What does it mean to have a fungal infection?

by Anon. 

Some time ago I had a diagnosis of a fungal infection on my skin. This started out as a red mark, a rash on one of my breasts, which I initially thought may have been something to do with breast cancer or an early warning sign of it and this really scared me. I went for a check-up and was told it was a ringworm, a common fungal infection, which I could have contracted from touching animals, and then passing it from my fingers or nails onto my skin. The doctor gave me cream to help it clear, which it did.

Then about a month later, I noticed a few red dots around my hips, something that could have potentially been there for over a year, as I have seen them before, but dismissed them. I thought it was just from my skin reacting to the metal of the buttons on the inside of my jeans, as they would come and go, and be in roughly the same place where the inside of the buttons touched my skin. Then these dots got worse and spread all over my hips, up the inside of my ribs, just under where my arms hang down the side of the body, onto my tummy, under and onto my chest, and then parts of my back.

When I noticed how bad this was, I decided to call the doctor to book an appointment, and at the suggestion of my partner, asked if they had an appointment for the same day.

I got an appointment for a few hours later and was told by the doctor it was a common fungal skin infection, and that we all have fungi on our skin and it can affect us at any time. I was given a medicated shower gel to help clear the infection.

Being a student of The Livingness I knew there was a deeper energetic root cause to this, and it was reflecting something about the way I was choosing to live and I wanted to know what it was.  I could use the creams to clear up the infection and continue living my life as it was, or I could go deeper into the energy behind the infection, and address the root cause of this, and work on clearing that from my body and my life.

As with everything in life, there is always an energy behind it. Initially I thought it was dampness in my body as I equated a fungal infection to damp, but I wanted to be absolutely clear and sought support from an Esoteric practitioner.

With support, I came to the understanding that energetically a fungal infection is a deep disregard for myself and my body. Basically, I was poisoning myself from the inside out.

We often assume we poison ourselves by the food or drink we consume, but, have we ever considered we can poison ourselves from the inside out by taking on others emotions, indulging in emotions, living in any way that is not in our true light, for me this played out in the choice of deep disregard.

This was a HUGE wake up call for me! Like a WOW!

For me, to disregard simply means to ignore.

Now by no means am I out of this, nor have I cleared the energetic root cause fully from my body, but the combination of the energetic truth and the support of western medicine is allowing me to looking at it from a whole, not in parts. Not just looking at the marks on my skin, and passing it off as an infection, but looking at my part in it, how I have chosen or am choosing to live. Western Medicine looks at the end result, the marks, the rash and deals with that very well; the Esoteric asks me to look at the energetic root cause from the inside out, to look at how I have been living, the choices I make, and the energy I have been choosing that has led to this infection.

I have found it quite confronting to look at the underlying cause of this condition.

Energetically, the hips are where we store ideals and beliefs, so I have been looking at how I use other people’s beliefs or the beliefs I have taken on, pictures that are not true, to dismiss and disregard myself, to fight my truth, ignore my body, ignore my feelings and give my power away to other people. How I look outside myself to others and the world for answers and choose to live my life by other people’s ideals and beliefs, reactions or responses, living in fight or flight, instead of living my absolute truth, solidness and strength, in my power and knowing.

For me, the not listening to myself, to my truth, plays out a bit like a teacher asking a child in the class a question about the child that only she knows the absolute truth to, then turning their back on that child, ignoring her, not listening to what she is saying, even if she is shouting and jumping up and down, as she is so clear and knows the answer, (of course she would, as it’s about her), but the teacher turns their back on the child and looks outward to the whole class for the answer, none of whom truly know because it’s not about them. That’s what I do to myself, to my truth and my body.

Then there are my ribs, which for me is about my light, constantly fighting it, sabotaging it, and the energy I am choosing to live in, there’s more here for me to become aware of and that will unfold in time. I also feel there is a deep sadness here that is to be cleared.

My breasts for me are about not living my fullness as a woman, lack of self-nurturing, not being and living the delicateness, the nurturing tender woman I am first with myself and then with others, sometimes I still go back to that little girl. When I look back, I’ve always tried to out-do or prove myself to others. I also hide my chest, my sexy, gorgeous body, my curves, and myself by dressing in a way that hides all this, to avoid unwanted sexual energy or being looked at. If I were to allow myself to express in full I’d dress in sexy tight clothes, showing off my body and not holding back an ounce of sexiness or hiding my divine curves.

Then there is my tummy and my back, where the rash spread. For me my tummy is to do with my lack of accepting the divine truth that I am a Son of God, and not accepting my light, how amazing I am, the fact I bring so much to the world, and reflect so many amazing qualities, it may also be me fighting my light, fighting the love that I am, and the love that is all around me, from myself and other people. It’s interesting as my tummy has for years been constantly bloated and gassy, nothing I am given helps, so there is more from an energetic perspective to look at here, definitely around not accepting something – for me it feels like love.

As it spread onto my back, over my shoulder blades, I looked at me fighting my own light, my truth again, all the angelic qualities I bring, yet do not live. And also the hardness and protection I live in, the fight or flight mode coming in. It’s an exhausting way to live, constantly changing myself, my energy depending on others responses or reactions, trying to work out how people will be with me, instead of holding myself and the quality of my energy no matter what, living from my tenderness, no matter who I am with or where I am.

This is all new to me, and something that’s going to unfold over time, in its own time,  and with that my deepening understanding and learning from it.

But I do know that without the support of the Esoteric I could have simply had a cream from the doctors, which is fine and very much needed, a very self-loving choice to make, but dismissed the opportunity to go much deeper and see the energy that’s playing out behind the infection. But now with my willingness, and openness to go there, and ask for the support, I have an opportunity to really look at, feel and heal the deep level of disregard I live with in many areas of my life.

With deep thanks and appreciation to Esoteric Medicine in combination with Western Medicine that enables me to heal not only the physical aspects of the condition, but also the root cause and my way of living. 

 

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177 thoughts on “What does it mean to have a fungal infection?

  1. This blog has expanded understanding about how we can choose to bring a deeper and enriched awareness of the many existing layers we are and how we can support not only our own true healing but also the healing in others. Thank you Anon for sharing your deeply personal experience and wisdom.

  2. Paying attention to the body and what it presents is gold, it’s what we are taught not to do, so doing it is rebelling against the norm – I always was a rebel, so this is great fun to do.

  3. We’re often very secretive about our conditions and illnesses. The reasons are many and varied. Shame, embarrassment, guilt, regret, dishonesty, pride, fear, sadness, despondency, despair, panic, frustration, nervousness, anxiety, anger, resentment and bitterness are all emotions that can accompany being unwell and all of these emotions also contribute to ill health. If we were able to change our attitude to being unwell then we would be able to change the way that we feel about being unwell. If we could see illness as a forum for learning, a medium through which we could bring change into our lives, an opportunity to open up and share more with others, a time to become more tender and honouring with ourselves, a time to bring more love into our lives and allow more love out, a time to deepen our relationship with ourselves and others, then through that process we would be able to address the feelings that are associated with being what we currently term as ‘being unwell’. Perhaps in the process we would also change our description of ‘being unwell’ to something like ‘an opportunity to change’.

  4. As a health practitioner, I LOVE skin diseases – now let me explain what I mean about this: When a condition involves the skin, you can see it and you can touch it and you can feel it – it is literally in your face (and often is – pun intended). This means that you can work with something and see how it develops or unfolds in front of you – you know where the condition is and you can see it. You can take pictures and see how the skin changes over time. So, as a practitioner when I go to treat or work with someone with a skin disease I explain how special this is – the body is clearly showing that something is out of balance and that the body is trying to restore balance (homeostasis) and get rid of something that does not belong in it. And so if our focus is simply to get rid of the symptoms on the skin (and not support the body in its arduous task of bringing balance), we risk driving the condition deeper in the body and can turn it into a condition that is more hidden and harder to treat. This is actually an old school naturopathic philosophy that is very much in line with the Ageless Wisdom and its approach to illness and disease and that rings much truth to me. Whilst the condition is on the skin, we can support the body with what it is trying to do, and this will support the true healing which in turn, once balance and homeostasis is achieved, will no longer need to use the skin as its organ for detox and balance – at this point the symptoms can resolve as true healing has happened. How cool is this!?

  5. I love how we can look at illness and disease of any kind and see it as the body doing its best to clear something within that does not belong, something that is not natural. And so it is not about trying to remove symptoms only – to truly address the problem we want the symptoms to go away because of the root condition having been treated and healed. This is the depth we have an opportunity to take with every single condition, illness and disease that we encounter.

  6. As we become more open to our sensitivity, we are less dismissive of what our body is showing us, and can receive a much deeper healing as a consequence. It’s so great to learn so much from the body and how everything affects us, how our thoughts, our emotions or our reactions negatively have an impact, and how we can choose differently instead.

  7. Great question “What does it mean to have a fungal infection” we can ask this question of anything – when we ask the question and open to the answer we are on are way to true healing.

  8. True healing empowers us to make deeply loving shifts in the way we live each day, effortlessly. Nothing has empowered this in me to the degree that the Universal Medicine Healing Modalities have done, very real and solid miracles that to this day still astound me.

    1. Spot on Rowena, every illness and condition is an opportunity to change something in our lives that has been waiting to be changed for a while in order to allow us our natural growth and evolution.

  9. The marriage of Western Medicine and Universal Medicine is a match made in Heaven. The two combined give us an understanding of the physical and the energetic backdrop to the how, what, where and why illness and disease happens.

  10. ‘living from my tenderness’ – this is a great motto and as things are at the moment a great way to live – reflecting something into the world that is an alternative to the hardness, disconnection and cruelty.

  11. What a different relationship we build with illness and our bodies when we recognise our symptoms as a clearing of an ill energy that we have chosen to live, and therefore what an immense blessing it is to be clearing it from our bodies.

  12. When an archer’s bow is left with the bowstring left in tension, it will over time change the shape of the bow. What happens to our body when we live a life of self-imposed force from outside sources that we hold within us? Do we become the strung bow?

  13. When we do choose to look beneath the surface, we discover so much more about our selves than we ever realised was there. The love and beauty that is locked inside is totally awesome. All it takes is a bit of esoteric healing to bring it to the fore, pushing out as it does so all that does not belong to it.

  14. To look at the truth of our ills allows us to bring healing. To refuse the awareness that is already there takes us deeper into the ill.

  15. I was talking to someone yesterday who totally understood about what you describe here, the deeper meaning to illness. She had had a lot of recent anxiety but understood how her body was giving her so many healing messages through a skin condition that had started as the anxiety started, and there was a deeper connection with the physical body. People are slowly becoming more aware of the messages from their own bodies.

  16. The key ingredients in good health are: a good dose of self-responsibility, heaps of self-respect, a superb Esoteric Practitioner to call upon and a positive relationship with your doctor. Mix well altogether and administer on a regular basis and enjoy the results!

  17. The body is amazing at giving us signs large or small to show us that something is out of balance. For instance, I get a sore toe if I eat too much sugar, it never fails or I would get a headache after eating something too sweet. The key is to heed these warnings and to stop overriding the messages.

    1. So true. All we need to do is ask ourselves the question what could this mean, but we prefer so often the idea that it is random and that we are just unlucky. But the body doesn’t do random and unlucky, it has no less intelligence than our brain, in fact it has far more in truth.

  18. Beautiful how our body speaks to us all the time – all we need to do is learn the language and then respond by altering the quality of our inner world to align to our body’s immense intelligence.

  19. When we get any illness, we often want the cure to get rid of it, but if we can understand the deeper energetic understanding on offer, like you have here knowing that the fungal condition was a disregard for your body, attaching to emotions, we can take the healing offered to another level. The body loves as much healing as possible.

  20. Understanding that emotions and thoughts can be just as toxic, if not more so, than the substances we consume is an eye opener in itself, but then being offered a way to clear these toxins from our bodies with the support of the Esoteric Healing Modalities is even more incredible.

  21. “living in fight or flight, instead of living my absolute truth, solidness and strength, in my power and knowing.” I can relate to this line. It takes time to get to know ourselves and realise we can respond to life instead of feeling what is happening around us is bigger than we are.

  22. I’m very inspired to look at all my ailments and go deeper with asking myself, ok what is my body showing me about how I am living?

  23. After a while of working with the body in this way, it can lead to a greater sensitivity about how reading the messages offered by our body, the deepening our understanding and awareness, and the choice itself of dropping some old hurts/beliefs/strategies, are a form of medicine and can start to shift what is being experienced in the body.

    I am finding this to be the case with an issue in my body that needs surgery. While I am waiting for a surgery procedure some time in the future, I am also deepening my connection with my body and healing the non-physical aspects connected with what is being shown up by my body. Astounding how at times you can keep peeling back layers and layers.

  24. I have a wise friend who coined the phrase “Everything is everything and nothing is nothing.” So yes, it is good to ask what is going on with our bodies, it’s time we knew.

  25. Every part of our body represents such a beautiful aspect of our expression. What a huge shift it is to begin to appreciate the depth of this expression and choose to start letting it all out, with such a gorgeous grace and delicacy, such an important part of our health and our well being.

    1. To consider and embrace that we are more than our symptoms offers the opportunity for healing at the root cause, the source of the symptoms.

  26. There is so much to explore within us, in relation to our health, well being and purpose in this world and the Esoteric Healing Modalities are an incredible support that take us straight in to the real action of why we get ill and how we can support our selves through the process.

    1. Truly, the Esoteric Healing Modalities are an incredible support to get to the bottom of any illness or problem. I find that bringing it back to my choices and how I have lived and understanding the illness as a correction for that, takes out the emotion and feeling a victim or poor me. Instead I can gently nurture myself through the health issue, feeling more steady and reassured. Understanding is a huge healing in itself.

  27. Realising that we can poison ourselves with emotions, and even our thoughts was a huge revelation for me, but makes total sense. We all know how wretched we can feel if/when we let our emotions get the better of us, and how clear and bright we are when we don’t let them. Living in a way that supports us to stay steady is a great way to prevent the body from being poisoned by toxic emotions.

    1. When we start to entertain negative thoughts our bodies can very quickly become heavy and thick with the emotion this stimulates. I often used to indulge in thoughts as a form of escape but if I ever catch myself doing this now the initial heaviness feels too horrible to take it any further and I find that by not paying the thought any heed, the energy of it isn’t allowed in.

  28. If you’ve got an itch, scratch it. But look beyond the itch and see why it’s there in the first place. Nice work on looking at the root of the issue.

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