CATARACTS and the CATACOMBS of the MIND

By Roberta Himing, Student of Life, Australia 

The final check for the visual function of the new lenses following cataract surgery was complete and the journey home once again on the public transport system, gave me the opportunity to reflect upon this latest little medical adventure of mine. So much to marvel at as I thought about the surgery associated with the cataractous lenses. Dr. Anne Malatt, an ophthamologist, had gently indicated a few months earlier it could be time to consider the removal of the thickening cataracts from my eyes.

What was it that was being revealed to me? What lay behind the fact of experiencing ‘blurred’ vision or even the fact of having had to wear prescription eye glasses since a teenager? Had I been viewing life in reaction rather than response?

There had only been a few events in this life that I had knowingly recoiled from in fear, trepidation or disbelief, wanting desperately for the things that I saw or was aware of to be different, though I had had a difficulty in accepting the horror of the newsworthy events of the world, subjecting myself to feeling the pain and supposed injustice personally.

At that time, I did not have the understanding that the energy of all expression flows through us constantly, notwithstanding whether these energies were seen to be immoral or benevolent, leaving me contemplating whether we had at some point a choice in allowing these unloving energies to take hold. The constant thoughts and the enquiring mind also saw me wondering whether we all had indeed had a part to play in some way through our past choices and behaviours on our world and the current state of play we are all experiencing.

Some may see this cataract removal surgery as commonplace.  Not uncommon at all, however, how many of us would choose to take the time to look within a little more carefully to gauge what it really means energetically? Surely, it’s not a part of the Divine Plan for all those with numerous candles on their cake to line up as on an assembly line at a certain age to correct the supposed ravages of what some may see as Time. One could marvel at the numbers being in the hundreds of thousands of such surgeries.

Could it be that there is a deeper understanding behind this condition? I am slowly learning to leave the ‘catacombs of the mind’ and connect with me, listening now more to my body as it clearly lets me know of the disregard of many of my previous choices in life. Did I really listen to my body when I pushed through doggedly to complete the ‘to do’ lists? Was I endeavouring to justify or prove that I was at least loveable at some level, as someone who could always be relied upon to say ‘yes’ even if it was detrimental to my physical and delicate womanly body? There had been so many instances of the ‘doing’ of physical tasks just to be noticed, acknowledged, recognised and ultimately accepted as worthy of existence. Where was this woman in livingness – where had I been? Had I been lost in a consciousness of a certain indoctrination, blindly following the ideals and belief systems of a wayward humanity?

As grace would have it, there did eventually come a time when, crumpled physically and emotionally, I knew there had to be another way, and falsely I sought that other way in the spiritual ramblings and the seduction of the New Age movement for a time until it was shown clearly that this was not a way of Truth. It seems that I was well entrenched in the mind where gathered information had been downloaded from another source outside of myself, resulting in persistent foggy choices still being made while endeavouring to search those recesses for the answers. Thank God, and with deep appreciation I finally listened to my inner heart, that place of connection with Soul within. There lies another continuing story of seeing with clarity that the Truth that I had been seeking possibly in so many thousands of lives was held within all along. Oooh! The games that are played in the guano embellished caverns of the mind, however out of the guano is also the potential for a deeper beauty to unfold.

Wow! What a revelation embraced in that moment. My own perception as a knowing was offered not only from within on this specific occasion, but only days later a deepened wisdom of understanding the truth also from a very wise young woman, Natalie Benhayon, confirming and adding to my words shared in regards to my interpretation of the relevance of this eye condition. Was it possible that in my many lives there had been a build-up, a thickening/pollution that was blocking my true sight – the inner signs of what we feel and sense intuitively, perhaps even to the point of ‘not wanting to see’ and perhaps ‘harbouring pictures of how one would prefer life to be’.

So much to ponder on…

My travelling time on the light rail was nearing the end, where I was to a-light, but I recalled and felt to share a moment bathing in the Magic of God. Looking back, it was after 5.00 o’clock late afternoon. The day was winding down with the fiery light of the sun at about 51 degrees settling in the western sky. High humidity following the hot day saw the storm clouds already having moved easterly out to the ocean horizon. I was resting quietly following surgery that morning to remove the cataract from my right eye and the insertion of a new lens. Deep appreciation was coursing through as an awareness not only of the skill of the surgeon and the caring team but the opportunity of being given another chance to look at life more clearly and from a different perspective with a greater sense of seeing beyond the obvious temporal view.

I felt the impulse to step outside onto the balcony of our high-rise apartment and it had to be answered. What appeared to me to be an offering, perhaps a blessing, was delivered in the form of what one could call a natural phenomenon, a gift from God from His heavenly presence. I will endeavour to describe in simple language what I saw with these human eyes, albeit with the right eye covered at that time with a perforated plastic shield.

The sea was dark and still. A magnificent single voluminous dark cumulo-nimbus cloud in all its shades of dark hues hung like a dirigible just there in all its glory at about 2,000 feet above the almost smooth ocean surface.  It seemed so near one could see the heavy rain leaving this cloud, but as the rain fell closer to the water it was apparent that the density of the rainfall was becoming lighter until at about 500 feet it was visible as a dissipating mist effectively leaving a treasure, a jewel of a huge elliptical shaped rainbow the size of a very large lake on the surface of the now still sea. What a gift – how divine.

I see with more clarity now the games of the human spirit and it seems there is no end to the ingenuity or the insidious desires that these forces inflict on the unsuspecting masses.  Have we all not only been lied to, but have we in fact been responsible for the demand or development of the lies due to not being ready to accept responsibility or transparency of the Truth? What is it that I did not really want to see but instead chose to cover the Truth with a film to dull the sight?

Could there be such a thing as a science to explain the dynamic forces that seem to control all that we choose to see and possibly could there even be a science to explain why I have chosen to dwell in the consciousness of ‘comfort’? Is it possible that ‘cataracts’ are a result of being in resistance to what is clearly seen and felt? Does the surgical procedure of the removal of the cataracts from my eyes offer a remarkable clearing and healing opportunity, not just on a physical level, but an opportunity to heal old ways of seeing life and people that have not been true and whole.

As I sit at my computer writing this blog with a new lens in each eye I am astounded at this gift of newly gained in-sight – having received the offering of the possible truth behind my sojourn of “Cataracts and the Catacombs of the Mind”.

 

Read more:

  1. Sparkling Eyes 
  2. Seeing is believing – or is it? 

335 thoughts on “CATARACTS and the CATACOMBS of the MIND

  1. Life is so rich when we see beyond the superficial and only human aspects; to allow ourselves to explore what is being offered when physical conditions arise and what a true healing would be rather than a quick fix alleviation of symptoms and then back to our old ways.

    1. Amusing that so there is so much focus on finding the ‘more’ of everything in order to satiate the emptiness many of us feel, but we have so much already. As you say “Life is so rich when we see beyond the superficial and only human aspects”. And this blog is a great example of the possibility of deeply engaging with every aspect of it.

  2. ‘So much to ponder on…..’ indeed, in order to clear the catacombs of the mind of the mire we tend to be stuck in to such a degree that it even compromises our body over time. We can either thoroughly ponder (thinking with and from the body) or our body does it for us.

  3. It is so easy for our perception and view of life to become clouded by the ideals and beliefs we live by in life. So it feels great to embrace what medicine has to offer in removing the barriers to seeing life clearly.

  4. I love the depth of the questions asked. This way of reflecting could be applied to every aspect of life. We don’t do that nearly enough. If we did, life would be so much richer.

  5. “Could it be that there is a deeper understanding behind this condition? I am slowly learning to leave the ‘catacombs of the mind’ and connect with me, listening now more to my body as it clearly lets me know of the disregard of many of my previous choices in life.” Every condition in life has a root cause, but this is rarely treated, suppressing symptoms and ‘fixing’ them being the preferred state of medicine. However Serge Benhayon offers us a different way with Universal Medicine – also in tandem with the conventional approach. The best of both worlds.

  6. OMG Roberta – How exquisitely beautiful is this description of the experience from your balcony. A blessing and confirmation of the stripping away of energetic layers of limited vision, from eyes previously governed by aeons of lies and illusion, to reveal the Grace, Magnificence and Magic of God through ‘new eyes’ offering a deeper understanding and awareness of Truth.
    “The sea was dark and still. A magnificent single voluminous dark cumulo-nimbus cloud in all its shades of dark hues hung like a dirigible just there in all its glory at about 2,000 feet above the almost smooth ocean surface. It seemed so near one could see the heavy rain leaving this cloud, but as the rain fell closer to the water it was apparent that the density of the rainfall was becoming lighter until at about 500 feet it was visible as a dissipating mist effectively leaving a treasure, a jewel of a huge elliptical shaped rainbow the size of a very large lake on the surface of the now still sea. What a gift – how divine”

  7. Every physical illness or event that happens to us, offers us an opportunity to reflect deeper on its meaning and how this has lead to it in the first place.

    1. Yes every issue we are faced with is there for us to connect to and deepen our awareness and expression of our amazingness. Roberta offers a great example of how we could relate to all such instances. The more we allow the unraveling, the less the issues will keep repeating.

  8. In re-developing more awareness I am seeing things that I did not want to see previously. The world is currently in a very ugly and evil mess and the clean-up always begins with ourselves first – living with energetic integrity, responsibility and accountability is the game-changer..

    1. Yes, the buck stops with everyone of us and the more we open our eyes to what is going on and become very honest, the more will, over time, change.

  9. Could reacting to life have a significant impact on our body much more than we care to realise and admit? Reacting is normal – at times we are all moving in reaction in some shape or form yet could reacting to life be a cause of illness and disease including problems with the eyes? Could as we get older react more to life blaming the next generation unless we deal with reaction when it shows up in our lives? There is much to be said about reaction and the unwillingness to be responsible for our lives.

  10. We have to say yes to the healing offered to truly heal and release the root of the condition we find ourselves with and in doing so we are offered the opportunity to start again without the energetic manifestation and with the learning of the healing process – we are offered so much through our bodies that we do not fully yet appreciate.

    1. So true Michael. On the whole we prefer to not take responsibility for our ill health – and then want a quick fix – which even if it were possible – how can that happen overnight when symptoms may have taken years to build inside the body and eventually manifest. We do not truly appreciate the magnificence of our bodies and how our lifestyle choices can affect our lives.

  11. A brilliant sharing of the deeper reflections of our sight and life and the magic of God in the moments and miracles we see. So much to ponder on and reveal in the myriads of lies deceptions and myths of life that hold us blind to what is really on offer and going on until we truly choose to see it all layer by layer revealing life itself and what it is all about and the true purpose we are here for.

  12. To have awareness of the Universal rhythms and cycles and choosing to return to living in alignment with them is the foundation for a far grander vision with the inner eyes of the heart being all seeing and all knowing.

  13. Thank you Roberta for exploring the view about eyesight from an energetic perspective that makes sense to me. Since attending events with Serge Benhayon it has certainly exposed where it is more comfortable through familiarity of beliefs carried through generations, to see things as we want them to be rather than how they actually are
    “Was it possible that in my many lives there had been a build-up, a thickening/pollution that was blocking my true sight – the inner signs of what we feel and sense intuitively, perhaps even to the point of ‘not wanting to see’ and perhaps ‘harbouring pictures of how one would prefer life to be”’.

  14. It´s like playing hide and seek with truth – we cannot but know and seek truth but know every trick in the book to conceal it with lies to keep us from getting to it. There obviously is a science or even ‘art’ form to the game we play, the only question is, for how long do we use it to bury the truth in the catacombs and when do we start to use it to emerge out of the ‘guano’ (mud of self-chosen unawareness).

  15. I love your description of the catacombs of the mind Roberta, it does feel like that sometimes. The connection to the body and the heart is so different from the mind, and there are forces at play to attempt to keep us in those catacombs and stop the journey of evolution for each if us. With renewed sight, your clarity is spot on.

  16. The question of how capable or willing we are to see truth needs to be asked at any moment as there are layers upon layers of ‘lies’ or illusions we have bought into and hold onto that keep us from truly seeing – this is part of the path of return or restoring full awareness. And as always the body never lies but is honestly serving that process of discarding.

    1. If I can ask myself the question of how willing I am to see the truth and do this with great understanding, I get to explore the layers of illusion and lies that I have adopted to cope with life, that actually fog over the richness that is life when we are open to learning.

  17. ‘…resistance to what is clearly seen and felt…’ – we only need to make ourselves aware that we can only ever react and or resist to something that is already perceived and felt, but usually we then are caught in the reaction to the fact and thereby forget to go back to the cause, learn from it about ourselves and our relationship with life, admitting to the at times unpleasant (mildly said) reality that we have made our existence ‘by choice’, ie. how we have contributed to it. It is our willingness to see things for what they are in relation to what they should be based on the universal and divine order and nature that governs the whole sphere of life – it is in this tension that we can learn to re-align to truth or may choose to hold on to the hurt, reaction, identification, protection and blindness.

  18. I find apathy, giving up and concerning myself with my own safety and comfort are very effective in reducing my awareness of what I react to. It is only when my eye sight began failing that I took it seriously that there was a lot I was reacting to in life and not wanting to see, especially with those close to me.

    1. My eyesight became poor when I was very young – not wanting to ‘see’ what was going on in family. But I accept it was my choice, not wanting to feel the truth of what was there. Learning to see and discerning truth is a learning process for me still. Back to my body……..

  19. Nothing is nothing and everything is everything… even what may appear as the smallest of details and most insignificant things are important in life, and when we bring them all together we see how lovingly and constantly we are always supported.

  20. What an awareness to bring to our understanding of why our eyes need support in seeing. So I wonder, if I need reading glasses, is it supporting me to develop the discipline to look closer at the details of life and if I need glasses when I’m driving, does it infer that I need support to see the bigger picture and my place within it alongside everyone else? Beautiful ponderings to bring to an activity that is so common place we don’t really stop to question it.

  21. I simply love those moments when it feels like all of nature and God himself is speaking to me and the world stops for a moment for me to deeply drink in and appreciate the moment of divinity.

    1. These are the moments where the sheer beauty of nature brings me out of the caves of my mind to connect with the majesty of the all.

  22. ‘Have we all not only been lied to, but have we in fact been responsible for the demand or development of the lies due to not being ready to accept responsibility or transparency of the Truth?’ Yes as your whole blog reveals is that we don’t want to see what is before our own eyes but try to twist or make our own version of what we see and where we are a part of, everyone equally so.

  23. I have worn prescription glasses since I was eight – before that life was a blur and in school I had to sit really close to the blackboard until somebody twigged what the problem was. Some children get glasses when they are very young, less than a year old. It makes a difference when you can see, but there is more to feel and that sense is often dulled by being at boarding school where you have to behave and there is little freedom to be yourself.

  24. The catacombs of the mind feels an appropriate description – another would be a maze or web of the mind that pulls us into deceit, lies and above all the arrogance that the mind is right.

  25. Wow Roberta – a big STOP moment in the second paragraph – a previously unconsidered awareness regarding eyesight problems and my body has let me know very clearly that there is much to ponder upon before continuing to read the remainder of your blog!
    “Had I been viewing life in reaction rather than response?”

    1. I think this is a big STOP moment for all of us/humanity Stephanie ‘Had I been viewing life in reaction rather than response?’

  26. ” responsibility or transparency of the Truth? What is it that I did not really want to see but instead chose to cover the Truth with a film to dull the sight?” This is a powerful sharing of our sight and how we use it to not see the truth that is presented and reacted to, instead of receiving what there is to be felt and the responsibility of this, and the sharing that this is beautiful as it is never too late to change.

  27. Modern medicine is fantastic for what it can do to repair our bodies! We can now replace or mend almost everything in our bodies that are either broken or just worn out. The brain is still on the list to conquer, but, it is the part that can hit the reset button and continue to choose the same lifestyle that we wore bodies out in the first place!

    1. How much wiser to address the propensity for the lifestyle that led to illness, disease or the breakdown of our body, ahead of or alongside the medical help we are seeking. Our reset button would then instead of looping back into the same old groove, now have a chance of supporting the opportunity for change, healing and expansion we are being offered.

  28. It is quite paradoxical really that we have advanced our medical procedures to such an extent that we have made quite complex or risky operations so commonplace and successful, yet have not advanced our selves in the realm of truly understanding why we needed the surgery and treatment in the first place.

    1. Well said Rowena – when you consider how many bright beings there are who were able to design, develop those amazing technological and other procedures – it beggars belief that we don’t during that process – or in our lives ask why it is we have those conditions in the first place.

      1. I agree and yet it makes perfect sense once we realise that the intelligence which drives the technological advances is also responsible for creating the ills. Lack of honesty and deeply stubborn pride keep us pursuing solutions when we are not allowing ourselves to work with the full picture in the knowing that if we do we will be exposed.

  29. I wonder how different eye health and eye health services would be if we considered what is offered in this blog? As it is we do go to have our eyes tested, although some don’t realise insidiously how their eye sight has worsened (sadly some people still drive not realising their eye sight has diminished), we might use drops if our eyes are itchy or sunglasses in the sun – but do we truly honour and care for our eyes? do we truly understand what our eyes are there for and the potential that is beyond human functionality?

    1. I love what I have learned from the way Esoteric Healing and the Ageless Wisdom starts from the point that we are love, divine and perfect already, and anything that does not reflect that is a departure from that true essence. Looking at life from that angle, then regardless of how commonplace something gets, if it does not reflect the stupendousness that is our true nature, it is a strong indication that we need to stop and ask why.

    2. great point Michael – it becomes a new ‘standard’ or ‘normal’ yet it is far from normal. Why is it we are okay with standards that continue to drop e.g. when you look at the rate of illness and disease in the world at the moment they get worse and worse. Why are we not shouting from the rooftops ‘why is this?’

  30. Feeling and being aware of all that is happening both within and around us requires us to be present in our body. This is living in the fullness of who we are and as a result we will have clear sight of what and why things are occurring in our lives.

  31. I wonder how many of us that wear glasses wouldn’t have to if we were willing to look truthfully at what is going on in life. I started to need glasses when I kind of gave up on life and was drinking a lot of alcohol, which probably is not great for the eye sight either if the truth be known.

    1. Kev. I get your point as I have worn glasses on and off for most of my life, and for the past couple of years my eyesight has shown improvement both in my sight test with my optician and also in how my inner and outer vision has expanded. I have no doubt that this all came about from my willingness to see and feel all that was occurring both within and all around me.

  32. One of many beautiful blogs detailing an experience of searching in life and at some point realising the ‘home-coming’ is within us, that it is in connection with our inner most that we access the sense and purpose in life. Thank you, Roberta.

  33. ‘Catacombs of the mind’ having seen the catacombs in Rome years ago I am reminded of pockets of dead issues from our past that still haunt us today, things we haven’t dealt with or let go of, that prevent us from seeing life as it truly is.

  34. Meeting Universal Medicine was such a powerful turning point for me in addressing a range of health conditions by being empowered to get to the root cause of them within me, all of which have had some unresolved emotional issue at their core. The more we are prepared to look within, the greater the opportunity we afford our selves to truly heal, evolve and return to our full glory. To me this is the central purpose of all our medicine.

  35. All illness and disease has an energetic root cause; so often we don’t want to go there, we don’t want to reflect on the way we have lived that has contributed to our demise. Roberta is showing us here how beautiful, revelatory, and liberating the process can be. This is true medicine and true healing.

  36. A brilliant example of treating the whole Roberta from the delicate mechanics & physicality of the eye to the exploration and understanding of choices new and old that cloud the power and depth of our inner-sight.

  37. Gosh – so well said “Have we all not only been lied to, but have we in fact been responsible for the demand or development of the lies due to not being ready to accept responsibility or transparency of the Truth?” that in itself is a pause moment and a much needed discussion for us all.

    1. “Have we all not only been lied to.” Yes and yet we have demanded to be lied to and continue to demand it. We demand the world be a certain way yet recoil in horror and complain when it is. Time for no complaining but owning up to the world we have created.

  38. A common cold is given its name because it’s exactly that – common – but there is always a preciseness to the timing and lead up to getting a cold, and this is an opportunity for us to look at what’s being communicated by our physical body and health, e.g. have we been exhausting ourselves?

    1. And it isn’t hard. As you say Susie could it be that having a cold is simply a result of ‘exhausting ourselves’? The bit we resist is being honest with ourselves because in that we have to take responsibility for the situations we find ourselves in… a minor illness, a divisive society, disharmonious relationships…

    1. Oh how we love to skate and skim over everything. Collectively we all like to keep things super light, we have an aversion to going deeper with pretty much everything. We have set our society up, so as to avoid anything that could possibly take us into ourselves. We are so heavily invested in recreation, distraction, numbing, zoning out, we simply refuse to go deeper, lest we unearth something that we don’t want to find. But in avoiding the potential pain that sits within us, we are also avoiding the absolute gold that lies there too. And the gold is unlimited, whereas the pain is a pin prick in comparison.

      1. I love what you share, Alexis, ‘But in avoiding the potential pain that sits within us, we are also avoiding the absolute gold that lies there too.’ The pin prick of pain is well worth feeling and discarding to reach the unlimited gold that is all ours to connect to.

  39. Having worn glasses since I was 11 I know that I have long been in reaction to what I see and have been told that I am developing cataracts so it is great to read of how you were willing to go beneath the seeming ‘normality’ of needing this surgery because it has become commonplace in older people and take responsibility for the choices you have made that have led to this point. There need be no inevitability to surgery if we are willing to heal the hurts that have led to our reactions and shutting down what is there to be seen.

  40. Thank you Roberta for a great sharing, so much being offered to you for clear insight and sight, I feel for me I have clouded over much of my sight so as not to see and feel the ugliness all around me, and by so doing I also closed off the offerings that were available to help clear so much of the past beliefs that were dulling my insight. I am asking myself what is it that i am not wanting to see?

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