672 thoughts on “Healing my Separation to Humanity through Illness”

1. The body communicates with us constantly and we continually override its messages of what is not okay with it. Eventually there is the big stop moment that offers us space to reflect upon a lifetime of ill-choices and where these have brought us to (illness & disease, accidents etc). How different the health and wellbeing of humanity would be if we actually listened to the body sooner.
   “This experience has changed me.”

2. Asking for support and being open to receive it is deeply healing – how empowering to have accepted that you are love at your core essence and you were able to bring this quality to all the people attending you during this intense time (and living it in full from then onwards).
   “I made a conscious choice that whatever I needed to support my body through this time – be it food, pain relief or help to move – I would ask for it and I did not hold back.”

3. Every moment we choose separation to another we keep humanity out and therefore there is no connection to God. This certainly is something to reflect on in our current institutionalised religions where God is seen as a white haired and bearded man in the sky in separation to us. It therefore is impossible to separate God and human beings, our fellow brothers as they are one of the same.

4. “This experience has changed me.” Sometimes a serious threat to life offers the opportunity to reflect on what is really important to us and it is usually people and not things.

5. Loving how you totally embraced the support, love and connection with others in this opportunity. Illness is an opportunity to let go of everything – ill energy – that didn’t belong in your body and feel and live more of what is true for you.

6. Letting go of our hurts is definitely a choice and as we let go of them we realise we have allowed them to have a huge hold over us, and it is through holding onto them that we have made them feel bigger than they actually are.

7. What really strikes me in your sharing is how our choice to separate from others is not even a personal one, it affects everyone and it’s something that is registered as ‘ill’ in the whole scheme of Universe, it really does matter, we matter – hence the physical manifestation as an illness/disease.

8. What an opportunity to let go of old hurts and to take the time to connect to others in the process.

9. It is very deeply inspiring to feel through what you have shared how our connection to love with ourselves and shared with others is everything that truly fulfils and enrichens our lives regardless of where our bodies are at, in our healing process or otherwise. When this quality of connection is felt, the vibration of love, we realise that this is what represents all that we are and is what transcends all, guiding us to deepen our knowing of the purpose of why we are all here, to be the love and reflect the love we are which is possible for us to do at any and every stage of our lives. As this is, as you have said, our divine part in God’s plan.

10. “Having the cancer removed felt like a plug had been pulled out and I could really feel the beauty in humanity, this strong feeling of brotherhood, and an equalness with all in our divine connection to God.” This to me is true healing and what medicine is about. We have made medicine about getting fixed so that we can return to what made us ill in the first place. Thanks to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine I have been able to see how much I had shut down to humanity and in so doing, I had shut down to God. Recognising this is when true healing begins.

11. Very cool to read how your experience of illness transformed your relationship with yourself and with the world. We have a choice when any situation presents itself: to surrender and learn from every aspect of what is being shown to us, or to fight and resist it, and make the healing harder for ourselves, or to give up and withdraw. When we accept situations as they are, in that acceptance we also find that we have the knowing of how to handle them and what to do.

12. Susan it was lovely to read how honest you were with yourself as to why your body gave you an amazing opportunity and healing, through cancer, the more honest we are with ourselves the more we learn about out choices and which one supports us best, and how much of a loving foundation we can build ourselves purely through changing our choices.

13. Cancer rates have been rising for years now and when I look around me I see fundraising that advertises to fight cancer or people who develop cancer then go on to champion it or go back to their lives as they used to live more or less.The difference in those who share on this blog is different however and when approaching any illness with the understandings that Serge Benhayon presents, there’s more acceptance and joy for the illness occurring. This needs to be studied.

14. “It showed me that when I truly reflect and honour the beautiful, loving and amazing beings that we are, that is what comes back to me.” Illness offers us the opportunity to heal so much more than the physical problem.

15. ” I have a deeper acceptance and love for myself and for those around me, and am now clearly seeing how we are all a part of God’s Divine Plan. ”
    This is lovely and all after a case of lung cancer what a healing for all of us, thank you.

16. And how wonderful it will be when we are connected with ourselves so deeply that we will not need such intense clearings, but we will align with the divine from such an early age that humanity’s experience of life will be very very different to what is happening now.

17. Beautiful to read how you honoured yourself and your body while recovering, it makes perfect sense to support our body through the healing process, and make more loving choices which further support us as a whole.

18. Rarely do we hear people talking so positively about having cancer and seeing it as a changing point in their life or as a blessing.

19. Wow. If this is the realization and healing we can get to through experiencing cancer or any other serious illness and disease, what a blessing that is.

20. The more we support ourselves the more we are, in turn, supported. This feels very true to me.

21. ” I came to see that I had been living in judgement of people because of the choices they were making so I had shut down to others, ”
    This is such a revelation , the silliness of our methods to make life miserable.

22. Illness and disease give us an opportunity to do exactly what you have done Susan…. Stop and address something.

23. This is a great blog for me to read as I feel I have been focusing on the negatives I see in daily life and am not letting the magic of God lead the way even though I see it everywhere also.

24. When embarking on a path of true healing, energetically, taking responsibility for the choices that have been made there is great joy as the healing commences as the reconnection can be clearly felt, as you have shared Susan.

25. One of the oldest tricks in the book is the illusion that we are alone. It’s the greatest reason for our hurts and yet it is an absolute lie.

26. I would not have seen illness and disease as a message from my soul to return to myself and to humanity but this has been my experience and I appreciate what was offered to me to work on and reconnect back into life.

27. We can get caught in the mentality and think that illness and disease is just an inconvenience. Or, we can embrace the fact that it is an opportunity to reflect on how we have been living, and make adjustments accordingly, so we can learn heal and grow from the experience.

28. “Having the cancer removed felt like a plug had been pulled out and I could really feel the beauty in humanity, this strong feeling of brotherhood, and an equalness with all in our divine connection to God.” I too experienced this after surgery for cancer – and a feeling of exquisite tenderness and openness for everyone. This was a new marker for me. An inspiring sharing, thankyou Susan.

29. ‘I realised that this diagnosis was going to be an opportunity for me to clear all that was no longer a part of me.’ Illness is often an opportunity to reflect on our past choices and to feel how some of our choices have not been supportive of ourselves or others, and everyday is a great opportunity to reimprint our lives in a far more loving way.

30. It makes sense that when we give up on life and people, that we tend to focus on everything that supports that choice, and in those moments be inundated with seeing and feeling all the seeming evidence of what is not love in the world. I love however that your illness offered you the blessing of showering you with love so that you could reflect on the truth you had been ignoring and begin to see and feel the love and connection you were denying.

31. When we choose Love, our bodies have to clear out all our unloving energy that we have clung onto. To feel like a plug had been pulled after the surgery confirms this fact. What a huge transformation in our approach to illness this is, to understand and physically appreciate the cleansing and healing afforded to us when we get sick.

32. It always amazes me to feel the true support that the body can offer, even when it may appear from the outside that it is a negative result. It’s beautiful to feel how you have embraced the true healing that is on offer, using the incredible advances of western medicine and the deep healing that esoteric medicine has opened you up to.

33. Thank you Susan – your blog touched upon my life, the separation I have created by being and excluding myself from humanity.. Sounds quite intense, but what I mean is that I have lived in a quite protective manner, even though I was with and around people all of the time – I did not truly allow them to see me, who I was, what I was feeling and going through.. This specific area of protection has been revealed the last days.. How much this hardness has actually not served me has risen to the surface – in a physical condition just like you! Showing me that I truly have to give my all to myself first and then allow this all to be shared with others – that this is my true protection if I need any .. And so, that I must let go of all the hardness and pain. A very beautiful opportunity I am taking to change all my ways in life : with myself and with people.
    So that I stay with the love that I am – and not absorb anything that is not mine any longer instead. A powerful, even though it is a painful watch and experience – it truly truly helps me heal my ill-full ways.

34. Thank you Susan, a deeply heartfelt account of true healing.

35. What is deeply felt in this article is that healing is more than the surgery itself. It is coming to know one’s self deeply and choosing to reignite the tender, graceful essence we have within.

36. Susan I can so relate to what you have shared in regards to viewing all that is not love in this world, and turning my back on all that is love in this world. When this is done my world is small and I play just as small moving in accordance to this. When I see the world for the love it is, I expand and feel the enormous role we all play to live the enormity we all are. I know that God has never left me, it was I who chose to look the other way.

37. Observing judgement and not react is key. As I learn to work with energy and place the quality of energy first the easier it is to observe.

38. Thank you Susan, I can feel the expansion in my own heart when reading your experience.
    It’s our surrender and openness to others without judgement that makes possible a deeper connection with them and love to flow between us.

39. What you share here is enormous Susan. When illness strikes we often feel defeated and then start fighting, but you allowed yourself to be open to look at the why and work with your body and yourself and truly heal.

40. We are yet to fully embrace the fact that our bodies constantly respond to the choices we are making, and as such reflect if our choices are healing or harming. In disregarding the communication shared from our bodies, we become desensitised to the effects our choices are having until such time illness or disease physically stop us in our tracks. Who needs scientific proof that we are Souls held within a body, when the evidence is available, tangible and can be witnessed every day through how our bodies respond when we live in connection to and guided by the loving quality of our essence within.

41. ‘Having the cancer removed felt like a plug had been pulled out and I could really feel the beauty in humanity, this strong feeling of brotherhood, and an equalness with all in our divine connection to God’ – Often illness is seen as a punishment, a condemning or smack for not being ‘good’ but as you have shared Susan, illness can bring about the truly deep healing of the ‘whole’ being. This is a beautiful and honest account of opening up to life, allowing yourself to breathe in the whole of life and to release all that you have been holding back. This is truly inspiring Susan, thank you.

42. What a beautiful story… To read about someone experiencing a depth of love and connection through something that would normally be so traumatic.

43. The title of your blog is a great one to ponder on. How this turns around what could be experienced as being the victim of an illness or disease when really it is a message/offering from the bodies wisdom to look at how we are living or have lived that is causing the disharmony and separation.. resulting in ill health.

44. Our bodies can never lie. It cannot live separated with humanity when the truth is we are connected. But we try and so hard we try. We use so much energy to live in a way that is unnatural and damaging and causes disease in our bodies. Sometimes we fulfil the picture of a life obeying God, but there is no God within our movements, there is no God in our expressions, so our words are empty and our lives do not emanate the quality of Love. But our bodies are simply always loving and its every movement is to bring us deeper into this realisation and clearing to return to what is true.

45. “what is most important to me is that neither I, nor we, are alone in this journey.’ Recently, going through some difficult situations I feel blessed that support has come from many different angles. Being in appreciation of this seems to invite yet more awareness of how much we are held in an energy that is Divine.

46. To even put judgement on others over anything is basically a refusal to look at one’s own part in something.
    It does create huge separation from others and the truth.
    “I came to see that I had been living in judgement of people because of the choices they were making so I had shut down to others, separated myself and in that arrogance had deprived myself of the love on offer from them. In turn, I had deprived people of the love that I am”.

47. ‘I had much time during my recovery to reflect on, face, and clear so many of my hurts.’ It seems to me that this is a crucial part of healing for us all when we are ill.

48. It is great to read that you have opened up to humanity, and that you can see how and why you got the lung cancer in the first place. How many of us look at illness and disease in this way, and see it as a healing. Awesome.

49. I agree Susan that the choices and habits that we have lived with for so long can be very hard to break and it is often only when faced with a life threatening illness or disease that we take the time to examine what part they actually play in our lives. Over time they have been woven into the fabric of our lives so we don’t question whether they are truly serving us or not, until we are stopped in our tracks. How wonderful that you have taken the healing opportunity that you have been offered and instead of returning to the way you were living you have chosen to open yourself up to what life is truly all about; connection to others and connection to God.

50. I love how the body’s wisdom in showing us through illness and disease our choices in life and in embracing it as you have done, the profound changes we can make.

51. ‘My body felt alive, making me realise how much love there truly is in the world and how I am a part of that and it felt so beautiful.’ What an amazing way to approach impending and serious surgery. What you have shared Susan hands-down trumps the ‘fight the cancer’ stories that are so prevalent today. Your story is one of surrender and grace, and I feel it would have been the same had your prognosis been different.

52. I love how the healing you chose for yourself opened up the space for others to express when they came into your room. Beautiful.

53. ‘I realised that this diagnosis was going to be an opportunity for me to clear all that was no longer a part of me.’ Approaching illness and disease in this way is deeply loving and a path for true healing.

54. It’s amazing how when we stop and allow ourselves to feel and see the beauty in others, it changes how we are together, there is an openness, a willingness to see and be with each other; it’s like we suddenly see them, and the beauty they are. And when we allow ourselves to be vulnerable with others then we see how amazing people are and how much we all can offer each other, we let each other in. Thank you Susan for sharing your experience of surrender to being loved and held by others.

55. Reading this reminded me of something similar I experienced, being recently ill I had coming at me from every angle love and support like I never imagined was possible, and I feel now it’s for me to keep reminding myself that that support is in my life through connecting to others and firstly to myself, my body, my essence and to my feelings.

56. ‘This experience has changed me. I had much time during my recovery to reflect on, face, and clear so many of my hurts. I still have many to deal with, but what is most important to me is that neither I, nor we, are alone in this journey.’ Susan thank you for sharing your experience, and to understanding that Universal Medicine are always there to help us see our old choices and the consequences more clearly is very supportive.

57. It is interesting to note how it can take a serious dilemma for us to truly surrender to the support that is actually around all the time.

58. ‘I realised that this diagnosis was going to be an opportunity for me to clear all that was no longer a part of me.’ Your willingness to take responsibility for all your choices in life and to let go of what was not love is huge and must have been deeply healing for all who were supporting you.

59. ‘Having the cancer removed felt like a plug had been pulled out and I could really feel the beauty in humanity, this strong feeling of brotherhood, and an equalness with all in our divine connection to God.’
    A deep and beautiful healing Susan. Thank you for sharing with us.

60. How lovely that you when you opened to receive the support and help that was offered, others shared their lives with you and that deep connection between you was there.

61. Susan it’s fantastic that you embraced this major illness for the deep healing it was offering, your connection to God and part of humanity. Protection can seem safe but it is isolating and disconnecting, I have found this from my own past choices.

62. It’s often in our most difficult moments that our eyes truly open to how beautiful life is – I love how you’ve described this.

63. While you were in hospital recovering from surgery the love and joy you felt in the connection to others brought a deep healing to you and all those who were caring for you.

64. “In the days leading up to surgery I had time to reflect on these revelations and what became glaringly obvious was that I had shut God out and had given up! I had only been seeing and feeling all that was not love. In those first couple of days I started to feel all that was love and how I was an integral part of humanity. As this occurred, I could feel my connection to God deepen.” So. clearly, illness and disease is actually our friend and not our foe as most people tend to believe.

65. Thank you, in reading this blog it became very clear to me how certain behaviours can appear to protect us and yet, in truth, what they do is compound the problem for we are shutting ourselves off from a part of life, which we can never truly do.

66. We build protection around us for various reasons, ‘Fear of being hurt, feeling not worthy, not good enough, comparing myself to others, looking for perfection in myself and in those around me, and the fear of being disappointed in this’, but it is never the answer.

67. We think we are protecting ourselves by separating from life but, as you came to realise Susan, you had in fact ‘shut God out and had given up’. In such a state we can only feel ‘all that was not love’ and thus we feel lonely, misunderstood, and not good enough and we create circumstances that confirm this belief. Illness and disease offer a stop in this momentum which breaks the vicious cycle we are trapped in and offers us an opportunity to make different choices.

68. Susan, once we realise, as you did, that disease and illness is a ‘culmination of the poor choices I had made’, then we do not give our power to the illness or to anyone we think might fix us. We are able to then begin the steps to heal by facing and clearing our hurts.

69. Wow Susan – most people would find the removal of part of their lung a horrific ordeal yet you have embraced humanity and this process in full. I love feeling your joy, openess and acceptance.

70. My take away from your blog Sue is a reminder to allow God, into my day, honour the magic that is present in every moment as part of the plan we are all connected to. Accepting and appreciating this is our natural way, to just be.

71. Separating or isolating oneself from humanity goes against our nature, as we are in essence social beings. When hurt, fear, or comparison get the better of us we think its ok to withdraw but if these things are not dealt with and cleared they manifest in the body as illness and disease.

72. Susan we are often told that it can take a big wake up call, a medical scare or traumatic accident for us to truly change out lives. And as you share today “I have a deeper acceptance and love for myself and for those around me, and am now clearly seeing how we are all a part of God’s Divine Plan”. I heard from a doctor that only a tiny amount of people sustain the changes in lifestyle that would support them after getting sick – you’ve shown that lifestyle is far more than what we eat or exercise we do but the quality we are in with everything.

73. “Initially I was very shocked, as over the last 5 years I have made many lifestyle changes and have been living in a much more healthy way and was beginning to nurture and care for myself on a much deeper level.” This reminds me of having the feeling that if we live healthy it can feel like we have done something wrong when we become ill. Yet it does not work like that because our body does not ‘punish us’ or ‘reward us’ but what it does is give us opportunities to heal issues, hurts that are still kept in our bodies. Looking at it like this makes a disease a bit more welcome than seeing it as a punishment.

74. ‘what is most important to me is that neither I, nor we, are alone in this journey.’ This really stood out for me Susan as I can still get caught in an old way of ‘going it alone’ instead of asking for support. Your blog has inspired me to watch out for these moments of self sabotage and be open to all the support on offer around me.

    1. Jane I also loved reading this part as it has been something that I’ve been allowing myself to feel more and more over the past couple of months, we are never alone – there is always those walking with and besides us there with eternal support. Yet we can choose to block us feeling them or allow the support both physical and non physical. As I’ve opened up to this I’ve felt a vast change in my body and in the way I approach life.

75. This really is a great blog to come back to for a reality check on the level of responsibility in our lives. I love how you fully embrace and share your experience as such a positive as I know from experience that it is not always an easy thing to do if an illness comes knocking at the door.

76. Every situation that occurs in our body is a call for us to return to a deeper love for ourselves. With the foundation of self-love, we feel different, our thoughts change and we see the world in another way—this is the way to let go of judgements of others and of ourselves, to come back to what is a truly unified state.

77. This blog shows once more clearly that our bodies deeply suffers form us being disconnected from our essence, our Soul and ultimately from God.

78. Each time I read this I feel the blessing of your experience Susan. Your healing is equally for all of our healing.

79. Susan, the word that came up when i read your lovely blog was surrender – surrendering to letting the love in and allowing it out. Your healing journey is very inspiring.

80. A very inspiring story of healing Susan. Thank you for sharing.

81. As soon as I separate from myself I feel the potential for illness. The separation from others and humanity is no different. If harmony is found in the oneness then anything less than that creates disharmony and dis-ease.

    1. Rebecca these days I also get that sense that something is wrong when I am not feeling the connection and warmth with myself. What I often don’t appreciate though is a few years ago that was my normal and I would not even have considered illness to be anything less than my body being physically sick in some form. Even a cold would not be called illness as this was just a minor irritation.

82. Wow Susan what a healing. What particularly stood out for me is how we can think that even though we have started to make loving choices, that all the poison and harm and things we have taken on that is not us needs to come out of the body.

83. If life is truly just one life, then our common attitude towards illness and disease makes complete sense. If life, however, is ongoing eternally, then that changes our relationship with illness and disease forever.

84. Seeing ourselves as an integral part of humanity opens us to the love that abounds – people are naturally loving. Allowing that love in is a powerful part of our healing – letting go of holding humanity and God to ransom because we have at some time suffered hurt.

85. When we re-connect to our true self, we re-connect to everyone else as well. We are not so much lonely for the company of others, as we are lonely to be reunited with that divine spark we walked away from that lives within us all and that forever burns bright in its call back to the love that we are.

    1. Yes beautifully said LIane. By feeling the love of people around us and surrendering to that, we have to feel and surrender to the love we are. Therefore it is so powerful to be with other people, we need the reflection at these times.

86. Susan, thank you for sharing your healing journey – a healing journey in every sense.

87. As a race of beings it is our natural make up to want to share our Love with each other, it has only become foreign to us because we haven’t been supported to connect to the Love within us that is strong and powerful. Every second we have a chance to be this extraordinary Love and to share this with others or not. So when we have been void of this and you experience Love, Care and Appreciation from another we sometimes don’t know what to do with it. I Love hearing how you realised that this shutting down and dis-connection was the fostering of the reason why you were not well. What an amazing healing for you and all that shared this with you. Thanks for sharing.

88. ‘I have a deeper acceptance and love for myself and for those around me, and am now clearly seeing how we are all a part of God’s Divine Plan.’ This is such a great reminder that illness can be medicine when we accept the opportunity it provides us to go deeper and make different choices in life.

89. Back in the day I would have been totally questioning what you meant by the lack of connection with God and how this could be a cause of ill-ness and dis-ease. But recently I actually really got to feel how I had chosen this path of separation and that I had totally set myself up so I experience this and that this was what kept me from not connecting fully with God. To remember that God does not judge and that it is my true living impulse to respect and honour this relationship, I start to take a bit more care in the choices I make and the quality that I am doing them in.

90. This is beautiful, to realise that by not letting people in and to feel their love, you were also shutting out God. A perfect reminder that we are one and the same, God and us.

91. The magic of discarding ill energy by focusing and concentrating it into a certain part of the body so that the rest of the body is mostly undisturbed already is very intelligent but further it is our being (spirit) that receives a healing that allows for space to make new choices that evolve us from the ill we once have invested in – this is a healing beyond the body and beyond time due to reincarnation.

92. Susan it’s quite amazing that an illness can help us heal something so big as the way we live in separation to the rest of humanity. It shows that Illness is not simply about the physical but about what has led to us having that condition in the first place, something that is very much not physical.

93. I agree Susan we separate ourselves from others when we sit in judgment to their choices and usually we have already judged ourselves for not making our own loving choices.

94. The medical system available to us does come from a deep love for humanity. They only miss one thing and that is to teach us that we have a responsibility in our illnesses and diseases and to not only use the medical system to fix our ailments but also take the responsibility into our everyday life, the way we live, communicate and are in relationships with other people. Life is medicine!

95. I can see so clearly the stages of your healing Susan, with your medical and self care before and after the operation being just as important as the operation itself. Another amazing example of the power of the union of Western Medicine and Esoteric Medicine, a union that will change the face of medicine as the world knows it today.

96. Susan thanks so much for sharing and what an awesome reminder that when we let down our judgments and open ourselves up to connecting with everyone and allowing them in that this has an enormous effect on the body. We are all inter-connected as you say and to keep each other at arms length and not seeing the true beauty that is deep within everyone we dis-connect to our true origin.

97. What an amazing experience to have lived through “Having the cancer removed felt like a plug had been pulled out and I could really feel the beauty in humanity, this strong feeling of brotherhood, and an equalness with all in our divine connection to God” A huge physical clearing and a regained connection with humanity, it brings a whole new perspective to illness and disease, why it is there and how it supports us, Amazing.

98. ‘I made a conscious choice that whatever I needed to support my body through this time – be it food, pain relief or help to move – I would ask for it and I did not hold back. ‘ – wow when you say this I can see how this is medicine in itself – listening to the body and supporting what it needs.I think it is amazing when people start to say ‘I’m going to do things differently to deeply care for and support my body’ – but this usually happens only once we get sick not before – so this is a great reflection to ask myself why do I need to wait to get sick to look after myself and isn’t this something I can do each day to support myself.

99. “I had only been seeing and feeling all that was not love.” It’s been a common part of my life to focus on what has hurt me, and I feel in particular when I live from my mind, without a connection to my heart, then I’m more critical of myself and others because I’ve unplugged from my natural loving understanding. What is really great about your message is how the love we can live actually is a form of wellbeing in the body, and it’s a wake up call to truly address our hurts and separation from humanity, as this is actually dis-ease in the body.

100. The wisdom of the body is huge. The fact that we are grander than our body is reflecting to me that the symptoms the body is coming up with always are giving us a possibility to evolve.

101. “l chose to truly honour myself and graciously accept all that was on offer for me to deeply heal.” This is particularly pertinent for me right now.

102. It’s hard for me not to look at an illness or disease as some type of failure. Is this me or is this how the collective view is? You could say a bit of both as I am a part of the collective view and I can feel I still see these as a failure for me in some way. As you are showing Susan illness and disease are actually far from that and there is a lot for me and us to learn around these. You are showing that while uncomfortable illness and disease need to be treated but also healed on another level. Universal Medicine support the whole lot including the ‘other level’. There is more to disease then just getting it, it’s a whole science in itself. Thank you Susan.

     1. Within every illness lays the offering to be free from that which has kept us bound. This is the grace that true healing offers but we have to be willing to let go of that which we have held onto for dear life. It is a time to truly examine all the ideals, pictures and beliefs we have about life and feel deep to the core of our being whether these help us live more of our love or whether they help us hide it.

103. I really feel how you have let people in during your healing process Susan especially in asking and receiving help and support.

104. There is beauty and opportunity in everything when we choose to make it about learning, and evolving the quality of our choices.

105. It is rare to read how someone can be appreciative of having developed cancer, and seeing it for the clearing that it is. Thank you Susan for this inspiring contribution.

106. What an amazing, but often confronting, revelation it is when we realise that we have been living lovelessly, not truly caring for our wonderful bodies and separated from who we innately are and therefore from those around us and from God. In fact to realise that we have not actually been living, but just merely existing and that there is indeed another more joyful and loving way to live, can be one of those powerful stop moments that offer us the opportunity of change; but of course that is always a choice that we are free to make, or not.

107. This is just so powerful Susan, really linking illness and disease to what it really going on in the body and more importantly, how we have separated from our true selves, our connection to the divine and the knowingness of this. We have bastardised within an inch of its life, any sort of religion, what it means to be divine, as it comes with all the ideals and beliefs or organised religion. This is a shame, because it is none of those things, but there are many across the globe, along with the support and teachings of the ageless wisdom through Serge Benhayon, to assist in shining a new light on this.

108. Just in that simple choice to focus on the love in the world rather than anything that we feel is not love is huge. This way we build on love, magnify love and can continually be in love. When we feel lovelessness outside us we always have this reservoir of love inside us to fall back on. Being love and expressing love in every moment is work in progress and what awesome work it is.

109. “I had only been seeing and feeling all that was not love.” Just by the simple fact of choosing to change what we focus on changes our whole reality and life experience. And we do not have to wait to receive some horrific wake-up call to do so – we can do it at anytime.

110. ” It felt like a dam had burst and I was being assailed from all quarters. I had this intense feeling of being buoyed up, of being held. My body felt alive, making me realise how much love there truly is in the world and how I am a part of that and it felt so beautiful.”
     What a life changer to realize that in truth you have deserved love, Susan, and now this love is coming towards you and you recognising and feeling it, feeling the love and how precious you are.

111. There is always a deeper level of tenderness and care for our bodies that we can go to, and our bodies are constantly communicating that.

112. Sometimes we need an illness or dis-ease as it is the only way to actually make us stop and deeply reflect on how we have been living in order to truly change. While we are getting the illnesses and dis-eases I feel it is the latter we need to work on, actually feeling and changing how we have been living in order to restore harmony both within the body and within the world. Like you have shared ‘It was not easy at first to let go of the habits and choices I had become accustomed to, but little by little, my connection to my body deepened and I began making more loving choices.’ I have truly learnt so much about this since knowing Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. It is just putting these teachings into practice more and more that needs to be done. I also love the example you shared about how you had been living brought about the lung cancer in the first place ‘I had only been seeing and feeling all that was not love. In those first couple of days I started to feel all that was love and how I was an integral part of humanity’. Awesome blog.

113. Thank you for sharing your story Susan, it is beautiful to see how an illness such as cancer can be a true healing as it allows us to connect to a deeper level of love which we have resisted in the past, and with this experience there is not another way but let go of old ways and to surrender to God.

114. A very apt title to this blog, so well describing how illness can bust the dam and reconnect us back to love. That outpouring of love when people find out we are ill, is indeed very healing and also shows us what is possible even when we are well. Harbouring hurts is so destructive and we think we can get away with it, yet it affects us all.

115. When we have gone too far with our reckless, protective and discordant way of living, surgery can help us restore the flow of life. But this can only happen if we address the energetic root cause of our dis-ease and surrender the fight so that true order can be once more re-instated as our most natural way to be. This is a beautiful re-turn to love Susan, thankyou for sharing your experience.

116. What amazing revelations you bring with your experience Susan. Thank you, so important to share and for everyone to hear. We can all learn from your wisdom.

117. “Over time, I came to a deep acceptance and understanding that this was a culmination of the poor choices I had made, as a result of holding on to and not dealing with my hurts” This also applies to me Susan and, whilst still a work in progress, I am now more aware, accepting and surrendering to the love that we so naturally are, thus letting go of hurts and reactions.

118. The surrender that you allowed yourself Susan through this experience is hugely inspiring, as a woman who can often feel like I am soldiering on on my own or that I am ‘holding the fort’, your sharing is such a key reminder to let go of any ideals and pictures and allow the love and support in and as you have so brilliantly described to equally allow it out.

119. Wow this is a remarkable sharing, I am constantly blown away by the depth and understanding that esoteric students have towards illness, I can relate to everything you share and it is very poignant that I chose to read this today as my lungs have been showing discomfort for a time now and I can feel it is the grief of living separate and protected from those I love and those in the world. Thank you for sharing your experience.

120. You are very inspiring Susan to be able to see the absolute truth in your situation and handle it with such grace and have such a positive outcome. The key here is that you took complete responsibility for why you had the cancer and to see it as a healing is truly wonderful.

121. I loved this sharing Susan and especially these words “It showed that when I truly reflect and honour the beautiful amazing beings that we are, that this is what comes back to me”

122. “My body felt alive, making me realise how much love there truly is in the world and how I am a part of that and it felt so beautiful.”
     This is what I observed the last days, that there is so much love there but because of my hurts I am even not realising it. I am so used to focussing on what is not love, so it is like a huge changing to understand and feel that there is love despite unloving patterns.
     In your case Susan, your cancer seems like a gift to heal you and others in allowing them to feel the love they truly are.

     1. In this process of healing you feel very connected and not alone Susan in that you have shared yourself with others and offered a wonderful inspirational reflection of what true medicine can be.

     2. Indeed Kerstin, no matter how busy we are with ourselves and in that are not able to feel the love that is everywhere around, that love is simply always there. It is up to each and everyone of us to choose for love and connect to this and the more people will do this, the world will change and will become a more loving place.

123. How great that you realised that your illness was as a result of how you had been living, ‘I came to a deep acceptance and understanding that this was a culmination of the poor choices I had made, as a result of holding on to and not dealing with my hurts for the past 54 years of my life.’ And how you then chose to let go of these unloving ways to truly support you and your body.

124. Yes, I am working at letting go and allowing support into my life. It is an ongoing process because I have been holding on for 60 years. When I stop and feel all the support that is all around, my body relaxes and tears of relief flow. I realize that I have been struggling all my life even though I have done lots of good things, so I really have to question the worth of all that doing. Thank you Simple-Living Global and Universal Medicine for getting me back on track and making sense of it all.

125. ‘I had shut God out and had given up! I had only been seeing and feeling all that was not love’ When we are facing difficult situations in life they can sometimes weigh down on us and we begin to lose our sense of what is true and true purpose. When this happens we are giving in to that which is not, in truth, who we are. We are giving in to the dark side of life. This can often lead to an illness or an accident where we have a chance to reevaluate, to take stock and start again. The love and support that is offered us during these times supports us to come back to the starting point of love again and to realise how much we are supported all the time. Changing our focus and connecting to love rather than the hardship itself allows love to grow and we meet more love inside and out. Awesome how this process works.

126. Reading your blog makes me see just how un-dealt with emotions are closely associated to illness and dis-ease formation. It seems to me that physical healing of the body through an illness is an opportunity to heal the emotional wound too.

127. Having health issues arise can sometimes really set us back, we can become very critical of ourselves and go into the ‘why me’ factor, but allowing ourselves to go deeper and ask the questions: Why has this occurred? What can I learn from it? can be super healing, and surrendering to that which the body is sharing can then be transformational.

128. I love the title of your blog ‘Healing my Separation to Humanity through Illness’ because I know in the past and many of us in the world when we are diagnosed with an illness or dis-ease feel on some level like a victim of it. The fact that you saw the cancer as an opportunity to heal your separation to humanity I feel is truly amazing. In this you offer the world a different way to be and show we are never a victim. Thank you, it is all but a choice and willingness to be both honest and truly aware.

129. “Having the cancer removed felt like a plug had been pulled out and I could really feel the beauty in humanity, this strong feeling of brotherhood, and an equalness with all in our divine connection to God.” I am blown away by this sentence as it is not something I would expect to hear from someone who has had Cancer when the normal approach is to fight and get back to life. Though you’ve shared something that is deeply healing for yourself and for the very root cause of cancer in the first place.

130. All my life I have never been one to accept help but an illness recently had me asking for help and I really appreciated those that responded. It really made me realise that I don’t have to do everything myself and people are more than willing to help if asked.

131. What an amazing story and also healing Susan. To be able to have the openness and to take ultimate responsibility for why you feel ill in the first place is very courageous and wonderful to read about. Thank you.

132. You have turned your lung cancer into a deeply healing experience and what you write is very inspiring. I appreciate your courage and openness.

133. Susan, what you share here is true healing, the grace of illness and the surrender that is so deeply beautiful when we allow this. I haven’t had a serious illness as such but i have been amongst many in my family who have… and I know it is terrifying to the human being that is faced with mortality and likely suffering and pain. But there is so much more to a time when our body speaks so loudly, releasing poison that is not part of our true being and way forward. Allowing this, understanding it in the grander understanding that we are so much more than this one precious body, and so much more than this one precious life, allows us to embrace the healing that come come through illness so that we walk in deeper glory and connection to our soul, regardless of what the temporal future following the illness may be.

134. I love coming back to this blog. The love and grace you write with Susan is the love and grace of true healing — an inspiration for all of us of embracing and accepting the true meaning of illness and letting the healing truly occur.

135. I am particularly touched Susan by how you were able to let the love and support in from your friends and family and imagine that it helps in letting go of the hurts and mistrust we hold onto from the past.

136. “I realised that this diagnosis was going to be an opportunity for me to clear all that was no longer a part of me.” – This is such a healing perspective to take, to see the diagnosis as an opportunity, a call for change and embracing a new way of living, whilst shedding all that doesn’t feel true to you anymore.

137. The story of how you turned your cancer diagnosis into an opportunity for healing old hurts and changing ingrained habits is truly inspiring. Thank you for your candidness and humbleness.

138. The deep healing you received from not holding back looking at the energetic depths of illness and disease, is beautiful Susan.

139. Holding onto hurts taints our relationships with all others around us, robbing us of true intimacy and the opportunity to know heaven.

140. It is so rare to hear cancer being written/spoken about in such a positive and healing light – it was a joy to read.

141. It used to be common place for me to be distant from some people while at the same time be very open and friendly to others. This selective way of relating to people seemed to be totally normal. More recently I am appreciating how this does not sit so well with me anymore. Holding back in some relationships stands out as being harmful and not justifiable. Allowing this awareness has meant that when the opportunity has arisen, I have been able to meet people without the past factoring into the connection with them. This has felt like a fresh start. Being like this more consistently has been very healing and enriching of all relationships.

142. I have observed this in myself, it was not until I considered my responsibility in life that allowed myself to feel how I have been with other people “I came to see that I had been living in judgement of people because of the choices they were making so I had shut down to others, separated myself and in that arrogance had deprived myself of the love on offer from them. In turn, I had deprived people of the love that I am.” Through feeling hurt, let down, disappointed I had been making judgements and demands on others and feeling unsatisfied with how things are, where I could have been appreciating what is truth and loving within them and us, something that I am now turning around. Thank you for sharing.

143. It seems we think we have it all worked out, separating from people and keeping them out. Yet in reality we are all one family, one giant organism, so in separating from people we separate from ourselves. We also lose sight of the fact that everyone of us is divine, and God is in each of us. Keeping people out means keeping God out too. We may think we are safely tucked away but end up living in a lonely compound for one.

144. Going through the process of being bed-bound and physically unwell, certainly can make one reflect and appreciate the abundance of good health. Its quite a humbling, insightful and healing process.

145. “In those first couple of days I started to feel all that was love and how I was an integral part of humanity. As this occurred, I could feel my connection to God deepen.” Thank you for sharing this. Yes – most of us do seem to be on the default mode of criticising everything that is not love, rather than simply connecting to what is.. As you have so beautifully illustrated this is a choice, and one we don’t have to wait for cancer to make for us.

146. Many people are hungering for love from their heads, but the body shows all signs of closing down, not wanting to let love in. For me a step out of this dilemma was to get honest and admit that I was in huge resistance to love – instead of whining about being lonely.

147. I felt like this was a letter written to me by my future self so thank you for sharing this with us all. The honesty in which you write brings a tear to my eye. I can see the offering you are giving us all because many of us are living as you used to, I know I am in some ways….holding back, living in judgement, not being open to humanity and the love within and around. It is a timely reminder that we can choose to live more open and with less judgement now, and not wait for sickness to show us the way.

148. After all the years during which I have struggled with the misbeliefs around energy, it is such a joy to feel the truth of how we heal!

149. Yes what a blessing it is to see and feel that there is a true divine purpose.

150. Taking responsibility for our lifestyle choices and the illness and disease some of our choices lead to is a very humbling experience. I too can relate to being brought to a stop and reflecting on my lifestyle choices and feeling the lightness in my body the clearing of illness brings.

151. “Having the cancer removed felt like a plug had been pulled out and I could really feel the beauty in humanity, this strong feeling of brotherhood, and an equalness with all in our divine connection to God” – it is amazing Susan how illness and disease is very perspective building that it can become not the curse it’s usually thought/considered to be, but instead the blessing that it truly is – to be re-connected to oneself, to people, to divinity from a place of separateness is a miracle – even in the presence of something like cancer.

152. This was so beautiful to read Susan, the openness and love that you now have for people and yourself clearly felt. In this blog there is a powerful teaching for all of us, to let go of the judgments towards ourselves and others. Thank you for surrendering to the tenderness that you are.

153. There are many reasons that cause us to separate from others, like not wanting to be hurt, not feeling good enough, comparison, wanting perfection in self and others etcetera, but are these all just a trick and a trap that don’t really achieve what we thought they would? And as a result we distance ourselves from people, ‘I came to see that I had been living in judgement of people because of the choices they were making so I had shut down to others, separated myself and in that arrogance had deprived myself of the love on offer from them. In turn, I had deprived people of the love that I am.’

154. “Having the cancer removed felt like a plug had been pulled out and I could really feel the beauty in humanity, this strong feeling of brotherhood, and an equalness with all in our divine connection to God.” We can never underestimate the power of true healing and the opportunities we all have with this, as does allowing our true beauty and amazingness to be appreciated in the world, this changes everything.

155. So beautiful to come back to this Ruth as you share so beautifully the quality of the ever-present Love that we all are, are a part of and here to return to living together. Every day we have the choice to connect to, live, express and share this quality with everyone we meet, through simply being ourselves.

156. Susan, thankyou for your exquisite story – what a beautiful woman you are. I come back to this blog repeatedly because of the beauty you express, and for the beauty it awakens in me. I can also feel how much I’ve held others out, usually for fear of being hurt. Your words were so true for me, that by doing this we hold away others love, and deprive them of our love also. The interconnectedness you speak of is something I’m sure we all miss, and so important to talk about this and be aware of what’s possible in our everyday.

157. Susan it is confirming to read how that once you opened yourself to receive love and dissolve the sense of separation from the world you found your place in the scheme of things, and the love is now self-perpetuating. Could it be that illness is a blessing in disguise – it helps break down our stubborn walls of so called ‘protection’ that we have been falsely clinging to. Reading your story brings to mind my tendency to separate myself at times, and gives me the choice to let this go before illness strikes. Thank you so much for sharing your experience.

158. How lovely that you have come to this Susan, ‘I have a deeper acceptance and love for myself and for those around me, and am now clearly seeing how we are all a part of God’s Divine Plan.’

159. Thank you Susan, today I could see how my illnesses have also brought me closer to other people and changed the way I view things, and how the treatment I received reflected how I was living at the time.

160. What a massive healing there is to be had through the process of being treated for cancer… “Having the cancer removed felt like a plug had been pulled out and I could really feel the beauty in humanity, this strong feeling of brotherhood, and an equalness with all in our divine connection to God…” This is showing that there is so much more that is being healed than just the treatment to the physical body.

161. “Over time, I came to a deep acceptance and understanding that this was a culmination of the poor choices I had made, as a result of holding on to and not dealing with my hurts for the past 54 years of my life.” – wow. I’m only recently start to be honest about the fact that I’ve (also) run away from my hurts for most of my life, if not my entire life. That all the choices that I made were distracting me in one way or another from the fact that deep down I’m hurt. The energies I choose to align to are often quite subtle, but nevertheless obvious if I choose to be aware. Now that I choose to be more aware, I’ve become aware of quite some hardness as well as drives to reach a certain picture or goal. As they are often very familiar to me, I’ve not chosen to face them and expose them for what they actually are – distractions from the very tender and loving man I am. With this came also the awareness of the relationship I have with my body. That deeply loving and nurturning my own instrument of love is something that I want to develop, or one could say, there’s a need to develop. As it is through my body that I get to know myself, other people, all of life and God.

162. I felt that the initial shock of being diagnosed with lung cancer after having made lots of loving changes in your life, exposes the very common belief that if we are good and look after ourselves, we shouldn’t get sick. We seem to treat illness and health like a reward system. But as you have acknowledged there are the previous life time(s) of disregard and choices that were not that loving to heal.

163. I have heard other people share that they felt incredibly loved and held throughout their hospital experience. In these cases, the people appreciated and understood that their cancer or major illness was a healing and the surgery was all part of this healing. It would be amazing if all patients were aware of this potential, so they too could make the most of their experience in hospital and their illness.

164. “This was something I had never done before, as I had always been strongly independent and had always struggled to accept help.” How often the world celebrates someone’s strong independence, yet it is not hard to imagine the hardness that this way of being brings to the body, to give yourself permission to ask for support is to allow the body to open up and drop into its true homeostasis.

165. I love how the body gives us recurring opportunities to make corrections to the way we have been living. It doesn’t judge us, but attempts to return us back to a healthy state of living through illness and disease awakening us to listen to it. Thank you body for your wisdom.

166. It’s amazing how an illness can offer a opportunity to heal more than just the physical ailment, but also the under lying reasons for the illness.

167. Coming out of a lung and sinus infection myself a lot of what you’ve shared here Susan I can relate to. This illness has given me much time to stop and feel how I have been living. Feeling the disconnection from people and hiding under judgement of myself and others is horrible and yet I have never approached it with this depth of inquiry before. But what I feel has been the catalyst for such reflection has been the willingness to come out and be in the world with people more and more. This illness has actually allowed me to feel how horrible separating from others is.

168. Illness in my experience makes us more humble, it makes us stop, and it gives us reflection of our lifestyle and choices. What it has also given me an awareness of since listening to Universal Medicine is the self medicine in how we interact, how we live in and amongst people is as much a part of our medicine as the food we eat or the exercise we take. So can illness, like the natural disaster as a bigger scaled example, be ways we come to connect more with one another, and that this connection is part of what makes us more closely aligned to a healthy way of being. For me if life does not have people in it then it is not really much of a life at all.

169. So many of us get lost in focusing on what is not love rather than focusing on what is love. There is love all around us if only we are prepared to see it and deeply appreciate it when it is there. That then builds our capacity to both be love and receive love.

170. “I had only been seeing and feeling all that was not love. In those first couple of days I started to feel all that was love and how I was an integral part of humanity.” This is so very true for many of us, to focus on all that in ‘not’ love and not feeling all that ‘is’ love and of course how integral that is to ALL.

171. Understanding that illness is a result of our lifestyle choices and is the body’s way of clearing the consequences of our ill-choices is so contrary to the commonly held perception of the cause of illnesses. However, if one is willing to accept the responsibility of what this means it is really common sense: and so empowering.

172. I read these words about judging people and I squirm in my seat. This harshness is so familiar, taking situations for their surface appearance and thinking that I know exactly what is going on. When the truth is that people, we all, are simple beings finding our way through this chaotic and confusing world.

173. Understanding how illness heals us is a completely different way to embrace illness, the true reason for getting ill is to show us there is as different way we can be. It’s our choice whether we make short term changes until we’re well again, or whether we make long term changes to how we look after ourselves.

174. The word ‘cancer’ invokes the feeling of dread and fear let alone the process of actually go through diagnosis and treatment of the disease. Your sharing Susan busts though this consciousness and offers another way of being with the condition. You light the way forward with the true meaning of healing.

175. It is amazing what illness and dis-ease does, if life threatening and we are open and willing to heal, it makes us stop and deeply reflect on our life and how we have lived. It can also help relationships heal and bring barriers of protection down as you have described here. How awesome would it be if we did this automatically and naturally before we even got an illness or dis-ease. Could it be possible that if we did this, stopped, reflected, were open and willing to heal, were open to listen to and honour our bodies, to bring in more self-love and self-care for ourselves … could it be possible if we truly did this we would then not need to get an illness or dis-ease to make us stop? I was just speaking with a friend who had been ill for a few days, she shared with me that she took herself to bed and surrendered to her body and said do what you need to do! I shared with her that was amazing what she did, how often, especially when we are ill do we surrender to the body and allow it to do what it needs to! There is much to ponder in here. Serge Benhayon is a great man to know and have in your life, especially when ill. He provides clarity, wisdom and a genuine deep love and care that reflects back to us a true and more loving way we can be with ourselves, accelerating healing.

176. Susan you have turned around something that many would feel was a disaster into a beautiful learning journey, and had an amazing healing. Feeling into your illness in this depth of understanding and sharing it in this way is a support also for others who may have similar paths to tread. We can all learn how to view any illness in this way.

177. How beautiful that you were able to allow more than just a physical healing to take place here and that you supported yourself in looking more deeply at what was going on. Letting go of old harmful ways of being brings healing to everyone and it is felt and reflected back as you so clearly show.

178. It is quite a concept to consider a severe illness a healing in itself. It completely changes one’s attitude to the illness and the healing process, doing what medicine proposes but also very taking care of yourself and not having any need to feel more than a fleeting hurt.

179. In reading this blog again I have a new appreciation of what it is to make a judgement of another person in that it is any time we hold them as less against an ideal or belief of our own. I can already feel the difference this realisation will have on how i see people.

180. It is deeply amazing to me that writing can hold such a strong and deep connection to all of us. Your acceptance of the opportunity for healing the separation from yourself,God and all of us has allowed me to feel that grace so clearly and strongly in my own body. Thank you Susan for this. It illustrates and lives the awesome connection we have with one another.

181. Susan your light was always shining, but it’s to live in the fullness of that self loving inner acceptance and care that the body appreciates, and it then can express our essence fully, it’s when we resist it shows us by illness and disease that there is another way. Such a reflection is to lovingly stop us from continuing and to bring us back to the truth we naturally are part of.

182. Just in that moment I judge another, I notice I separate from them and can go no further in understanding or appreciating where they are at or what is happening for them.

183. Your hurts and experiences with regard to how you have judged and felt about humanity and others’ choices are exactly same as my own and I am sure many others also. The state of humanity is very clearly not a healthy one and we all know it is not right but the only way we are ever going to truly change it is if we are open to it, real with it and not seeking to protect or hide from its reality and dealing with our hurts is most definitely the way to do this.

184. This is true healing. When we can see ourselves beyond the physicality and are willing to understand and appreciate illnesses and diseases for what they bring, there’s so much being offered. We are so much more loved than we can fathom.

185. Your blog shows just how much healing is available through the process of illness, that it is not only the specific ailment, but also healing of many emotional hurts and past reactions that gave us a one-sided view of the world.

186. The way you speak about lung cancer is certainly another way of looking at it. What a great offering for anyone who has the challenge of cancer to face.

187. This article has supported me hugely to appreciate how much can change when we open our arms to humanity, as it were. Thank you for sharing your experience of your illness and how it opened up opportunities for healing for you. We have these opportunities not only when our physical bodies flag things up but also when we demonstrate the effects of separation in our societies. Brexit is one such event that needs to be seen for the horror it is and then responsibly acted upon: my taking responsibility for any separation in my life and how it ripples out; speaking up about what is at play here and yet again simply opening up to all those I meet as my part in building unity in humanity.

188. Susan your healing is now healing all of us, as what you are learning is for us all. Thank you.

189. Susan your blog shows that a serious illness can be a great blessing. Yes as controversial as that sounds, if we embrace it and accept it as an opportunity to deepen our self-responsibility and to heal as you have clearly done, it changes everything we currently believe about being ill.

190. ‘Having the cancer removed felt like a plug had been pulled out and I could really feel the beauty in humanity, this strong feeling of brotherhood, and an equalness with all in our divine connection to God. ‘This is a beautiful metaphor as it illustrates the clearing from this so well.

191. Susan what an incredible sharing as there is not an ounce of ‘poor me’ in your sharing which there so easily could be. The way you were with your healing is incredibly inspirational.

192. We may think we are not harming others by shutting ourselves off from people and living in our own world, but it is in fact deeply harming to all as we reflect to another every reason why they too should shut down, harden, protect themselves and hold back love – in an ever more loveless world.

193. Beautiful Susan what an inspirational account of responsibility, love and evolution. It seems when we address our personal hurts our hearts open to the connection and equalises with others and true healing is on offer.

194. “Having the cancer removed felt like a plug had been pulled out and I could really feel the beauty in humanity, this strong feeling of brotherhood, and an equalness with all in our divine connection to God.” How amazing to be able to acknowledge this Susan, and understand that the cancer was in fact offering you a deep healing rather than being a devastating illness.

195. The love that I hold back from others is and has been immense. The abuse I put my body through so I could not feel the connection to others is still keeping me from fully expressing!

196. It feels to me that the loving choices you had been making allowed you to be aware of what was happening in your body such that the cancer was revealed in an early stage and could be treated. My experience of connecting to the truth of my body and trusting what feels true in my body, is not that I don’t get sick, but that I am much more aware of the illnesses early in their course and can support myself throughout. Whenever I get ill these days there is a huge opportunity for growth and healing.

197. ‘Having the cancer removed felt like a plug had been pulled out and I could really feel the beauty in humanity, this strong feeling of brotherhood, and an equalness with all in our divine connection to God.’ This has to be the ultimate blessing in such an illness and to have seen this and shared it is a blessing for all.

198. I continually hear the most amazing stories from people who have gone through what we would consider intense physical illness or disease. It seems when we are faced with the possibility of death we value life and our body more than ever.

199. IT is so beautiful to read this, and the space that you held in the hospital that allowed for connection with everyone working there, truly a way we can be in all of our workplaces and homes, a way that restores trust and brings to everyone the possibility of love.

200. How amazing Susan that you were willing to accept that part of your healing was to understand that by you keeping those people who loved you at a distance, you had contributed to your own illness. This is inspiring and is something that could be shared widely as a way of supporting others to understand that a major part of the healing process is not just on a physical level, but to deal with our own deeply and long held hurts, allowing them to surface and feel them, and consequently to clear from the body.

201. How wonderful Susan that you were able to let go of the need to be independent and to open yourself up to accept all help that was offered. I can feel how this choice to surrender played a huge part in, not only the success of your healing, but how you will now approach the way that you live. It feels as if you have let go of a huge and most unnecessary weight that you carried for way too long, and the glorious result is that both you and humanity benefit.

202. “Having the cancer removed felt like a plug had been pulled out and I could really feel the beauty in humanity, this strong feeling of brotherhood, and an equalness with all in our divine connection to God.” This is a beautiful way to see how the cancer has supported you in opening up your connection to humanity and to God and the divine plan. It is so easy to get caught up in life, and forget we are part of a much bigger picture.

203. This shows that illness can offer the body a huge clearing and gives us the space to look at where we are at and what areas we are not living in an open, loving, all encompassing way. Your story shows that it is possible for us to appreciate an illness and take responsibility to look at why we have it and how we can develop a relationship with ourselves that can start to rid the body of what we were holding onto that was not us to begin with.

204. As soon as there is separation, the disconnection from ourselves, and hence the inevitable disconnection from all others then from our emptiness we will move to judging them, to bring them down, to compare to be jealous. From that first step away, the first step we can take back is to connect back to ourselves, and in that remember who we truly are and embrace ourselves and all others fully under that same equal light,

205. This is beautiful Susan. I have recently been unwell and it has opened me up to people as I have realised that my connection to others is a vital part of healing. In fact I am sure that my choice to disconnect from others is what led me to become ill in the first place. I know that all forms of sickness are in fact a support even though it often doesn’t feel that way while we are experiencing the consequences of our choices.

206. Choosing to not stay in the hurt of expectation of others has allowed me to enjoy and appreciate thier essence, who they truly are regardless of issues that some times make themselves apparent. Issues are only habits to work on, they are not what we are truly made of and people can change. I am feeling much more love in my life through honouring who someone truly is and not just looking at their habits, and I am also learning to offer myself this gift.

207. I have felt this, I realised I have felt let down…”I came to see that I had been living in judgement of people because of the choices they were making so I had shut down to others…” I have had expectations of others that they can not and should not have to provide. I now know and understand that it is a judgement to feel hurt or let down by someone else. I am learning and now feel that I am responsible for the reactions I have, doesn’t matter I have expectations or not..I am a lot more understanding and loving since I have been making this choice.

     1. This is a seismic shift from the indulgence of victimhood to stepping into responsibility. It is a beautiful, powerful and life changing shift to make.

208. To replace fear with healing: Your story, Susan, shows the opportunity cancer brings if we but choose to surrender to feeling the love that is in us and all around us. You speak for me when you say “…most important to me is that neither I, nor we, are alone in this journey.”… and you show us that this is very possible.

209. “…My body felt alive, making me realise how much love there truly is in the world and how I am a part of that and it felt so beautiful…” This statement makes you realise and see that love is not an invisible thing, it is there delivered even in the smallest of gestures in this world, its just that we have to ask the question, am I open to receiving love, or am I shutting it out… It is quite humbling and amazing to realise just how much love there is around if only we take notice.

210. The true gift of illness and disease is huge and little understood with the opportunity that arises to communicate within oneself and to express this in all we do and are. Our choices often become more loving towards ourselves our bodies and within our lives from these reflections and we become more open to feeling the love of all and to our oneness of brotherhood and humanity.

211. Amazing Susan, it’s rare to hear this level of appreciation and understanding that you bring to an illness such as lung cancer – a re-imprinting for you and indeed anyone reading this blog.

212. “My body felt alive, making me realise how much love there truly is in the world and how I am a part of that and it felt so beautiful.” Opening ourselves up to love, allowing ourselves to truly deserve it and feel worth it is a magnificent confirmation of the power of surrendering to love.

213. “This experience has changed me. I had much time during my recovery to reflect on, face, and clear so many of my hurts” – when i experienced a recovery time i also felt the same as this too Susan, and that ‘recovery’ itself is not just on the physical (and much needed) level, but equally and also on the reflective deeper level too — without which there is no real healing from the beauty or blessing in having the illness/disease/surgery in the first place. Beauty or blessing because to heal is exactly this.

214. The aspect you write about being in judgement Susan to shut yourself off from them, to then be not able to enjoy love from others, makes such sense to me and that this does happen [and to so many of us too], ending up with with an even more hardened person. And to know that this quality has to mean shutting out God too, the breather of life, makes sense that the/your lung was affected. This is a super blog that really makes you think about what the body endures from our choices to live life; that the body’s communication is unmistakeable in sharing this with us, whether we like it and admit it, or not.

215. Susan, there’s nothing like a real life story to bring home the message, so thank you very much for sharing this with us. When we shut people out we shut out God – FACT. In order to grow in life, my experience is that we must be willing to let other people in, to open up to them and allow ourselves to be loved. I have heard it said by Serge Benhayon that ‘Love is a two-way street’ and I agree – we cannot truly feel and know what Love is unless we are allowing ourselves to be loved back.

     1. Wow… this is so common sense Shevon; that “…we cannot truly feel and know what Love is unless we are allowing ourselves to be loved back.” but I have to stop here and ask myself where I have been getting caught up in the “issues and emotions” in my family instead of feeling and confirming the love that is there between us…

216. It is interesting how we perceive that it is God or others who abandon us rather than feeling into the places where our our own hurts and rejections have made us disconnect and seemingly separate from the all that we are from.

217. Susan I can really feel similar issues for me coming up in my body as I read your blog and it is a little scary.
     Thank you for this sharing, as it is healing for me as well, as I too need to take stock of how I have been holding myself back from myself and thus from others in the world.

     1. HI Anne – yes I understand exactly what you mean. I felt the same way reading this – a big wake up call to start looking at the real harm caused by holding back. Thank you for sharing your experience Susan so that we may learn from this and be inspired to choose a way of being that is supportive for all.

218. Opening up to people might be the biggest form of medicine available in this world. It doesn’t cost a dollar, only a willingness to open up our hearts. Lately I do that more and more and become aware how much love people carry in their bodies. And how lovely it is to connect to this love. We’re amazing people, yet due to shame, stubbornness and ignorance we allow ourselves too little to feel the fact. In both ourselves and others. For me the feeling of this love is very new, yet also known in another way. As if I am surrendering to something I’ve chosen to disconnect from – yet is available everywhere.

219. What a great understanding and healing you will have received, ‘ I came to a deep acceptance and understanding that this was a culmination of the poor choices I had made, as a result of holding on to and not dealing with my hurts for the past 54 years of my life’.

220. The more I express the more open and free my body feels. Equally when I hold back and separate from this the tension immediately kicks in.

     1. I have this sensation, the tension for me is a sign that whether I am uncomfortable, about to break convention, be raw or vulnerable, it is the time to express. I do not ignore that tension as much as I used to because I am feeling amazing and developing appreciation of myself and others through feeling more open, loving and honest.

        1. Yes, and the key is to express from joy or wholeness and to notice if there was any reaction there as well.

221. it is deeply humbling and inspiring to see and feel what is possible when we allow true love – to let it in and to love out equally. Imagine our way of community living from that love and brotherhood.

222. In the UK, health care is free. I wonder whether if we had to pay for own health care, we might take more responsibility for our choices?

223. Really seeing the judgement that we have about each other and the impact this has on all of our relationships, not just the ones we have judged, is so important. I am finding that this brings a yearning to be more responsible in the thoughts that I allow.

224. Wow Susan, it is incredible how you write about your experience with cancer with so much joy, love, clarity and understanding. It is deeply healing to read and your beautiful open sharing highlights how holding on to our hurts can affect our health and that there is an enormous love surrounding us constantly. We just have to connect to it, and it seems your illness pulled you to reflect and appreciate how magnificent life truly is.

225. ‘Why did I separate myself from others?’ A great question to ask and ponder on Susan. It begins a beautiful healing journey that returns us back to the Love we truly are.

226. It’s humbling when we move ourselves out of the way and open up more to love and to others, particularly with the divine love and it is great you were so lovingly held and supported by friends and family throughout this time. It made me reflect on how many elderly, well many people, particularly going through an illness or traumatic time do not have this amount of love and holding from others. That is why it is so important that we remember ultimately we are all one and therefore to be there for others when needed. I loved the fact that even when you were in hospital you gave the space in your room for members of staff etc to come and speak about what was going on for them in their lives ✨

227. I just read your blog again and it resonates in my body, as in the moment I have a cold which feels for me, even if the symptoms are not severe, like a warning sign or an oppotunity to break the ill and loveless patterns. I see every illness as severe or light it may be, as a call from the body to look deeper in what is truly going on and take action on what we detected.

228. Thank you for sharing your journey, how beautiful it is to reconnect to humanity and feel that joy within us. How lucky we are that our body allows us to heal and clear in this way.

229. It blows me away every time when I read other people’s experience of illness and disease and how much transformation takes place when we are open to the healing on offer, from the disease itself and from all the interactions and experiences that occur because of it. Thank you for sharing, Susan.

230. “Having the cancer removed felt like a plug had been pulled out and I could really feel the beauty in humanity, this strong feeling of brotherhood, and an equalness with all in our divine connection to God.” What a huge blessing you are describing about what cancer has brought you. This is the sort of thing that should be written about in magazines and on talk shows. People such as you, who have totally turned around how they were living, to feel a deep connection with themselves and all, very amazing.

231. It is so easy to go into the doing of life and make this the focus as opposed to connecting to who we are and all those around us. Here we get to feel how we are all one in the same and that allowing each other in is actually allowing ourselves to be all of who we are. Why wait until and illness or disease before we connect to ourselves and everyone else on a deeper, more honest level?

232. This is such a beautiful read Susan, as I feel the deep healing that has taken place, and the reflection for us all. Illness can be viewed as a tragedy but in truth as you have shared it’s a blessing to clear ill patterns and an opportunity to expand our self love and awareness.

     1. Very well said Merrileepettinato, I used to have that same view and used to have a huge fear around illness and disease. Now, I too understand what it means and how amazing our bodies are at healing, and blessing us with opportunities to heal and expand.

233. Susan, beautiful to read, ‘I have a deeper acceptance and love for myself and for those around me, and am now clearly seeing how we are all a part of God’s Divine Plan.’ I can really feel how it is so common for people, myself included to see the negative and to focus on what is not love rather than feeling love and accepting ourselves and others, only seeing what is not love keeps us small, stops us appreciating our lives and ourselves and other people and stops our connection with God.

234. Illness as a blessing… What you share here Susan is monumental. The separation to God (or a higher power or any other name you would choose) in our society is huge. Giving up and blaming prevail, unfortunately. Yet all lung conditions have to do with separation to God. Your sharing is absolutely debunking the victim energy many go into when being diagnosed with such a life threatening disease. The way you’ve chosen to heal not only the physical part, but also the energetic part is a story worth sharing with as many people as possible. A PhD on it would be great! Thank you.

235. Thank you for sharing Susan, as you have shown how possible it is for deep healing to occur when one has received a diagnosis of cancer or disease.

236. The surrendering to the healing that your illness presented is most beautiful Susan, and immensely inspiring.

237. I love that the teachings that Serge presents allows us the opportunity to deeply reflect on life and heal on held patterns and open up to our true way of living.

238. This is more then a ‘positive’ cancer story – this is a life changing experience that gives insight into the magic of our bodies and what is actually on offer by way of illness and disease. It’s so beautiful to learn from the illness and the roots of why it is there to then heal and nurture the body in the process of truly clearing the energy. This is really inspiring Susan, as I have feared illness since I can remember but it’s because the truth of what illness is is not yet common knowledge, so it’s wonderful that your experience is now on record.

239. We are never alone if we choose to receive the love that we and everyone else are.

     1. It is an incredible and quite new experience for me to realise that I am never alone and that when I let go of all the struggle and mental chatter (which is like a self made fortress that keeps me apart from people and life) I feel really supported and held… never ever alone.

240. How many of us are able to look at illness as an opportunity? A moment when our bodies flag up that all is not well and that we should review the way we are living, rather than an inconvenience that stops us pushing ahead and continuing to live in dis-ease.

241. “The nursing staff, medical professionals, orderlies, kitchen staff and cleaners were all so beautifully loving, attentive, gentle and caring. It showed me that when I truly reflect and honour the beautiful, loving and amazing beings that we are, that is what comes back to me” – so beautiful to have this confirmation Susan, a confirmation of the way and quality we hold ourselves in returning to welcome us. This is harmony.

242. Our body is a marker of all our choices and if those choices are loving, our body loves us back.

243. This is beautiful to read and know that through allowing oneself to be supported one opens up and can allow and feel the love of everyone. We are all love and through showing this to the world we allow others to be seen for who they truly are also. It is amazing the true offering and connection illness and disease can bring if we allow it to.

244. Letting go of judgement is something I feel we could all learn from. It is so easy to judge another without looking at our own life first. I have learnt how judgement keeps people out, the thoughts I have maybe internal and not physically expressed, yet they are still felt by the person that the judgement is directed towards. The interesting thing I have found is the less I judge people the more I am able to love and enjoy everyone. We come from Brotherhood and anything less than feeling this unity is an assault on the body. “I came to see that I had been living in judgement of people because of the choices they were making so I had shut down to others, separated myself and in that arrogance had deprived myself of the love on offer from them. In turn, I had deprived people of the love that I am.” What a powerful and very healing realisation to come to Susan.

245. “… Having the cancer removed felt like a plug had been pulled out and I could really feel the beauty in humanity, this strong feeling of brotherhood, and an equalness with all in our divine connection to God…” This combination of the surgical and the innermost approach to medicine certainly offers true and long lasting healing of human disease. Thank you for sharing Susan.

246. ‘I have a deeper acceptance and love for myself and for those around me, and am now clearly seeing how we are all a part of God’s Divine Plan.’ This is gold, we can’t get richer than coming to this in our lives, and then it is forever deepening.

247. This is so true in my experience also: ‘It showed me that when I truly reflect and honour the beautiful, loving and amazing beings that we are, that is what comes back to me.” When i live open and loving with others it is reflected back to me, when i’m off, angry, hurt, or just caught up in life, i feel a disconnection from others. We are all naturally loving but we may not live it all the time, but when love is reflect by another, for me it is the true way of how we can be together, but i also have the choice to reflect love.

248. As i read this Susan, i could feel how the cancer had a whole story to it, as you reflected and went deeper than only focusing on the physical ailment, although that is crucially important but you also equally looked at what is there to learn from this. As the choices you made as you shared actually were harming you and would have cause disharmony in our body. This is for us all, how are we living and how is that affecting us…we may not get sick physically, but it can be experienced in other ways, such as depression, mental health problems and so forth.

249. This is a deeply felt sharing, Thank you Susan, so beautiful to feel an amazing woman come out! Hurts can be the energetic cause of making us sick in so many ways.

250. Susan for many people facing a major illness the medical system alone does not provide the answer to “why me” or really “how did this happen” yet the beauty in your sharing is the very healing aspect of bringing Universal Medicine to the table, allowing us to understand our part in our illness and with that approach the condition with the reflection and healing it is there to offer. Very humbling and powerful.

251. It is interesting to consider “why did I separate myself from others?” as when I feel deep inside I feel the connectedness with each and everyone of us and even more, a connectedness with the planets and the stars, the universe and God. So why should I walk away from that as in fact everything in me does want nothing else than live in this connectedness? Fact is that I have walked away from this and by asking myself this question the answers will come to me as the question itself does come from this space, the space that I am connected with and is forever pulling me to come back to it but in that is respecting my choices from free will to respond to that pull or not.

252. ‘I experienced a feeling of interconnectedness with everyone that made me feel truly joyful.’ When we allow other people in, it is beautiful to feel and when we listen to them with an open heart and clear mind it is amazing what we can learn.

253. Susan this is such a powerful argument to let go of judgement, judgement of ourselves and thus judgement of others. Your realisation shows how separative judgement is and how in that separation, how harming they are to live with, both for others and within ourselves. “I came to see that I had been living in judgement of people because of the choices they were making so I had shut down to others, separated myself and in that arrogance had deprived myself of the love on offer from them. In turn, I had deprived people of the love that I am.”

254. “I came to see that I had been living in judgement of people because of the choices they were making so I had shut down to others, separated myself and in that arrogance had deprived myself of the love on offer from them. In turn, I had deprived people of the love that I am. ” Judgement is a killer, yet I detect sometimes how I am in judgement myself. It is a blessing to get aware of this and renounce this energy completely.

255. Thank you Susan for a beautiful sharing how you were able to heal your hurts and let people into your life, by letting your love out. Disease and illness are great opportunities given by our bodies to bring a deeper healing for more of our light to be lived.

256. Thank you for sharing as it offers amazing insight by showing how deeply healing a diagnosis of disease can be if, we allow it to show us something about the way we have been living with the constraints, ideas, behaviour, beliefs we impose upon ourselves. This insight to the way we have been living is medicine.

257. Another great line Susan ” I had only been seeing and feeling all that was not love. In those first couple of days I started to feel all that was love and how I was an integral part of humanity. As this occurred, I could feel my connection to God deepen.” I can relate to this, focusing on all that is not love, and living from previous hurtful experiences, and being critical, instead of being aware of all the love and beauty in people – and in myself. Very inspiring.

258. Thankyou for sharing Susan. So many parts of your blog deeply touched me, including “My body felt alive, making me realise how much love there truly is in the world and how I am a part of that and it felt so beautiful.” This is so easy to forget, I also have been overly independent or resistant to allowing in support, yet I now realise reading your words I am holding love out of my life.

259. It is such a familiar trait, to spend time focussing on all the things we do wrong or that we don’t do well, rather than deeply appreciating all the things we do really well and ‘get right’, which often far out weigh the former. It is interesting why we put so much emphaisis this way, and give ourselves such a hard time about it. It is no wonder that we end up being frustrated, angry or sad for much of our lives when this could so easily be turned around by choosing to take responsibiity for our actions and accepting that we are where we are because of our day to day choices.

260. We so often equate greater self-care with being illness free. I mean, how cool would that be to never get sick and be consistently well? But this all flows Susan as you show, from a vision of disease as a mistake, an inconvenient irritation to be avoided at all costs. But what if the opposite is true, that this sickness is a way for our body to let go, to self-correct and show us the true way to go? That would really turn our world on its head and the way we see true vitality and health as well.

261. ‘This experience has changed me. I had much time during my recovery to reflect on, face, and clear so many of my hurts. I still have many to deal with, but what is most important to me is that neither I, nor we, are alone in this journey.’ – Well said Susan, my experience is also that illness comes with an opportunity for true change, it is never about perfection or whether or not we have cleared all our hurts but simply being open to welcome the healing and learning that is at hand. Our Soul knows.

262. Beautiful article, beautiful title. We are offered many moments in a day to heal our separation and every step in this reveals deeper and more amazing levels of relationship, collaboration and intimacy.

263. Thank you for a great blog. This is very enlightening and also encouraging Susan. To appreciate we sometimes grow and heal in ways we would never have expected! To accept the love and support of the amazing people you came into contact with was a great learning as well.

264. “Why did I separate myself from others?” This is an interesting question to ponder Susan. For me, I find that when I separate myself from others or shut down to others, it is usually for protection. I try to protect myself from being hurt and from the imposition of others wanting something from me. I know that protection doesn’t actually prevent this from happening, yet I often fall into this trap.

265. Susan it is amazing that you were able to accept your illness was a result of the choices you have made. When I have been sick at times and been able to accept this, I know that I have been able to heal these previous choices. I also know that these previous choices don’t make me a bad person, and that it is not about never being sick, but rather, how we are and the healing we are open to if and when we do get sick.

266. I enjoyed reading how you connected back with humanity – by opening up to people and to God. That seemed to be good medicine and an important part of your overall recovery. Thankyou for sharing this story.

267. Susan, your sharing is beautiful. And it also reminds me of the fact that very often people will come to a point in their life when they decide to get more healthy and so they will stop smoking or drinking or stop other habits that are known to not support the body. And then after making this healthy choice and step, they suddenly become more sick! It may seem strange, but in effect, it is like the stop allows the body to go into a type of detox and all the things that were held in for years, finally get to come out and this is when they come out as a disease or illness. So this in fact is a blessing, even though it might feel like the decision to get better resulted in worse health! The reality is that if there was a semblance of health before, it was only superficial, and so now all the choices that did not support the body are there to be felt and cleared. And this is to be appreciated – for on some level, the person has declared themselves to be ready to take on board the responsibility of true and deep care for themselves. Thank you Susan – this is a wonderful reflection and reminder for us all!

     1. We are able to reduce smoking and drinking but it seems very hard to eat in a more suitable way and to move more during the day.

268. There is just so much in this blog “Having the cancer removed felt like a plug had been pulled out and I could really feel the beauty in humanity, this strong feeling of brotherhood, and an equalness with all in our divine connection to God.” The gift of illness and disease just astounds me; the opportunity to clear an accumulation of what we have created as a result of our hurts and choices from our bodies to allow the expression of our love out to humanity. My concern is that I often lack the responsibility for my lifestyle choices and lack of true connection for the illness and dis-ease to have to bring me back through a stop to get it.

269. At times of illness it would seem counter intuitive that one would be giving out so much as I felt was being shared in this blog – instead one might become very insular and self contained. Giving out here included opening to others, proactively seeking and encouraging support, listening to and being very in tune with others. It is great that an illness can become an opportunity as was stated to unplug oneself and deeply connect.

270. What a great point on how when we focus on the what is not love around us and look at everyone with a judgement towards others choices, how can we possibly feel love for ourselves let alone for another human being. Judgement is such a nasty vile reaction and in truth it is a reaction to ourselves and what we have chosen not what the person in front of us is reflecting. To be able to stop and look within and see what is going of for yourself first creates space for everyone to be. In this space we get to feel underneath the what is not true and feel the Love that we all are, our truth.

271. It is inspiring how you embraced your illness in showing you a deepening connection with yourself, God and humanity. What wisdom the body carries when we are open to listening. Thank you Susan.

272. It feels as though you have truly embraced your illness and turned the diagnosis into an opportunity to take stock and heal your hurts, without perfection but with love and consistency.

273. This is a great example of how beneficial illness and disease can be depending on how we look at the illness and get an understanding of why we have these conditions in the first place. Who would have thought that we would be reading a piece on cancer where the person has welcomed what the cancer can show her along with taking the opportunity to heal much more than the physical – this is a war cry from the way cancer is normally portrayed.

274. “Having the cancer removed felt like a plug had been pulled out and I could really feel the beauty in humanity, this strong feeling of brotherhood, and an equalness with all in our divine connection to God.” Imagine if everyone that got cancer saw it as you do Susan, as a healing and an opportunity to reflect on our life and make changes. We still view illness and disease as something that is bad and should not happen and dwell on this, rather than an opportunity it presents to return to God and the brotherhood we are all united by.

275. In one true relationship we find the keys to unlocking that relationship with humanity as our equal brothers once more.

276. To me this is very profound and unfortunately true for many of us in the world. I can certainly relate to this. The arrogance is huge, I chose to cut off feeling love, so I could sustain the image that there’s no love. Even though I innately know that this is not true. But, for a very long time I couldn’t feel that this wasn’t true. I chose to be completely ignorant and stubborn to have a deeper look into this. There’s a lot of shame related to this as I find it quite difficult to admit that I’ve not felt other people’s love, let alone that I deprived people from my love. Slowly I’m starting to see and feel that I’m the one choosing to go into judgement and taking it / things personal, rather then ‘just’ stay solidly connected to me. Thank you for this sharing Susan.

277. Yesterday an event that I was organising was postponed which freed me up at a time when I most needed it. I had a day when I could catch up with lots of those little, and big, things that i had not managed yet to do. It felt gorgeous. I realise in this though that I don’t allow enough space, extra time to complete things. I know that sometimes things take a lot longer than they ‘should’ and it is putting me on notice to factor more space into my day. It is also letting me know that I could focus a lot more, be more present with myself, in my body and with what I am doing. Several tasks on the computer have become a lot less stressful since I have been more aware of connecting in full with whatever I am doing.

278. This is a beautiful sharing Susan and shows the true healing that can occur through illness and disease and how we can change our lives and allow our joy to radiate out into our whole lives from this with its true purpose and ourselves deeply known.

279. Illness and disease can be a blessing in disguise. Rather than being a bad thing, if we embrace them and understand what they are showing us then they can be used as a marker and a point to turn our lives around, to deepen the love within us. I find when things get good or better it is easy to get comfortable – after all life may be soo much better than it once was but until we are all living a life of love and truth we can never settle as there is work to be done. Illness and disease can be great at bringing us out of our comfort zone. If anyone is suffering on the planet it is our responsibility to offer them a reflection of love. The moment we let this go and individualise life then it is easy to put the blinkers on and accept a lesser version of love which in truth is not love.

280. A truly inspiring account of how you used your experience of cancer to review what had got you there and how you were able to achieve a deeper, stronger connection with yourself, your purpose and humanity in general.

281. I too have found that the healing offered through an illness can be far bigger and more encompassing than the area of the body and the symptoms we can focus on. The deepened openness to love and support of others is one of those major points.

282. Once we let go of our independence people feel more able to offer their support because there is no resistance to it. Great that you could “graciously accept all that was on offer”, Susan.

283. Susan, it’s lovely to read how you chose to use this disease to move forward without blame or regret and be open to building more love in your life. I am in awe of how our bodies present us with such opportunities to truly heal – not just the disease itself but to reimprint our way of life so that we no longer make the choices that brought it on in the first place.

     1. So many people can become angered and hostile when diagnosed with an illness, blaming doctors, family, or themselves. This can take away from the blessing that is being offered in the situation, as Susan has so lovingly shared.

284. I am aware that in the past I have had a reaction when I feel deeply hurt by people or let down I just want to be on my own, a feeling of not wanting people close to me because of the hurt they cause. Over time I have come to realise that it is not other people that cause such hurt but me myself in the choices I have made over the years, the expectations I have placed on others and the conditions I have for myself in life. I can still feel parts of this at play in my life but it is great to have a blog like this bringing issues such as this to the fore.

285. It is humbling to know that we can learn so much from illness in the sense that it can show us what we have been avoiding. In this case – what an amazing opportunity to be honest about past choices and shutting out the world ‘just in case’ -I’m sure we’re all guilty of this on some level, when we’re built to be connecting with each other. I see it is a blessing that our bodies can show us what is true, even through illness, and provide us an opportunity to heal.

286. Thank you Susan for sharing and exposing that holding onto and dealing with one’s hurts is not an answer to them and that being vulnerable and asking for help is not a weakness but instead is being responsible. Even more importantly by doing so it is an example and inspiration for others so that we can all “have a deeper acceptance and love for myself and for those around me, and am now clearly seeing how we are all a part of God’s Divine Plan.”

287. Thanks for sharing this, Susan. I also used to see the world in terms of what was not love, and with each observation I was confirmed in my position of staying in separation to it all. Of course, I was only adding to the lovelessness, and acting out different versions of the same stories of hurt and disappointment that keep us from feeling the love that surrounds us and eternally lives within us to be shared with the world.

288. “……that I had shut God out and had given up! I had only been seeing and feeling all that was NOT love” – wow so simple and so truly observed Susan, the way we view things, the world, ourselves in such a blind way is going to have an effect of negativity and in this an effect on our body that is being deprived (by us) of what it naturally is – divine love. In seeing and feeling what is not love, its opposite of seeing and feeling love must equally be felt – what a great reminder Susan.

289. How life changing for you Susan, thank you for sharing this, and amazing you chose to heal in the way you did, those prior 54 years. Is never too late to say yes to oneself, love and God. It’s made me realise the extent of how we do live life in poor quality (through judgment, critique, emotion, shut down and so on) and that naturally this quality has an impact and must come up and out of the body through illness/disease requiring major operation. Everything counts in our life, to create our quality of life.

290. “I had only been seeing and feeling all that was not love. In those first couple of days I started to feel all that was love and how I was an integral part of humanity. As this occurred, I could feel my connection to God deepen.” This point you make here is so revelatory. It is when we start to appreciate all that is there and see the love that is there too we can feel we are connected to God and humanity.

291. To open up for support, to accept support, to be aware how we are supported and appreciate this is something what I can deepen more and more, to let go of comparison and jealousy, to not measure, to accept other human beings to be equal is one step to allow true support, cherish and appreciate it.

292. Once we choose to separate, the STOP is an unavoidable juncture in time. When and how it comes may not be known, but come it will. Studying with Universal Medicine empowered me to change my choices after it came to my STOP-incident. Instead of repeating the same ill again I live joyfully now.

293. Beautiful to read how the connection with people did deepen while you had this challenge. To take our challenges to open up and unfold more is so amazing. The opposite is in general the case – but this withdrawing and protecting does not bring us more joy and so, a true healing.

294. This is a beautiful description of how illness is a deep healing if we choose to recognise it as such, and that curing it is not the priority. Healing is a clearing of all that has prevented us from our connection with God, ourselves and others, and seeing it that way we can greet illness as a gift and welcome it in and learn from what it reveals to us. Finding the still place within is where the transformation takes place.

295. ‘I came to see that I had been living in judgment of people because of the choices they were making so I had shut down to others, separated myself and in that arrogance had deprived myself of the love on offer from them. In turn, I had deprived people of the love that I am.’ This is a great description of what it means to be in separation, the root cause of our lung conditions.

296. What beautiful gifts your cancer and treatment has brought to you, Susan, and equally gorgeous is how you have opened yourself up to receiving them. This is inspiring.

297. I have been in judgement a lot and not let love in or out because I have perceived that people let me down, or they don’t tell the truth, excuses for being responsible and shining the light and love I feel myself regardless of what is happening. It is a trick, because being in reaction is no different from what I perceive anyone else is up to… I am transforming the protection, and learning to let love in and out.

298. It has …”This experience has changed me. ” and it has also changed me, I can feel that I appreciate and am more open to humanity and myself, through reading this article. This is the power of sharing what we learn and what feel honestly. Thank you.

299. How wonderful that you have chosen to embrace the fact that you had been diagnosed with cancer to allow yourself to go so deep in your own healing. Allowing yourself to really be honest with how you have lived and therefore being able to make true changes in your life, really amazing.

     1. To me it seemed that Susan’s changes came from her heart, willingly embraced, rather than stubbornly resisted. This is inspiring and humbling.

300. As Susan writes, and has experienced, intensive surgery can be something so different from the extraordinarily confronting and scary experience that is common… It can actually be, and this is my experience as well, and opportunity to really let go, and to heal such deeper aspects of ourselves, that never usually get to be dealt with.

301. I’m feeling by letting down the barriers it’s acknowledging and appreciating the love we are, and equally the love we all are part of. To claim that you are love is to claim you are part of the whole, as true love can’t be in isolation, it’s all in all.

302. ” My body felt alive, making me realise how much love there truly is in the world and how I am a part of that and it felt so beautiful.” Such a profound realisation, that love is alway all around us, when we are open to dropping the barriers and letting it flow freely.

303. It is so revealing that when we judge others we shut down to them and then there is no sharing of us with them or them with us. To me it feels like a lack of accepting of the choices that people make. I struggle with this at times, particularly when I see people making choices that I know are harming to them, even though I may have made these same choices in the past – this is very exposing of my judgment when I realise that I am judging people for the exact same things that I have done. I have found that acceptance removes the judgment, acceptance does not mean approving of the choice, it simply respects the person’s right to make a choice, whatever that may be.

304. “What was really beautiful was the connection I made with everyone that came to my room. It was like there was space for each of them to express what was going on in their lives and so they talked about their families, issues and problems and what made them happy. I experienced a feeling of interconnectedness with everyone that made me feel truly joyful.” I can feel in this paragraph Susan how beautifully your healing extended beyond yourself and was openly shared with all that you came into contact with……as we open our hearts the love can pour through to everyone.

305. To have the pain and hurts of the past healed and your love for yourself and others deepened is the miracle of true healing.

306. Thank you for sharing this Susan – I have also been aware of having a similar relationship with humanity recently and find your blog inspiring.

307. This is such a beautiful example of the depth and breadth of healing that can take place when an illness or dis-ease is diagnosed. It is so easy to look at illnes as if it is a failure or that something is ‘wrong’ yet it is exactly what is needed for true healing to take place in so many areas of our lives.

308. This poignant story offers yet more real-life evidence that true healing is about so much more than what occurs in the physical body alone. What if we all embraced illness and any ailment whatsoever as the grand opportunity it offers, as you have done Susan? There is a cornucopia of wisdom and real love in life to be restored and reconnected to, when we allow ourselves to bust the illusion that illness is something that randomly ‘befalls us’, and take responsibility for the aspects of our own making – not from self-judgement, but from the humble openness to heal and learn…

309. Your words bring tears Susan, thank-you for sharing so openly.
     “…what is most important to me is that neither I, nor we, are alone in this journey.” Do we truly let this in in our lives? In our every day? The fact that we are not alone?
     From all that I have learned and reawakened to also Susan, I know most definitely that life is about connection – our connection to God, to our innate and eternal essence, and with each other is all inescapably intertwined. To drop the veils that have had us feeling separate and alone is the deepest healing there is. And how grand that our own love is thereby shared, embracing others through the process…

     1. A beautiful extension and honouring of the fact that we are never alone and it is our relationship with ourselves, God and others that expands this beyond boundaries.

310. It feels truly like a miracle recovery is being shared. The understanding that has come with the cancer seems to give perspective to the illness and given an open invitation to heal all the aspects of why the cancer formed. Thanks for sharing all that has been revealed through being willing to explore the truth of the way of living that holds back the love we are and can share.

     1. I could feel the magic in this story. The magic is the openness to people and the love that Susan is sharing with everyone – including us through her blog.

311. “Having the cancer removed felt like a plug had been pulled out and I could really feel the beauty in humanity, this strong feeling of brotherhood, and an equalness with all in our divine connection to God.” How different our approach to illness would be if we could all see that rather than it being a burden, we are actually being offered a beatuiful opportunity to understand life on a much deeper level, and that we are all indeed equal through ‘our divine connection to God’.

312. When we allow the world into our lives we find there is so much support and love. Becoming vulnerable during illness can be the beginning of a great unfolding of truth and healing that is all encompassing and enriching. When we are faced with the possibility of death we let go of the need and drive for pretence and see life in a way that is forever evolving. Thank you Susan for your beautiful blog.

     1. It is a really big surprise for many people that when they are vulnerable, others can be more loving than they were before. Though I have heard of cases where long held resentments can then erupt as well and that can be very painful.

        1. Illness can make us feel very vulnerable, and sometimes we need this to remind us of what is truly important in life.

313. It sometimes takes being humbled to be able to let go of the fiercely independent persona and allow support to come in. I can feel my independence came from a hurt of not having felt supported as a child, and I developed independence in reaction, so I would not have to feel the rejection of my request for support. However lately, I have found that when I ask for help it is always there.

314. Beginning to look for ‘what is love’ rather than looking for ‘what is not love’ is like the ‘glass half empty or glass half full’ perspective on life. Either way, what we expect to see we will attract to us, and this will confirm and create the way we are in life. Looking for the divinity in people, even when there is ‘ugly behaviour’ allows the great beauty of life and relationships to emerge.

315. What a profound realisation that by shutting people out, you shut God out as well. Having conditions on people means we have conditions and expectations on God as well. I have been the same in the past but more and more I am finding that God is in people, just as he is in nature and ‘beautiful aspects of life’. How crazy that we think there is any difference or anything excluded, when God is in everything.

316. “I came to see that I had been living in judgment of people because of the choices they were making so I had shut down to others, separated myself and in that arrogance had deprived myself of the love on offer from them. In turn, I had deprived people of the love that I am”. I can very much relate to this. I have placed people in the safe or unsafe zones and related to them accordingly. We fool ourselves into thinking we can be open to the people in the ‘safe zone’, but in reality the judgment creates a barrier and conditions that keep us at a distance from everyone.

317. We have been very much conditioned to have a 1+1=2 relationship with illness. We have been led to believe that if we look after ourselves we won’t get sick and if we don’t look after ourselves we will. However, this takes away from the fact that illness and disease can not only be a clearing of excess harm done to the body, it can also be used by the soul to bring healing and evolution.

318. We spend years / lifetimes in building protective walls around us ‘thinking’ it will be the only safe way to be in every day life and avoid further hurts and pain from attacking and contracting us. OUCH! What a big fat lie this is, that has been fed to us for aeons of time to keep all contracted and controlled by the consciousness that drives it. We ‘think’ we are in control and yet, the complete opposite is true. The barriers only serve to disconnect us from the love that lives innately within our essence.

319. Why did I separate myself from others is a great question. For me I came to also realise that I shut all others out because I held the belief that God had abandoned me. For 6 weeks I was in an incubator after birth, separated from my twin brother and from my mother, I felt all alone in this world. I was angry with God for a long time….. and all this time God was waiting and holding me in his loving arms until I was ready to let him in and as I did, I have been able to let me out!

320. Thank you for sharing this Susan. This shows how truly healing any illness, even cancer, can be.

321. Thank you Susan. Love and appreciation dissolves judgement, brings connection to others and God. So simple, love this.

322. Living with and accepting chronic exhaustion as normal in the past, brought much disharmony to my already very disconnected way with my body. The sense of separation and disconnection began to heal when I was introduced to the Gentle Breath Meditation by Serge Benhayon 8 years ago (http://www.u(nimedliving.com/meditation/free) has supported me to be breathing my own breath in my daily living and not be pulled into the emotional roller coaster, drama and chaos of others or the world. Exhaustion can soon creep back in, if not choosing to be in conscious presence with my breath and my body.

323. I have found that true connection with others is only possible when there is a deeper relationship with myself first. Re-building a solid foundation within to remain present with my body with support of the Universal Medicine modalities, has developed a deeper level of trust and healing by letting go of ‘stuff’ that kept me in painful separation and feelings of isolation for many years of my life.

     “Why did I separate myself from others? Connection with others is Fear of being hurt, feeling not worthy, not good enough, comparing myself to others, looking for perfection in myself and in those around me, and the fear of being disappointed in this, were some of the reasons”.

324. What I find amazing about those moments when we actually let other people support us is that we are ‘completing’ the sphere of true relationship, so it is not about being on the receiving end of support but about being open to and part of the most natural and needed interaction with, and development of, humanity.

     1. This is so true Matilda. For years I struggled to let others support me, and battled it alone, but actually since allowing support it feels so beautiful and not at all like someone has sorted me or my stuff out but more an absolute sharing of love.

        1. So very true Matilda and Jenny, I was mrs independent and could do all by myself, and didn’t ask others for support or help – little wonder that my life was one of constant struggle…. it took me to get ill and break this old pattern of mine; in fact part of my healing was allowing support and when I did there was so much support available to me, and the healing that came from that was that I began to trust again which was a huge shift for me if you consider that I had huge lack of trust issues all my life.

     2. Beautiful Matilda and a great understanding to help us open up to the support that is available all around us, if we but let it in and celebrate the relationships we have.

325. What a courageous response to lung cancer. I wonder how unusual such a response is.

326. Thank you for sharing your story so honestly. It is very humbling and beautiful to have another express their love for humanity so openly – after all, that’s what we are all a part of.

327. Susan you have shown us that there is another way to view a diagnosis of cancer, in a positive way. That you used this time in Hospital to open your heart and re connect to your friends and family is beautiful and so healing. You mention that all who entered your room were able to open up and share what was happening for them, which says they felt your love and wisdom and trusted you. Thank you.

328. Cancer can be a very healing process for us which is so different from how it is viewed in the media and in general life. Thank you for sharing, Susan, and I know your story is going to change how many of us think of cancer and shows us how healing it can actually be when we embrace what is happening and look deeper into the “why”.

329. Thank you Susan. I love how you had and could feel the deep support and love from everybody. It shows the power that we have, if we open up to love, love will come back to us.

330. the understanding that illness is our bodies way of clearing energy that is not of it’s origin will allow for a very different approach to our healing path that does not involve feeling helpless, powerless or a victim.

331. the fact that illness is healing is too little understood and acknowledged as yet. When we fully understand the body’s working both on a physical and energetic level it will become apparent that the body will always try to rectify whatever energy is challenging its natural state of balance. This process is what we call, illness, disease, injury or accident.

     1. And what I love about this is that our acceptance of illness, disease, injury or accident as opportunities to heal will take away stigmas and blame from our approach to any of these.

332. We are always pulling onto our paths opportunities to evolve sometimes they feel like very big bumps or or road blocks but there are great moments of appreciation waiting to be felt.

333. The stop moments in life, whether it be from an illness, or a loved one leaving, or even the loss of a job give us time to pause and reflect on who we really are. Time to reconnect with ourselves, and evolve with whatever challenge is present.

334. We miss out on so much when we separate from others, and the sad thing is that often we don’t even realise how many opportunities are being wasted to connect and grow in relationship. Through the teachings of Universal Medicine, I have slowly let people in again, and have come to know that we are not designed to be solitary human beings making the best out of life, but uniting in love and brotherhood every step of the way back to heaven.

335. What an incredible and super simply testimony to the exquisite and immense power of letting people support us when we need it. This is of course the completion of true relationship when so many of us favour giving (putting out) over receiving (letting in).

336. “I have a deeper acceptance and love for myself and for those around me, and am now clearly seeing how we are all a part of God’s Divine Plan.” What a beautiful and enriching gift you have been given through your illness. Your story is living proof that there is a silver lining in every dark cloud.

337. Asking for help is a revelation in life. Only when we start to ask for help would we truly feel how all the times we have not asked for help is hurting the whole world, because so many people actually do care and we have stopped them from having this opportunity to simply be themselves. We all want to give our love and to love another, there is no exception. We are also hurting ourselves and reinforcing our innate hurt that brought forth this decision in the first place when we stop others from caring for us. True care though does not always mean giving or getting what we want and have asked for, but it is what would empower us to truly take responsibility.

338. Our bodies allow us to come to a clearing when the love within us has deepened and hence our physicality has to match this quality. Sickness and diseases when regarded as a blessing allows this process to complete smoothly. Illness also allows us the time to reflect upon the choices we have made and to observe if it is now the chance to make other choices.

339. There is so much wisdom held in your title alone – ‘Healing my Separation to Humanity through my Illness’. This is ground-breaking and hugely underwhelmed in our general attitude regarding illness and disease.

340. “It was not easy at first to let go of the habits and choices I had become accustomed to, but little by little, my connection to my body deepened and I began making more loving choices. I realised that this diagnosis was going to be an opportunity for me to clear all that was no longer a part of me.” There is so much gold in what you share here Susan.

341. This is one life changing revelation Susan: “I had only been seeing and feeling all that was not love.”, and one that has the potential to change the lives of many others, myself included. So often we focus on the negative, what is wrong in our lives, what others have seemingly done wrong, and in the process we miss out on all that is wonderful, joyous and full of love. To see through the eyes of love can only ever bring us closer to others and to all the amazing things that they bring to our lives.

342. What is great is that when you allowed the love in from all your family, friends and hospital staff your body instantly became alive and you felt amazing. We are all inter-connected and it is crucial that we allow everyone in and to do so is to heal all our hurts. Universal Medicine has been my saving grace with the modalities and philosophy to support such healing and still to this day I am surrendering deeper to let go of more.

343. Your blog reminds me how much we separate ourselves when we judge others – it is a default position for many of us in which we are also judging, not appreciating, ourselves. When we are critical of anything or anybody we automatically shut ourselves off from seeing anything good about it or them, and in doing so miss the whole picture.

344. I fell your process in understanding the love that we are and the natural consequence that we love each other. It is beautiful to read how you discovered more and more your own love and were able to feel and connect to what came back to you, the love of others.

345. ‘ I experienced a feeling of interconnectedness with everyone that made me feel truly joyful.’ beautifully said Susan, and thank for your sharing as we can always be reminded how amazing and important it is to let people in.

346. I love what you share about seeing what is not love. We have the choice – to see what is not, or to see what is. What we see is what is reflected back to us and is what we live.

347. “I had been living in judgement of people because of the choices they were making so I had shut down to others, separated myself and in that arrogance had deprived myself of the love on offer from them. In turn, I had deprived people of the love that I am.” This cuts right to my core. Living in judgement is living in separation and it is painful.

     1. Yes. The first whisper of judgement is the first crack in our natural affinity to work and be in this together – which then opens up the chasms in relationships, between groups of people, countries, cultures, religions and genders that leave us in the devastation and mistrust we live with worldwide today.

348. Sue this is truly gorgeous in so many ways and you have offered a lot for me to reflect on. Thank you for writing this. With love, Nikki

349. I love how you looked at why you got cancer, the choices that contributed to getting it, took the learning on board and are changing the behaviours and choices that lead to the cancer. You are taking responsibility for your condition which is what is needed when we have an illness or disease. Very inspiring

350. The way you have embraced lung cancer as an opportunity to heal is so admirable and evolutionary. Remarkable sharing

351. When we separate from our own true selves we separate from God and the divine plan.

352. There is such acceptance and curiousity in your reflection around your cancer Susan. Taking responsibility for what choices may have contributed to your grief and separation and then letting in the help of those wonderful medical staff, what a healing.

353. Judgement is a killer, and what we have to ask is what is the basis of this Judgement made on. What have we decided on or agreed on that is the comparison for the Judgement to occur. When it is based on the outside of us then we are left in it. When we bring it back to ourselves and reflect on where this judgment is coming from within then this is the starting point to appreciate what it has been that you felt you are lacking.

354. To come to fully accept the truth that our hurts, self loathing, not being good enough, issues around not feeling that we are worthy of love etc although felt in the body, are not who we are but creations of our own making, has been life changing. To call out that which is not true is loving and a healing in itself.

     1. Yes, putting ourselves down is very addictive and self-reinforcing. It is the ‘gift’ that keeps on giving.

355. I find it absolutely crazy that the very thing we want most in our lives which is love we can avoid at all costs to not get hurt. I have been observing this recently becoming much more aware of the ill behaviours I can go into. I can feel immediately the separation and how cutting myself off has been so ingrained that I would go into it without being aware of it. Staying present and feeling what is being presented in my body is helping me to heal the hurts so that I am less likely to harden my body but instead remain in connection to myself and another.

356. I love it that I can change my life in each moment through the choices I have made. Your honest story is a good example that we all can change if we start to connect back instead of separating ourselves.

357. This a beautiful way to look at life, seeing the blessing in illness and disease, cancer a blessing in disguise, an opportunity to heal a lived momentum. As we connect more with our bodies and listen to the messages they offer us, we will be able to read the messages for what they are and refine our livingness to perhaps prevent some levels of illness and disease.

358. My feeling is that when we have true ‘brotherhood, equalness, divine connection to God, interconnectedness’ and true ‘family,’ which to me are all one and the same, that anything is possible.

359. I am always so inspired by those who are willing to take responsibility for their part in their illness and disease, to clear their hurts and to truly heal. It is a joy to read your story, Susan, thank you.

360. There is undoubtably so much love for you Susan. Which shows me that even though you were trying your hardest to keep people out, they could still see who you are, and jumped at the chance to appreciate, care for, and support all that they could see in you.

361. I heard a statistic in a presentation yesterday that the cancer patients most likely to experience depression were those with Lung cancer. This made complete sense when I heard it; for the lungs are where we connect with our own breath, the breath of God. Separation from our essence is the biggest grief imaginable.

362. “Over time, I came to a deep acceptance and understanding that this was a culmination of the poor choices I had made, as a result of holding on to and not dealing with my hurts for the past 54 years of my life.” I agree Susan, we don’t always want to look at the part we play in the demise of our own health, yet if we did, we would change the face of illness and disease. Accepting that it is our choices in life, and that we don’t heal our hurts, all contribute to our ill health is a huge but necessary step to take. We can no longer blame genetics or our environment without first looking at our own part that we have played leading up to the illness.

363. “Having the cancer removed felt like a plug had been pulled out and I could really feel the beauty in humanity” this is extraodinary! Being diagnosed with cancer would be a big shock! But learning to heal and accept the illness as you have is a marvel for modern medicine.

364. Medicine is what we let in. Separation is a medicine that disconnects us from our connection to God.

365. ‘Over time, I came to a deep acceptance and understanding that this was a culmination of the poor choices I had made, as a result of holding on to and not dealing with my hurts for the past 54 years of my life.’ We often think illness is just random, but when we begin to break it down to our choices and how we have lived, getting the illnesses we have makes so much sense. Far from feeling overwhelmed, we can become much more empowered when we get sick.

366. There is so much for us all to learn from what you share. Judging others for their choices, just as being judged for ours, is harming on many levels and cuts off the ability to see each and every one of us for the amazing beings we are.

367. Thank you Susan for sharing so vulnerably your story of your life, what a beautiful example of healing in two ways – a physical one and energetic one. So this makes a true medicine take place. How beautiful that you come to a place within yourself that you know that a disease is way more than just something physical and how amazing that you could, by virtue of opening up to this fact and so to people, you were able to let go and truly connect from a deeper place within yourself – what people around you could sense and benefit from. That to me is truly amazing, because this healing was not for yourself only, but everyone around you! So cool!

368. “I realised that this diagnosis was going to be an opportunity for me to clear all that was no longer a part of me.” This is huge Susan and such a refreshing way to view life, health and illness. There is always opportunity in every situation, it is just a matter of whether we want to see it or not.

369. Our bodies are extraordinary messengers and through them we are constantly being offered opportunities to grow and evolve. When we tune in and listen, as you have done Susan, we realise just how true this is. You are an absolutely joy-filled inspiration.

370. “we are all a part of God’s Divine Plan.” Yes we are, each of us is a Son of God, here on earth to find our way back home to God again by being love. We are all connected to each other and love brotherhood.

371. I also had the expectation that because I am taking much more care of my body the last 8 years this is some guarantee that nothing will come out anymore. No more clearing through illness needed. But this is an illusion of course. There is so much to clear and our body supports us by communicating loud and clear also with illness and diseases.

372. There is not a sense of fighting the cancer in your writing which is a terminology that is so often used when someone is diagnosed with cancer. You’ve allowed yourself to connect to what is love, and all I feel through this blog is a surrendering and your relationship with God. Thank you Susan.

373. Susan, you talk about the initial shock of getting cancer when you had made all these changes to your lifestyle – what I am seeing more and more is how as we continue to change our lifestyle to be more loving and supportive, it creates space for that which is not loving to come up and clear. We look at illness as a negative, when really, as you have experienced here – it is an opportunity to heal what we have allowed in the past.

374. Seeing illness and disease as an opportunity to clear old patterns and hurts. Accepting that we have made choices that didn’t serve us, but given the opportunity to clear them and move on with the support of western medicine and esoteric healing enables true healing to take place. Thank you for your sharing Susan.

375. What you share here Susan is very valuable to learn, how to connect with people around you to be truly cared for as nobody wants to be at the mercy of hospital staff or carers that do not really care.

376. I am quite amazed by the way you describe the staff and how you felt so well taken care of! It is quite unusual as often we get to hear the opposite, as hospital staff is under more and more pressure and overload. It shows that connecting to people supports them tremendously and changes their behavior towards us. It also communicates to us how powerful and in charge of the quality in our own lives we truly are.

377. I can very much relate to this feeling of separation and shutting people out and I too learned through the teachings of Universal Medicine, how letting people in and embracing life and its challenges actually supports me in letting go of my hurts, my prejudices and judgments and today I get along with people really well.

378. This is a beautiful account of how illness can be a great blessing when we fully embrace the lesson that is on offer for us to learn.

379. One of the greatest crises that humanity is in at present is that we do not let each other in. We act as if we are separate from each other, when in fact this could not be further from the truth. We are all the same; we all want to be loved and to love, yet we pretend that we are okay living in our own little bubble. Illness and disease has a great way of bringing us back to the truth.

380. Illness and disease can provide us with greater understanding of how our choices directly affect our health, and I love the way you have used this opportunity to open up and let love in with the people who supported you. It is so easy to put off caring for ourselves but when the body shows us with a serious illness how we have been living, then we have to take notice.

381. This is a beautiful story Susan, and shows the true healing that can come from illness. What you offered all who visited and supported you during this time through your connection with them is truly amazing, healing on so many levels.

382. After 10 years of refining my walk I still have much to learn and enjoy about how I feel when I walk and what I am truly feeling! Thanks to the patience of Serge Benhayon for bringing a forever deepening approach that allows each person to deliver their own awareness of their walk at a pace that aligns to where each individual is at!

383. I use to be caught up in the illusion of illness or disease are often down to genetics and family history. But what i have come to appreciate and understand that its down to our choices and how we live. What i have experienced for myself and seen in many others is that as we make more loving choices, we are able to support the healing of many illness and disease.

384. Truly amazing to see and experience your illness and its healing as you have Susan. As you described the clearing you felt through the surgery, it was obvious that this result was a part of the deep understanding you had come to and how you had allowed other people in and through this, reconnected to the deep source of love and divinity within you. I take away with me that this is available to us to live everyday.

385. The thing that strikes me most about your sharing is that there is no self pity or ‘poor me’ in your writing. Only an openness to learning what transpired as a result. This is an inspirational way to handle such a serious illness.

386. Being judgmental about myself means I am judgmental about others, too. It is an illusion to think that I could be harder on myself than on others. Re-connecting starts with self-love – as allowing myself in is allowing others in as well.

     1. I know this is an illusion I have fallen for, believing I’m harder on myself than others. The truth is it plays out that way, in that I am much more critical of myself, but the consequences are that because of this self criticism I am much less loving of others than they, or I, truly deserve.

387. An inspiring blog of personal development and willingness to look beyond the obvious.

388. After living many years without being self-loving and mindful of the consequences of our choices, it is truly remarkable the changes that can occur once we deepen our connection with our body, listening to and being guided by what it indicates would be most beneficial instead what we ‘think’ we would like.

389. ‘Having the cancer removed felt like a plug had been pulled out and I could really feel the beauty in humanity’ – I love how you’ve described this Susan. Rather than the removal of cancer being a huge relief moment that meant you could go back to ‘normal’ life and make the same choices again, you chose to use it as an opportunity to change your way of living and see more of the beauty in humanity rather than re-choose separation.

390. What a powerful blog and aptly titled too that describes and shows to me, that there is a connection between type of disease, (lung cancer) and the (emotional body) relationships we have with ourselves and people. How during the treatment you discovered the beauty of opening up to people…”What was really beautiful was the connection I made with everyone that came to my room…” the pharmaceutical medicine treated the body, and your opening up to humanity healed the body too… What a fantastic combination of the Esoteric and conventional medicine… true holistic healing I would say.

391. Thank you for sharing your account of lung cancer and all that it has opened up for you in your life and the amazing healing and love that has come from this . You are a real inspiration and offer so much wisdom learnt and lived for others to see .

392. I remember the day after major surgery, finding my room filled with flowers, well-wishes and cards from family, friends, colleagues and I was visited everyday. It blew me away. I had not realised how much I was loved, until then. As a student of Universal Medicine, I have connected to and deepened the love that was missing within myself.

393. From feeling separated from others, to opening up and accepting the love that is all around, and has always been, is the true miracle.

394. ‘I realised that this diagnosis was going to be an opportunity for me to clear all that was no longer a part of me.’ I love how you accepted that this illness was because of what you had taken on that was not truly a part of you and that you were being given an opportunity to see more clearly whatever this was and to then clear it from your body. Many of us do not live with this level of responsibility and so have to experience illness time and time again until we wake up to the fact that illness is just a consequence of how we have been living . It is a very humbling experience to be given a diagnosis of such a serious and life threatening disease like cancer. It is interesting how some of us cave in to this and never really recover, accepting often a very life limiting prognosis while others begin to take mastery over their lives in a way that they may have never done before,

395. Susan, it is very interesting for me to read this, ‘I came to see that I had been living in judgement of people because of the choices they were making so I had shut down to others, separated myself and in that arrogance had deprived myself of the love on offer from them’, in the past I have been very judgmental of people and their choices and can now feel that this meant I was shutting them out and not allowing their love, I can feel how much love there is in the world and now I have let go of a lot of the judgment I held about people I can feel this love more clearly, judging others really separates us all, understanding and allowing others to be is very uniting and feels like a much more true, loving way for us all to be together.

396. How warm and expanded my body feels reading this sentence Susan. Acceptance and appreciation are key elements for our true healing and building a deeper awareness and relationship with God and knowing that there is indeed, a Divine Plan.
     “I have a deeper acceptance and love for myself and for those around me, and am now clearly seeing how we are all a part of God’s Divine Plan”.

397. How deeply healing this is Susan to realise it is impossible to be separate from the all and we are all equally a part of the whole, however much we have been choosing to be in separation from it.
     “I had this intense feeling of being buoyed up, of being held. My body felt alive, making me realise how much love there truly is in the world and how I am a part of that and it felt so beautiful”.

398. ‘Healing my Separation to Humanity through Illness’ what is such a crying shame is that so many of us have felt separate from the rest of humanity when, in truth, it is not possible to energetically be apart from one another.

399. This is such a superb sharing Susan, a sharing that if I take on board all that you are saying, I may not even have to get an illness for clearing myself.

400. Susan, when you talk about love and what you see and feel from others it made me ponder on the significance of relationships with others and God is. It is the most important aspect to life. Relationships need to be treated with the sacredness they deserve — the first being with deeply taking care of what that means first with your body. As you have stated “I made a conscious choice that whatever I needed to support my body through this time …” Being open to what it is that is being communicated back to you physically, and understanding what feels loving and not. I am pleased to hear your deep sharing Susan on what is possible through how the body talks and the healing it provides. It felt like your whole blog was communicating from your body with nothing reserved to what truth the body holds.

401. What a gift you have been given Susan! To be able to make such wonderful connections with all who lovingly cared for you is a truly heart opening experience and all would have given and received.

402. Hi Susan, yes it definitely was emptiness when I had smoked previously in my life but i knew the cancer was not from smoking, in fact my lungs were perfectly pink inside except for the cancer spot.

403. One thing that I would like to share as an observer Susan, is that throughout your diagnosis and recovery, you looked amazing. One would never know that you had been diagnosed and that you were poorly. The way you were with people, the way you lived and approached the whole issue was inspirational. I know many would rather give up and get very emotional if they were in the same situation. You stayed Susan who had lung cancer, and you, yourself did not become lung cancer and that is a big difference.

404. The hardest times in life often are the times when we believe we are alone in what is happening. Opening up to others and letting them know how vulnerable we are allows them to feel what is there for them too, in these situations. As you said Susan, we are all a part of this Divine plan. This is insightful and honest and beautiful to share in. Thank you Susan.

405. “It was not easy at first to let go of the habits and choices I had become accustomed to, but little by little, my connection to my body deepened and I began making more loving choices.” – This is great Susan, so often we can be perturbed when we don’t manage to change everything that we want to all at once or in a time frame that we think we should but not being judgmental on ourselves and being committed for the long run does make a difference.

406. “I had only been seeing and feeling all that was not love” This sentence stands out so much and describes so clearly why things, life, health seemingly go off track. With a guidance system set to this in-volutionary control what else can others do? If I’m choosing anything but love then it’s my choice but I can’t hold others or God to the responsibility of what occurs from there. To allow everybody equally to be who they are as they are and not need to shut me in or humanity and God out because of it, supports an evolution in well-being however that healing miracle occurs. Thank you Susan for sharing your healing wisdom.

407. Isn’t it sad that so many of us have chosen to disconnect from God – our forever loving father. Eternally patient for us to choose our own moment to re-connect to him. Allowing the unconditional – yes, true unconditional!! – love in once again. We’re love and we belong to love. It’s up to us to let go of the non-loving choices we’ve made and choose that we’re truly awesome and divine.

408. Crikey – every cancer patient in the world should be given this blog to read. To get an understanding that the choices made moment to moment have an end result, a consequence. The blessing you have shared is immense and the foundation of all your support is love, the love that you are. Thank you for sharing this. How our lives have begun to change and heal after Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon.

409. What a blessing our seemingly catastrophic experiences can be if we have the openness that you have shared here Susan. Thank you!

410. When we work with Western Medicine in a way that includes an understanding of our own responsibilities in any illness, the results can be profound, both in terms of our physical health and our personal development (evolution).

411. Often we don’t realise how much support is on offer or think that we don’t have a lot of it in our lives because we actually shut it out. Being in protection and not letting people in; connecting with them, being honest, loving them and letting them love us, are ways we close the door on support completely so it’s important we learn to notice these behaviours and call them out in ourselves.

412. It’s empowering when one comes to the realisation that sickness and disease doesn’t just come to us or appear but that sickness and disease is an accumulation of choices, or patterns of choices which contain a vibration that is disharmonious to the body. One example is patterns of overriding the love and care our bodies ask for.

413. “Having the cancer removed felt like a plug had been pulled out” This really shows the blessing an illness can bring to us. It is not just bad luck or something that happens there is purpose in getting an illness and that is to deeply heal and become more loving in our way of living to eventually return to being the Son of God we all are here on earth.

414. What a beautiful example of how we can embrace what the body is showing us and heal what it was that has created the dis-harmony in the first place. It is so easy to shut down and protect ourselves, the world is a full on place but the way of the world is living in reaction. If we see it for what it is and go beneath it like you did Susan, we can feel and connect to the truth of who we all are: Love.

415. This confirms that over-burdening ourselves with concerns, worries, judgements, and hurts often leads to illness. I felt the huge weight lifted from your shoulders when the tumour was removed and with the release of all that was not you. This left you free to connect to the love that you are and have always been.

416. Not only is it shocking to receive a diagnosis like cancer all of a sudden. It is as shocking to receive so much love from all angles when there was no openness for this experience before. We get to feel what we have said no to. And it’s beautiful to appreciate the Universal Medicine community for being a platform for such healing.

417. “My body felt alive, making me realise how much love there truly is in the world and how I am a part of that and it felt so beautiful.” As I experience more and more things in my life and truly understand the bigger picture of why and having a relationship with that, the more empowered I feel about myself personally. The bigger picture takes care of the smaller pictures. Such is Love.

418. “I realised that this diagnosis was going to be an opportunity for me to clear all that was no longer a part of me.” The anatomy images of the lungs are so delicate with all the capillaries transporting blood and how the delicateness of breath expands and deflates the lungs. I find it incredibly amazing how the lungs and their physical anatomy receive the breath that then supports the functioning of your body. To have a diagnosis to remove a third of your lung and how the body adjusts and continues to operate thereafter is just remarkable. It is amazing how far we have come with conventional medicine. Just missing the equal part of esoteric medicine to really clean up the mess we are in.

     1. Thanks Rik, I had lots of support through esoteric medicine and my lung capacity is more now than it was before and the volume retained is much more than would be normal!

419. I wonder what would happen to cancer treatments when a significant proportion of the population would have an attitude like Susan. Would there be far more successful treatments?

420. A deeply beautiful read, thank you for sharing! I love how you mentioned starting to feel ‘all that IS love” rather than “all that is not”. This is a profound turnaround and reawakening in your life and an inspiration for all.

421. Pretty amazing that you have taken responsibility for the choices you’ve made to get you where you are today! How incredible. And due to that you’ve given yourself an opportunity to end the cycle of shutting people out and instead allowed yourself to be vulnerable and let others in. In turn you are now the supportive person you’ve always really been, but without the protection. We all have much to learn from your experience Susan.

422. ‘… as I had always been strongly independent and had always struggled to accept help.’ I can relate to this very much so. It’s a work in progress; letting others in to support you but what we don’t realise when we don’t let people in, is that we deny others to be supported by us also. We are all here for each other, that’s just how it works.

423. Learning about the connection between our physical illness and how this relates to how we are in life is one of the most empowering experiences. It asks me to go deeper, reflect and really look at how I am living. Even a scratch on my arm or a seemingly small tension in my body is all sharing something.

     1. That’s true, Vicky, once we accept that every small detail has a meaning, we can explore our understanding of just how we are treating our bodies and, as you suggest, pay attention to the smallest scratch.

424. Appreciating ourselves is the Universal Medicine for both the connection to ourselves as well as others. Thank God for our bodies that support us so greatly with coming back to our precious selves. Illness, disease, discomfort as a blessing would shift the relationship with them tremendously. Appreciation, the Universal Medicine.

425. To get such insightful readings and understanding about illness and disease is special about Universal Medicine. Without diminishing the importance of western medicine it brings to us an understanding that allows us to actively deal with the underlying root cause of the disease.

426. Susan, I have loved reading how you discovered and deepened an appreciation of your inner divine connection to God and this equally so in others. What a blessing you allowed to come from your illness.

427. “holding on to and not dealing with my hurts”. This can be quite a burden not only to ourselves but everyone around.

428. Why did I separate myself from others?

     “Fear of being hurt, feeling not worthy, not good enough, comparing myself to others, looking for perfection in myself and in those around me, and the fear of being disappointed in this, were some of the reasons.” I can so relate to this. I know that I started to shut down as a child because i was not being confirmed in the love that I am. Whilst i may have been confused by this I started to think that the problem must lie with myself and so all those things you mentioned crept in….

429. Absolutely Susan, the lifestyle changes are what saved me, and assisted me in an amazing recovery which the Doctors were surprised about. I had said a big ‘yes’ to renewed responsibility a few months before my diagnosis so the body was ready to clear.

430. Thank you, this blog feels very healing in itself and it strongly reminds me to see the beauty and love beyond the ugliness and despair that presents itself and to drop any suggestion of judgement whatsoever.

431. What a way to learn to be open and receive the outpouring of love all around you Susan! I have also judged people and can feel how I have shut them out but to be held without judgement in Love is a beautiful example of learning for us all how to be. I love your expression of ‘the beauty in humanity, this strong feeling of brotherhood, and an equalness with all in our divine connection to God.’

432. Just at the start of your blog you say how much you were shocked about the diagnosis of cancer after you started to look so much more after yourself and I realize how much we think that ‘good health’ is a result of a deal. ‘I do good to me, by food, movements and actions – so I deserve to be in a good health’. But health does not work like this I guess. I found to realize and embrace that we are energetic beings is key to understand more about my health. This body is here to express love and when I do not do so it gets loaded with ‘what it is not’ and has to get rid of it again in a way. This ‘getting rid of’ we call a disease – but is it? or is it more honest to call it a clearing. So if I get a diagnosis and call it a clearing, my responsibility is more clear as well. Because who brought in what has to be cleared now? I found that how we use words and which words we use is a foundation of our understanding and how we are with life.

433. “Having the cancer removed felt like a plug had been pulled out and I could really feel the beauty in humanity, this strong feeling of brotherhood, and an equalness with all in our divine connection to God.” What a gift and such a beautiful sharing to read and feel thank you Susan.

434. Susan what I love is the marriage of esoteric medicine and western medicine. This is the real magic as you’ve shared by having the understanding of what lung conditions are, of what choices you made and how they have led you to this point provides an amazing support to heal and embrace the western medical system that is also equally needed to remove a tumour etc.. Combined we get to learn from our choices, heal and make changes all within a single lifetime.

435. This is such a beautiful blog on the way you handled your illness and profound realisations, ‘Having the cancer removed felt like a plug had been pulled out and I could really feel the beauty in humanity, this strong feeling of brotherhood, and an equalness with all in our divine connection to God.’ It feels like magic really opened up for you through this experience… possibly not the usual positive response when being diagnosed and treated with lung cancer?

436. What an amazing gift you received from the clearing that was needed in your body. There is always room for more love, and you have certainly embraced it. Just beautiful.

437. ‘Having the cancer removed felt like a plug had been pulled out and I could really feel the beauty in humanity, this strong feeling of brotherhood, and an equalness with all in our divine connection to God.’ This is beautiful Susan and where we can, if willing see the blessing and true healing in illness and disease.

438. Thanks Susan you words made me take a good hard look at areas in my life. I am one who doesn’t often ask for help and am definitely not as open to everyone’s love and giving my love as much as there is to give and receive. It’s great to hear how beautifully you were supported through the whole process and it shows what is possible when we are open enough to receive it.

439. When we can accept the situation we find ourselves in,(as opposed to fighting and resisting it), including illness and disease, so many more choices become available, so much support becomes available which truly assists us in letting go of the ‘ old’ ( our old unloving complicated ways) which makes space for all the new to enter to bring us back to living in a simple uncluttered way.

440. ‘ I realised that this diagnosis was going to be an opportunity for me to clear all that was no longer a part of me’. This was exactly my experience when I was diagnosed with breast cancer 5 years ago….In the year I did not work, I had much time and space to change my old way of living ( disregard and self-neglect) and learn to put me first in my life and allow all the support that was available, and that I was worth it. So much healing took place, as I let go of the hardness and abuse and started to deeply care and nourish myself in all areas of my life.

441. Why did I separate from others, is a great question. For me what comes up is, I felt this world did not deserve my love, it was just too ugly and no true love to be found anywhere. This only deeply harmed myself as I cut off from others and put up many walls of protection, letting no-one in and at the same time not sharing anything of me. It was like I lived on an island… In the last 5 years, I have made many lifestyle changes, which has supported me to let go of the protection and just be me, and express/share from my heart, thanks to Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon.

442. “I came to see that I had been living in judgement of people because of the choices they were making so I had shut down to others, separated myself and in that arrogance had deprived myself of the love on offer from them. In turn, I had deprived people of the love that I am.”
     Susan you have captured the root cause of most of the population’s ills I suspect. What you’ve described is universal in its impact… little wonder we have a continuing escalation of heart disease, lung disease and almost every other possible ill-health condition we humans suffer.

443. Susan your beautiful story helped me to get a deeper insight about the energetic reason of Lung cancer. My father died because of lung cancer and so I understood a bit more about his death – Thank you so much for not holding back what you have experienced.

444. Thank you so much for sharing so honestly about your lung cancer. It is so inspiring how you deal with such an illness.

445. Thank you Susan, what an incredible experience, but what’s more impressive is the way you have chosen to handle it and how you have grown your love for humanity in what others might describe as the hardest time of their lives. It’s inspiring to feel how you have deepened your acceptance for others in all their imperfections.

446. This is a beautiful story Susan and I too can relate to shutting people out and judging them for their choices, which only served to keep me away from my own relationship with myself, and the hurts I had stored within me. It really is magical the way love holds us no matter what, and is always there as a huge support when we allow and ask for it, and are ready to accept it.

     1. For years I have struggled with allowing love. I’ve been so engrossed in focusing on the negatives that I completely miss all the positives around me, which only strangles and suffocates any true relationships with those around me. A huge, huge, lesson for me.

447. “I came to see that I had been living in judgement of people because of the choices they were making so I had shut down to others, separated myself and in that arrogance had deprived myself of the love on offer from them. In turn, I had deprived people of the love that I am.” A beautiful confirmation of the absolute gift that came your way in a package labelled ‘illness’.

448. A disease in the lung is a clearing that allows more space for love which is always unfolding.

449. Imagine if we were taught appreciation from the start and not this focus on what we are doing wrong and therefore what everyone else is doing wrong. Accepting that others will choose differently and accepting this, is huge. Being gentle with ourselves and appreciating the love that we are, is beautiful. Being able to turn this focus on what is not love to the gloriousness of what is love is such a blessing. When we try to do everything ourselves we keep everyone out. Becoming part of humanity brings so much support and joy.

450. “I realised that this diagnosis was going to be an opportunity for me to clear all that was no longer a part of me.” Now this is true medicine!

451. Your story is a beautiful confirmation of the true healing that is offered to us through any illness or disease.

452. Wow Susan! Your title alone speaks volumes and yet it is just the beginning of your beautiful, tender, humble and extraordinarily wise account of your personal experience with lung cancer.

453. Susan you beautifully express how the major healing was not the physical symptom but the deep hurt of separation you had created from others and God. This is mind blowing because so much emphasis is on the serious illness in my experience. How wonderful that you embraced the opportunity to heal on all levels and truly let people in.

454. When we are ill it puts us in a vulnerable position where we are forced to ask for help from others, this is a great equaliser for us all.

455. I imagine being diagnosed with cancer could be quite scary, the beautifull thing that you have shared here is your openness and willingness to heal and honesty in why you had cancer, and of the lung specifically (separation to others and God). It also shows how important it is to have loved ones support through healing, it sounds like you had a lot of support ✨💕 Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine have helped hundreds if not thousands of people who have had non-terminal (not sure that is a word!) and terminal dis-eases. Through him I now have a true understanding of energy, the body, the Soul the spirit, dis-ease, vitality, life and humanity and so very much more. Serge Benhayon really is a Universal World Teacher.

456. We go to such lengths to shut people out at great expense to our health and our bodies, turning our delicate flesh into armour. The body is such an awesome creation, because it will respond to the demands made upon it and produce lumps and bumps to protect us if that is what we insist upon. And the even more awesome thing is, is that when we realise this and start to treat our bodies with the great tenderness and love we and they deserve, so often our bodies are eagerly awaiting the opportunity to return to their original vibrant state of being. It is quite miraculous.

457. We’re all part of the Divine plan! Thank you for sharing so honestly about the healing you’ve chosen to go through to re-connect back to both humanity as well as Divinity. We’re all worth it to live as the sons of God that we are. We’re all to play an equal important role. Confirmed by this beautiful sharing. Thank you.

458. ‘I experienced a feeling of interconnectedness with everyone that made me feel truly joyful.’ This whole article is such an inspiration to let go of the protection and barriers that I keep putting up and enjoy being with everyone around me.

459. ‘I realised that this diagnosis was going to be an opportunity for me to clear all that was no longer a part of me.’ This shows the beauty, the healing and the wisdom of responsibility.

460. How inspiring to look at and understand illness and disease from the perspective of self-responsibility – that our every choice has led to this point, and so we have a choice to choose differently … what will our choice be in the next moment?

461. How deep and profound is the healing that can come through an illness or disease.

462. There were two points throughout your, very awesome, blog Susan that stood out for me. One being that when we invest in perfection of ourselves we lace others with this too and are thus living within a state of judgment around us all, this is a controlling and to be honest, quite hard or contracted way to live where we miss out on the true love and appreciation of ourselves and others and hence the lightness and joy we can share. The second point I loved was the way in which you present that how you were within you supported others to be the same around you, it’s as though we get back what we give but at the same time need to understand the fact that we can only accept and allow the equal measure of love and support back to ourselves as that which we give to ourselves in the first place. Reminding that it is our responsibility to love inwardly first and foremost and let this naturally flow outward with others and all things. Thank you.

463. The body knows and tells what is really going on and assists us with the process of realizing, understanding and healing. When we start to reawaken our natural sensitivity and thereby learning the body´s language by feeling we can sense what each organ is communicating. The lungs storing all the pain of separation, the grief of missing deep connection is tangible as much as is the warmth and depth and space when we are connected and our breath rhythmically moves our chest and lungs in harmony and union.

464. Reading your blog should be enough inspiration to open up to love, people, God instead of waiting for and that means creating a severe illness to learn the lesson and accept the healing. Time to make better choices through inspiration, understanding and self-assessment instead of being forced to face the consequences of our bottled-up bad choices.

465. Separation from God, from people, from unity is our deepest pain. We all will need to heal it one day, the sooner the better as it is the way back to what we know life to truly be.

466. Understanding illness as a chance for a deep healing is extraordinary and the way to bring true change to the causes that have led to the illness in the first place. The more people understand this and the more the medical system makes this a part of their services the more we will heal as a society and the way we live with each other together as one.

467. An amazing testimony of the true universality of the body. Everything is connected and when we are not living in our divine connection the body is showing this. One of the simplest teachings of the Ageless Wisdom and Universal Medicine and a fact proven by the lived evidence of everybody.

468. What I find to be so beautiful about this is that with the realisation that you had been keeping people out, came the following realisation that you needed to care for yourself more deeply in order to let them in more, and to not be afraid that you would be hurt by them.

469. What I learned studying with Universal Medicine is that illness and disease can be either a clearing of the excess we have built up through taking on stuff from others or that it can be a clearing in order to release packages that have to be released for ones evolution. This put the fact of getting sick in a very different perspective and I am starting to not see illness and disease as an attack but as an offering to stop and look deeper at what’s going on. A very liberating way to live as all the responsibility lies with me and therefore the responsibility and power to choose differently too.

470. Your story provides a lovely example of the wisdom and deep healing that is offered when we surrender to and pay attention to the fact of an illness or disease in our body instead of fighting it or ignoring our responsibility. My personal experience has been that when I choose to go with the flow and stay open, I become aware of a host of things that I did not realise was connected to symptoms. What is exposed for me to deal with and heal is so much more. It is a true stop moment for me to change my relationship with the whole of my life.

471. I find the way in which you responded to your diagnosis Susan to be truly inspiring. You didn’t give up or think ‘there’s nothing I can do now’, but through the changes you made you developed a “…deeper acceptance and love for myself and for those around me, and am now clearly seeing how we are all part of God’s Divine Plan.”

472. “neither I, nor we, are alone in this journey” – this brings with it feelings of sadness for me as I can feel how much I have invested in the belief that I have to do it by myself. Learning to let others in, to let love in has been a slow process for me, but I can feel how much I have changed and now let myself feel the love that others hold for me. The irony is I have always thought of myself as a loving person, but in reality if I am not letting love in, I cannot let it out either. So if I thought I was loving when I wasn’t, how amazing is the potential for the enormity of the love I am when I wholeheartedly open to love.

473. “I came to see that I had been living in judgement of people because of the choices they were making so I had shut down to others, separated myself and in that arrogance had deprived myself of the love on offer from them. In turn, I had deprived people of the love that I am.’- I too have shut people out because of the loveless choices that they have made. I have also not engaged in life fully because I hated seeing the ugliness and deep hurt humanity is in. But I now realise that it requires understanding, acceptance and allowing of others to be on their chosen path without me wanting control. And as I take steps to connect to my true self more deeply I can then allow others in and see them as equal brothers on this earth.

     1. As Serge has said, ‘ see the amazing being of light first’ then the judgement disappears.

474. It often takes a big stop for us to really reflect on how we have been living life. Most of us have buried deep hurts and have carried on with life. But those hurts do come up if they are not dealt with, in all forms. When we don’t deal with them they can create anger, judgement on others. It is when we start dealing with them we can start to heal them.

475. Just this morning I was feeling the very power of taking responsibility. When I do so I feel free and can feel a strength within. When I don’t I feel emotional, weak and generally yuck. Goes to show the difference one thought, or movement, can have across our whole body.

476. Since attending Serge Benhayon’s presentations, a different understanding of the word ‘responsibility’ has been offered to truly evolve as part of brotherhood rather than an individual. In being responsible, we are in conscious presence and re-connection with our bodies and can respond to the wisdom it offers and can restore true responsibility to our lives as a whole from this marker of truth (our body).
     It is beautiful to be aware of how our irresponsible or responsible choices energetically affect everyone and everything worldwide.

477. This blog turns illness and disease on it’s head, as very few people would see the blessing in having such a serious disease as cancer, and also the fact that we can learn so much about ourselves and others when we get an illness which requires us to stop and take stock of how we are living.

478. It was amazing to read your blog and how your illness lead you to be open to the love from the people around you and the love within you. Your acceptance, appreciation and openness was a deeply supportive healing. Recovering from surgery is often a time where people have to rest, allowing themselves time and space to really ponder about life and reflect on their choices. To embrace this time I feel assists our healing dramatically.

479. Often when we become ill or injured we apologise for being a nuisance to others and ‘making such a hassle’, but I think it’s actually so important to honour our body’s healing process and sensitivity and ask for/accept support during this important time, as you did after your surgery.

480. Susan I can feel the loving space that you held people in when they came into your room and know that every person that walked into that room was blessed.

     1. Thanks Alexis, one of the nurses came in to talk of her relationship with her sister, and when she left the room she then came back and said “I feel like I have had a healing’. We do not realise the power of love and how that can affect others.

481. Wow Susan. Wow for so many different reasons. Your deep understanding, your insight, your wisdom, your acceptance, your growth, your honesty, your connection with your body, your ability to surrender, your appreciation of yourself and others, your ability to embrace the situation, your ability to change long held ways of being, and your ability to articulate all of the above so beautifully. Wow.

482. It seems crazy that we live in separation from one another on this planet. We have so much in common and yet we tend to look at our differences. We could unify as a race and eradicate racism for good. We could work together to end poverty. And who knows – if we were united as a race, we might even heal illnesses that are in truth a manifestation of this separation from each other. And it all begins within each and every one of us, making the choice to heal our separation from humanity. At a time when racial tension in particular is heightened in various parts of the world, this is worth much consideration.

483. “Having the cancer removed felt like a plug had been pulled out and I could really feel the beauty in humanity, this strong feeling of brotherhood, and an equalness with all in our divine connection to God.” What a beautiful healing you received Susan and one that is now shared by us all. I too had closed myself off to humanity and lived in a way that protected my hurts, preferring animals to humans for a good part of my life. I know now how disconnected and how harmful this is to the body. Brotherhood is innately known within us all, and I am finding there is a joy in meeting people now for who they are, without judgement and in appreciation and understanding that they are just like me.

484. The purpose of illness goes far beyond healing the physical body. When it brings profound insights about how we’ve lived and the quality of relationship we’ve had with ourselves and others, it is transformative and we are blessed to receive it.

485. This is beautiful Susan. What strikes me the most is the fact that we do have a choice on what we focus on. We can focus on the pain or we can focus on the love – and this makes all the difference in how we experience the world. A beautiful story of true healing, for yourself and those around you.

486. On one level it is hard to accept stories of people who experience a blessing from an illness such as cancer but I have heard of the lessons people learn and the deepening of connections with themselves and others too often to negate this message. In fact many years ago I supported a friend through Leukaemia and witnessed for myself what was changing in her as the illness progressed. There is more to illness and disease than we commonly accept – of this I am certain – and blogs like this and teachers like Serge Benhayon are bringing us the wisdom and the opportunity to go deeper with our understanding. Thank you.

487. I can relate here to what you said here Susan about choosing to only see or focus on the bits that are not love in myself, in my life and in the world. I am just starting to understand that we have to continuously choose to reconnect to love and God. It is an active process and not just something we can assume will happen automatically.

488. What an important realisation that when we cut ourselves off from connection to other people we cut ourselves off from God.

489. It would be easy and tempting to go into anxiousness and panic mode when faced with a diagnosis and surgery such as this, so it is amazing Susan that you were able to reflect on your illness in this way and heal much more than just the physical cancer.

490. ‘Healing my Separation to Humanity through Illness’ What an awesome title Susan. This is such a great example of the blessing that illness can bring.

491. It is incredible how we can lead our lives in a perpetual reaction to the world, because for some reason we feel it has let us down. I can put my hand up to this, and also to feeling rejected by God. This illusionary reality can carry on for lifetimes, until we are willing to examine our lack of joy and fulfilment in life and start to become aware of the barriers we ourselves have created to letting love in.

492. What a true gift it is to read your story Susan…”the outpouring of love and support from family and friends at first was so overwhelming it felt like a dam had burst and I was being assailed from all quarters. I had this intense feeling of being buoyed up, of being held. My body felt alive…” Seeing and feeling the love that is naturally there in all people, and letting it (love) in is a tremendous feeling to feel and healing. The gift to the reader is in the way you wrote this which is palpable. Thank you for sharing!

493. Thank you Susan, that is amazing sharing and a very real and honest sharing about the disease you had in your body. What stood our for me was; that we are never alone on this journey, I like to add; no matter what kind of journey, be it illness and disease or maybe something very else… Super important, for all to know – we are NOT alone.

494. A very very beautiful blog Susan, and to feel how you embraced everything the journey offered you and allowed yourself to address your past hurts to embrace support and see the love in and around you. It is often easy to see the not love and to emphasise that, but the love is there always ready and waiting for us, and you allowed it, what a great inspiration for us all.

495. Thank you Susan, your blog reminds us to embrace all accidents and diagnoses, no matter how minor or major, as opportunities to clear ill patterns and behaviours that no longer serve.

496. This is true responsibility; accepting the illness was caused from your past emotional hurts and choices and being willing to not just get it ‘fixed’ through surgery, but by choosing to deal with those hurts and to accept the love and support from others and give that same support and love that comes from within to yourself.

497. It is such a blessing when illness is part of our healing; and appreciated as such.

498. ‘Having the cancer removed felt like a plug had been pulled out and I could really feel the beauty in humanity, this strong feeling of brotherhood, and an equalness with all in our divine connection to God.’
     This is a truly beautiful appreciation of your choice to let go of the illness you had been living with everyday – in keeping people out.

499. Being strongly independent is seriously over rated and should be classed as an illness in itself, as it is so harming. I have been there myself, and still go there at times and all it does is leave me separate, alone and as I shut out the world. We are not here to go it all alone, be tough and fight on through, we are here to work together, to support each other and to love one another. The difference is massive and by changing this pattern of behaviour, we bring more love to each other, share our lives with each other and in doing that we show others that they can have that too if they so choose.

500. So beautiful to read your story and be able to share it with friends Susan. Thanks for taking the time to write it and inspire others. I know many would approach having cancer with a completely different attitude and it doesn’t have to be that way. You have led the way.

501. This is a beautiful honest and humbling account of true healing offered to you through the pathway of illness and disease. Your approach of taking responsibility for your choices that lead to the dis-ease in your body.

502. It is crazy that we fear being hurt and by doing so we create lives of separation which is so far away from the love that we all crave. I am so very thankful for Serge Benhayon who has also given me the opportunity to see and change this destructive pattern and the result is the most gorgeous intimate connections with others.

503. The way you embraced the love and healing on offer is such a gorgeous description of true healing – in fact I felt a healing just reading your experience and revelations. I also could feel how that healing was not just for you, but all those connected to you and who came into contact with you. This confirms how we are all so interconnected, how there is always a much bigger picture!

504. Susan, how you write and the truth of what you write is so beautiful it brings tears to my eyes.

505. The way you have embraced your diagnosis and taken it as an opportunity to deeply connect with yourself and heal your hurts is incredible. It feels like it was an opportunity for you to open a door to even more love in your life which can be felt as I read your words.

506. Your response to a diagnosis of lung cancer is truly inspiring and impressive as most people approach this opportunity, which is what it is, as something they have to fight and simply get through as best they can with little or no appreciation of what is being offered. The healing process and everything you learnt along the way needs to shared widely throughout humanity. Thank you Susan.

507. What if illness is not a harsh punishment, but a message from God re-connecting us with the all? Like an email in our inbox reminding us clearly, there is power, truth and universal responsibility in everything we do and how we choose to be and move? Thank you Susan for seeing this, and letting the separation wall comes tumbling down.

508. What a strong reflection of loving choices! You are an example for the fact that we can always choose love however challenging the situation might be.

509. It is wonderful to read how you have been able to realise the deep healing that was there for you beneath the ordeal of cancer. Thank you for sharing this with us.

510. I can relate to this as well! “I chose to truly honour myself and graciously accept all that was on offer for me to deeply heal. This was something I had never done before, as I had always been strongly independent and had always struggled to accept help.’ I have very much been a hard person on the outside, in the sense of I’ll do it all myself – from now on I’m going to be totally open to all support that is given or being offered to me.

511. Oh my goodness I can totally relate to this as well, ‘ I had only been seeing and feeling all that was not love.’ I have a picture in my head of how love should look and also wanting it to be the way that I need to to be, which is a complete irresponsibility, imposition, judgement and not being open to people.

512. ‘comparing myself to others, looking for perfection in myself and in those around me,’ I can totally relate to this as well, it’s a game we knowingly play of irresponsibility.

513. Oh Boom! “I came to see that I had been living in judgement of people because of the choices they were making so I had shut down to others, separated myself and in that arrogance had deprived myself of the love on offer from them. In turn, I had deprived people of the love that I am.’ I can totally relate to this thank you for sharing. It’s crazy, and very manipulative, how we protect ourselves based on past hurts – when it cause so much harm to ourselves, our body, and other people.

     1. I agree Gyl and it is something I have noticed in myself too. That when I put a hurt above connection with someone else I am actually denying myself a piece of myself.

514. It feels like honouring and accepting your journey is a huge learning for you Susan, it’s so different to view illness in this way as a message to have some healing in the body. Congratulations to you.

515. Thank you for sharing this Susan. Its a great way to look at cancer and a graceful way of going about accepting and treating it. I love how when we respond to what our bodies need, there is an ease to it.

516. “My body felt alive, making me realise how much love there truly is in the world and how I am a part of that and it felt so beautiful.” This was really beautiful to read- to appreciate all the love there is in life.

517. When we hear the word “cancer” we can have all sorts of pictures come up in our mind. None of those pictures would be the enormous healing that can occur as a result of having cancer so thank you for bringing a new truth to the healing that can occur when we have an illness or disease.

518. Bringing in the healing principles of modern Medicine and combining it with Universal Medicine is something we all benefit from. As you so plainly portray in your blog people were genuinely getting on together, from the way the staff interacted to the way you opened up to the divine plan. Wow great reason for us all to adhere ‘the love that I am’ as ‘we are never alone on this Journey’.

519. Thank you Susan for sharing your story. What a gift it is to appreciate the love and support we have around us – that is truly letting people in and what a clearing that would have been with your cancer. You see the illness as an opportunity – an amazing way to look at things – releasing your body from a sickness that is not you.

520. Thank you Susan for sharing your journey of acceptance and understanding. I so relate to having judgment on others and shutting myself down and separating myself so as to not let anyone truly get close to me in fear of being hurt and for self-worth reasons. With the presentations of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine I have been able to open up to people more and allow myself to love others more and allow them to love me more. Dealing with our hurts is the true way to move forward in our lives and like you, I have more to clear but as you say, if we choose it, we will never be alone on our journey.

521. A very beautiful account of the opportunities available to us in each moment. It is as if we are trained nowadays to look for the bad, in a milli second size up all the things that are not true, when in fact if we were to concentrate on all that is we ourselves would feel amazing too, for in truth there is a lot of love available out there.

522. Cancer is so often seen as a disease that takes people by surprise – ‘she’s such a beautiful person, it isn’t fair that she should get cancer’ as if it is a punishment come out of nowhere. Very few see it as the true healing it is. It is the consequence of the lifestyle choices we have made in our lives, and we wouldn’t have got it if we had lived differently. Many of us have made ill choices and it is only when our body fully reflects back to us what we have chosen that we take notice. Cancer offers that opportunity to reflect and choose differently from here on. ‘ I started to feel all that was love and how I was an integral part of humanity. As this occurred, I could feel my connection to God deepen.’ Beautiful words we can all be inspired by.

523. Susan your sharing is very unusual among patients experiencing cancer, or in my experience of what I understand, it is unusual. Yet it asks me to look at my life, my feeling of separation to humanity and see how I’ve kept people out, not allowed that openness you speak about with all. It shows the gift of illness and disease and how cancer can be a deepening of our connection with life rather than an ending.

524. ‘This experience has changed me. I had much time during my recovery to reflect on, face, and clear so many of my hurts. I still have many to deal with, but what is most important to me is that neither I, nor we, are alone in this journey.’ Choosing to deal with the accumulation of our hurts is a powerful tool in our recovery from disease and it is inspiring to read how you have embraced this opportunity and lovely to feel the appreciation you have for yourself and all the support you have been open to receiving from others. It is so true that we are not alone in this journey but for many this is not their lived experience so your story deserves to be widely shared to demonstrate what is possible when we are open to being supported by everyone.

525. Being open to the support offered would have gone a long way to assisting in your healing process, along with taking the opportunity to deepen your relationship with your body – very inspiring.

526. Re-reading your blog this morning I see how when we get ill or a diagnosis we have 2 options – one to fight and resist it, and the other to embrace it and see what we are being shown by it. Effectively we can either then take responsibility for our lives or we can blame others and the world. The choice is always ours!

     1. Embracing our illness allows us to completely surrender to the healing process and it is truly life changing.

527. Susan, this is very interesting for me to read, ‘I came to see that I had been living in judgement of people because of the choices they were making so I had shut down to others, separated myself and in that arrogance had deprived myself of the love on offer from them’, wow I can feel how I have done this too, it is beautiful to read how much love there is, I realise that we can be blind to this and only focus on the things that are not love, recently I have been letting go of the judgment that I have held for so long and now see how amazing the people in my life are, my relationships are deepening and life feels much lighter because I am appreciating rather than judging myself and others.

528. The title of this blog really makes one stop and re-consider what the purpose of illness is and what it really does for us. Seeing a link between illness and feeling separated from humanity is a very unusual realisation to have when dealing with such a scary diagnosis. The way you have opened up, accepted all the love offered, deepened your own self love and indeed openly shared your experience is such a revelation not only for yourself Susan but for those reading it. When one can really take a step back and look at all the incredible consequences that arise from your cancer, it is quite an awesome outcome to arrive at, from being so guarded and private to feeling so open and connected to the people in your life. This is the grace that Serge Benhayon encourages us to re-discover through dealing with our hurts and opening ourselves up to the real purpose of illness, which is to clear the effects of our un-loving choices from our bodies. When we approach illness in this way, we allow the quality of our choices to be brought to the fore so we can make completely new ones with greater awareness, openness and love, while respectfully supporting our bodies to clear the old and make way for the new. It is quite miraculous.

529. A seemingly simple truth, and yet something that many of us have not accepted – “what is most important to me is that neither I, nor we, are alone in this journey.” When we are identified with our hurts, we can feel isolated and that no-one can really understand us. Or we want to hide our hurts from the world, ashamed of who we have become. Letting people in and allowing ourselves to be seen and loved just as we are, is indeed truly healing.

530. ‘Why did I separate myself from others?’ Such a huge question for humanity… as so many of us are living hunkered down in our protection trying to make sure that we don’t get hurt, but all the while cutting ourselves off from the enormous love all around.

531. What has life become when it takes a major stop for us to wake up from the comfort we have chosen to live in? You, Susan, have shown the way for others, that there is a way back to who we all truly are. We don’t have to wait for a life-changing stop; we just need to want to choose to come back to ourselves.

532. Susan, thank you for sharing your journey. It is so revealing for us all that we often wait till a diagnosis before we make the needed changes or finally listen to what is going on. Time and time again we can see this happen, but it is like a part of us does not want to ‘go there’ until we are on some level ‘forced’ to go there by the laws of nature. This is why I see every illness or disease as a blessing – an opportunity of making true change. To hear how your life has completely changed because of what you now allow and appreciate is phenomenal – and this is the blessing that has come your way, the opportunity you have taken to grow and learn, at your pace, in the way that you can embrace it. Thank you Susan for reminding us of the fact that we all have a choice to open up to more love all of the time.

533. If everyone looked at illness and disease in the way you have Susan and taken responsibility for what is being shown by making such changes in our way of being, we would have far less illness and disease as a race, far less suffering, and far more love in our society and systems.

534. The outpouring of love from those around that you describe Susan is wonderfully responded to with the question, why do we not choose this before we get ill? This love is available to us all the time and whether we are the person receiving the illness or those in support, to ‘bring it on’ in times of need is a great reflection to us of how life can be lived every moment.

     1. Very true Simon, it is so easy to get caught up in the busyness of life and forget about those connections, now when ever I think of someone that I have not connected to for a while, I do it immediately and it is truly joyful and loving.

535. To come to understand that when we separate from ourselves, denying the truth and the beauty of who we are, it follows that we then begin to separate from others, and in the process we, and they, miss out on so much of what is possible. What a beautiful transformation you have been through Susan, so inspirational and so confirming of what is possible when we begin to re-connect to ourselves

536. Wow Susan, yes, how we box ourselves in out of fear of life. It’s like we retreat to a cupboard, shut the door, draw trees and put up pictures of clouds on the wall to make it seem kind of real – our own ‘part’ of the world. Today you can see how this represents in our interest in Virtual Reality, gaming and technology. But nothing comes close to the real thing. I love how you turn this warped perception around so that it is not that the world is too harsh or difficult, but that we have so much love and joy to bring to this place today.

537. Susan thank you for sharing your life and letting us all in to know you so deeply. I had a wake up call reading to continue to deal with the things I still find painful, and to realise that the hurts I carry and the way they direct how I live has a powerful effect on my health. You’ve also reminded me that when I let those hurts go all I am opening up to is more love.

538. Thank you Susan for sharing with us your amazing transformation and return to knowing who you are and your purpose for being here. You are a living testimony of the philosophies of the Ageless Wisdom Teachings as presented by Serge Benhayon, and it is an inspiration to no end to see the power of true healing that ensues from the union of esoteric and conventional medicine. This is our future in healing being lived now.

539. ‘I had shut God out and had given up! I had only been seeing and feeling all that was not love.’ What a powerful revelation – that we only feel, see and so exist with what is not love when we shut ourselves down to God, to our Love within.

540. It is a fact that there is an immense amount of Love in the world to be shared and lived between us all. It is only unfortunate that we, myself included, often wait until there is a calamity in our lives before we stop to consider this, to then begin to embrace what is always naturally and innately within us all. It is very healing to be honest with ourselves and to let go of the protection that we exist in so that we can embrace the Love we are and realise that we are all of the same equal Love.

541. Beautiful to read of your loving journey back to the true and loving you. Thank you Susan. It was great for you to open up to the support that was on offer all around you, thereby connecting you to the brotherhood, that we are all one, in divinity and humanity.

542. It is truly amazing how when we do come to acceptance and understanding of the choices that we make or have made we free ourselves to be open to honesty and be then led by our truth to what choices supports our well-being and vitality. With this we are then able to live more of who we truly are and let go of who we are not and what is not serving us.

543. Reading this blog this morning brings a question to mind for myself. That question is: Am I ignoring warning signs my body is offering me, lessons I am overriding with ignorance, arrogance, lovelessness and a general lack of responsibility in my life to the extent that my body will need to give me a major health scare to make me stop and ponder on my own livingness? For me to even consider this clearly I have pondering to do and a deeper level of responsibility to claim.

544. I can understand the shock you felt Susan when you discovered you had cancer after years of healthy living. It just goes to show that the showing up of an illness is not only about having made poor lifestyle choices. Something was ready to emerge for you that would allow you to go deeper with your self-understanding, and this was the mechanism for that. On the other hand, having a well-cared for body would have stood you in very good stead with what was to come.

     1. If I had not already been living a healthy lifestyle my recovery would not have been as miraculous as it was and how I now feel better than I ever have.

545. So many women find it difficult to accept support (men possibly too). We have often cultivated such a proud, fierce independence or superwoman posture that it prevents us from allowing our vulnerability and fragility to shine through. It’s very beautiful to read Susan how your ‘protective coating’ came off.

546. Does this experience tell us that ‘the big C’ is not as scary as we think it is? Granted, there is much, much more to deal with with cancer on so many levels and a lot to deal with at the physical level of disease and treatment – it has far more gravity than the common cold, for example. Yet the opportunities for healing are the same, if not more significant. Just as we can read the root cause of a cold, so too can we come to understand our cancer, slipped disc, strained ligament, endometriosis, eye injury and so on. Every part of us, every breakdown, has a story to tell.

547. Susan what a magnificent and truly inspiring journey. Lung cancer strikes fear into the hearts of most of us – as I’m sure it did you – but it sounds like you handled it all in the most beautiful way possible and saw it for the healing opportunity it was (and is). What a learning for us all – thank you for sharing.

548. “It showed me that when I truly reflect and honour the beautiful, loving and amazing beings that we are, that is what comes back to me.” Claiming independence and doing it on our own, only wedges a sword between ourselves, others and God’s love.

549. I understand the shutting down and shutting out of people that you describe Susan. We all want to connect, is so crazy that we then shut down to ourselves and others, holding at bay the love that we all share. For me, one of the reasons I do this is due to taking on hurts and expecting unachievable perfection in myself and others.

550. Sorry can’t leave without noting this part as well, “I came to see that I had been living in judgement of people because of the choices they were making so I had shut down to others, separated myself and in that arrogance had deprived myself of the love on offer from them. In turn, I had deprived people of the love that I am.” So much self reflection and responsibility here and nothing about you being a victim of life Susan. It’s just so refreshing to see someone change the face of how things look. This is not a critique of others but more an appreciation of the freedom you have worked with through this.

551. Medicine as it truly can be.I felt my own understanding expand as I read your words, a healing you initiated that now flows on to others.

552. Hello Susan and can you hear the applause? This is for you, not only for the blog but for what you have chosen. This, “Having the cancer removed felt like a plug had been pulled out and I could really feel the beauty in humanity, this strong feeling of brotherhood, and an equalness with all in our divine connection to God.” You have turned the table on cancer and written about it as more of a blessing than a sentence. A lot is shown through your blog and from what you have seen from your illness. Life is never what we see it to be until our eyes are actually open, thank you.

     1. Yes Ray, it truly was a blessing and my soul knew I was ready for it. The whole experience was nothing short of a miracle!

553. That’s really beautiful, thank you for sharing the realisations you came to Susan.

554. Thank you for the truly lovely gift your share with the appreciation you feel for the diagnosis, treatment and the understanding that there is a greater purpose behind the cancer. It seems so many times cancer is considered in isolation to how we are living and our overall physical and emotional well-being. Taking responsibility for ourselves as a whole and attending to what is truly and deeply called for is a loving way to re-connect to all of who we are and inclusive of everyone equally, including God.

555. It can be difficult to admit that any illness or disease or accident or injury is a consequence of the collective of all of our lives choices. If we are willing to go there the depth of the healing that is available is truly profound on so many levels that we may not even be aware of. This healing is actually available to us every day, in every reflection and every experience if we are willing to feel and surrender to what is available to be aware of.

556. Susan this is an amazing realisation to come to after such serious news, that your diagnosis was going to be an opportunity for you to clear all that was no longer a part of you. From this point true healing is made possible.

557. This is definitely an all-encompassing way of looking at having an illness and the healing it offers. This would be an inspiring support for anyone going through an illness or their families, to bring a deeper understanding of the love we have denied or pushed away. What a beautiful opportunity to remember again that we are one humanity and the connection we all have to each other.

558. This feels like a dis-ease in your body not a disease and I love how you have lovingly explored and accepted what is happening for you, Susan. We are all offered different ways of healing and always what is needed for us.

559. The fact is that when we are open to see it, life is forever offering us opportunities to observe, deepen our understanding, learn and heal, however most of the time we are so caught in our daily repeating patterns that we don’t see any of it. But I have noticed that when we have a serious illness we are catapulted out of that autopilot of repeating patterns, and have the opportunity to see things from a fresh angle. So we are in fact we have opt to take care of a physical issue, we are actually offered the opportunity to heal far more than that.

     1. So true Golnaz, the amount of healing and clearing that happened during my recovery was enormous -cancer was a true gift for me.

560. The way we live in order to follow this perception that we have to hide away and protect ourselves from others is nothing compared to when we open up and let people in. This connect with others is healing for our being while conventional medicine helps support our body. Thank you Susan for sharing this as so often when we become ill we can turn away from support even more if we are led to believe that we are on our own in this situation when it is a time that others are even more needed. Which then brings up the question of if these connections are not a consistent in our lives how truly well are we?

     1. Thanks Leigh, I had an illness 3 years prior and I did not let anyone help or support me and I toughed it out alone and there was no joy in that experience and my recovery was very slow. I have discovered that connection is everything.

561. What a blessing it was for you to see beneath the physical lung cancer and appreciate you are an essential part of the whole and with this as your connection you are complete. Sharing such a greater understanding supports us all to take a look at whether we are allowing the love in of all those around us in and allowing all the love that is within out. Letting go the hurts that are getting in the way and being with everyone in full.

562. When we need true support it is always there .. we just have to ask ✨ Beautifull that you saw and took this as an opportunity to heal, let others in and be more of you.

563. Asking for help expresses openness and vulnerability, and when we do it often allows others in to support us and we get to let down our guard and accept help. Last week, I asked for help with a situation and received instant offers of help and support. I could have struggled alone but chose to reach out to others and in doing so connected with people I had never connected with before or for a while. When I reflected on the purpose of asking for help, I found it had less to do with the ‘situation’ but more with making connections with others.

564. Susan this is beautiful confirmation of how illness and disease is often the pathway to true healing, not just for ourselves but all of humanity.

565. So beautiful how you took true responsibility for what your body was telling you and experience true healing from your diagnosis of lung cancer. Reading your blog is amazing to feel the joy in you as you go through such a huge operation life changes. The body is always speaking to us and giving us the choice to heal.

566. it is really mindblowing to read about a cancer diagnosis and have so much joy and openness in the same paragraphs. It is truly inspiring.

567. This is the approach to illness that is very needed in the medical system, taking complete responsibility for our choices and blaming no one. It is an incredibly humbling and healing process, rather than the reactive fight back that is often triumphed in society today, it only hardens an already weakened body.

     1. It was interesting to note how many people around me found it difficult to understand that I took full responsibility and embraced the disease as a true healing instead of going into ‘fight’ mode.

     2. So true Matthew, our bodies definitely need to be more-tender. I know my body after 12 years of being a student of the Livingness needs to be more-tender in all I do!

568. This is exposing the very core of how everything is energy and everything is because of energy and judgment of self and another is the cause of much ill-energy and dis-ease in our bodies. As I have less judgment on myself, I am finding that even the smallest judgment of another now feels very disharmonious in my body. We are all so interlinked and magnify either that ‘which is’ or ‘that which is not’ by our our thoughts and way of living.
     “…Judgment….I had shut down to others, separated myself and in that arrogance had deprived myself of the love on offer from them. In turn, I had deprived people of the love that I am”.

569. Always seeing only the lesser part of ourselves is a vile lie that continues to hook us into the never-ending-cycle of the false-merry-go-round of never being good enough, being unworthy, or full of self loathing or doubts. We can turn this around by choosing to feel, accept and appreciate our divine essence and all that is love. Great choices to celebrate Susan!
     “I had only been seeing and feeling all that was not love. In those first couple of days I started to feel all that was love and how I was an integral part of humanity. As this occurred, I could feel my connection to God deepen”.

570. Wow, what a beautiful sharing Susan, confirming that true healing is possible when we stop and feel what our body is communicating to us. Working with the insights and deep understanding of the past ill-choices you had made previously, your wellbeing and health has made an amazing-new-normal turnaround. How inspiring Serge Benhayon’s presentations are, as he constantly reflects a Living Way that is available for all.

     1. It certainly would have ben a different experience without the presentations of Serge Benhayon to inspire me to be more love. True and deep healing is available to us all when we take responsibility for our choices.

571. What you write is rare and needs to be shared widely. This is not a common experience of cancer and the incredible depths of insight and wisdom you hold to see your cancer for what it is/was, is mind blowingly incredible.

572. Susan, I love how you were able to surrender your body and ask for all the support that you needed. I don’t have cancer but am beginning to get a sense of just how precious I am and that when needed I can accept more support from others and thus allow a deeper surrendering of myself.

573. Life has been set up for us from young. We are shown temporary comforts like chocolate, recognition, favouritism and we learn to let go of our natural joy, and replace it with seeking these things. Our wholeness cant be lived, in life, in work and in relationships whilst we accept a lesser version of what is ‘good’ in life.

574. What a beautiful healing Susan, and what you share is for us all to constantly confirm – the beauty in humanity, this strong feeling of brotherhood, and an equalness with all in our divine connection to God.

575. Love is a two way street and can’t exist without this feedback loop.

576. A very beautiful account of the true healing that illness and disease offers us. Thank you for your honesty and real reflection for others on the judgements we carry and the effects on our bodies and our lives and that of everyone else also. Opening up to love and seeing it everywhere is a sure sign that we are being love, and the healing part is letting it in and allowing the support we need and being a true part of humanity.

577. “I had only been seeing and feeling all that was not love. In those first couple of days I started to feel all that was love and how I was an integral part of humanity. As this occurred, I could feel my connection to God deepen.” – each and every one of us is important and an integral part of humanity – we are all a part of the amazing jig-saw puzzle of life.

578. What you’ve shared Susan is quite remarkable. The depth of understanding and awareness you have in what the cancer brought to you is inspiring as many people who are diagnosed with cancer feel like they are being punished or have done something wrong. This is far from how I see it and clearly how you see it too – thank you for your sharing.

579. I love that in that face of what most would consider a traumatic diagnosis, you looked at your disease as an opportunity to clear what had come before that is no longer a part of you and embrace the healing on offer. A truly inspirational approach to healing.

     1. I agree ✨

580. Asking others for help has not been a strong point of mine, but I have started to, and it feels good to allow others to support me.

     1. Yes Debra , it isn’t easy in the beginning but once you break the pattern of doing it alone it opens us up to truly beautiful connections.

581. Keeping myself separate from others is something I used to do. My daughter told me how she said hello to everyone she met yesterday morning. She finds it difficult to catch someone’s eye without greeting them. This is her way. She shared how everyone responded with a surprised but appreciative response. We are surprised, because it happens rarely, but it does feel good to connect to each other, even if it’s just a simple warm hello.

582. Susan thank you for sharing how the experience of having lung cancer enabled you to make significant changes to the way you live your life. I think many of us can relate to major life events being the catalyst for change that we would under normal circumstances not make. The thing is the ‘normal’ we get used to is not truly the way we want to live, so we then end up feeling regret.

583. What a great journey of realisation for you Susan, to know that this diagnosis was going to be an opportunity for you to clear all that was no longer a part of you. It’s encouraged you to be open to everyone who has loved and assisted you in your recovery, so they receive a blessing of Love from you too.

584. I have to catch up here and tell that I am free from Asthma since a few years now. I am no longer on medication therefore.

585. I can relate to this Susan, I also had shut down to others and was ending up missing the love and connection. I had have Asthma and it did reflect how much I was in grief about my loneliness.
     The lungs reflecting our (dis-)connection, it is an in- and out-going from air all of the time, an interaction with the surroundings and so, reflecting our interaction, our lived intimacy with people.
     I did not let people come so near – even though it may have seemed like I did. I did not allow myself to feel the love that is there around me. I did judge myself and others and so put a thousand walls between me and the love I am and the love of others.

     To open up me and my body again for the love that is there, was and is quite a journey and I am so thankful for all the practitioners of Universal Medicine who support here so well. But also for all the lovely people out there who are willing to share their love and who are there, waiting for me, to open up my doors again. And so I am willing now to tear down the walls of protection to make space for the love again to unfold and flower up again.

586. I like the point you have made that we are not alone on this journey and that God does have a plan for us, very reassuring when at times we can feel so alone

587. Susan thank you for sharing and showing that there is beauty and deep healing in taking responsibility for our own health. Often when we speak about the root cause of illness and disease people react and object to the idea of being ‘punished’ or ‘at fault’ for what can be a very serious and disruptive situation. it is not a question of fault but an offering to heal and let go of ill patterns and beliefs that bring disharmony to our bodies.

588. Susan your blog is deeply moving. Such an honest portrayal of the underlying cause for a serious diagnosis. The very beautiful thing about this, even though you would have worked through a lot during this process, is that I sense no bitterness, anger or even the thought that your body had failed you. Only a growing sense of appreciation, acceptance and love of who you are and the love that is truly available in the world.

589. This is an amazing blog from somebody diagnosed with lung cancer. So clear, so … joyful!

590. Thank you Susan. This is a remarkable story and I am very inspired by what you share. You show me that I do not need to wait for a calamity to connect to the love that is always on offer if I simply choose to connect to it. Your sweetness and the love you feel for humanity can be felt in every word shared here.

591. “Having the cancer removed felt like a plug had been pulled out” – here is another example of the blessing that illness and disease can bring. An opportunity to deepen awareness and to let go of deeply held hurts and momentums from the body.

592. “What was really beautiful was the connection I made with everyone that came to my room. It was like there was space for each of them to express what was going on in their lives and so they talked about their families, issues and problems and what made them happy. I experienced a feeling of interconnectedness with everyone that made me feel truly joyful.” When we make life about humanity and service, even from a hospital bed, there is purpose and joy. I love this.

593. The nursing staff, medical professionals, orderlies, kitchen staff and cleaners were all so beautifully loving, attentive, gentle and caring. It showed me that when I truly reflect and honour the beautiful, loving and amazing beings that we are, that is what comes back to me. I love this as an example of how the quality we hold ourselves in is confirmed back in the quality that others hold themselves in around us.

594. “I came to see that I had been living in judgement of people because of the choices they were making so I had shut down to others, separated myself and in that arrogance had deprived myself of the love on offer from them. In turn, I had deprived people of the love that I am.” This is such an awesome awareness to get to. In our being closed off we do not stop to feel the depths to which we have cut ourselves off. I know that this was certainly the case within myself, as I had capped how much I was comfortable letting in and how much I was letting out.

595. “I came to see that I had been living in judgement of people because of the choices they were making so I had shut down to others, separated myself and in that arrogance had deprived myself of the love on offer from them. In turn, I had deprived people of the love that I am.” – this I can relate to very well as well as the giving up on God. I’ve tried to make life all about people and ‘just’ people, rather than heal my hurts and share myself in full with the world. God, God, God. It’s a subject that feels like I’ve to force myself to connect to. As I miss him and I can feel how there’s resisting all that I feel around him (or is it Him?). But only sharing this, makes me feel more still and joyful. Wow. So simple, yet so profound.

596. A lovely sharing of your journey with lung cancer, thank you Susan. How great that you could see how this situation arose as a result of the way you had chosen not to deal with the hurts you had experienced over the whole of your life, and that you
     “realised that this diagnosis was going to be an opportunity for me to clear all that was no longer a part of me.” How beautiful it is that we are given these opportunities to clear past hurts and other issues before we come to the time to pass over from this life. It is wonderful that we can then return to our next life with a much clearer body than this present time around.

597. Sometimes it takes an illness like cancer to wake us up and see how we are really living. This is where Universal Medicine can be super supportive to heal what has caused the illness in the first place. The medical profession are amazing at what they do, but unless we are able to see past the immediate illness and get to the root cause, then quite often the illness will not heal or it will come out in another part of the body.

598. If we can see and accept and live that we are part of God’s Plan then everything changes; our movements, our responsibility and our ability to see what many would consider disasters like lung cancer as an amazing opportunity, to clear, accept, build and evolve.

599. Thank you Susan, your response to your diagnosis, shocking as it must have been is quite exceptional and a must read for all those facing similar situations.

600. Thank you for sharing this, Susan. I can relate very much to holding the world and God to ransom, for not being what and how I wanted them to be, justifying my separation in order to protect myself. But I have also experienced that we can never truly be separate from God apart from in the prison of our minds because, as you say, once we open up again the love is all around us, as it always has been.

601. Thank you for sharing your beautiful healing journey through cancer Susan. To realise we are not alone but have all the support needed around us and then choose to accept that support is deeply healing.

602. “I had only been seeing and feeling all that was not love.” This is such a common focus, not just of us personally but of society generally, the media being a prime example of perpetuating this perspective. For many it takes a major wake-up call, such as cancer, to re-awaken the awareness that there is a different way.

     That Way is to focus on all the love there is in one’s world and the world. This in itself does not change the situation, but with this focus we make different choices – loving ones – and these do bring about change. As has been shown to me, through the Teachings of the Ageless Wisdom as presented by Serge Benhayon, one does not have to wait for a dramatic wake-up call but can choose to make that change at any time. This deepens the connection with God and the tool to facilitate that change is appreciation.

603. “Having the cancer removed felt like a plug had been pulled out and I could really feel the beauty in humanity, this strong feeling of brotherhood, and an equalness with all in our divine connection to God.” Gorgeous Susan – what a blessing illness can be!

604. This is beautiful to read and feel the grand effect illness can have on how we live our life. As we take this opportunity to heal with open arms.

605. Susan, amazing blog to read, this is a real stop moment for me, ‘I had shut God out and had given up! I had only been seeing and feeling all that was not love’, I can feel how I can get caught up in only seeing the things in the world that are not love and focus on these, until reading this it had not dawned on me that by doing this I was shutting God out, this makes sense to me now, there is so much to appreciate, thank you for the reminder.

606. Isn’t it a wonderful thing in life to let others help us, particularly in your situation Susan, but really at any time in our lives, letting others in is something that I have struggled with over the years but I see and feel only good when I do let it happen.

607. A beautiful reflection of how our body takes on the harm we impose on it and then sends a stop to ask ‘So, what are you going to do about it?’ An opportunity to reconnect to love, to let love in and let love out.

608. Susan what a great sharing and revelation to come to. It is easy at times to get caught up in seeing what is not love, we miss out on the love that surrounds us. After all no matter how lost someone is, they are still love first and foremost and so seeing them as any different is holding them in judgement. Sure they may be making unloving choices, but that does not mean they are not love.

609. Even the mention of the big C brings up all sorts of reactions in people and having a diagnosis of having it can be self-devastating for all the reasons you have presented. Susan, you have accepted the healing cancer offers to you. It allows us to take stock of how we have been living and the choices we have made in the past. Cancer is an opportunity to rediscover who we have always been.

610. I loved reading your blog and can relate to so much of it. It has truly inspired me. Thank you for your sharing and for the inspiration. Cristina.

611. Susan what you share here is the epitome of healing, not only did you access what was needed to physically heal your body, but you felt and subsequently accepted the process of letting go of the way of living that had contributed to the physical illness. You are an inspiration for the world.

612. A very inspiring story Susan. Letting in support and love would seem like the easiest thing on earth to do but through our experiences in life this is not the reality and it seems often the hardest thing. Working through the hurts and letting the love in as much as we can is a very healthy thing to do because not letting love in or out is very debilitating for the body.

613. So beautiful to read how much you have surrendered to the wisdom of your body throughout this whole process Susan, thank you for writing this. It struck me as I was reading your lines about choosing to truly honour your body immediately after the surgery and giving yourself, and asking for, everything you needed to truly heal and support yourself: what if we lived like this all of the time, truly supporting ourselves by being honest and asking for what we need – how might our relationships with ourselves, and from there, with all others, deepen?

614. What you show me with this blog Susan, is that life is all geared up to reflect to us who we really are and when we stop resisting this, either by our own free will or helped through an illness or disease, we are open to accept and appreciate the beauty of who we are that is reflected by the people we meet wherever we go.

615. This is such a refreshing approach to illness Susan – seeing it as an opportunity to heal, not only physically but in terms of old patterns etc. we often hang onto (which we sometimes aren’t even aware we are hanging onto, or that they are even there!). This is where I have found myself where esoteric medicine and western medicine work beautifully together to truly heal.

616. It is truly powerful to be able to appreciate illness as part of our healing process. What Universal Medicine offers through its teaching is tremendously valuable and supports us so that we can take advantage of this opportunity as much as we can and come to the very root cause of the disharmony, as you have done so beautifully.

617. Dear Susan, I have known you before and after your diagnosis and surgery. Although I didn’t feel like I knew you very well before, quite suddenly I felt like I knew you fairly well after your surgery. I had been pondering on this after spending time with you recently, feeling the change in you and wondering what was going on for you that you seemed so different to be around. NOW I know. You captured your experience so lovingly here – for all the world to see. Thanks for letting us in! It’s good to have you here.

618. Thanks Susan for your awesome account of your hurts, separation from God and how illness became an opportunity to heal so much and to remember we are one with God and humanity.

619. Reading this is very healing as I’ve kept people at arms length most of my life for fear of unleashing the neediness I could feel inside. I’m discovering neediness is very different to letting in love. Connecting with who I am allows me to feel the love we live in and choose to let it in. I used to think I had to do life on my own and anything less involved unbearable levels of vulnerability. But doing life on my own has been a super highway to crazy behaviour in search for intimacy. Being honest and vulnerable with myself allows me to be me more and more in the presence of others too.

620. “It showed me that when I truly reflect and honour the beautiful, loving and amazing beings that we are, that is what comes back to me.”

     This is so true Susan. The quality with which we express is the quality that will return to us magnified. At any stage we have the choice to either express all that is love/truth or, all that is not. When we fully grasp this we realise to what degree we are in fact masters of our own created reality and that the responsibility for our health lies in our own hands.

621. Hi Susan, thank you for sharing your experience with lung cancer and the love, healing and honesty it has brought through. Illness has been viewed as a ‘failure’ and something we use to calibrate how well we are doing living our lives. Being ‘well’ allows us to be in comfort and to hold on to all those things that keep us fixed in old patterns and belief systems. What you are sharing has challenged and opened up a whole new understanding that was waiting with a big bucket of love. I deeply appreciate your willingness to go deeper and to share this with us. This is a call to Humanity to re-connect and to choose true brotherhood and not separation. Thank you.

622. Our lungs are our connection to God – we breathe in and feel the innate Stillness we are forever a part of, and we breathe out so as to express this quality in all that we do. But as a humanity we have deviated from such a simple breath and learnt to breathe in a way that does not honour this connection but instead seeks to keep us separated from God and from each other. With this comes a deep grief for the simple fact that it hurts us to not live the love we so naturally are.

     Susan, I love what you have shared because it shows us it is never too late to let down the walls we erect that seek to keep us divided. It is us who make the simple choice to return home to the love that we are and when we do, we realise that love (God) never left, it was simply us who made the choice to depart from it/Him. Thus the truth remains that no matter how far we might stray, we are forever held in a Grand Love that never judges nor betrays, but stands by us and lives within us always.

623. This is such an inspirational blog Susan. I feel many of us will take much away with us after reading it. For me I can see how I have kept others at arms length and can see the need for me to be much more open and accepting of the love and support others offer me. This then allows me to offer that same support to others should they need it too! I can also see that in being more open, my love for myself grows too.

624. How beautiful the healing when we take responsibility for our part.

625. A great exposure of the fact that illness and disease doesn’t just happen overnight – there is always a dis-ease in the body that has been there for some time that will eventually become a disease if not dealt with.

626. This is an inspirational blog Susan… revealing the power of healing that can come from a diagnosis of illness when we are prepared to be totally honest with ourselves.

627. Thank you Susan for sharing such an amazing transformation you experienced because of your illness. It stopped you in your tracks to allow yourself to be vulnerable, honour what your body was making you aware of, surrender to and accept the process of having lung surgery, and then letting people in.
     Wow- I am always in awe of God’s plan and what it then brings.

628. Thank you Susan for such an honest account of your healing process involving lung cancer. I am struck by your understanding of how your judgements on others and their choices interrupted the natural flow of love. It makes me reflect on how I judge others and myself and how this can keep me stuck in resentment and hurt.

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