Healing Inflammatory Bowel Disease

By Stephen Gammack, Fitness Instructor, Somerset,UK.

Back in 2000 as a fairly healthy – or so I thought – 22 year old, I started to develop a problem. When I went to the toilet I would notice blood in my stool. I did what most adult males would do and I ignored it, hoping it would go away. Later that year it became more of an issue as it was affecting my ability to play football – now that was a real problem, so I went to the doctor.   I got tested and was diagnosed with Inflammatory Bowel Disease – possibly Crohn’s Disease – at this stage in a mild form, but who knew how it might develop.

To deal with the symptoms I was put on medication, but in doing so I had a resolve, a determination within me. I accepted the need for the medication as this condition wasn’t going to clear on its own, but I also felt certain that I could regain my health in the long term through the choices I made, mainly with regards to changing my diet and managing my feelings of stress and anxiety.

Being diagnosed with this illness scared me; I didn’t want to end up in surgery or with an ileostomy bag, as I had read could occur. I was also embarrassed by the diagnosis, as it felt to me quite shameful, while also leaving me feeling weak and vulnerable. I prided myself on being fit and healthy and this left me feeling exposed, abnormal and far from invincible. The reason these feelings were so strong was due to how hard I was on myself, and my unwillingness to fully accept and value myself as a tender and gentle young man.

I had actually been fairly healthy with my diet up until that time, but I knew there were aspects that let me down and that I over-rode how I felt in my body with some of the foods I ate. I had always been someone with a low tolerance to certain foods like dairy and gluten, yet they had stayed as part of my diet as they were such normal everyday foods that everyone seemed to eat.  Stress on my body was also a factor, and I found symptoms could occur if I changed my routine and didn’t properly care for myself – travelling would often bring symptoms up.

For the first four years I would have occasional flare ups, and I was thankful that the medication was working, but I also knew that I had to keep refining the way I was taking care of myself. This was where the balance between medical care and self-care became critical to me. A specialist at my year two review wanted me to take steroid medication, but I wasn’t keen. I chose to refuse this at the time while remaining open to it, but only if it was absolutely necessary. I was taking control of my health and that was crucially important to me.

After four years, because of the choices I had been making, I became symptom free and then got a bit casual with my health – I ate reasonably well, but would drink alcohol quite a lot and still ate foods that I knew didn’t support my body. I wasn’t living as well as I knew I potentially could be.

It was upon attending Universal Medicine courses that I grew to appreciate all the signs my body had been giving me, and through the presentations of Serge Benhayon I started to listen to the wisdom my body shared. What I have learnt is that the refining of how I eat and the care I have for my body is an on-going process and not one I can switch on and off.

Looking back, I feel I could have avoided the greater symptoms I suffered had I been willing to address how I felt in my body, both emotionally and physically. Whilst diet is a huge part of the lifestyle changes I needed to make, I have grown to understand how much my demeanour also impacts my health – how open and expressive I am plays a big part in how well I feel and that my health relates strongly to how accepting and caring of myself I am. I now realise the importance of valuing myself and appreciating me as a person. This in turn has allowed me to become more communicative and open, and less withdrawn from life.

I’ve been medication free for a while now, but never take it for granted. I still get the odd symptom, which I can feel is strongly related to my willingness to keep deepening how well I care for my body – within this I have to keep accepting I am worth caring for. I have found that if I pay close attention to how I feel and honour that, then the symptoms clear without the need for medication. This is not something I assume or expect will happen – it is an ongoing process and one I am committed to living and developing.

In this process Western Medicine was crucial to my recovery, but also only a part of the healing. Suffering ill health was a wake up call to consider my lifestyle and look after myself properly, and Universal Medicine has been a huge support in understanding and developing the self-medicine of lifestyle choices that is now my everyday living.





919 thoughts on “Healing Inflammatory Bowel Disease

  1. It’s a very common sense approach you have taken to self care and super simple by referring honestly to how you feel and how the body feels. I noticed this line “I have to keep accepting I am worth caring for.”, related to your ongoing deepening of self care. What I realised reading is we could make quite a leap from neglect to self care but stop there due to comparing how we once were (neglectful, etc) to how we are now. I can see in my own life that there is more love and care to live and to keep embracing it, no matter where I started or how great the level of self care and self love is that I live now.

  2. “how open and expressive I am plays a big part in how well I feel and that my health relates strongly to how accepting and caring of myself I am.” This is a rare level of awareness of the relationship we have with our body and the way our body communicates with us.

  3. “Looking back, I feel I could have avoided the greater symptoms I suffered had I been willing to address how I felt in my body, both emotionally and physically.” Yes we never consider our whole wellbeing when we are sick; we tend to look at it in parts. This is why I love Universal Medicine, it asks us to look at ill health from all aspects so that we can fully heal. As you have shown Stephen, it is also ongoing, it is not something we can look at only until the symptoms disappear, the awareness becomes part of our every day living.

  4. The more we openly talk about illness and disease the less shame we hold about being ill, as we are able to look at it from a different way especially how our life choices affect us, any illness or disease is a moment to take stock and look at the way we are living, and make the appropriate changes.

  5. Yes we are worth caring for and refining what and how we eat and how we treat our body, deepen the relationship we have with our body and our own health. What you say is true we cannot switch this on and off, our body is worth caring for all of the time.

  6. Our body holds a wisdom that always reflects the truth of everything we have chosen and lived and when we are honest and willing to listen to how it supports us we are able to take full responsibility for our health and well-being.

  7. I find that connection with others and expressing how I feel, allowing continuing deeper levels of honesty is a huge contributor in the way I feel about myself and life in general. The level of care and tenderness or delicateness that I allow in my movements and my communication is also key. This blog emphasises this for me as I know that I can also become hard and unloving toward myself and others and this is a harmful way of being causing all sorts of internal imbalances and at a certain point manifesting in illness and disease

  8. “How open and expressive I am plays a big part in how well I feel and that my health relates strongly to how accepting and caring of myself I am” – that is my experience as well. And as you say, while Western medicine plays a crucial part in our healing, becoming more aware and understanding of what is truly going on and re-building a new foundation in the way we live our every day is equally crucial, and the support I get from Universal Medicine in this respect is immeasurable.

  9. When we are willing to let go of patterns of any kind and bring more self-care and love it is interesting how the body offers us a healing that shows the patience and consistency that reside within.

    1. Yes, it is not so much that all our illnesses will clear up but there will be a deeper level of appreciation for the communication we chose to ignore for so long that our body needed to offer us a greater level of honesty to get our attention.

  10. “Universal Medicine has been a huge support in understanding and developing the self-medicine of lifestyle choices that is now my everyday living.” – I’ve found this too very much so; Universal Medicine has helped me understand and be aware of much more in how I live my day to day life in every way and how this impacts my health and that of everyone around me.

  11. The balance between medical care and self care is key as you have shared here Stephen. We would like to depend on the medical support to keep living in the way we were but unavoidably this will lead to more problems down the road. Our body is very clear in what it can and cannot handle if we are willing to listen to it.

  12. Your self care and self love through the process of your healing is palpable and most inspiring. No doubt it is that that was a crucial ingredient in the healing process.

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