How a Cervical Smear Test became possible through Loving Choices.

by Ruth Ketnor, Frome, UK 

At the age of 29 I gave up on having cervical smear tests. I found them so extremely painful and distressing that I decided I wasn’t going there again.

At the age of 50 I had to have a smear test as one of a series of tests (note I said had to). I went to the appointment in dread of what was coming and felt a lot of tension. With a very caring nurse we tried 3 times after which we called it a day, as it was still so painful.

The next year I attended a group in which Natalie Benhayon presented Sacred Movement. When starting this gentle and very subtle movement of my pelvis I felt pain and a real tightness, a hardening I had been holding in my pelvic area, particularly on the right side. As I did the movement in the classes and then daily at home, these symptoms cleared from my body quickly, the movement becoming more flowing, even, and as if my body was naturally doing it rather than me intentionally doing it.

Five months later, I felt it was the right time to have another smear test, this time as a loving choice for myself. I booked the appointment as a loving choice for me, supporting myself in my own health care. I supported myself with further loving choices, nurturing myself before and after the procedure. In the waiting room I focused on staying present with myself. I went through the usual questions with the nurse, who was quite rushed with her busy job.

She then said to get up on the table ready for the test. I wasn’t moving. I said: “Before we go any further, I need to explain something to you”. She sat down, put down her questionnaire and really listened. I briefly told her my history and said: “I need this to go very slowly and very, very gently”. She instantly changed, slowed her pace down and it felt like she was treating me rather than doing her job. I then got on the table and she gave me a blanket to cover myself, which I had not had before.

We took time to make sure I was comfortable and relaxed. We had a dialogue through the whole procedure; the nurse saying what she was going to do in each next step, checking with me all the time that it was ok and me saying how it was for me and if I needed it done differently. There was no rushing and I didn’t feel like I was the next one in. She also gave me time afterwards to sit and recover, which I didn’t need, as things had gone so smoothly and gently.

It was an amazing procedure, the nurse so gentle and caring. All I had was mild discomfort during the procedure and afterwards was able to continue my day as normal, with no discomfort or pain at all. I felt very cared for and nurtured through the whole procedure, being given all the time I needed. I thanked the nurse, telling her she had been amazing.

My loving choices before and during the procedure led it to be a light, supportive experience with an attentive caring nurse.

I was inspired to communicate what would support me during this procedure, and to support myself with loving choices, from the workshops/presentations with Serge Benhayon. Normally I would have gone along with what was asked and had lingering feelings of distress/trauma afterwards. This time I walked out smiling and continued my day. After 21 years the test came back clear.

For me, a profound, deep healing has come as a result of doing the Sacred Movement. This has allowed me to make healing choices for myself, including having a cervical smear as part of caring for my body. I have found that all the presentations of Universal Medicine offer a deep healing and inspire me to make more loving choices.

With deep thanks and appreciation for the presentations, teachings and wisdom from Serge Benhayon and the Benhayon family and for their true and consistent support in my healing process.



562 thoughts on “How a Cervical Smear Test became possible through Loving Choices.

  1. “My loving choices before and during the procedure led it to be a light, supportive experience with an attentive caring nurse.” Your experience has revealed Ruth how truly supportive it is when we initiate deeply caring and self-loving choices and how openly communicating with others changes our whole experience.

  2. This is a beautiful confirmation of the benefits of conventional medicine that is there with all the expertise and knowledge combined with esoteric medicine which is our own responsibility in how we care for and prepare ourselves for any procedure in the way we live.

  3. It’s great to know exactly what you need for your body and your own personal well-being and be able to convey it with authority to people like you did here, especially when it comes to our health, it feels like a super important aspect of our self-care and our ability to live our lives without bending and swaying all the time to whatever is going on around us.

  4. Yes Ruth, like you up until recently, my pap smears were really quite painful, but the last time, I just kept staying with my body and going really gently beforehand and I just let go in my body while on the table and it didn’t hurt at all, which was such a relief.

  5. It’s beautiful to feel the reflection of your loving choices in the way the nurse responded to you. A true confirmation that the quality of energy we emanate to the world is the quality that will come back.

  6. It is very beautiful to feel through developing a loving relation with ourselves, how we are innately guided to know what is needed to support us to honor our connection to our love, to who we are, to the love we deserve to live.

  7. An amazing example of the power of Sacred Movement but also the way in which your preparation for the procedure and expression of your needs to the nurse inspired her to connect to what was needed and drop into her tenderness. Thank you for sharing your transformational and inspiring healing which is a gift for all women.

  8. A powerful sharing Ruth, there are so many women for whom this blog would support. Taking responsibility for our health and our healing is powerful and very tangible in its flow on effects.

  9. I love how an invasive medical procedure can end up being a reflection of the loving choices you make for yourself and your choice to express in honesty what is truly needed. The benefits of applying the wisdom of the Universal Medicine teachings truly has no bounds in the many ways that healing can occur in our lives.

  10. Reading this really brings home the quality of the procedure, as in is the nurse rushed, is this just another smear test on a long list of smears performed that day, is there any true interaction between the nurse and the client, or is it all performed on a functional level. Could it be that we feel more than we are willing to accept when, that often cold metal object is pushed into the most precious, delicate part of our bodies, and that we can feel the disconnection of the person who is inserting the object.
    Ruth what you did speaks volumes and clearly changed the energy of the nurse that day, or at least during your procedure.

  11. Absolutely incredible, good on you for stating your history and asking the nurse to be gentle, that is actually very brave because in that cold clinical environment sometimes it can be tricky to wear your heart on your sleeve.

    1. It is interesting to note how often we override the feeling to ask for a deeper level of care when we are in need of support. There is a holding back that often stops us from communicating loud and clear what will support the client and ourselves and in time builds a quality in the relationship that is based on openness.

  12. One can never underestimate the power of connection. This is a gorgeous blog showing when we allow another to see our vulnerability, support is on offer, we don’t need to do it alone (note to self).

  13. Thank you for sharing not only how you have embraced medical support but the quality and care in which you approach that, not from fear or concern but with love and care, which as I am understanding is key. I used to think it was about what we do that is most important, but each day I see more and more it’s the quality in which we do what we do that is most key.

  14. To feel like the nurse was treating you in your uniqueness rather than simply doing her job and you being a number in her line-up of patients for the day would undoubtedly have to provide a great foundation for healing.

  15. A beautiful sharing of the power of Sacred Movement and how our commitment to this practise can heal so much in us, contributing to change in behaviour, old held patterns, beliefs and stuck energy, inspiring more loving choices bringing us to a place of freedom, flow, health and appreciation.

  16. What a beautiful example of being met with a true quality of caring from the nurse of which can be an important part of the healing process along with our own engagement with own treatment.

  17. The direct link to how you are to then how the world reflects back to you is becoming more and more clear. It’s not I guess that it wasn’t so clear before it’s more that I avoided it so well that it made it appear ‘it’ was unclear. The movements we make through life bring with it certain lessons or certain reflections and with these we can either change our movements to heal or discard certain patterns, or we can keep choosing them and receive a very similar outcome, over and over. This article is an example of a person changing the way they are, the quality of their movement that then supported what when on to them to also reflect that change, extremely powerful and you could say responsible.

  18. As a different point of view, I too have always found cervical smears painful and braced my body in preparation for them. I also generally had to have them once per year because of abnormal cells. This year I had a follow-up, I totally allowed my body to relax, I didn’t brace, and I talked to the nurse about how sensitive I am. The appointment was simple, and as a result, I was totally clear for the first time. It was a confirmation of the way I have been living.

  19. When we get to the point where we truly want to change, we will make it happen. The needed tools and modalities will be on hand for us to go forward with what is planned. What you share here Ruth makes it incredibly clear that the way we move is super powerful and when we know our sacredness the future plans and assignments are taken care of – there is no stress when we move in true connection.

  20. Thanks for sharing this Ruth, I have had similar painful experiences when having smear tests and have avoided getting a more recent one. Inspired… I will make similar steps to you in supporting myself for my next test.

  21. A great testimonial for Sacred Esoteric Movement, and for expression too, when we are able to express with great honesty, we are able to change another’s actions, as you did with the nurse and through that expression there is a greater connection.

  22. Beautiful Ruth, what comes across from reading your words today is the absolute power our choices have. And how when we ignore parts of our body and who we are, we resist addressing the issues that are there. And this resistance leads to difficulty and pain that seems to confirm it’s right to keep blocking it all out. It’s confirming here to read and see that when we actually go for it and embrace life and all it brings, there is also a way forward that will support us back.

  23. This is very inspiring. It’s just beautiful how the nurse got pulled out of her busy-ness in response to the quality you have established with and for yourself and calling her with.

  24. Ruth, thank you for sharing, it was a joy to read. I too had a similar experience where I was to have a pap smear and the nurse came in quite rushed and very functional. I took the time to connect with her as I was more than her 12 o’clock vagina (so to speak!) and we connected as people. Beyond the role of nurse/client – as people. It was only for a moment, but it was enough. I felt much more comfortable and the process was quite easy.

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