Coming Back to Truth

By Anonymous, Lismore, Australia

In my mid-twenties, I was living with a couple of flatmates in Byron Bay. I was living an apparently idyllic lifestyle, with close friends, many hours spent walking on the beach, going surfing and being creative. I worked part-time as a graphic designer for a local newspaper and in odd retail jobs.

It looked like an easy fun-loving life on the surface, though I felt there was something amiss in my life. I felt a deep sense of sadness that I was not living my full potential and that my relationships were not working. My intimate relationships never seemed to last and I would usually be the one to run away. I was in a poor mental state and recall feeling very lost and alone, often calling Lifeline for someone to talk to.

I remember speaking with my flatmate about these issues and she suggested I could go to see Serge Benhayon, a healing practitioner who lived nearby. After living in Byron Bay for many years, I had tried many healing therapies, including different styles of meditation, yoga, chiropractic, natural therapy, acupuncture, psychic readings and massage. I was interested in crystals and energy, and read many spiritual new age books to try and find a deeper understanding of what was missing in my life.

My appointment with Serge was yet another attempt to find something that I thought would ‘fix’ me, in much the same way as I had approached other healing therapies in the past.

I saw Serge for a few sessions and was always met with a level of care and clarity and a level of integrity that I had never experienced before. At times, I felt disappointed because he did not pander to me or sympathise with my problems, but would respond in a simple and clear way with the truth of what he felt was going on, without ever trying to coerce me to accept what he said. Over time I found this to be a true sense of love and care, though initially I found it very challenging. This was because I was so used to looking for relief from my troubles, not taking responsibility for where I had ended up in my life, and I wanted someone to prop me up with what I wanted to hear to please me and appease my emptiness inside. Serge did not do any of this – he delivered truth that was not always comfortable to hear, but that I knew was true by the way I felt inside.

Regardless of my inner struggle, meeting a man with such a high level of integrity and care was a huge blessing, as it was something I had not experienced previously in my life. Despite this, there came a point when I decided not to continue to go to see him for any more sessions. Looking back, it was because I was feeling confronted and I did not want to go any further with going within and returning to what I already innately knew, to uncover what was being presented to me.

A fair time later, at the age of 27, I experienced some significant mental stress after putting too much pressure on myself and not caring for myself deeply or dealing with my inner turmoil. I was trying to fit the picture of what life should look like. I was studying, moving house, starting a new job, and having a long distance relationship. In order to try to alleviate my tension I was self-medicating with homeopathy treatments from the naturopathy course I was studying. I ended up in hospital for 3 weeks before I was well enough to return home and to care for myself. This was devastating and it shook my confidence very strongly. Despite this wake-up call, I continued to not commit to relationships, though I desperately longed for real intimacy. I felt like my life was not going anywhere. I continued with poor mental health over a number of years and was hospitalised again after my father passed away.

One day my mother went for lunch with a group of friends and met a woman who was offering healing sessions in Sacred Esoteric Healing. My mother suggested that I would possibly like to have some healing, as I was struggling with relationship issues. My mother gave me her number and I called the lady, and decided to go and see her, as I knew I needed support.

When I met the woman, she explained she was practising a Universal Medicine modality taught by Serge Benhayon. I was a bit taken aback with this because I had already seen Serge years before, but had decided not to pursue this line of healing or any other healing for that matter. However, with where I was at in my life, I knew I needed something to support me and decided I would re-commit to my own healing. I ended up having regular sessions of Sacred Esoteric Healing and Esoteric Chakra-puncture for a year with this woman, which supported me greatly. Because she was so real and practical, I began to open up to her and began feeling safer expressing myself with others.

I began to attend the monthly presentations held by Universal Medicine which were a great opportunity to get to meet other people who were also interested in health, wellbeing and true healing. The presentations supported me to understand living well through the connection with my body and having healthy relationships – firstly with myself and then with others. This was beautiful for me to feel, as I had longed to be with others who also cared about these things.

In my 30’s I started seeing a psychologist who supported me with regular sessions. Their approach also supported me, since I was never pandered to but rather lovingly supported with truth. With this truth as a foundation, and the chance to feel and express my feelings, I began to take more responsibility for my life and my choices. I then started seeing an esoteric practitioner who supported me to develop my relationship with my body and stop living so much from my head and the raciness and checked-out state I had been living in.

All in all, I began to find the inner life and love I so longed for and began to live it in my outer life.

Through Serge Benhayon’s teachings and the regular support of esoteric practitioners of the modalities of Universal Medicine, along with regular visits to my GP and developing a loving relationship with myself and life, I have found another way of living life from the fullness and potential of who I am, with health and vitality and purpose. Living from an inner-most self that I always knew was within me, means I am now living and enjoying life more than ever before.

It’s not perfect, and I still struggle with the pressures placed on us by society about how we think life should be, or what we should be doing with it, and how we should be looking and what we should have. I also know it’s not about being perfect either – none of us are or will be. But with the ongoing care and support I am now giving myself and taking responsibility for my life, along with the loving people in my everyday life, and the support of Universal Medicine practitioners, I feel I have had the chance to go deeper within to find the gem that I am and to live it in the world.

 

Read more:

  1. Serge Benhayon: The Truth of Who We Are
  2. Unicorns, Hummus and One Unified Truth 

530 thoughts on “Coming Back to Truth

  1. This is what is so refreshing about Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine because there is no pandering or sympathy which is what our spirit wants and thrives on. Instead we are supported to take responsibility for our lives and interactions. I found this way to be completely different to say psychotherapy where I was encouraged to feel I was the victim and that it was everyone else’s problem not mine so there is never a true sense of healing it’s just like putting a band aide over a wound but the wound never heals it just festers away.

  2. Every time I’m in a funk I find that the way out of it can be found in one aspect or another of the Esoteric work as presented by Serge Benhayon and many others. I’ve yet to find an area of life that it doesn’t or can’t cover because it’s based on everything already being in me. And since I am in every part of my life, nothing is impossible to heal from.

  3. I concur indeed it is ‘Regardless of my inner struggle, meeting a man with such a high level of integrity and care was a huge blessing, as it was something I had not experienced previously in my life.’ It tells us something about the way we are living when currently it is a rarity to meet a man or woman with such a high level of integrity and care … this should be our normal at the very least.

  4. I am back on this blog again and once again feel the appreciation of reading blogs by people and for people who are interested in asking ‘why’ and not just looking for solutions to ailments or issues. We are so incredibly powerful in our own healing when we take the front seat – perhaps even the driving seat of our own health.

  5. There is an acceptance that can be felt in this writing that we can all occasionally tumble and make mistakes and that is ok. Being open to understanding this is such a big part of our learning process.

  6. What freedom is in these words “It’s not perfect, and I still struggle with the pressures placed on us by society about how we think life should be, or what we should be doing with it, and how we should be looking and what we should have. I also know it’s not about being perfect either – none of us are or will be.” We do not have to strive for perfection – ever, and do not need to fit others pictures of us, we can just be imperfect in who we are.

  7. I am glad you have found a new perspective of life, and consider yourself to be more responsible over your personal well being, however, I don’t think you should be too surprised at hearing about Serge Benhayon from people close to you, especially if he practices in your region, so don’t take it as too much of a sign, more so see it as his name and his practices are reaching more and more people. We are Physiological, Biological and Psychological beings and we are so lucky to live our time on this earth. Don’t give your money away to any institutions, unless it is responsible to do so, and continue to treat yourself well, enjoy your journey x

  8. I too spent most of my life with that feeling that something was missing. Things seemed good but I couldn’t quite put my finger on it but something always felt not quite right. Now thanks to the ageless wisdom I know what it was, its not rocket science, it was living the full me in every moment that was missing. It will just sound like words until you try it, but it is worth giving it a go.

  9. It is so important to question if what we have subscribed to is truly what we want to align to, if it holds our values. If we don’t we can find ourselves living a life that is not really ‘us’ but moving to someone else’s tune which inevitably causes unease physically and emotionally.

  10. “All in all, I began to find the inner life and love I so longed for and began to live it in my outer life.” The truth is, we all know what is inside us and when we connect inside. It’s all there for us to walk with in the world.

  11. “It looked like an easy fun-loving life on the surface.” And how many could say the same? All too many of us present a front that all is okay, but who are we really fooling? Only ourselves.

    1. So true and yet it is accepted and even encouraged with social media. It only takes one to make a choice to not subscribe to that and, who knows, it may become a ‘thing’ to be our awesome selves.

  12. Whilst the chaos of life rages around me, I am building a steadiness and sureness in life that is both beautiful and miraculous. This is absolutely because of the support of Universal Medicine.

    1. Agreed. The craziness of life, the bizarre behaviour that defies logic is much easier to observe when you have a foundation of living that knows what feels true in the body. Observing and not absorbing then becomes a more trusted way to live.

  13. In our lives, we have this picture of what it means to make it or have it all. It could be a nice car, family, nice house, a couple of holidays a year …. and on the outside, it may look like we have it made and have a perfect life but on the inside, the emptiness is still present and at times can feel like a big gaping hole in our stomachs. No amount of possessions or idyllic lifestyles will give us a connection to our innermost.

  14. I love your honesty in saying ‘It looked like an easy fun-loving life on the surface, though I felt there was something amiss in my life.” There is more to life than surface living, we are made to go deep within and discover the divinity we are.

    1. And I am now grateful for that constant unease I felt, even when my life on the surface was going great, because it was constantly inviting me to explore deeper, behind the facade.

  15. To “have had the chance to go deeper within to find the gem that I am and to live it in the world” – this is so precious for us all to learn from, for we are all gems that can shine so brightly and the world needs gems.

  16. “I also know it’s not about being perfect either – none of us are or will be.” Aiming for perfection and having pictures of how things ‘should be’ is a killer. There lies disappointment and not feeling good enough. Far better to appreciate even baby steps to truth and being who we truly are.

  17. Thankyou for sharing Anon. “All in all, I began to find the inner life and love I so longed for and began to live it in my outer life.” Without an inner life we just live functionally and materially. No wonder so many turn to distractions to attempt to numb themselves.

    1. Yes, me included. I thought the outer life was the only reality there was . It is only when I wondered where the playfulness of my childhood had gone and found that connection again in the Esoteric Healing Therapies that I recognised what I had walked away from. Re-developing that connection has been an incredible gift.

  18. I agree that when having a session with Serge Benhayon I was also met with a level of care and integrity that I have not encountered anywhere else both in conventional and complementary health.

      1. Absolutely, it was a great marker and inspiration for me as a health care practitioner myself to see and feel this level of dedication to care and has led to me bringing this more and more into my own practice which has hugely benefited me and my clients.

    1. I have had one session with Serge – many years ago now. The level of care, integrity and love were second to none. Such a powerful reflection and an inspiration.

    1. You can amass and collect as many things on the outside as you like but they will never make up for the missing the connection with what is inside – our inner most essence of who we are.

  19. We may choose to take a wiggly path on our journey by our own choices, but the wonderful thing is that we will all eventually come back to truth. Our body supports us to feel the difference.

  20. Retirement is just a name for changing jobs and golden opportunity to find new ways to evolve. They also pay you monthly to stay away and not work for them.

  21. What an inspiring example of a return to the wisdom that is within to influence the way we live. It seems we need permission to return to the common sense our body is sharing with us on how to deal with the tension we experience in modern life.

    1. There is nothing more settling than coming home in this way, Matilda. There might be a little turbulence before landing as the truth we wanted to avoid is right there in front of our faces… but on making the landing “welcome home” could never be truer.

  22. Realizing how easy is seeing what’s not working, the mind goes very quick to find the faults but appreciation is a choice that heals, restores and brings us back to the joy of living.

    1. How many have forgotten what self-appreciation is and replaced it with doing? I know I can raise my hand. When life feels simple and as you have said, the mind steps in to ensure it is everything but simple to keep us from feeling.

      1. Yes, both my hands are up as well and unlearning the doing in response to the feeling will be an ongoing joy-filled process of returning to the common sense of my body!

  23. At this point in time, reading such an unfolding process supports me very much. True, in the society we live in there is a plenty of should and shouldn’ts that establish a kind of standard, and I’m observing recently in myself how this has conditioned my way of being and relating with others for so long.
    But what I love most from being part of Universal Medicine is that thanks to living my own experience in life – beyond the imposing rules from this world – I’m learning a lot, that we can live with ease and joy, accepting our imperfections, our struggles, the huge contraction we have been in for so long…and the pure beauty that we are by nature.
    Appreciating this process and the fact that I’m equally precious like everyone else, supports me to come back to me and to embrace a way of living that starts with loving myself unconditionally. A beautiful process that, as you well said Anon, is far away from perfection, but truthful.

  24. For sure, we can all wobble with the pressures we come under, and what life throws our way, but when we know truth, as the Ageless Wisdom is presented through Universal Medicine, we know we can very quickly return back to deepening our relationship with ourselves.

    1. What is amazing is there a whole new generation that is growing up being aware of false ideals. What can they do with an entire life of being conscious of the world around them?

  25. ‘I also know it’s not about being perfect either – none of us are or will be.’ And perfection is not required – as the love within us all IS perfect in every respect.

    1. Yes I agree. And what I used to think of as care feels paltry today. I love that this relationship with care and nurturing is always developing and the impact it has had on my health and the way I relate to others is super cool.

  26. ‘I was living an apparently idyllic lifestyle, with close friends, many hours spent walking on the beach, going surfing and being creative’ – it’s interesting how we can have an idyllic lifestyle people would die for (as the saying goes) and yet still find that there is a discontentment deep within.

  27. ‘I feel I have had the chance to go deeper within to find the gem that I am and to live it in the world.’ This is really wonderful. I handed over who I should be to the world but now I’m discovering I can be me in the world and life becomes playful.

  28. The truth never waivers. We are the ones that waiver. Which means whenever we choose to return to it it is instantly there. True truth that is.

  29. It is so great that you were open enough to go round in circles and return to a teacher who felt true for you. The journey of searching was necessary for you to find out what you didn’t want to then find what you did.

    1. There is no better dose of medicine that developing a better relationship with the body and responding to its communications.

  30. The day I first met Serge Benhayon was the day that my life began to change. It was an absolute blessing and a day I shall never forget. Serge delivers truth in a few words that I simply could not deny. What we then choose to do with them is up to us.

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