Getting Away with It…

by Anne Malatt, Australia.

A dear friend sent me a link to a funny photo, which came from a facebook page with the title:

“Yes, Officer I did see the Speed Limit sign, I just didn’t see YOU!”

When I saw the title I laughed out loud and then I was stopped in my tracks.

I realised that this was how I had lived my life, thinking I was getting away with it.

What do I mean when I say this?

For me, it means that I know I am doing something that is not right, but I somehow think I have a right to do it, and that it will not have the same consequences for me that it has for other people.

The arrogance of this is stupendous.

How do I do it?

When I was younger, I used to drink like a fish, smoke like a chimney and root like a rabbit. I did not get away with it, any of it. As a consequence, I was forced to make major changes to the way I lived, in order to keep on living. I made these changes at the age of 28, long before I moved to the Byron Shire and met Serge Benhayon. Even though I cleaned up my act, I was still not self-loving in the way I lived. There was still a hardness there, especially on myself, and a drive, that came from never feeling enough, just as I was.

Now, my life is much more loving and seen from the outside, probably pure and boring, but I still do stuff.

I speed. I would like to say I used to speed, but I still do it. I love to drive a little fast, to push the boundaries a little. I drive fast in a measured way, carefully calibrated – 10-15 km over the speed limit, so that if I get caught, the consequences will not be dire. Occasionally I get a little reckless and go faster, but never more that 30 km over the speed limit – I will not risk losing my licence. I used to pride myself on being able to sense when there were police around and on knowing when to slow down, so that I got away with it.

I eat. I know there are foods I can no longer eat, foods that do not support my body and my way of being, but I still eat them. I still like the taste of them and even the thought of being able to eat them sometimes. I don’t stop eating something when it causes tiredness, bloating, dullness. I keep “enjoying” it until I feel exhaustion, get stomach cramps and diarrhoea, or my heart starts to race; until I can no longer get away with it. 

I push myself to the limit. I know when I am tired and when my body needs to rest, but I push it beyond that. I do not rest when I am tired, but when I am exhausted. I do not stop and be still until I have to.  I do not say no until I reach breaking point. And until now, I thought I was getting away with it.

I was diagnosed with lymphoma last year. It is a relatively benign, chronic cancer, but it was a shock nonetheless. I found a lump in my left leg. I had it removed (the lump, not the leg!), other tests were clear and I did not have to have any further treatment. So I thought I had gotten away with it.

A few weeks ago I felt a funny feeling in the same area. My doctor could not find anything, but I had a scan anyway and there is more disease there, and a biopsy has shown the same cancer. I have just had a bone marrow biopsy to see if it has spread throughout my body. This test is not something I would wish on anyone.

So really, did I get away with anything?

Is it possible that the way I have lived has led to this?

Is it possible that the way I have walked through life, denying the knowing of my body, refusing to listen when it spoke to me, and waiting until it was screaming before I changed my way of life, has something to do with where I am now?

It is not about blaming myself, finding fault, beating myself up.

It is about being as honest as I can with myself from now on.

It is about being willing to stop, be still and listen to my body, and to live from and with the knowing that lies within me, the wisdom of my inner-heart.

It is about understanding that we never get away with it, that everything we think, say and do carries an energetic imprint, that is either loving and heals us, or is not loving and harms us. And we live with every one of those imprints, every day.

So why not live in a way that is loving? I, for one, am ready to give it a go.

I am forever inspired by the life and work of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. 

651 thoughts on “Getting Away with It…

  1. I can’t tell you the amount of times I haven’t held myself preciously and allowed a pattern of behaviour that I sensed or knew was not supportive, but I let it go on and on… and when I decided to stop it (because I had to) I was in a momentum of it, it had been so repetitive and ingrained it seemed to have a life of its own like a wind up toy and run itself, i.e., it was much harder to correct because I’d left it so long, and then there was the effects on my body, and all the work to walk back through all those imprints and change it back to love. Wisdom tells me to start with love and hold it preciously and don’t step out of it.

    1. Melinda I can so relate to what you are sharing that when we decide to stop a negative pattern there is still the momentum of what it is we are saying no too. For example I can feel the hardness across my shoulders where I have held myself in protection and there is a lot of pain that is coming from them which I feel is all the protection I have been releasing from the muscles. I remember going to have a back massage at a beauty parlour as I had been given a back massage as a gift and the lady who gave me the massage said all my connective tissue in my shoulders had crystallised and they were breaking this down for me. When we hold onto life it does have an effect on our bodies which can lead to more serious issues. I agree with you that when we reconnect back to love to deeply appreciate what we have reconnected with and not to step away from it again.

  2. Anne what you say here is what most people I have come across feel. That we live encased in a hardness that we know is there, we call it our protection against other people and the world, then there is the most damaging aspect of all this feeling that we are never enough and because of this we look outside of ourselves and look to someone that we think has something we don’t but we should have and so we try to be like them and in doing so can completely lose ourselves. This produces a huge gap within us which can never be filled because no matter how hard we try to emulate someone, the sadness of not being ourselves will be nagging away in the back ground, so we end up being very dissatisfied with ourselves and life in general.

  3. We can say, ‘we get away with it’, but the reality is, we never do. As the body signals, we ignore whatever it is expressing. And then one day, as in your case, a lump develops or something else comes through, an accident or an incident.

    I whole heartedly agree with the statement, ‘we never get away with it’. At the end of the day if only more people took heed of this statement, would the world be in a different place? I feel it would.

  4. I love your honesty here and the truth in we do not actually ‘get away’ with anything as everything is energy. This we cannot escape no matter how much we try as it is the law of the Universe.

  5. There are many moments in my life when I have carried out what I knew was a sabotaging behaviour and yet I remained very capable, productive, articulate, caring and able to support myself and others. I imagined this was ‘getting away with it’. Yet once I was invited to consider if I was able to be this amazing with such sabotage, imagine the level of love, support and wisdom that could flow through me if I allowed myself to be all that I can be without the sabotage. Wow – it was a great humbling stop moment – imagine how we could all so easily be living a far more glorious expression.

    1. Thanks Golnaz, as you are aware it’s not just the illusion of how much we can get away with and still produce, it’s the loss of the fullness we are capable of by being reckless – and that’s a big loss for the all.

  6. We can’t really complain when we get illness and disease when we use the body in a way that is reckless. I for one have pushed and used my body in a way that has been less than loving. I take my hat off to those who have a deeply loving relationship with their bodies and show others that it is possible to tame the arrogance of the spirit.

  7. Thank you Anne, this is a blog that I sometimes have come to my awareness, perhaps at times when I need to be reminded that everything counts. I appreciated your words about it not being about beating ourselves up, just the honesty that then allows us to choose differently, to make more loving choices for ourselves. This really touched me as well “It is about understanding that we never get away with it, that everything we think, say and do carries an energetic imprint, that is either loving and heals us, or is not loving and harms us. And we live with every one of those imprints, every day.” We may think we get away with things because the outcomes that we can see, such as physical symptoms, can take longer to manifest. Understanding that everything is a helpful or harmful imprint really is a level of very beautiful support and self care.

  8. I appreciate very much this sharing because it feels very true, we still push beyond the boundaries and rhythms of our body. Love the way you wrote about this Anne because it’s very inviting to look at these moments in which we arrogantly know what we are doing and we still choose to override our inner-senses. After reading your words I feel inspired to deepen in the level of care I want for myself and others. It’s not about perfection, but awareness and responsibility.

    1. Inma, it was great to read your comment, and I liked what you shared, there is no perfection. There certainly is more to deepen, in how we live and how we are with ourselves, it is forever unfolding.

  9. “Is it possible that the way I have lived has led to this?” We know the answer to this is Yes but still so often push the boundaries to see if we can ‘get away with it’ for a bit longer. We all know that if we drive our vehicle recklessly it will break down or crash sooner or later but we pin our hopes on the later.

  10. I agree – the arrogance of thinking we can get away with it is stupendous. And the truth is we can’t. We can try pushing to the extreme and fight and all that as we have done, but it is about time we realised everything we do will catch up with us eventually.

    1. I have worked as a volunteer at a local hospital and it is very obvious to me that we do not get away with anything. When we are young we feel the world is our oyster and we can do anything and get away with it. What I see is the elderly and the poor state of health they are in and many conversations I have had with them where they have expressed how they wish they had lived life differently. That all the drive to be successful, the best mum etc., has ended in tears as they realise too late the damage they have done to their bodies and their mind.

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