that awaits us?! it is a game we play.

36. Do we listen to the sound of life or the sound of God. Do we make it about being human or being held in energy and love all the time, without doubt?

    1. It sounds so clear and simple if you ask the question here and everything inside me knows what to choose, yet sometimes I find myself focussing on the human part and forgetting about the sound of God. There is an addiction inside that wants to stay in control.

       1. I know that addiction – it is the addiction to make it about ME and to individualise. But hey, it is an ongoing development to let go more and more of this part. It gave us seemingly protection and security in life and this need will fade away slowly the more we trust in our greatest power again: the connection to heaven.

37. I don’t like feeling uncomfortable so I have often avoided it by substituting it with seemingly less extreme versions, never allowing truth to come to the foreground, as long as there’s a ‘hope’, a ‘better’ – and I am feeling how dishonouring that is, how abusive that is to this vehicle of expression made of divine particles, as well as what is here to be expressed through it.

38. “a disrespect you have not loved and respected yourself enough to ever address?” This is so true, the things that we choose to allow. Claiming our responsibility to be respected by others and ourselves with equal love is to know our true worth and divinity.

    1. Quite often we can bemoan the fact that others don’t seem to respect us but if we are not prepared to do this for ourselves then there is a clear reflection here showing us what the work is that needs to be done with ourselves. What you are sharing here is a respect that is founded on self-love and self-worth, a foundation that comes from ourselves first; it is not something that the outside can bring us, only something that can be built when we truly start to appreciate our worth in terms of who we are and what we bring.

39. ‘For even one drop of abuse is poison to the whole.’ When we are committed to not allowing one drop of abuse we can say we are truly committed to living with true purpose rather than in comfort.

    1. God only knows love, which contains not an ounce of abuse in it – the moment we abuse ourselves or others in the smallest way, we are saying No to God, which is in effect a No to us. We get held as equal by God, but do we hold ourselves equal to him?!

       1. What a power-full, inviting, exposing question you ask here, Stefanie, ‘We get held as equal by God, but do we hold ourselves equal to him?’ The lies, bullying and distortion of truth that have been a ‘religious’ onslaught lifetime after lifetime to take us so far away from daring to consider the possibility your question poses, let alone ask the question itself, have worked a charm. But the charm is only a charm for as long as we allow it to charm us….the time has come to rip the façade away once and for all and say Yes to God and Yes to ourselves.

40. Saying no to the abuse we recognise as abuse means that, as we deepen the relationship with ourselves, our understanding of abuse also deepens and we are less willing to put up with anything that does not support a truthful and loving way, that does not support humanity as a whole.

41. It’s beautiful what you shared about sensitivity and vulnerability bringing a sense of strength as opposed to weakness to you and your life.

42. Rachel, how powerful this blog is – every word is resonating deeply within my body, exposing deeper facets of disrespect, disregard, love-less-ness, protection and hardness still held within my body. A deeper level of deconstruction is ignited and underway.
    “Do you feel the armour you have made of your chest to bear the hurts of disrespect others have sent your way – a disrespect you have not loved and respected yourself enough to ever address?”

43. A deeply inspiring blog Rachel, exposing how abuse is pure poison to the body. I am discovering so many ways in which abuse is present in everyday life, that I would never have even recognised as abuse prior to attending Universal Medicine presentations. To let go of the accepted safety and comfort is key in our
    re-connection to God and all that we are in truth..
    How can I not, in the face of this truth, let go of the uncomfortable safety we call comfort and thus restore myself to the Living Son of God I am?

44. “It is an abuse that does not mark the flesh, but rather more insidiously leaves its bruises deep and unseen upon the heart and the being”. This is a great description of the low-grade abuse that occurs in many workplaces. It gradually erodes staff confidence, morale and teamwork.

45. There are so many subtle levels of abuse we allow, I can speak for myself and say that it is insidious we hold back from saying that the tone of the person doing our nails is actually quite harsh, that our colleague may demand way too much of us, simply because we’re the “new starter”. All of this is abuse, but there is more, deeper levels which we allow way before these scenarios occur. Still finding these out for myself, but I get surprised in my willingness to allow abuse all of the time, things which once I never thought were abusive, today I feel the pain on my heart when they occur. For so long we have lived in a world where abuse is normal, but it is us who have to put a stop to it.

46. Rachel your words ‘……. a constant level of low grade disrespect and the sort of subtle abuse that people learn to cope with, in some way or another.’ Made me realise how many small undermining things happen at work and all of them are a form of abuse, and yet we measure it against what we get in return, the safe job, the regular income, and it made me realise that work should be an equally loving place, where there is no excuse for abuse.

47. ‘The uncomfortable safety we call comfort’.. so true.. we hold onto our comfortable lives so tightly, rarely trusting or surrendering to the fact that we are part of and held in something so much greater than ourselves. But when we do allow that trust, allow ourselves to let go and feel what is beyond our small, safe but stifling world, it is much greater, much grander and more expansive, than we could have imagined. I feel that most of us live in the tension of knowing there is something much greater that we’re all a part of, that we could be living, but yet not quite having the courage or conviction to let go of all our comforts and trust this knowing, to live it in full, all of the time…and that is a beautiful work in progress, to allow ourselves to build this trust, and give full permission to the knowing, and live by that.

48. This is a beautiful article Rachael – it reads like a poem, with love straight to the heart. So much to learn and to surrender to.

49. I am just understanding more and more the really subtle abuse we accept and of course the self abuse that we do not think is abuse! The overriding and not honouring or listening to ourselves and our body.

    1. Me too, Vicky. Self abuse has become so much a part of us that it’s as unnoticeable as the beating of our heart. Not until we start to observe that the overriding and not honouring have become equally unnoticeable can we begin to identify what is truly going on and start noticing how unnoticed the very noticeable has become.

50. ‘For even one drop of abuse is poison to the whole.’
    For abuse is abuse and adds to the energy of creation, that separates us from our true divine origin.

51. It’s awesome how the body mirrors our choices. I have allowed myself to stay in a situation that is abusive and not been able to bring about significant change and as a result my body has become protective and closed down. My right hand has started to close so that when I walk the left hand hangs free but the right curls in. The physical is the slowest to change but I feel confident that as I nominate what has gotten in the way of my living fully and as I renounce these behaviours and ways of being that are obedient to ideals and beliefs, I will become less and less reactive and stand in my full authority and power, not just now and again but for the majority of time.

52. To surrender to the will of thy Father, to surrender to the grace we are from, to trust in us and to know that that trust we trust in God, in the greater plan of which we’re all a part. Thank you Rachel, for such a deeply beautiful expression of what it is to surrender.

53. Stepping out and away from the very comfortable known is such a brave thing to do and what’s more, which I love, is how this sends a message to everyone who knows you that they too do not have to settle for the kind of comfort that comes at such a huge cost when it includes accepting abuse.

54. This comfortable life we often hang on to for way too long has a way of weighing us down, keeping us from the natural joys of life. I spoke to someone today and was blown away as to how light and bright she sounded and felt. It turned out that the job that she had unhappily hung onto for all the wrong reasons had been terminated and family who moved in for a short while, that became a very long while, had moved on out and with these exits from her life the weight she had been dragging around in every part of her being had lifted. A great example that ‘breaking free of the uncomfortable comfort’ is incredibly liberating.

55. Sometimes what we have to let go of is so obvious, we just can’t see it.

56. Do we take the risk and let go of the control and protection that we’ve used for so long to get through life? What I have found is that this is not an overnight job or snap decision but a step by step process, taking incremental steps towards fully accepting myself, letting go of protection, allowing others in and truly committing to life, that starts by saying yes, and is only maintained by a constant choice to keep saying yes, staying open and accepting of whatever presents.

57. An extraordinary piece of writing, thank you Rachel. It’s very supportive advice to not accept even the tiniest speck of abuse, and it is as easy as speaking up and doing so in a loving way for all. Your blog is so deeply beautiful and warrants further study, but for now I take with me this “Are you yet willing to hand yourself unto God’s way, as he would live on Earth?” Thank you.

58. Rachel, I am touched to the core on reading this honest, amazing blog of vulnerability and return to true purpose, to surrender and live as God on this earth-plane.

59. “How many of us subsist in life, negotiating our way through the minefield of “hurt or be hurt,” that human life has become. Our fingers tighten on the reins of our lives, no longer able to straighten and soften in tender supplication to a Divine Will that we have long forgotten even existed.” Life has become a negotiation, in all its moments, a negotiation of how we can get through with as little bruises as possible but not realising that in the mean time our hearts are running on empty…

60. Maybe we have been negotiating our way through life but our bodies don’t play that game and give us the very clear messages we get to feel all of the time and it will knocking on our door until we listen and surrender to God’s will.

    1. We have been negotiating indeed Annelies and we have been paying in the currency of health and wellbeing.

61. Comfort is everywhere, in the most unlikely places we can find something else with which to numb ourselves.

    1. And comfort can also be something that doesn’t look or feel like comfort at first sight.

62. Rachel this blog is awesome to read – I can feel something deep inside my body is responding to the call and command to be obedient to that which is grand and true.
    “Are you willing to know that you are enough, more than enough? Are you yet willing to hand yourself unto God’s way, as he would live on Earth?”

63. It is very humbling to feel the truth in your words, Rachel. What I can feel is how we play ignorant, as if we do not know we are God too, therefore know His way in fact, and anything less is abuse.

64. A line that keeps coming to me after reading this is, ‘fall into the arms of God’.

65. Rachel Mascord, wow. What a joy to read your words, one can’t help but be pulled back to the light of God that we are from. Thank you.

66. In our comfort there is a tension that necessitates us to seek more comfort to ignore what is really going on.

67. Helping people to connect with themselves so much that they actually know that they have a choice is a great gift to be given… A true gift of freedom and reconnection with no strings attached.

68. In our comfort there is tension, our way of living dulls our awareness but it is still there, and our connection with the inner stillness that allows us to recognise the truth of who we truly are is only a breath away.

69. When we get comfortable with life and feel secure in what we do, we miss much of what is going on around us because we are blinkered in that comfort, to actually live from the connection of our body, allows us to be more in touch with ourselves, and with what we feel around us too, which often gives us a clear indication as to our next choice or movement.

70. The surrender here is absolutely divine. How many of us can let ourselves go there?

71. I am also more and more feeling how deeply abuse runs in my life in the sense that sometimes simple ways of being with each other can feel abusive when we leave each other where we are and not pull each other up for instance. Being ill is a great way to surrender and listen more clearly to what our body is saying when our usual comforts of life can not be sustained for that moment.

72. Thank you Rachel re-reading this is a great wake-up call. I love my job but the physical office environment is not supportive and I have been trying to get managers to address the situation but feel to explore what comfort I am in that I do not want to move (away from my team) and what else I can do to support myself.

73. I agree Doug and I have also been masterful at abusing myself in many different forms and I go from one to the next to the next. The antidote to this is when we say no to abuse and start to truly appreciate what we bring.

74. ‘For even one drop of abuse is poison to the whole.’ This sentence made me sit up and feel where I still allow abuse in my life, abuse of myself and there are still many which I am choosing and saying yes to. The good bit is that I see them and that’s an excellent place to start as I let go of more and more of the abuse knowing that it is not just about me it’s all part of the whole.

75. Staying in a job because of the comfort and the apparent stability it offers, even when there is a constant chipping away of and abuse at your sense of being. I can imagine that there is a very high percentage of people who chose the same, day in and day out. And this is understandable when, in a culture of job losses and high bills to match lifestyles and the needs of family, there is a lot of pressure placed on us to stay where we can guarantee the next paycheque – no matter the cost this takes from our bodies and our personal relationships. This is why the inner-heart is so beautiful, because with connection to this we are able to express what we really love and from there new possibilities are discovered – one being that life can be full and vibrant without having to tolerate abuse.

76. This is pure heaven on a page Rachel, your way with expression is deeply beautiful. And yes a drop of ink into water affects the whole as does a drop of abuse is felt by the whole.

77. It is so true that when we dismiss and override our own sensitivities, the body can only be left to harden and accumulate the consequences of our ill choices.

78. I can say that I do know of instances where I still allow abuse in my life. But rather than be honest about this I’ve ignored it. Shunning myself and the understanding as to the why is this so? The gorgeous thing about the body is that it doesn’t punish, only presents.

79. I like your approach of no stone shall be left unturned, both medically and in understanding what is really going on. The moments when we are ill are great for a whole life-assessment and for questioning what may or may not be working, I find they can be amazing pivotal points that can change the course or the direction of our lives.

80. ‘take a look at how you have been negotiating your way through life’ Negotiating is a well chosen word here as we do negotiate on a daily bases the price we are willing to pay for the security, protection and sense of belonging we think we need.

81. I have just realised a comfort I’ve been in in a relationship, all wrapped up in beliefs of how it should be that I placed on myself, yet I now feel just how uncomfortable it is and how it does not belong to me and also how it will be affecting the other person.

82. Living in comfort to not be the real us is pretty uncomfortable.

83. This is such a powerful piece of expression it is worthy of a play, a sonnet of humbleness and responsibility. No doubt it is music to your bodies ears as you listen so intently and willingly surrrnder to thy fathers will.

84. Rachel I can so relate to your situation and the job change – there is a part of me that seeks to manage and control things all of the time, and I am a Master of this Control and Management! But this leaves little space for Trusting in how things need to unfold, and allowing for a more natural expression (rather than a controlled one)…There is much to learn in the word Trust, and it is not about the classic approach that disempowers us all when we say ‘Ah but the Universe will provide!’…it is not about the Universe providing anything, it is about us stepping into our own power and then through the way we are in our responses and quality that we choose day to day that the way is paved, hence no disempowerment here at all. I still struggle to fully surrender to this process but know it feels amazing when it constellates.

85. Brilliant blog Rachel – and when we allow or tolerate a constant level of low grade disrespect and the sort of subtle abuse that people learn to cope with, our thresholds gradually erode or begin to change. It is like a sliding scale – the moment we allow one small disrespectful or abusive incident to pass without responding to it, then this begins our gradual erosion and downfall from what we know to be a true way of relating to each other.

86. Comfort is abuse. Now that’s a page turner!

    1. Well said Joshua – it is hard to realise that being in comfort can be very damaging to us! But of course this is not to be confused with the comfort of sitting in a comfortable chair or wearing comfortable shoes! The comfort that can be damaging to us is the kind where, for example, we feel uncomfortable about confrontation with another when something has not been done with respect for all, for example, when this is exactly what is needed – (but we feel more comfortable to be silent and allow the abuse or disrespect). This kind of comfort is a killer!

87. ‘“Here you go,” it has said to me, “take a look at how you have been negotiating your way through life.’ This made me stop, for a while now I am becoming aware that even the slightest compromise I choose has its effect on my body. And the tightness in my fingers and hands is just one clear message that says I can let go of anger and frustration and choose love for myself instead.

88. I am so inspired by this blog as it has allowed me to build a trust that I never thought possible but have now felt is possible by choosing to surrender and allow what will come next.

89. We can indeed live in comfort to avoid the responsibility of living who we truly are to the fullest of our being.

90. “For even one drop of abuse is poison to the whole.” Wow – this sentence stopped me today. How often do we just put up with a small amount of abuse from others – and as for the abuse we do to ourselves..(without calling it abuse) …..

    1. Totally we accept and give abuse so much in every day life in the simplest of activities. It’s just so normal it isn’t seen as abuse. When we take it to the energetic level I would say that for most humans they live in constant abuse just with their thoughts and that is what they walk and therefore lay the ground for another to feel and be influenced by. Gets pretty insidious pretty quickly.

91. Beautiful blog, thank you Rachel. I became aware of tension in my body that I had not realised was there as I allowed your words to sink in. Letting the tension go and allowing for expansion, even on this level, supports that reconnection to our body and our essence and a truer way of being.

92. Comfort is a ‘purpose delaying machine’ that makes no sense when we really want to live and serve from who we are.

93. Breaking our attachment to comfort is absolutely vital for our growth and development – otherwise we are at risk of just marking time and stagnating in that comfort.

94. “To live as God would live on Earth.’ I love this sentence and it got me pondering on how would God live on earth, which would be to live just like us when we are living from our essence.

95. .
    Letting go of the uncomfortable safety we call comfort is indeed a revealing and profound statement that would cause countless people to squirm if they really understood what is being exposed here

96. Comfortable moulds always cause more harm than good, yet the majority of us fall for them. Love Love Love that you have broken out of yours, when we see those free of that mould we get to feel for ourselves what true freedom tastes like, hence inspiration and reflections from people like you Rachel are so important so we can see there is a way to change.

97. In reading this you can feel the freedom and grace you have come to with learning to let go of the security and to go to truth – it’s very inspiring.

    1. Yes I agree MW. ‘To let go of the security and go to truth’ now that is an absolute life changer.

98. Basing life on security and not evolution will not grow us, but neither will it challenge us and that is the trade-off. For if we allow abuse in any degree, be it big or small, we become so wiped out with having to deal with its poison in our body that we seek comfort, or as you have so wisely put it Rachel, ‘the uncomfortable comfort’, to alleviate the tension we have created by not living true to the love that we are. What you share is both remarkable and inspiring as it shows us how we can resurrect ourselves out of the mess we have created by simply realigning our will to a far greater purpose than just living a seemingly comfortable life. I look forward to the update.

99. When we are comfortable we can almost desensitise from the world – we can shut out what we know to be true and start to ignore signs that perhaps we are constantly being asked to evolve or move forward. What an amazing marker for you to appreciate.

    1. Very true. Perhaps what we have done here is confuse numbness with comfort because in-truth we should register how uncomfortable our ‘comfort’ is and know that true comfort comes from greater settlement in our body and being and not from living in oblivion to the tension caused by not having this.

100. It’s crazy how long we can stay somewhere or with someone due to the comfortable nest we have created for ourselves whilst all the time growing more and more stagnant, awesome you noticed this and took action.

101. Deeply appreciating what you offer us here Rachel, a stand against abuse of any kind, even in the smallest extent. These words are so beautiful and touched me ‘Never have I allowed such a level of surrender, never have I stated that I trust myself so deeply and all of the resource that comes, innate, rich and sourced from deep within me.’ …. the ultimate let go to the divinity within, in the knowing that we are enough and that we are part of a grand plan, if we are willing to surrender to it.

102. Security is locking myself in a cycle of repetition that doesn’t change. And often my body will tell me it’s going nowhere. Letting go of security feels liberating and expansive, I love that feeling in my chest as it opens and the strength in my spine. And recently the feeling of the lymphatics in my body opening up. It feels amazing compared to staying comfortable and secure in my thoughts that quickly sour and poison my body and life.

103. Reading this again just confirmed for me how long I have lived away from the divine will of God and how far away I still am from living it. So there it has been nominated so it’s only up from here.

104. What a beautiful approach to abuse and the willingness to see the impact it has on the body. It can be very common to go into blame and reaction when we realise we have been putting up with abuse but this does nothing to heal the unseen bruises. There is a level of responsibility that can be hard to take, and that is realising that we had a choice all along and that we allowed the abuse. We played the game too.

105. Divine poetry… in contemplation of your return to the beauty of your innate essence, but in doing so… a drop of pure inspiration for us all to do the same. Stunning.

106. ‘Subsist’ is a great word for it, many of us are functioning but not flourishing; they are very different ways of living. I would suggest that to function is mere survival not actually living,, we can live so much more, feel more, connect me, it does not need to be shallow, we swim deep in what is available if we make ourselves available, and step by step take more responsibility for our own lives.

107. Very poetic in your writing style! Being at one job for 16 years shows an amazing amount of dedication but equally, leaving shows your bravery. To play devil’s advocate; when you are working for a “boss”, aren’t most jobs slightly abusive? Not to sound pessimistic but generally people are hard on their staff because they do not care or love themselves enough… which makes it difficult to then care for others/staff deeply enough. I have had a lot of bosses in my life and although I loved them all in their own way, they were all abusive on some level, besides when I worked for my father as a teenager. I am blessed to run my own business now and my staff always comment on how they have never been treated so well. I go out of my way to make sure that I take care of myself and then I am able to care for them equally. Even the teenagers that come at the end of the day to clean up describe their job as finding a family, a true family and we are a family, that’s what I wanted to create but sadly most people are not approaching their business in this way. Good on you for saying enough is enough, I hope that you don’t end up with another version of the same abuse.

108. What a truly humbling and inspiring read. This has led me to contemplate the levels of low grade abuse we are all exposed to and how harming this is when we don’t speak up and share what is no longer loving and serving of the all.

109. When I let go of a level of comfort their is often a tension arising of what I have been avoiding to feel and acknowledge.

110. When we let go of life’s comforts, we open doors we never knew were there, and it is a very freeing feeling because we are no longer living in the comfort of life, but opening the door to what is next.

111. “For even one drop of abuse is poison to the whole.” – a truth to be lived by.

112. When I first moved to London I did so as a choice to stop hiding away. As such my body replied in kind with a condition that required me to sit up and pay attention and to this day I continue to work on it. It’s amazing how our choices lead to our health and a great example of this is when these big changes occur.

113. The subtle levels of abuse we accept, it may be not violence or bruising, but the fact that we don’t act delicate in the workplace, or hold back, or feel on guard is a sign that the way we have accepted life to be doesn’t resemble the Love within.

114. mmmm this is definitely one to ponder on as I would say we don’t currently readily see how negotiating our way through life as medical problem, illness or dis-ease or ‘the toleration of a constant level of low grade disrespect and the sort of subtle abuse that people learn to cope with’ but you are so right all of these are because they then in turn affect our health, well-being and our body. So with this I would say … currently we definitely do not have truth health in the world!! And until we see just how all of this does affect our health and be willing to call it out and no longer tolerate it anymore as you have done, we will not have for some time.

115. We can, us human, become inured to almost anything… and we can also reclaim ourselves when we are seemingly so far away from our inner light.

     1. beautifully said … as are we that far away from our inner light anyhow? It is but the everyday simple choices and movements we make to truly embrace, appreciate, turn to and live from our inner light this is something I am constantly learning. A great reminder thank you.

116. I’m blown away by the way you express. Whether we’ve been in job a 5 minutes or 50 years, we walk in and out of it carrying our patterns. The amount of abuse we accept is reflected in the actions of those around us.

117. It’s amazing how restrictive and very uncomfortable comfortable is, but when it is seen for what it is and let go off the feeling of freedom and expansion is huge. Just love coming back to re read this blog.

118. Absolutely stunning blog Rachel, exposing the perils of allowing abuse in our lives and how this contributes to abuse continuing to develop in our society. The greatest evil is, not that evil can ever be great, that we have forgotten the ever-presence of our Divine Will, the defining essence of who we are. For as you have beautifully shared when we surrender to being moved by our Divine Will, it is Love that moves us, and consequently the doors are sealed, as such abuse no longer has a place or a body in which to dwell.

119. It’s so easy to grab at opportunities just for the sake of security. What you have done is completely surrender to whatever is needed and whatever is next. Dropping the control is so important for us to allow life to unfold naturally without our interference.

120. Where you talk of the low grade disrespect and subtle abuses people learn to cope with.. this has inspired me to ponder on this and take a look more deeply. Thank you.

121. I love reading this blog. Your fragility and absolute surrender unto yourself is tangible and inspiring. Thank you for being so vulnerable and open Rachel.

122. “Never have I allowed such a level of open vulnerability in my life. Never have I allowed such a level of surrender, never have I stated that I trust myself so deeply and all of the resource that comes, innate, rich and sourced from deep within me.”

     These words have an impact on the word ‘security’ as the patterns of life can keep us small when the potential to live our true potential comes with the trust.

123. If we consider that building and maintaining security is the name of the game for most of us, it makes sense how little by little we can compromise our wellbeing by accepting and allowing less than true care in our lives.

124. Reading this article makes me feel the abuse that we live with in our lives. It has been feeling our divinity that has helped me see the abuse. But it doesn’t stop there because then we have to do something about that abuse, and that often means standing out. Is this part of why we don’t want to see our divinity, because we will have to stand out? feels a bit like flying that nest- uncomfortable and yet a complete surrender to the truth of who we are which is very freeing.

125. The bird that leaves the nest for the first time is a great analogy. The bird will have little idea of what is beyond the nest but it just knows that everything it needs to do and have is beyond that edge, and it trusts that knowing. A great movement in nature to learn from.

126. This is an extraordinary blog that resonates deeply for me as there are so many areas of comfort that I have sat in that pain me when I know what the true potential is to live. Thank you for sharing how the pictures we have of the way life should be are often clouding where we truly need to be.

127. When will our humanness give way, so we can ‘live as God would live on Earth’? Is it possible that one day we all will, and through our divine Will, Thy Will be done? So when we bring a focus to our movements and be one with the harmony that can be experienced by our body, then by our Will, the connection to our Soul is assured. Then being Soul connected, we will ‘live as God would live on Earth’!

128. “…a dare to live with nothing but the greatest dedication to love, to my essence, my Soul. To live as God would live on Earth. ” yes, yes, and yes again YES, YES, YES. With my whole being Yes.

129. A great blog that brings us to the truth of how harming any kind of disrespect or disdain for another human being is and how this is going on all the time but we have become so hardened to it that we ignore it. We don’t want to know what is happening. Our bodies though register everything and eventually our disregard catches up with us. You are setting a great example here for us Rachel and let’s speak out more about the underlying abuse that is running our world. There can be no love where this attitude of supremacy exists.

130. What is extraordinary is how much subtle abuse we can take particularly in our jobs… And until we, eventually as you have done, free ourselves of this tyranny… To feel then the freedom in one’s body.

131. It seems life from day one sets upon us to start building protection, so often in my life I have heard the words “get over it”, “what’s wrong with you?”, “you’re too sensitive” so you try get over it , say nothing is wrong and deeply mask the sensitivity until you bury it so deep as to appear on the surface that nothing can touch us.We should be taught surrender from day one and treasure our sensitivity and be able to live in a world where that is honoured.

132. There are so many amazing points and questions you’ve presented Rachel, all deeply inspiring and powerful.

133. It is so freeing when we let go of the control and surrender to the universal flow and allow our self to be guided by God and the Hierachy.

134. self-abuse is better known as a way of life these days where it has become so much the norm that for one to call it abuse is being thought of as ridiculous. For me it has a been a climbing scale of learning to recognise, (and still learning) abuse for what it is in all it’s details. All that goes against what our body is communicating with us is abuse, it is that plain and simple.

135. It is so interesting how we can get caught in comfort and not notice the abuse we have allowed in, especially when it is very subtle. We would say ‘it’s something small, doesn’t really matter’, but in truth it does, everything matters. When we start to respect our self and say no to even the smallest abuse, and surrender to the divine will, we get looked after by GOD.

136. A life lived in comfort is no life at all.

137. It is interesting how being out of work really gives an “in your face” opportunity to develop a surrender to what is there for you in every moment.

138. It is truly loving to allow ourselves to rock the boat of our comfortable lives and surrender to our wiser and divine selves and start to live and move from that deep love.

     1. Loving in a far greater depth that we often dare to feel.

139. Comfort has always had a short life span for me; I was always running away! I never liked to finish anything completely and would regularly make life uncomfortable. That was my comfort and being uncomfortable at the same time. I still take the occasional calculated risk, generally affected by my experienced past disastrous ill choices as things not to do. My catalogue of trial and error efforts has lots of errors on record. I enjoy expanding and evolving how I am, I am no longer running away, but I am walking with myself.

140. I can really feel Rachel the total responsibility you have taken for the choices you have made to allow abuse in your life. In this there is no blame projected to another just the facts that our need for security and the comfort in keeping things familiar is a prison of our own making.

141. ‘Our fingers tighten on the reins of our lives, no longer able to straighten and soften in tender supplication to a Divine Will that we have long forgotten even existed.’ What a beautiful way to describe how the control of the mind has overruled the wisdom and love of the body for so long that we no longer dare to surrender, feeling that we will fall into a dark whole of nothingness when in truth if we let go the most solid of grounds is right beneath our feet.

142. There is so much harshness and roughness in this world that so many abusive ways are seen as normal that we treat ourselves and others in. But if we have a hard time knowing of the tenderness that we deserve we can simply ask ourselves the question in any situation if we would treat a new born child equally as we treat ourselves. We were all once very tender and delicate little babies and this preciousness never goes away.

143. I so love this blog, most of us live in the comfort of a measured life that we have carved out for ourselves but it is time that more of us took the plunge into surrender land and fly off that cliff for the first time once again.

     1. I agree Kevin, and the comfort of a measured life which can seem safe is so limiting, keeping us small. Surrendering and taking the steps out of our comfort zone opens us up to the divinity of ourselves and the universe.

144. There is so much more abuse in the world than we currently are seeing. Basically not honouring how we are divine and loving beings is abuse, if we could go there to say it. It is true though, don’t we not all want to be treasured and loved for who we are and seen as amazing in our essence?

145. Sometimes we put ourselves under conditions with the best intentions and thereby not seeing the consequences these conditions have on our body and well-being. The good intention or sometimes simply complying with circumstances we consider to be normal and thus acceptable numb us for what is actually going on, but when we eventually experience the absence of the conditions we re-sensitize to what has actually occurred, like a veil being taken away and now seeing clearly again.

146. The pay off for comfort that is just dressed up abuse will always have a sting in the tail that awaits us.

147. Reading this this morning has been timely to say the least ‘Our fingers tighten on the reins of our lives, no longer able to straighten and soften in tender supplication to a Divine Will that we have long forgotten even existed.’ and is so relevant for me right now – I made a decision over a year ago to leave the safety of my home and my comfortable life in the UK for a new life in Australia. Now I’m finally here, I’ve been here four months and in that time I’ve let go of a whole way of existing that worked for me and now I am feeling challenged. For the first time in my life I am experiencing the deep love of a man and am learning a whole new way of being that no longer requires me to be identified by what I do. There is a complete change around in me knowing who I am, learning to feel me from inside, not to hide away in distractions of day to day chores, but to deeply feel my own essence.

148. Abuse has become so much the norm that we do not realise the amount of abuse that we allow everyday, and not just from others. I was devastated to discover how much I was undermining and dismissing myself and yet this was masked by the fact that it seems to be the accepted way we speak about ourselves. The more I am willing to nominate abuse, the more I keep seeing and what might have seemed subtle before is now glaringly obvious. This will no doubt keep unfolding, for even a slight movement done without awareness can have a harmful ripple effect.

149. “Leaving it has felt like I imagine the baby bird must feel as it extends its wings for the first time, surrendering itself from the edge of the nest that has held it safe for so long…” – So beautifully said Rachel, and this is in a nutshell something we repeatedly experience with all the stages of growth and deepening that we go through!

150. There are so many areas of comfort in our lives, and also so many areas that we can take for granted too! Having a solid job is something to deeply appreciate, but not having a job is also a way and a means for us to be shaken out of the comfort of having a job and making us revise, rethink, and ponder deeply on where to go next, what the next steps are. Rachel your honesty and your openness are refreshing and I love how you have used this opportunity to explore how you have been released from the comforts that you discovered to have been holding. Having a job also ensures certain bank account numbers. But when we resign from a job (particularly when it is needed) then we allow ourselves a freedom to embrace letting go of our bank account numbers dominating our lives. This is big, a big trust in each and every step along the way. On a practical level, the work is required, but not at the expense of any abuse, and so when we step away from the pay check, and step into the unknown of how to support ourselves, it is scary…but so liberating at the same time.

151. “Are you at last, willing to let go that fearful control of circumstance that has felt like the only way to make your way through life? ” Thank-you Rachel for your honesty with how you have calculated, managed and coped with your work circumstance is something that so many of us can relate to but are less willing to admit.

152. To get to the point of realising that the comfort we have so craved is in fact very uncomfortable and very capping if quite amazing, as then we can begin to let it go and come back to being true.

153. Rachel, it’s beautiful to feel your surrender to the delicateness and vulnerability within.

154. ‘The doctor can only play his part, the rest is up to me; is my part. It is the life I live and how I choose to live it.’ Once we take responsibility like this and start to make significant changes in our daily choices so they are more in alignment with our natural harmony, we give the body a chance to heal itself which may involve a necessary disease process to clear out the old and renew the body.

155. ‘Do you see the way you have been gripping the reins for so long that your fingers no longer straighten and soften in tender supplication to the Divine Will?’ I have often noticed while going on a walk that my hands by my sides are not open but slightly curled as if gripping some unseen object. I know this is my hold on life, my protection from the abuse of which you speak. It is time to address this more deeply before a ‘health condition’ sets in big time.

156. Comfort is a type of numbness that then becomes ‘comfortable’. We become comfortable with the lies until we are shown otherwise.

157. ‘For even one drop of abuse is poison to the whole.’ Living based on thoughts, on what our head is dictating without being connected to the body is another form of abuse which is poisoning the body and leaves us short of the love that we are. As a Universal Medicine practitioner lately said to me metaphorically; ‘you think you are drinking water but actually you are drinking poison’.

158. Rachel, I cried when I read this and in that was such a beautiful release and honest vulnerability of how I accept abuse to maintain my ‘uncomfortable comfortable’ life.
     I could very much relate to the narrative you present..
     “Here you go”….“take a look at how you have been negotiating your way through life. Do you see the way you have been gripping the reins for so long that your fingers no longer straighten and soften in tender supplication to the Divine Will? Do you feel the armour you have made of your chest to bear the hurts of disrespect others have sent your way – a disrespect you have not loved and respected yourself enough to ever address?”
     In my case it may not be a resignation of a job, but it is critical for me to be very honest and begin to say no to the abuse I observe and do not speak up about in life.
     Thank you for responding to such a deep call to stop and feel this for yourself and to then so willingly share it with others.

159. An abuse that does not mark the body on the outside… what a great description of what goes on out in the world, and the reason we all walk around so hurt but pretending that it’s all OK on the outside.

160. Being comfortable is something we champion in this life, we want to feel comfortable in our clothes, with the food we eat, with how we are with people and relationships, but is it possible that we are not actually really comfortable, not in the good sense, we can actually be delaying our own evolution, going around and around the same cycle each day, each month, each year, each life time, until we say no, to what has been comfortable, in order to evolve.

161. I have had two employers over a 40 year period. I have changed positions in those companies, moving up the ladder kind of things. When I left both, there was no set in stone plan other than a destination. The first was from the US to England and the second was from a small, quiet village in Oxford to London. Both jobs were for the governments of those countries. I have heard it said, if governments were businesses they would have been out business a long time ago. The secure job is not worth the disregard to our self for that small comfort!

162. By letting go of the things that have held us in comfort and what we assumed protected us in the past is a bit like bungee jumping! The first step is that scary feeling of letting go; then you rebound, but with love that supports us when we let go of our past!

163. When we allow the small and subtle incidents of disrespect to pass we can find ourselves living comfortably in our dis-ease of life.

164. Yes being uncomfortably comfortable is such a great term, there is a lot that we don’t want to feel most of the time, so we numb and distract ourselves, to avoid allowing ourselves to surrender to what needs to be dealt with or felt. But being more comfortable with what ‘can’ be uncomfortable is a step in the right direction.

165. We are constantly being given the choice, to stop and rest in the seeming comfort and security or to free ourselves from the energy that binds and therefore blinds us.

166. Rachel, your words have sunk deep into my body and shaken me awake to see the levels of abuse I am still allowing in my life. It is deeply uncomfortable to feel but I am so grateful to have my eyes opened to see what I have felt all along but denied.

167. “…For even one drop of abuse is poison to the whole…” What a profound piece of awareness that sheds light on ways to improve self care.

168. This is strong, surrender being the key here, are we able to feel the resistance, are we open to the simple fact we are divinely amazing and we have the support of heaven around us….something that I am allowing myself to gently become obedient to and stop fighting…it is all there patiently humbly available.

169. Abuse is abuse and whether it is a little or a lot it is still abuse. This is something that we need to get more responsible about.

170. Your words are a true wake up call to realise that everything has an effect on our body, we get away with nothing and we lose so much by not honouring who we are and how we truly feel.

171. I feel from your description Rachel, that surrender involves taking a risk and allowing all that we are within to be revealed.

172. Closing the doors to abuse is the most self-loving deed we can do, it not only heals and regenerates our bodies but also confirms us as true sons of God.

173. A true representation and appreciation of what disease is – an opportunity to clear from the body what is of the past and no longer needed.

174. I love to come back and re read this blog. Your vulnerability, trust, expansion and how you have shared this is such an inspiration Rachel, thank you.

175. Love the word ‘harken.’ I had to look up the meaning. Do we listen to ourselves all the time, or do we pick and choose, ignoring certain messages when it suits us? I do enjoy re-reading this blog Rachel.

176. I find the biggest challenge involves not being attached to things turning out a certain way and the comfort of formula living which involves do x,y and z and this will happen.

177. It is an abuse that does not mark the flesh, but rather more insidiously leaves its bruises deep and unseen upon the heart and the being. Yes Rachel, when we allow ourselves to actually feel what we have been accepting within relationships with others and can let that go by saying no to it as you have, it’s massive for the body that has been configured to being a certain way because of our choice to accept less for ourselves. So when we say, I’m done, the feeling is life changing.

178. Inspirational Rachel. We all need to let go of comfort in our lives and take our power back from the hands of those who do not treat us with love and respect.

179. The pay off for comfort may not be as comfortable as we at first might think. When the penny drops and we realise the comfort we are in, the floodgates open and we begin to see the reality of what we have willingly accepted in life, and that really it is not comfortable at all.

180. Breaking free from the uncomfortable comfort. Where are our comfortable hidings and securities. This blog, Rachel, inspires me to see more the hidings in my life.

181. Your expression of love here, is deeply felt and healing. Every time I read your words I feel another layer in my body is spoken to and asks me to feel how I am living with myself, abusive or with the truth of who I am.

182. Very inspiring, thank you Rachel.

183. Discomfort is the moment we accept less than love.

184. I watched a video this morning on seeing a doctor versus another type of practitioner and it was essentially saying that the latter produced better results. But this comment here Rachel in your blog blows this out of the water…”even the greatest medicine can only treat that which I give it access to treat. The doctor can only play his part, the rest is up to me; is my part. It is the life I live and how I choose to live it.”…for you have spoke of responsibility in how we live and the choices we make. Doctors are not magicians, we get much more from our doctors when we are honest and open and surrender to letting them work with us.

185. Uncomfortable comfort is such a great term. We are in the comfort and most of the time don’t think we are, but it is actually indeed uncomfortable. Because usually we are settling for less in a lot of areas in life. We want to avoid the tension that comes up in us, so we go for distractions, instead of being able to read what it is that is causing the tension, that we think is comfortable. But it is really not, because we are so much more.

186. When we don’t accept less than love or truth, nothing is ever the same again.

187. I am amazed about the strength that comes when we fully honour our vulnerability and don’t accept less than Love. When you Rachel leave your job by this reason, the ripple effect is phenomenal, not only for you, but for your colleagues, your boss, your family,… for everybody that knows you and even much more. I don’t know you personally, but I can feel how empowering it is for me to know that this kind of choices not only are needed, but possible and really transforming.

188. Perhaps it’s easier for us to see comfort and false security in a job or a relationship but your words remind me Rachel how this same situation exists with the food we eat, way we hold ourselves and conversations we conduct. My greatest comfort seems to be having fights and being angry. Then it seems I don’t have to feel the incredible power I can bring and how easily everything can change.

189. To leave a job without knowing what comes next, but trusting that the call of your inner voice never lets you down, this is trust and confidence in yourself. Awesome, Rachel.

190. We often fail to break free of our comforts because we cannot sit in the uncertainty of what is to come even if we have felt what is to be already.

     1. Beautifully put Jenny, we hold ourselves in the not knowing, creating a need for security and comfort while all along a deep knowing of all that is and will be is within us all along.

191. Takes a lot of love to put truth before security…..awesome Rachel you are an inspiration to us all.

192. The subtle and unseen abuse that it is possible to live with and accept is something I have found that tears us apart at the deepest level because it takes away from what our natural senses tell us is love and what is not, leaving the person disorientated and consumed by self-doubt no longer being able to state clearly what feels true.

193. Rachel, this is such a divine piece of writing, I could read it over and over. It is a Son walking back to Thy Father. A Son willing to walk with eyes wide open to see in full, the love and light that is offered. Thank you.

     1. Indeed Kim, a humbling obedience to God’s plan.

194. I love your phrase about letting go of the reins of control and to surrender to the will that ultimately will hold and support us.

195. “……are you ready to release the fingers you have clenched hard, thus releasing us from the uncomfortable comfort you have made my home for so long? Are you at last, willing to let go that fearful control of circumstance that has felt like the only way to make your way through life? Are you willing to know that you are enough, more than enough? Are you yet willing to hand yourself unto God’s way, as he would live on Earth?”
     The questions dig deep and expose the feeling of unworthiness, when our body is God’s home.

196. There is deep appreciation every time I feel vulnerability. The body is telling me that even the slightest side step from Love is deeply deeply harming and this leaves me not wanting to ever choose to be like this again. The return to love with the body is something that when experienced is truly inspiring.

197. Rachel I love what you’ve shared here for many reasons, but in particular I have enjoyed your turn of phrase and eloquence in expression… one stand out is “Our fingers tighten on the reins of our lives, no longer able to straighten and soften in tender supplication to a Divine Will that we have long forgotten even existed.” It’s not just the beautiful way you’ve expressed this, but the fact it captures the truth of what happens to us as we attempt to control and manipulate life to fit our pictures, rather than surrendering to a greater Will that knows how to unfold us each back to our divine origins.

198. Reflecting on what is here written I realise just how we support an environment of abuse by not calling it out when we are witness to it being about other people too – abuse should be highlighted in every case.

199. We can stay in situations because they are familiar, comfortable and easy – not asking us to be anything more than what we are. We get into a routine that we know what is to come and in most cases we accept that this is the way life rolls. But when we do pull the rug beneath our feet and make a change like leaving a job if we can fully let go and allow the unfoldment to come and trust you will be supported in every possible way it is amazing what the next opportunity brings. The question is do we go into it with they same routine but in another environment or do we feel what is needed in the next moment and honour this?

200. Our body is the greatest reflection that we can have as to the quality of our way of living, but most of us are not raised to know this, so we spend much of our life ignoring the priceless wisdom it is offering us in every moment and then wonder why we become unwell. I had an extended period of ‘un-wellness’ last year and although it was extremely challenging to begin with, after a while I made the choice to look at it as a period of grace, offering me the space to deepen my relationship with my body. As I began to allow its messages to be heard, I could hear it speaking of ages old disregard that was ready to be healed, and the more I listened the more I heard and the clearer the messages became, finally opening the doorway to the healing that was being asked for.

201. There is definitely a price to pay when we sell out to comfort in our work. It means towing the line, not expressing anything that exposes rot or abuse. The huge cost of the so-called comfort is our silence.

202. This is such a great blog it makes me stop and question the choices I am making each time I read it – thank you.

203. It is amazing to read how your body has responded to your new found freedom, and it has done so in such a loving way that you have here the opportunity to make changes that go so deep you are forever now held in the embrace of its love for you.

204. We hold ourselves back if we don’t step out from the safety of what we know.

205. The discomfort of comfort is felt the moment we take steps to step away from it.

206. what an extraordinary piece of writing – thankyou Rachel.

207. What always stands out to me about comfort is just how uncomfortable it is, yet in that uncomfortable space we love the struggle and the hardship that provides us every excuse why we are not amazing.

208. ‘Never have I allowed such a level of surrender, never have I stated that I trust myself so deeply and all of the resource that comes, innate, rich and sourced from deep within me.’ You share here so beautifully Rachel your understanding of divine truths and how to honour and live this within your living way.

209. This is very inspiring Rachel and having myself worked in one place of work for 15 years I can attest to the comfort that can occur through this constant familiarity. I can sense that for me change is coming and it will be awesome but saying goodbye to things so familiar is proving challenging. It may not occur for a little while yet and I not being abused at this work but simply that other things are awaiting me and saying yes to that means saying goodbye to the comfort of knowing everything as it is.

210. This is a blog which opens my eyes to a deeper level of abuse at work and the tension in the body which is created there.

211. ‘Never have I allowed such a level of surrender, never have I stated that I trust myself so deeply and all of the resource that comes, innate, rich and sourced from deep within me.’ Surrender and trust – we are so ingrained in our need for external sources to guide us that we have little trust for what is already within and so easily accessible to us.

212. Too many people live in work or domestic situations and suffer abuse, be it full-blown physical violence or mental and emotional abuse. Only when we stand up and say no more to unloving behaviour will this cycle of abuse end. I applaud you for letting go of security and finding a new way of living.

213. People who feel safe and natural in their own skin wouldn’t behave unlovingly – to themselves or others.

214. Your words ‘we humans have become so inured to abuse’ struck a chord with me this morning. It is so true. Some abuse I experienced years ago I would not have recognised as such, on account of its subtlety. Put-downs that were remonstrated with as ‘it’s only a joke’, and ‘you’re too sensitive’, were a defence because I called them out. Children learn by example, not from being told how to behave. If they see the adults around them being disrespectful and unloving, they will believe this behaviour is ok.

215. “For even one drop of abuse is poison to the whole” and we must be honest about what values we hold close to us that in effect are allowing tolerances in our lives where this poison can get to us in our own illusion of life for in truth when in connection and appreciation of our essence none of this would be acceptable.

216. Security is a big thing which is imprisoning us, paralyses and does not allow the flow of being spontaneous and loving.

217. “Never have I allowed such a level of open vulnerability in my life. Never have I allowed such a level of surrender, never have I stated that I trust myself so deeply and all of the resource that comes, innate, rich and sourced from deep within me.”
     Thank-you Rachel for a deeply intimate sharing, how beautiful that this innate well of trust should support and enable you to accept & treasure your vulnerability at a time when most would be avoiding & burying such feelings.

218. And what happens is that we may lift our head and shake it at the abuse we are witnessing but then many of us put it back down, forget about it and get on with what ever we are doing. Until we all start acting in what ever way is needed to stop abuse we are contributing to the energy of it in the world.

219. ‘For even one drop of abuse is poison to the whole.’ I fully agree – something I have done for most of my life is when I allow one drop I then let the flood gates in as the drop is too painful to feel and so somewhere if I overload myself I numb myself to feeling it. The key is feeling that drop and coming straight back to the love we know we are otherwise, at least for me, we can easily get lost and caught up and suddenly we are miles away from the love we know we are.

220. yes Rachel, one drop of abuse is poison to the body, and not just to the abused but to the abuser equally.. so we have a responsibility to not allow it to be perpetrated as much for the harm it causes to the abuser as to the abused – therefore the abuse works both ways, and in fact it affects us all as we are all part of the same .

221. The subtle abuse at work you talk of Rachel, I know and have experienced. It is insidiously evil as it plays out in a way that we either feel it is only little and isn’t worth bringing up, or we learn to override what we feel and over time think we are immune to it. Whilst all the time it is there burying its way in and causing harm. Reading your blog the question comes up for me loud and clear ‘when are you going to love yourself to the depth that you say no to abuse even in its tiniest form?’

222. Very much looking forward to the sequel to this blog

223. Surrendering to God’s Will and letting go of the reins which as you say are so tightly held onto, is definitely a process I still am working on. The moments I clinch onto them it’s the reminder how harming this is. A few years ago I wouldn’t have even really been aware of this, it was just my way. The beauty is there is always another level of depth we can go to as we surrender, for ever deepening.

224. ‘This bout of sickness, the grace of my very delicate body, has offered me the Truth of how I chose to exist for so very long.’ It’s wonderful how if we embrace this rather than going into blame or remorse, we can then open ourselves up to a new way forward which will be expanding. Though we may feel vulnerable when we let go of ‘comfort’, it is so freeing because we realise how uncomfortable it actually was and how stifling and stagnating it has been.

225. An inspiring blog Rachel. It is beautiful to feel your surrender to the delicateness of your body and also the great strength of the woman thou art.

226. Whilst comfort may seem a great idea from a temporal perspective – it is our self-sustaining and self-containing prison holding us back from living a life full of love and glory.

227. I felt the level of trust that is needed to completely let go in your blog Rachel and could see the reflection in my life of the layers of letting go but the difficulty in fully giving myself space to rest and stop. It is a vital lesson to learn – preferably by choice.

228. I love the questions at the end of this article. Great big philosophical humdingers that call us to responsibility. Thank you, Rachel.

229. Low grade disrespect and subtle abuse is something we commonly can accept. It can become our normal, yet it is not normal. We can redraw the line in the sand and this is possible as we increase our own self worth and value.

230. Reading your blog I am left considering what tension do I hold in my body at work? Am I holding onto the reins of comfort, tightening my fingers and thus reducing the quality of touch with my patients? I can feel this answer is an uncomfortable yes and can feel that when we choose to let go the reins it is not only for us, it is for all of us.

     1. This is a great point Jane, and something that I asked myself just yesterday. It is so easy to get caught up in our work to get things done, rather than remembering to keep coming back to our body and feeling how we are moving in every moment. It is only in this way that we can and will eventually change the control that we hold in our bodies and offer a different, more tender and delicate quality, and one that is actaully a true expression of who we are.

231. I melt every time I read your blog Rachel as it calls to me to surrender.

     1. Surrendering all our grips and investments in life, leaving us free to see and feel the flow and call for what is needed that does not just serve our little nest.

232. Rachel, leaving the security of a situation because you no longer wish to tolerate the abuse is a very beautiful thing to do, it is brave and admirable and what’s more, it can only serve you in most beneficial of ways and reflect to everyone what is possible when we say no to what is not love.

     1. Indeed, by saying no to what is not love, the beauty & grace of our vulnerability unfolds.

233. Not allowing abuse is important on an individual level but this also ripples out to the abuse we allow and thereby contribute to in the world. As was beautifully expressed in this blog, the abuse we see on the news has to be extreme these days to raise an eyebrow. This is how de-sensitised and accepting of abuse we have become.

234. Rachel this is exquisitely written, your surrender felt. It is interesting how uncomfortable, abuse, can be comfortable, a choice that is appearing to be easier to allow than to say no to. Yet feeling the quality you have written this in clearly saying no takes us to a depth and connection, a love, that is so polar opposite to the comfort/discomfort. An inspiring read, thank you for sharing.

235. It is interesting where we condemn ourselves to an arrangement for the sake of security when in reality it is damaging us all along.

236. To actually feel the glorious souls we are and that that is more than enough in life has got to be one of the greatest medicines there is on this planet.

237. To choose one simple truth of breaking our own patterns of comfort can have an amazing ripple effect. Our true power is possibly hard to fathom, but one thing is clear that staying in comfortable or uncomfortable comfort wont reveal anything of the depth of our divine being.

     1. Sandra that is so true, comfort I feel has been one of my biggest killers, why I don’t claim my glory, step up my responsibility and don’t approach life with the open and fresh will to learn and evolve in full no matter what.

        1. “An open and fresh will to learn and evolve no matter what” is a great approach. Recently this is what I realised was the approach that I needed to claim me in full. As a ‘grown up’ I was missing the wonder of experimenting and trying stuff out, because of self-judgment and criticism that I should have it sorted and mistakes are costly. ‘So what!’ I declared as not being willing to learn was costing much more deeply and valuably on an energetic level than any material worth.

     2. I agree the ripple effect can be and is huge the moment we choose truth. Staying the same and accepting the way things are changes nothing and allows the abuse to continue – after all someone has to 1st stand up and say no otherwise the world will not know any different.

        1. We have the opportunity to stand fully as we are and then let others decide if they are interested in the reflection they feel or not.

238. This leap of commitment to who we truly are and living this on earth with ease, focus and dedication is something that I work on daily. Having felt the Grandness of where we come from with the support of Serge Benhayon and the teaching of Universal Medicine I can honestly say I know this to be my truth and no more distractions of not sharing this anymore. Every cell in my body is desperate to be emanating and vibrating as this truth so why would i choose any different?

239. Shifting the root of illness and disease from the microwave, our genes, ‘luck’ or anything outside of us to a display from our bodies as to the truth of our quality of life / expression (or lack there of) is a huge paradigm shift. One that the more I embrace the lighter I feel afterwards and the deeper my appreciation is for how the body can support us to live in a way that supports it to be and live divinity.

240. To not live from one’s essence underlies all illness and disease and comfort is one of the greatest poisons there is.

241. It is astounding what we will put up with at work and the abuse we allow ourselves to be subjected to, and often the abuse has been there a long time and we just fit right in and accept it. It is no surprise then that the choice to accept the abuse takes its toll on the body and eventually shows up as an illness. This in itself can be a huge lesson, as the writer of this blog has learned. Awesome example.

242. This is a very beautiful prayer, deeply felt and expressed with love.

243. What a great open approach and exploration of life’s circumstances!

244. Thank you Rachel, no tiny bit of abuse should be allowed as it does not matter if it is a little bit or a lot, abuse is abuse. You are an inspiration.

245. This article leaves me pondering that maybe the true exchange of energy here is not what the world can do for us, but what it is we can do for the world. The first means living a life of lack and forever needing more, the later finds us living knowing our worth and just what it is we hold and where and how it is to be lived in support of the world.

246. “Do you feel the magnitude of the lack of trust you have had in yourself and consequently the lack of surrender to your Father’s Will?”
     This is a learning I am experiencing just now and it is so easy to go into all the thoughts that keep me so far away from the innate trust in myself and surrender to the Divine Will, but each time I wander there, the feeling in my body is so very uncomfortable and it is this that reminds me to again stop, surrender and allow the absolute trust I have to be ignited again within me.

247. I have maybe said it before but reading your blog, the way you express the wisdom that lives inside you and all of us is truly inspiring and my body loves it. So much pearls of wisdom and here is just one that touched me today about disrespect and subtle abuse; ‘It is an abuse that does not mark the flesh, but rather more insidiously leaves its bruises deep and unseen upon the heart and the being.’ It also did made me question can our being truly be hurt?

248. ‘Are you yet willing to hand yourself unto God’s way, as he would live on Earth?”’ I love this Rachel , as I do say to myself at times ‘Would God do that’?

249. It’s an interesting thing to think that we can be ‘comfortable’ in dis-comfort so to speak and yet I know exactly what you mean Rachel… Thank goodness that we have our body to call us back to the truth we know inside and to highlight the energy behind the way we are living in every area of our life.

250. It is extraordinary what we will put up with out of habit, and out of comfort,… Major corporations know this… For example banks, large banks know that people will put up with an enormous amount rather than go through the hassle, and the disturbance of changing banks… It is the same for electricity companies… So for someone to break this pattern is incredibly commendable.

     1. So many industries and areas of life if not every aspect has this accepted abuse running through it. And a word that comes to me is that to break this cycle we have to start becoming more responsible to how we’ve fed this cycle of abuse. To not hold and love ourselves in the godliness that we truly are from is fertile soil for abuse to grow. But currently very few are standing this stance and it outwardly appears risky but the price we pay for not standing in our divinity is shown in the body.

251. The word comfort can be very misleading. It has a connotation that it is something that we would want to strive for, something good. The dictionary meanings include: a state of physical ease and freedom from pain or restraint; things that contribute to physical ease and wellbeing; prosperity and the pleasant lifestyle that is secured by it; the easing or alleviating of a person’s feelings of grief or distress. Not one of these definitions discusses comfort in relation to our evolution. When we consider that our purpose is to evolve, comfort is what we choose when we have said no to evolution.

252. ‘Here you go,” it has said to me, “take a look at how you have been negotiating your way through life.’ Our bodies ultimately reflect what we have chosen and it can be a bit of a shocker when the truth is revealed,

253. Your blog highlights the dis-ease that comfort brings to the body. It’s like we are not designed to plateau, stay ‘comfy’ as this brings on a robotic-numbness to our relationship with life. Not saying we need hardship, stepping outside the square, so to speak brings the volume of evolution to life.

254. It takes a lot of courage and self love to leave something you know is not right and abusive on whatever subtle level it may be. Keep us posted on how it is going; I would love to hear ✨

255. Comfort is truly uncomfortable – it feels like a veil of self-induced sleep.

256. How can any of us ignore the questions you pose to yourself Rachel, questions well worth any of us pondering and feeling deeply…. your dedication to truth is truly inspiring.

257. So a butterly flaps its wings and an earthquake happens on the other side of the world, so they say. They may well have been talking about the true nature of abuse.

258. The tension of life can become our normal so we don’t feel it and we turn a blind eye to the abuse we accept. Making this change Rachel is a profound leap of trust and is very inspiring.

259. Rachel I always enjoy the way you write with such ease and yet full of wisdom thank you.
     And coming back to this blog today I feel it comes down to allowing oneself to feel vulnerable to let go of the protective walls we build and masks that we wear to protect our sensitivity. I am just beginning to have the awareness of just how incredibly sensitive we humans are and we feel this most when we are children and it gets crushed, so we bury it and try to get by in life without the one sense that actually is our greatest ally, as our sensitivity actually makes sense of life. To me, if we allow ourselves to reconnect to our sensitivity, it’s like living on a web of interconnection. We can feel everything that is going on in the world through the vibration of the web and being open to the vibration gives us all a natural understanding of life , when you can feel life there are no surprises.

260. We can hold onto life so tightly and try to control many aspects of it all for the comfort and security of maintaining where we are, rather than entering the flow of life and co-creation.

261. In some ways it is simple: Wherever we are we can choose to be loving and then to see where that leads to. Sometimes it means to leave but in that case how we leave is very important – what do we leave behind?

262. Thank God our bodies show us the things we try to avoid in the name of being comfortable.

263. Rachel, your dedication to truth is deeply felt and very inspiring.

264. interesting to explore the relationship of comfort to the allowing of abuse – as there is indeed comfort in contraction, in not speaking up and expressing the truth, in not accepting the responsibility of living holding the all that we are a part of – and at what cost – we have as consequence the flourishing of corruption, supremacy, bullying control and domination – when even a lack of respect and love is abuse, how far have we gone astray in the stubborn holding on to our comforts.

265. The term comfortably numb is one that describe this brilliantly. When we choose comfort it is indeed uncomfortable as we are moving in the opposite direction that we should be, however the comforting act numbs us, preventing feeling the uncomfortable nature of it all. All by perfect design.

     1. You have reminded me of the pins and needles effect you get when you sit the wrong way or lie on your arm awkwardly. When you first move there is no feeling at, then there is a flood of feeling, most of it excruciatingly painful. The numbness conceals the harm being done from the lack of circulation. As the the blood returns it fires up the sensitivity reminding us never to be so careless again.

266. Interesting that you mentioned the finger clenching as recently I was diagnosed with a disease, which I have now healed ( this is a blog to be written) and when reading your blog I remembered that over the last year my fingers would tighten and in hindsight had I been listening to my body I would have explored further why and what was causing this tightness and probably not needed to get so ill. It pays to listen to your body.

267. Wow Rachel, this is really beautiful to read, I can feel how most of us do not live the way God would live on earth; saying no to any form of abuse and living in our natural stillness, grace and divinity.

268. What I love about this article is the way it makes me realise the strength and beauty of vulnerability, surrender and humility and the invitation it presents to continue to relinquish my ‘white knuckled grip’ and control on life.

269. Your honesty and self reflection in this blog is totally inspiring, as we say no to the comfort that binds us the pockets of abuse we have allowed in our lives becomes ever more apparent. Yet it is only in saying no and moving on do we heal. Rachel I commend you in your stepping out of comfort and back into your heart where after all God resides.

270. Even in staying in a job where there is such abuse expressing in response without reservation begins to break this comfort.

     1. I agree Michael. Stay or go, it matters not. It is the expression in full that breaks the binds that hold us small and dull.

     2. Yes, it doesn’t need to be confrontational, simply to say steady can make a big difference.

271. An amazing inspiration to let go of comfort and security and simply surrender. To what is needed – to what the message of the body is – to divine will. And then our responsibility. Comes the quality of each movement to support it for what is needed. Amazing

272. I think that seeking security in our jobs, relationships and finances are the biggest forms of comfort that exist today that we do not want to give up. And yet we fail to see that we can often stay in arrangements that no longer serve us or others for the sake of this security.

273. Ah I find myself here again! Funny how my interest to see comfort in every crevice brings me to those who have been prepared to say no and feel the fragility and uncertainty that brings without running away.

     1. I agree Lucy, Rachel’s commitment to stay open and willing to surrender to all that her body is offering is hugely inspirational.

274. Surrendering back to our Divine Will is to truly come back to who we are, trusting ourselves as we live from our divine essence, which is always within us.

275. ‘Breaking free of the uncomfortable comfort,’ is an uncomfortable process, but one well worth taking if we are willing to evolve.

     1. Rachel it certainly is, how much comfort we have and for me that was about not standing up and speaking up for the truth I felt. It was in many ways like I had wrapped myself up in what I thought I needed to be to fit in, to be liked and in that comfort I was slowly killing myself. The more I unravel that, the more free I feel.

        1. DN, I am also learning this too. I have chosen the same pattern of keeping small and quiet so as to not rock the boat, never speaking up and avoiding another’s discomfort should I choose to do so. This comfort is a killer, as energetically we absorb much and I have felt the harm of it in my body. Much better to speak up and say what is there to be said. There is an empowerment, expansion and strength felt in my body when it is done.

276. “How many of us subsist in life, negotiating our way through the minefield of “hurt or be hurt,” that human life has become.” what an amazing appreciation you have come to from your sickness to simply let go and live the divineness of your essence and the magnitude of this that can come into our lives and expose the comfort of what really is uncomfortable and allow the freedom and grace of our bodies and who we are to be lived again.

277. “Do you feel the magnitude of the lack of trust you have had in yourself and consequently the lack of surrender to your Father’s Will? ”
     This is a question which exposes a way of living which is based on stress and emotions. True trust comes from surrendering and connecting to oneself.

278. “even one drop of abuse is poison to the whole.” To be aware of this and to feel this fully is to take on and be open to a higher level of responsibility that does not allow for ‘even one drop’ of abuse. The ripple effect of this in one’s life is absolutely huge.

     1. Rebecca, I agree just that one drop of abuse and the ripple effect is so huge, when we look at life with this responsibility we can see the enormity of the impact of the choices we make.

        1. Also, the ripple effect in one’s life of not allowing that abuse is huge. If we don’t accept abuse it may mean that a great deal of things around us change, such as friendships, relationships, jobs… etc. Saying no to abuse can mean gigantic shifts such as Rachel has experienced.

279. To drop all our safety nets and assumed security is needed to be truly free to live what is there on offer for us. But we tend to hold onto this supposed security even though we know life does not work like that and can throw us a curve ball any time and take a so-called security away from us just like that. The one constant and determining factor we have is the connection to our soul, which will lead us through life in a constant flow and will support us through everything that we need to face in order to bring balance back to life.

280. Let your body be your teacher… indeed we can be students of the body, if allowed to express in full as it does all of the time.

281. Such a beautiful invitation, in fact yesterday I chose to try it out for a week to live consistently with this knowing, to the best of my ability, and write down what I observe and what unfolds. Day one was already an eye opener.

282. ‘…we humans have become so inured to abuse…’ This is a travesty as we become more, numb and accept higher and higher levels of abuse as normal. At what point will we call an end to it; even the slightest abuse is too much.

     1. Yes. And it is alarming when we open our eyes to what we are normalising. Under the spotlight there is a lot of abuse that we accept in our homes, schools, relationships… Could it be that this ignored abuse feeds the conflict we see worldwide?

283. ‘For even one drop of abuse is poison to the whole.’ – This one simple sentence makes the world of difference if it is truly understood and applied in our day to day life.

284. Breaking free of that comfort show such a commitment to life and to serving humanity as best you can, thank you for lighting the way Rachel.

285. To surrender to Divine Will is placing trust back into our own hands, as we live from our Divine essence.

286. Thank you for reminding me Rachel that when I choose comfort, even in the tiniest form, it is not long before my body talks loud and clear offering its message through discomfort.

287. To be completely honest, vulnerability is not my strength, I am so used to being hurt when I open myself up that I almost associate letting go of the reins with being silly. I know deep down this is not the case and this is proven to me with the freedom I feel in people’s expression and the way they write after having a big wake up call occur in their lives. There is a tangible willingness to surrender, in people such as yourself. I only hope that I am able surrender before life gives me the shove along that seems to be required for so many of us. You are very strong and brave the way that you are embracing this new chapter of your life.

288. I understand the uncomfortable comfort of just putting up with it. It’s seeminlgy easier to put up with the not so obvious abuse than speak up about it. It rocks fewer boats and people leave you alone and like you for not being a pain in the butt. But, we don’t consider the consequences of accepting such behaviour and not expressing what we know needs to be expressed. The result is a cycle of abuse that only gets worse and worse as we become more desnsitised and more accustomed to it to the point that we end up where we are now….a humanity at war with itself.

289. There have been many times in life when I have felt deeply and have known irrefutably that it is time to move on from something I had become accustomed to. This has been to do with relationship, place of work, where I live, the way I dress, what I eat…. even if that situation was okay before, I know irrefutably that it is no longer what supports the growth and expansion of me and everyone else. And I have noticed the longer I have ignored such signs the more disempowered and vague I feel, and the less purpose, vitality and joy in my life. Lovely to read there Rachel how you honoured what you felt, chose to drop the comfort and go for the change.

290. What you share Rachel is relevant for us all and particularly this stood out…’Do you feel the armour you have made of your chest to bear the hurts of disrespect others have sent your way – a disrespect you have not loved and respected yourself enough to ever address?’ To cope with the disrespect of others and the bullets being fired my way I chose to make myself small so that I wouldn’t be a target and in so doing caused myself the worst disrespect possible. I have hardened and for so long I have dismissed myself, told myself I wasn’t any good. Interestingly, now I find myself in the predicament of potentially being fired. The word my bosses are using at work regularly is ‘inadequate’. The irony is that although I have done an amazing job in my line of work my own feeling of inadequacy about myself has permeated through my life. (A choice I realise I made way back when small). Choosing to keep myself small and insecure, for the first time in a big way, I am now having to back myself and not roll over and agree with what others say about me. So as with all challenging situations found in life, I find myself with the most amazing opportunities, a gift from God to turn around my own sense of self-worth, power and claim in full the knowing of what it is that I bring…and keep backing myself in smaller, daily situations!

291. ‘Never have I allowed such a level of open vulnerability in my life. Never have I allowed such a level of surrender, never have I stated that I trust myself so deeply and all of the resource that comes, innate, rich and sourced from deep within me.’ You can really appreciate the strength in this vulnerability from reading this.

292. Wow who would have thought you would have got all of these revelations simply by listening to your body and reading what is going on with it and why?! It is amazing the wisdom that we have access to when we allow our bodies to speak to us unhindered and uncensored.

293. I thoroughly enjoyed reading this article and felt the enormity of security in our lives. The sentence To live like God on this Earth was absolutely empowering. Thank you for sharing!

294. What loving absoluteness you bring, dear Rachel.

295. This amazing blog is inspiring people to feel in their bodies, what is really going on. Am I in contraction, am I enduring in any way, do I let myself get hard and tense? In case of any of these, something in life is not right. You stopped and changed your course and by this: “Never have I allowed such a level of open vulnerability in my life.” You opened up to your greatest strength. Inspiring, indeed.

296. Rachel such a beautiful, tender and poignant call to me (and us) to open my eyes to the comfort I am still in but have been unwilling to acknowledge.

297. Vulnerable, reflective, inspiring, delicate, courageous…what else can I say?

298. “My body, long tightened and tensed against the constant low bubble of tension and hurt has registered the release and celebrated with the release… of a substantial health problem.” This is how we need to view illness and disease – not as something to fight with the stubbornness of our minds wanting our lives to be a certain picture – but in honouring and respecting of our bodies showing us how we have chosen to live for the past however many years… and the opportunity that is being offered to make very different and loving choices from this point onwards – this is such a beauty-full gift.

299. Even reading the title of this blog stops me in my tracks, and forces me to recognise the little hidden corners of comfort in my life where I still abdicate responsibility and escape for a while. But of course it is not an escape at all but a falling away to a lesser version of myself, dulling the bright light that shines from within me to be shared with the world.

300. Comfort is like standing in front of a wall without even realising the wall is right in front of our face. It blinds us to the truth.

301. When we get physically unwell, it can be important to make the necessary changes, even when they are major and uncomfortable-looking as not doing what is necessary in the face of a strong message can be quite irresponsible.

302. I am constantly amazed at the corners of comfort that i have tucked away on my life and how much that it does not serve.

303. ‘Shall I ever allow abuse again? What occurs to me in typing these words is that we humans have become so inured to abuse…the words “get over it”, “what’s wrong with you?”, “you’re too sensitive” fall from our lips so easily that they constitute our normal daily way of conversing with each other.’ Not only that, we actively train our children into believing that they need to harden up to cope with life. Having become numb ourselves (or so we think) we honestly believe we are doing our children a favour by promoting hardening. But what if we were to really understand that this approach has not worked, and that because of it as a humanity we are daily getting sicker with more illness and disease than ever before, more mental illness than ever before, more resigned and given up than ever before?

304. Glorious, glorious blog and absolutely inspirational. Thank you Rachel.

305. When we are on the bulls back, getting ready for the shoot to open and hanging on tightly for the ride of our life that has become our daily life! Do we ponder of the tenderness we all had when we were young and where has it gone?

306. Up until just now I always read ‘how God would live on earth’ from a perspective that was quite controlling and about doing. Now I am realising that God wouldn’t live like this at all. He would take enormous responsibility in how he is with himself and everything he would do, would come from the quality of this way of being with himself. I realise that I’ve got the same choice and responsibility. Lovingly so.

307. If we are not willing to upset the comfortable nest we have embedded ourselves in then we will never learn to truly fly. Ironically, it is only once we’ve flown that we realise how uncomfortable our seeming comfort was. It is a curious thing that as humans we often can’t see what we are standing in until we are no longer standing in it. This is why I love the esoteric teaching ‘to observe life and not absorb it’ as this is the only way we can read what we are in, when we are in it, or preferably well before we immerse ourselves under!

     1. That is true – we adjust and we are quite amazing at adjusting, including our awareness. I have been gobsmacked a few times in my life what I accepted once I was out of that environment – sometimes it took years before I realised the full extent of it.

     2. So true Liane – I have also experienced our tendency to take flight from our nest of comfort and experience the revelation of what we have been sitting in only to find a new nest in which we settle in the belief that we have stepped out of comfort in doing so this revealing the layers of comfort we have in our lives and that we can always be committed to removing if we so choose. This is still a work in progress for me…

        1. Ah yes. From nest to nest we hop in the illusion we are going somewhere when the truth is, there are no nests lest those we create to impede our journey back to the love that we are.

308. So often I choose to live life standing on the edge of my nest, too afraid to let go, surrender, and too afraid to allow my wings to stretch and take that step into and embrace the vastness of space, the world and the universe. From reading your blog Rachel, I realise how harmful and restrictive it is to live in the comfort of my nest and not choosing to embrace the rest of the world and surrender to limitless space and love that surrounds me. Your sharing is hugely inspiring Rachel and deeply appreciate the quality of your expression.

309. I am glad you shared your feelings here Rachel, because most of us are in the same position, as in we live in a world that accepts mild abuse as normal behavior and this is so foreign to us as divine beings it makes us sick, with illness and disease like cancer. Why do we feel to our bones that we are not treating ourselves or our fellow man with the respect and love we all crave and miss so dearly.
     We compromise ourselves and call it security. We want someone else to show us it first, before we show it to others. We see others being the victims of major and minor bullying, manipulation, coercion, put downs, and abuse and we leave it to them to sort it out. How wrong we are to think we are not affected, and how toxic the feeling of abuse is left hanging in the atmosphere. Why do we allow it? This is way beyond security; you are so accurately calling it comfort. There are many examples in the world where abuse is accepted and it is not much of a stretch to see where we are heading and it will be neither secure nor comfortable.

310. ‘the words “get over it”, “what’s wrong with you?”, “you’re too sensitive” fall from our lips so easily that they constitute our normal daily way of conversing with each other.’ – Indeed, this is the harsh reality that we learn to conform to from a very young age, a form of slavery that we concur to.

311. The delicacy of our body is immense. It is through this vehicle of ours, that we’re able to expand our love and in choosing so, being able to break free of the many uncomfortable comforts that we’re in. Is life dictating us (arrogantly many of us human beings think that they choose themselves) or are we moving lovingly through life being connected to our precious body?

312. “humans have become so inured to abuse…the words “get over it”, “what’s wrong with you?”, “you’re too sensitive” fall from our lips so easily that they constitute our normal daily way of conversing with each other.” This is something that needs highlighting and the redefinition of what abuse is. We can then become aware of the effect abuse has in our bodies.

313. Comfort is generally seen as a good thing, and sought after – but as you have shared Rachel it is a false settlement, it could also be called “numbing”. There comes a time when our body and being calls for truth and the feelings of what used to be comfortable are soon felt as very harming, because they were stopping us from having the greater awareness we now have. Comfort actually provides us an opportunity to not feel, just for a while.

     1. Yes Harryjwhite, comfort is so widely accepted and thought of as a positive thing… and you describe its true face well in calling it a “false settlement”.

        What you say is so true I feel it to the bone; at some point my body and being did call for Truth and comfort was then revealed to me as the choice to stop my awareness of what was hurting me; comfort was the pill I took to numb & hush my inner voice who was crying out ‘something is wrong, something you are doing is hurting me’.

        With awareness we can learn to Truly Live and experience our rightful joy, love and glory which is well beyond what the most cushioned comfort could ever provide.

314. Comfort creates a cushioning effect, a type of numbing of the effect of the choices we are making. For the comfort to continue, so too do the lies.

315. “How many of us subsist in life, negotiating our way through the minefield of “hurt or be hurt,” that human life has become?” Of the many gems in this blog Rachel this question is one that stands out… you have summed up human life for most, and most certainly for me too prior to meeting Serge Benhayon and embarking on a way of life that is progressively free from the self-imposed constraints of unresolved hurts and protection. The Way of the Livingness is the only way I have come across that offers the insight, understanding and the means to do so, with relative ease.

316. “Are you yet willing to hand yourself unto God’s way, as he would live on Earth? This is a beautiful surrender to God and all we are offered and a choice for us all to let go of the comfort in our lives as we see it and start to truly love and live who we are . Very inspiring.

317. “get over it”, “what’s wrong with you?”, “you’re too sensitive” – These remarks are deadly, and we don’t see the fact that they are killing humanity. This attitude is what keeps abuse hushed and people from speaking out about it, and the most dangerous abuse is when things get bottled up or accepted and then someone continues thinking that what they’re doing is okay.

     1. Well spotted Susie W, , You say “…the most dangerous abuse is when things get bottled up or accepted and then someone continues thinking that what they’re doing is okay.”

        Universal Medicine has supported me to care for and love myself to such an extent that I can now feel and know for myself how true it is that letting little abuses slide, brewing, spewing or bottling emotions and making or going along with excuses to ‘think’ we are OK doing those things are what destroy our true quality of being, our true Way of Living.

     2. Absolutely Susie there are many forms of bullying we say Yes to in society and this is one of them. There is actually bullying in many many situations we would never admit was bullying in the first instance and would call ‘normal’.

318. What a great expose. How prepared are we to break free of an inner discomfort we feel that maintains a comfortable lifestyle and keeps us stuck and accepting abuse. The choice for many is ‘Not at all”. To choose a life that bucks the trend and follows the path of God leads ultimately to freedom, truth, love and light. And with this to never again to accept one drop of abuse in our life.

319. “Never have I allowed such a level of open vulnerability in my life. Never have I allowed such a level of surrender, never have I stated that I trust myself so deeply and all of the resource that comes, innate, rich and sourced from deep within me.” This is gorgeous Rachel, when we live this way and claim this in every part of our lives, abuse can no longer be tolerated as being an acceptable and normal part of life.

320. ‘…even one drop of abuse is poison to the whole.’ What grand responsibility we all have to be and walk the love that we innately are.

321. “For even one drop of abuse is poison to the whole.” A reality that it takes a while to truly wake up to, that the abuse we allow each day especially when it might seem so minor, is slowly but surely poisoning our bodies.

322. Inspiring to feel the energy of absoluteness in your sharing, Rachel.

323. It is amazing how things can configure themselves when we live and express being loving. The most unlikely people can turn around completely and, conversely, nice seeming people can get worse and worse but even among those many may not be able to sustain this behaviour for ever.

324. Rachel this is truly pure poetry to me, words cannot describe the beauty I feel in reading this post. The depths of abuse you are willing to expose and not tolerate down to even “one drop of abuse is poison to the whole”. And the claiming your commitment to “thus restore myself to The Living Son of God I am.” Thank-you, thank-you. With love, Deidre

325. ‘…even the greatest medicine can only treat that which I give it access to treat. The doctor can only play his part, the rest is up to me; is my part. It is the life I live and how I choose to live it.’ What a great statement and understanding. So many of us turn to the medical profession to fix us when a medical condition or crisis breaks without taking responsibility for our own health and wellbeing. It’s like trashing a car then casually dropping it off at the repair shop to get fixed, then going out and doing it all again.

326. This is amazing. People praise those who navigate the oceans single handedly in a boat as courageous (which to me is full of disregard and seems to serve no purpose) but you venturing out from the confines of comfort to one, not of hardship or suffering, but of realising and living the riches that are within us all. This is inspiration.

     ‘…I stated that I trust myself so deeply and all of the resource that comes, innate, rich and sourced from deep within me.’

327. When we have a high level of self worth, we are less affected by what other people say or do around us, but sadly, most of us live with a constant background level of low self esteem, mainly because we are not brought up to value ourselves, to confirm who we are every day. As a result, workplace bickering has become the norm, as everybody blames everybody and everything outside of themselves for their misery and emptiness. Learning to appreciate who we are, being tender with ourselves and honouring what we feel deep inside goes a long way to establishing our true worth.

328. ‘Are you yet willing to hand yourself unto God’s way, as he would live on Earth?”’ This is a hugely significant question for it exposes our (my) investment in creation as opposed to being a part in co-creation.

329. A stunning insight into how we are with ourselves, in response to the world, can have an effect on our bodies. Particularly with control, it can be subtle or quite forthright, and has such a devastating effect on the body.

330. Nothing matters other than the vibration we choose to emanate. We are a vibration that walks, talks, goes to work, the supermarket, and cooks, sleeps and eats. When we are with our body and our movements are in grace nothing can touch us. No amount of reaction, bullying or jealousy can take hold, and anything that is not of Divine order dissipates in a simple grace-filled sweep.

     1. What beautiful words you have written here, Jenny, so full of the grace you mention.

     2. Yes Jenny James this is the practicality of life and the purpose is to keep building this foundation. When we allow the ideas or beliefs slide we can often create reaction that feeds the doubt. Learning to understand that doubt feeds us disorder is a daily reflection.

     3. Beautiful reminder Jenny that by building a foundation of love and choosing this vibration in all that we do will support us throughout the day, no matter what we are up against.

     4. So beautifully expressed Jenny…..and so true that as we choose a vibration of love in all that we do, we will be untouched by the abuse, not matter how slight.

331. Your lived willingness and dedication to be love, to surrender to divinity is most inspiring in the increasing absoluteness of not allowing anything less to reduce you.

     1. Yes, over time we will find more and more ways to stay absolute and deal with what comes up from some others.

     2. Hear hear Alex, well said. To allow anything less than the love that we are is abuse. This is a work in progress for us all.

     3. Beautifully put Alex, very inspiring with the level of dedication to absolute love and truth.

332. To have fingers so tight that we can’t let the flow of God run through our fingers is a great example of how we fight ourselves. It’s NOT natural to feel a hurt in our body. It’s a clear indicator / sign / communication that somewhere in our lives we’ve settled for less than love, in other words for comfort. Listening and surrendering to our body and it’s communication is a beautiful and at times painful process. But boy oh boy (girl oh girl) are we worth it.

333. Wow, this is so powerful and so painfully accurate – “we have reached a point that it takes the most brutal of extremes of televised abuse to make us lift our heads from our evening meal and shake our heads before we take the next mouthful?” There is much for us to change in ourselves and our communities, to reach a point of agreement that nothing less than love is acceptable.

334. Yes to saying ‘no to abuse in its tiniest expression’ and my commitment to this works alongside my commitment to build a respectful and responsible relationship with my body.

335. Saying yes to abuse has left me feeling numb and helpless and stuck. Moving from that place has required a great deal of honesty.

336. Moments like these are such a mixture of anxiousness and exhilaration yet we are always held in the arms of God and if we surrender, that is what we are jumping into.

337. ” … we humans have become so inured to abuse…the words “get over it”, “what’s wrong with you?”, “you’re too sensitive” fall from our lips so easily that they constitute our normal daily way of conversing with each other.” So true Rachel, it has become quite ingrained and so we deny one another our deep fragility and sensitivity on a daily basis, expecting us to all toughen up and get on with life, ignoring the pain we cause one another, compounding the damage to our bodies and then we wonder why we get sick.

     1. Yes, Rowena, fragility is almost a forgotten term in the world today.

        1. So true Janet, and so often misrepresented as a weakness, a failing to be so precious and fragile, yet in truth it is our biggest and most awesome strength.

338. Rachel you beautifully describe the areas of your body that are loaded with this long term negotiation with life.
     Never more have I appreciated the feedback from my body, the offerings of stiff tension I hold in my hips and pelvis, the angst that bubbles up in & around my stomach and the drive that courses through my right hand. No longer casting the body aside as incapable and taking it on long punishing bike rides to prove itself. Today I say thank-you for these markers, for they offer me points to undress, to expose and support with my movements.

339. I have changed jobs, relationships, marriages, homes where I lived and countries. Almost all of these, the next was always unknown. I have always looked at all of these changes as growth in me and the world I live in and the people I am about to meet! Being open, to being vulnerable, is how we expand!

340. ‘Breaking free of the uncomfortable comfort’ is a step that in many ways is an offering of healing and true medicine to the body.

341. One of our most valuable skills is learning how to deal with the reactions of others, especially the reactions when we are doing well. One part of this is dealing with abuse and another is helping others with their reactions so they don’t go off the deep end or those reactions affecting us more than is good for us.

342. Allowing ourselves to be vulnerable is a building of trust that what we feel is more important than anything else, for therein lies our access to the Ageless Wisdom.

343. Comfort is an insidious one, and you have done well Rachel to nominate and free yourself of its inviting arms.

344. It’s strange how apparent this comfort can become once you allow awareness to move in this direction and this is an inspiring blog of the difference making a true choice can make.

345. The surrender of how the mind views its position in the world brings the true strength from our bodies. Whatever the mind thinks it can do it is all a mental construct – it uses the body to its own end – and this usually ends in tears, pain, illness and many other situations that don’t reflect the joy and aliveness we naturally are with-in.

346. Comfort is something we strive for in life, and yet it is a false dream that keeps us trapped in an endless cycle of avoiding the development and evolution that is naturally on offer.

     1. When we stop being fooled by the tempting arms of comfort we start to build a real and truly beautiful relationship with life that is richer with responsibility and a sense of care for our place in the world and the impact we have on others.

347. Isn’t it wonderful how our bodies can ask questions, with such poignant and pointed clarity? Getting to listen to and heed the voice of the body is our way to living simplicity and truth.

     1. Yes, it is quite incredible that one of the smartest mentors around is our own body.

        1. And how handy is that, rather than constantly looking outside of ourselves, for someone else to tell us what to do next.

348. I agree, Bryony, and am beginning to feel a joy returning in the absolute knowing that I am a part of something magnificent and all-loving.

349. There is so much wisdom in what you have shared here, Rachel – “even the greatest medicine can only treat that which I give it access to treat”. It is really inspiring to feel how you have opened yourself up to true healing.

350. ‘It is an abuse that does not mark the flesh, but rather more insidiously leaves its bruises deep and unseen upon the heart and the being.’ In our disconnection we tend to compartmentalise abuse and grade it as more unacceptable if it is physical. However when we were children were we not devastated by one hard look or a sarcastic put-down?. The only difference in these instances between adults and children is that as adults we have inured ourselves to the pain of this. It doesn’t mean we don’t feel it, we have simply numbed ourselves to it, but affected we still are.

351. ‘Do you feel the armour you have made of your chest to bear the hurts of disrespect others have sent your way – a disrespect you have not loved and respected yourself enough to ever address?’ – A great question Rachel, something for us all to truly ponder. To what extent do we love and respect ourselves?

     1. Indeed Eva, a hugely important question.
        Where is our benchmark of love and respect today?
        Looking outside to mark this will come close to the worth that is there within.

352. Sometimes the decisions we thought we would never make turn out to be the most life changing.

353. To deny the beauty and responsibility we naturally have for ourselves, including our body (!!) is denying the love that we are. And the more love we choose, the more we are able to observe the world around us and truly support others. Any comfort left unturned is compromising love for separation.

354. This is a very inspiring article to not remain in comfort and take the plunge into the unknown and live for humanity instead of the constant worry of being secure.

355. Saying NO to abuse of any kind is a huge step forward for humanity because when we say NO to abuse we are actually saying YES to love. Saying NO to abuse therefore is very good medicine.

356. I keep coming back to this blog again and again. It is so deep and resonant, and full of space and truth and healing. I can feel you in every word you write and it is so sincere. Thank you for your rawness and your willingness to share it.

357. I feel that low grade disrespect is something we all put up with in our society and yet is so damaging because it does leave a bruise as you say on our hearts, and these bruises build up to such an extent we slowly withdraw from people and life. But if we look deeper at what is going on we would know that there is an energy at play that it comes through people and not the person themselves it’s the energy that is harming, and if we could understand how energy works we would not allow our hearts to be bruised. I am re learning about energy and the two different types healing or harming, and the more I allow myself to reconnect to knowing all about energy the more I can actually watch / feel how it works through people to disrupt and subvert any seed of true love that might be growing.

358. “… but I also know that even the greatest medicine can only treat that which I give it access to treat.” And therein lies the key to our well being, our willingness and honesty to expose and present all our ills, thus moving the power of healing from the practitioner or doctor to the patient, as we are the only ones who truly know what is going on inside us. If we choose to hide our issues, how can we ever expect another person to help us to heal it?

359. Why do we treat our bodies as if they are some disposable item? Like a rubber glove that has a one-time purpose. We believe we can just get the damage fixed that we do to ourselves and carry on. Everything wears out! So, we have a choice, to end up living in something that is battered and worn out or something that was lovingly cared for! I know what I choose!

360. So fascinating how we can put up with abusive situations for so long and it is only when we call a stop to it that then the body responds, of course often the body stops us when we continually for years ignore the abuse but so often we will only get sick once we stop working for our holidays, its like we soldier on knowing on some level that this is abusive to the body and our body lovingly supports us by clearing the ill ways when we have created the space to be ill. Living in harmony would then offer so much more support, our body could actually boost us rather than constantly having to clear us of ill choices.

361. I keep coming back to your point that “For even one drop of abuse is poison to the whole.” it shows that life is black or white, truth or lies, and that its us who chooses to go in the in-between that kid ourselves that we are not in the lie that is the problem. What I also feel here is do I really appreciate and love myself to the level that I will not allow any abuse, not a drop?

362. ‘we humans have become so inured to abuse’ we have, this is true, and normalising it does not make it acceptable. We are all extremely sensitive beings and vulnerable although we mask it with a hardness that makes us ill. Saying no to abuse in our own lives includes picking up on how we speak to ourselves, our self criticism is just as abusive and just as harmful as anything an aggressive boss can do, so perhaps it all starts with us being self-loving, and that starts with self-appreciating, being very tender with ourselves physically.

363. Making such a decision as this can seem to others to be ‘drastic’, ‘risky’ or even ‘foolish’ in some cases. But when you know deep inside that something has to change and the only person who can make that change is you, then there is no doubt about leaving something that may have been comfortable, but actually no longer supports you. And yes it can be hard, but the long term positive cosequences of making that choice are immeasurable against what has been otherwise endured or tolerated for so long.

364. ‘For even one drop of abuse is poison to the whole.’ – Indeed, yet we often live as though the tinier forms of abuse does not matter, we brush it off and move on without even as much as a blink of an eye.

365. Woah Rachel Mascord, straight from heaven. Absolutely divine to read, called all I know to attention, feeling the depth of what we do as humans beings by accepting abuse, making it the normal, allowing it to fester beneath the surface, destroying the heavenly body that is the vessel of God. A blessing to read.

366. This is beautiful Rachel, I love the way you write and what you have shared. With your delicate words, you have highlighted and given no where to hide the evil that so many of us choose to live with.

367. Not choosing comfort is actually most natural. Yet, our world is set up to live in comfort. To read such an honest sharing where the opposite choice is made, is super powerful and inspiring. To listen and surrender / trust the voice inside of us is absolutely not common (yet – at least in my world). I’m in the process of being open for new possibilities and when this week something occurred I could feel myself instantly wanting to control the situation. I’m also learning to see how I am with the process and slowly surrender to Thy Father’s Will. I’m learning more and more to which detail I’m taken care of. If I but allow the support! Rather than fighting the support and the love that is so palpable around me – if I choose to feel, hear or see it.

368. Thank you, Rachel, for this powerful reflection of how tightly yet needlessly we hold onto the reins of life, as God is holding us with the grandest of love in every moment.

369. “It is an abuse that does not mark the flesh, but rather more insidiously leaves its bruises deep and unseen upon the heart and the being.” How many of us put up with this level of abuse thinking that it is normal? Just because we cannot see the effects of the abuse does not mean it is not there. It takes courage to say no to it, especially when one has become comfortable within it. How wonderful to have walked away from it, and now you have new ground upon which to step.

370. Comfort is like walking through life over a field of mines that wait to explode only you are “protected” by a rubber armour that constantly wears down and you must keep mending and fixing. All in an effort to keep us from feeling the mines of hurt ready to explode at any moment.

371. As we keep taking the steps to live a true life, every corner of hidden comfort must come out, to allow us to expand even more.

372. This piece highlights the price we pay for comfort is high; it is a choice to not be aware, to not feel, and to turn a blind eye. Rachel you beautifully describe the price of this when you say it’s coinage is “the toleration of a constant level of low grade disrespect and the sort of subtle abuse that people learn to cope with, in some way or another.”

373. Security and a comfortable life are the two things we seek most, and in this comfort we choose to numb ourselves to any abuse that may come as part of the package of selling out to what we deep down know not to be true. This is a lesson for us all Rachel, that there are consequences in not living in our fullness all of the time.

374. In saying an honest hearted yes to surrender it doesn’t mean a weak vulnerability, it means empowerment and deeper wisdom; a power that comes from the body, a deeper and stronger foundation that means there is less self or investments, but more spherical awareness and more presence, which means more can be given to you so that you may support others more.

375. There was a time, for some it still is, God will provide what I need! And when it doesn’t happen, we just assume it wasn’t meant to be. Is this just a way, of using our choices to keep us small? When we live in as you have said with the greatest dedication to love and as God would live here, why would we want or need anything?

376. ‘hurt or be hurt’ sounds like a very harsh indictment of life but I feel it is true. In our openness and vulnerability as children we quickly learn what it is to feel hurt and rejected and make the choice between being hurt or hurting as it seems to be the way of things. I suppose I would conclude that I have used both in my time. Yet it is not the only way forth. We do have the option to heal, to surrender and to rejoin the loving source we originate from, liberated from the created cycle of abuse that we have made. What will it take for us to make that choice is something for us all to consider I suppose.

377. It always puzzled me when ‘security of tenure’ was given as the main reason to stay in a job regardless of how a person felt about it or damage inflicted on body, health and well-being. It was a mentality of “batten down the hatches: and get on with it, with no sensitivity to the here and now, with eyes fixed on the end result, the lump sum pension payout. To stop, feel, and choose to resign from a job that no longer serves and may be harming us is courageous. It also sets us free, to care for ourselves in a way we’ve never done before, away from the treadmill of often relentless work patterns. In my support of others fearful of the prospect of redundancy and retirement I offered this: the only security we have is ourselves. When we trust, nurture and care for our body as a precious gem, the rest takes care of itself.

378. This line stood out for me rereading your blog this morning – ‘the toleration of a constant level of low grade disrespect and the sort of subtle abuse that people learn to cope with…’ I have been looking at how I tolerate subtle levels of abuse and observing it particularly at work where it passes for banter. Our habit is to condition ourselves to put up with what really doesn’t feel right in the first place, until after a while we just accept it as ‘normal.’

379. Well that was a great spoon of love just reading your words Rachel, lots of thanks.

380. Leaving a job in the unawareness of an occurring thorny pattern and by way of this, not healing the thorn by removing it, is recipe for (continued in the next/subsequent job) disaster, pain, discomfort, tension. Leaving in awareness leads to expansion and the joy of the job, and work too.

381. The uncomfortable comfort is quite a prison, with thick walls and a daily supply of numbing devices that lull us into apathy and giving up, engender a false sense of security that we pay dearly for.

     1. The daily supply is in absolute abundance in any shape form, substance activity we can imagine, and intentionally directed to target any specific pocket of comfort that we chose to use to not feel the fact that we are absolutely amazing from with-in.

382. Staying in something for comfort or security is a slow killer. It is great you have let this go ✨

383. “Even the greatest medicine can only treat that which I give it access to treat. The doctor can only play his part, the rest is up to me; is my part. It is the life I live and how I choose to live it.” A profound insight iterated by a someone with a great deal of experience and wisdom in the field of medicine.

384. Thank you for bringing to light the subtle dark pockets in society where we allow abuse to fester on a large scale – ‘… an abuse that does not mark the flesh, but rather more insidiously leaves its bruises deep and unseen upon the heart and the being.’ This is huge for us to consider and how this has an impact through the lives we live, if we are willing to be honest. As any movement away from love is abuse, and it is through our bodies that we allow this to occur and as such we allow abuse to continue to exist in the world. As when we allow abuse in any form we are in effect abusing our relationship with our Divinity, with God. There is much to ponder here on what you have so powerfully shared Rachel.

385. ‘Never have I allowed such a level of open vulnerability in my life. Never have I allowed such a level of surrender, never have I stated that I trust myself so deeply and all of the resource that comes, innate, rich and sourced from deep within me.’ We are all part of a Plan and it is our choice to surrender and allow what is within to unfold.

     1. I agree Carmel: ‘We are all part of a Plan and it is our choice to surrender and allow what is within to unfold’. I’m amazed at how my life has unfolded and continues to do so in glorious ways, once I stepped out of the way and stopped trying to make something happen.

     2. Beautifully said Carmel, surrender is to allow ourselves to be all that we already are.

386. Reflecting on life from the foundation of our relationship with God is most valuable and in fact could be most natural for all of us. Without the guidance of the loving and brightly shining light from thy father, we’re lost. Surrendering to the innate knowing and love is the greatest gift we can give ourselves. From the day we’re in this world, until our last breath.

387. “even the greatest medicine can only treat that which I give it access to treat.” This is very key in allowing healing to take place, this is our own part, and how we choose to live.

388. It is funny how blind we are to seeing the consequenses of our own choices and that we actually pay a very high price for our comfort.

389. Undeniably awesome sharing thank you Rachel, it was graceful, and full of wisdom and truth. There is so much more to our work and workplaces than simply ‘work’ and all of the common standards we associate with work – and if we are accepting abuse then it is holding back how deeply we can realise we are the Son of God, unchangeably.

390. It is so beautiful, Rachel, how you refer to your health condition with a deep understanding and even joy, that your body “has registered the release and celebrated with the release of its own in the form of a substantial health problem.”

391. ‘For even one drop of abuse is poison to the whole’ – This is so easy to overlook, brush off, yet so important to understand. Any self abuse, accepted or tolerated abuse, abuse in the workplace or with friends, family, people we meet on the street etc. is damaging much wider than our eyes can visually see. And a lot of the time we don’t even choose to see what’s happening on the surface level.

392. We are constantly making a choice and in any moment, have the power to make a different one unless we choose not to. This is a great reminder of that. If we make a choice one day, such as to accept a job we can sometimes feel that that choice has passed having been made once but in effect we are presented with the same choice in every moment and can change it whenever we choose.

393. What would life be like on this planet if we all were able to surrender to thy fathers will? Well for a start I don’t suppose we would need to be here any longer and the earth would return the natural way it used to be before we started using our free will to go against the natural cycles of the cosmos.

394. We have abused the true meaning of self-love hence the word selfish comes to mind and while there are selfish acts done in the world, to address our hurts is nothing but love for the self and when we see it in this light we get to see and feel the true meaning of self love which can begin the journey in finding what it means to live a life from self love and how living in this way has a profound effect on others in one way or another in the world.

395. “Are you at last, willing to let go that fearful control of circumstance that has felt like the only way to make your way through life?” The way we control our lives ultimately clobbers our bodies and so often it’s not until we are brought to our knees through ill health that we finally surrender to the beauty and deeply caring love of God within us.

396. When we allow one bit of comfort we forget how quickly and how deep in comfort we can go, then when we are presented with truth we react as it starts to expose that comfort we are in. However its only with blogs like yours do we start to see the fact that even if we are in comfort we may deny that, say life is hard work, things don’t go my way but in that there is a level of comfort and something we are settling for that is not the truth. I can only explain how my relationship with comfort has been and its in someway tied to security, something that I stick to even if it harms me.

397. “Do you feel the magnitude of the lack of trust you have had in yourself and consequently the lack of surrender to your Father’s Will?” Yes, l have and what l realise is that l have not appreciated my own Divinity first which is what allowed the lack of trust.

398. This blog has me pondering on the patterns of my chopping and changing relationships with people and jobs. I have had no problem stopping anything to start afresh. Cut and run comes to mind. Is this good or bad? Have I been, just running away, and anything is better than what I had? Or, is it expanding myself from that which is not moving me forward?

399. It is strange but very familiar to have comfort and abuse go hand in hand. We are our own greatest abusers and the abuse we ladle onto ourselves allows others to abuse us and in the end causes all sorts of disturbances in the body which will inevitably lead to illness and disease.

400. This is a very insightful sharing Rachel. We can become too comfortable in our job and not extend ourselves that bit more continually and therefore we are stifling our evolution, not only our own but mankind’s.

401. Its easy to think that staying with one partner our whole lives is comfortable or that staying in the same job for 40 years is about staying in comfort and often it is but we must also be aware that for many people, hopping from partner to partner and job to job is their form of comfort.

402. I can feel the evilness contained in the blanket of comfort as it slowly wraps itself around our shoulders.

403. It is only by truly letting go that we are able to grasp something far greater.

404. “a dare to live with nothing but the greatest dedication to love, to my essence, my Soul. To live as God would live on Earth. Dare I ignore this firm directive to look within myself and see the glorious kernel of God’s Love that is my essence?” Thank you Rachael, so gloriously expressed, absolutely no space for comfort to exist here.

405. I have used the clenching of my fingers as a really good tell tale sign, and at times I find them all bunched up together again, and it is great because as soon as I notice, I also feel how it affects my forearms, as in they too are clenched, super tight like I am ready for battle…. and then I can take my awareness to my shoulders and I will notice that they are no longer open but are forward, tight and closed. For me, its my form of protection, but does it protect me? Hell no. It hardens me and leaves me feeling exhausted from holding my body like that for hours on end. So I love being more aware of my body and being able to let go of these old patterns of behaviour.

406. When we open our eyes to abuse we realise it isn’t just the obvious ones that cause harm – if anything it is the ones that we have become used to, that society tells us is just teasing, or in relationships that it’s normal to fight…etc. that cause the most harm and deepest hurts for we don’t see them for what they are and leave them unchecked so they can run riot in our bodies. Drops of poison is absolutely accurate.

407. What is inspiring beyond, Rachel, is that you are not questioning your rationale behind decisions but honouring the fact that you know what you are doing is what is needed for you, all around you and the wider humanity. A gorgeous example of obedience.

408. Thanks Jane this has offered more insight into a pattern. At some point we choose to say ‘no-more’ I can’t support the re-cycling of behaviours that harm anyone. And when really clear with the truth of this then what comes next can be observed with an open hearted loving understanding.

409. I have once (30 years ago) worked in a place where everything went wrong and how it was an opportunity for me to accept others’ choices and respond to them but at the time I had no idea how to do it.

410. Job changes are something many of us go through – for me I was always seeking ‘something better’ and changed jobs every one or two years. One company I stayed with for ten years but changed jobs within that company. The only thing I did for longer was when I left employment and started my own business as a personal development coach and I did that for 18 years. What I enjoyed about that was that my time was my own, I could book events when it suited me, and I loved the work. I even trained as a counsellor to support the work I was doing. After my divorce and once I was on a pension, I took on more menial jobs, cleaner, shop assistant, cafe assistant, but was still unsettled. Now, at 66, I am in Australia on a visitor visa and not allowed to be employed, but I have voluntary work I can do that I enjoy. The forever seeking is not about finding the best job, but about finding me, reconnecting to me, and then the perfect jobs come to me.

411. Most of life is geared around setting up a comfortable and secure life, yet this is the complete opposite of evolution, our true purpose. When our Soul steps in to shake up the comfort and ‘correct’ the waywardness, the comfort becomes discomfort, revealing what was already there.

412. Comfort… We all relate to comfort. If we’re willing to admit. Could it be that we choose dis-trust in life to avoid feeling the support that life’s offering us? In other words, that we choose discomfort to offset the natural pull to live the amazing LOVE we ARE. Naturally. There’s much to reveal for me personally to be honest about all the pockets of comfort I choose. Whether it is at work, in relationships, in my cycles going through life etc. Thank you for this revealing and inspiring sharing Rachel.

413. “Are you willing to know that you are enough, more than enough?” A corker of a question Rachel and one that where the answer is ‘yes’ brings enormous change to exactly is not acceptable in life, love and relationship.

414. This is super inspiring, rising above all the comforts and security this job has brought you to honor what you feel.

     1. I agree Abby – rising above comforts and securities in our lives sets us free.

415. This title is exposing in itself. We would not even know we are in comfort, so comfortable is it… until someone like Serge Benhayon exposes our very wayward comfortable life! And with this expose, and the realisation of the illusion we have been living under, suddenly our life of comfort becomes very uncomfortable – in a very positive way!

416. This is the kind of thing that I have heard many people say, ‘I wish I could do that’ exposing the attachments that we have which hold in place behaviours and ultimately choices which are not true and that deep down we would love to change. We have learnt to be this way as we grew up as we were far freer of it as children, responding to what we felt rather than rationalising our decisions in our mind.

     1. “I wish I could do that” but I found in many cases in the past I was not ready to do what it takes so I would be capable. The more I worked on myself, the less the “I wish I could do that” appears for me, which I find rather nice!

417. ‘uncomfortable safety’ is spot on. There is a status quo where we settle for feeling safe whilst at the same time living in the awareness that we are joy-less. Is there any true livingness in this? Is feeling safe and secure really what we are here for?

418. Have we become like ants? Walking past each another saying ‘bread, and butter’ just doing our job in isolation, just part of the big machine? Where is the evolution?

419. ‘The doctor can only play his part, the rest is up to me; is my part. It is the life I live and how I choose to live it’ – Wow this takes responsibility to a whole new level Rachel. Every moment counts, no matter what we do for our professions and daily activities.

420. “a dare to live with nothing but the greatest dedication to love, to my essence, my Soul. To live as God would live on Earth.” What a most glorious aspiration to live.

421. I am learning that when I have investments in things going a certain way then I am not ‘surrendering to my Father’s will”. Where is the trust in him and myself that things will naturally constellate as they need to and work out perfectly as they need to? Sometimes these investments can be so tightly held on to they need a third party to point them out to me. Each time someone does this for me I am incredibly appreciative as it allows me to see my choices; the gap between what I know to be true and what I have been living – to feel how I have been ‘gripping the reins’ so tightly. In becoming aware of all of this, it supports me to slowly let go, one investment at a time..

     1. The investment game is layered time and time again to keep us in comfort. The varied scenarios and ideas come in thick and fast and is the reason why we question why is my life going this way and we feel the unnecessary tension that accumulates over time. I have spent the last six moths feeling the impact of these in jobs, family and relationships and the enormous damage it leaves in living the true quality that awaits when we ‘surrender to thy Father’s will’.

     2. I agree, Michelle, and can relate to every word you have shared here. ‘Surrendering to my Father’s will’ is the ultimate freedom from the self-driven mind.

        1. Yes if I am a son of God, which I am, and God is not about self but about love and service for all, then if I make life about self then I am clearly not in alignment with him, but am creating tension in the separation of all that he is and I am because I know deep down that how I am living isn’t true.

422. “This bout of sickness, the grace of my very delicate body, has offered me the Truth of how I chose to exist for so very long.” Our bodies are so very, very delicate and we spend most of our lives over-riding our vulnerability in the belief that it is a weakness, rather than honouring and treasuring the true strength it is. When we truly embrace this immutable fact and pay attention to everything we feel, we realise that our bodies can communicate so much to us about the world we live in and how we live in it.

423. I recently stopped a momentum of abuse, my body then needed to release all the poison it took on during this period and I became quite sick. The pain that I experienced was intense, I have learnt that being in sympathy with others is extremely harmful to self and does not support the other.

     1. Sympathy is not actually natural to our bodies, it is a false way of being that doesn’t convey the evolution in supporting another to truly understand the mechanics of a situation. It has a damp rather pandering quality to it that is noxious to our bodies.

424. “For even one drop of abuse is poison to the whole.” the power in this sentence alone stopped me and made me consider how many times do I allow one drop of abuse to get something to work in a way I want or to end up with something that i want. Yet in that putting up with abuse I abuse the other and no-one evolves, plus the whole is poisoned.

425. This is inspiring to read, to never cease asking ourselves the questions if our “comfortable” life is truly serving us, and how when we choose to let go and see the uncomfortable truth that comfort has been hiding for us that we can get an opportunity to healing that what we have held in our body, and make the choice to re-join with our soul and live the light and love of god on earth.

426. “…but I also know that even the greatest medicine can only treat that which I give it access to treat.” – this is a stop moment sentence Rachel. We take medicine as a way to stop symptoms – purely physical. But what you’re offering here is something so much deeper by connecting to what the condition/symptoms are telling us about how we’ve been with ourselves, and addressing that, then the medicine can work in a different way.

427. Thank you, Rachel, for sharing these deeply intimate yet universal questions about your personal relationship with God. These are the questions that matter most in life.

428. ‘Surrender to thy father’s will’ – that is the ultimate reference point to evaluate what life is all about and what we make of it.

429. The more we accept abuse, the more we are part of perpetuating it on the smallest and largest of scales.

     1. Awesome Henrietta, that is so true it’s not only the smallest. It is part of the whole.

430. Rachel, you bring up a very important point here with what we call ‘job security’ – one of the most valued and sought after things in our society is what we call job security – in other words having a so called ‘permanent position’ which so called guarantees a certain income for life or for at least an extended period of time. However, what I find interesting is how this kind of job security can affect so many of us into thinking we have ‘got it all sorted’, and then there is a complacency that can creep in and our quality of work can actually drop…Not to say this would be the case for everyone, but sadly the reality is that once people secure such a position then often a certain comfort is reached and they forget to maximise their time there for themselves as well as for the employee. And hence we can get situations where the job position is abused and not valued for what it is. This does not directly relate to your case Rachel, but when you mentioned the words ‘job security’ it reminded me of how we can fall into a stagnancy at work when we think our work and income is ‘guaranteed’. This is actually no different to a marriage where we think can let ourselves go, thinking that we are married for life now etc etc. We need to watch this approach as it is a way to undo ourselves – and always comes back to bite us in the bum!

     1. Sure does Henrietta! The complacency of job security is very rife when we have stayed in a professional role for a long period of time. The process of heading towards retirement is planned years in advance and you can hear how the comfort of pulling back the levels of productivity are at play.

431. Abuse first enters by our choices, the way we are living and ultimately the source of energy that we align to. One source will abuse endlessly, with the payoff being our desires, comforts and security in life. The other source will give us the truth and confirm who we are.

     1. It is amazing when we are living our truth; desires, comforts and security are no longer issues because the world expands around us.

432. Yes, and it’s scary to let go of that grip when it equates to a 16-year spell at a job. But by saying no to the abuse and yes to you/love, it means leaving the loveless place of work is a step forward – and thus the grand plan will unfold for us as it needs to.

433. I think many of us can relate to staying in a job/relationship/family situation/etc for so long that when we stop, not only do we realise what has been taking place, but that we could have caught the abuse months or years earlier. But then how many of us realise the energetic or indeed physical changes that we have allowed in that period. It’s very open and aware of you, Rachel, to see, address this and share it with the world.

434. The more love we have for ourselves the more aware we will be to abuse in all of its forms. Though sometimes it is our choice of comfort that means we allow it. A great article that makes me ponder on where I’m living in comfort and/or where I am allowing abuse.

435. Isn’t it interesting how when we leave one job, that another opportunity opens, particularly when the job we are in does not support us and it is leaving us in tension. I have become more aware over recent years of the link between how much we care for ourselves and what opportunities present themselves. This seems even more the case when we care for self but with a care for everyone at the heart of our intentions too.

436. Uncomfortable Comfort. An oxymoron, but one that I have come to know actually holds energetic truth. Patterns of behaviour and the configurations in our body are only comfortable because of the length of time we’ve accepted and allowed them to be there – whatever our hurt or reason may have been. But on the realisation, and building awareness, the body can show us the contortion, the control and the de-natured posture, revealing the discomfort of that comfort.

     1. Yes, I agree Rosanna, there is indeed a de-naturing of ourselves, when we settle for less than who we truly are.

437. Your words are powerful Rachel and take us to the core of our very being-ness and unlock the key to letting go and truly feeling. As you have said ‘we humans have become so inured to abuse…the words “get over it”, “what’s wrong with you?”, “you’re too sensitive” fall from our lips so easily’ and without the love and support that I have had from Universal Medicine I would still be grappling with these childhood feelings. It feels awesome to now see that it’s my sensitivity that has brought me back to a deeper level of acceptance and love.

438. “Never have I allowed such a level of surrender, never have I stated that I trust myself so deeply and all of the resource that comes, innate, rich and sourced from deep within me.” A most beautiful and inspiring description of accepting oneself.

439. As soon as we consider ourselves anything less than the all, the door is wide open to abuse. As soon as we take any level of identity from anything external (such as our jobs), the door is wide open to abuse.

     1. And this understanding needs to become part of everyone’s everyday lived awareness and responsibility. Awesome Rachel is establishing a true foundation saying ‘no – no more’. How many more times will people have to go through this before it is a matter of accepting that ‘no’ is the beginning of our choice not the end result because of the ill treatment along the way?

        1. I like where you are taking this. The idea of ‘no’ being a beginning. We always have a choice and it is a simple binary choice. ‘Yes’ or ‘No’. So in fact a ‘No’ has exactly the same power as a ‘Yes’ – i.e; a beginning.

        2. I can feel in what is being shared here is really grounding a foundation that No is an equal beginning to Yes. Both have equal access to the evolution that is available through the choice we are making. No comes with claiming our self in our absolute fullness, this is the beginning we all innately have access to, however through conforming we ‘learn’ that ‘Yes’ is the correct answer. How about we start to develop our awareness of the ‘trick question’ so Yes doesn’t seem to be the right answer?
           This would change so much in the way people behave and react to each other in any situation, if from the beginning we held ourselves with a true ‘No’.

440. This article speaks of some of the major silent killers that we face in society. The illusion of control and comfort lead us into a life that is a far cry from our original design. When faced with loss of control or safety in the comfort of the known, most of us will cling tighter and do anything to restore our so-called comfort. Unfortunately accepting abuse is part of the deal of comfort, the trade –off if you will for a ‘quiet life’. Speaking for myself and perhaps for others, the greatest abuse we suffer is that which we inflict on ourselves, by lessening the amazingness we are.

     1. So beautifully stated Fiona – there is always a trade off when we want the control and comfort of the known – and the trade off can be that we end up accepting abuse. Really there is no reason to accept abuse, but we do it when there is a ‘danger’ for us to lose the comforts of something else.

441. This blog reminds me how important it is to be aware of all the abuse that is in us and from that reflected in our societies on a grander scale. What we see in our societies is a magnification of the subtle forms of abuse we all allow into our lives and until we all have discarded these and have returned to that delicacy within there too will be no place for any form of abuse in our societies.

442. Nothing in my life is more important than my connection to God and as a student of my-self I am learning the Livingness is the way so I am continuously working on my connection to the best of my ability.
     For more on connection go to;
     http://www.unimedliving.com/search?keyword=CONNECTION

443. What an incredible and powerful read of how we can be so entrenched into the comfort of our work choices in order to mask the abuse that is taking place. We can so easily feel that this is all that is on offer when we are in fear of what is next and how we are going to cope.
     What I have learnt in this blog is so inspiring Rachel as I am now making a similar step in my life – what stays true is that life is to ‘live and enjoy’ not ‘do and die’. A true gift that God is constantly and patiently reminding us that we can either choose to engage or ignore.

444. Our life becomes that comfortable pair of old leather shoes we refuse to get rid of simply because of choice. What if, divine will is walking on the beach barefoot? What use are shoes? It we stay in comfort how much of life do we miss?

445. Abuse in its subtle and covert form is perhaps the most undermining and disempowering form of attack towards another, as it can be embellished by the ‘nice’ or a smile which makes it challenging to pinpoint – however our body is like a radar, it registers this totally, so trusting these feelings (rather than dismissing, justifying, doubting,ignoring, aligning to) is a lesson of staying true to yourself and taking a stand. This can be done by observing and in particular reading the WHY it is going on. This awareness is probably the greatest protection of all and helps one not take any abuse personally..

446. “Do you feel the armour you have made of your chest to bear the hurts of disrespect others have sent your way – a disrespect you have not loved and respected yourself enough to ever address?” – great line Rachel, when love is there, abuse can no longer hold sway or be agreed to… the fact there is so much abuse happening at all levels, globally, is the stark reality of how much we neither (truly) love ourselves, nor others too. And where there is abuse, there is always war.

447. It is inspiring to read of your choice based on removing the compromise on accepting abuse at any level and I can feel how this exposes my own hold on security from employment – any – yet what do we give up for this?

448. It is difficult dealing with subtle abuse. Leaving is a good option but there are also many possibilities of making it harder and harder for the other to continue with this abuse – making personal connections, changing the space and changing the way things are done for example.

449. Surrender… this is an amazing word when we allow ourselves to live it. It is not any kind of giving up but more of a letting go. Letting go of the control of my mind and surrendering to the flow of the Universe, allowing the constellations and the magic of God to reflect and manifest everything I need to bring me back to my true Soul connection.

450. This is so beautifully timed for me to read – “I trust myself so deeply and all of the resource that comes, innate, rich and sourced from deep within me”, as this is exactly what I am beginning to let myself feel and surrender to. Thank you for sharing this with us, Rachel.

451. The end of this blog is sheer poetry…dare any of us live how God would on earth?

452. When you talk about the end of a job, a lot of people might say ‘oh how terrible’ or feel bad for you being unemployed. But you show here Rachel the futility of judging life’s events, for sometimes we all need and benefit from a stop. We get to feel the road we’ve been running down and have the opportunity to make a new choice. But there’s a bigger picture you make clear here too, that it doesn’t matter what job we do, everything comes back to the way we are with ourselves – for this is where the true root of all abuse starts.

     1. One end is another beginning. We are all just going round in circles until we choose to evolve, so there is much merit in breaking some of those cycles, habits, perpetual movements – for then you get the opportunity to see that perhaps it was keeping you locked into something that wasn’t serving you or the bigger picture.

453. In my last job I was abused at work. I stayed for a year under the belief that I needed to stay to learn how to deal with it and stand up to it. After a year of being beaten to a pulp energetically and feeling awful about myself a friend said to me “If you have any ounce of love for yourself at all you will remove yourself from that situation”. It was a light bulb moment that triggered a job search and a new position in another company. On my way out I reported the abuse and it was taken very seriously. The process broke down a belief I had about having to endure something in order to learn from it. I now know that this is a total lie.

454. Do you feel the magnitude of the lack of trust you have had in yourself and consequently the lack of surrender to your Father’s Will? Thank you Rachel this clearly defines for us that when we, from our hurts and beliefs (and consequent lack of trust) do not dare to surrender to ourselves then we are by the same choice avoiding the immense love and vast understanding that dissolves them all.

     1. Agree, it is actually painful to read this sentence because I know that I don’t have that trust in myself. For so long I have looked for the comfort in approval of other people that the simple thought of letting go of that is so freeing, yet it makes me shiver at the same time.

455. A beautifully deep and reverend look at what happens when we let go of the reins of life and allow ourselves to be open to the Divine within. I really appreciate what you have written Rachel as it allows me to feel a greater depth of understanding of what is taking place in my life at present. When we choose to let go of comfort – it can be very uncomfortable, but the learning and understanding that come to us through our body and what we are constellating as we truly listen allows us to feel the illusion of choosing comfort and holding back on expressing and living our truth.

456. Truth and commitment being at the foremost here, brings out strength and vulnerability together as one.

457. ‘Do you feel the magnitude of the lack of trust you have had in yourself and consequently the lack of surrender to your Father’s Will?’ This one line is enormous when I ponder on it. The word ‘magnitude’ sums up the choices I have been making to play it small, to not trust what I am feeling, to give my power away. In the denial that I am a son of God and there is a huge lack of acceptance and appreciation for the magnitude of that which I am and where I am from. In the claiming of myself in this way how could I possibly doubt myself or not trust in what I feel?

458. ‘a dare to live with nothing but the greatest dedication to love, to my essence, my Soul. To live as God would live on Earth’. An exquisite call Rachel, thank you.

459. That is so true, I was someone that was so deep in comfort I knew nothing else. Yet in that comfort was so much abuse, we ignore the abuse as long as we are given the comfort yet when we start to say no to the abuse and comfort then we start to really live. I love just how much I learn each day, how I am so far from being perfect but with that willingness to learn (something I used to avoid) I embrace far more truth.

460. “Are you yet willing to hand yourself unto God’s way, as he would live on Earth?”” Rachel this question got me, as I had never asked myself such a question in my life. To ask this question made me very humble and also vulnerable and I have to admit that what I could feel is no true trust in myself and in God on a deep level. On the superficial functional level I am fine with trust but to allow myself to go deeper – no real trust at all. To hand myself over to God’s plan is really something to ponder on – and I will as I could feel that this is something I am capable of if I allow myself to let go of the substitute – the comfort.

     1. Thank you Ester for sharing the most delicate of appreciations to what we are being asked in every moment. There is only a pause or resistance if I ‘think’ I can do it better than God, and this only comes in when there is a fear of releasing the ‘comfortable safety net’ of what ever is familiar. And abuse can be one of these – which is a truth that is required to fully live God’s plan.

461. Leaving your job, not having another one to go to, getting sick, seeing abuse…who would have thought that such occurrences could bring so much joy? Yet it is true joy that I feel in you as you write these words – the joy of a purposeful commitment to evolution.

     1. I agree, Otto, there is great joy in letting go of whatever stands in the way of our relationship to God and evolution.

462. I like the way that you monetarise the abuse. It’s a very practical way of looking at it and you have now seen that it has had such a huge cost on you, that the books simply don’t balance. Thus you have acted and now are running in credit, reaping the profits from your very prudent and committed investments.

     1. Yes, money can be an excellent way to tally such impacts.

        1. I really agree with this. My relationship with money has changed a great deal in the last few years. Where as I used to just se it as a means to an end, a dry fact that either enabled you to do, or not to do certain things, I now really embrace the messages and guidance that the flow (or not) of money can give me. I find it to be a very useful barometer of where I am at or what my next step might be.

463. We cannot let go of comfort unless we accept there is something far vaster and greater, and surrender to this. It’s not a one-off moment, it’s an ongoing way of being, a dedication to oneself, a way of life, where we know that who we are and where we come from is as grand as the cosmos itself, and that every attachment and creation we hold on to for the familiarity and comfort it offers, also serves to reduce us from the vastness we are.

464. “For even one drop of abuse is poison to the whole.” – we can fool ourselves into thinking that poison in moderation or only now and then, is OK. But nothing changes the fact that it is poison and does and will have its effect on the body.

465. Rachel, these two sentences alone are just what I ‘needed’ to hear this morning – a confirmation of the fact that it is OK to feel raw, to feel vulnerable and to surrender to what is on hand…”Never have I allowed such a level of open vulnerability in my life. Never have I allowed such a level of surrender, never have I stated that I trust myself so deeply and all of the resource that comes, innate, rich and sourced from deep within me.”

466. How beautiful that you have embraced these moments in your life and gone with the flow rather than waste energy on fighting it.

467. It often takes an unexpected moment brought about by our body or life to have us stop long enough to acknowledge that we knew all along what we have been accepting was not okay. We may not like these situations but they are a blessing in disguise.

468. “Never have I allowed such a level of open vulnerability in my life.” This line stood out for me because I can very much relate to where I am at present in my life and how an openness to vulnerability has changed my whole outlook on what I accept in my life. There is a freedom that comes with this, that is like the fledgling bird you mention on its inaugural flight, unsure of the unknown territory it is about to open its wings to knowing that there is no going back, trusting myself and not letting doubt enter my thoughts.

469. Very beautiful Rachel, it is in allowing and surrendering to Thy Father’s Will, that we actually lose our protections and create space in life that we just didn’t know could exist. Letting go of those reins however can be a challenge, you are doing so and it is scary, but bravo!!

470. Rachel a very beautiful and inspiring blog, got me to stop and look at where am I still allowing abuse in my life, the body is so much more sensitive that it knows when there is abuse around and so it’s really looking at the small ones that sneak in.

471. “The doctor can only play his part, the rest is up to me; is my part. It is the life I live and how I choose to live it.” – so true Rachel. So often people give their power to their Dr to provide the solutions without looking at their own part in the illness or symptoms they have.

     1. A great point Sandra – it is so important that we do not disempower ourselves and hand our healing process to another, no matter what their qualification. It is important that we seek support and go to Doctors and get proper medical help, but then it is also for us to put into place what we know and learn can support us in our day to day, which is really the foundation of our health and healing.

472. I believe you are right in that we have accepted abuse in all its subtle ways that we have dulled our senses to it when it comes our way, or can stand by and allow another to be abused because it’s thankfully not happening to me.
     This played out recently when I was with a group of people and the daughter was very disrespectful to her father and I waited to see how this would play out, but nothing happened and then I understood nothing happened because it is such a normal part of their relationship that it didn’t register as abuse, yet to me my whole body was crying out that is so unacceptable, but I let it pass because it was nothing to do with me. But I should have called the situation out and brought it to their attention, otherwise how will anything change. But I can feel that level of comfort that I was in – thankful it wasn’t happening to me.

     1. A fascinating comment. I too have often observed abuse between others and been ‘thankful it wasn’t happening to me’. But how wrong I am, because it is; we are all one, all connected and all swimming in the same sea, so where abuse happens we all feel the ripples.

473. Personally, I don’t like to be taken out of my comfort. Yet, it is the only true way forth. Otherwise we stay stuck in the mud. We’re meant to be naturally growing, day after day. Even if this means to let go of ways we live in that are very familiar to us, yet don’t support us. With deep understanding that letting go isn’t always easy. Yet, also with the knowing that we all can. Thank you for a great showcase, you’re a true role model Rachel.

474. Sometimes we have no idea that we are being abused, for example, there is, in general society, a way of speaking to each other that is totally disrespectful, for example, I recall a young lady who was new to a company who didn’t understand why her colleagues kept insulting her until it was explained that that meant she had been accepted by them. That seems to be a standard way of young adults speaking to each other in insults. Personally I don’t get it, it feels nasty, same with sarcasm. When we speak to each other in words of appreciation it can create a totally different atmosphere in the workplace.

475. Remaining open and vulnerable allows us to feel what is there, and to unfold the deeper understanding of ourselves. As you say; “restore myself to the Living Son of God I am”

     1. We need to open the trunk of Us and fling out all the junk that we’ve accumulated over hundreds of lifetimes, in order to get down to the treasure. Being vulnerable is a non negotiable part of that process.

476. ‘The price I was paying was high; its coinage the toleration of a constant level of low grade disrespect and the sort of subtle abuse that people learn to cope with, in some way or another.’ We have so normalised ‘low’ levels of abuse we have become inured to them and expect them in the everyday. Putting security so much higher than the love that we are means that we no longer consciously register them as a problem. What you are sharing here with such a precious vulnerability Rachel, is that not only do we need to register them as a matter of high importance as they manifest in illness later, but that they are not to be accepted on any level as they are simply not natural to our innately loving expression.

477. You make a great point here about how we can only treat what we are willing to treat, as it is up to how we are living. This is how I see traditional medicine and complementary medicine working together. To me – declutterig my house is just as powerful as getting antibiotics for a cold – my body feels light and cleansed when I know we have had a clear out. So instantly I know how these 2 ways of medicine can work
     Together.

478. Whoa, Rachel, your list of what we need to let go of is too much! These are what kept us in our comfort! We have gotten real good at stuffing our hurts under our foundations! But when we stop and really look at what we have been doing to ourselves with our choices is a stark wake-up call.

479. It has been my experience to learn that Self-Love is key to all the parts of life and so we cannot truly be without it and feel whole because there will always come a guarded protection to our chest areas when we are not living the love for ourselves that we all so readily deserve.

480. So very beautifully and delicately expressed Rachel, the call of your soul, through the body.

481. I feel God is forever gently, lovingly inviting us to feel the truth of our essence. I agree if we allow any abuse in our lives we dampen and reject who we are in essence. The way we hold ourselves is what matters, we don’t have to correct anyone, we don’t need to not be in contact with someone (although sometimes both of these are necessary) but we can make a choice to hold ourselves as an equal Son of God. I am becoming so aware of how I move and breathe and the significance this has in how connected I am, how I feel, how I am received and how I make choices in life.

482. The idea of the abuse I allow has come up for me to look at recently. Before I get to abuse I allow from others, I have noticed there is much I permit from myself like negative self talk, criticism of myself, staying up too late when I’m really tired, eating food I know feels bad in my body to name a few.

483. To be told ‘ you’re too sensitive’ hurts.

484. I observed some people in ‘conversation’ yesterday. We would probably call it banter and label it playful and yet what underneath this ‘banter’ were words designed to undermine, to put the other down, to belittle – all done with a smile on the face. Both parties were complicit in the game and it is a game that happens every day and willingly so. It is subtle, but it certainly does not bring love and perhaps this is where our true definition of abuse must arise from – the absence of love. If this is our definition, then there is a great deal more abuse going on in our world than we have as yet accepted.

485. Staying with the known, familiar and comfortable is a form of abuse if it impedes growth and evolution. It feels like a slow death to accept only what we’re given, rather than choosing what is truly ours.

486. Rachel, great questions, ‘Are you willing to know that you are enough, more than enough? Are you yet willing to hand yourself unto God’s way, as he would live on Earth?’ This is really worth pondering on, reading it I can feel how there is still a belief of not feeling enough, it’s great to have this exposed so that I can live in the fullness of who I am, without holding back.

487. Most people would seek medication first to deal with the pain and illness. You resigned! This is a whole new appreciation of what makes us sick at heart in the first place and then what the real remedy is, in this case to stop putting up with the insidious, subtle and persistent erosion of self worth.

488. You have so nailed the whole illusion that most of the human race have bought into, or is drummed into us from an early age, how many of us stay in jobs that we don’t even like because they pay the bills and there is a certain amount of security. The indulgence of comfort does play out in illness, as the mind may check out but the body never does.

     1. “The mind may check out, but the body never does”. This is a brilliant and super important truth kevmchardy. One that we would all be very wise to take heed of. Every second of every day, the body is registering and responding to the choices we make and, if the choices aren’t so clever, it is taking the brunt of them. So, as you say, whilst we might try to check out from feeling anything with a pizza in front of the TV, the body is taking that hit.

489. I know I have felt black and blue in my body after being berated, bullied and abused emotionally and verbally. The harm is not easily seen but has a lasting affect longer then a physical bruise. Not saying physical abuse is any less hurtful or painful to heal. I find especially in the workplace when most abuse occurs it’s from not fully understanding something, perfectionism, control and desperately trying to not expose hurts. Seeing the energy before the person helps me to not take it personally or be a victim.

490. Cracker blog loaded with Fire of the Soul! This is what a stop-moment in an event, or in the body via a dis-ease brings – access to your Soul. Soul is love. Not listening or being with the body consistently and constantly 100% of the time ie. in every moment, you are allowing abuse. Saying Yes to Love in every Moment is Key – practically that is then saying No to abuse.
     “What occurs to me in typing these words is that we humans have become so inured to abuse…” As Rachel has endorsed if you are being hard on yourself that is taking you away from love that is already within and being felt. So it makes all the sense “To live as God would live on Earth.”

491. I enjoy your use of the word ‘resources’. We talk of the resources of a country or of a company or as if they are elements that we need to gather to undertake a task. Yet you are proposing that we have all the resources that we need innately within us. Since our bodies were designed by, and belong to, God that makes perfect sense when contemplated deeply.

     1. The fact that our bodies are connected to God and the Universe means we have an innate responsibility and purpose to care for the divine beings we also are. No wonder they hurt and become sick when we don’t honour this.

492. Only someone with a deep connection to their divinity could write something so delicate yet so game-changingly powerful.

493. “…I submitted my resignation this week…” Reading these words brought back memories of handing in resignation and certainly I can relate to it with the feeling that overcomes the body when doing this… a mixture of empowerment, liberation, spaciousness and trepidation. It is a great at opportunity to end cycles and begin anew.

494. “How many of us subsist in life, negotiating our way through the minefield of “hurt or be hurt,” that human life has become.” Awesome question, and so important is claiming our true magnificence, rather than the constant beat up routine we choose to follow.

495. Burnout – being in depression while at work – is a huge issue among medical professionals and taking steps to avoid such a fate is hugely recommended. Well done, Rachel.

496. ‘If you are going to abuse then I will too’ – this is the repulsive attitude in me I have been facing up to over the last couple of weeks. It doesn’t matter what others do, what they say or how they choose to behave – we always have a choice to stay with Love and our true way. If we don’t we just perpetuate these endless cycles of abuse you clearly describe Rachel. This, over any other is our true job in life.

497. It’s a funny thing abuse, because as you say, we don’t have physical marks on our bodies to highlight all the times we’ve openly accepted abuse for the sake of not wanting to fell it and stand up to it. A word, a thought, a tone, all attribute to abuse when not delivered with love. And love, not in the bastardised version of it where it’s all fluffy clouds, rainbows and fairy floss, for that is not love. Love is simply truth. It’s something we abuse enormously and re-interpret many times over only to disguise abuse.

498. I love your questions and honesty Rachel, also the acknowledgement of the rawness and vulnerability. This exposes how one may feel they are bringing all to the life they are currently living only to come face to face with the comfort they have been holding on to the moment they step off the edge of the nest to fly. This is very beautiful Rachel – thank you for sharing.

499. How deeply touching this is Rachel – to be so open and vulnerable and knowing of the treasure that is within to support everything, when we choose to embrace it.
     “never have I stated that I trust myself so deeply and all of the resource that comes, innate, rich and sourced from deep within me.”

500. I started crying reading this – your words have gone deep Rachel and I hear my body calling me to surrender. Thank You.

501. Whereas most of us are likely not to allow the really obvious gestures of abuse being hurled at us, I certainly know that for myself I will tolerate the teeny, teeny abusive bouts, those that you can so easily brush off and carry on. But as this article points out ‘even one drop of abuse is poison to the whole’.

     Whatever I tolerate I allow and I absorb. It doesn’t matter whether it’s a tirade of filthy swearwords or an ever so subtle passive aggressive undertone.

     To have no tolerance for any semblance of abuse, whatever its shade, whatever its tempo, is an ongoing commitment. Abuse can become more and more subtle, but it remains just as potent. Standing in the authority of what we know is true, and who we are is what is being asked of us, every time an abusive gesture is hurled our way.

502. Rachel, you have inspired me to also stretch my wings and leave my comfortable nest, choose to connect to my essence and to address abuse of any form without hesitation. To be love and to accept nothing less than love.

503. ‘For even one drop of abuse is poison to the whole.’

     How is it I can think that I can have my abuse of choice (eating foods that don’t support me, going to bed late) and it not affect the whole?! Or it not affect me and everyone around me let alone not add to the abuse of the world.

504. When we really consider abuse it is actually almost beyond our understanding how much abuse we allow in our thoughts and every day interactions. By slowly and steadily choosing otherwise and building love in our bodies it becomes easier to see the abuse and to then say no to the abuse whether that be from an out ward or inward source.

     1. As we say no to abuse, we discover yet more abuse that we have said yes to. And then there is the abuse that we actively choose, the abuse that we directly afflict on ourselves and the abuse that we may not even yet know to be abuse and thus wouldn’t call it such. Layers and layers of it that need peeling off – you have written a very inspiring piece Rachel that is a marker for all of humanity for all of history. It is a major milestone on our journey back home; a rock of truth staked majestically on a brow of a hill for us all to see, be drawn to and to walk past. Thank you.

505. Negative attitudes at work can be very abusive without being recognised as such. Frequently aggressive bosses are seen as achieving results and those who are abused rarely speak out.

     1. It is pretty shocking Carmel to see this kind of abuse being accepted by many people as normal. If we dare to stand up to abuse and speak up, we risk losing our job but is choosing to stay in an abusive environment and staying silent worth it? As Rachel so beautifully shared how this could affect our health, our mental wellbeing and our connection to love?

     2. That is true and a lot depends on the definition of ‘result’ – a further lot may depend on how abusive those who are managed are – it may be quite comfortable though not very joyful if there is an ‘acceptable’ level of abuse being given and taken.

506. True comfort is the ability to surrender in full, it’s like standing facing backwards on the edge of a cliff, arms wide open and just allowing yourself to fall back in the knowledge that we are all constantly held in God’s palm and in truth it’s not possible to ever fall.

507. “For even one drop of abuse is poison to the whole.” RH

     This sentence stands out for me today. I feel the truth, yet I feel also the resistance to accept the truth! As if I’m comfortable in the acceptance of abuse hurled towards me. I hate abuse, yet I’ve also told myself that because I’ve been adding abuse in the past that I’m not worth a life without abuse. I feel this not to be true, but have also hardened and protected myself in order to ‘control’ life. Which is in truth a constant internal conflict, that constantly feeds abuse into my body, my vehicle of love – if I so choose. There’s work to be done for me personally and for the world to stop accepting abuse. Only by not accepting and hold people responsible we’re to change the world. Not through standing by and be silent.

508. I have been to the doctors a few times in my life looking to get fixed. What you share about playing your part along with the doctor in how you now choose to live is something that I feel we would all do well to embrace in our lives. We have a lot of power in the choices we make that can really support our health, well-being and healing.

509. Breaking out of our comfort patterns offers true development and growth.

510. Revisiting this once again today, I am left with the awareness that the abuse I most need to say no to in my life is that which is self-inflicted and that which the external representations are merely a reflection.

511. A great sharing Rachel, thank you – so very inspiring to expose the abuse, to trust in the Divine will and take the steps towards a renewed sense of self-honouring and commitment to a life that is true for you.

     1. When the subtlety of abuse comes into play in so many aspects of live we often forget that Divinity is all around us, yet what Paula you share and what I love here is that by trusting in the Divine Will and following that deep inner knowing of truth we end up putting a stop to even the most subtle forms of abuse that in the past we would have either put up with or called loving.

512. The whole world strives to be comfortable, it’s what everybody aspires to be and yet there is such deep discomfort in comfort because comfort is actually the continual numbing of a discomfort that exists within our own bodies and so comfort is actually an indication that there is an internal agitation and how uncomfortable must it be to carry that around wherever we go? The antidote is to address and heal the discomfort and thereby remove the need for comfort.

513. Isn´t it that most of the time we picture of how life is going to look like; not necessarily consciously but nevertheless a way forward. No wonder that we feel raw when we let go of such imagined future, but also what an immense space of possibility.

514. When did we throw in the towel on life? Put our feet up and coast through life? This is as good as it gets! We never seem to be short of an excuse whilst sitting on our ‘ask me no questions why’!

515. “My body, long tightened and tensed against the constant low bubble of tension and hurt has registered the release and celebrated with the release of its own in the form of a substantial health problem. “Here you go,” it has said to me, “take a look at how you have been negotiating your way through life.” Wow Rachel, this is so powerful. We cannot but sit up and pay attention to what you are sharing here, for this is such a great example of what will eventually happen to our bodies if we do not listen to the messages they are sending us.

516. We can get so caught up in life with security and protecting us from the worst happening, never realising that all the time we have been tolerating situations or relationships that are not true.

517. How can something that is uncomfortable be comfortable? A good question to ask, but one easily answered when we look at human life – how many remain in abusive or unloving relationships because in fact it’s more comfortable than being with out it? How many of us find a form of comfort in being identified by our issues or hurts? I know I have when I am being totally honest, felt that a part of me gets something from the drama, the issue or discomfort – for when my life is fine and there are no issues, what is there to identify me?

518. ‘My body, long tightened and tensed against the constant low bubble of tension and hurt has registered the release and celebrated with the release of its own in the form of a substantial health problem.’ I love how you use the words ‘celebrated’ and ‘substantial health problem’ in the same statement Rachel. Welcoming illness as a clearing and not a burden is truly inspiring.

519. Awesome blog and read on the morning I am due to begin a two-day course on safeguarding – very interesting. This also reminds me of not only the types of abuse we accept toward us from others whether subtle and tiny or otherwise but also that we do not call out as such when we are aware of it toward others, even when they are not present. This is a responsibility I can feel deeply but know that I have not chosen to live fully thus far. Whilst I understand that this is an ever-deepening process, this blog has provided a focus on that which I have left in the shade in the corner for some time allowing my own comfort to be.

520. This is a great phrase, ‘uncomfortable comfort’, and it’s true that living a surface level comfortable life absent of responsibility or consideration of the big picture, definitely creates an underlying tension that reminds us we can actually be so much more.

     1. This is so true Susie and is so proven by a deeper look at society. Millions of people who would consider themselves ‘comfortable’ – have a decent income, a roof over their heads and friends around them – are medicating themselves daily with coffee, alcohol and sugar. This is because of exactly that under-lying tension that you talk about.

521. There is always a consequence to ‘playing it safe’ but rarely do we associate it with getting sick. How awesome to bring these two factors together, to see that the hard shell we encase our selves in so that we can endure the loveless environments we have created has a dire effect on our tender, fragile bodies.

     1. Yes, and it just goes to show how false some of our behaviours are, that we think nice is good, and that we just have to grin and bear abuse, when of course we are masters of our destiny and can choose whatever is most caring for us at every opportunity.

522. Wow, big ginormous Wow! What a totally awesome piece of writing. I just sat here stunned after reading this, but in the realisation of how much abusive comfort I have in what I do for a living.

     1. I can second that Kev, stunned and uncomfortable at the realisation that the tolerance of the ever smallest drop of poison I allow, poisons the entirety of my being – and so much more.

     2. How callused have our hands become hanging on to the comfort we live in?

523. Wow Rachel, this is a great question, ‘Do you feel the magnitude of the lack of trust you have had in yourself and consequently the lack of surrender to your Father’s Will?’ I can feel how this applies to me too and how I have lived with a lack of trust for myself and how as a result I have tried to control and hold on tightly rather than surrendering and allowing myself to consistently live the tender, gentle, graceful woman that I am, thank you for sharing this.

524. This is a beautiful piece of writing that inspires and calls me to consider honestly, carefully and deeply where I accept any abuse in my life. I am willing to develop the keenest eye for detail and articles like these are true inspiration. Thank you, Rachel.

525. “…My body, long tightened and tensed against the constant low bubble of tension and hurt has registered the release and celebrated with the release of its own in the form of a substantial health problem. “Here you go,” it has said to me, “take a look at how you have been negotiating your way through life…” Reading this makes it clear just how much our body always wants to re-establish harmony within, and a health problem is a way the body clears or discards the package of disharmony. A health problem offers an opportunity to examine the way we have been living (in our body) in life.

526. Thank you Rachel for this beautifuly expressed sharing on comfort. We miss out on truly living our lives when we protect ourselves from discomfort.

527. “My comfort in this job lay in the “security” of its tenure, but an uncomfortable and damaging comfort it was.”

     I am guessing that you are not alone in having felt this and then when I read on about how vulnerable you feel, I saw very clearly that is why so many of us stay in the discomfort of the comfort. It is the lack of control and vulnerability that we are shy away of. But it is where the true healing lies.

528. We have reached a point in society where to call out many levels of abuse is considered weak, soft, pathetic or that your over sensitive, because we have both become so desensitised to abuse, but also because we have so normalised it

529. What an amazing opportunity to go deeper within and connect with yourself and with God deeply.

530. The abuse that doesn’t mark the flesh are the ones that cut the deepest and poison our body without it being obvious and visible. It is not until our body says ‘enough is enough, it is time to clear the poison out of the body’ in a form of illness or accident. This often makes us pay attention to how we have been living and how our choices have affected us and others. Some may see this as a punishment from God or bad luck but if we are willing to take responsibility we embrace what our body is showing us a blessing and opportunity to deeply heal.

531. “even the greatest medicine can only treat that which I give it access to treat” this line really stands out to me as I feel the responsibility we have for the willingness we have to be open to our own healing. Our true connection with our bodies is the crucial key here.

532. ‘When you close one door another door opens’ is a saying that comes to mind. Are we willing to close the door to security to see what’s behind the other door?

533. A brilliant and deeply loving and honouring reflection of responsibility for living, thank you Rachel. Connecting tolerances of behaviours that are unloving to the cause and effect on our health is a super wise and intelligent choice. To see the all for what it is and choose to place what is true for you at the heart of your health and care, is a message and learning for humanity.

534. I love how you chose to really feel the process of resignation. We’re often making decisions without really connecting to how we feel about the decision. We stay in our comfort, we mentalize why we made the choices, we bury both our emotions and our feelings, we contract away, we don’t take responsibility, we blame, we play victim, we harden, we shy away, we go into comparison etc. Except of the polar opposite of what in this blog is described. Thank you Rachel, what an remarkable, raw and real story. To which many, many can relate – I am sure.

535. Could it be that comfort and security are not what they appear to be, but more like giant walls of illusion we are building around ourselves to remain separate, individual and numb.

536. ‘Never have I allowed such a level of open vulnerability in my life.’ I love how you have combined the words open and vulnerability which gives an accent on how willing you are to truly allow the rawness and how you opened up to receive and embrace this valuable precious state of being.

537. Sometimes there is a level of abuse we put up with because there is an element of familiarity that offers a weird kind of security, and the fear of the unknown is strong enough to hold us there.

     1. Great point, Carmel. We are often more comfortable with an abusive familiar than the potential of unfamiliar unconditional love and respect.

     2. I find security itself is a booby prize. When I focus on security I end up overlooking so many other things and compromising on things that I would otherwise not accept seems a natural by product.

538. I have always appreciated how you write Rachel with such open honesty and again you have written a very thought provoking blog, one that I shall print off and keep with me to read as your words have touched me deeply there is so much depth in what you have written,
     “Are you yet willing to hand yourself unto God’s way, as he would live on Earth?””
     is but one example. This was a complete stop moment for me.

     1. I agree Mary – the openness and honesty Rachel writes with is beautiful to read and deeply inspiring.

     2. Same for me Mary. I too will print this incredible blog out to read and share with friends. Rachel has delivered drops of gold written from her essence and powerfully expressed the truth of living in comfort that eventually leads us to major discomfort.

539. I just love the way that you write Rachel and the love and appreciation that you have for your body’s wisdom. Most of us simply do not appreciate how our bodies are the marker of truth and if we listen to it we can get to know exactly what is and what is not working about the way that we are living.

540. You are very right Rachel, even the smallest forms of abuse are an insult on our body. I can feel that now. We can try to numb it with our comforts and not stand up and say no but it will have an impact on our bodies and on the bodies of everyone. By saying nothing the abuse stays alive, by saying something we can expose it for what it is.

541. I love the level of surrender that comes through in your writing Rachel. Your blog challenges us all to look at the abuse, however subtle, we accept or tolerate in our own lives and to not normalise it as so often happens.

542. Often it takes some form of suffering before we are willing to become aware of the discomfort the seeming comfort actually provides. It exposes how invested we are in the comfort so that we choose to give a blind eye to the negative effects or in fact falseness hence it is necessary to address and heal the underlying issue that seeks the comfort in the first place.

543. “Are you at last, willing to let go that fearful control of circumstance that has felt like the only way to make your way through life? Are you willing to know that you are enough, more than enough? Are you yet willing to hand yourself unto God’s way, as he would live on Earth?” What poignant questions which I imagine would serve every one of us to periodically consider.

544. I’m a bit lost for words having read this to be honest. Thank you Rachel for your absolute openness and humility – and for calling out the abuse that is ‘taking it on the chin’ …amongst other examples.

545. Rachel, an inspiring read. One that I will return to often as from this I can feel the pull to look at where the pockets of comfort and abuse lurk for me, especially at work.

546. I have spent my life making major decisions and having them also made for me. Both have been new beginnings. I know someone that grew up on a sailboat that said life was always the unknown just over the horizon. How can we live in the past that is just like an old newspaper that the headline never changes?

547. Amazing, to say no and then the body goes here you go, lovingly you now need to deal with the abuse you have done to yourself. Wow very powerful sharing, and one that is swayed with the tones of love and and purpose that can only be activated with appreciation and acceptance of our Divine natures.

548. SO powerfully written – It has made me realize that I still struggle with finding the words to say no or go into I can’t be bothered having the same debate and fight over an over again. But giving up is not an option, as in it doesn’t exist at some point the balance needs to come back.

     1. Great point nicolesjardin we become comfortable in our discomfort all too often.

549. To break the comfort that we have lived with for a lifetime and beyond, is one of the greatest challenges we have, because life ceases to exist the way we have known it. It sure is interesting, that even if our so called comfort makes us miserable and even sick, we still find it hard to break the pattern and let it go.

550. A beautiful, powerful and inspiring blog, thank you Rachel.

551. “Our fingers tighten on the reins of our lives, no longer able to straighten and soften in tender supplication to a Divine Will that we have long forgotten even existed.” Thank you for sharing this Rachel it gave me a deeper understanding of the injury I sustained many 20 years ago that meant my right hand no longer fully straightens. At the time I was very much caught in a cycle of fighting myself, and the Divine Will, and in the fight I was seeking to control everything around me, even though life was showing me in every way that it was time to change.

552. For me the greatest revelation was finding that when I released all forms of self abuse, I attracted less abuse from others.

553. Rachel, 20 years ago this year, I walked away from security of a well paid job after nine years. When I did, I too felt like a winged bird released from a cage. Escape from an abusive organisation compelled me to face levels of self inflicted abuse. With the support of Universal Medicine, I released false ideals and beliefs that held me back and led me to consistently put others before myself. The journey back to full awareness and understanding has been steady and continues to unfold. I no longer seek comfort or recognition from outside myself: my inner security and feeling of self worth is priceless.

     1. About 3 years ago I left a job that ticked all the boxes for security but was very numbing to start a part-time job on a lot less money but with something my heart felt purpose and passion for. I have not looked back since, in fact it has been onwards an upwards thereon ✨ As soon as we take the first step everything is given to us and unfolds for us … it is just taking that first step. However I feel with Rachel it feel more like a giant leap! 💕🦋

        1. Vicky, You followed your heart and body and that’s the essence. When life is purposeful, work is a blessing and we bring all that we are to it.

554. Abuse is rife within our working places, so much so that we abuse ourselves by not speaking up and it is crippling us. I had a work colleague who would get migraines everyday but only at work and many of our conversations were discussing the fact that he would not speak up for himself, and was very stressed about the level of abuse directed at him. Needless to say he eventually left the company disgruntled having kept all his grievances to himself.
     So it makes me wonder to what extent our ill health numbers at work are related to the abuse, be it subtle or in your face, and the fact that people feel helpless to even call it for what it is.

555. It is so true in my experience that healing is a two way street and that the best practitioner in the world can only support someone as far as they are willing to go or be open to their own healing.

556. It’s great to read this Rachel, I love what you are sharing, I hear this a lot being said to children, ‘the words “get over it”, “what’s wrong with you?”, “you’re too sensitive” fall from our lips so easily’ and it always feels so harmful, because we are all so naturally sensitive, sweet and tender so being told not to be this goes against the truth of who we are, I love that you are returning to living as the sensitive, delicate woman that you so naturally are – very beautiful.

557. “No stone shall be left unturned medically, but I also know that even the greatest medicine can only treat that which I give it access to treat. The doctor can only play his part, the rest is up to me; is my part. It is the life I live and how I choose to live it.” What a different world order there will be when this approach to life is the norm rather than of a minority of practitioners of life.

558. It is inspiring how you have chosen to take full responsibility for your current health situation and the reflection that it is giving you of the poison of accepting any level of abuse in your life. In deep appreciation of your willingness to shine forth in all your fullness Rachel.

559. The image of holding on so tightly that we can no longer straighten our fingers is very powerful and is something I can certainly relate to.

560. “Are you at last, willing to let go that fearful control of circumstance that has felt like the only way to make your way through life? Are you willing to know that you are enough, more than enough? Are you yet willing to hand yourself unto God’s way, as he would live on Earth?” Questions that come directly from the Divine, quizzing us as to why we choose to deny the power of God within, and showing us just how much we have to contort our bodies in an attempt to evade God’s divine Will, a contortion that deeply harms our bodies. Surrendering does not mean giving up, it is about opening up to allow God’s Love to flow through us and when we do, we become the true conduits of divinity that we are intended to be.

561. Thank you Rachel, it shows me again, how we all need to be at easy within ourselves and not allow an once of abuse to get in. Easier said than done as abuse has become a way of life today, if people don’t like what you do or say, then it is so ease to abuse you for you are the one out of step. When in fact it is the direct opposite, being true to oneself.

562. ‘Do you feel the magnitude of the lack of trust you have had in yourself and consequently the lack of surrender to your Father’s Will?’ It is beautiful to feel the unfolding you are allowing by your choice to say no to your abusive work situation and to let go of the comfort of a ‘safe’ life. I celebrate your expansion and look forward to your continuing expression.

563. When things go wrong in our life (and even and sometimes especially when they go right), it can be a very good idea to see and feel what has been our part and what understanding is available. It is the understanding that makes us powerful if it is coupled with the readiness to take action, otherwise there are simply justifications.

     1. Yes and equally look at and appreciate those parts that were not our part when things go wrong (and / or go right) as we all bring a part and it is not without each of us that we make the whole.

564. How wonderful that you stepped to the edge of the nest and trusted you could fly. Trading comfort for the ability to see far and wide, above and below and make a truly chosen choice on where to land, where to go next. Free of the comfort that is truly uncomfortable, an abuse of oneself in itself.

565. Rachel on reading this line ‘Are you yet willing to hand yourself unto God’s way, as he would live on Earth?”’ makes me realise, without any judgement just how far from love and truth I am living. To list all of the ways that my life differs from how God would live is not possible as there are so many, perhaps it’s easier simply to say that I am not love much more than I am love, whereas God is no-thing but love.

566. Rachel, your blog has touched my heart, the way you express is so inspiring and written in such a beautiful way that ignites my knowing and connection to who I am, a Son of God. As I open your blog to read before my eyes rested on your first paragraph, I felt this deep connection with God and a tenderness in how I moved in my seat to start reading was exquisite. I could read an entire book written in this same energy as you have just delivered in your blog, deeply inspiring and powerful on all levels.

567. This is exquisite Rachel…these very words struck me deeply ‘Never have I allowed such a level of open vulnerability in my life. Never have I allowed such a level of surrender,’ It is this we protect ourselves from yet in this protection it is actually a painful way to live, and then the surrender, surrendering to being Will of God, surrendering to the love within, why are we so afraid of that and make protection our way?

568. A phrase that has always inspired me is: ‘Wherever you go in the world, there you are.’ and that applies to changing jobs too – a wise lady once told me ‘Whatever job you do, all of you will be there.’ So it is with Rachel in leaving the safety of sixteen years in one place of work, to fly forth and expand into new opportunities.

569. There is no holding back here Rachel which is gorgeous as it asks the reader where in our life do we allow abuse? Do we just ignore it or let it pass? Whilst reading your blog I put out my hand to see if I could straighten my fingers!!! And before reading your blog I asked myself am I in comfort at work? For I know I am currently in forms of comfort throughout my life, this was clear to me today. So I guess the question is do we want truth, love, freedom to let go of all that is not us and all that is not love or do we still hold onto even the smallest amount of abuse as a comfort blanket? And that includes the abuse we have for ourselves in over-eating, negative thoughts, not honouring what we feel. It is always our choice but what do we choose and why do we choose it. Although it is not a familiar or known place where you are in right now it feels an incredibly beautifull one ✨

570. Comfort is an uncomfortable bed to lie in – and a lie it is, a setup to keep us small and powerless.

571. I am deeply touched by this call back to the divinity we represent. Loving ourselves so deeply that we disallow any abuse … I hear your call Rachel, and uncurl my fingers.

572. The saying ‘everything in moderation’ does not stand in the light of truth. “For even one drop of abuse is poison to the whole.”

573. Rachel what a deeply healing blog and a true blessing to come to this awareness. “How can I not, in the face of this truth, let go of the uncomfortable safety we call comfort and thus restore myself to the Living Son of God I am?” I am with you, thank you for sharing.

574. Thankyou Rachel for sharing so openly and honestly about what you have come to understand and deeply know for yourself to be true. It takes courage to make such a decision when the future is uncertain, but when you know abuse, however insignificant it may seem, you know, and there is nothing that can get in the way of this.

575. There is such poetry in your expression and you hold humanity in your precious hands as you write this, as i feel you have written these questions and shared your experience, not only for you but for us all.

576. in the allowing of abuse, as I have done so much of in the past, i can begin to see now just how harming it is to ourselves, to the abuser and to all others – by not speaking up to that energy is a green light to allow it to flourish, and in the reaction /or hurt to being abused, we too fuel the energy of the dynamic setting up a self-perpetuating cycle of harm. We cannot deal with it from reaction but only from a place of love, so our first responsibility is to develop that foundation of love within ourselves, where abuse has no place whatsoever..

577. Abuse has become such a normal in life there is a kind of given-up-ness to even dealing with it, but Rachel I hear your call back to love.

578. Comfort, a word I have misunderstood for so long, believing it to be something that is natural to us. And yet it is not our natural way as I now understand, for we are not here to just amble along, our natural way is to be at work in purpose, and to always be in discernment to each and every moment and the feelings we have of whether this is a supportive place we bring ourselves to or not. In the case of Rachel’s job this being an example of where being in a job actually didn’t feel that comfortable at all, bringing a health stop. Something I have experienced myself too.

579. “For even one drop of abuse is poison to the whole.” – but we excuse behaviours that are not extreme, we tolerate them because we think they are not harming us. Much like the ‘everything in moderation’ mindset with foods and drinks, justifying it with ‘a little bit won’t hurt’. But all the while, our body is registering all of these little poisons until one day it says ‘enough’ through an illness.

580. Modern ancient medicine: surrender to thy father´s will !

     1. The surprise is that there is actually something tangible and powerful to it – and it works, it doesn’t just feel good.

581. I have no words to describe the depth of your sharing Rachel, And I repeat here what touched me deeply and resounded in my body; ‘Do you feel the magnitude of the lack of trust you have had in yourself and consequently the lack of surrender to your Father’s Will? All of this I am revealing unto thee, the truth of your thus far Living Way…are you ready to release the fingers you have clenched hard, thus releasing us from the uncomfortable comfort you have made my home for so long? Are you at last, willing to let go that fearful control of circumstance that has felt like the only way to make your way through life? Are you willing to know that you are enough, more than enough? Are you yet willing to hand yourself unto God’s way, as he would live on Earth?” We are all Sons of God, lets live in the surrender of our Father’s Will.

     1. Yes, Annelies, this is such a powerful piece of writing, such a loud rallying call to surrender to our Father’s will beautifully expressed.

582. What a true and clear reminder to be aware of abuse in any form, even in the minutest way, as the insidious poison it is.
     “But to do so I have had to learn the greatest lesson of my life…that is to say no to abuse in its tiniest expression.
     For even one drop of abuse is poison to the whole”.

     1. Stephanie, this is a great point to flag up. It is one that I am acutely aware of and yet it is one that I still allow. What am I trading I hasten to add? What is it in me that allows abuse knowing the poison it is, perhaps as I write this its because I can’t directly see the poison, I can feel it – at different levels – but because I place more on the physical than the energy I put up with something that is killing me and that which the abuse pours through.

583. Wow Rachel, what a beautiful and heart felt blog! Thank you.

584. I admire the choice to make a decision to break the comfort! It brings more honesty to my own life and where I hold on to comfort. And how often I accept forms of abuse and bullying. They are often indeed very subtle. More and more do I feel how much they do affect me. I’ve been a master in denying what things do to me and kept often very quiet. But this isn’t the way. In all the moments that I accept anything less than love I’m saying no to myself. This is quite painful to really feel, but it also brings back a level of self-worth and self-love that I haven’t experienced before.

585. I can feel the total surrendering and love of self and humanity in your beautiful expression , Rachel. This is so inspiring for me and a prompt to take stock of my own life and what I am accepting that is not okay but is considered normal. Thank you from my inner heart.

     1. I felt this too Anne. Also the questions Rachel shared are written from wisdom and delivered with love. I will be reading this again, as what Rachel has shared has multi-layers and much for me to ponder and learn.

586. What you share here is the ability for every other person who feels the comfort in a situation, to say ‘is this truly supporting me’ – that is massive. Especially at a time where people look for security and security for the long term. So hats off to making the move of saying no to comfort and yes to whatever is next. For I have found that to be uncomfortable is how I am able to keep evolving and moving forward and never stand still.

587. “… The doctor can only play his part, the rest is up to me; is my part. It is the life I live and how I choose to live it…” This is indeed our part of health care to take responsibility of.

588. A powerful statement and declaration of self love by saying an absolute ‘No’ to abuse, no matter how ‘small’ or subtle it may appear. Very inspiring Rachel, thank you for sharing!

589. It’s funny as someone just said to me a few minutes ago, along the lines of you’re too sensitive – the thing is we see sensitivity as a bad thing, but really it’s not at all, it’s glorious, it is our reaction to what we feel that is. So it’s not that we are too sensitive – we can never be, but it’s how we respond to what we feel, rather than react and take it personally. Something I am working on.

     1. I agree Gyl – sensitivity is a word that is used to almost like name-calling. It feels to me people will label another ” too sensitive” when they are not yet ready to consider that the current situation or environment may actually be a bit harsher than what is truly supportive for us to shine and not constrict to fit in. Some are comfortable with constriction, others find it stifling – this is sensitivity but it isn’t a fault, it is simply awareness. Bring on the sensitivity I say – if we were all more aware and expressed it, then there would be much less abuse allowed to brew.

     2. “You’re too sensitive” can also communicate “accept abuse and life exactly as it is and don’t use your sensitivity to highlight what’s really going on here because then we are all responsible for the truth presented.” Sensitivity therefore brings a necessary discomfort.

     3. Unless we use it as a front to be irresponsible.

590. This is very beautiful and oh so deeply uncomfortable as I can feel and see how much abuse I allow in my life and how in fact to do so is poison; I love that you’ve exposed this, and I honour your bravery in doing so and taking the steps to address it, and you’ve got me asking how willing am I to say no to abuse, even in the smallest measure? How willing am I to surrender to and trust in that fact that we all have the resources we need and that we are part of a greater Divine plan? There is work to be done here.

591. Most of my life dropping control and letting go of what I consider security has only happened when my back has been against the wall. But the thing is that when I have finally surrendered, I have been blown away by how freeing and empowering the process was for me and everyone else involved. I find that there are always signs quite early on when something needs letting go of or extra care. Much wiser to pay attention to such prompts well before I am forced to do so.

592. This blog is very striking, I look forward to reading it again and again, each time taking in a new lesson.

593. Wow Rachel, what a process you are allowing. Your sense of surrender is palpable. Accepting divine will whole heartedly. A huge inspiration. Thank you.

594. Our body is an amazing marker of our choices! It’s beautiful how you saw what was happening in your body not just as a nuisance, something random or something to ignore and carry on regardless but as worthy of considering what it may be communicating and offering by way of learning or evolving…

595. The level of abuse we accept for the sake of staying in a ‘safe’ position, whether it is a job or a relationship etc., is something that is not often talked about in our society – we can all feel the devastation of it, but we brush it off and keep going as if it does not exist. How important your sharing is to start to break down this consciousness of ‘safety’.

596. Thankyou for your beautiful and open sharing, Rachel. Surrendering and opening to trust – an inspiring post.

597. When we hold on to security, our light within is wrapped in a blanket keeping it obscured from everyone and evolution reaches a dead end alley!

598. Why have we allowed life for us to be the ball in a pinball machine and excepted it as normal? Could it be that because the game is rigged to start with! We have chosen to make sure its foundation is not level! When we level the playing field our actions are based on our movements, not some outside force.

599. Rachel your writing is very timely and holds your deep acceptance of the role you have always known to be the only role to live by, simply to be ready, always, to respond to God’s call.

600. Your writing Rachel is an invite to make the space needed to allow God to work with us. Allowing ourselves the grace to be still so we can feel the call of God and respond.

601. It is a huge step to leave a well paid job after so many years, without having a back up or a safety net, and to make a true call on the abuse taking place during your employment.

602. Sharing the truth of where you are at has touched me and I can see from the comments, all of us who have read your blog. Thank you for posing these poignant questions to yourself that I cannot help but now consider in relation to how I am living.

603. Getting out of the security of a long-held but abusive job is, I imagine, rather like leaving a long term abusive relationship, i.e. a challenge, but the feeling of freedom, of expansion, and the opportunities we are willing to consider that we wouldn’t before, are limitless.

604. As I read your blog Rachel I felt so much joy with every word that I was reading. Saying No to abuse is saying yes to love and the more of us who do this the more reflections of love we will have in the world. No amount of saying we will not accept abuse works, the only thing that works is changing ourselves and aligning to what is true.

605. I am lost for words reading this but left with feeling and knowing deeply what is being exposed in this article. The abuse in the comfort and all because of our desire for security, we and that is most live in, is heartbreaking. What you have shown is by stepping away from security and now you are not in this environment any longer the abuse to your body can be so much more easily seen and is platform to share with others so we can look more closely at our lives, which is deeply inspiring – Thank you.

606. What a sublime flow you write with here Rachel – and what a gorgeous demonstration of what it is like to live in line with our true light. When we reflect back on life the way that you do here, isn’t it absurd the tensions and dramas we have in our head? If we really allowed through the fullness of God’s might and lived every step knowing this Love is so right – how could we ever fret about being unemployed, unwell, or hurt in some way? We have every support we could ever need.

607. This is such a beautifully written expression of your commitment to love Rachel. Your words hold the power of your lived experience and love.

608. ‘I have had to learn the greatest lesson of my life…that is to say no to abuse in its tiniest expression’ – This is such an important lesson to learn, otherwise as many people do we may live our entire lives justifying the abuse we receive and why we should keep quiet rather than speak up. The damage of abuse is so much deeper than what is actually said or done by another person, because we then accept this into our bodies, take it on and let our self doubts and mind make what has been expressed into something we can continually bash ourselves over.

609. I have done something similar to you recently Rachel and walked away from abuse, what I didn’t realise or could not truly see is the abuse I was accepting whilst I was still in it. My lack of self worth accepted it as ‘normal’ and it wasn’t until I was free from it that I was able to look back and feel just how harmful it was.

610. ‘“Here you go,” it has said to me, “take a look at how you have been negotiating your way through life.’ And so our bodies speak back to us, reveal to us just how out of whack we are with the divine order of God and the absolute expression of an all-encompassing Love. This is an awesome article that has arisen from an awesome decision, to reject the constant low level abuse that the cosy nest is lined with and embark on a new phase of life that is completely and Soul-ly (spelling intended) about Love, Integrity and Respect, qualities not commonly lived in this world at present, but essential if we are to resurrect our true vitality, health and community the world over.

611. Absolutely gorgeous, Rachel!! Thank you.

612. The compromises we make for the comforts of safety are the abuse we choose to accept to be protected from hurt thereby ignoring the constant ache of suppressing the innate sense and knowing that anything less than love is unbearable and unacceptable. It is us who are scarring by choice not so much the body but the immortal being that life after life in the stupor of giving-up-ness exists and survives but doesn´t live the glory of its divine origin for the sake of the one and only comfort it has sacrificed itself for – being the creator of its own creation.

613. Incredible Rachel, it often takes serious illness, or stop moment to truly feel the level of abuse we’ve allowed in our lives. The depth of your awakening is felt by all and understood by those who also chose love over abuse.

614. In essence any time we are not expressing love (in the true meaning which does not contain an ounce of emotion) we are being abusive. Therefore in reality we are all abusive at times and all receive abuse. As we become more aware and self-loving our measure changes so we accept less and less abuse and are less and less abusive – it is all part of our evolution and an ongoing process.

     1. Certainly it is very healing to become aware of this whole game and say yes to love rather than saying yes abuse. As always this starts with ourselves and our expression. At Unimedpedia – http://www.unimedliving.com/unimedpedia/word-index you can find great descriptions of Love, Essence and Soul which is what is healing to say yes to and an expose spirit and comfort which are behind abuse and harm.

615. Rachel this is deeply inspiring as it shows that in that tenure position we put up with so much, we allow so much abuse and for myself I know that abuse can come in so many ways, subtle ways but all debilitating ways. All ways that stop us shining the fullness of the son of God we are and the light on earth that we are here to shine, just add some dirt to that shine the abuse says but in truth there is no room for any abuse. You share why and how this happens and for me it inspires me to stand tall to what I know truth to be and seek out and dissolve where all that abuse comes from and why I allow it. For the armour around my heart has stayed there far too long, the war is my choosing and one for me to let go of.

616. Thank you Rachel, a beautiful sharing that inspires us to look at what little abuses we accept in order to keep a grip on our own comfortable existence. To live in connection to our Soul and to listen to the call of Love is to know The Way of The Livingness is the way to be with ourselves and in the world.

617. Within the choice to claim your vulnerability Rachel I can feel such grace, such honesty and such strength. I can feel that no matter what unfolds from here that you will be with yourself 100% in total presence so that you do not miss an opportunity to hear what your precious body is sharing with you.

618. This is a great call for us all to look at what level of abuse we allow into our lives. As you say Rachel, it is so normal to say “get over it”, “what’s wrong with you?”, “you’re too sensitive” because we are all involved in this same form of abuse and have become used to it, but as you say there is a price to it. Our bodies will one day say enough is enough and will show us the illness or disease that is has developed over the years to counter all the poison we have let in because of this low level of abuse we experience day after day and have accepted as being normal to life.

619. Deep are the places where we can so steadfastly resist this: “To live as God would live on Earth.”
     “NO!” a part of us screams, as it grasps in the way you’ve described to the familiar way of abuse… “Don’t let this go!” – for it is the way in which I hold myself as less – less than He.
     Thank-you Rachel, as ever for your words of depth, honesty, and liberation. Words that light the path for all – or rather, show us that the path has actually always BEEN lit, it’s just we that can choose so intensively to not see the light of the Son that stands ever before us, or should I say, within us, in all of its magnificence…

620. Rachel I also feel in the vulnerability and yet equal grace from the body that God and Love speaks the loudest. Surrender and go there, that place where we know so well, go deeper into where the Soul leads.

621. ‘Shall I ever allow abuse again?’ Abuse is far more present in our lives than we think it is – self-abuse, and abuse from others. Once we realise its magnitude – allow ourselves to feel it – there can be no turning back if we are at all interested in a life lived in truth. And yes, the body suffers when we allow abuse and needs time to recover and heal. It’s so beautiful to read of your surrender to this process Rachel.

622. Superb Rachel. Saying no to abuse is huge, as is surrendering to the body and the divine. All will unfold as it should.

623. Stunning blog Rachel. We can hang on as tightly as we like to a way of being but our body will be the one to shake us, to wake us and bring to our attention that it isn’t working.

624. Stunning block Rachel. We can hang on as tightly as we like to a way of being but our body will be the one to shake us, to wake us and bring to our attention that it isn’t working.

     Duplicate

625. Thank you Rachel – simply and sweet of how it goes and how it is.. We even got a true connection to ourselves or not, one is the presence of love and one is the lack of love expressed, both ways will gives us the answer that then will result into all of our movements and ways of being (behaviors etc.)

626. Stunning Rachel, to say no to abuse in every form is something many of us are yet to do… even understanding it’s insidious forms as you describe is a big step for most. Stepping out and saying yes to true love and to truth in your life can definitely be a scary step, but I bet your body is well and truly celebrating the fact as we speak.

627. Rachel, thank you. I felt very uncomfortable reading your sharing as I could feel how much of those little abuse I have been allowing and the way my body has been feeling lately echoes the same sentiment of gripping and bracing. So utterly divine how your body has taken a full advantage of the moment. We are incredibly loved.

628. These are truly exquisite ponderings that you offer us Rachel. We are the many who have sought comfort in the darkness, numb to the light of our true being until we are presented with a moment of grace, be it illness or calamity, through which we are offered an opportunity to once more resurrect the truth we have long buried deep within. Until such a time medicine can serve to help us alleviate the pain that such a withdrawal from the light causes, but can do naught to arrest the true ill that seeded forth the dis-ease in the first place. As you so wisely state – even the greatest medicine can only treat that which we give it access to treat. And thus we must dig deeper if we are to truly arise to our former glory as the living Sons of Thy Heavenly Father.

629. I so appreciate being offered the opportunity to read your blog this morning. My comment in response, my mere written words would not divulge how your expression has touched a deep place within and warmed every particle of my being through your loving inspiration.

630. What a beautiful description Rachel of the path of responsibility, recognising what you have been dismissing and ignoring, getting honest and listening to what the body has taken on in this process. Then seeking help and engaging in healing with the help of others but most importantly seeking the source of the ill within your own life and sealing the door once and for all. Arriving at the truth of who you are and knowing that living that first and foremost means there is not once ounce of room for abuse.

631. Dearest Rachel, one of the most exquisite, vulnerable, fragile, open pieces of writing I have read in quite some time. It is like you held us all in your palm and read us your story. I was deeply touched by your sharing of your experience and not really sure how I can put in words. I hear the call to surrender to our bodies, to lessen (or let go) the reins we have on life and to all ourselves to be held by God and surrender to that holding. Thank you dear one, Sarah

632. Hi Rachel, I see that you also have had ‘the whole life-lived to date’ pass through your body. Seeing all one’s choices playing havoc in the body is enough to understand that comfort, security, playing less than another, allowing abuse, irresponsibility, opting to play safe and nice rather than true and even eating what may appear healthy food that we know does not support us creates a war in the body that sooner or later catches up with us.

     1. I like the way you describe the abuse to the body as war, a war that goes on for many years, if not many life times until we understand that we are all one and the same, children of our father and a divine being that needs to be treated with respect and dignity. Once we allow ourselves to come to this understanding, not only the internal war will come to an end but with that also the external wars, which are with us maybe as long as our human existence on earth.

     2. Kathleen, this is so true, we carry on making choices that do not support our bodies because we think we can get away with it and it’s what everyone else is doing. The more I connect to what is true the more I can see how many choices I make that do not serve me and change them for a truer way of being.

633. Courage to step out of the nest and trust the way forward, and saying no to abuse.. a very incredible mark of commitment and dedication.

634. A truly extraordinary piece of writing that bares such a vulnerability that one can’t but contemplate what we ourselves have chosen, or question what we have allowed. Letting go of what has artificially propped us up at the same time it has tied our wings, allows us to once again remember how beautiful it is to fly.

635. To choose to allow absolute vulnerability requires absolute trust that ‘Divinity’ rises to the surface in a form that is exactly as it is to be for you as the ‘Son of God’ you are. The humility and deeply sensitive person you are can be felt Rachel. Your transparency when you nominate the uncomfortable comfort, which is littered with such subtle abuse is a blessing. Taking responsibility for our lives in the face of everything that has ‘looked after us’ in return for our soul is your chosen medicine here and I deeply appreciate your sharing.

636. Wow how often do we compromise and put up with abuse and other aspects we clearly know is not right because we make security more important than love and truth we know deep inside.

637. It’s amazing how we put more pressure or more focus on one part or piece of life than another, like a job for example. We don’t just see it as an equal part of life but at times the most important when in fact the most important part is always you. No matter what the heading or title laid out before you is, how you are in it is important. Like this article is saying if there is an impact on you no matter how subtle that no longer supports you then it’s time to let whatever is there go. It maybe, as in this case the leaving of a position but for some it could also be a letting go within that may not have such an obvious outside outplay. We only think there are subtleties in life because we are tuned to only see extremes when in fact no matter how ‘big’ it looks everything is felt no matter what it is.

638. Rachel I appreciate your honesty, fragility and openness in your sharing of this blog especially to the piece..” For one drop of abuse is poison to the whole” and where that is no longer acceptable to you.

639. “For even one drop of abuse is poison to the whole.” This takes away the self, the individuality we live in as a society, and brings us back to humanity as a whole and respecting our fellow brothers… to brotherhood.

640. This needs to be on a sign in every doctor/specialist/hospital wall… “I also know that even the greatest medicine can only treat that which I give it access to treat. The doctor can only play his part, the rest is up to me; is my part. It is the life I live and how I choose to live it.” Bringing the responsibility of our health back to each and every one of us.

641. I am beginning to understand that even the the slightest abuse, or accepting less than love is actually illness and disease. It’s a much deeper level of illness and disease than we ordinarily think it is, but it will and does manifest physically somewhere down the line. It’s always worth pondering on when our bodies do develop a physical condition, what is it that we are accepting that isn’t true that our bodies need to clear?

642. We become so familiar with abuse that we don’t notice it any more. When we do, we feel overly sensitive and try to shut it down, but our body feels everything and it needs to figure out a way to cope, to pretend it didn’t happen. What you have shared here is why it is important and you build a trust that surrendering is not just ok, it is vital for both physical and mental health.

643. When we say no to abuse we open a door to be able to love ourselves more.

644. Thank you Rachel for this very open, honest and deeply inspiring blog.
     I can so relate to the subtle levels of abuse I allow in my life and have dished out to others. As I read this I understand how dangerous it is to live being falsely bolstered by nesting in a comfortable way that allows me to accept things that are not true , like the ways I let myself and others undermine me. If I cleaned up all my pockets of comfort – like my wasting time on purposeless things when I have ‘down time’ or eating all that extra food as a pseudo desert when my stomach has had enough I would be clear enough to see and feel even the most subtle abuse that I do to myself in thoughts or the way I do things harshly and I would stop them. I wouldn’t let the subtle abuses from others come my way and accept them either. From the underlying tension in my body,I really get how uncomfortable comfort really is, so time for a a comfort clean up.

645. That feeling of leaving a job with no ‘safety net’ or job to go into can be very daunting. Having changed jobs three times in the last year I remember how crippling it was to try to secure another job. But the more I appreciate how I feel, what my body says about my work I find that I am supported. As such in December I had no job to move into and yet trusted my feelings in that I was making the right choice to leave and I don’t regret it.

646. This is a very important piece of writing because it is an honest account of the journey one makes away from living a life trapped by comfort.

647. Wow – if we actually were taught this from young – given ourselves this depth of true medicine.

     Rachel. this is exquisite – in fact, exquisite doesn’t even cut it. I read this and wanted to bow to you, in the humility you have expressed here, the submission of all the arrogance we hold on to with the ‘grin and bear it’ adage we do grow up with, being done with and replaced with the vastness of a body in complete surrender to God’s will.

     It may seem an impossibility to some, but of course it is not. It is simply a case of our own will, of making the choice to use this physical body we are in, our vessel, either for the indulgence and entertainment of a being that wants to numb and squeal itself through life (putting up with abuse is all part of that), or choosing to submit our body to the grandness it in fact belongs to – simply by cherishing it to the very core, understanding that ‘even one drop of abuse is poison to the whole.’

     1. And just as ‘one drop of abuse is poison to the whole’, so too is one drop of Divinity the healing elixir for the part of us that has lived in separation to such Oneness.

        1. Hear hear Liane. Removing one makes room for the other.

648. Wow, what a revelation Rachel and what a divine reflection your honest sharing is offering to us all.

649. To give up a job for reasons of abuse is a beautiful thing, and I love the trust it shows in knowing that there will be support for a true choice made. It is amazing how we get looked after when we are committed to the truth of what is needed to support our bodies best. I find it always helps to consider the deeper purpose of why we are here on this planet, and how we are so well placed to help one another to evolve.

650. What an exquisite sharing from deep within you Rachel, it is over flowing with truth that our waywardness has no where to hide after reading it. The subtleties of abuse we put up with because we don’t want to be seen to make such a big issue about, is polluting our business places, our homes, our communities, our schools etc. and leaving us battered and playing with tolerance, even though every cell in our bodies are screaming out otherwise.

651. It is great that you talk about the silent abuse that happens in the work place Rachel. There is a saying ‘turn the other cheek’ but if we do this are we not saying we are accepting something that is not acceptable. The more we accept this the more we numb ourselves to abuse and the harm it inflicts on the body even when there is no physical contact. I am learning that if someone says something to me that is unacceptable, I say that is not a loving way to say that, and it releases the hurt that I have felt, rather than bottling it up like I used to, and it usually stops the person from continuing in the way they speak and offers an opportunity to clear what has just been said.

652. Beautíful Rachel, you present so clear that in truth life is about something else than most are willing to see. To have true evolution in the world we can bring it back to simplicity. It is about making it about our body agiain. To put the care for our body as number one. This is the only way the numbers of illnesses will decrease.

653. What a brilliant and passionate blog Rachel. I love how you have dived into the so-called unknown which is really a free fall into true freedom and joy. As you say we appear to become so inured to the constant, relentless torture and abuse that people inflict upon each there . . . and yet we feel everything that is not Love loudly and clearly.

654. This comfort thing that we find in security that you are talking about Rachel is huge in our world today.
     What we are willing to put up with in the name of security because that is exactly what it is.
     We dare not risk it or step outside the box and instead just put up with it – suck it up. It being abuse.

     So here we have you in a professional job that society would see as a well paid secure future, saying no and not knowing where that No will lead to. Allowing things to unfold in divine natural order.

     Great that you have come to this and the realisation that there is nothing greater than to have a life deeply dedicated to your essence, which is Love.
     All I know is Love is Truth and Truth is God.

     1. “there is nothing greater than to have a life deeply dedicated to your essence, which is Love” so true Bina, so well said, thank you.

     2. “There is nothing greater than to have a life deeply dedicated to your essence, which is Love” – this, sat me up straight, Bina. What do we get out of living less than this? What would comfort of security offer us? And I don’t want accept the answers to these questions as what I live for. Not any more.

     3. ‘there is nothing greater than to have a life deeply dedicated to your essence, which is Love’. Thank you Bina, a deeply felt truth.

     4. Your absoluteness, commitment and dedication is an inspiration Bina, thank you.

655. “Never have I allowed such a level of open vulnerability in my life. Never have I allowed such a level of surrender, never have I stated that I trust myself so deeply and all of the resource that comes, innate, rich and sourced from deep within me.” Dearest Rachel, what a magnificent breakdown of the settlement within your body, a stillness between your in and out breath that offers a magnitude of grace in which to be vulnerable and to know with absoluteness that there is so much more beyond this world than what we see.

     1. Well said! I was struck by the same section – the whole blog really but this section stood out for the settlement in the body, as I read it, I was given the opportunity to feel that settlement in my body too.

656. The effects of subtle abuse takes its toll for sure … “It is an abuse that does not mark the flesh, but rather more insidiously leaves its bruises deep and unseen upon the heart and the being…” It is inspiring to read how you drew a line in the sand and literally said ‘enough!’

657. A powerful, tender, fragile and awesome blog Rachel, which has touched deep into my heart with the reflection of the choices made that contribute to my body communicating that it has been overridden and how this impacts upon in its true health and wellbeing.
     “The doctor can only play his part, the rest is up to me; is my part. It is the life I live and how I choose to live it”.

658. there’s an image of finger gripping a surface trying to avoid slipping back into the arms of the most loving embrace possible… indeed leave no stone unturned medically but take responsibility for our choice to live by the rules that are not working or the responsibility that has been the only thing that has made a difference

659. Thank you Rachel, it is true not only ‘bad bacteria’, viruses and gene mutations make us ill but also the details of the life that we live, the abuse we allow, even if it is just the tiniest bit can make us live not in our natural way which then makes us ill. This last mentioned can well be bringing forth the weak spots for viruses and gene mutations as in the end everything is energy as presented by Serge Benhayon, there everything can have an effect on our physicality, because it is also energy.

660. To say no to abuse and yes to true love is a choice we’re to all make one day. I love your honesty, raw and realness in this blog Rachel. It also leaves me uncomfortable as I can see how I allow myself to make choices that are not loving and so are abusive. My (strong) pattern is to beat myself up for what I chose and to make things personal. Now I am learning that I can re-turn to me by just one simple choice, connecting to my body. There’s a lot of love within me. From that love I’m learning that I can be there for myself and treat myself very loving and caring. We’re worth the dedication and love that is shared here in this blog. Thank you for the inspiration, I deeply appreciate your sharing. That it may inspire people all around the world and beyond.

661. What a delicate beautiful sensitive piece of writing that unfolds one persons life story when they have allowed themselves to open their wings and leave the nest….

662. I recently had a deep hurt that needed to be resolved. To assist in this process, I wrote the history of a period of my life where hurts may have been hiding, in an effort to dig. It took 4 goes of, ‘that’s all of it’ and the layers just kept coming, like the child that finds the fun that can be had with the toilet paper roll!. The sheets I had written exposed a pattern in the choices I continually made. I could now archive them like old newspapers or see what they exposed and evolve from them. Is always good to dig a little deeper to discover what we have buried so long ago.

     1. So beautiful Steve. I am inspired anew.

663. I find this deeply inspiring Rachel. To surrender and let yourself feel vulnerable is quite difficult for most seemingly so. It can make one feel totally in no control of the situation before them whatsoever yet it is the control that ironically is causing the ill we do not like and may not in truth have had if we were to surrender in the first place

     1. Wise words Joshua, well said.

664. There is without doubt more to illness and disease than meets the eye.

665. Poetry of the awakened servant.

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