by Fiona McGovern, Isle of Arran, Scotland
I live on the Isle of Arran, a small island off the west coast in Scotland. I am approaching 53 years of age.
In the summer of 2003 I found a lump in the lower part of the right breast. A few months later I had an ultrasound scan and was told it was a non-cancerous fibroadenoma. The specialist would have preferred to carry out a biopsy and lumpectomy as it was an unusual shape. I refused at the time, feeling certain that through diet and life changes I could heal it.
I had once been in hospital when I was 20 for a D&C investigation to find out why my periods had stopped for three years. I found the whole experience traumatic and had vowed never to go to hospital again. I also had developed distrust in doctors and had turned to alternative therapies whenever my body presented a symptom.
So for three years, from 2003 to 2006, I had a go at almost everything – I wrapped myself in frozen sheets, castor oil, I drank my urine and used urine compresses on the lump, I juiced carrots until I turned orange, rebounded on a trampoline, ate all organic etc etc ….you get the picture.
Inside I knew nothing much was changing despite changes to my work. I still pushed myself. I still felt an unrest, a constant feeling of not being good enough, a guilt if I did not try hard at everything.
At the time I ran a very busy massage clinic and taught yoga to over 100 students a week on the island and I also travelled to UK and Europe teaching. I found it almost impossible to say no to clients and as a result worked long hours. My spare time was spent studying more modalities and pushing my body physically hard with cycling, dancing, gardening etc.
I knew as a result of what I had read and studied that I had created the lump and I knew I had big changes to make but the patterns seemed too hard to change.
After three years I was tired. I had worked hard and nothing had changed – in fact my body was giving me further signs of distress. I returned to the doctor who had been concerned initially and who was now worried about me working on it alone for the last three years. I asked for a thermogram to be done privately. However, it was at this time that some family members had moved to Frome and we went to visit them. On the second last day I spotted a small index card on a very busy notice board announcing a talk by Universal Medicine. I said to John, my husband, I am almost sure this is the man that a friend had spoken to me about some months back and had said she felt I would like the guy and what he said. All I knew was that he had a name that I had never heard of before, that he worked with Chris James and spoke of breast lumps. I rang the number and yes, he was the same guy – we giggled.
So there I sat in the front row in November 2006. As soon as Serge came to the front I felt his honesty and integrity. There was no razzmatazz and what he shared made such complete sense. He voiced things I had always felt but had found no support for elsewhere.
At the end I bought a book and took it to him to be signed. We spoke briefly about the lump. In those few moments I felt here was someone who truly met me without imposing on me at all. He asked if it was cancerous. I said at that stage I didn’t think so and I asked what they did at the clinic he ran. He told me how they worked with Western Medicine. How beautiful that was to hear. I felt at last I could find a way to heal that married Western Medicine with how I felt on the inside.
He then said something very simple – ‘you know it’s about nurturing?’ I said, ‘I do’ and he added ‘it’s like brushing your hair gently.’
For me this was really profound. For the first time someone had given me something very practical to do. Also he seemed to know exactly what I was not doing ….. taking time to be with me and adore me. I found looking in a mirror hard and spent as little time as possible on myself.
When we got back home I became unwell. My breathing was laboured and my back ached. I found sleeping difficult. I went back to the doctor and he was anxious that I did not try and go it alone anymore and suggested I go back to the breast clinic. He felt I might have a little fluid on my lungs. However, I had booked a holiday in Mexico and was keen to go and felt the rest would do me good. I was hiding how I really felt from my husband and my GP and even myself, preferring to follow the advice of other alternative practitioners that I was attending before coming to Universal Medicine. I went to Mexico but the flight and altitude was too much for my struggling body and I spent the holiday in a hospital in Guadalahara. I had emergency surgery to fit a chest drain as the pleural cavity had filled with fluid causing the right lung to collapse and the left lung was only able to work on 40% of its capacity as well.
The staff were all so caring in Mexico and it was a very different experience to my previous hospital experience. Unable to speak Spanish I couldn’t even ask what treatment they were giving me let alone refuse it!
It was here in January 2007 that cancer was first mentioned. I was flown back to Scotland into an NHS hospital. I spent three months in various hospitals. A biopsy was taken and the lump was so hard it broke the first needle! It was confirmed it was breast cancer and it was a hormone dependant one with the potential to spread. CT and bone scans showed it had already spread to the lungs, ribs and right hip. I had surgery to re-inflate the right lung. This failed and a huge chest drain was fitted. The surgeon wanted to use cytotoxic drugs to get the lining of the lungs to stick together to prevent further fluid accumulating but I refused. I wanted to get home. Reluctantly he let me go. At the time, it felt like he had given up on me, but then again, I did refuse the treatment.
The oncologist said chemotherapy was out of the question whilst I had a chest drain fitted. She wanted me to have the ovaries ablated, which meant lying still for radiation for 15 minutes. I knew that too was impossible and also felt it wasn’t a route I wanted to take. We agreed I start on hormone treatment beginning with Tamoxifen.
A nurse told me to prepare my will and funeral – that I had two and a half weeks to live. I felt differently. I knew I had huge work to do and knew it wasn’t my time to pass on. I wanted to understand what this was all about.
By this time my friend who first spoke of Serge had returned to the UK and shared with me about the Arcane project on the Universal Medicine website. I began to listen to the downloads from the website and slowly began to clear things from my life which were not truly supportive. I continued with various hormone treatments for the next three years. I was fearful of chemotherapy because of all that I had read about it. My lung did re-inflate and a smaller chest drain was fitted.
The lung specialist whom I felt had given up on me three years previously, on his last examination of me before he retired said, ‘I seriously underestimated you, Fiona …you are the chest drain expert’.
He examined me with a new tenderness and when I asked about the peculiar shape of my sternum revealed through the muscle wastage after the lung collapse, he touched it and said it was a developmental scoliosis – unusual, but it did happen. I felt that the tenderness of his hands said to me…. yes all this has happened to you but you are still beautiful.
I began to have distant esoteric healing with one of the esoteric practitioners in 2008. I was feeling well and booked to go to the Lighthouse in June 2009 and I was to have my first session with Serge and other esoteric practitioners. However, the body said otherwise and I was back in hospital. The tumour had spread to the spine causing spinal cord compression. I was unable to walk. I had radiotherapy and was back at the oncologist’s. Serge and I had our session via the phone and he said to open myself up to what the medics could do for me. I began a drug called Herceptin. I also began distant sessions with esoteric practitioners in esoteric physiotherapy, esoteric healing, esoteric eye work, esoteric dream work, esoteric nutrition and herbalism, gentle exercise and esoteric yoga along with Chris James music to support my expression of myself and most recently esoteric art work.
The chest drain fell out whilst I was in hospital in 2009 and has stayed out since …much to the surprise of the medical staff who commented that I was re-writing medical journals.
I changed doctors around this time and met a GP who was so very gentle and supported me with getting the medicine on the island so I wouldn’t have to travel. At the same time the oncology team changed to a young team of three who I felt I could have fun working with and where there was no judgment of my decisions.
When the time came for chemotherapy I was ready. My body felt stronger, I felt supported both on a physical level with the new doctor and oncology team and on an esoteric level with all the support Universal Medicine offered.
The oncologist nearly fell off her stool when I agreed to the first chemotherapy. She had never met anyone who had so clearly changed attitude regarding chemotherapy. I had 18 weeks of chemotherapy infusions travelling to the mainland for treatment. I called upon Serge to be with me through all of this. I had no side effects other than hair loss. Then I also had six radiotherapy treatments to the breast. When I turned up for treatment the radiologist asked if the photo in the file was really me. She said ‘it does you no favours’. It was taken when I had the spinal collapse. She said, ‘here you are, bright and cheerful walking in…the medicine can work’. Another radiologist made a special trip to see me to say how I made her day, I looked so well after so much treatment and always smiled.
I had months with no treatment until signs were it was active again. I needed to take the nurturing deeper. I also began oral chemotherapy.
In May of this year I felt strong enough to make the journey south to join the Universal Medicine retreat at Frome. This was my first trip off the island for five years other than to hospital. So I got to meet Serge again almost six years on from our first meeting and I met many of the practitioners I had worked with distantly. I felt amazing and was amazed to be there.
The group work helped me restore my confidence amongst people and to open up more to people.
I came home and began to feel the back aching and I knew there was more to learn. The oral tablets were no longer effective, so six weeks ago I began a course of infusions of a different chemotherapy drug. Again I called on Serge to be with me. I have no side effects other than hair loss. I have not required any anti-sickness or anti-diarrhoea medication.
Recently the oncologist remarked, ‘this is amazing Fiona, you can tell the story, you are the living proof’. He was amazed that I was still here, given all the difficulties I had had with my health and the cancer.
I feel I am here and able to share my story today because I married Western medicine with the Esoteric. It was the only way that made sense to me, and having the support of Universal Medicine has been key. Knowing what I know now I would definitely do things differently. If I could redo it, I would be open to Western Medicine and not fearful of the diagnostic procedures or side effects. I would not read all the books out there suggesting cancer is easy to heal yourself – it isn’t and in trying to do it the natural way I pushed it further into the body, making it extremely painful for me and complicated for the medics and a huge trauma for my family.
However, I have only been met with respect by the medics and nurses and there has been no judgment of my choices.
Having previously had distrust of medics, I now admire their work and dedication.
The side effects of my treatment have been minimal because I have combined the two approaches, taking deep care of myself with food and sleep and the choices I now make. Also through the esoteric healings I have been able to feel the illusion of my previously held ideals and beliefs about health and healing and how they actually worked against me.
From where I am now it is very clear to me that it is best to do both Western Medicine and true Esoteric Healing. For me, Western Medicine has worked on the physical symptoms, the tumour and the secondaries, and also helped with pain relief when it has been needed and wound cleaning. I have also found it a support to have a team I have got to know and can be myself with. I have learnt how vital the communication between patient and physician is and how, when it is non-imposing and truly connecting with the patient, it aids the healing enormously. Of course it is a 2-way process, as doctors also require us to be open and honest in communication in order to make a diagnosis.
Esoteric healing has worked on the emotional issues that were the root cause of the cancer and which lead me to not value nor nurture myself. With esoteric nutrition I have discovered how to truly nurture myself with food, baths and teas; not in order to fix anything but in deep honour of myself as a precious woman. I have found how I carried the pain of having separated from my true self in my body and through gentle and tender touch and words I am re-imprinting that with love.
The esoteric physiotherapy and the gentle exercise have helped me stop the old pattern in my body of ‘trying’ and of wanting to fix the body and to begin to really feel my body, be more honest about where it is and how it feels and to enjoy moving it in fun ways.
Working with Chris James began freeing up my expression through singing and I have found that the esoteric artwork has expanded on that. These two have allowed me to bring into my daily rituals the practices of singing, drawing and writing – things I always loved but had made no time for. And as a consequence, what beauty has resulted in my daily journal pages to further inspire me. In all the esoteric healings, the practitioners have supported me to be playful and to enjoy the process of healing, to see it as an unfolding, to be patient, to restore confidence and not to worry …and to keep it simple.
Through the distant healings I have experienced how we are all connected and how there is support for us all to be ourselves. I could feel that support from across the world without having physically seen or spoken to the practitioner. When I have received healing I have felt a deep stillness and often a heat, which my husband has felt too even though we have not always known the exact time healings were taking place. The healings have supported me to get back in touch with the true me, the playful and beautiful woman. This has all helped me through the rigours of chemotherapy and the pain of cancer in the body. Having worked distantly has supported me to understand more of how energy works and the simplicity of it all. We just need to reconnect to our stillness. There are no boundaries. I have not attended any workshops or courses other than the retreat this year.
I have seen each trip for chemotherapy treatment as a date ….with me. I have fun choosing what to wear, waking early to get prepared, making a yummy lunch to take with me. I then see it as a date with each person involved … the oncologist, the driver, the other patients, the passengers on the boat, the nurses … and with Serge.
I see how being playful provides others with a clear reflection that it can be different – you can still sparkle and giggle.
Through my dreams I have received clear guidance of how to be with the treatment, eg not worrying about side effects, having fun with the wig etc.
For me, I see the cancer as a stepping stone to love, it constantly shows me there is more to learn, to release, to be. I have seen each session as a healing.
Through it I have opened up to Western Medicine, discovering the amazingness of the medics, their dedication and also the medicine.
I have learnt to say ‘No’ to others which was a miracle in itself, having been someone who literally bent over backwards to help anyone and could not say no. I have found that it is saying a big ‘Yes’ to me and is so self-honouring. I have felt the damage caused by taking on others’ emotions, of trying hard, of pushing my body.
I can now look in the mirror and truly feel the beautiful woman I am.
I have learnt that even in the greatest pain, there is light if we choose to connect to it.
I have seen how staying with my light and having fun has had an effect on those around me, my family and friends. There is a greater level of communication and true support and laughter.
I have learnt I am much more than all the certificates I once had, all the knowledge I had of the body, all the doing. That being me is definitely ok and that being different is also very much ok.
At times I have struggled with how my body has changed, weight loss, height loss, a fungating tumour and loss of hair.
I have learnt at these times to truly be with my body in tenderness, touching and holding it tenderly, honouring its preciousness instead of recoiling from it. I have begun to adore it with self-massage, lovely oils and creams, long warm baths, warm clothes, nurturing foods, talking tenderly to myself.
It always surprises me how much deeper I can take the gentleness and the self-nurturing.
I have felt how in my life before cancer I escaped with yoga and in work. Now I am able to be in the world, feel all the pain around me but choose to be love within it. Visiting hospital weekly has put me in touch with people I would never have met and has exposed me to the pain people carry with them. I now practise esoteric yoga, just being me and doing gentle exercise in which I can be with my body in a very loving way without the trying or pushing or the escaping from life.
I walk every day and enjoy that rhythm and being with nature. I feel how far my body wants to walk and where it wants to be, eg by the sea, amongst trees or around the garden and what it wants to wear.
Cancer has given me time to feel what is of value in life, the relationships I build, my home, the food I eat, the music I listen and sing to, the books I read. I have learnt that life is medicine and that I have a choice to choose loving medicine every step of the way and that it is all there for me. I don’t need to travel or to live in a certain place, to do a course or gain a certificate.
I just need to be me, the full true me.
With deep love and thanks to all at Universal Medicine for the constant support and love for me.
Medicine and Serge Benhayon 
“Yes all this has happened to you but you are still beautiful” – how amazing to know this while going through a healing process, and yes, we will get given a chance to do it differently, thanks to reincarnation, the grace of God.
The healing power of truly meeting someone is personified in how Serge Benhayon is with everyone he meets. It is so lovely to read Fiona’s story and the joy with which she embraced life throughout her cancer treatments and the healing and inspiration that she offered to everyone she met.
Thank you so much for sharing your whole story in depth Fiona, it’s incredibly inspiring to read about your transformation and how you approached and embraced life throughout your cancer treatment.
This traumatic experience that you had in your twenties, causing you to turn away from conventional medical practises is, unfortunately, not un-common. And it highlights to me the important role that the medical system plays in solidifying community trust, as the medical system is the one place that we all go to – regardless of race, nationality or culture, skin colour, religious or spiritual belief. We all enter the doors of the hospital at one point or another, and so this is a place where the great tides of humanity meets, and therefore could be a place of equal ground.
Just very simply, I love that you were able to let go of your previous reticence with Western Medicine and actually change… to open up to it because you have healed something inside you that is getting in the way. We could all do with a little of that kind of medicine.
“Knowing what I know now, I would definitely do things differently.” – in hindsight we often can clearly see the path of our choices and behaviours and it is a pity that we sometimes only learn our lessons when we are challenged in our familiar ways or even stopped in our tracks like through illness and disease, but it is the willingness to learn and grow that counts, never is it too late and we can always begin right now.
Often we are doing the ground work in the background, but just holding onto a particular pattern that is holding us back… and then when we open up to the shift needed we can change and accelerate our growth as a result.
Healing: getting real, living real, being real – embracing all aspects of life from the physical to the energetic.
This is such a beautiful testimonial to true healing, to the fact that each of us is supported no matter where we are and to a deep willingness to see each ‘challenge’ as an invitation to go deeper and to embrace the preciousness of being the woman you are. It deeply touches me each time I read it and reminds me of how much love and support is there for us when we’re willing to embrace it and that for each of us that journey is different but the end result is living the love we are.
So many people fight cancer, the big bad C, and this is exhausting. Learning to love and appreciate who we are, with or without cancer, is a much more gentle path to healing. And healing doesn’t necessarily mean cure…..
What a beautiful example of true commitment to oneself and life by deepening a self nurturing relationship with yourself. We can so easily get caught up in the distraction of being busy in life or supporting others and yet the quality that we do it in is not self caring or cherishing.
‘found a way to heal that married western medicine with the way I felt inside’ how beautiful is this Fiona as it show how our bodies know true healing and that this is not limited to only physical and functional but includes the energetic body just as much.
Yes and how distance is not a barrier so that despite living far away from so many practitioners she was still able to receive much healing.
absolutely, and so it is available to all.
Fiona thank you for sharing your story, as it shows the deep healing that is on offer when we get sick and the support that is there for us if we open up to it.
I am pretty sure many of us have said “Knowing what I know now, I would definitely do things differently.” And reading an intimate account of personal journey like this is most certainly one of the ways for us to get to know what we didn’t know. Thank you, Fiona.
To emerge from the darkest of tunnels with such wisdom, love and grace, a true miracle.
We often imagine medical intervention as something invasive, and yet it can be a few simple words offered in a tender yet practical way: ‘you know it’s about nurturing?’ I said, ‘I do’ and he added ‘it’s like brushing your hair gently.’
Remarkable journey of self love, learning and healing and so supportive to anyone going through anything: that no matter what happens, there is a way to be light with it and bring even more love and tenderness to ourselves, which then ripples out to those around us.
” I knew I had huge work to do and knew it wasn’t my time to pass on. I wanted to understand what this was all about.” The clarity Fiona had at this point is humbling. Many would have been fazed by such a diagnosis. A beautiful sharing of wisdom for us all to learn from.
This clarity is what allows us to feel our true potential to offer the world what our expression is that leads us towards bringing more self-care and understanding to one another.
The greatest cancerous growth that we have is seeing our life as function and forgetting our multi-dimensionality. It’s not a cool thing to dwell on when we are down but the truth of who we are, that’s here to be lived everyday. With many thanks to what Fiona shared here.
Yes, the teaching even applies to those who don’t have cancer.
Here is a case where not using medicine gave the cancer time to spread. It might have happened anyway but treated cancers have a better prognosis than untreated cancers. How responsible are those who promulgate alternative therapies as replacements for medical treatments?
I can relate to what you share Christoph. For me, my own beliefs got in the way of true healing, when I religiously pursued different alternative therapies and rejecting what conventional medicine had to offer. I now know differently and draw from the wisdom of both conventional and complementary medicine.
I too pursued alternatives for six months but decided on surgery for a small lump, which was found to be cancerous on investigation after my operation, many years ago now. At the same time I had a friend who never opted for conventional medical treatment for her cancer. Sadly she died despite her best intentions to cure herself with purely alternative treatments.
To rigidly pursue certain ideals and beliefs when it comes to health can be dangerous as evidenced by your friend’s experience. We are blessed to have access to both conventional a complementary medicine and wise to stay open and consult practitioners in both fields as they often work well together to support us in our healing.
This article is beautiful in so many ways. One that stands out for me is how honest you have been about your condition, with the details of it laid out for all to see. This takes great humbleness, and gives to us a wonderful and insight-full read.
Encompassing all that is medicine in life incorporates the quality of our self care and self nurturing that we bring to life.
When I make every relationship I encounter a date because of the love I have for myself and another, the knock on effect is that there is so much joy that enters my life… I make every relationship as of equal importance to the next.
Learning to say ‘No’ to others and what they present is an ongoing learning for me. What is practical and obvious is becoming easier to say ‘No’ to; it is the willingness to love myself more deeply, learning in situations to speak up with the utmost of love and to see everything that is in front of me a reflection where I am simply to hold the love that I am.
What an amazing blog and a true inspiration for anyone to read whether you are diagnosed with a life threatening illness or not. I love the part that says seeing every appointment or meeting as a date with another human being…that is very beautiful and I will take that into my life as a way to approach all my relationships.
Life is here for us to be light, playful and feel free – but it requires us to take it seriously. Not to make it a chore or an onerous task – but to know everything we do needs to come from our heart – otherwise we damage and misalign our bodies in a super serious way.
This is another confirmation and testament as to how when you bring Western Medicine and the Universal Medicine modalities together much healing is able to take place and a healing the deals with the root issue.
“Knowing what I know now, I would definitely do things differently.” as someone who now know far more about myself and my health than ever before I am stuck with the question of what would I do differently if I found out i had cancer, and what today should I, therefore, be doing instead of waiting. It’s fascinating how we can still push on when we know better.
This is a fascinating question and a very sobering one and one I am going to ponder as well. Would I choose to live any differently if I knew I might only have a limited time to live? If yes then why don’t I live like that now?
” of course it is a 2-way process, as doctors also require us to be open and honest in communication in order to make a diagnosis.”
Truth is the start of all healing .
And gives everyone a chance to work at their best.
You are a living miracle Fiona, what an inspirational story for anyone dealing with a cancer diagnosis such as yours. The marriage of western medicine and the esoteric modalities is a powerful combination in the true healing of the body, thank you for sharing so honestly it was deeply touching to read.
This moves me each time I read it, to feel the surrender here and the willingness to keep going deeper no matter what is hugely inspiring and deeply humbling. This shows all of us that no matter what the support is there to be all the love we are.
This is a very touching testimonial for me. I have a very dear friend who is experiencing a very similar situation and I know your experience, Fiona, will be a great support for him to go deeper in the understanding and treatment of his illness. Thank you hugely for sharing your healing journey so clear and geneously.
All the achievements, the knowledge that we gain, and the things that we do don’t make up who we are, in truth we are the love that we hold within, and if we can reflect that love to the world, society gets to realise that it’s not about anything material it is about our connection to who we truly are.
‘I feel I am here and able to share my story today because I married Western medicine with the Esoteric.’ This is such a powerful testimony to healing and the support that is offered by both modalities. Fiona, you are a true inspiration in every sense of the word. You pave the way forward that we can all be with such traumatic disease as cancer.
To read this sharing about how Fiona lived with cancer is beautiful. So many fight cancer and don’t accept the reality of their circumstances. This, to me takes a lot of energy that could well be used by the body to clear, cleanse and live whilst one has cancer or any other illness.
“I feel I am here and able to share my story today because I married Western medicine with the Esoteric.” Alongside the medical support, the connection, love and self-nurturing that came into Fiona’s life is testament to the responsibility someone can take to change patterns that have not served, to clear the way to heal what she will never again need to address. This is true healing.
Fiona, what an incredible sharing. You are the walking future, showing that we are walking miracles if we choose the path of returning to love.
Astonishing and inspirational, your approach to medicine and your own healing is ground-breaking… thank you so much for sharing.
Even just this title alone – “Breast Cancer: “Knowing what I know now, I would definitely do things differently”” – tells me there’s nothing in life that is not about evolution. We are so blessed. And thank God for Universal Medicine, we can choose to live with that awareness. Life can be so joy-full.
What a stunning article that reflecting something we often say, had I known what I know now. What this makes me take stock of is the very fact that what we know makes a difference we often override, and its something that I need to be aware of.
Why do we wait for a car crash to value our body? Why do we wait till those close to us have nearly departed to express how we feel inside? Why do we keep our sweetest impulses inside, hidden away to reconsider bringing out another time? The words Fiona has left here make me realise in no uncertain terms that life is for living in full with no reservations.
Absolutely Joseph,
What if we let go and lived our lives to the fullest we have nothing to loss but so much to gain.
Remarkable Jane – the powerful combination of Western Medicine, Universal Medicine and the all important ingredient of you taking responsibility and engaging with your healing.
Wow. To see cancer as a stepping stone to love, this is just amazing and yet Fiona in her sharing here makes it imminently practical, fun and presents how it can be, how life can be joyful if we embrace it and understand that each new thing is an opportunity to go deeper. I am humbled by the joy and humility of this woman … she is showing us how we can live life.
“cancer has given me time to feel what is of value in life” The purpose of illness is to bring our bodies and relationships back into balance and to embrace this is as a blessing brings true healing.
When we say ‘yes’ to true healing, everything is constellating for us to return to our divinity. What a beautiful sharing of how this happens, and the people, such as Serge Benhayon, who are there just at the right time.
The love, wisdom, acceptance and understanding shared here is offering the missing link in healing that humanity has been looking for. We have just been looking in the wrong places, it is and always has been within.
“As soon as Serge came to the front I felt his honesty and integrity. ” What you are saying here is huge because it clearly shows that we know in an instance whether a person can be trusted or not.
I seriously cried in this blog, the way you shared what Serge said to you when you first met him was so simple but so touching. I know that I do not have breast cancer but I feel that as a woman, to be more gentle and deepen our relationships with ourselves is paramount. Sometimes it feels as if I avoid intimacy with myself and gentle moments because there is a part of me that feels uncomfortable with self love and care. Your journey is one of inspiration, laughter, lightness and strength, thank you for sharing so much detail, I will never forget this.
To learn that even in the greatest pain that there is light should you choose to connect to it is a profound and life changing lesson to learn. The rest is just a movement towards it.
A story worthy of worldwide publication to support anyone dealing with breast cancer.
Such a remarkable turn around from being mistrustful of medicine to truly embracing it as part of your healing.
The wisdom of learning from reflecting on what has past is one of our most powerful teachers we can ever be blessed with. And to share the wisdom of those learnings with others makes its doubly as powerful. Great reflection and sharing Fiona.
If someone had sat me down and taken the time to tell me that when I first discovered a lump in my breast when I was in my early 20’s that it was my body’s way of getting my attention to change the way I was living, I would have listened with ears wide open, as it is I continued to wreck my body through sport, pushing through injury and pain in order to keep playing, trying other sports to find I had a natural talent for those too, which meant I was spreading my body too thinly across all sports, and as a result I was later diagnosed with another lump in my 40s and cancer in my 50’s. When the body tries to send us a message the least we can do is listen and change our choices.
When I grew up the word Cancer was rare, few people had it yet everyone was afraid of it. Today just 30 years later it is common place, we’ve “accepted it” but what you raise about doing things differently is a crucial point for reflection. When I look back the biggest regret I have is not expressing what I knew my truth to be and being all the love that I know I have always been. The more I do that today, the less regret I feel as I can’t change the past but can change the present which in turn changes the future. Everything from then on changes, including how I am with myself and hence how I am with illness and disease.
Universal Medicine and the Esoteric Therapies offer a union with Western Medicine that is much needed by the world.
It can take an illness, or in my case, a near car crash to bring me to my senses. After a near-miss two days ago, I knew immediately what had happened and why. Twice, whilst driving, I momentarily lost control of the car and because I did not heed the warning, a third incident brought me close to injuring myself and another driver. I was shown the potential consequences of distracting myself with food whilst driving, rather than choosing to drive responsibly and with full attention. It was a sobering lesson.
One of the things that really touched me in this blog is how we are sold a way of living that is not considered injurious to health – doing for others and not ourselves, working hard, and even within the context of a supposed health diet, exercise and practices like yoga we can still get very unwell. We really need to redefine a health lifestyle, as Fiona says “I have learnt that life is medicine and that I have a choice to choose loving medicine every step of the way and that it is all there for me.” Such a beautiful blog to read, one to be continually studied and learnt from. What a blessing Fiona is.
The love and deep understanding and grace in this blog blows me away every time…..
I agree, how this blog feels is indescribable, it’s like being held by love as I read.
Dedication and belief, you are another amazing soul sharing a journey of love and understanding.
This to me is the beauty of illness and disease – “cancer has given me time to feel what is of value in life, the relationships I build, my home, the food I eat, the music I listen and sing to, the books I read. I have learnt that life is medicine and that I have a choice to choose loving medicine every step of the way and that it is all there for me.”
Sometimes we push ourselves to the extreme then have to be dragged screaming and shouting after collapse and have to learn how to re-connect to our body, deeply nurture and nourish it. The other way is not to wait for illness, but make simplicity and self care a way of life.
Really just an incredible story, such beautiful honesty and a great example for us all to learn from.
I feel so much love reading this. The love we are held in when we allow is beyond words. What an inspiration to never hide what it is we need to look at next. Beautiful. Thank you.
There are some things in life that seem to inextricably pull us in, like alcohol, drugs or gambling. Once we get a whiff of them it’s like we can’t forget, and our body is drawn to go back to them again and again. It’s such a stark contrast with the things that actually support and strengthen our being, it’s like we would rather do anything else in the world than access these loving activities. The nurturing Fiona mentions here fits right into this category. It’d be very hard to understand this situation and the behaviours we see, without the key that Serge Benhayon presents: the power of our Soul. It’s this that we are actually being constantly pulled to return to, whether through life’s events, relationships or illness. If we didn’t fight it so, then we would all naturally comprehend life’s flow.
The title of this blog pertains to so many other aspects in our life. How we build relationships with each other. Staying in jobs that are not truly supportive, accepting less or offering less in our commitment to life. Why is it that we sit with this title “Knowing what I know now I would definitely do things differently’ rather than get real to the fact that we always knew, yet chose to ignore.
There is no doubt to be told that one has cancer is devastating to say the least but like all illness and disease it is the body’s way of clearing and communicating with us that we can no longer carry on living our ill-ways. To be willing and open to what is on offer, we learn heaps about ourselves such as Fiona did and realise that it is not about what we do that matters in life but how we are with ourselves, the quality of energy we bring to another and to the universe.
Thank you Fiona for sharing that you had realised that life was about choosing “loving medicine” in each moment. This blog is such a powerful learning for all that when we open our hearts to another possibility that we have felt is true there is the support and guidance available for all. Truly remarkable!
Beautifully written , sharing the work of Serge Benhayon and Esoteric Healing. You are an inspiration Fiona, sharing your story with us to learn and understand from a great teacher, both Serge and yourself. Thank you and I send many warm gentle hugs.
Every time I read Fiona’s story i am deeply touched by what Serge said “nurturing is like gently brushing your hair”. This precious tender loving thing that we can all choose to do so easily for ourselves. Nurturing is not hard stuff, it is all the loving little things we can choose in life that make such a difference to how we feel about ourselves.
It’s the same way we are with babies and children, caring, gentle, tender and non imposing. We hold babies and children preciously and we can learn to do so with ourselves and other adults too.
Fiona thank you. An invaluable account on the value of working with western and and esoteric medicine. I know from my own experience that it can be a convoluting and rocky road to attach so deeply to the belief that ‘natural’ is the only way to health, we reject medical help. This can delay can compound disease and be at our own expense. Thankfully, you were blessed and guided to Universal Medicine, and through Serge Benhayon and esoteric practitioners supported to trust conventional medicine and work with it not against it.
I also had a deep distrust of conventional medicine and feared going to the doctors because I would not want a bad diagnosis. It wasn’t until I came to Universal Medicine workshops and heard Serge repeatedly talk about the value of conventional medicine and it’s essential role in self care and self responsibility that I let go of avoiding the doctor. It’s actually unheard of to see a complementary health practitioner support medical care, but what Serge presents is such common sense and it’s actually because of him that I made changes and now regularly receive the medical care I need. It’s not because he told me what to do, he just always presents and leaves it with people but it challenged the beliefs I held that prevented me choosing regular medical care. Thank goodness too because I have needed a number of exploratory procedures and operations which has greatly supported my health, and I now appreciate my doctor and all the health professionals supporting me.
Yes Melinda being open to ‘whole health care’ supports us to accept what is available whether it be conventional (allopathic) or complementary medicine. I visit my GP clinic occasionally, but appreciate what they’re able to offer when I do. I also have regular consultations with an esoteric medicine practitioner and this is foundational to my health and wellbeing. Born in Africa, I have also experienced the other extreme of medicine: a country with limited and abysmally resourced health care services resulting in a population with chronically low life expectancy levels. We in the affluent west are abundantly blessed to have hospitals, emergency services, medicines, clinics, doctors, health care practitioners and nurses 24/7. We can never take these for granted.
What a powerful and deeply inspiring account of healing this is, not just in the fact of Fiona’s healing and what she learned along the way, but the integration of both Western medicine and Esoteric Therapies she embraced. Healing is something that must be all encompassing, and is not outcome driven… it is very clear that from all Fiona has shared, that she passed away in the full awareness of the depth of healing she embraced throughout those years and that that was it’s value.
‘I just need to be me, the true full me’. Such wise words. If we all lived to these words we would possibly have far fewer cases of illness and disease. Getting to the root cause of illness is hugely important. Working with both western and esoteric medicine combines the best of both worlds.
‘I have learnt at these times to truly be with my body in tenderness, touching and holding it tenderly, honouring its preciousness instead of recoiling from it.’ I feel what you have expressed here Fiona is super-important. The fact is many of us do recoil from our bodies, treating them with disdain and abuse or at best tolerating (just!) our supposed bodily flaws – the ‘failings’ and disappointments we feel when our bodies ‘let us down’. Shifting to a loving perspective, in which nurturing plays a prominent part, is surely a more helpful approach in terms of our healing, health and well-being.
What an incredible journey Fiona! One thing I do wonder about in terms of my own dealings with medical professionals, as well as the people I know, is that while they can be super-amazed at the changes I have made – as they were with you – they rarely if ever take the next step and ask ‘How did you do it?’ or ‘What do you do?’. It’s almost as if the world isn’t quite ready or wanting to know that there is a different way; that the esoteric approach, when married with western medicine, offers us a complete package of understanding and healing – whatever the outcome.
“I have learnt that life is medicine and that I have a choice to choose loving medicine every step of the way and that it is all there for me. I don’t need to travel or to live in a certain place, to do a course or gain a certificate.I just need to be me, the full true me.”Amazing sharing and words full of wisdom for us all.
If the world knew more about the energetic root cause of disease we might choose to take more responsibility for our health and live wiser lives.
There’s a part of us that shrugs off life, that does whatever it likes and wants, with no regard except to say ‘I’ll be back another time, so who cares how I am today?’. This way of seeing life minus death is a convenient way to hide and avoid the true beauty of life: that any moment we can choose Love and to honour truth. It’s never too late to make this choice, and our quality of attitude changes every part of life. It’s our approach and way that is the lasting thing.
It is very empowering reading and re-reading your story how you decided in the end to choose love. It shows it is never too late and the fact that no matter what, love is always there waiting for us and with us, it is simply up to us to choose it.
“For me, I see the cancer as a stepping stone to love, it constantly shows me there is more to learn, to release, to be. I have seen each session as a healing.” If we were all to view cancer as a stepping stone to love as Fiona began to do and that Western Medicine is part of the healing along with the energetic understanding and support of Esoteric Medicine we would appreciate the journey that illness and disease offers us so much more.
A beautiful call to all of us to live more tenderly and nurture this precious body that we have been given for this life, however long or short that life might be.
I agree Elaine and the body will reflect back to us the way we have been living so treat it lovingly and it will come alive, treat it disregardingly and it will exhaust and breakdown. It makes sense really when you put it so simply.
A remarkable story full of beauty Fiona that confirms to us the simple truth that no man or woman is an island when we live connected to the love within our hearts. I love your way of seeing cancer as a ‘stepping stone to love’. You truly have accepted the blessings on offer here and there is much to inspire us all from this great light that you live, thank you.
I love the simplicity that Serge Benhayon offers to bring more awareness back to our body and stop pushing ourselves and continually bringing a quality of hard-ness to the way we live –
“He then said something very simple – ‘you know it’s about nurturing?’ I said, ‘I do’ and he added ‘it’s like brushing your hair gently.”
The biggest lesson we can learn is that life is medicine, in this way, the cancer was a gift because reading this it feels you have truly learnt this lesson and that will be taken with you, if choose to for longer than this life time alone.
What a huge story and a painful one at that. It is amazing to see what we will choose at any point in what we believe is the right thing for us. This story shows how we can overrun or override what appears to others to be a clear choice or next step. This is one woman’s story on how she allowed herself to be not supported or treated and instead went off to fix herself and how this only made things worse. The very decision to do this was the same thing or part that was making her unwell or diseased in the first place. I love how this story opened up, you could see the changes taking place on the paper as well as in the story. This is a great map for people who are going through something this serious but equally a message to us all, don’t fight ourselves and open up to what is in front of us. Do this and you can call on all the support you need. Follow the same route you always have and it will lead you to the same place. It’s not only about changing direction but changing the quality of how you are and not treating yourself the same. Again, a great story.
Wen we only see illness and disease as a disturbance in our lives and from that our only response is to fix it in order to be able to continue with our lives as we are used to, we miss out on a great learning that is on offer as we can so clearly read in this blog.
I simply cannot imagine dealing with a serious illness without the true support of both western medicine and esoteric medicine. To live life with awareness, one cannot but want to explore more deeply the root of any ill – not from a self-condemning or judgemental place, but rather, to offer deep understanding and the opportunity to heal and release whatever it is that we have lived and held onto, that is calling to be addressed via the very presence of an illness. Both aspects of medicine – which are in truth one – offer so much for us to learn from in this regard.
Knowing Serge Benhayon for many years now, I have not known anyone by compare who has been able to be there for people facing very deep concerns in their lives, health or otherwise. His work and dedication demonstrates unequivocally, that if we only but open our hearts to it, the support we may well have craved for throughout our lifetime (or many lifetimes…) is truly and ever there.
The candidness with which this story is shared offers such a healing for all. I can’t imagine that anything that’s been experienced here, particularly with treatment, is an ‘easy road’ at all, and yet, to quote Fiona’s words: “I have learnt that even in the greatest pain, there is light if we choose to connect to it.”
Is it not our connection to our light, the essence of who we are, that is the most valuable and precious thing throughout anything we may experience? That this has been restored in Fiona’s life is the true healing here, regardless of any apparent ‘outcome’ health-wise…
Yes Victoria Warburton this is so true as the level of commitment to connect to the light is truly inspiring in this blog. There is always an opportunity to learn from the light even though at times we may feel that we are in a space of darkness. The essence that is spoken about here has no space for the dark when it is connected to as the fragility and humbleness that is felt is truly exquisite to read.
Thank you for sharing this Fiona, you were indeed a very joyful lady. Yes, Serge is very wise, ‘he seemed to know exactly what I was not doing ….. taking time to be with me and adore me. I found looking in a mirror hard and spent as little time as possible on myself.’ I love how you turn this around and started to bring in nurturing and care of yourself.
This blog is invaluable. It is a great testament to the marriage of Western and Esoteric Medicine and how with dedication we can actually live our lives as medicine, nurturing ourselves and bringing joy and a sparkle to the world what ever our situation. Truly inspiring.
Indeed Elaine, this blog is invaluable as it shows us that it is possible to have life threatening illness and disease and see this as a gift from life for us to learn that there is more to life, something that is of a higher grade then simply trying to get back to the original life we had before the illness and disease as life is actually not about that. Life is a continuous learning and way back to a way of living we all have lived before and have to return to. All what we experience in life, how horrific it may be, is assisting us in this returning to that way of living and gives us back the remembering and instant knowing we have from having lived that before.
Such a gorgeous story of how we can be with illness and how with each step Fiona choose to go deeper and see it as an ask from her body to bring more nurturing. There is such humility and openness here, and a willingness to see each step as another opportunity and a chance to bring love and care to everything. You changed my perception of what cancer is and can be and how it can absolutely grace us and in meeting you I had the opportunity to see that grace in action. Thank you.
What an incredible story. The dedication to true healing is palpable and reminds us that the outcome is never the focus.
Yes we tend to care for those around us and neglect ourselves until sometimes it is too late. I am guilty, yet with steely determination survived the Breast Cancer . How true your response Vicky being dedicated to true healing has amazing outcomes. The power of positivity and trust in ourselves.
All too often it’s only when we receive the diagnosis or feel unwell that we start to treat ourselves with tender and loving care. Why wait?
“Now I am able to be in the world, feel all the pain around me but choose to be love within it.” This one revelation that we can choose life in awareness of everything else we feel, brings enormous understanding and appreciation as to what illness can offer us.
Agreed Simon, this is one of the hardest things to do in life in my experience, so much of the complication we create for ourselves is to avoid feeling the extent of pain and suffering we see and feel both in ourselves and in all around us.
“I have learnt that life is medicine and that I have a choice to choose loving medicine every step of the way and that it is all there for me. I don’t need to travel or to live in a certain place, to do a course or gain a certificate. I just need to be me, the full true me.” You certainly chose the hard way to learn Fiona but what a magnificent learning. Bravo Fiona – you are a living miracle.
This is a beautiful and powerful story and testimony to the combination of Western Medicine and Universal Medicine.
As I was reading through the blog I had moments of tears and a deep confirmation of the power of Universal Medicine and western medicine combined. That true healing is possible and we are deeply blessed to have that understanding through Serge Benhayon.
An extraordinary unfoldment of healing, learning and evolving through an illness that has most in nothing but despair and devastation. A truly inspiring story.
Absolutely inspiring .
This blog never stops unfolding and revealing it’s next layers each time I read it. There is something in what Fiona shares about how she has been with herself as a woman that stopped me – do we take time to truly adore ourselves, and are we with our bodies not to fix them but to deeply honour them. I am learning to take more care with me, and can feel that adoration is the next step, to just adore ourselves and truly honour ourselves is natural but something many of us have forgotten, and it’s the the key to living the true us in the world.
What a blog, it offers us an approach to life which is so much more than many of us live, that no matter what is going on as Fiona notes ‘I have learnt that even in the greatest pain, there is light if we choose to connect to it.’ It turns everything on it’s head and shows that no matter what we face we can face it knowing it’s offering us a healing, an invitation to go deeper and to live more of who we are. Reading today this deeply moved me as I felt Fiona’s acceptance of each step, her letting go and her willingness to see and feel what next. Deeply inspiring and very beautiful.
The outstanding message Fiona has left for all women and men, is to listen to our body and our inner knowing of what is needed. Also, the beauty of what is being let go of and the healing this offers on so many more levels than our mind can ever register. Even though, I have been pro western medicine for most my life, reading this blog has really brought home to me the loving support it can offer on a deeper level. And of course marrying with the ancient wisdom, universal medicine… we are supported to look at our illness or disease spherically, and heal the patterns of dis-ease and let go of what is not serving our light.
So deeply moving and inspiring.
What I particularly love is your confirmation of what I learned for myself too through the presentations of Serge Benhayon is that western medicine has its place. It is important, as is esoteric medicine. They are partners. “Having previously had distrust of medics, I now admire their work and dedication.” – this will help the world to heal.
Fiona, what you have written is pure gold, especially for those who are experiencing breast cancer. There is much that stands out for me but if I pick one thing it would be that we hold so much potential to support ourselves physically, mentally and spiritually. But this requires us to accept that we need to let go of ‘control’, and make changes in our lives which support a continual deepening of our relationship with ourselves.
This blog is a gem for any women faced with breast cancer as much wisdom has been shared. Fiona has nailed in one sentence what is crucial for every woman with or with out cancer to live in their life. “He then said something very simple – ‘you know it’s about nurturing?’ I said, ‘I do’ and he added ‘it’s like brushing your hair gently.’”
Wow – this is an absolute testament to a true approach to healing and the power of marrying Western Medicine and Esoteric Medicine. ‘This’ is what needs to become normal and offered as part of patient and medical education – deeply inspiring!
This blog is an absolute testament to the healing and support that marrying esoteric medicine and Western Medicine can provide.
Thank you, Fiona, for taking the time and dedication to sit and write all this down for us. It’s a treasure without boundaries. You seem to have brought in written form the wonders of the Universe, eternally.
We don’t necessarily have to look back at Jesus’ times to learn and know about the miracles of true healing. I wonder when we will stop looking for flaws in Serge Benhayon? There is so much to adore and appreciate in what he gives.
Jesus actually said that greater miracles would take place now and indeed they are. You are so right Felix, there is so much to adore and appreciate in what this stupendous, divinely loving, and delicate man brings.
I love how you threw your prejudices over board, how you opened up again and let go of the old hurts and ways. What a profound story. Thank you Fiona.
“Cancer has given me time to feel what is of value in life, the relationships I build, my home, the food I eat, the music I listen and sing to, the books I read. I have learnt that life is medicine and that I have a choice to choose loving medicine every step of the way and that it is all there for me. I don’t need to travel or to live in a certain place, to do a course or gain a certificate. I just need to be me, the full true me.” A very inspiring blog. All we need to do is just be ourselves.
I agree Sue, I read Fiona’s blog a few years ago and when I read it, I cried and cried when I got to the part about lovingly talking to herself and brushing her hair with love.
I had been hard on myself in the way that I have spoken to me, listening and catching myself over these last few years. But the beautiful thing was that the other night before going to bed, I brushed my hair with so much love and tenderness that I stopped in my tracks. I just stood there looking at myself in the mirror and feeling how gentle, tender and divine I am.
Reading simple things like this bring the wonder and beauty back into our lives, our everyday moments. This is true living.
Fiona’s blog is so profound. We can run all over the place in search of something outside ourselves, when the answer is within all along. Serge’s wisdom is understanding the root cause of breast problems – “He then said something very simple – ‘you know it’s about nurturing?’ I said, ‘I do’ and he added ‘it’s like brushing your hair gently.’ Being gentle and tender with ourselves is so important. As women we often try to compete with men and harden to ‘do it all’. Learning to ‘be’ instead has brought me stillness and grace – a work in progress.
Thanks Fiona for sharing. Pondering on how I am with myself I realise that everything about me can be known in the words I use, for these inform how I am with myself. Tenderness is something I don’t talk about in myself or use in my description of others. When you commented – ‘I have learnt at these times to truly be with my body in tenderness, touching and holding it tenderly, honouring its preciousness instead of recoiling from it’, I find myself questioning the choices I am making in the way I speak which allows this denial of our preciousness. I can feel the power we all have in bringing more deeply ‘tenderness’ in how we are with ourselves.
“I have learnt that even in the greatest pain, there is light if we choose to connect to it.” And that light that always remains within us no matter what, waiting for us to connect – it is the reminder that I will take away from reading this blog this time around.
“I have felt how in my life before cancer I escaped with yoga and in work. Now I am able to be in the world, feel all the pain around me but choose to be love within it.” This is so beautiful Fiona. Choosing, despite everything that may happen, to be love in this world.
There is so much to ponder on in this beautiful inspiring blog Fiona. This line got my attention: “Now I am able to be in the world, feel all the pain around me but choose to be love within it.” this is huge because there is so much suffering on many different levels but holding ourselves and choosing to be steady in the love that we are is so very healing for all. Thank you for sharing so deeply of yourself.
What an incredible story and so beautiful, so beautiful as it’s a story about love and about how a gorgeous woman chose to return to herself once again…
I love that too Katechorley, a blog about how a gorgeous women chose to return to herself once again..
Fiona your blog is so inspiring, as you shared that your decision to marry both western medicine and Universal Medicine allowed you to go deeper and work through the ideals an beliefs we can be conditioned to believe in, that relate to how we live with a diagnosis. Very inspiring. Thank You!
When I read a blog like this I feel in a renewed way how powerful and remarkable one person can be and I marvel at the depth and breadth of Universal Medicine and the work of Serge Benhayon. This is an incredible story about healing and what this can look like. I found this a special comment ‘I have learnt that even in the greatest pain, there is light if we choose to connect to it.’
Reading your blog Fiona, left me in stillness. Pondering on the huge, very deep change and learning and becoming the true you, you have written about. I feel like I would have read the complete biography of your life – like this amazing phase of change and going deeper with yourself in marrying western and universal medicine, is a further life in your life. I am very impressed and in love with what you share. It should be a standard part of the education for young doctors. It also communicates about the incredible range of possibilities beyond beliefs about what is “normal” or expected to occur. It is inspiring to tumble down the walls of self made borders and let go of what is superfluous. Thank you!
This blog Fiona is indeed an extraordinary story with dramatic circumstances. It seems almost impossible to sum it up. But what I see is that reconnecting to yourself and to you as a woman, and with that starting and deepening the nurturing of yourself is the first step. Also the ‘marriage’ of conventional medicine with the complementary medicine of Universal Medicine and the healing which resulted on a body and energetic level is outstanding. This and your self-loving choices started healing your cancer.
Thank you for sharing your extraordinary story, the extent of your ill health as well as your recovery is truly remarkable. It is deeply beautiful that you have come to the realization that you can feel the pain but choose to be love within it and that there is always light within what appears dark should you choose to connect to it. It is an absolute blessing to read of your choices in returning to the you you had previously denied and the healing power of honouring and nurturing yourself.
Fiona your story is truly amazing. It’s amazing how quickly the body can respond and heal when we become more nurturing.
‘For me, I see the cancer as a stepping stone to love, it constantly shows me there is more to learn, to release, to be.’ This way of looking at cancer is truly inspirational. The whole blog is full of love and about connection with other people.
This is a great testimony to the combined collaboration and healing of conventional and Universal medicine.
It is a beautiful and powerful story Fiona, thank you for your honest and wise sharing.
This is such a beautiful and healing blog to read. What Fiona has shared is so honest, humbling and inspiring and I can feel the love she developed for herself and all those she met on her journey. Truly inspirational.
A great testimonial about the amazing power of combining Esoteric Medicine with Conventional Medicine. The esoteric truly is the missing link in the equation, add it to any procedure and the outcome is incredible if not to say mind blowing.
Absolutely true Judith, when we add esoteric medicine to any part of our lives it makes a world of difference. We see every thing differently. Nothing is untouched.
An amazing story Fiona and what a turn around. What a blessing for you to have been able to combine western medicine with esoteric healing, supporting your physical body and treating the disease and supporting you to bring more nurturing, self love, honesty with what may be coming up. Your personal experience and transformation is a testimony to yourself, western medicine and esoteric healing all working together as one.
Wow, this blog is just beautiful, a journey of ever increasing honour and preciousness as a woman, and choosing to keep deepening at each stage, seeing what many may view as a difficulty as an opportunity to go deeper, to love more. Thank you Fiona for reminding me, it’s about being and taking each step with love.
I have felt the same reading this blog. So much more depth to connect to and to appreciate every step along the way.
Yes nb, and thank you for your comment, it brought me back here today to read this blog again and feel once again the depth and dedication with which Fiona met everything and how we can see everything as a date, an opportunity to be with ourselves and others in joy, be it a cancer ward or our work. Just beautiful.
This is a beautiful testament to your love for the beautiful, amazing woman you are Fiona. It was a privilege to read it. How wonderful to be so truly settled in your body and so profoundly with yourself. You are teaching the people around you how this connection is possible and very joyful.
What an inspirational journey Fiona. I love feeling how you have surrendered to life and trusted in every part that makes up life. The connection between how we live and the quality of our health and the joy you have discovered in allowing the cancer to bring this awareness to you – you have befriended cancer for this very reason. Totally beautiful. Thank you for taking this time to share with others.
Yes, Fiona will always be my inspiration, even in the face of death she gracefully surrendered to love she knew she was and would always hold her.
That’s the key to healing, surrendering to love. I have seen people with terminal cancer and it is at times hard to see the effects of what not surrendering to life and love does to the body, and to see that we are all doing it in some ways. It’s awesome that you Fiona have found a true way to healing.
What an amazing story Fiona. When you write ” I have learnt that life is medicine” you affirm the teachings of Universal Medicine. There is so much to ponder in your blog. Thank you.
Not only is life medicine the quality of self-nuturing you continually deepened during this journey is a potent medicine. Thank you for sharing your life with such openness and honesty Fiona it was deeply touching.
Yes, that life is medicine and the deepening of that quality of self nurturing is powerful medicine indeed. The experience of an illness bringing such a healing to someone’s life is so beautifully illustrated in this delicate blog by Fiona.
This is an incrediblely powerful blog that is full of opening, surrendering and inner wisdom. Thank you so much Fiona for sharing your experience with the world.
Wow, this is an amazing journey of discovery in a truly dramatic circumstance. Relearning what is worth it and was is not is a big one.
It is so clear to feel the gift that this healing process has been for you. As a nurse I have experienced this glorious perspective that people develop when they have a terminal disease. With the support and teachings of Universal Medicine we can all discover this perspective, where the only thing that matters is love and all else in life follows from there.
‘the only thing that matters is love and all else in life follows from there’. So trure Fiona, and if I may add, the truth of every moment is to accept and surrender to the love that is already there within each and every person because when we do not accept love, we reject it, we reject our own love without realising and this becomes our habit, and was my habit until I discovered Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.
What you have shared here jacqmcfadden04 is very powerful. “Accepting and surrendering to the love that is already there within and every person” as you say this includes ourselves. Not always easy, but absolutely worthwhile.
This blog is inspiring to go deeper with my tenderness towards myself and to deepen my natural rhythm. I feel touched by the words to talk tenderly with myself as I sometimes catch me talking rough and non supportive or appreciative with myself.
Kerstin, every time I read this blog, brushing my hair tenderly and speaking lovingly to myself are two of the things that touched me very deeply… Forever unfolding.
It is so beautiful to read how you’ve embraced cancer as healing and came back being the full true you in the world. I also have a benign lump in my breast and introducing more tenderness and nurturing in the way I live is something I am very conscious about, yet often times, I get caught in the doing. Your sharing has really inspired me. Thank you, Fiona.
This is such an inspirational blog in so many ways thank you Fiona.
Ultimately it’s about coming back to the simplicity of being us, no props, just us and today I have a huge appreciation for Fiona and her journey with letting go each thing that was no longer needed and going deeper with being loving and tender with her. Thank you for touching and inspiring me deeply.
This is a very heart-felt blog Fiona. Deeply inspiring how the healing was also through healing the energy, which is the ideals and beliefs and patterns and behaviours one is living with in their life, as well as healing the cancer. This shows how much power our way of living has.
Wow Fiona, what if the beliefs and fears we hold are the real sickness we suffer from? For what shines through in all you share is how you “can still sparkle and giggle” whatever the situation.
Wow, what an amazing healing process Fiona you have experienced- such wisdom; and your dedication to nurturing yourself deeply is very inspiring, and a true testament to how both western medicine and esoteric medicine together bring true healing.
Fiona, what a journey. Your dedication to nurturing yourself deeply is a true testament to how much this simple honouring act is the best medicine possible.
This has touched something deeply in me. I too have a lump in my breast (believed to be a fibroidadenoma) and am currently very chesty. Although I am welcoming the steps suggested by western medicine, this blog has revealed where I have not yet been willing to take full responsibility. The area of self love and self nurture. Thank you for sharing your story Fiona it has been deeply, personally healing for me!
I could relate to so much in your story Fiona, that it felt like I was reading my own words. I have received such a healing from your divine, clear and honest expression and feel so very much in my stillness at this very moment. Thank you deeply Fiona for sharing so tenderly with us all.
I found this article profoundly inspiring. Heartfelt appreciation and thanks for giving me the opportunity to read it.
This is not the typical story we hear from those experiencing the healing that cancer can bring. Your approach Fiona – your playfulness, your light heartedness and your openness to continually learn and evolve through this whole experience reminds us all how we can approach life – regardless of what is going on.
What I take as my biggest inspiration from this blog is the fact that “life is medicine” and that we always have a choice of what to align to, thank you.
I deeply appreciate this blog, it serves as such an inspiration. The honesty and the willingness to go deeper and appreciation that is evident in your words and experience is awesome. When I read:
“I can now look in the mirror and truly feel the beautiful woman I am.
I have learnt that even in the greatest pain, there is light if we choose to connect to it.”
I can feel the truth and power in it and I commit more deeply to getting my issues out of the way and living life in a more committed way. Thank you.
I too have had an amazing turnaround with Western Medicine because I was also supported by Universal Medicine Therapies. They are a match made in heaven.
Amazing how much love Fiona brought to so many new relationships with so many people whilst in the midst of the illness. She writes: ” I have found how I carried the pain of having separated from my true self in my body and through gentle and tender touch and words I am re-imprinting that with love.” Everything she describes here supports how beautifully she re connected with her true self and then presented that to all with whom she engaged. Her sharing of Serge’s response also – so simple and yet so profoundly true.
Truly beautiful Fiona. What you offer is so healing. There were many gems in here and one that stood out for me was “I have seen each trip for chemotherapy treatment as a date ….with me. I have fun choosing what to wear, waking early to get prepared, making a yummy lunch to take with me. I then see it as a date with each person involved … the oncologist, the driver, the other patients, the passengers on the boat, the nurses”. Such an inspiring way to see each day. Why can’t we live each day like this? To see each day as a date with me and then with every person I meet. To have fun in preparing myself and in how I will support myself. I love this.
This blog is so beautiful to read and share in, your experiences and new found awareness are awesome. I really felt and appreciated your openness to Universal Medicine and the way that the modalities and presentations supported you and continue to. Thank you.
Fiona your reflections are nothing short of amazing – and that word doesn’t even begin to sum it up. What I have felt reading your blogs today has touched me on a very deep level. What feels really important to me now is not to try. Allowing, trusting and surrendering are things I know are so important but your reflections today have brought that to a whole other level for me, thank you.
What a brilliant story Fiona. You are a true testimony to the healing power of marrying Western and Esoteric Medicine. Your story is a modern day miracle and you are not only an inspiration to other cancer patients, but also to doctors and oncologists everywhere.
There are so many gems in what you have shared and we do not need cancer to be able to relate to it. I felt sadness that the stubbornness and arrogance of the spirit can lead us away from what we need to truly heal. I loved your confirmation of how important it is to be playful and keep enjoying and connecting with everyone you meet.
Thank you Fiona, once again for this truly remarkable story of your journey of healing. I find the following so inspiring, “For me, I see the cancer as a stepping stone to love, it constantly shows me there is more to learn, to release, to be.” How empowering for anyone with cancer to read these words and feel how Fiona has clawed her self back afters years of being buried under a ton of false beliefs and ideals.
I find I am faltering as I write this comment. I feel a huge pull to comment and yet doubt that I can put into words the magnitude of what I feel Fiona has expressed. What I will say is just a meagre offering, but Fiona has conveyed the very life of Life itself.
Very well said Alexis – Fiona has conveyed the very life of Life itself.
‘For me, I see the cancer as a stepping stone to love, it constantly shows me there is more to learn, to release, to be. I have seen each session as a healing.’
Fiona you have truly inspired me in so many ways. Thank you for being so gracious and deeply beautiful. ✨
How beautiful your story, thank you for sharing. Cancer as a stepping stone to love, seeing every hospital appointment as a date…truly inspiring!
Connecting within and following the love’s guidance that waits there for each of us – is what it’s all about. This light never dulls and never grows tired and it’s response is always the fullness of the love we are. Thank you Fiona for sharing the ‘Fullness’ of YOU.
As soon as I read your response ch1956 (I was born in 1956 as well)
I felt this amazing beautiful warm connection to all,
Thank you Fiona for sharing the Fullness of you, and I got to feel the fullness
Of me. And also the fullness of ch1956.
Once again, I am deeply touched by your expression Fiona and the healing and inspiration it brings. I love how you share that “I have learnt that life is medicine and that I have a choice to choose loving medicine every step of the way and that it is all there for me.”
Fiona, that is an amazing sharing. I’m in awe at how you have turned your life around and found love. Your story is a testament to what one can achieve by committing to the self. I’ve had the same concepts and beliefs about Western Medicine, since starting Universal Medicine I have come full circle which almost feels like a relief. An acceptance of what’s on offer instead of a fight against. Once again I’m inspired by you Fiona, incredible.
Each time I read your blog I feel so much love and respect for your choices and honesty. I feel the openness with which you express the choices made by you along the way as they have no sense of attachment or blame. Life can be so simple when I accept that ‘I just need to be me, the full true me’.
Fiona, your blog describes an incredible path that holds so many examples of how to fully embrace life. Thank you.
Fiona, when you mentioned that Serge said to you ‘you know it’s about nurturing’ and ‘it’s like brushing your hair gently’ these words felt so loving and brought such a simplicity to self care and self love. Such an inspiring and beautiful blog.
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“I have felt how in my life before cancer I escaped with yoga and in work. Now I am able to be in the world, feel all the pain around me but choose to be love within it”. This to me is what true healing is all about. What a truly remarkable transformation and a blessing for anyone who reads your story.
What a powerful blog this is for all who have experienced cancer and also for anyone who is interested in the teachings of Universal Medicine and how they approach illness and disease. I love the simplicity in what Serge Benhayon shared ‘you know it is about nurturing don’t you’. This has always been my experience of Serge. We come along with all our stories and issues, and he has such a simple response that is ever so profound. Usually years later that one line makes more sense, and thus the unfolding of our awareness and return to love.
I love reading your blog Fiona. As I read your examples of self care and being gentle with yourself, it brings such a moment of pause and reflection to me, and I get to feel the depth and quality of the way you attend to yourself, and in that I connect to this gorgeous and potential way for me to tend to myself. Thank you for the truly felt marker of gentleness and self nurturing.
Fiona thank you for you truly inspiring blog. The story of your healing and unfoldment is really incredible. It always amazes me how resistant we can be (myself included!) to the healing opportunities all around us. So beautiful that you said ‘yes’ to that and were able to find yourself again.
“… I see the cancer as a stepping stone to love, it constantly shows me there is more to learn, to release, to be”. What an amazing way to look at not only cancer, but all illness and disease. The obviously joyful words of a person who is so ill offer a beautiful reflection for us all.
I am so inspired by the way you now live, there is so much in your story for us all, as you offer another way of being with illness and disease. I love how you see your connections with each person as like a date and treat your body in such a divine and loving way. Thank you for sharing your amazing journey back to you.
What a powerful article this is. “I have learnt that even in the greatest pain, there is light if we choose to connect to it” is especially so. Thank you so much Fiona for writing this.
Thank you Fiona for this amazing sharing – for anyone going through illness to understand that “this clearing is part of the process that endeavours to return us to the love we are”. Beautiful.
I find this blog so deeply touching and inspirational to hear how you lived the last few years of your life. There is so much in what you have written, many gems of wisdom, and today I shall take away with me this one, “It always surprises me how much deeper I can take the gentleness and the self-nurturing”. Thank you Fiona.
Wow – Fiona your zest and love for life and people is palpable! It is crazy to feel how much we can push ourselves and ignore what the body tells us, how we can ignore the preciousness and beauty that we are – and amazing to feel the turn-around that you have done! There is such lightness and beauty in writing about rediscovering yourself, as if a love affair has come about! Very inspiring indeed. Thank you!
It is always so awesome when we let go of that which does not support us as in Fiona’s case all those ideals and beliefs around Western Medicine. This story is a gift for all humanity.
Absolutely Caroline, this is an a gift.
For me I have never forgotten the first time that I have read this blog and what spoke to me so clearly was “speaking lovingly to myself” and “gently brushing my hair.”
Now I feel the difference around me when I speak lovingly to myself. And also how my hair feels when I brush it before I go to bed at night. Work in progress lovingly.
Fiona, your blog offers so many practical examples of how to be so tender and loving with our body, specifically for women. As I was reading, I found myself taking notice of how I was feeling whist my hand was on my arm and, as I read your words, I softened my touch onto my body. Instantly, I could feel the difference in how to be and deepen the love towards myself. Thank you, the grace in your words is palpable.
Every time I read your blog Fiona, It is always the sitting and tenderly brushing my hair and speaking tenderly to myself that I really feel in my body. And just allowing myself to be me, no trying just a simple allowing.
This is an inspiring story.
Just simply allowing one to be, is healing.
This is such a profound writing which touches deeply into my very core. It is so beautiful to have the supporting roles of medicine and the esoteric coming together.
There is a lightheartedness and joy which brings a very different view of illness and how to work with it, rather than against it, from coming back to the ‘full true innermost essence’.
“I have learnt that life is medicine and that I have a choice to choose loving medicine every step of the way and that it is all there for me. I don’t need to travel or to live in a certain place, to do a course or gain a certificate.
I just need to be me, the full true me.”
Yes Sue, a huge appreciation for Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, for as Fiona has said in this lovely blog, she came to realize how western medicine and esoteric healing are truly about loving oneself.
Fiona, just beautiful. I feel the absolute joy of how you lived and how cancer became a way of connecting to you, a way in each moment to go deeper and your dedication to that. I just feel the joy of you, and am blown away by the profoundness of what you share about your journey with you. To me today reading that it’s not about trying and wanting to fix my body but feeling it – this is gold.
Such an awesome sharing! We should have a book or a film about your experiences. The world needs to hear about you and your learnings.
For me this time reading, this stood out:
‘I have seen each trip for chemotherapy treatment as a date ….with me. I have fun choosing what to wear, waking early to get prepared, making a yummy lunch to take with me. I then see it as a date with each person involved … the oncologist, the driver, the other patients, the passengers on the boat, the nurses … and with Serge.’
I agree, life is about dating about being loving with ourselves and each other. And you show that this can be the case, no matter whether you have a (severe) illness or not.
“you know it’s about nurturing”. This was so important for me to hear too. Huge appreciation for Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, for all they have presented about illness and disease, and how we can become responsible in our own healing. I too went down the extreme juicing and coffee enema route – along with other various spiritual modalities – in an attempt to cure myself. I was looking outside myself for the answers. Now I know that I have a part to play – alongside Western medicine, which together with esoteric healing and my loving choices for myself – my input – is keeping me healthy and vibrant nowadays.
“I felt that the tenderness of his hands said to me…. yes all this has happened to you but you are still beautiful.” Gorgeous, something we often forget, that what ever is happening to us in our lives, we are still beautiful. Your story is amazing Fiona and one that can be shared with all cancer patients, I love the way you are able to talk about cancer so openly and honestly.
“There was no razzmatazz and what he shared made such complete sense. He voiced things I had always felt but had found no support for elsewhere.” This is so true about Serge Benhayon, I like you and many others have felt this. I really do hope that because of you some medical journals are actually re-written. This is so important what you have shared. Thank you.
This is such an awe inspiring story, thank you Fiona. May we all learn to nurture ourselves and commit to the love we are in times of challenge. The everyday practice comes first, the knowing what is true and accepting what is, and what us on offer for us, and then the healing unfolds.
Thank you Fiona for this beautiful and inspirational blog. A marriage of Esoteric Healing and Western Medicine is as you say the way forward.
Fiona, this is just exquisite, I can feel how each step along the way you approached with an openness that said there is more here to be, more love, and as you did, you honoured the body with absolute tenderness, never hiding just being with it, being with you, being with everyone in the world as you did. Your sharing of this touched me deeply.
“Cancer has given me time to feel what is of value in life, the relationships I build, my home, the food I eat, the music I listen and sing to, the books I read. I have learnt that life is medicine and that I have a choice to choose loving medicine every step of the way and that it is all there for me.” It is so inspiring to read how Fiona used an illness to bring more appreciation and love into her life. This the true miracle.
Fiona, the way you have expressed your journey allows us to understand how western medicine works in conjunction with esoteric medicine and the fact that you had all the treatments with only hair loss and no other side effects shows how the esoteric can support the body. thank you,
Fiona what a healing and I feel that just by reading your story you are also giving us a healing – a healing of what’s possible when we let go of destructive and harming ways and open up to love. Your story is just filled with absolute beauty and your joy for life and what you are learning just shines through. Thank you.
This is an amazing and inspiring account of healing with cancer through the marriage of western medicine and the esoteric – a powerful combination and a testament to Fiona’s strength and grace.
This beautiful blog by Fiona is a living testament to the complementary marriage of Western Medicine and Universal Medicine. It is very apparent that Fiona felt met on all levels with the range of care and support provided – it is such a blessing to read this account.
What a great sharing of a healing journey and with cancer too. I feel the absolute joy and openness in how you tell your story, there is such an acceptance and it inspires me to connect and be tender with me. How do I nurture me in my day to day life. When you mentioned about not saying no, that resonated, I often take on too much and I’m slowly learning to stop, feel me and feel what is needed and it may be no. It’s a huge learning, and your blog reminds me that those no’s are a yes to me and to self honouring. What a gift your writing is Fiona, thank you.
I stumbled across this article which I read two years ago and it touched me deeply the first time, today it felt like I understood and felt so much more of the love and wisdom which is evident here.
This article is so deeply touching on many levels and an essential and inspiration read for any woman on a similar path to rediscovery of her True Self and the strength of introducing nurturing and tenderness to oneself, with or without breast cancer. From my own experience of breast cancer I absolutely agree it makes sense to marry Esoteric and Conventional medicine. Going it alone is not an option. Loving and caring for ourself is in whatever form this takes. I love the detail of how each esoteric modality was supportive. A Powerful and Joyfull read showing True Healing at play. Thank You:)
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Fiona,
I feel truly inspired every time I read your story.
To talk tenderly to myself,
To sit and gently brush my hair,
And to feel so strongly
“I just need to be me, the full true me.”
Thank you Fiona
I have never, ever, read an account of a cancer such as yours Fiona. The depth of understanding you bring to the subject, the clarity and strength that you discuss connection and the simplicity of healing – I am touched.
thankyou Stephanie. It has been a profound experience for me, allowing me to reconnect with my strength and the truth of healing. I am constantly learning and the comments on what I have written inspire me to keep sharing all I have learnt and am learning.
This is truly beautiful Fiona. Thank you for sharing. I take your words with me in my heart. The part about people not being judgemental of your choices and you not being judgemental of other people’s choices, soothes my mind and the judgement I’ve been holding. Thank YOU.
You are an inspiration Fiona. I have struggled with Western Medicine for a long time based on some horiffic experiences but now I understand so clearly from what you have shared my own personal responsiblity in that and what can happen when you approach Western Medicine with an open heart. Thank you.
Wow, I felt so strongly what you shared in your writing that I could not bring myself to click the ‘like’ button as that would not do what I felt justice….We need a new button, something along the lines of ‘this is amazing’ or rather YOU are amazing! Thank you so much for sharing your experience – I can relate very much to a past shunning of western medicine, as well as a past shunning of taking time to care for myself and be gentle and tender with the preciousness that we are. Thankfully, I too have had the support of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine to allow myself to unfold and accept the loviness that we all are…A truly amazing and inspiring piece of writing from you Fiona. Thanks again.
That was a beautifully inspiring piece of writing to me.,It took me days to read it, to fully give it the honor it, and you, deserve and each time I felt myself connecting to the stillness within me, Thank You Fiona for sharing
Thankyou for sharing such a beati-full and moving story. Truely inspiring- the strength and courage you took to deeply honor your body and start to truely nurture and love it back to health, despite all odds. You are a living testimony that the answer to vital health is the bringing together of what western medicine has to offer and the livingness of esoteric medicine.
Thank you Fiona, for your beautiful and clear expression, your story is truly inspiring and has reminded me of where I don’t fully take responsibility for myself (yet). You looked so amazingly well and vibrant when I finally met you in the UK this year and you are an amazing testimony to the fact that illness and disease are there to teach us something – your courage is truly awe inspiring.
Thank you for your simple and profound post. Throughout it I saw a thread that powerfully showed your knowing and trust that there is indeed a bigger story than the small picture we tend to see through our beliefs about life and attitudes about the world. That contrary to the trend of looking outside of us to gather an understanding, the answers are quietly and humbly provided through and within our own bodies. That regardless of the level of disharmony and disease, there is freedom and joy in understanding and honouring the truths revealed by our body. That we arrive at a powerful strength and beauty when we choose to embrace life from this place. And the powerful assistance that can be provided by combining Esoteric and Western medicine in our unfolding journey.
This story is an amazing and touching account of your love for yourself and with this, you are a shining inspiration and not just for those medical records, but for us all. What great beauty you have shown us. Thank you Fiona. Astonishing,
Fiona to feel through your article how deeply we are all connected bought tears of joy. I can tangibly feel your beauty, grace, delicateness, playfulness and joy which is so inspiring as you have developed the connection to yourself under extreme circumstances. It was an honour and a blessing to read this piece, thank you.
Fiona, your writing is so beautifully done. It touched me so deeply. Thank you.
Thank you Fiona, this story affirms so much of my experience with UM and reminds me of how beautifully love works regardless of who we are or what we have going on in our body.
Hi Fiona,
thank you very much for sharing your story. I feel deeply touch and humbly for what you have gone through and feel so much love and lightness through telling your story now.
With love,
Claudia
Thank you, Fiona, for sharing how you have embraced cancer as a friend and what you have discovered about yourself along the way. There is so much Love in the ways you have chosen to support yourself in a such a deep and nurturing manner. How truly inspirational to consider each moment with yourself and when meeting others a date – a date to be Love. Beautiful!
Fiona, this is inspirational, thankyou. For many years I too rebuffed Western Medicine, believing that there was a simpler, more natural way to heal, and went off on my own path in search of finding ‘it’….however since finding Universal Medicine I have very humbly eaten my own words as I have gradually given myself permission to feel the pain of that illusion in my own body. To have my eyes, and heart opened to the fact that there really can be a beautiful marriage between Western and Esoteric medicine has been a revelation. I now find myself saying ‘yes please’ rather than ‘no thanks’ if I am offered a routine test or examination – a huge milestone in this lifetime and so empowering and honouring to myself.
Your piece should be available in every waiting room, indeed with the world as Sharon says, for all to read. And what proof that the key to the Esoteric way of life is simply to LIVE it. What an awesome, beautiful, inspirational woman you are.
Now here is someone in her true glory! When I sat in front of you at the retreat Fiona, I could feel the joy within you and we have all been blessed again by that here. What a wonderful teacher you are, just by being you. I know that this is only one snippet of your experience of returning to the love you are… Thank you.
Yes, I agree Bernadette, as I sat next to Fiona during that retreat, I was amazed by her level of joy, playfulness and fun she emanated. I would have had no idea what she had been undergoing if she had not shared with me. Truly inspirational, especially how she turned her life around to one of being there for herself, and really started nurturing and cherishing herself.
Wow, Fiona, thank you so much for sharing your experiences. It leaves me speechless and very inspired. What an example for us all.
Thank you Fiona for sharing your experience here. It is humbling and very inspiring.
I am deeply touched by your expression of the coming together of the relationship of Esoteric Healing and the medical treatments and the “dating” with everyone. The re-learning of how to self nurture and honour yourself so deeply are a joy to read..
A Glorious reflection for all.
Thank you, Fiona, what an inspiring story. I love the idea of ‘dating’ everyone you meet. Your words show us that cancer is an opportunity and not something to be feared. Instead of being the dreaded ‘C’ word, it can be the ‘N’ word for Nurturing, and ‘H’ for honouring.
Awesome expression Fiona, I learned so much by how you told the story…..it’s been a healing read, thanks so much
Dear Fiona, your sharing has touched me deeply not only because of the amazing and inspiring words on what you have gone through but more so because of the deep love and true nurturing that can be felt through them. You are a living testimony for the power of choice and a beautyful reflection of who we truly are. Thank you.
Lyndy Summerhaze
This is a truly awesome piece of writing showing the beauty of the relationship between Western Medicine and the Esoteric Arts – I love how you could feel both the true tenderness and non-judgment of the medical team and the amazing support of the esoteric community. It would be great if this piece could be sent to the original medical journal which started off the momentum of slandering Universal Medicine, stating that Unimed was against Western Medicine. You have shown how the healing wisdom of Universal Medicine supported you inspired you to embrace the expertise, dedication and love of the medical team.Wow!
Absolutely Lyndy – further confirming that Universal Medicine is not a cult and that we are encouraged to include Western Medicine as part of any healing programme, wherever and whenever it is needed.
Fiona
What an amazing and inspiring experience you have shared. I work as a nurse supporting people undergoing cancer treatment. Each day i bear witness to the distress and powerlessness dealing with their disease. Your story would be such a benefit to them, in fact it is a story that needs to be shared with the world. Thank so much.
Wow Fiona, thank you so much for sharing your beauty through your words, I have been deeply touched by what you have expressed, it is absolutely gorgeous and deeply honouring and confirming, thank you for your inspiration and Love it is greatly appreciated. I Love your way of dating…
Fiona, thank you for sharing your journey – your an awesome woman and a beautiful inspiration and reflection for us all. with love Kirsten
What an absolutely awe -inspiring piece of writing Fiona.It is deeply touching to read how you have consistently loved and honored yourself through all these challenges. This is the true healing as you have so beautifully expressed from ‘the full true you’ Thank you for sharing your story, it is so inspiring.
Yes this is what is so inspiring about Fiona’s story is that she consistently loved herself through whatever her body was going through.
Thankyou Fiona for sharing your inspiring story , with love Jade
Dear Fiona,
If the rest of your journal is anything like this piece here, I want to have access to it all and read it. This is so humble, so moving, so enriching, captivating, tender, edifying, illuminating, formidable, encouraging…inspiring…and it is utterly engulfed by beauty. And in that awesome dulcet Scottish accent – oh, Joy 🙂
I thank you.
Dear Dragana, thank you for your comment i have found the comments so supportive and inspiring. I am feeling in to how to get my journal pages out there. I will keep you posted.