Opening of my heart

By Irene Sheard, Aged care worker and grandmother, Goonellabah

We often hear the phrase “opening our heart” but what does it truly mean?

There are a lot of references about the heart such as hard hearted, mean hearted, cold hearted, and of course the one many aspire to, “open hearted”. I have always considered myself a fairly “kind hearted” person who cared about others and made myself available to help others whenever I could. It is easy and convenient to think of ourselves in this way as we then don’t have to change anything and can keep living our life in the same old way, but how true is this perception of ourselves?  Could what we think is our heart be an emotional part of us and not the original loving heart?

I have been unfolding this question for some years now by attending presentations by Serge Benhayon, the founder of Universal Medicine.

One of the first things I realised by attending these presentations is that I am already everything that is glorious and loving and that the parts of me that I think I am are only cover ups that I have learnt to live by, to literally cover up my hurts.  I then believe that I am this person, whether it be a positive belief, such as “I am loving and caring” or a negative belief that I am “a horrible person who hurts others”.

As I dug deeper into this I realised that my behaviours had developed in reaction to my past hurts and fears and that I wasn’t being as gentle and loving with others as I had previously believed and I especially wasn’t being gentle and loving with myself.

As I explored further I began to feel the harshness and hardness in which I lived.  It was quite shocking to me at first, but when I started to make those first steps towards gentleness (a bridge to love) I could then feel the depth of the hardness and how far away from love I was actually living. As I took these small steps I could feel a melting away of the hardness and a more connected way of being.  I was able to realise this by observing how I was feeling in my body.

I began to understand the teaching by Serge Benhayon that “The body is the marker of all Truth” and this allowed me, with the support of Universal Medicine practitioners, to feel deeper and deeper into my body and I started to understand its language.  I no longer felt a victim of my body and began to understand it was my friend and I began to take notice of its messages.

I started by practising gentleness in my daily actions in life, such as cleaning the house, cleaning my teeth, washing my face, drying my body after a shower, putting on makeup, washing up and putting myself to bed for the night.

My life started to change to a less chaotic way of living where I was able to feel a rhythm to my day and a lovely letting go at night for rest.

I was definitely feeling a more loving sense towards myself, but sometimes I chose to ignore the messages from my body, especially when I felt I needed to please others. I became more aware of my “helping” patterns and started questioning the reasons I did things for others and what energy I actually did them in. I realised the reasons I helped others was that I found it almost impossible to say “no” to requests and that I enjoyed the fact that I could be seen as “a good person”.

This was not an easy pattern to change.  There were reactions from the people who had experienced my willingness to “help” in spite of my own needs.  These reactions were mainly from family members whom I had taken on as a “rescue mission” for years and believed I could help them live a “better” life.  It allowed me to feel important and that I had all the answers, that they weren’t even searching for.  Suffice to say this was very exhausting on my body.  It tried to tell me by manifesting chronic fatigue, depression and anxiousness. In the past I had only used band-aid solutions to deal with these conditions but now felt I needed to explore the deeper causes.

I then began to feel how many “hurts” I had experienced over the years.  This was even harder to feel and admit but as I started to release these hurts from my body it felt lighter and more settled.  I learnt that I actually have a choice to allow someone else to so-called “hurt” me, or instead I can bring understanding to the situation and allow my heart to stay “open” and in connection with myself and others.

This was a process that took some time to unfold and is something I still deal with on a daily basis.  I started to feel a lot more energetic, a lot lighter and began to enjoy my life and take steps that I never would have imagined I could take when I was so bound by my old patterns of hurt and fear.

Part of this process was to start to take responsibility for my health and I began to have medical checkups, something I had neglected in the past.

In 2016, six years after I was introduced to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, I was diagnosed with chronic heart disease.  I had four blocked heart arteries, the main ones severely blocked.

This was a shock to me, to my friends and family and even the doctors, who were puzzled as I presented as a healthy, vibrant 71-year-old woman. A very different person than I had been six years previously. The angiogram pictures revealed to me someone who had been contracted for a long time by not allowing love to flow in and out of their heart.

I was offered a procedure where the cardiologist would drill the blocked calcium from my arteries and insert metal stents to hold the arteries open.   The blockages were so massive that the procedure ended up taking over three hours, an unusually long time.

It took me some time to come to terms with and accept this diagnosis and the subsequent procedure as I believed myself to be super healthy by this stage of my life, but because I had learnt to “read” what my body was telling me, I was able to understand that my heart was now showing me how contracted and harsh I had been living for so long.

I now have an opportunity with open arteries to live in a more “open hearted” way.

This process continues and expands as I learn to be more honest with myself and others and not live with the pressure that I need to be a “nice, caring” person so others will like me.

It is all here within my own heart, I just need to be open to listening to the true energy of the heart, not the false, emotional one that can overlie it.

I wonder what my other organs have in store to tell me?

Read more:

  1. The way we are living is killing us. 
  2. The Roseto Effect – A lesson on the true cause of heart disease. 

697 thoughts on “Opening of my heart

  1. Even those traits we consider ‘good’ are not necessarily all of us for if we latch onto them and not be the fullness we are, we are being less, it’s obvious with traits we consider ‘bad’ but less so with those we cherish as ‘good’ – a great distinction.

  2. ‘I now have an opportunity with open arteries to live in a more “open hearted” way.’ How amazing is our body and its ability to heal, in a way the diagnosis was a compliment of what you were choosing in being more open and truly loving towards yourself and others. We are not used to looking at it in this way but you do after the initial shock.

  3. I also had one of those ‘caring hearts’ that was emotional rather than truly loving in the way I cared for others. It came from a role I had adopted to get by in life rather than from my deeply caring nature. It was also devoid of any care for myself, which would be a warning sign, if we (especially women) were not sold the belief that care = sacrifice.

  4. Being inspired to practise gentleness on a daily basis opens up our awareness to start feeling from our body and understanding how our choices impact us and the effect they have on our whole way of being so that we can choose to drop the hard protective layer we have been walking round with to then feel and release the true inner beauty and delicateness that we have been hiding all along.

    1. I agree Linda. A big part of being gentle with myself is accepting how I feel. I find when I try to push on and appear ‘ok’, my body suffers a lot. Whereas if I acknowledge that I feel anxious, tired etc my body can remain gentle and open.

  5. If we understood what the true meaning of the word love meant ie. no attachment or conditions but an openess to accept situations and people as they are then our heart would joyfully welcome and appreciate it. Holding onto hurts and imposing those hurts onto another is not love; being true to myself and holding it with not one ounce of reaction towards another is what I call love, a way of being that is natural and simple because of the willingness to love the self.

  6. We can very much support our own healing and recovery when we accept the messages our bodies are trying to give us instead of resenting them for showing us the truth of how we have been living but haven’t wanted to see. What is also very cool to feel is that the more we accept ourselves and are okay with being honest, real and who we truly are, and open to ourselves and others, the more life appears to open up to us.

  7. On a health note alone this shows the importance of letting love out and in .. something that I can very much feel I am currently not living and where I know I could be as I am feeling this in my body.

  8. Being willing to explore and be honest about the way in which we live allows us to open up our awareness to feel the true impact our choices have on our body and realise beneath the hard protective layer we are able to connect to a true delicateness and loving quality of being within our inner-heart untainted by all the false behaviours we have taken on.

  9. It really is no surprise that heart conditions are endemic in our world… It is so vital, essential that we take time to reconnect to our gentleness, to our stillness, and our inner heart.

  10. The more I move and express in a loving way consistingly, the more or quicker I can feel when I don’t. It’s like my heart closes, my body contracts and a hardness takes over, also in the way I speak. I had that yesterday in a conversation. What I appreciated in myself is that I was fully aware of it happening. I was reacting to a remark. Just by stopping myself and saying out loud: ‘oops, I reacted’ I gave myself an invitation to melt and open my heart again.

    1. Love it Caroline, being open and honest, transparent in this way, allows for instant reset and a different way in relationships that is bringing us up. This invitation extends to others too.

  11. In sharing your experience, I can’t help but notice that there’s a link between the lack of deep self love and love in expression with heart problems. The expression of love really is medicine for the body!

  12. When we have the experience of our chest lighting up, that beautiful warmth and glow spreading through our chest, in fact a general feeling of expansiveness, we do definitely have the feeling of our hearts opening.

  13. The heart is such a lovely barometer. It can fire up at any time and remind us of the love that we are connecting with. …..that we are.

  14. ” I wonder what my other organs have in store to tell me? ”
    Perhaps your heart said it all for now, as all your organs are now getting a full loving blood supply.

  15. When we start to make simple changes to our life like going to bed early, preparing for the next day and caring for ourselves, we begin to open up more and our love slowly begins to blossom.

  16. ” As I dug deeper into this I realised that my behaviours had developed in reaction to my past hurts and fears and that I wasn’t being as gentle and loving with others as I had previously believed and I especially wasn’t being gentle and loving with myself. ”
    This is a huge understanding , in how we allow our past experiences manifest how we are in our future interactions. Coming to this realisation allows for true change. Thank you for sharing Irene.

  17. “I now have an opportunity with open arteries to live in a more “open hearted” way” – I love this Floris! Such an inspiring way to look at our anatomy and how we can maximise healing of illness and disease.

  18. An open heart… a heart that allows others to come in and let the love to flow between each other without boundaries..

  19. “It is all here within my own heart, I just need to be open to listening to the true energy of the heart, not the false, emotional one that can overlie it.” Wise words indeed Irene. When we listen with the ‘ears of our heart’ we will never be fooled by anything that is not true. Emotional drama is simply a trick that gets in our way and pulls us away from staying connected to who we are.

  20. ” but when I started to make those first steps towards gentleness (a bridge to love) ”
    Its so important to start the process of re-connectecting to the love we all are in truth.

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