Coming Back to Truth

By Anonymous, Lismore, Australia

In my mid-twenties, I was living with a couple of flatmates in Byron Bay. I was living an apparently idyllic lifestyle, with close friends, many hours spent walking on the beach, going surfing and being creative. I worked part-time as a graphic designer for a local newspaper and in odd retail jobs.

It looked like an easy fun-loving life on the surface, though I felt there was something amiss in my life. I felt a deep sense of sadness that I was not living my full potential and that my relationships were not working. My intimate relationships never seemed to last and I would usually be the one to run away. I was in a poor mental state and recall feeling very lost and alone, often calling Lifeline for someone to talk to.

I remember speaking with my flatmate about these issues and she suggested I could go to see Serge Benhayon, a healing practitioner who lived nearby. After living in Byron Bay for many years, I had tried many healing therapies, including different styles of meditation, yoga, chiropractic, natural therapy, acupuncture, psychic readings and massage. I was interested in crystals and energy, and read many spiritual new age books to try and find a deeper understanding of what was missing in my life.

My appointment with Serge was yet another attempt to find something that I thought would ‘fix’ me, in much the same way as I had approached other healing therapies in the past.

I saw Serge for a few sessions and was always met with a level of care and clarity and a level of integrity that I had never experienced before. At times, I felt disappointed because he did not pander to me or sympathise with my problems, but would respond in a simple and clear way with the truth of what he felt was going on, without ever trying to coerce me to accept what he said. Over time I found this to be a true sense of love and care, though initially I found it very challenging. This was because I was so used to looking for relief from my troubles, not taking responsibility for where I had ended up in my life, and I wanted someone to prop me up with what I wanted to hear to please me and appease my emptiness inside. Serge did not do any of this – he delivered truth that was not always comfortable to hear, but that I knew was true by the way I felt inside.

Regardless of my inner struggle, meeting a man with such a high level of integrity and care was a huge blessing, as it was something I had not experienced previously in my life. Despite this, there came a point when I decided not to continue to go to see him for any more sessions. Looking back, it was because I was feeling confronted and I did not want to go any further with going within and returning to what I already innately knew, to uncover what was being presented to me.

A fair time later, at the age of 27, I experienced some significant mental stress after putting too much pressure on myself and not caring for myself deeply or dealing with my inner turmoil. I was trying to fit the picture of what life should look like. I was studying, moving house, starting a new job, and having a long distance relationship. In order to try to alleviate my tension I was self-medicating with homeopathy treatments from the naturopathy course I was studying. I ended up in hospital for 3 weeks before I was well enough to return home and to care for myself. This was devastating and it shook my confidence very strongly. Despite this wake-up call, I continued to not commit to relationships, though I desperately longed for real intimacy. I felt like my life was not going anywhere. I continued with poor mental health over a number of years and was hospitalised again after my father passed away.

One day my mother went for lunch with a group of friends and met a woman who was offering healing sessions in Sacred Esoteric Healing. My mother suggested that I would possibly like to have some healing, as I was struggling with relationship issues. My mother gave me her number and I called the lady, and decided to go and see her, as I knew I needed support.

When I met the woman, she explained she was practising a Universal Medicine modality taught by Serge Benhayon. I was a bit taken aback with this because I had already seen Serge years before, but had decided not to pursue this line of healing or any other healing for that matter. However, with where I was at in my life, I knew I needed something to support me and decided I would re-commit to my own healing. I ended up having regular sessions of Sacred Esoteric Healing and Esoteric Chakra-puncture for a year with this woman, which supported me greatly. Because she was so real and practical, I began to open up to her and began feeling safer expressing myself with others.

I began to attend the monthly presentations held by Universal Medicine which were a great opportunity to get to meet other people who were also interested in health, wellbeing and true healing. The presentations supported me to understand living well through the connection with my body and having healthy relationships – firstly with myself and then with others. This was beautiful for me to feel, as I had longed to be with others who also cared about these things.

In my 30’s I started seeing a psychologist who supported me with regular sessions. Their approach also supported me, since I was never pandered to but rather lovingly supported with truth. With this truth as a foundation, and the chance to feel and express my feelings, I began to take more responsibility for my life and my choices. I then started seeing an esoteric practitioner who supported me to develop my relationship with my body and stop living so much from my head and the raciness and checked-out state I had been living in.

All in all, I began to find the inner life and love I so longed for and began to live it in my outer life.

Through Serge Benhayon’s teachings and the regular support of esoteric practitioners of the modalities of Universal Medicine, along with regular visits to my GP and developing a loving relationship with myself and life, I have found another way of living life from the fullness and potential of who I am, with health and vitality and purpose. Living from an inner-most self that I always knew was within me, means I am now living and enjoying life more than ever before.

It’s not perfect, and I still struggle with the pressures placed on us by society about how we think life should be, or what we should be doing with it, and how we should be looking and what we should have. I also know it’s not about being perfect either – none of us are or will be. But with the ongoing care and support I am now giving myself and taking responsibility for my life, along with the loving people in my everyday life, and the support of Universal Medicine practitioners, I feel I have had the chance to go deeper within to find the gem that I am and to live it in the world.


Read more:

  1. Serge Benhayon: The Truth of Who We Are
  2. Unicorns, Hummus and One Unified Truth 

528 thoughts on “Coming Back to Truth

  1. Being offered the opportunity to know truth, and saying yes to that opportunity is one of the greatest gifts we can be given. It may take some of us longer than others to fully embrace what is on offer, but once we are aware of what is available to us when we choose to fully open our eyes and our heart, the option of turning back to where we were before, for most is not really an option.

  2. ‘Despite this wake-up call, I continued to not commit to relationships, though I desperately longed for real intimacy.’ The most important relationship is the one we have with ourself, this really is key and I have currently been adding a beautifull meditation to my morning routine that supports me with this, that is, Your Essence Gentle Breath Meditation one that I would highly recommend to anyone seeking a deeper connection and intimacy with themselves.

  3. I remember at one stage in my life living what I thought was the dream, only to find I was lost in a consciousness of checked-out-dom, using any means possible to not feel what was really going on. Looking back now, although I had some fun I shudder at the wasted years.

    1. When we live without purpose, consistency and commitment we do end up in a wasteland that can be downright depressing and destructive.

  4. ‘With the ongoing care and support I am now giving myself and taking responsibility for my life, along with the loving people in my everyday life, and the support of Universal Medicine practitioners, I feel I have had the chance to go deeper within to find the gem that I am and to live it in the world.” I with you here, the support of Serge Benhayon is second to none.

  5. “All in all, I began to find the inner life and love I so longed for and began to live it in my outer life.” This is beautiful and is in truth all we need to do, the rest of life will take care of itself if we allow it to unfold naturally.

  6. I love the honesty in this blog – in relation to how often we really seek relief rather than true healing in life. It’s perfectly understandable to seek relief when life becomes challenging and tense – it just doesn’t answer anything. And what I have found is that eventually, the patterns of relief become an issue in themselves. Then what happens? We seek relief from the relief? What we really need is an answer and this is what Serge Benhayon is offering us all, if we choose to hear him.

    1. I agree Richard that so often ‘we really seek relief rather than true healing in life’, as true healing takes a commitment and time, time which most of humanity have convinced themselves they don’t have enough of. We have become a fast-paced society, with fast healing becoming one of the demands. We may get the required relief very quickly but a true healing takes time; as much time as is needed.

  7. Thank-you Anon you have offered an opportunity to reflect back on my first impressions of Serge and the esoteric healing practitioners and modalities, at a time in my life when i too felt super overwhelmed & sorry for myself, I was again and again met by a solidness that simply reflected to me that i was a master of myself, that i held the key to my woes, that if i was to deepen and explore self love then I would no longer be the victim of circumstance but begin to appreciate who i naturally am and confirm a sense of the qualities that I bring – Universal medicine has shown me that i am the source of true self- worth.

    1. There is no power at all in victimhood and the sooner we move through the band of feeling sorry for ourselves, the better it is for us and our health, vitality and wellbeing.

    2. Couldn’t agree with you more, Lucinda, ‘…that if i was to deepen and explore self love then I would no longer be the victim of circumstance…’ I too have found these words to bring a truth to my being that has allowed me to rise out of victimhood and begin a renewed and magical relationship with myself based entirely on self-love.

  8. Connecting to ourselves our innermost and living this beautiful quality in the world changes everything and brings the joy, responsibility and love much needed in the world today.

  9. What is key here is the ability to ‘keep coming back’… coming back to your body, the relationship we have with ourselves… to Love. Then any adjustments or refinements we make to our life are easily and naturally made without the trying, the forcing or the pretending.

  10. Nobody can force us to do our next step nor determine how we take our next step, it always comes back to ourself to move or not to move and our willingness to be truthful or not where we then go.

  11. ‘All in all, I began to find the inner life and love I so longed for and began to live it in my outer life’ It is all there but we have to live it in the world. As we do this things change, they can’t help but do so as we introduce new vibrations and standards to live by. Appreciating that we are choosing this is important for it seals the foundation we have built for ourselves and allows us to continue to grow, creating new levels of quality for ourselves, more space in our lives and gradually in everything we do.

  12. I so agree with your point about when you met Serge Benhayon: “Regardless of my inner struggle, meeting a man with such a high level of integrity and care was a huge blessing, as it was something I had not experienced previously in my life.” I do not consider it an issue that you found the possibility of going deeper into what you innately knew too confronting and decided to not continue to see him. These moments that reflect to us the depth of what is possible are precious gifts that stay with us and when we feel a similar nudge, whether from within or form outside of us, we are more likely to go there and respond to that knowing within us.

    1. I agree Golnaz about how important it is to register the precious moments when the penny drops, and we suddenly understand something we didn’t previously. Appreciating the different journeys we have taken to meet Serge Benhayon has been no coincidence but designed for us to return to live truth in our lives.

  13. When we don’t want to be aware of truth, there comes a point where we just ‘hit a brick wall’ and there is nowhere to go except to surrender to that which we have always known but skilfully avoided for so long.

  14. When we get to the point of really feeling that life isn’t working and can see through the illusions and distractions, we become ready to listen to Truth and embrace a different way. As you so beautifully write, everyone does this in their own time, we will all get there in the end.

  15. When we reconnect with the love inside of us, in our inner most, and bring that back into our daily way of living it’s a win not just for us but for all around us too.

  16. Back to the truth with Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon what a beautiful sharing and way to live your life” I began to find the inner life and love I so longed for and began to live it in my outer life.” with a simplicity honesty and realness we all know.

  17. To find the gem we are and live it in the world … now that’s a great way to express how we can be with the journey of life and something we are all capable of.

    1. very true Monica and is this not the exact opposite of how we have been living thus far? We have been looking for gems all around us getting more and more distracted from the gem we hold within.

  18. The Kingdom of Love is within…as we have been told over many thousands of years by numerous great teachers. Perhaps it is time to listen to them.

  19. One of the most pivotal moments in my life was an esoteric medicine practitioner presented truth to me, undiluted. Initially, it shocked, hurt and I was disorientated, the platform I had built for myself collapsed. Yet in the collapse and with new awareness, I remained open and laid the seeds of my own resurrection. Without knowing where I was headed, I took it with both hands and never looked back.

  20. To come back to truth is to come back to the part of us that is whole and complete and does not need the outward search to know the everything it already is.

  21. When truth is presented to us, we can all feel this is the real deal but we have to be ready to listen and accept this. Sometimes it can be very exposing to feel how we have been living, either not wanting to let go of comfort, or revealing how unloving we have been.

  22. Taking deep care for ourselves on most accounts has not been our primary focus, if anything we have been taught that it is self-indulgent and others are more important or what needs to be done is more important. Claiming we are worth this intimate love and care is definitely a step towards appreciating how magnificent we truly are and that our body and being are worth investing in.

  23. We are so multifaceted and when it comes to healing we may benefit from an approach that is all encompassing – medical and psychological support, and complementary to medicine therapies as provided by Universal Medicine. I personally have found that the more I sort out my mental and emotional state the better my physical health is, and I am more able to be present with myself and make supportive daily choices for my wellbeing. If I am in any kind of emotional or mental turmoil then I find I don’t eat, exercise or sleep well which has a big impact on my body.

  24. When we come to a point of being offered true healing, to get to the root cause of our problem we must appreciate that it is our choices which have brought us to that point – we have already said yes to healing on one level, we then just need to take the remaining steps to stay on that path.

    1. And in appreciating the impact of our own choices then there can be a true empowerment in that, to see the potential we have moving forwards.

  25. It is good that we have services like a lifeline to call but do we ever question why it is so normal that these services have been established in the first place?

  26. The natural state of the body needs to be restored after which the intelligence of it can lead us to our true way to go. The Universal Medicine modalities to me are the first in the world that support in this restoration of this natural state we are here talking about.

  27. It is usually when we come to a point in our life that we cannot go on the way we are living, that’s when we are willing to be open to see any possibilities of change. When we grab these opportunities life changes.

  28. “… I have had the chance to go deeper within to find the gem that I am and to live it in the world.” What a gift this is for you and for every one you meet Anonymous… an inspirational sharing.

  29. I love how there are so many people to support us with the Esoteric modalities and when one persons expression might be too direct for us there is another person right there to support us in a way we can relate to and is going at our pace. Yet the quality of care what is being delivered is the same.

  30. When we paint ourselves into a corner and sit on our chair and enjoy the view is this giving up or just comfort? What holds us in this space is the thought that the paint is still wet, an illusion we also create to keep us there. The first step is the hardest, but we are worth every step back to who we are.!

  31. I resisted going for session from an esoteric practitioner because I could feel all that was offered in doing so; however once I did, I wished I had much sooner.

    1. Often we deny our selves from the sessions as we know that we will be exposed in the way we are living and our choices, and we are in so much comfort that we don’t want to make healthy and true choices. We enjoy living the lie we are in.

  32. Being love is a very big decision in our life – it is very simple and we don’t control love and there is no identification as it is what it is. Alternatives to this approach can seem very attractive for a long time.

    1. True and we have invested heavily for a long time in not being Love so we have to drop our pride, turn around and walk back the way we came.

  33. Although truth can at times be very confronting, it is crucial that we learn to see it as an opportunity to be more of who we truly are and to hold ourselves in love and understanding of where we have been and never to judge or criticise ourselves for it.

  34. Nobody can force us to do the steps that are true to us. It comes back to our own willingness, our willingness to learn, let go and move on.

  35. ‘It’s not perfect, and I still struggle with the pressures placed on us by society about how we think life should be, or what we should be doing with it, and how we should be looking and what we should have.” This I can relate to – and love that we don’t have to be perfect – I have tried so hard and given so many people a hard time because they are not perfect! Great to put that burden down.

    1. The perfection ideal is so harmful, I’ve lived it putting unimaginable pressure on myself, all for the agony of trying to achieve a picture (and an ever changing one), not realising the beauty of my essence within me and how it far is surpasses any pictures of how we are supposedly meant to be. The joy of connecting to that within myself and also in others leaves no room for the perfection tyrant. It wasn’t til I wrote this that I realised how much perfectionism has left my life as a result of the support of Universal Medicine – what an enormous appreciation to come to today.

  36. When we meet truth we know it but not necessarily embrace it, but such a moment is any way the beginning of the return, may we like it or not. The rest is just a matter of time ( and the choice of more or less suffering).

    1. Yes we do know truth when we come across it even though we might resist it. Sometimes it seems easier to choose the suffering but once truth has been recognised it cannot be easily forgotten.

  37. When we are ready to truly connect to and live our purpose then anything is possible. When we have no purpose – we get comfortable and do not feel the tension of where we can go next.

    1. I would say that when we have no purpose, we feel a tension in that, because it’s not our natural way of being. There’s always a tension, because there is always more to us and of us – greater aspects of ourselves – that we could be living and expressing.

  38. There has to come a point where we hate so much what is not true that we are committed to change our choices. It will never happen from a well meaning intent if we have not felt the full extent of the rot.

    1. I’m wth you there Joseph – it’s that moment when you draw the line in the sand and say – no more – my life has to be about love and light, it will not be about grabbing what I can to stay neck deep in rot and numbing myself out when I’m faced with more love than I have ever felt in my body before.

  39. I’m aware in myself that I can hear a truth, know it as knowledge but cannot translate it into a living way. The unfolding has it’s own path and cannot be forced.

Leave a Comment

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s