Getting Away with It…

by Anne Malatt, Australia.

A dear friend sent me a link to a funny photo, which came from a facebook page with the title:

“Yes, Officer I did see the Speed Limit sign, I just didn’t see YOU!”

When I saw the title I laughed out loud and then I was stopped in my tracks.

I realised that this was how I had lived my life, thinking I was getting away with it.

What do I mean when I say this?

For me, it means that I know I am doing something that is not right, but I somehow think I have a right to do it, and that it will not have the same consequences for me that it has for other people.

The arrogance of this is stupendous.

How do I do it?

When I was younger, I used to drink like a fish, smoke like a chimney and root like a rabbit. I did not get away with it, any of it. As a consequence, I was forced to make major changes to the way I lived, in order to keep on living. I made these changes at the age of 28, long before I moved to the Byron Shire and met Serge Benhayon. Even though I cleaned up my act, I was still not self-loving in the way I lived. There was still a hardness there, especially on myself, and a drive, that came from never feeling enough, just as I was.

Now, my life is much more loving and seen from the outside, probably pure and boring, but I still do stuff.

I speed. I would like to say I used to speed, but I still do it. I love to drive a little fast, to push the boundaries a little. I drive fast in a measured way, carefully calibrated – 10-15 km over the speed limit, so that if I get caught, the consequences will not be dire. Occasionally I get a little reckless and go faster, but never more that 30 km over the speed limit – I will not risk losing my licence. I used to pride myself on being able to sense when there were police around and on knowing when to slow down, so that I got away with it.

I eat. I know there are foods I can no longer eat, foods that do not support my body and my way of being, but I still eat them. I still like the taste of them and even the thought of being able to eat them sometimes. I don’t stop eating something when it causes tiredness, bloating, dullness. I keep “enjoying” it until I feel exhaustion, get stomach cramps and diarrhoea, or my heart starts to race; until I can no longer get away with it. 

I push myself to the limit. I know when I am tired and when my body needs to rest, but I push it beyond that. I do not rest when I am tired, but when I am exhausted. I do not stop and be still until I have to.  I do not say no until I reach breaking point. And until now, I thought I was getting away with it.

I was diagnosed with lymphoma last year. It is a relatively benign, chronic cancer, but it was a shock nonetheless. I found a lump in my left leg. I had it removed (the lump, not the leg!), other tests were clear and I did not have to have any further treatment. So I thought I had gotten away with it.

A few weeks ago I felt a funny feeling in the same area. My doctor could not find anything, but I had a scan anyway and there is more disease there, and a biopsy has shown the same cancer. I have just had a bone marrow biopsy to see if it has spread throughout my body. This test is not something I would wish on anyone.

So really, did I get away with anything?

Is it possible that the way I have lived has led to this?

Is it possible that the way I have walked through life, denying the knowing of my body, refusing to listen when it spoke to me, and waiting until it was screaming before I changed my way of life, has something to do with where I am now?

It is not about blaming myself, finding fault, beating myself up.

It is about being as honest as I can with myself from now on.

It is about being willing to stop, be still and listen to my body, and to live from and with the knowing that lies within me, the wisdom of my inner-heart.

It is about understanding that we never get away with it, that everything we think, say and do carries an energetic imprint, that is either loving and heals us, or is not loving and harms us. And we live with every one of those imprints, every day.

So why not live in a way that is loving? I, for one, am ready to give it a go.

I am forever inspired by the life and work of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. 

589 thoughts on “Getting Away with It…

  1. Cautious speeding, check. Eating against my grain, check, Any number of ways I harm myself, check. Yes, my spirit – the part of me that knows I’ll be back in physical form the next lifetime and the next and the next – loves to think I too can get away with it all. Your story Anne is a brilliant reminder to get my own act together even more. Pushing ‘our luck’ until something really dire happens is a difficult way to wake up to the truth of what we’ve been doing to ourselves.

  2. It is almost the norm that most wait until our body is screaming at us before we will actually listen, but in truth, and in honour of it we should respond to even a whisper. There is enormous wisdom we are denying when we choose to remain unaware and a way of being that is deeply loving and worth giving a go.

  3. This is a conversation that needs to be held regularly. I want to say ‘with the younger generation’ but in reality, with everyone. Some where in our lives many still live with this mind set. How damaging is it really? And even more so, how much does it give us an escape to the responsibility we each hold.

  4. I am big on getting away with things. I am still doing all the things on the list you mention in this blog, it’s like it makes me feel as if I can keep secrets, like if I speed and don’t get caught, somehow it’s something I am proud of but would not tell others about. Or I eat ice-cream by myself, that then it doesn’t affect anyone but me. All of this is untrue because it’s been a couple of days since I sat down and ate coconut caramel ice cream and my nose is blocked and I have a headache and then I am less engaged and I miss things at work and I am not as fun with my kids and so forth and so on. So the innocent ice cream becomes an irresponsible choice. When I really consider why I am sneaky, I am trying to hide things from myself because I know the truth and I know in my hearts of hearts, there is no real “getting away with” anything.

  5. Such a great blog to read again and to be reminded that we are never getting away with anything even thou we feel we are or at least hoped we were. Taking time to stop and reassess how we are living, how loving we are being and honouring of ourselves is super important. What I have found over the time is the more I do this the more I realised that it can go to deeper levels of attention and it is the consistency that is super important as well, without it being a chore but having loads of fun with it.

  6. Very true, how ever much we think or even feel like we are getting away with it, we do have to deal with it at some point. It is basically only delay to postpone it when we feel that something in our diet for example has to change, we can still eat it but what we are often not aware of is what is going on energetically and deep inside our body. Until it surfaces of course. Thank you Anne for your sharing.

  7. It’s a great way of looking at life and how we live. There is no getting away with anything, no cutting of corners that is not registered, no behind closed doors, and no “no-one saw me”. Every action we take is a basis for the next, every thought, every step.

  8. Oh, I can feel the arrogance, dance away in its own tantalising moves – because getting away with it is so so ingrained. For me these days it might be more fine-tuned and not as obvious, as I don’t consume alcohol or drugs, I’m caring with what I eat and a whole lot more. But the notion that I can get away with something is always lurking, and it’s a brilliant thing to see, because the more I let myself see it, the more I can call it out in myself and take more responsibility.
    And with that responsibility, I feel more and more expansion.. more and more joy and more and more love. And that, is something my wiley little spirit that wants to get up to mischief and arrogantly dance its way along, cannot get away with.

  9. You really hit the nail on the head – if we think we can get away with it we’ll do it. I’m beginning to see more and more that the moments when I do not apply the same dedication and commitment and care to as other times in my life have massive consequences, and I would agree that we don’t truly get away with anything.

  10. The overriding of what is needed in each moment is a stubborn trait so many are familiar with. Knowing that you need to attend to something, move in a particular way, speak up at a given moment. All opportunities that are there to support us and often we sabotage them to feel less staying in our comfort.

    1. Yes staying in our comfort we kid ourselves that everything is fine when all along we know we are being a shrinking violet and so much less than our potential. We may be aware of the irresponsibility we are in and yet still let ourselves sink further into the mud until something or someone jolts us out of it or sometimes we might even get honest enough and self loving enough to turn the tide and commit to life rather than getting away with it (non life)

  11. When we truly understand that “everything we think, say and do carries an energetic imprint, that is either loving and heals us, or is not loving and harms us” it changes our whole perception and awareness of life and the responsibility we all have to support ourselves and others to live more lovingly. Our choices either support our true health and well-being or lead us into a life of disregard and dis-ease.

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