An Angel Calls

by Ulrike Baker, Lismore Heights, Australia

Twenty-six years ago whilst pregnant with my second child I was diagnosed with ovarian cancer, a dysgerminoma. Once the tumour the size of a football was removed, I went to term with the pregnancy and delivered my baby.

One month after the birth, scan results showed the cancer had spread throughout my uterus and to the other ovary and the radical treatment offered did not seem an option to me.  This treatment was radiotherapy and a radical hysterectomy. I did not have confidence in my doctor and on some level felt I would not survive the treatment. Subsequently, I discharged myself from the hospital.

The months that followed were filled with reading, seeking and trialing many alternative therapies, including energetic and psychic healing, macrobiotic diet, buying under the counter kombu, coffee enemas (oh, too much detail!), etc etc.

I felt I was getting stronger, with psychic surgeons saying ‘the mountain’ in my abdomen was shrinking. In actual fact I was getting worse to the point where I could no longer walk and was a shadow of my size now. This was all in the dogged belief I could heal through energetic/alternative means alone.

It took a friend from outside my immediate support network to see me looking like ‘ET’ and get me to hospital. This was 4 months after giving birth and 9 months after the initial operation. It was a different hospital under a different doctor who offered a different treatment. On admission the nurses said I wouldn’t last two days. However, when admitted to hospital I had a strong inner knowing that I would be OK, that I would heal from this disease.

When I was first admitted I had dangerously high levels of calcium in the blood so this needed to be stabilised before chemotherapy could commence. The treating doctors were not certain on the treatment for the high calcium levels, but proceeded to flush the calcium from my system, resulting in me blowing up like a balloon but gradually the calcium levels reduced. Following this, chemotherapy was started and my body slowly responded. (Maybe it was due to the million-dollar view of the harbour and the big boats in the Bicentenary Year!) In the months that followed, 25 years ago, the overnight visits for chemotherapy were anticipated with dread and I found the only way to get through them was to take charge and manage the situation. I did notice how other patients seemed so disempowered in their hospital bed and felt I had to be different to get through this. For example, I would walk laps of the hospital ward for hours pushing along the drip; manage my medication schedule by deciding when to have anti-nausea, sleeping and pain medication, so I could get through the overnight infusion of cis-platinum.

I knew at the time the decision to avoid hospitalisation was partly based on fear I had of any invasive treatments to the body ie surgery/needles and the fear of the pain this would inflict. I can say now that western medicine saved my life and within that I was still able to make decisions on how I would manage the treatment I received.

During the recovery phase, my family moved to the north coast of NSW. I saw my oncology doctors for the regular checkups and continually explored complementary medicine/alternative modalities as a means to provide a more holistic form of healing and to support my recovery. Over time this included herbal remedies, acupuncture, hypnotherapy, Chinese medicine, rebirthing, Bowen technique, colonics, Gematria, to name a few. I thought and felt at the time that with each new alternative treatment/modality I had found the answer. All that I did seemed right for me at the time, however I still had the sense of searching coming from deep within me.

One day I came across a flyer for an Esoteric Healing treatment in a local health food store. The Universal Medicine clinic had a lovely calm feeling about it, which felt somehow familiar and hence from having a treatment there I started to attend the presentations.

It’s through attending Universal Medicine presentations that my understanding and awareness of the healing process and of living has changed. I noticed how my previous decisions showed disregard for my body and that I wasn’t really taking responsibility for my wellness – that I still wanted something outside of myself to fix me without my committed input. This does not discount the need for medicine as a tool in assisting this process.

I discovered I held the key to my healing, that I have a responsibility to care for myself, every day and to seek help if all is not well with my body – that true medicine is the way I live. I have come to learn that healing comes from within and it is about the choices I make in each moment that can either bring me closer to my inner loveliness or keep me in separation.

Since that journey I am keenly aware in my body of the need for a balance between conventional medicine, complementary medicine  and now esoteric medicine (being open and allowing my own healing ability within).

602 thoughts on “An Angel Calls

  1. Conventional medicine is incredible, there’s no question that it can save our lives and it does just that for thousands (maybe more!) people every day. But when you combine it with esoteric medicine which gives you a deeper understanding of what’s going on and the tools to really care and nurture yourself, you get a whole new perspective on your health – and with the two together you have an amazing opportunity to truly change your well-being.

  2. ” I discovered I held the key to my healing, that I have a responsibility to care for myself, every day and to seek help if all is not well with my body – that true medicine is the way I live.”
    This is so beautiful and what a wonderfull learning thank you for sharing Ulrike.

  3. The partnership of western medicine and esoteric medicine work hand in hand in allowing ourselves to heal on a far deeper level and that by taking responsibility for ourselves we take an active and key role in healing ourselves and restoring our health and well-being.

  4. There is so much support for us out there that never goes away and is always there whenever we are ready to embrace it. There are also equally as many solutions that do not in truth support at least not in dealing with the root illness. I have learnt that it is only through being deeply honest and humble within ourselves that we can start to descern the difference.

  5. Wow what a turnaround Ulrike, it is great you began to accept western medicine and alongside the Esoteric Modalities you were able to fully support and bring true healing to your body. Your blog is a testimony of the power of how western medicine and the Esoteric Modalities work beautifully together and support us to be more responsible in the way we are living.

    1. I can relate to a dismissal of western medicine as I have done this myself in the past, but ironically in discovering the esoteric healing modalities I have come to appreciate the science of western medicine more and would not hesitate to go to the doctor or seek medical help should I need to. In taking responsibility for our symptoms we can take responsibility for our healing and if part of that healing is to get conventional support then I have learned that this is the most supportive thing we can do.

  6. ‘I discovered I held the key to my healing, that I have a responsibility to care for myself, every day and to seek help if all is not well with my body – that true medicine is the way I live.’ This is such a powerful story and such an amazing message for all to read and understand that we hold the key to our own health and wellbeing in the simple choices we make every day in how we live.

  7. Ulrike, as I read this what stayed with me throughout was the strong inner knowing that you clearly always had – and how when Universal Medicine came along in your life, its teaching simply confirmed all that you already knew.

  8. What comes to me reading this is how blindly arrogant we can be when we reject the support offered by conventional medicine, and likewise how blindly arrogant are those who reject that Esoteric Medicine is the missing link which supports conventional medicine to offer true healing instead of just a cure.

  9. It is amazing what we are prepared to put ourselves through rather than trusting the medical profession who are extremely skilful at fixing most situations, and perform many life saving operations, when we use Esoteric healing alongside western medicine we get to heal the whole body, and through changing the way we live we also get to support our body everyday.

  10. Today I have an enormous amount of appreciation towards conventional medicine and when I read blogs such as this my appreciation deepens. But my appreciation towards conventional medicine has not always been the case as I have reacted quite soundly which I have come to understand that any reaction is abuse to my body. Thankfully I was able to let go of the reaction mainly towards others giving their power away to mainstream medicine and the fear of what conventional medicine would have on my body to welcoming and embracing it into my life, a turnaround that has been incredibly supportive to myself and my family.

  11. I can so relate to not having confidence in a doctor and turning to an alternative, and like you, in that, I was still seeking to be fixed and not quite understanding the part I had to play. Medicines are the tools and we are the key to the healing.

  12. It seems to me that our choice to heal really comes from ourselves and our relationship with our bodies. The rest is the specific support we choose from either traditional medicine, complementary or esoteric medicine, and sometimes, as you did, from all three.

  13. Before I came to Universal Medicine I would not regularly see the doctor, always trying to do everything myself even my own healing and it had to be “natural”. It was both a fear to uncover something by diagnosis I wouldn’t know how to deal with, and rejecting the chemicals inherent in pharmaceuticals, however these decisions for me really compromised my ability to truly take care of myself. As part of a presentation celebrating western medicine and their vital part in self care by Universal Medicine I started to open to seeing doctors regularly and I now have two wonderful doctors and they are both very supportive on many levels. They are both amazing doctors and truly caring, wonderful people. I have now had many different kinds of tests and procedures and am in awe of the care that can be in the medical system. The medical world is definitely not perfect, there can be incompetence on the part of medical professionals, but instead of reacting like I once would have I’ve made my self care a priority and discerned great care for myself with the right people.

  14. ‘I discovered I held the key to my healing, that I have a responsibility to care for myself, every day and to seek help if all is not well with my body – that true medicine is the way I live. I have come to learn that healing comes from within and it is about the choices I make in each moment that can either bring me closer to my inner loveliness or keep me in separation.’ Once we have felt this inner loveliness it would seem impossible that we would do anything to not be in it however we have had lifetimes of disregard and a lack of true caring so it is a gradual building of love in our body that happens and a continual appreciation and confirmation of this that allows us to change our lives around.

  15. Wow Ulrike, what an incredible story. I can’t imagine what that was like to go through all of that… and give birth in the midst of it all. Knowing you as the delightfully playful and joyful woman I do today you are a true testimony to what it means to really heal.

    1. I completely agree. This would have been a hugely traumatic experience and yet, knowing you now Ulrike, your playfulness and gorgeousness is what shines through. There is not a skerrick of that trauma – which is why I was so amazed to read this and consider what actually took place. What an incredible example of true healing.

  16. Your experience Ulrike illustrates to me how important conventional medical treatments are in supporting us in the process of healing our physical body. For without conventional medicines – analgesia, antibiotics, chemotherapy, vaccinations, diagnostic procedures and treatments as examples – it does not bear thinking about where we would be today and the depth of suffering we would be feeling.

  17. So beautiful to read Ulrike how you did not hand over your power to the medical system but stayed in connection, although partly from fear for pain etc, with how you felt to manage the medical treatment. You just knew how to be part of the healing within conventional medicine.

  18. I can’t imagine going through all of that after you just gave birth, it is amazing that you came out the other end really. It is great that you are now able to see what a huge support Western Medicine is but you did it your way, making sure you are in your power with the walking and feeling when to have what.

  19. Wow Ulrike what a story, from the search on the outer to true responsibility, an incredible journey in finding that true medicine comes from within, from this place we move and accept what is needed to heal.

  20. After so much searching and unsettlement, it is beautiful to come to a place where you get to truly understand the responsibility we have in our own health and well being, and how the choices we make in each moment allow you to connect to and find the settlement within, or separate from it.

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