Seeing my Doctor is now Part of my Self-care

by Jane Keep, UK 

Some years ago, I believed that getting ill was a sign of weakness, and that going to the doctor was not necessary.  I was strongly independent, and pushed hard to keep going, feeling that if I got ill, or used my local health services, that meant I had done something wrong, and that others might judge me.  I also went through a phase where I didn’t want to use any pharmaceutical medicines, as I wanted to avoid putting ‘toxins’ into my body.  There were times when I had an infection or an ache or a pain and I would struggle through, trying to find some natural remedy, which usually didn’t work.  I prided myself when I spoke to colleagues and friends that I rarely saw my doctor and, looking back this was rather odd, as I have worked in the National Health Service (NHS) for 33 years, in many forms of care environments, yet I never actually considered that I myself may need support or care from the NHS or my local doctor (General Practitioner /GP) at any time.

Thirteen years ago, I was very sick, with a number of illnesses – all of which I had consistently ignored until the day when I woke up and I couldn’t get out of bed.  I felt so ill that I realised that I had no option but to seek some form of support.  I didn’t want support from my local health services, and sought the support of a herbalist.  I realised I needed to get time off work as I could hardly sit, yet stand, so working was out of the question.  I went to my local doctor and asked for some sick leave, which she agreed to on the proviso I checked in with her fortnightly. She asked that I had some blood tests, but I refused all her offers except for the certificate to take time off work. Over a number of months of bed rest, and support from a herbalist I did actually improve, though looking back, I got back to a level of function, though I wasn’t really well, and I wasn’t able to get back to physical exercise for 2 years, and had to work part time for a year.  I still didn’t consult my doctor any further than getting a sick note.

A few years later I went to a workshop presented by Serge Benhayon, Universal Medicine, and for the first time in my life, I realised that there was something about the way I was living that was not at all right, but until that moment I hadn’t been willing to look at my own life and daily living choices.  I didn’t smoke, rarely drank alcohol, had never taken drugs, didn’t take pharmaceuticals, ate organic food, and was back to being fully functional. I had prided myself at being stoic, seemingly well, and so why would I need to look at my life, let alone the way I was living?  However, at this workshop, and a number of subsequent workshops presented by Serge Benhayon, I felt as though a mist was lifting and that I was starting to truly feel how un-well I actually was.  I could feel somewhere deep inside me that what Serge Benhayon was presenting, whether it was about considering food choices, or the natural rhythms of our body, (for example, going to bed by 9 pm) made sense. At the same time, I could also feel my own resistance to truly feeling how I was living, and, that the way I was living was running me ragged. Never once did Serge Benhayon tell me or anyone else to follow what he presented, he merely shared his own experiences, and it was always up to me to discern whether what he shared made sense or not.

One day, after having attended a number of workshops, I became aware of how constantly tired, depleted, and exhausted I was, how sad I felt, and, how I did actually have some health problems that I had just taken for granted, as ‘part of being human’, and I hadn’t ever wondered why those health problems consistently blighted my life. I had endometriosis (for 20 years), with excruciatingly painful periods, I had eczema, asthma, food allergies, regular bouts of rhinitis, and constipation to name a few, but I just managed them, struggled through and thought they were just part of ‘the deal’ of daily living.  So, on this particular day I asked myself – what if there was a different way of looking at this? What if there was more that I could do to support myself in my daily life?  That day I decided to have a go at looking at how I was living; after all, it couldn’t make my life any worse, and it may just support me if I took time to look at how I was caring for myself.  And that was a day that began to change my life.

From there on, I started bit by bit to look at how I was living, from my food choices, to whether I was adequately hydrated, to how much rest I allowed, to giving it a go to go to bed earlier, and to taking more care and attention in the way I planned and prepared for my busy working days.  Over a number of years, I started to feel different, and, what I would call ‘well’ for the first time that I could remember. My eczema, asthma, rhinitis dissipated, and I slowly started to feel less depleted. During this time I undertook a PhD study on self care at work (selfcare at work part 1 and part 2 ), as I also realised from observing my work colleagues, that I was not alone, and many others I worked with didn’t seem to pay attention to the way they lived or their daily work choices.  I also realised that some of the things that I changed, such as going to bed by 9 pm ( as I have written about on this blog) felt really natural, and that my body had always wanted me to go to bed at this time. It really was beneficial, and now I absolutely cherish going to bed by 9pm as a deeply self-caring way to live.

Some months ago, I was feeling tired, and for the first time in a long time I was drawn to go along to see my local doctor.  As I arrived at the surgery I could for the first time feel how supportive and self-caring it was to go to my doctor.  I spoke to her about my tiredness, that I was going into menopause, and that something just didn’t feel right in my body.  We agreed that I would have a whole battery of blood tests, and other tests, to get a fuller understanding of what was going on in my body.  The doctor was very supportive, and took time to organise these tests for me.  As I left the surgery I cried, as I realised how many times I had ignored my impulse to go to the doctor for support, and how going to my doctor is actually deeply self-regarding.  A week later my GP phoned me to tell me that there was something in my bloods and suggested a way forward, which again for the first time I agreed to proceed with (as I usually discounted much of what any doctors in the past had said to me). Actually I was relieved to realise that there had been something that needed my deeper attention and that with the help of the GP I was able to take care of it.  Some months later during a presentation at Universal Medicine I then realised that it is actually natural that the physical body does get sick, or does need medical attention, and, I could for myself feel just how normal that was – that at times, just as in my experience with my bloods, my body had got sick, and did need support, not just from me, but from others e.g. my doctor.

Where am I going to with this? I had a deeply ingrained view that medicine was for others, and that being ill was weak.  At the same time I didn’t really take care of myself on a daily basis in a way that supported my body.  Serge Benhayon by his presentations, but more so by the inspiration he offered in the way he lives, and in the way he is when he presents, offered me an opportunity to realise that I too could change the way I was living if I was prepared to take a look at my daily living choices.  In choosing to look at my daily living choices over a few years, I got to understand deeply how many things in life are self loving, and one of these was that it is actually deeply self caring to go to my doctor and get support when I need to, and, that getting sick was my body’s way of alerting me that something about the way I was living was not working.  The combined effects of attending Universal Medicine workshops, and, choosing to take care of myself on a daily basis enabled me to realise the importance of recognising when I was unwell, and also that asking my local GP for support was a very loving choice, and a natural part of taking care of myself.  During these last few months I also now enjoy my regular visits to my local dentist, the dental hygienist, as well as my local optician, and I can honestly say I feel very supported in my life.  Esoteric Medicine has a role to play in our health and wellbeing as does Western Medicine. Together as I am experiencing they are a very powerful combination.

 

354 thoughts on “Seeing my Doctor is now Part of my Self-care

  1. I used to feel proud of the fact i didn’t ‘need; to go to the doctor much – it was like a badge of honour. I now go to see my doctor when I need to and yes, get my blood checked to ensure nothing untoward is going on. How I feel is my greatest guide and listening to my body’s messages – and honouring them – is also a great guide for me too. Combining the two makes a lot of sense.

  2. It’s funny how we pride ourselves on being ‘stoic’ and see asking for help as a weakness. We have the medical profession highly trained who can support us in matters relating to our physical and mental health and we also have complementary medicine organisations such as Universal Medicine that can help us to support ourselves with a healthy lifestyle.Our bodies are strong but they are also fragile and need tender care.

  3. I have a much more healthy relationship with my GP and health services than I once did too. A fundamental aspect of this is in the understanding that it is not a failure to be unwell and that when we work with the ‘communications’ our bodies are giving us, important messages can be found. Our bodies can be a source of great wisdom when we choose to listen and learn from them.

  4. There is some research that suggests that seeing our doctor more regularly rather than waiting for a acute condition to emerge actually reduces the burden on our health care services. This makes sense to me as this falls into self care, prevention and early intervention categories where we can address our life style choices that may be contributing to our ills.

  5. I have found that bringing more awareness to how we’re feeling in any given moment supports us to feel more deeply into whether our choices are really working for us. It can be very subtle, and like you’ve mentioned here Jane, we can be the picture of health on the outside on a superficial level, fully functioning and eating a healthy diet, but if we’re working in a way where we’re constantly pushing ourselves and not listening to what our body really needs, then we run ourselves down and affect our overall health. The body really does know, all of the time, what we need to do to fully support ourselves and live in a way that is sustainable over the long term – the key is listening to its messages and then acting on them.

  6. Seeing a doctor is an important part of taking care of ourselves, it’s almost like a stop moment where we say hold on – something isn’t right and if we make sure it is medically taken care of from there we can assess what may have caused it and what needs to be changed or adjusted moving forward.

  7. Yes it is a powerful combination, over the last 13 years I have had several illnesses and issues with various joints and each time I have had support from my doctor and from Esoteric practitioners and the healing has been thorough. There has been a greater understanding on my part as to why the illness happened in the first place, the lifestyle choices that led up to it, and then, with that understanding I have been careful to live in a way that supports my continuing good health thereafter.

  8. ‘When things go wrong’ is a lot earlier than we think – by the time we’re sitting in the doctors chair the ‘horse has bolted’ as we say. So it’s beautiful Jane to be on the front foot and address our health before we get sick. Then we’ll start to see that true health stems from our moment to moment living not from a yearly appointment.

  9. Clearly an infection is toxic for the body. The question may be how toxic? As toxic as a glass of beer? As toxic as a bottle of wine? As toxic as food poisoning? As toxic as living on a major road for years?

    It might be that having an unnecessary infection can be as bad for the body as getting poisoned by another means – though an infection can also be a clearing for the body, unlike the toxins.

  10. ‘I realised that there was something about the way I was living that was not at all right, but until that moment I hadn’t been willing to look at my own life and daily living choices.’ it is amazing that in these moments that we can say yes to a deeper and true understanding of what is happening – even more amazing that we offered them in every moment of every day when we start to allow our awareness of them.

  11. Being ill is a gift – though it physically sucks. But we’d be surprised how much our attitude to sickness determines the harshness we feel – it’s actually more to do with the quality we choose -it’s this that heals or hurts. Thank you Jane.

  12. wow – this shows the hold ideals and beliefs have on us – that you allowed your body to get to a point where you were in bed for months and you refused to take medication. It exposes how much we can invest in what we think is right – and this comes from our head – whilst our body continues to show us that there is much more to see.

    1. And its not a weakness to need support. One of the things Im learning more and more is the more we get to know our body to the detail and its intricacies, the more on the front foot we are when things happen. Recently I felt I needed some minerals – I was drawn for instance to zinc. I had some tests and yes my body was zinc deficient – when we know our body, and listen to it we also know when something is out of kilter, and can look to support it sooner rather than later.

      1. Yes, that is quite a wonderful experience, knowing what the body needs and taking care of it. It may also be useful to find out how the zinc deficiency developed.

  13. Often we live with health issues which we put down to our age or just life, without getting support. This has happened to me on a couple of occasions and both times I have been wondering why on earth did I not get physio or a doctors support earlier. Why did I just believe that nothing could be done and that I would have to just live with it? Where did these beliefs come from in the first place? It makes no sense that we would sooner live with constant pain or discomfort than look at the options available to us, due to a belief that nothing can be done.

  14. Our daily choices can either exhaust us and feel like a poison in our bodies, or our choices can build a loving foundation that support our bodies, self-care is very simple when we are open to the true medicine it can play in our lives.

  15. It is worth making the time to care for our body on a daily basis as it builds a steadiness and strong foundation that truly supports us and is deeply nurturing the more we take care of the detail.

  16. Your gorgeous blog Jane highlights the abuse we dish out to ourselves when we listen to our heads and hold onto the arrogance that the spirit can go into. Our bodies would never say, no thank-you to support from others.

  17. You beautifully illustrate what Serge Benhayon presents Jane – the more we embrace ourselves, the more others are able to help, and life turns around from a tug of war we are destined to lose, to a celebration and sharing of you. What a transformation.

  18. I used to be like you too Jane thinking that by living super healthy I do not need to go to the doctor and that through my way of living my body could heal naturally. Sure it can heal but was I allowing of the healing and letting go of the aspects of life that it was telling me were not good for it? In my arrogance I was abusing myself and actually potentially making myself sicker by not truly addressing the issue when it first presented itself.

  19. Jane with the way healthcare systems are going its increasingly difficult to see the doctor, but in all cases, we have to choose to take our health into our own hands – not simply waiting until we get sick but loving ourselves and looking after ourselves including seeing and seeking supportive medical help.

  20. I used to feel nauseous a lot of the time. The tiredness and the feeling of wanting very little to eat because of the nausea became so normal that I never questioned it and I carried on living in this way quietly for I felt it wasn’t ‘enough’ to share with my doctor. Recently I have become aware of this nauseous feeling and it made me pause to reflect as I have not experienced it in a long time. My body was showing me that I had been pushing myself, feeling unnaturally tired and this was bringing a sickly feeling in my stomach. I had never really associated how I was living was bringing up the symptoms but now see very clearly that my body was communicating with me all along… it has taken til now for me to understand, read and accept the connection between the two.

    1. I love it when we realise what our body is showing us. It has a brilliant way of communicating if we so choose to listen, and often it is quite simple to make changes in the way we are living, and the symptoms dissipate.

  21. ” that getting sick was my body’s way of alerting me that something about the way I was living was not working. ” This is so important to understand in a simple way our body informs us of how we are putting the body into ” dis-ease ” which then leads to illness if the cause of the dis-ease or disharmony is not rectified.

  22. When we have an ailment there may be a non-physical reason for it and that reason needs to be sorted but we still need to go to the doctor to deal with the physical issue (and of course any mental health issue). Medicine is very good at these things and knows far more than we could know as individuals.

    1. I agree Christoph – medicine is brilliant in many ways – but in isolation we may be supported (which is great) but without the deeper understanding of what is truly going on, which is where Western Medicine and Universal Medicine work well together.

  23. What we tolerate as, ‘being human’ really does stack up. What one day might have been dismissing the need to take a rest as a result of a virus could become a tolerance to constant exhaustion, running on 60/70% steam or always feeling uncomfortable in our own skin (or skeleton – a lot of people don’t speak up about posture discomforts and joint problems!). It’s so important to pay attention to how we feel, and seek support always.

    1. You make an interesting point about tolerating, and living in what seems ‘normal’ – constant tiredness, exhaustion, feeling under the weather – and perhaps using substances such as sugar, coffee, tea etc to keep us going. In the end it is not normal to live this way – it is possible to live without that constant underlying tiredness, exhaustion, anxiety and overwhelm. One of the ways forward in that regard I have found is to have my bloods checked to make sure there is nothing underlying going on, and then look at the way I have been living my life as in why I am feeling so tired.

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