The Test of Life

by Leigh Matson, London, UK 

In life, we are always presented with opportunities to test ourselves and to learn from the results of these experiments. The quality of the experiments will vary, depending on how willing we are to be aware of what we are feeling.

For example, finding out if we have a food intolerance can be quite simple.

If we eat a certain food – we may get a reaction.

If we don’t eat that certain food – there is no reaction.

It simply requires us to stop for a moment to clock our body’s communication in response or reaction to this food.

If we were to eliminate the foods we react to for a period of time, we could then see and feel the results by feeling the effects in our bodies.

Unfortunately, we live in a world where we are taught to override and ignore these reactions, or messages from our bodies. So even though we may have a bodily reaction, we have been taught how to override these messages, so we can eat ‘normally’ and appear to be normal.

When I was young I could not eat gluten, because it caused various reactions such as a reddening of my face and a number of mood and behavioral disorders and 20 years ago gluten free food was not as readily available as it is now. So over time I learnt how to override and ‘grow out of’ being gluten intolerant. But what if we don’t ‘grow out of’ being intolerant, we just get better at masking the reaction?

Since I have eliminated gluten (and also dairy and sugar) from my diet, I have found that my energy levels, general health and wellbeing have increased.

So then what if we could apply this method of experimenting with ourselves to other areas of life?

I have been applying and practising this for some time now and my understanding continues to deepen. And the very basics of it were presented to me via the teachings and presentations of Universal Medicine, in that “Everything is energy and therefore everything is because of energy” (Serge Benhayon). Thus we are energy and can read the energetic quality in anything. So if we get bloated after eating gluten, we can say that we are experiencing the end result of a choice of the energy we chose to use as our fuel for our movements. It can work both ways. We can choose the food, and our movements will have a certain quality thereafter (like going to sleep!). And we can choose the energy, after which our movements take on their flow and way of moving. This then opens up further questions such as – Why did I choose to experience that situation? What do I avoid feeling by choosing to do this instead?

So in the everyday situations it can look like this: taking stops and pauses during or after situations to feel the reactions or responses in the body.

  • How do I feel after having that thought?
  • Why do I feel so agitated right now? What energy is allowing me to feel this way? What occurred, what did I do, what was I doing before I noticed this agitation?
  • After a long day my feet sometimes hurt more than normal – so how was I walking today?
  • After that conversation I feel a sense of emptiness, need for more, or stimulated – why is that?

By taking regular moments to stop we can find patterns and if there is a pattern of end results, then there is a pattern of steps leading to that end result. A simple example at work is that having certain thoughts in my head leads to greater tension in the body, but this actually stems from how I move. I have found that harsh movements lead to harsh thoughts. The quality of my movements is important. Clocking the thoughts has been the first step and I feel now the next step is to bring it back to the body that is creating the movements that magnifies the energy that allows those types of thoughts in the first place. By addressing the quality of my movements, I am also addressing the quality of my thoughts.

Which then brings up the question, if we know or can learn that certain movements lead to certain outcomes and states of being, then how do we move with true quality?

Which movements increase our awareness and love and which movements lead to illness and disease?

What are the movements and behaviours that lead to anger, frustration, sadness, bliss, happiness, a sense of being right or wrong, fear, or any emotion or perception of life? How does a person who believes the world is an unsafe place move? How does a person who believes they have to work towards certain pictures and roles that life has presented to them move? And what effect long term do these movements have on our health?

For example: Let’s look at the end result of bloating from eating gluten.

We know the obvious movements are: buying the sandwich, opening the packet, putting the sandwich in our mouths, chewing and swallowing. This is not rocket science or anything earth shattering. We move to eat something; we get the result of having chosen to eat that particular food.

But before the buying there was the thought, led by a movement, led by an energy. What is the energy we are choosing that leads to the movements? This is the path that takes us back around to the quality of that initial choice, in the form of an end result (the bloating) which actually is just the start (the energy) presenting itself again in a much denser form.

So then what are our movements and patterns that lead to illness and disease? Could this lead us to a clearer picture as to how we end up in the states of health we find ourselves in?

Stopping our unloving behaviours cannot happen from thought-power alone, it has to come from the body and how we move. We can’t heal the symptoms of gluten intolerance if our movements are to go for the cakes and sandwiches; likewise we can’t heal a harsh mind if we are moving in a harsh manner with our bodies, be that grabbing things tightly, stomping around, overburdening ourselves with all the shopping at once, going out in the cold unprepared, thus our bodies want to contract to stay warm etc.

Over the past 5 years, the more I have chosen to move in a loving way, the more the unloving movements and thoughts have just faded on their own, as they are no longer being kept in circulation.

The basis of the test of life is to stop and feel our quality, a quality we can choose by how we move in alignment with the energy that leads to one result or the other. If we do not like the end results we are getting in life, we can choose to move differently, to move with a quality that is gentle, tender and loving, and observe the changes this brings to the quality of our thoughts and our lives.


Read more:

  1. Going gluten-free does not require a gluten intolerance test 
  2. What is gluten sensitivity?
  3. Carbohydrate Kid – no more! No pain, no bloating, no digestive discomforts. 

960 thoughts on “The Test of Life

  1. It’s so important to ask ourselves questions as to why things are happening, to go deeper, this supports our evolution rather than staying comfortable in what is usually not so comfortable.

    1. I totally agree with you Ruth. Being open to questioning why life is occurring and my choices and responsibilities for it occuring makes life much more joyful. Uncomfortable for exposing unloving choices and my irresponsibility but ultimately joy is left when everything else is cleared away.

      1. Beautifully expressed Leigh, if we don’t want to look at our stuff and start to deal with it, there is no joy to be had only an oppressive comfort that eventually suffocates us.

  2. ‘By addressing the quality of my movements, I am also addressing the quality of my thoughts.’ The detail you expand on is so supportive and I feel inspired to explore this in more depth because it is so true that it all comes back to the way I move and for so long that has been in disregard of my body which then reinforces the quality or lack of it in my thoughts.

  3. Great blog pulling together several things that we perhaps don’t always realise are connected such as our thoughts and our movements and how we develop and can get stuck in certain patterns of behaviour.

  4. Great clarity here Leigh explaining that we are all where we are at, because of the patterns we repeat. This all comes from the body, how we move and what we think. So it is our responsibility to change this when we can, our own test, only we can do for ourselves, no-one else.

  5. Movement is the key – so simple and yet we avoid it, looking for a key that is more complex, that the mind can claim as being its creation, more intricate but the truth is that our movements dictate our thoughts and if we move in a way that is loving, there is no room for anything but that love.

  6. Realising the importance of movement and learning what that actually means and feels in my body has been life changing and very eye opening for me. It becomes not about a physical movement but an inner energetic movement that aligns one back to their essence.

    1. I agree Kim, many a time I have changed how I walk to change how I feel but it’s not the mechanics that I focus on but the intention and the quality of the movement. And that intention is already a movement.

  7. “Clocking the thoughts has been the first step and I feel now the next step is to bring it back to the body that is creating the movements that magnifies the energy that allows those types of thoughts in the first place. By addressing the quality of my movements, I am also addressing the quality of my thoughts.”

    I love what you share here as it feels quite ground-breaking. We often try to control the mind with the mind but here you are offering us that movement can be much more power-full.

  8. I love what you shared about movements producing the quality of our thoughts… this is profound. So many are plagued with thoughts that are unpleasant or unloving so to know that we have the power to change their quality through altering the quality of our movements is extraordinary and ultimately life changing.

  9. Understanding that we have the ability to choose how we feel and what state of health our bodies can be in simply by how we move and the quality that we move in, is a hugely empowering moment, and when you’re within that choice, you feel the responsibility of you doing that as part of your service which takes it away from the self and back to the whole.

  10. Our patterns and behaviours definitely dictate how our life is, yet how often do we actually take responsibility for our choices, that lead to those behaviours or patterns, we all have a choice to make different more loving choices which are able to change how we feel about ourselves and how the rest of the world inter-reacts with us too.

  11. “By taking regular moments to stop we can find patterns and if there is a pattern of end results, then there is a pattern of steps leading to that end result.” So true Leigh – looking at our behaviours before the ‘end result’ can show us so much – if we choose to stop and feel.

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