Congratulations! You have Cancer

by Eva-Maria Anja Daniela Förtsch, M.Sc.Klin.Psych., Psychologist, Neuropsychologist, Psychotherapist, University Lecturer, Bochum, Germany

Hello. My name is Eva-Maria. Lovely that you choose to read these lines. If you read this because you have cancer, your life might not be easy right now. Perhaps you are worried, in anxiety, angry, sad or even in desperation. If yes, I am totally with you because I have also gone through that. But also if you don’t have cancer and you are just interested, I would like to invite you to read on and feel into what it might offer to you. In the following I want to share with you my experiences with cancer and how it changed my life and my relationship with my body through a big clearing and healing process.

The Diagnosis

I was diagnosed with a very dangerous form of skin cancer (melanoma) when I was 28 years old. This diagnosis came all of a sudden, after the removal of a birthmark on my upper back in between my shoulder blades. When I heard the word “cancer”, I was shocked. Panic arose in me and countless thoughts flooded my mind – and not a single one of them helped me to cope with the situation; all of them were full of anxiety. I was frightened of what would happen next, of the cancer spreading in my whole body, of chemotherapy and of dying. I already saw myself in hospital, thin, pale and with no hair, believing that I would not have much time left. The emotions coming up were overwhelming. I had already spent so much time in hospitals and had had so many surgeries in my life. Hospitals were horrifying to me and reminded me of much pain, anxiety, sadness and helplessness. ‘Why again me?’ ‘This was not fair!’ ‘Why can´t I have a healthy body like others at my age?’ These thoughts did not stop and my anxiety grew.

Although I am a successful psychotherapist and well-trained at supporting others in dealing with their difficulties, I had no idea how to cope with this situation.

Choosing to ask for help and support

Because I needed help I called my closest friends and my parents. All of them were shocked and worried. They wanted to help me but they didn’t know what to say or do. I could feel their helplessness and anxiety. This made me even more emotional.

At that time I had been a student of Universal Medicine for about four months and so I decided to ask Serge Benhayon (the founder) and his family for support. Through the e-mails I exchanged with Serge Benhayon I realised that all my panic did not help me at all. Far from it! It made everything much worse and kept me from dealing with this big issue. But, still, I did not manage to get out of it. The upcoming time in the clinic and the surgeries were frightening me too much.

At that time Natalie Benhayon was in Germany and I asked her for a session. This session was huge for me. Within two hours of talking and bodywork I was able to really embody what Serge already offered me in the e-mails. I understood that cancer was my body’s way of clearing harmful energies I had taken on. By that I mean, that I had for years been living in a way that was not very loving, indeed it had been quite abusive and those choices had consequences for my body. All of those choices had been energetically harming for my body and cancer was my body’s way of getting rid of them. I knew that I could now support my body and this process by accepting everything that comes with it, loving my body more and trusting in its deep wisdom.

I suddenly knew that my time in the clinic was given to me to heal my numerous experiences with surgeries, pain, anxiety and helplessness in the past. This time I would not panic, I would stay with myself and my body, and I would get all the support I needed.

Finding true support

And it happened exactly like that. Students (of Universal Medicine) were visiting me every day, supported me with sessions, especially Connective Tissue Therapy, and brought me healthy food that supported my body very much throughout those days. This healed some big issues in my life such as doing everything on my own, never asking for support, not showing that I can be weak and fragile and also my anxiety about being in hospitals healed deeply. It was an amazing feeling to be held in true love by the Benhayons and the students during the whole process. The energy also noticeably influenced the doctors and nurses. They treated me in a very loving and caring way and stayed for a chat with me and other students quite often.

Although the doctors removed a big part of my lymphatic system and therefore expected that it might not be able to compensate after the surgery, that my arms and hands would be swollen and life long lymph drainage would be necessary, my lymphatics never caused any problems like that. After the cancer was all cut out, the doctors put me on a strong medication regime to boost the immune system so that it fights with all its power against any malignant cells left in the blood that could turn to new metastases. They said I would have to have three injections per week for the next one and a half years. After the first few injections I experienced very strong side effects like severe exhaustion, fever, shivering and headaches that made me feel weak and depressed. Therefore I was quite frightened of this medication. To be honest, I hated it. But I kept on taking the medication because my anxiety that the cancer might come back was too big. Some weeks later I was in the UK to attend a course of Universal Medicine even though I felt totally exhausted. The Benhayons supported me with healing sessions, which really helped me, and I rested a lot and strengthened my connection to myself.

Talking to Serge Benhayon about the cancer and my anxiety felt more calming than anything I have experienced before. I came to realise that the cancer is a way of my body showing me choices I have made in the past, and that it offers me a huge possibility to heal important issues. Then I knew deep inside of me that if I am willing to really face these issues and change my life in a way that I truly love and honor my body, come to a stillness within (something I had always avoided) and allow myself to be who I truly am, there would be no reason to be afraid of cancer anymore. Even if I were to die, I would know that my body would have cleared the harmful energies I had taken on.

Accepting and Deepening

I came to the point where I was able to accept everything; even the possibility of dying. I understood that my body had already tried to show me essential issues for so many years and that I have never really listened to it. I have been so absolutely ignorant and tortured my body through loads of work, permanent self criticism, never really going into stillness, being hard, smoking, drinking alcohol, taking drugs and in many more ways… and nevertheless I expected my body not to cause any health problems and to function in the way I wanted it to; quite blockheaded of me, considering the fact that I have an excellent university degree, wasn’t it? Suddenly all my surgeries of the past began to make sense and I felt that now it’s time to stop all of that disregard and to commit to love in its true essence.

I started to be in my body, instead of just being in my mind, and build up a connection with my body which felt absolutely new and amazing to me, especially that I was more and more able to read what my body was telling me. With the help of Serge Benhayon I was able to see that in terms of Esoteric Medicine it made a lot of sense that my cancer was right between my shoulder blades (wings) and in my lymphatics. Our lymphatics are the physical representation of our Divine “light”, and I have attacked my light during my whole life. Serge then also helped me to understand that it is important that I let my medication in as a support, instead of having the injections and hating them at the same time. This led to a shift of energy and an enormous reduction of the side effects, so that I was able to really live and also work again – with much more stillness and loving choices.

So I learned in a very fascinating way to connect to the deep wisdom of my body and to trust it even though it was very ill. I feel better now than I have ever felt before in and with my body. This huge clearing and healing has been one of the most amazing experiences in my life.

A profound Healing

The cancer has not returned, yet, physical healing is not the purpose of true healing as I understand it now. True healing is much deeper, much more profound and really life-changing. I feel that without this deep understanding and without addressing the root cause of cancer, which is always a certain way of being with oneself and others, it is possible for the cancer to return.

This True Healing is possible for each and every one of us.

No matter which illness or disease we have, we can choose to accept it, to look at what our body shows us and to clear and heal deeply. It is absolutely amazing to have such a chance.

Thank you, Serge Benhayon.

 

Read more:

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  2. How esoteric healing can support people with cancer.
  3. Is cancer a blessing in disguise? 
  4. One woman’s experience with breast cancer and how it influenced her choices.
  5. How cancer can change a life.

 

964 thoughts on “Congratulations! You have Cancer

  1. A powerful and inspiring article – Understanding illness and disease from this perspective is supportive to making new choices in our living way and support the body rather than harm it further.
    “I understood that cancer was my body’s way of clearing harmful energies I had taken on. By that I mean, that I had for years been living in a way that was not very loving, indeed it had been quite abusive and those choices had consequences for my body”.

  2. I have come to know that no matter what our body is going through, from a sprained ankle to, in your case Eva-Maria, cancer, it is simply our body’s way of communicating to us that all is not well with the way we have been living. And I have also come to learn that by being open to accepting the messages that come with the condition that, “True Healing is possible for each and every one of us.”.

  3. “Although I am a successful psychotherapist and well-trained at supporting others in dealing with their difficulties, I had no idea how to cope with this situation.” Eva-Maria the fact that when something like Cancer hits us our training goes out the window shows how much what we know in the head can’t truly help our body unless what we live is in a way that listens to the body. An incredible story that shows what is possible no matter the hurdle.

    1. Absolutely, the human body is a totally amazing thing that we mostly simply take for granted and expect to just function for us. When it shows us that we have been living in a way that abuses it, we don’t want to know, we just want a quick fix so we can carry on as before.

  4. I would have thought you were crazy saying ‘congratulations you have cancer’ but since realising with the support of Universal Medicine what is actually going on for us to be manifesting cancer in the body, it really is the obvious outcome. We have an opportunity to deeply and truly heal what we have chosen that has been the cause of the cancer in the first place.

  5. I totally agree that the true healing is understanding what our body is communicating to us and making changes from that place. It’s like a gentle nudge that says ‘not that way, please change direction’. I have received many nudges and am thankful for each and every one of them because of the healing that has come as a result.

  6. ‘Serge then also helped me to understand that it is important that I let my medication in as a support, instead of having the injections and hating them at the same time.’ Sometimes there can be such an inner conflict about some aspect of our life that this inhibits the healing process that our body is waiting to deliver. Allowing ourselves to accept our situation and give what is being asked of us a chance is huge. The opening to treating yourself with a deeper love than you had otherwise known is very beautiful and totally inspiring.

  7. This is very true Eva-Maria, ‘No matter which illness or disease we have, we can choose to accept it, to look at what our body shows us and to clear and heal deeply. It is absolutely amazing to have such a chance.’ Absolutely.

  8. Thank you for sharing the opportunity you have been given for true healing through your cancer diagnosis – it is so inspiring to feel how you have embraced it and turned your life around.

  9. Eva-Maria, thank you for sharing your story here, it’s really amazing to read and feel your journey with cancer and the steps you’ve taken which have taken you to a deeper level of acceptance of what is needed and what your body offers. This touched me deeply in particular ‘Then I knew deep inside of me that if I am willing to really face these issues and change my life in a way that I truly love and honor my body, come to a stillness within (something I had always avoided) and allow myself to be who I truly am, there would be no reason to be afraid of cancer anymore,’ … this is how we can be with anything once we are deeply accepting and loving with ourselves and our bodies.

  10. Congratulations our body is giving us the opportunity to return to love, each and everyone of us is given this chance every single day. A big congratulations when we get ill and our bodies have accepted the clearing for more love to come in. This may be an unconventional way at looking at illness and disease, but one that is energetically true.

  11. The healing that you received from your cancer diagnosis is a true marker of how we can allow the body to share with us what is harming and not allowing us to live the true potential we are. Thank you for an inspiring read that has been felt deeply.

  12. ‘I expected my body not to cause any health problems and to function in the way I wanted it to.’ Yes, that’s exactly what the majority of us do – take the body for granted, and treat it as if it were an indefatigable machine. And then we get angry when it breaks down, when it ‘lets us down’. The thing is, it’s us who are letting our bodies down, and behind that anger is a sadness for what we know inside we have allowed – a deep dishonouring of ourselves.

  13. I liked your observation Eva-Maria about having realised you had spent most of your life attacking your own light. This strikes me as possibly the root cause of a vast number of the illnesses we manifest – we simply don’t live or hold ourselves to the potential of the grandness of who we are.

  14. ‘I started to be in my body, instead of just being in my mind,’ And that’s the thing – we treat our bodies as appendages, as mere vehicles for the whims of the mind, ever-ready to do our bidding no matter what the abuses and the cost to our health and well-being. Illnesses are a chance to reassess our approach.

  15. ‘Congratulations you have cancer’ not the sort of words that are usually associated with cancer. But it is such a different way of seeing illness and disease. Learning to reconnect with our bodies, sometimes does take a illness to show us what choices we have been making.

  16. What a beautiful confirmation, appreciation and testimony to Serge Benhayon, Universal medicine and yourself Eva-Marie. To shift your focus from your mind to your body is such a powerful lesson, thank you.

  17. ‘I understood that cancer was my body’s way of clearing harmful energies I had taken on. By that I mean, that I had for years been living in a way that was not very loving,’ This is such a great understanding for us all to have and thank you for sharing it – we too often assume we are victims of circumstance and refuse to take any responsibility in our part as to why cancer has ‘happened’ to us. How amazing that it presents us with such a beautiful lesson in making more self loving choices in our lives.

    1. I agree Carmel, victim consciousness is very disempowering, we stay stuck in what we have chosen unaware of how our next powerful choice is available moment to moment. We are free to choose at any time.

  18. I love what you have shared here Eva-Maria; as a person who has had cancer I totally agree with you, congratulations is in order. The learning, evolving and expanding that is open to cancer patients is huge; that is if we choose to avail ourselves of the opportunities; as you have done.

  19. A beautiful article that really goes to the heart of cancer from a person that has actually been there. It was touching to see the support offered by Serge Benhayon among others and read his view on cancer and treatment of it. So often you see people fight the treatment or fight what their doctors are saying or even fight the diagnosis and so to see advice and support coming to you that truly does support you is very refreshing and make sense. This story is serving as inspiration for those going, yet to go or have been through any experiences with cancer and from the statistics there are more and more of us everyday. Thank you for this article and the way it was written made it very easy to see.

  20. There is an understandably enormous fear around cancer and a common idea that we fight it – it’s seen as a thing happening to the body and perhaps unrelated to the whole of our life and to our inner being. It was amazing to read how you initially felt and how this changed to an acceptance and then an understanding of the purpose of the cancer. I also feel your whole blog is a stop moment for everyone to begin to listen to the body and live in respect and partnership to what it is communicating, and to return to living from the essence of love within.

  21. Our relationship with our mortality often has us ignoring the care of the body until we are faced with some dire situation. We think we are immortal, and then one day, we think we are very mortal. The Way of The Livingness has offered me a way to look at my mortality in a whole new way, and live with the love and care I have always wanted for myself. This is a miracle.

    1. Hear hear Heather. There is a part of us – the human spirit – that knows we are immortal and armed with this knowing, chooses to use the human body as a vehicle through which to enact a joyride through life. It is this recklessness and irresponsibility that sees us end up at death’s door, weakened by such a hedonistic pursuit. However, there is another part of us – our Soul – that understands that we are part of a ceaseless cycle of Universal order and as such our every breath, movement, thought and word has an impact on all life within this sphere. This is the Way of The Livingness, to deeply love and care for ourselves and each other as well as the planet we live upon. And so for me there is no other way to live life here on Earth.

      1. Well illustrated Liane. What you and Heather offer here, offers each of us an opportunity to choose a way of living that has love and care at its core.

  22. What if – cancer was not some enemy that needs to be conquered, but an ally that helps us surrender to the deeper healing on offer and in so doing correct the ill momentum we have otherwise incarcerated ourselves in and that has led to the cancer in the first place? Truly inspirational Eva-Maria, thank you.

  23. When conditions within the body such as cancer are given a symbolic and energetic meaning, the implication of what is going on can be considered in light of that person’s lifestyle and a deep overhaul gently carried out step by step. This is done in total co-operation with whatever is needed from mainstream medicine, the healing/ treatment /surgery on that level being deeply valued as well in the process.

  24. I love the way you write Eva Maria.. It comes with a deep acceptance,understanding and wisdom. You reminded me of what true healing is all about and something so many can benefit from hearing..’The cancer has not returned, yet, physical healing is not the purpose of true healing as I understand it now.’

  25. I have read this article many times. Each time I feel the strength and wisdom that grows in Eva as truth and understanding around cancer is offered and accepted, ever more deeply. In this there is great learning for me, profoundly delivered is that offering the truth to another with love can be accepted, understood, and responded to, where healing on all levels can be facilitated, not by the one offering the truth alone, but also by the one who is willing to accept, understand and integrate it into their lives.

  26. Great blog for everyone to read Eva-Maria, helping to understand the part we play in our own illness and disease, the body is a great reflection of how we are living, and any cancer is a deep message that we need to re-look at the choices we have made, and how we might make more supportive and loving choices.

  27. Truly amazing blog Eva-Maria, it shows us how in fact we can embrace and accept what the body offers and no matter what there is always an opportunity to heal (and that healing may not take the form we think, we may truly heal and die or truly heal and live whatever is needed). And I love what you offer us here in so much but today for me it’s to see that I can trust the body even when it is ill and that is huge so thank you.

  28. This is a very inspirational blog to read for anyone whether they have had a terminal illness or not. So often when we become ill or unwell we go into a ‘fight’ mode and try to beat the illness and in this process fight our own bodies believing that the body has malfunctioned in someway and has let us down. But as you present here Eva-Maria what if illness and disease is actually a sign that our bodies are actually working and functioning very well indeed when considered from an energetic point of view? For they are doing what they do best which is to reflect to us the truth of how we are living and clearing us of the excess harming energies that we may have accumulated and giving us the blessing of a new beginning and an opportunity for true change in our way of life which in the end benefits us and the whole world.

  29. When the truth is spoken it brings with it a huge relief on so many levels. If we resist the truth that is when we go into right and wrong and this is what hurts people more than anything.

  30. The fear of cancer, of the treatments and of dying, can really open a door of honesty to re-connect with a way of deeply nurturing ourselves that may have been unfamiliar to that ‘stop’ point. What I see you share here is the personal opportunity and choice to delve into how you can bring lasting change by choosing to see how the choices we make with our bodies can either be ones that support them to be harmonious, or not, and that each one has a consequence. It is never too late to reconnect with the love we innately are and nurture that.

  31. What would any person pay to have true support during a time of great need such as facing a serious illness? Probably a lot, and yet I know Serge Benhayon to have supported many people with such illnesses with grace, wisdom, and little if any compensation. He is undoubtably a man who I would want by my side.

  32. This is such a deeply beautiful article Eva-Maria. You so honestly share all that you went through – this makes it a very powerful ‘handbook’ or ‘template’ for anyone facing such an enormous situation. You have described so well the process you went through to surrender to the truth, and how that extraordinary man Serge Benhayon shared his wisdom and his deep love with you. Love it!

  33. There is such a key theme here Eva-Maria. Acceptance is the message that runs through the whole of your story. Accepting your illness, accepting your issues, accepting your medicine, accepting yourself. It is a lesson that we can deal with absolutely anything if we can accept what is going on. While we resist and complain, we are nowhere near true healing, but with acceptance we naturally heal.

  34. Accepting that we have an illness, disease or cancer is a great first step, it is when we fight the acceptance that we are actually fighting ourselves, I love how you were able to see that your body was in truth healing itself through the cancer, a real opportunity to appreciate how we are looked after even when at first we feel totally at odds with what is there.

  35. So the way we use healing while true also focuses on just one part, make the body better. Yet here we have a real life example saying, “The cancer has not returned, yet, physical healing is not the purpose of true healing as I understand it now. True healing is much deeper, much more profound and really life-changing.” The physical part is secondary to the other part, the energetic part. I am not saying one is more important necessarily then the other but both are needed to at least have equal weight or say in any given situation. We have become lop sided in focusing on the physical and pretty much ignored anything else. There are more and more people writing articles like this one that speak into more then meets the eye category. I wonder if we paid equal attention or gave equal care to both these aspects whether we would see a difference around us. Again the article is saying and it’s my direct personal experience that this would make a huge difference.

  36. “Talking to Serge Benhayon about the cancer and my anxiety felt more calming than anything I have experienced before.” Cancer creates a lot of anxiety in many people, it is because it is an illness where at the moment is not a cure for or a treatment that 100% removes it in all cases (if this already exist for any disease) this creates anxiety the least. To be truly understanding what cancer is and why it is happening is probably the only thing that will help let go of the anxiety which is an incredible support Serge Benhayon and the Ageless Wisdom is offering to many people.

  37. I agree it is a totally different experience when we stay we our bodies whilst undergoing treatment for our illnesses. Whilst it can be very painful and fear provoking, the learning on offer can be significant and allow us to be more informed about the treatment choices we wish to avail ourselves of, both in terms of traditional medical interventions or complementary interventions.

  38. Thank you Eva-Maria for sharing the profound layers you have slowly peeled away to uncover the essence of who you are – your Divine Essence. This is the silver lining of illness and disease and whilst it feels huge at the time, it also feels like a deep cleansing is taking place and the truth of how everything works can finally by seen and lubricated with the love we are.

  39. A very beautiful and profound sharing for us Eva-Maria, thank you. Discovering, living and appreciating your divine essence, through the process and experiences you have outlined, is a gorgeous divine blessing.

  40. What a blessing it is Eva-Marie that we understand having cancer is an opportunity to clear harmful energy from our bodies. Like you I am clearing harmful energy to uncover and live the divine essence that we so truly are.

  41. Your experience with cancer is very insightful and has the potential to support many patients in a similar situation. And the way you turned your life around is very inspiring – especially because it didn’t come from the initial reaction but from a deepening into yourself and your inner knowing. And thus, the changes are here to stay rather than being like an old garment that we get tired of and discard at the first available opportunity. In other words: you persevered to find answers rather than succumb to solutions and quick fixes.

  42. Great title, we don’t ever think to say such a thing, but your blog here and life experience is truly remarkable. A testament to what it means to really change your life and all that it reflects and purpose.

  43. Incredible blog Eva-Maria. What you share turns the way we think about cancer on its head. It is not a killer but a healer and the way we are with it makes a huge difference to how we can heal.

  44. “I understood that cancer was my body’s way of clearing harmful energies I had taken on. By that I mean, that I had for years been living in a way that was not very loving, indeed it had been quite abusive and those choices had consequences for my body.” Yet this is not commonly understood. When I too experienced cancer I went through loads of emotions, as you describe. But after surgery – and with the tumour removed, I realised I had a chance to rebuild my life from a new – more gentle and self-nurturing – perspective. So many go back to their old life and old way of doing things after surgery, chemo etc., and are then shocked to find their disease returning. Why don’t we wake up and realise that lifestyle choices play a key part in a healthy life?

  45. Eva-Maria, I love the way your write about your experiences. I have not had cancer but I used have a huge fear of hospitals and a lot of my family have died of cancer. It is very healing to hear how you dealt with your fear, so different from everyone I have known, and how you were able to support your body in the process. Very real and inspiring.

  46. In a world where cancer and other such conditions are increasingly on the rise, having reflections of how to be with the process and be truly embracing and supported through it is HUGE. There are few who embrace cancer for the true healing it is and even fewer who can call it a blessing. Hearing your experiences here Eva-Maria has been very profound and very healing. Thank you.

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