My Body and the Body of God

 by Liane Mandalis, Possum Creek, NSW, Australia

My whole life I have felt trapped in my body. Now, I know that sounds a bit strange, but this is how it has felt for me. Bodies are dense, they get sick, they are subject to abuse both from ourselves and from others. In short – they get hurt and the pain goes deep. If I choose to not connect too deeply then I won’t get hurt, right? Wrong.

I have spent a lifetime fighting my body and perceiving it as some ‘enemy’ that needed to be at best conquered and at worst abandoned. I was under the belief that our bodies let us down; they shake, they tremble, they vomit, they cry, they bleed, they break, they shut down, they faint, they get SO exhausted… Basically, my body did not feel like a safe place for me to be, but seeing as I had nowhere else to go, the only option was to ‘grin and bear it’. And so I did, through the many ailments that would come and seemingly go, only to come again. Nothing too serious to warrant immediate medical attention, but enough to leave me feeling depleted, depressed, disconnected (but from what?), anxious and exhausted. At one stage it all felt ‘too much’ and I suffered from bouts of anxiety and panic attacks. I was a nervous wreck, ever ready to fight or take flight.

Despite this, I have always been a cheerful person but I could never sustain the joy for long. My joy was punctuated with sudden bouts of excitement followed by dark pits of despair. I mostly avoided doctors (I didn’t trust them) so I never got an official diagnosis, preferring instead to see endless practitioners of acupuncture, homeopathy, natural medicines, reflexology etc. – you name it, I tried it. Some would seem to work for a while but the same complaint would resurface years later, either with twice the fury or disguised as another condition altogether.

It wasn’t until I attended a presentation by Serge Benhayon, one Friday night in Byron Bay, Australia that my moment of grace came. Here was this guy, very normal looking considering the backdrop (Byron Bay is a mecca for every style of ‘healer’ under the sun) standing there in a collared shirt (a rarity in those parts and you can imagine my disappointment that there was not a tattoo or feather in sight) and talking about Esoteric Medicine. The short of it being that – we are love and if we choose to not live this love, then we invite a whole manner of illness and dis-ease into our bodies simply because:

It takes more energy to resist love than to be it.

And then, slowly, slowly over the next 3 years…it dawned on me. The reason I was so depleted and exhausted was because I had turned my back and walked away from the love that I am, that we all are. In full reaction to the lack of love I could see being lived in the world and without seemingly realising it, I rejected love, I rejected myself, I rejected the body that I had come to view as my prison, and…I rejected God.


Our bodies are not prisons made of flesh, far from it. Our bodies are Heaven made visible if only we choose to live our true selves within them and express this truth to the world. Once this is felt, it is extremely hard to continue living recklessly, at odds with our bodies and this includes all the ‘perceived good’ we try to inflict on them in an effort to constantly ‘pull them into line’ and ‘conquer the enemy’ when really, in this state, we are our own worst enemy because we are running scared from what we know is true:

We are love and the fleshy vehicle that we reside in is a great body of love that belongs to the Universe/God, which is an even greater body of love that enhouses us all.

If we listen to this, then we let go of the reins that we are gripping for dear life and allow ourselves to follow the impulses that naturally pulse forth from this our greater body. We allow our breath to sync to the rhythm of Nature, the breath of God – the All of Us – and the panic subsides. A body that is brought back to this harmony is a body that will not ‘let you down’ because all that happens to it from this point is in accordance to the bigger picture, the greater plan, our true home and any illness experienced will simply be a clearing of what has been allowed to accumulate from being in resistance to this pull. Our bodies do this regardless of whether we choose this or not, for their particles belong to the Universe and answer to that call and not to our self imposed one. However, true health comes from not overriding or resisting this but accepting and allowing our bodies to respond to what they so naturally are designed to respond to – Love.

Thus, the real pain here that we all feel, and that is the root cause of all illness and dis-ease, is the pain of being in a body of love and not connecting to and expressing that love.

It is a bit like having the ability to sing like an angel but never opening your mouth to sing. Holding back that beauty and that Divine expression is a pain far greater than what can be physically inflicted on the body and that physical pain serves as a marker for the love that we hold back.

Whether we accept it or not, our bodies are forever responding to the Universe that we are an innate part of, no different to the way our oceans respond to the moon or our trees respond to the wind. So, how do we respond to this call – do we fight, or do we flow? The quality of our health is in our hands. More specifically, it is in every particle that we allow to move in tune with this Divine symphony. Thus, the choice to ‘fight’ or ‘flow’ is ours to make, in every single moment and with every given breath.


Inspired by the blog ‘What is true health’ by Rachel Mascord

1,544 thoughts on “My Body and the Body of God

  1. “Thus, the real pain here that we all feel, and that is the root cause of all illness and dis-ease, is the pain of being in a body of love and not connecting to and expressing that love.” From the arrogance of thinking we are able to carve out an independent life where we separate ourselves from others under the umbrella of protection to living a full life that allows both people in, and our expression to flow freely out knowing that every movement and word we make affects not only ourselves but everyone else too.

  2. Fighting the Universe, our body and God with every move and choice we make leads us to illness and disease. Nonsense? I wouldn’t say so as from experience all my ailments have started from unloving choices/ways.

  3. ‘Do we fight or do we flow’ – such a beautiful phrase to carry with us. Our bodies sure do know how to support us but it is a case of letting ourselves go there and be open to receiving what our bodies are wanting to share.

  4. I can so relate to the life you used to live Liane, right down to the panic attacks. But as you came to understand, and I too, “It takes more energy to resist love than to be it” and I was sure existing – definitely not living – in a way that was not welcoming love into my life in any way. Now that doorway is wide open and the love keeps pouring on it, and if the flow should begin to dwindle it’s a sure sign that I have something to very carefully look at in my life.

  5. I now appreciate that the physical pain in our body is a reminder to call us back from being too wayward in our expression and communicates as needed to show us that we are meant to live in harmony and a natural rhythm with our body, not to fight and resist it by abusing ourselves and ignoring what it is telling us.

  6. “Physical pain serves as a marker for the love that we hold back” – no wonder we prefer to bury and/or numb the pain – to the point where it seems as though being love has to be a conscious effort when all that is needed is to surrender.

  7. Love your blog Liane. I could relate to fighting the body as something to be conquered and at worst abandoned and the pain that accompanied this. To know that we are fighting love, fighting God and fighting ourselves was a revelation and that the pain in my body was because of this. I am learning to truly appreciate my body knowing that it is so much more than the functioning vehicle I have used it for in the past, to get things done regardless of what effect it has on the body.

  8. I also remember regularly having a feeling of restriction, like wearing a tight rubber suit. It might have just as you describe a restriction that is inherent in the body.

  9. Our bodies are ‘vehicles of expression’ that can either respond to all that God is, or all that he-is-not.

  10. When we hold back what we feel, it takes such an incredible amount of energy. Feeling a connection with others and allowing that out is our bodies’ natural way of being – actually what they were designed to do. So when we get stuck in a rut of our own holding-back-ness, we stifle and squash our bodies’ natural expression – it’s literally like we’re compressing ourselves, the very essence and particles of who we are, into a smaller space than we were designed to occupy.

  11. I love how you offer the connection that the particles of our body are eternally responsive to a greater harmonious whole, and so rather than our body letting us down or fighting against us it is there offering us a pull back to harmony.

  12. Loved re-reading your blog today. ” we are love and if we choose to not live this love, then we invite a whole manner of illness and dis-ease into our bodies simply because:…..It takes more energy to resist love than to be it.” These words have really made an impact on me. Could the reason why humanity is so exhausted is because we have turned our backs on being the love we are from?

  13. ‘It takes more energy to resist love than to be it.’ This really makes me realise why we end up so exhausted we spend so much time resisting being the love that we truly are, when we realise we have the ability to change our choices to be love, and make our life about love we no longer need to feel that exhaustion, and our life takes on a natural flow.

  14. I can’t think of ANYTHING that could hurt more than rejecting God and Love and yet that is what we see prolifically in the world and the utterly exhausting and painful consequences.

    1. That this is our greatest hurt and that we do not even know it is, is our greatest tragedy as humans.

  15. This sounds like a relationship with your body that has truly deepened and evolved based on an understanding as to why we are here in the first place. This supports you to not attack your body .- but look at it with an understanding and awareness that supports you to surrender and work with the body

  16. It is about embodying the love that we are, to not resist the natural flow of the universe of which our body is equal part of, but surrender to God, that’s my big learning at the moment to not fight or reject my body,I have been doing that long enough but to respond to what my body asks for and what I know, a joy to live heaven on earth.

  17. ‘Thus, the real pain here that we all feel, and that is the root cause of all illness and dis-ease, is the pain of being in a body of love and not connecting to and expressing that love.’ So true Liane, if we all began to live and express the love we naturally are I am sure we would see a rapid decline in statistics on illness and disease. This simple choice to be open to love is the greatest medicine that could ever be prescribed.

  18. To consider that there is a universal harmonious flow that innately runs through the particles of our body makes me appreciate how in our physical body there is a great intelligence we can connect with and how through honouring our whole body we actually also honour our other-worldliness – we are so much more than just physical beings and yet through our physical body can connect with our true beingness.

  19. “The real pain here that we all feel, and that is the root cause of all illness and dis-ease, is the pain of being in a body of love and not connecting to and expressing that love” – this leaves me speechless as I can feel how much and how long I have lived in denial of that love, trying to justify and accept the dis-ease that I have created as given.

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