by Anne Malatt, Australia.
A dear friend sent me a link to a funny photo, which came from a facebook page with the title:
“Yes, Officer I did see the Speed Limit sign, I just didn’t see YOU!”
When I saw the title I laughed out loud and then I was stopped in my tracks.
I realised that this was how I had lived my life, thinking I was getting away with it.
What do I mean when I say this?
For me, it means that I know I am doing something that is not right, but I somehow think I have a right to do it, and that it will not have the same consequences for me that it has for other people.
The arrogance of this is stupendous.
How do I do it?
When I was younger, I used to drink like a fish, smoke like a chimney and root like a rabbit. I did not get away with it, any of it. As a consequence, I was forced to make major changes to the way I lived, in order to keep on living. I made these changes at the age of 28, long before I moved to the Byron Shire and met Serge Benhayon. Even though I cleaned up my act, I was still not self-loving in the way I lived. There was still a hardness there, especially on myself, and a drive, that came from never feeling enough, just as I was.
Now, my life is much more loving and seen from the outside, probably pure and boring, but I still do stuff.
I speed. I would like to say I used to speed, but I still do it. I love to drive a little fast, to push the boundaries a little. I drive fast in a measured way, carefully calibrated – 10-15 km over the speed limit, so that if I get caught, the consequences will not be dire. Occasionally I get a little reckless and go faster, but never more that 30 km over the speed limit – I will not risk losing my licence. I used to pride myself on being able to sense when there were police around and on knowing when to slow down, so that I got away with it.
I eat. I know there are foods I can no longer eat, foods that do not support my body and my way of being, but I still eat them. I still like the taste of them and even the thought of being able to eat them sometimes. I don’t stop eating something when it causes tiredness, bloating, dullness. I keep “enjoying” it until I feel exhaustion, get stomach cramps and diarrhoea, or my heart starts to race; until I can no longer get away with it.
I push myself to the limit. I know when I am tired and when my body needs to rest, but I push it beyond that. I do not rest when I am tired, but when I am exhausted. I do not stop and be still until I have to. I do not say no until I reach breaking point. And until now, I thought I was getting away with it.
I was diagnosed with lymphoma last year. It is a relatively benign, chronic cancer, but it was a shock nonetheless. I found a lump in my left leg. I had it removed (the lump, not the leg!), other tests were clear and I did not have to have any further treatment. So I thought I had gotten away with it.
A few weeks ago I felt a funny feeling in the same area. My doctor could not find anything, but I had a scan anyway and there is more disease there, and a biopsy has shown the same cancer. I have just had a bone marrow biopsy to see if it has spread throughout my body. This test is not something I would wish on anyone.
So really, did I get away with anything?
Is it possible that the way I have lived has led to this?
Is it possible that the way I have walked through life, denying the knowing of my body, refusing to listen when it spoke to me, and waiting until it was screaming before I changed my way of life, has something to do with where I am now?
It is not about blaming myself, finding fault, beating myself up.
It is about being as honest as I can with myself from now on.
It is about being willing to stop, be still and listen to my body, and to live from and with the knowing that lies within me, the wisdom of my inner-heart.
It is about understanding that we never get away with it, that everything we think, say and do carries an energetic imprint, that is either loving and heals us, or is not loving and harms us. And we live with every one of those imprints, every day.
So why not live in a way that is loving? I, for one, am ready to give it a go.
I am forever inspired by the life and work of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.
Medicine and Serge Benhayon 
I can’t tell you the amount of times I haven’t held myself preciously and allowed a pattern of behaviour that I sensed or knew was not supportive, but I let it go on and on… and when I decided to stop it (because I had to) I was in a momentum of it, it had been so repetitive and ingrained it seemed to have a life of its own like a wind up toy and run itself, i.e., it was much harder to correct because I’d left it so long, and then there was the effects on my body, and all the work to walk back through all those imprints and change it back to love. Wisdom tells me to start with love and hold it preciously and don’t step out of it.
Melinda I can so relate to what you are sharing that when we decide to stop a negative pattern there is still the momentum of what it is we are saying no too. For example I can feel the hardness across my shoulders where I have held myself in protection and there is a lot of pain that is coming from them which I feel is all the protection I have been releasing from the muscles. I remember going to have a back massage at a beauty parlour as I had been given a back massage as a gift and the lady who gave me the massage said all my connective tissue in my shoulders had crystallised and they were breaking this down for me. When we hold onto life it does have an effect on our bodies which can lead to more serious issues. I agree with you that when we reconnect back to love to deeply appreciate what we have reconnected with and not to step away from it again.
Anne what you say here is what most people I have come across feel. That we live encased in a hardness that we know is there, we call it our protection against other people and the world, then there is the most damaging aspect of all this feeling that we are never enough and because of this we look outside of ourselves and look to someone that we think has something we don’t but we should have and so we try to be like them and in doing so can completely lose ourselves. This produces a huge gap within us which can never be filled because no matter how hard we try to emulate someone, the sadness of not being ourselves will be nagging away in the back ground, so we end up being very dissatisfied with ourselves and life in general.
We can say, ‘we get away with it’, but the reality is, we never do. As the body signals, we ignore whatever it is expressing. And then one day, as in your case, a lump develops or something else comes through, an accident or an incident.
I whole heartedly agree with the statement, ‘we never get away with it’. At the end of the day if only more people took heed of this statement, would the world be in a different place? I feel it would.
I love your honesty here and the truth in we do not actually ‘get away’ with anything as everything is energy. This we cannot escape no matter how much we try as it is the law of the Universe.
There are many moments in my life when I have carried out what I knew was a sabotaging behaviour and yet I remained very capable, productive, articulate, caring and able to support myself and others. I imagined this was ‘getting away with it’. Yet once I was invited to consider if I was able to be this amazing with such sabotage, imagine the level of love, support and wisdom that could flow through me if I allowed myself to be all that I can be without the sabotage. Wow – it was a great humbling stop moment – imagine how we could all so easily be living a far more glorious expression.
Thanks Golnaz, as you are aware it’s not just the illusion of how much we can get away with and still produce, it’s the loss of the fullness we are capable of by being reckless – and that’s a big loss for the all.
We can’t really complain when we get illness and disease when we use the body in a way that is reckless. I for one have pushed and used my body in a way that has been less than loving. I take my hat off to those who have a deeply loving relationship with their bodies and show others that it is possible to tame the arrogance of the spirit.
Thank you Anne, this is a blog that I sometimes have come to my awareness, perhaps at times when I need to be reminded that everything counts. I appreciated your words about it not being about beating ourselves up, just the honesty that then allows us to choose differently, to make more loving choices for ourselves. This really touched me as well “It is about understanding that we never get away with it, that everything we think, say and do carries an energetic imprint, that is either loving and heals us, or is not loving and harms us. And we live with every one of those imprints, every day.” We may think we get away with things because the outcomes that we can see, such as physical symptoms, can take longer to manifest. Understanding that everything is a helpful or harmful imprint really is a level of very beautiful support and self care.
I appreciate very much this sharing because it feels very true, we still push beyond the boundaries and rhythms of our body. Love the way you wrote about this Anne because it’s very inviting to look at these moments in which we arrogantly know what we are doing and we still choose to override our inner-senses. After reading your words I feel inspired to deepen in the level of care I want for myself and others. It’s not about perfection, but awareness and responsibility.
Inma, it was great to read your comment, and I liked what you shared, there is no perfection. There certainly is more to deepen, in how we live and how we are with ourselves, it is forever unfolding.
“Is it possible that the way I have lived has led to this?” We know the answer to this is Yes but still so often push the boundaries to see if we can ‘get away with it’ for a bit longer. We all know that if we drive our vehicle recklessly it will break down or crash sooner or later but we pin our hopes on the later.
I agree – the arrogance of thinking we can get away with it is stupendous. And the truth is we can’t. We can try pushing to the extreme and fight and all that as we have done, but it is about time we realised everything we do will catch up with us eventually.
I have worked as a volunteer at a local hospital and it is very obvious to me that we do not get away with anything. When we are young we feel the world is our oyster and we can do anything and get away with it. What I see is the elderly and the poor state of health they are in and many conversations I have had with them where they have expressed how they wish they had lived life differently. That all the drive to be successful, the best mum etc., has ended in tears as they realise too late the damage they have done to their bodies and their mind.
We can think we are getting away with it – but just because we cannot see internal damage does not mean it’s not there. We can look totally ok when we smoke, yet our lungs are being permanently blackened and damaged – it makes you wonder what do we truly get away with? And is it not worth taking much more care in life of every little detail – including the parts of us that we cannot actually see?
Great point Meg and Isn’t this a reflection of our attachment to all things external at the expense of the internal. We give more attention to what we see than what we feel, but also when we drive ourselves hard we stop feeling: the body may speak to us but we can’t hear it or we ignore its alarm signals even at full volume.
That is true, anyone who smokes knows that they are damaging themselves, so the question is – what is it in us that allows us to damage ourselves to that degree?
There is so much learning in life. More commitment can lead to more purpose, more purpose deepens the awareness to re-connect with the body deeper, or not. Nothing is hidden and every choice leads to the next. Realizing this deeper, that our choices are not always supportive and we think we can get away with it, but we don’t, leads to the learning of not beating ourselves up but understanding why we do it. That ultimately we are understanding a part of ourselves that everyone has and is reckless and irresponsible, which is responsible for all calamities in the world.
It’s understanding why we do what we do, that is the key to freeing ourselves from the patterns and momentums we get caught up in. I now have a deeper understanding, that we do not think, we are bombarded by thoughts that come from a consciousness that we have all bought into and constantly supply at the same time. We are controlled and manipulated until such time that we can master ourselves and realign back to our Soul.
We’re often sly and very measured in how we are, pushing it, just a little bit out there, because well, we can get away with it, or so we think – you can tell I know what is spoken of in this blog! I have my own variations on what getting away with it is, and the truth is I don’t … I’m getting increasingly honest about what works and what doesn’t work, and I can feel further refinement is now required to allow even more honesty about what supports or not.
Why is it that we keep pushing and doing things with our bodies that have us believe that we will get away with it, but in actual fact, we never get away with it, as it’s all registered in the body.
Then we get upset when it breaks – or we get sick. Yet we totally drove it to that point and then expect it to keep going when it can no longer continue in the same manner.
There have been times when I have consciously thought that I was getting away with something, but in truth we really don’t get away with anything, and the worst thing is when we realise that we are not living in a responsible or loving way, it is not only ourselves that we affect.
The body is super clear eventually that it actually copped all the things we thought we got away with. It’s incredible how it copes with all our bad and wayward choices, but eventually it has to stop and fix itself and give us the opportunity to change those wayward choices for good.
Great to read this again, thank you Anne, it’s true that if we can not feel much in the short term consequences we may think we are getting away with it, even though we absolutely know it’s not serving us and especially not in the long term. A call for greater honesty and self love, thank you.
I can see how my spirit thrives on doing all the same things that Anne has mentioned (all the while thinking it is getting away with it) because it looks at the human body as a throw-away item due to the fact that it can simply reincarnate into another body when this one gets ruined by all its wayward choices that are not in line with the love that we are from. There are times when I am considering making one of those sneaky choices and ‘getting away with it’ and there is almost like a battle going on between my spirit and soul, with my spirit winning out in the end as if it was a foregone conclusion. But what I have found is that it was all my movements and way I have taken care of myself leading up to this that lead to the energy (prana) running its course and causing the eventual disharmony in my body.
Michaelgoodhart36 this is such a great contribution to this conversation because you are bringing to the fore the fact that there is a spirit and a Soul and that it is the spirit that is wayward because it knows it can reincarnate into another body if it trashes the body it is in. It is so reckless and doesn’t care one jot about the body it had incarnated into. How many of us know this science and how many of us stop to take into consideration it is how we move that determines whether we are moving with the spirit or our Soul?
That feeling of “getting away with” is just an illusion that makes us think that we can be in the control of our life, having wayward, irresponsible and unloving choices. Uncomfortably but fortunately, our body will show us at some point (sooner or later) the clear effect of those choices in our life.
What you are sharing Amparo is that there are consequences to our choices that catch up with us, we do not in fact get away with anything we are just storing the harmful energies in our bodies that then are released in the way of illness and disease to clear the impositions we have placed on our body via the reckless choices made.
Thank you for exposing the arrogance behind feeling that you have got away with anything. Whilst I am living a much cleaner life than previously there are still pockets where I still revel in feeling I have got away with something despite ample evidence from my body that this is not the case. A powerful reminder today that every choice has a consequence.
My body has let me know how I have lived in disregard for years and years thinking I got away with it but ending in severe osteoporosis. Quite a shock or better to say a stop moment to really get my act together and to listen to my body like you say Anne ‘It is about being willing to stop, be still and listen to my body, and to live from and with the knowing that lies within me, the wisdom of my inner-heart.’ I cannot say I have mastered it yet but I know I cannot get away with anything.
I reckon that this is one of the pure gold statements in life: that you are wiling to give it a go. Whatever it is, to just be willing to get up and have a go is huge in its importance in relation for how life is today, with complacency at perhaps its most all time high.
We do have this obsession with speed as if going faster would make it harder, if not impossible, to be caught up with the consequences. The fact that everything has consequences is a law and our reaction only confirms our inclination towards recklessness. We’ve resisted and fought it and we are still not getting away with anything. We seem to forget that the same law still applies when what we choose is healing and love.
I love the ‘matter-of-factness’ of this statement – ‘we live with every one of those imprints, every day.’ – as it is directly asking us if we willing to be honest about what we are choosing, why and are we willing to feel how our choices, behaviours and quality of our movements are affecting us and the all the relationships we share, as such what we are contributing to the world. As you have shared so wisely, we never get away with anything, and there is a saying that says, ‘life always catches up with you’, highlighting the truth, as our body will always show us, that the quality of life we choose to live is always with us, all of us. And that is the quality of love or all that is not of love.
I find there is a big difference in driving at the exact limit where you won’t get a speeding fine or below that. Driving at the limit, even with cruise control, is quite stressful while the other allows a lot more repose to the fore.
I can recognise two on your list: I eat and I stay up later than my body wants to. I put things off till the last minute and then at 9 o’clock when I want to go to bed, I have to spend at least half an hour doing a daily task that could have been done much earlier. As for eating – it is a compulsion – I eat a meal then want to eat something else, as if the meal wasn’t satisfying enough, and then i keep on grazing through till the next meal, so my stomach is dealing with a constant assault of food, never being allowed to rest until I go to sleep. I know it’s not good, but I haven’t yet found the key to stop. Self love is the key and movements I know are what I can work on.
The things I thought I have got away with..a total lie to myself, as my body always tells me, eventually – although more and more immediately. The more I build a connection to my body, the less dishonest I can be: it feels like everything is felt and known much faster, but actually, in truth, I feel just more aware of the impact of my choices: my body has always been aware, but it’s me that’s chosen not to listen to this awareness.
Yes, and the increased stress levels are a good example of not getting away with it. Getting a kick out of doing something is still a stress response.
I love your honesty Anne, we so often push the boundaries and arrogantly we are to think that we will get away with it, it is not until we are brought to a stop in some way that we reflect back and realise that we cannot carry on like this.
“It is about understanding that we never get away with it, that everything we think, say and do carries an energetic imprint, that is either loving and heals us, or is not loving and harms us. And we live with every one of those imprints, every day.” So true yet even knowing this I still try to ‘get away with it’. Time for a big stop and a re-imprinting, without being hard on myself.
How often do we think we have got away with it and think we are being clever when in fact we are being super arrogant and reckless. I know when I have tried to get away with it and been pulled up in the past, I wanted to blame everyone and everything other than myself because I was not willing to take responsibility for my own actions.
Thank you Anne, a great moment to stop and remember that all of our choices we carry with us, and show up in some form or other in the body – and a good thing that they do, or else we would probably carry on making the same erroneous choices that we know don’t work for us. We take good health for granted when we’re in it, but we don’t need to wait for illness and disease to start listening to our bodies and taking their fragility and sensitivity seriously – the time to listen is now.
It’s like we navigate life trying to get away with as much as possible, we cut corners and we don’t account for how truly precious life is – until our body shows us in no uncertain terms that we actually did not get away with anything, and every single choice, movement and action we’ve done has had a physical impact – thank goodness for the honesty of our bodies.
I know I can fall into this trap as well Anne, feeling as if I am getting way with something when in truth my body has felt the impact of my choices even if I am too numb to notice. When we begin to move in a way that is more supportive and loving for the body we will no longer have any space for any harming or abusive behaviours.
And the truth is, humanity pretty much lives in this way, and until the cycle of life both in death is understood, and recognised for the inherent truth that it is, the arrogance will continue.
What are we getting away from and with what? Could it be we are getting away from the truth of who we are and we are, in that moment, with our spirit that thinks it can do what it likes ignoring the laws of karma and akasha, that is, what goes round comes round and even our thoughts are accountable?
I feel it’s a pervasive idea across society that we get away with things, possibly also because we are disconnected from our bodies so we don’t feel it’s immediate communication about our choices. It’s a really good sharing Anne as the absoluteness of what’s true for us and for our health and wellbeing doesn’t go away, so we are fooling ourselves if we think we are getting away with it.
What I love about the body is that it is a marker of truth for us. No matter how abusive we are to it and stubborn in our ways, it is forever pulling us back to who we truly are.
I today felt a level of this thinking I am getting away with it in my study so how funny reading this today. It is true even though we might get away with the thing at the moment, like I might just pass my study because I did enough, but I won’t have dealt with why I am not giving it my all and wanting to get away with that. So this will come back at some other area in my life as it can’t be ever just in my study, it is affecting the all.
I can so relate to this ‘getting away with it’ thing. I do know what would support and nurture me, but there are times when I allow myself to be pulled towards being ‘naughty’ and do the opposite. And this makes me wonder why I would hold back on love unless things get diabolically messy. Like, what am I waiting for?