The Test of Life

by Leigh Matson, London, UK 

In life, we are always presented with opportunities to test ourselves and to learn from the results of these experiments. The quality of the experiments will vary, depending on how willing we are to be aware of what we are feeling.

For example, finding out if we have a food intolerance can be quite simple.

If we eat a certain food – we may get a reaction.

If we don’t eat that certain food – there is no reaction.

It simply requires us to stop for a moment to clock our body’s communication in response or reaction to this food.

If we were to eliminate the foods we react to for a period of time, we could then see and feel the results by feeling the effects in our bodies.

Unfortunately, we live in a world where we are taught to override and ignore these reactions, or messages from our bodies. So even though we may have a bodily reaction, we have been taught how to override these messages, so we can eat ‘normally’ and appear to be normal.

When I was young I could not eat gluten, because it caused various reactions such as a reddening of my face and a number of mood and behavioral disorders and 20 years ago gluten free food was not as readily available as it is now. So over time I learnt how to override and ‘grow out of’ being gluten intolerant. But what if we don’t ‘grow out of’ being intolerant, we just get better at masking the reaction?

Since I have eliminated gluten (and also dairy and sugar) from my diet, I have found that my energy levels, general health and wellbeing have increased.

So then what if we could apply this method of experimenting with ourselves to other areas of life?

I have been applying and practising this for some time now and my understanding continues to deepen. And the very basics of it were presented to me via the teachings and presentations of Universal Medicine, in that “Everything is energy and therefore everything is because of energy” (Serge Benhayon). Thus we are energy and can read the energetic quality in anything. So if we get bloated after eating gluten, we can say that we are experiencing the end result of a choice of the energy we chose to use as our fuel for our movements. It can work both ways. We can choose the food, and our movements will have a certain quality thereafter (like going to sleep!). And we can choose the energy, after which our movements take on their flow and way of moving. This then opens up further questions such as – Why did I choose to experience that situation? What do I avoid feeling by choosing to do this instead?

So in the everyday situations it can look like this: taking stops and pauses during or after situations to feel the reactions or responses in the body.

  • How do I feel after having that thought?
  • Why do I feel so agitated right now? What energy is allowing me to feel this way? What occurred, what did I do, what was I doing before I noticed this agitation?
  • After a long day my feet sometimes hurt more than normal – so how was I walking today?
  • After that conversation I feel a sense of emptiness, need for more, or stimulated – why is that?

By taking regular moments to stop we can find patterns and if there is a pattern of end results, then there is a pattern of steps leading to that end result. A simple example at work is that having certain thoughts in my head leads to greater tension in the body, but this actually stems from how I move. I have found that harsh movements lead to harsh thoughts. The quality of my movements is important. Clocking the thoughts has been the first step and I feel now the next step is to bring it back to the body that is creating the movements that magnifies the energy that allows those types of thoughts in the first place. By addressing the quality of my movements, I am also addressing the quality of my thoughts.

Which then brings up the question, if we know or can learn that certain movements lead to certain outcomes and states of being, then how do we move with true quality?

Which movements increase our awareness and love and which movements lead to illness and disease?

What are the movements and behaviours that lead to anger, frustration, sadness, bliss, happiness, a sense of being right or wrong, fear, or any emotion or perception of life? How does a person who believes the world is an unsafe place move? How does a person who believes they have to work towards certain pictures and roles that life has presented to them move? And what effect long term do these movements have on our health?

For example: Let’s look at the end result of bloating from eating gluten.

We know the obvious movements are: buying the sandwich, opening the packet, putting the sandwich in our mouths, chewing and swallowing. This is not rocket science or anything earth shattering. We move to eat something; we get the result of having chosen to eat that particular food.

But before the buying there was the thought, led by a movement, led by an energy. What is the energy we are choosing that leads to the movements? This is the path that takes us back around to the quality of that initial choice, in the form of an end result (the bloating) which actually is just the start (the energy) presenting itself again in a much denser form.

So then what are our movements and patterns that lead to illness and disease? Could this lead us to a clearer picture as to how we end up in the states of health we find ourselves in?

Stopping our unloving behaviours cannot happen from thought-power alone, it has to come from the body and how we move. We can’t heal the symptoms of gluten intolerance if our movements are to go for the cakes and sandwiches; likewise we can’t heal a harsh mind if we are moving in a harsh manner with our bodies, be that grabbing things tightly, stomping around, overburdening ourselves with all the shopping at once, going out in the cold unprepared, thus our bodies want to contract to stay warm etc.

Over the past 5 years, the more I have chosen to move in a loving way, the more the unloving movements and thoughts have just faded on their own, as they are no longer being kept in circulation.

The basis of the test of life is to stop and feel our quality, a quality we can choose by how we move in alignment with the energy that leads to one result or the other. If we do not like the end results we are getting in life, we can choose to move differently, to move with a quality that is gentle, tender and loving, and observe the changes this brings to the quality of our thoughts and our lives.


Read more:

  1. Going gluten-free does not require a gluten intolerance test 
  2. What is gluten sensitivity?
  3. Carbohydrate Kid – no more! No pain, no bloating, no digestive discomforts. 

1,018 thoughts on “The Test of Life

  1. We are taught from young to override our bodies to shut down our awareness and sensitivity that we are naturally born with, we go into a form of protection which seems to stiffen our bodies as our minds take over. So even though our bodies are sending strong signals to us, our mind override them and it is not until something stops us such as illness and or disease that we may stop and listen. We could say we have locked in automatic body movements driven from our minds that control how we move.

    When we bring understanding, self care, self regard and self love into our lives then the way we move changes, the connective tissue in our bodies changes; from being crystallized it starts to flow more easily, which allows an easing which then changes our movements. So if we want to change the way we move then we need to bring more awareness to how we treat ourselves. I have personally found that Universal Medicine Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy is a great support as a way to free our bodies of the ingrained automatic body responses that keep our bodies locked in certain behavioural patterns.

  2. Leigh, I totally agree with your sharing, we are being tested all the time, and we are very good at over riding the effects from things that no longer serve us or our bodies.

    There’s some things to consider when we are out, feet aching, our thoughts, backs aching etc. etc. there are many others tell tale signs. When we make the decision to avoid these things, we need to remember how it feels for our bodies. It requires consistency so it becomes our rhythm. Life is an experiment, be the experiment.

  3. I remember, years ago, when I joined my first ever complementary health course, one day the teacher suggested to the class that we write a food diary, noting whether/how our body would react to anything that we were eating, and I simply did not understand what she was talking about. As far as I was concerned, I had no food allergy, nothing to report, end of. Now, even a thought of eating cheese makes my sinus blocked up. Noticing and being honest with what my body is communicating, unless it’s an excruciating pain, was a big step for me. It is something so obvious and simple, but it seems like we have been well wired up not to see and accept the obvious simple.

    1. Fumiyo, as I experiment with foods, and I haven’t eaten cheese or dairy or gluten products for a long time, I find the body says no to more things. I always know something wasn’t supportive to my body when I wake up and my nose is running.

      The body cannot lie, it is always forever speaking the truth.

    1. I agree with you Leigh. We are taught how to read and write but we are not taught how important it is to move in a way that keeps us all connected to the Universe. Our Universe is everything to us and yet we have completely ignored it and try to make irrelevant the impact it has on us all. We could say it’s the elephant in the room that we ignore and pretend isn’t there.

  4. The body is designed to be in harmony or equilibrium as science would say. But if we are constantly battering it it can’t level out. Listening gives the body space to communicate what is needed rather than us assuming what it needs.

  5. What I love about what you are presenting here Leigh is that it is not about living a life of perfection or idealistic strict lifestyle but about listening to our bodies, observing how different choices are affecting us and then learning from this.

    1. Trying to be perfect or strict creates more stress in the body I’ve found! especially holding myself against my mistakes rather than just shaking them off, accepting any consequences if need be and learning from it.

  6. Its great to question what we have done before hand that leads us to neglecting the way we take care of ourselves, as this brings a deeper understanding of the way we are living in general.

  7. It makes sense that if everything is energy then the quality we move in is then the source of everything that happens thereafter. Thank you Leigh, I enjoyed your blog and the inspiration and simplicity to make it all about love and let what’s not love drop away automatically.

    1. I’ve never been able to be on a diet or set myself a limit or mental determination to not carry out a behaviour and then self constrain myself. It doesn’t work and I will fall back into the behaviour/food etc if not over do it or go deeper into a substitution. If I focus on being loving with myself there’s no need to restrain myself from unloving actions, they drop off naturally.

    2. I feel that diets, willpower, and various other solutions often stem from the same pool of energy that caused the problem in the first place. Switching to love changes everything.

  8. We have so much wisdom inside our bodies. Often I know that a certain food is not good for my body and I don’t have to try it out to get this confirmed. Almost like the body signals in advance: no thank you, not supportive for me. And I have the choice to ‘try it’ (playing ignorant and overriding what I know) or putting it to the test and be willing to observe and experience the consequences.

    1. I’ve had this as well, my jaw will harden or my nervous system will start to fire off or I feel really heavy just looking at certain foods! There are other times where I don’t listen and those messages just get louder. But they start as a whisper if I am paying attention.

  9. There is an absolute honesty that resides in the body that frequently signals whether the substances (both physical and energetic) we ingest are harming or healing. If we ignore these signals, they often get louder and louder until a state of ill health prevails. However, there are also those times when we override the body’s innate wisdom such as in the example here given of ‘teaching’ our body to tolerate a substance it has already deemed harmful (in this example it is gluten). What follows is that our body begins to lose its level of honesty as the toxin takes over and so far from building up a tolerance, we have simply taught our physical instrument to turn down its astute capabilities of discerning what heals and what harms and from this point a cementing of the adopted ill way takes place that may or may not manifest into an obvious form of illness.

  10. “we can choose to move differently, to move with a quality that is gentle, tender and loving, and observe the changes this brings to the quality of our thoughts and our lives.” We are clearly responsible for the choices we make in every moment and movement of the day and night.

    1. This becomes more obvious when we start to make that shift and make more loving choices. Because the unloving choices squash our awareness to the point of thinking that we are not the cause of our own misery, it’s something else outside of us.

  11. These are great points and medicine is also quite aware – with perhaps some uncertainty – what people need to do. Where they may have difficulties is what needs doing for people actually to live in a healthy way.

  12. There are many instances where I have made a choice and felt the consequences afterwards, especially with food, even if I eat something my body knows it didn’t want and I overrode it, I get a mouth ulcer, which is always a reminder that I need to move in a way that allows me access to what my body is telling me.

    1. Yesterday I discovered that nuts give me sinus pain, there was a direct relationship from eating then seconds later intense pain (I repeated this experiment over the day) I love nuts, especially almond butter. But it gets to the point of asking what do I love more? Almond butter and intense face pain or no nuts and having a clear head? If my answer comes from a connection with my body then it’s not hard to give up certain foods. If I come from my head chances are I will go buy nuts again and have to learn – do I love connection or disconnection?

  13. What I feel being brought back to in reading this is deep self love, one that allows me to trust my feeling completely. That is where I see myself getting stuck at times – doubting myself, doubting my perception, as if the ultimate ‘right’ lies somewhere out there, with someone, and I was ‘wrong’ to be feeling what I feel.

  14. This is a great distinction to make – the difference between change and managing what is not right for your body. And I have noticed how management of ill conditions is what we as a society do very well, with true and everlasting change being something of an enigma.

    1. I’ve noticed this too in myself and others as well as a want to manage rather than change. If there is a want to manage rather than change then complaining about a situation or condition is not asking for change but actually maintaining that lower quality of life. If something is truly disturbing and not perceived/believed to be of any benefit then there is less attachment and more change.

  15. I love this curious, open inquiry into what we are feeling and why.. it’s impossible for life to be boring when there’s always more to feel, more to observe and more to learn.

  16. It took a while for me to get the confidence up to do my own experiments on my own body. This was mainly due to the belief that I had to listen to everyone else before myself. For instance, reading something in a magazine and then trying that out without considering if it was something that my body would want or even if it was harmful or not. It makes more sense to listen to our bodies and what suits it, rather than forcing it to adhere to a diet or foods it cannot tolerate.

    1. In the care industry that I work in we are told to ask the person what they would like and rather than going by what we think they should have/wear etc. So then why not ask our own bodies the same?

      1. It would as it challenges the part of us that likes to calculate and mentally concoct the answer so that it can claim some sort of victory. Whereas the body just knows the answer instantly.

  17. Reading this today it seems it is all about how much we care for ourselves and in what energy, and thus the quality that we bring to everything.

  18. It’s great that you’re exploring the steps BEFORE we do something, such as running down to the supermarket, because it is these movements that manifest what plays out in our actions.

    1. Before, during and after. Reading at any point is always illuminating. But generally after the behaviour, for example eating something that doesn’t agree with me, it’s harder to read because the energy that fuelled the behaviour was intended to not allow for clear reading. It’s like wanting to hide, jumping into a well then wanting to look around at what caused the want to hide in the first place…but now you’re in the well and have to get out first.

  19. ‘Stopping our unloving behaviours cannot happen from thought-power alone, it has to come from the body and how we move.’ The fact that changing the quality of our movements is so simple and so immediate shows us that it is our awareness and willingness that comes in to play for this to occur… and then the allowing and activation of Divine energy does the rest.

    1. It’s the willingness to be aware that can prove to be the difficult part as we deal with the part of us that has chosen to be ignorant, arrogant and wants to avoid wounding its pride.

  20. To question and ask ourselves how we are feeling whether it is to confirm or to ponder on how we came to feel in that way throughout the day is medicine. It is never to be undervalued or a waste of time to address where we are at or what is going on for us. We seem to place what needs to get done, money, people, situations etc above and before ourselves but what is truly missing is a loving relationship with our body first.

    1. It’s valuing the quality we do in rather than solely what we do. Connecting to ourselves at the start, during or at the end of the day can be like a quality GPS system within us. Telling us where we’ve gone and/or are going along the lines of what quality are we living in.

  21. When we are willing to be aware of the underlying cause and subsequent effect of the way we are living we realise our body has all the answers and we have a responsibility to listen to our own inner wisdom.

  22. This is brilliant, to bring up the conversation about having moments of stop and what they are really for. Recently I have been experimenting with this and learning how to ‘stop’ does not necessarily mean to ‘let go’ but rather to ‘check-in’ with oneself. It is actually an act of self-responsibility, and dictates what will come next.

    1. Aye, stopping doesn’t have to mean we physically stop doing everything and just stand still or lay on the floor – That’d look funny at work or the supermarket. But it’s stopping the mental focus and registering how the body feels which can be done by starting to feel my feet or how I touch/grab things with my hands – rough and harsh or gentle etc.

  23. It is key to clock our behaviours and then trace them back to a picture we are holding onto – often we will find that the belief we are holding onto comes from somebody else and we have just said yes and ran with it – usually without any true understanding of what we are saying yes to.

  24. “The more I have chosen to move in a loving way, the more the unloving movements and thoughts have just faded on their own” – so simple and makes absolute sense. Why don’t I do that more often?

    1. I could ask myself the same question and what I am realising is that the unloving behaviours and thoughts aren’t random or just fall on me. Under false beliefs of myself or wanting a perception of that that isn’t true to start with to be true and trying to force it onto myself or others the unloving behaviours are adopted as a means to an end. Like wanting a person to change and keep berating or ‘advising’ (read: judging) them. Whereas accepting myself doesn’t need the other to be a certain way nor need those behaviours to push.

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