1,060 thoughts on “Chronic Fatigue – it doesn’t have to be this way.”

1. Although great to know where you were at some point, I love the way you didn’t allow the diagnosis to condition the life you wanted and knew it was possible to live. After lovingly taking the steps that were needed, you are now freed of its symptoms and ready to fully live your life with all the distilled learning. Thank you for sharing it and showing that this is possible.

2. AMAZING Ruth, truly amazing, a walking miracle indeed. I can’t image how that time must have been for you but it is so inspiring to hear how your relationship with yourself and life is now. Something I am sure would help many others who currently have Chronic Fatigue.

3. I also find being in contact with people, being out at the shops, talking to others, even waving at a stranger, there is something about simply being with people and making a connection that increases my energy and sense of wellness, as well as my connection to myself. We are made to be together and interact, and to express by being ourselves in our movements or how we speak, etc. Time alone is great when needed, but I’ve really noticed just how supportive and energy boosting it is to be with people.

4. ” I began listening to my body and learning what supported me, and what didn’t.” This is invaluable, regardless of whether we have chronic fatigue or not. How often do we push through when our body is screaming ‘stop’?

5. Nothing has to be the way that it is but things are the way that they are because of the choices we’ve made. It really is as simple as that.

   1. Yes Alexis, and we can change the way things are by changing our choices, in any moment. As you say it really is that simple.

6. Ruth, wow what a journey and inspiring to read.

   If we looked at the general population, many people are suffering from some form of exhaustion and burnout. And if we looked at their lives, you’ll probably discover a commonality, TV, games, phones, social media etc. So where is the time to be with our body then?

   Our lives are about people, we need each other to get us out of what we are suffering/experiencing and there are plenty of people that can truly assist another. This begins with you first and with the commitment and consistency to make a change in how we live, we can turn our lives around by living a more nurturing and loving way and spending more time with ourselves first before anything else.

   1. I stopped watching TV a while ago but with time off work recently because of the summer holidays I found myself watching a programme or two. The effect on my body cannot be denied – there was a definite sluggishness and an increased unwillingness to commit to things that had to get done. The potential for negative thoughts to take hold was much increased too. The simplicity of making space to connect to your body consistently every day and to simply express from there, cannot be underestimated in the positive effect it has on how you feel and how you feel about life. This spills over into all the relationships we have.

      1. It is very marked isn’t it Michelle, when having not watched TV for a while you go back to it, the effects are very noticeable.. and just how many there are. And that’s such an important point you make about how watching and not watching TV influences all our relationships.

      2. I stopped watching TV because for me I felt like my life was passing me by, and I also noticed how hard it was to remain connected to myself and to my body because I would get involved in the programs. I also noticed that my body was experiencing emotional highs and lows and stresses based on what I was watching, not great for my health at all. I was surprised to realise I actually don’t miss TV at all now, in fact life feels richer.

7. Yes Doug, and what better research than the living evidence of those who have walked free of Chronic Fatigue, and many illnesses, turned their heath around by applying the simple teachings of the ageless wisdom as offered by Universal Medicine.

   1. So true – so simple – and so healing. Of course there’s no money in adopting such simple but invaluable measures such as you have done. People need to come before profit. One day they will.

8. “the kidneys carry the energetic life force for the body; they are about commitment to life, yourself and humanity. Because of my reactions to things that had happened in my life previously, my commitment to life and myself dropped severely.” It makes sense that if something challenging or traumatic happens and we don’t seek support then we can embed ourselves into a reaction, such as withdrawing from life to create a false sense of safety, and then disconnect ourselves from engaging ourselves and our bodies fully with life. It seems that we then short circuit the kidney flow.

9. ‘I am a walking miracle … loving living life!!’ Absolutely Ruth. This story needs to be told far and wide and when we look back in history to the impact that Universal Medicine has made on the life of the common man, there you will be in the top pages presenting for all to see the utter profundity of what it means to live connected to the body and the soul.

10. Ruth, you are a living and walking miracle, your story is astounding.

11. “I learned that chronic fatigue is a condition of the kidneys, that the kidneys carry the energetic life force for the body; they are about commitment to life, yourself and humanity. Because of my reactions to things that had happened in my life previously, my commitment to life and myself dropped severely” – this is like a saber of light, this alone offers much clarity and direction. I just looked up chronic fatigue in a dictionary and it already comes with a heaviness of complexity, and ‘there’s not much you can do about it other than to manage it’ – such a contrast. And “Chronic Fatigue keeps you stuck in a cycle that holds you back from who you truly are, separate from others and all you can bring to life. It takes will, commitment and responsibility to walk free of it, but it can be done; I know, because I did it, one step at a time, making loving choices for me” – this is just absolutely stunning. Thank you for sharing your amazing journey, Ruth.

    1. Fumiyo, it seems Chronic Fatigue not only keeps you stuck but, sucks the life force out of you, so why feed it? It definitely is a way to keep you separate from another. And when you come through the other side, life is stunning because people get to see the real you – life will certainly stunned by you then.

12. I recently realised that children can also develop chronic fatigue. I had no idea that this condition affected young children. Re-reading your blog has been great to get a better understanding of what organs in our body are affected by chronic fatigue. It makes sense that you mentioned the kidneys and the lymph glands, and loved how you explained the energetic side of this condition.

13. Thank you again Ruth for this amazing testimony, and for sharing so openly and in such a heartfelt way all that you experienced with your relationship to yourself and with life, and how with the help of Serge and Universal Medicine you could identify the triggers and behaviours causing you to withdraw from life. Your life now and full recovery is truly amazing to read, I especially liked that the light, bright thing you felt coming your way was actually you reconnecting in full to your own self.

    1. Having met you recently Ruth I would never have guessed you once suffered from Chronic Fatigue as you are so full of vitality. It is to the detriment of our health and our society that the works of Universal Medicine are not more widely known.

       1. I could not agree more Mary about the support of Universal Medicine, they have empowered and educated me in so many ways that my life is now unrecognisable to what it once was, I don’t have a ‘perfect life’ in that I still have quite severe health issues yet the being, the true me, is alive, expressive and alight again – that in itself is a beauty, richness, and joy I never dreamed was possible. The support of Universal Medicine has been so incredible that it is natural to understand what that could also mean for others.

14. That is amazing Ruth you are a walking miracle indeed. I know someone who recently was diagnosed with chronic fatigue and I was interested to find out more about this condition. Your blog is a brilliant read, thank you for sharing your incredible experience.

    1. This blog needs to be in doctors’ surgeries up and down the land. There is so much for us to learn from it and so much opportunity for us to heal others should be aware of it and open to it too. Clearly it has taken a lot for you Ruth to get where you are at today – it hasn’t been easy and I am sure the process has been pretty painful, but to come out the other side so miraculously joyful and vital is advert enough that the commitment to healing has been more than worth the journey

       1. Oh yes indeed Michelle, how I feel now is absolutely worth the journey.. every step, and what is remarkable is that now it seems so so long ago, like another life.

          When we truly heal the cause energetically CFS can no longer be part of us, no longer in our body, and my process to get to this point now feels momentary and long long gone.

          How simple it is for the answers to come when we start to look at how we have been living and our everyday choices and reactions.

          Because of Serge Benhayon’s presentations this was my turning point and my pathway to move out of this condition.

       2. The joy you feel Ruth is palpable and is so inspirational!

15. You definitely are a ‘walking miracle’ Ruth, and a very inspiring one at that. It simply goes to show that we are responsible for the state of our health, the quality of which is a direct result of the choices we have been making in our lives, especially in relation to our body. Change the choices = change your life, and the miracles are not far away.

16. I love your blog, as it shows as a living proof, that everything that Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon presents is nothing but supporting you to become more you and let go of patterns that made you sick and tired.

    1. Much to appreciate and I know many, many people’s life and health have improved dramatically due to embracing the amazing teachings and healing modalities from Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon. I used to feel exhausted and I didn’t even realise I was until I got myself out of it by embracing and living the Ageless Wisdom.

       1. And what a testimony you are Doug to the teachings of the Ageless Wisdom. It never ceases to amaze me the huge life changes people are continually making from applying the teachings to their lives, as presented by Serge Benhayon.

    2. Yes Stefanie, the support from Serge Benhayon has been immense and provided me with understandings and tools so I could walk out of this condition feeling lighter and more energised as I went.

17. Thank you for sharing your truly inspiring return to yourself and how by committing to treating yourself lovingly you were gently able to heal and connect to your purpose.

18. It is the not trusting yourself part of this article that really stands out, because I reckon this is the most damaging of all, when we lose our sensitive and intimate relationship with ourselves.

    1. I would agree with you there Shami. To not trust the true inner conection we have with ourselves and allow the lack of self love, disregard and self doubt to take hold, we are on a downward spiral that can very quickly get out of control.

    2. Well said Shami, there have been many times where I got myself out of some sticky situations due to trusting my sensitivity and trusting my feelings. And, I am learning to trust myself more and more.

19. Thank you Ruth again for all you have shared, it’s so helpful for me to review it all as for various reasons (including chronic insomnia) I have had chronic fatigue on and off for most of my life. It’s definitely a huge hurdle allowing oneself to do more without worrying it will be detrimental to the physical fragility that comes with a depleted body, and knowing when the timing is right to act, and also how to be active in a gentle quality connected to and aware of the body. Considering Western Medicine currently knows so little about Chronic Fatigue Syndrome it’s so supportive to be able to bring in the perspective of Esoteric Medicine as a perfect complement. “I learned that chronic fatigue is a condition of the kidneys, that the kidneys carry the energetic life force for the body; they are about commitment to life, yourself and humanity.” As everything is energy this is how we can address the underlying cause of the condition to recover, which you have proven is very possible.

20. “It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it.” The understanding of cause and effect of the way we live is beautiful medicine.

21. From what I have seen, most people would say ‘Chronic fatigue – I can’t make it go away’. You have succeeded in something few people seem to be able to.

22. Every step we make to surrender and listen to our body is a step towards supporting our health and well being. I cannot underestimate the impact on my body when I listen to it and take heed.

23. ““It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it.” Yes, so true – our choices have a lot to answer for – are they harming or healing us? And the ripple effect then goes out to others too…..

    1. Reactions ought to come with a health warning.

24. “So I embarked on a journey to build trust in myself by making a commitment to myself and life, starting with very short walks and caring for myself, focusing on the quality of how I did things for myself, tenderly, lovingly, building this love in my body.” This is so beautiful Ruth – I can feel the tender care you began to use. And look at you now – and have been for quite a few years now!

25. Ruth, I have just come back to this blog after a while and reading it again I can hardly credit how far you have come! ‘I am a walking miracle … loving living life!!’ This may just be an understatement!

    1. Again an article that should become a book about changing chronic fatigue into a vibrant, joyful, healthy life. What more proof is there, than us being the ones changing and totally resurrecting from the ill behaviours we´ve once chosen.

       1. When the level of healing we have encountered becomes our normal every day it can be easy to consider it as such, not that we take it for granted necessarily, but what you have highlighted here Stefanie needs to be shouted from the rooftops so to speak. We are the ones who save ourselves, we are the ones who have the power to shift our momentums, patterns, and addictions. We are the ones who are in control of all the events that happen to us – nothing about our lives falls out of the sky randomly. They fall because we have constellated them to fall and if we have the power to constellate them to fall then we also have the power to honestly look at why and address them down to the last infinitesimal detail.

26. “Chronic fatigue is a condition of the kidneys, that the kidneys carry the energetic life force for the body; they are about commitment to life, yourself and humanity” – if we can have this kind of understanding about our body, and that becomes the standard way we look at any dis-ease, it replaces responsibility, and power, back to us the patient. It may be received as a mental knowledge at first, but it carries an appeal our body recognizes and responds to.

27. “I began listening to my body and learning what supported me, and what didn’t. The Gentle Breath Meditation presented by Serge Benhayon helped me hugely to connect to my body. “ A beautiful testament to how we are able to help ourselves through committing to life and listening to our body.

28. This article highlights for me how there seems to be something particular about the human experience which is that when we are brought to so much pain and suffering that we finally begin to stop and take notice and seek to learn at the deepest levels of our existence exactly what it is that we are doing to ourselves.

    1. ‘what it is that we are doing to ourselves’ To me this is a key point Shami, and once we are willing to look at ourselves I found it is really important not to give oursleves a hard time about it, just understand why we made those choices and then change them.

       It is empowering and life changing to do this, knowing it doesn’t have to be this way and we don’t have to be a victim to our circumstances, we can change our choices.

29. Withdrawing from life and reacting to life is not something we consider as contributing to chronic pain yet it clearly had a profound effect on you.

    1. We tend to associate illness and disease with the physical aspects of life but rarely do we understand the energetic reasons behind our illness and disease. This blog is amazing for anyone who would like to have a better understanding of chronic fatigue which seems to be very difficult to treat.

30. It is not rocket science is it – so simple this truth – ” as my commitment grew, my energy levels improved with it.” But when we have tucked ourselves away, we can cover ourselves with so many stories that it is hard to unravel and return to the truth. But as you show here, it is possible.

    1. It is possible and Ruth shows how.

    2. We are here to be in life and to serve for others. Choosing this you are supplied by energy you would never get from food or any energy drink. It is your soul in expression that acts from a source that is limitless as it serves the all.

       1. Love this addition.

31. Ruth, the biggest smile came over my face as I read this. A person returning to life, to live who they are in full in this world and no longer choose to hide themselves. You are a living miracle. Welcome back. The world is fuller with you in it.

32. It is now 3 years since I wrote this blog and recently I was filling a health questionnaire and forgot to put on it that I had had Chronic Fatigue. It feels such a long time ago, even as if I never had it. Clearing the energy of Chronic Fatigue has allowed me to move on in ways I would not have imagined, it is profound and at the same time feels completely natural that it has gone, me living more of me in the world.

    1. Ruth thank you for the update, it might be supportive to have a website outlining how you feel you developed Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and your recovery, I also feel a book would be supportive for humanity too. It’s such a confusing condition for people to experience as well as for the medical profession, your input on a wider scale would be invaluable.

       1. The understanding that you bring to the condition and the loving way that you share about it is certainly a gift for the many people who are affected by this condition either because they have it or know someone who does and often feel helpless to support, which in turn can lead to some really unhelpful comments/judgements.

       2. I agree Helen, the understanding Ruth brings is so helpful to those experiencing and treating the condition, and for those around anyone with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome.

    2. Amazing Ruth, you are an inspiration to us all. I can imagine so many people would love to read your story and understand how you have managed to heal this condition.

33. What a great testimony that if we learn what the root cause/the energetic cause is of our disease we can clear it and sometimes this means the symptoms and dysfunction are gone.

34. Yes Doug and it is important not to give ourselves a hard time about the choices we have made but to see them for what they are and with this awareness see the opportunity that awaits us, knowing that by changing our choices our body, health and life can change with them… rebalancing.

35. The teachings of Serge Benhayon have supported so many of us to make life changes beyond recognisable.

    1. Yes Viktoria and the numbers continue to grow as do the life changes. For me certainly it has not stopped, from the unrecognisable changes to even more. Many testimonials have been written.. lives transformed.

       1. And many more will be written, for the truth will surface in the test of time.

36. Staying present is a hugely supportive practice that helps us in so many ways – to be aware of what we’re feeling, and to stay with that, and not withdraw from it, helps us to deal with and clear it. When we’re withdrawn, it feels like we’re less consciously aware of what we’re reacting to, so we might be reacting all of the time, but not choosing to be aware of it, so that we don’t have to deal with it.

    Inspiring to read how making simple loving choices, to commit more to life, actually improved your energy levels. It’s amazing to feel that our energy levels actually increase when we commit more to life – the total opposite of what we think will happen, and a total reflection of what true commitment is about – not doing more, but bringing more of our quality to whatever it is that is there to be done. No drive, no push, just showing up, in full, and without perfection.

    1. Love this Bryony – ‘No drive, no push, just showing up, in full, and without perfection.” – This is all we have to do – stay connected and loving with ourselves – it really is simple.

37. When we begin the journey to commit to ourselves and life anything is possible because we start to realise there is far more to us than what we were ever told or taught. Our intake on life becomes more about humanity and less about self, not in a sacrificial way but from a place of a forever deepening commitment to self.

    1. Yes there is so much more to life than we have considered and there are so many keys within that potential that we need to consider. How we do what we do and why we do what we do are clearly great places to start.

38. Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine has shown by example how commitment and taking responsibility for our choices changes our lives.

39. “It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it.” A beautiful realisation that we are responsible for the way we live.

40. I find i’m fatigued after not doing anything or just having ‘me time’. When i’m serving humanity and working with and for people, I feel super energised.

    1. With purpose there is no space for fatigue.

41. It is wonderful to appreciate the journey of healing that each person makes when they come in to contact with Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon. But equally important is to recognise the contribution that that person is now making to their community, and to the wider society in general. And therein lies perhaps the greatest miracle of all.

42. And how, having made this commitment we are supported in all sorts of ways to heal and reconnect and to appreciate.

43. “It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it.” Such a powerful statement and testament that we are the creators of our own reality and not victims to it.

    1. And it is life changing when you come to this understanding and awareness as then it is in your hands to make changes, as I found.

       1. And so with that understanding and awareness anything is possible.

44. With all the changes I’ve made from the inspiration of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine never has any change been instant. It’s taken steps and my want to feel and make the changes that has made my life what it is now and still to change.

    1. Yes Leigh. By taking it step by step there becomes a consistency in building the changes and a steadiness within, as each step is taken then another awareness comes, if we are open to it, for the next step to be embraced. It is a beautiful process if allowed to go at its own pace.

       1. ‘It is a beautiful process if allowed to go at its own pace’ – you’ve hit on something key here, and that is to always go at the pace that is respectful of, and listening to, where our body is really at, and not where we’d like it to be.

          When we feel like something isn’t working – from our health, to a work project or a relationship – and we want to change it, it can be so tempting to try to race ahead and start doing things at double speed to try to correct things that we’re suddenly very aware of. But this puts a pressure, strain and force on the very thing that we want to work on, and it doesn’t work. What does work, is a step by step commitment to keep feeling what it is that needs adjusting, by feeling through our senses, and not through the imposition on the body of any picture of how we want things to be or feel.

       2. Oh yes Bryony, I know this one, wanting to put your foot on the pedal and speed things up. It has been a big learning for me to listen to my body and trust and go at the pace it guides me to. I can still catch myself with this at times.

          It’s so easy to override our bodies messages but step by step allows us to learn to hear those messages clearly and benefit from them.

45. We have the stories of a few miracles from aeons ago that still echo throughout humanity’s stories… And here we have living miracles telling their stories.

    1. Well said cjames and I feel the basis of all of them is the re-connection and commitment to oneself, to life and to love.

46. Once one becomes aware of energy and how it plays out in life according to how one aligns to the true Source of life or not, it is simple to trace the trajectory of how one got to be in that state – we gave away our power to a force that is not true. But when you are in the thick of it, it seems as if there is no way out. thank heavens for the universal medicine modalities and practitioners.

    1. Absolutely Lyndy. The presentations of Serge Benhayon, Universal Medicine modalities and practitioners open the door to an understanding about the energies at play that gives us the choice to make changes for ourselves.

47. Thank you, Ruth – your sharing makes me really appreciate how when we start including an energetic factor into life’s mystery and conundrum, everything starts making sense and simplicity returns, and when claim our part in that and start taking responsibility what once seemed like impossible can be turned around.

    1. Bringing the energetic factor into looking at myself and my condition was the turning point for true healing to take place. It opens the door to what can seem impossible and huge transformations can take place.. in all areas of our life.

48. When we see something that is just not okay a great thing to consider is does it have to be this way and if the answer is no then we have a responsibility to change ourselves so that we can bring change on a grander scale.

    1. Beautiful, love what you share here Elizabeth. It always comes back to us and in that sense everything is possible.

49. Reacting to life is tiring enough when you have an argument or a dispute. But what you show here beautifully Ruth is that we all react way more than we realise, to anything that is not Love…and often what is too. No wonder so many of us are exhausted as you were. And what a brilliant example you offer to us all of how to heal and resurrect our joy and vitality. Thank you.

    1. Interesting you say this Joseph in how we all react far more than we realise, I certainly have done this and am continually becoming more aware of when and where this happens in life. Learning not to react but to observe and respond through building a loving relationship with myself and my body, working with staying present with my body has been a deeply healing process.. and yes with the return of joy and vitality.

50. A great example of how when we start to make small loving changes to our choices on a consistent level, our body starts to respond in a positive way.

    1. Yes Sally, consistency is the building block for change and deep healing.

51. A truly remarkable account that shows us we are the creators of our reality and not the victims of it. If we do not like what is on our plate, we simply cook a different dish.

    1. This turns the table doesn’t it Liane, rather than being victims of our life we are the creators of it.. and it is so important to see this lovingly and not beat oursleves up for our choices but to see that this opens us to making changes in our choices and so changes in life follow.

52. A very intense and distressing illness that doesn’t go with physical or mental health indicators – could such a thing be a pointer to a conceptual (not just a knowledge) gap in scientific understanding?

53. Once people get a diagnosis, I have observed that some fight it but many sink into resignation and giving up. They forget that who they are is not their condition and stop seeking to heal the underlying cause. This case is a great example that anything can be healed. If not the condition at least a quality of life can be lived that brings a sense of wellbeing and health, despite having a condition.

    1. Yes Fiona, the quality of how I was living changed with how I cared for myself and with that my approach to the condition had changed from making it about getting better to the love I could bring to myself. Working on the quality of how we live is key to the sense of well-being felt.

    2. I understand how and why we give up and resign with a condition but this adds to the exhaustion and keeps us stuck in the same place within ourselves for what could be many years. Being open to looking at what the underlying cause is and bringing in self care is a turning point from which many changes can take place.

54. “It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it.” Ruth, this is such a powerful testament of how you brought yourself back to true health. It is a perfect example of the responsibility we have to take care of ourselves, whatever our circumstances. We are the ones who have to call the shots by feeling what is true for us and what is not, and when we do this, our bodies can work harmoniously and so will life around us.

55. Yes Linda, when you start to realise the impact reactions have on your body, as you become more aware, it is easy to see why we get ill, exhausted, and how this impacts our body, which then allows us to work on our reactions and step by step observe and respond and this then changes how we engage with life.

56. Me too Linda, the body is incredible in how it shows us how we are living and also the pathway out of it. Love and tenderness towards ourselves and a willingness to make some changes and our body can respond so quickly as it is constantly working to be harmonious and in balance.

57. When we react to life it leaves us feeling exhausted whereas learning to respond to life frees us up to be ourselves in full.

    1. Yes Elizabeth and there is much to learn from observing and responding.. about ourselves and about life.

    2. Yes, so much more energy also means so much more joy we are missing out on when we react a lot.

58. This story is absolutely incredible. And blows all the pictures out the water about what it looks like to recover from such an illness. For many people recovering from such an illness, moving to London would be at the bottom of their list, because of the idea that it isn’t a restful place, and let’s be honest, it isn’t the beach. And so I love how you’ve grabbed life with both hands and taken your self care with you over to one of the biggest cities in the world and planted your rejuvenated body there, showing everyone what’s possible, when you connect and deal with your stuff.

    1. Elodie, it never ceases to amaze me how much our health can change and how we are in life in general can change. From dealing with my stuff, old pent up emotions, patterns of behaviour and beliefs I had taken on, ways of reacting to life, and bringing self love and care into my life a transformation beyond what I could have imagined has taken place. This has come about because of the presentations of Serge Benhayon, of which I so appreciate, from which I have learned and am still learning so much about myself and my choices in life, and which has inspired me to make these changes.. and continues to inspire me.

    2. Elodie – I can so echo what you share here. The inspiration Ruth is offering just blows me away!

59. Lack of trust is huge in the world and from my own awareness and understandings, I have realised that trust starts with self. As I am deepening my trust with self, I am starting to trust others again.

    1. A great realisation to have Lorraine. Building that trust with yourself is the first step in building trust in others and being in the world, and when this is being established life opens up in the most beautiful way.. I have found.

60. ‘That light, bright and amazing thing coming my way was me! … I was coming back to me.’ Welcome back to you, Ruth. You feel truly AMAZING!

61. What i started to realise and observe was the way I was living was feeding the exhaustion that I had, which comes from not being all of me no matter what. Thanks to Serge Benhayon I have been able to address the core issue and make different choices. Life is much different today!

    1. That’s great Natalie. What Serge Benhayon presents, coming from his lived way, offers us understanding and awareness of why our life is the way it is and with this the opportunity to make changes to how we have been living is there. Everything we need to do this is presented by Serge.

62. Absolutely amazing Ruth and it really shows how much we ourselves can support us in how we are in life. I feel your dedication in taking those simple steps to take walks to do things for you, to build a relationship with you, and each step invigorated you, brought you back more. This is how we can support us and all around in life.

    1. Thank you Monica. Yes it is profound what those simple choices of self care and love make to a depleted body and lack of commitment to life. It didn’t take long for my body to respond to these choices and as you say this became my way of supporting myself in daily life.

63. ‘ It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it.’ That’s the power we have, the moment we choose healing, to simply change our lives.

64. Your story is hugely inspiring Ruth, and you’re living proof of the change that can take place when you commit to yourself and your own evolution, which you have done so beautifully.

    1. Chronic fatigue is such grey area for the medical profession, to have the understanding of why it happens, as presented by Serge Benhayon, and how we can turn it around, ourselves, means it no longer has to be a life long and an ever debilitating life to live.. as I have found.

65. How about settling for awareness as part of the medicine toolbox kit?

    1. Agreed Eduardo, it was the teachings and presentations of the ageless wisdom by Serge Benhayon that supported me with my awareness in how I had become ill in the first place through the choices I had made. Awareness of myself is an ongoing process.. it puts my life back in my hands and so empowering me to make changes.

66. This is so inspiring to read and to know that we do not have to be defined by our illness or our pain, unless we want to of course. I got into a pattern of using my body’s ill conditions as an identification, probably looking for love, attention and sympathy. Looking back to those times it feels horrible to have lived this way but how wonderful to now know that it “doesn’t have to be this way”; that there is another more vital way to live.

    1. Yes Ingrid, I was always sure in my knowing that my illness wasn’t me and I didn’t identify with it, but I did have a pattern of identifying with my pain. Interesting how we can find different ways to get the attention we need at the time. I can feel how restricting it was and that it was an energy that didn’t belong to me. It’s great to see these patterns in ourselves as it allows us to let them go and live more of who we are without the need for the attention or sympathy, and as you say in a more vital way.

67. This is truly a remarkable story, to get through this whole experience and come out the other side a walking living miracle when so many people would have given up and not seen that the whole thing was of their own making.

    1. Kev, it’s remarkable when you do realise it’s been your own making because if we can create something like chronic fatigue we can turn it around too. Pretty amazing really, so rather than give ourselves a hard time for what we’ve created we can lovingly appreciate the fact that change is in our hands.. our daily choices.

68. To heal chronic fatigue in the way that you have, Ruth, is truly inspirational. This needs to be shared far and wide. Not only do you show that you were not a victim of your condition, but also that you were the creator of it. This could be said of every illness and disease once the root behaviour is located, but how willing are we as a global population to admit this as a truth? The fact that you did was the catalyst for a true recovery. Simply awesome!

69. I love how honesty was one of the keys you used to heal your condition. Being utterly honest with ourselves allows us to move on from patterns and behaviours we do not realise are actually harming us.

    1. This is true Joshua, being honest with ourselves saying yes I chose that resulting in this, in my case to withdraw and to drive my body, but importantly without beating ourselves for it, gives the opportunity to see the patterns and behaviours that have run throughout our life and the effect they have.. then let them go.

70. This wonderful blog proves beyond a doubt that it is how we live that creates the illness in the body.

    1. Yes Lyndy. So much to appreciate about our body, we may think it is letting us down through illness and disease but it is quite the opposite in showing us the result of our choices, guiding us to make changes. How loving is this.

71. Yes Melinda,
    Commitment to life has to start with commitment to self, as you say it is key, for without this as our foundation.. something to come back to when we wobble, commitment to life doesn’t sustain and the old patterns and behaviours return.

72. Ruth I always get so much from reading this. I have recently begun looking at how events in life might unsettle or upset me and alongside the withdrawing from life there is a pattern to withdraw from my own self care. That commitment to self is so key before commitment to humanity. Thanks for this line also “I learned that chronic fatigue is a condition of the kidneys, that the kidneys carry the energetic life force for the body; they are about commitment to life, yourself and humanity.”

73. When we withdraw from life we are effectively withdrawing from our potential.

74. Withdrawing from life is a clever and cunning way to not to commit to life as we get what we crave… attention from others but to withdraw is no different to drinking alcohol or indulging in food as the intention is to numb ourselves, stay small and to live in comfort. To withdraw from life has also been my coping mechanism and even though I am committing to myself and life like never before, it can pop its head up from time to time. The key is to recognise and call it out for what it is when it shows up and then this supports me to change my movements, come back to myself and commit to life.

75. I cannot imagine suffering from a debilitating disease and being left with a diagnosis that burdens you for life, but if you are currently in that position, I highly recommend seeking the support of this amazing global company, founded by Serge Benhayon and known as Universal Medicine. Although I have not had anything like chronic fatigue, I have had my own share of issues and I assure you will be astonished by how eye opening these modalities are to the broader possibilities of why you were presented with this illness and disease in the first place.
    Miracles are not people walking on water or jumping out of wheel chairs, they are people discovering that they are not victims of circumstance, that they are powerful and equal units of light. When this is reawakened and always with the full support of Western Medicine, we can truly heal.

76. “I am a walking miracle … loving living life!!.” So true Ruth. Your perseverance is inspiring and knowing you today you’ve come a long long way. Understanding the reasons why we get ill enables us to address the cause, not just deal with symptoms. Then true healing can happen.

    1. Yes Sue, understanding the reasons why we get ill and addressing them does bring about true healing. The difference to getting the symptoms addressed is clear and vast in how it feels and if we make the changes we made our living way, there is no reason for the illness/disease to return, like for me not going back to withdrawal behaviour or pushing my body to the nth degree.. instead learning to listen to my body and care deeply for it, and deal with life differently by working on my reactions and learning not to react.

77. Before I read what you expressed ‘I am a walking miracle’ that is exactly what I thought … that you are a walking miracle ✨ And if we took a moment to stop and feel what you said here ‘It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it.’ This is pure medicine just in itself … that if we react to life instead of observe we take things on in our body and we get ill and even if this does happen (which it happens every single day to billions of people all around the world!) then we hold the power to completely turn this around to one of health and true wellbeing in ..our choices. Very powerful.

    1. Yes Vicky, once I understood how our choices affect our health and our life it was a real eye opener and ah ha moment to the effect our choices have on ourselves.. and each other.

78. An important sharing Ruth of a condition that many have lived with for many years without knowing how to heal it. Your sharing shows us that we can take back what we have lost by seeking support and taking responsibility for our lives. I agree that without light being shed on why we have this condition, such as healing with Serge Benhayon and his Presentations on The Ancient Wisdom we would be lost.

79. Its an interesting case study Ruth, as whenever I’ve heard people talk about ME its always been the effects, the problems…. but not about the why it may have happened or the responsibility we all have for our health from the way we live and treat ourselves.

    1. Yes Simon with ME being a grey area to the medical world there is a great focus on the effects and problems but because I found Serge Benhayon and through his presentations and own lived way I got the greater understanding of the energetic cause behind the illness and symptoms and so was able to take responsibility for my choices, in how I had been living, and change them.. and so my body changed in response.

80. Thank you Ruth, this is inspiring to read how, just as you got yourself into Chronic Fatigue through your own choices, you got yourself out of it through different choices. We do know how to get better and recover from something, but sometimes we’re so lost we need a bit of inspiration to show us the way – but it’s only ever us that can make the choices that we need to make for ourselves.

    1. Yes Bryony, I always had a sense this wasn’t it for the rest of my life. Thank God I found Serge Benhayon who presented exactly what I needed to hear to get me on track to healing myself. Gaining the understanding about my choices in life and how Chronic Fatigue is a condition of the kidneys and so life force and commitment to life. I had gained an awareness that gave me something to work with.. and so my healing began.

81. Ruth how amazing, rebuilding trust with ourselves is something I have also had to do, it is crazy we get taught so many things but we don’t get shown how to know ourselves better.
    Without our own inner backing we are left lifeless.

    1. Yes Samantha, this is foundational in itself, to build trust in ourselves in what we feel and the communication from our body, so going out in the world and into life we are not subject to everything around us but have a steadiness and knowing to guide us.

82. Thank you for sharing this awesome claiming of you and your choice to re-connect to life. Chronic Fatigue Syndrome is a much misunderstood condition and your story is so inspirational in how you healed yourself step by step until you felt the last vestiges of it leave your body. It is such an insidious cycle the fear of doing something to make yourself worse but by committing not just to life but also to take loving care of yourself you were able to feel when it was time to expand what you were doing and in a way that supported you rather than sabotaged your body and your trust in yourself.

83. An extraordinary story. It is remarkable that through choices alone to both commit to life and take responsibility within it that you could reverse such a debilitating condition. Our power is clearly untapped when it comes to our own healing and what is possible. With the pressure on the medical services globally this is something we all need to stop living in ignorance or denial to.

84. When we truly reconnect back to our body and make loving choices to support both our body and our daily activities it is possible for the body to heal the many ill choices we have put it through, amazing to read your blog and your willingness to get back to true health and vitality.

85. This is a massive confirmation that it is our choices that dictate the physical and emotional ills we may or may not end up with. You are walking miracle and the living proof of what commitment truly mean. There is huge power in a life that has purpose too! You have also given me a deep understanding of this condition, as I have observed that it can be laughed at or misunderstood by onlookers.

86. This story would inspire thousands of people who feel trapped by this debilitating disease. Thank you for sharing it so openly.

87. If we ever experience moments of defeat or wanting to give up on life, reading things like your story Ruth are such an amazing reminder that purpose, vitality and magic is right there available all the time, and all we have to do is choose that particular path to take.

88. This is so incredible Ruth. In many ways once given a Disability Badge for life I can see how easily a person could give up .. but you didn’t and in fact it was nothing about striving to cure something it was just about loving yourself more. AMAZING truly AMAZING.

    1. Yes Vicky, when we take the fixing out of it, trying to get well, and focus on bringing love and commitment to ourselves, tenderly with great care, our body naturally responds and rebalances.. and with this my health problems resolved.

89. Thank you for this blog Ruth. In some ways being elderly, let’s say over retirement age and what has been termed as an old age pensioner in the UK, comes with a similar “challenge’ as in there are so many beliefs and opinions about what we should or should not do in our elder years, how much we should slow down and take it easy, how much we should be able to take on. A lot of these ideas are very limiting but by taking care of ourselves in the way you describe and committing to life, learning what supports us and what doesn’t especially when we have aches and pains or lessening eyesight or hearing for example and loving and appreciating ourselves throughout we can move graciously into this period with a vitality and love for life that is joyful and free of self imposed restrictions.

90. Super, super blog Ruth, thank you so much for sharing. From lack of commitment to life, to commitment in full and no more CFS – truly, your story demonstrates the causes of our illnesses and diseases are first energetic, way before they make their presence known at the physical level.

91. “That light, bright and amazing thing coming my way was me! … I was coming back to me.” Absolutely gorgeous Ruth. A walking miracle indeed and deeply inspiring to boot.

92. Wow, what you have chosen for yourself Ruth is so very loving, and your body must be hugely thank-full. Your story is a huge inspiraton for many.

93. This testimonial is amazing, Ruth. How many people are in the same conditions that you lived, and now you are a living example that shows it is possible to leave from that situation that was going to be chronic. It’s huge how our body naturally responds when we listen to it and take the responsibility of making the changes (sometimes very simple) that it needs to be healthy

94. I love how much we are here designed to work and when we are not working and have lost purpose it feels like we are exhausted. I know for me whilst this can and has been a bone of frustration in my life, what it has done is brought me back to purpose. Being told I had CFS when I was in my early teens and being told I would have to live with it, I knew this could not be true. It was not until when Universal Medicine came alomg that I was able to clearly see how the responsibility was on me to commit to humanity, to life and thus bring a purpose to everything I was and am doing. The moment I lose focus and purpose, I can feel the tiredness and exhaustion coming in. So it is a great marker to have.

    1. That’s amazing James. The link between loss or lack of purpose and exhaustion is undeniable.

       1. Thank you Lucy. It is pretty amazing and undeniable the link.

    2. Thank you James for all you have shared here. Having also recovered yourself out of CFS your words have immense value, if you ever feel to write on your experiences I feel a blog would be very supportive to read.

       1. Thank you Melinda I am sure I will at some point! The greatest gift I ever received was being told and given the space to take responsibility for myself and my life rather than thinking it was basically something I would have to live with for the rest of my life and essentially had no choice. Serge Benhayon offered me this space and continues to do so, it is one of the greatest gifts we can offer another.

95. When we are left to reacting to life by our survival responses of coming out fighting or withdrawing and fleeing from life’s situations, depletion and exhaustion is inevitable. What is great is understanding that we have a choice to either respond or react to life and live in such a way that supports our bodies.

96. It is great to have the insight that your chronic fatigue was about giving up and not committing to life or yourself. It was lovely to read about the simple changes you have made to the way you care for yourself.

    1. Yes Fiona, to have this understanding was so important and a turning point as then I could make different choices, ones of commitment, that lead me back to health and back into life.

97. “Chronic Fatigue – it doesn’t have to be this way.” – the heading of your blog is liberating in itself. It is wonderful when we start to discover we are responsible for what we experience and therefore have the ability to change it.

    1. Yes Nicola, this was a real light bulb moment for me, that this wasn’t it and I could change it, incredibly liberating.

98. I love this article, it is so inspiring. It shows that even when we think it is all too much by just focusing on the care we can give to ourselves as we go about our daily lives we can support ourselves hugely to gain strength and confidence. Bringing awareness to particular tasks like brushing our teeth or brushing our hair, things we do every day, and by being more gentle and tender with ourselves at those times allows us a deepening of intimacy with ourselves that can bring us back to life in a very beautiful way.

99. ‘It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it’. The truth in this statement asks us all to start taking responsibility for our lives. If what we are living in our lives is not working then we can change that outcome as easily as changing our choices.

    1. There is such simplicity in this Christine, it all down to our choices, which we can change in any moment.

100. There are so many cycles that keep us from living the naturally flow and consistency that are shared continually through the inspiring work of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. The opportunity to dig deeper into the root causes is the difference between masking and truly revealing our potential in the world.

101. Thankyou Ruth, I always get so much out of your blog, much appreciation for your open, honest and straightforward way of sharing. I could also see today in me a pattern of withdrawing when something has hurt me. I also appreciated this line about learning to cope with life differently, by “staying with my body, staying present with my inner strength and the love that I was building”.

102. Yes, it makes the difference between everything being a chore and things actually being fun while being able to do more.

103. Ruth, did you heal chronic fatigue by being more and more responsible in your life?

     1. Yes Christoph, taking responsibility for my choices consistently and ongoing allowed me to make different ones, loving ones..that brought be out of the condition and back into life.

     2. Responsibility can seem scary to embrace but it is the most freeing, empowering life changing choice that I have made and would recommend to anyone.

104. This is such an inspirational read. Everyone should read it! The way you have recovered from Chronic Fatigue is amazing, and the way you did it would inspire anyone to start taking care of themselves in a loving way.

105. Ruth this is a wonderful sharing of your experience with chronic fatigue. I have had a less severe form of this disease twice and both times it lasted about 9 months! I feel I too have come to the understanding that it is my lack of self love that put me in this position, since then I have been able to take responsibility for my own choices

106. Overcoming and indeed healing from a condition which most people feel is a life sentence is something that should most definitely be celebrated, written about and widely read

107. “My condition was made fun of at times, which of course confirmed the safety of with-drawing more.” Yes we can become identified in our illness and diseases, they become us and we can use them as a way to not evolve, they are the distraction to not step up and step into our power.

108. When we are ill we want to protect ourselves from becoming sick again, so it can be very easy to be too careful and start to give up and in doing so begin to withdraw from life. I love that you recognised this and slowly built yourself up so that you are now able to work full time in London, this in itself in indeed a miracle.

     1. Yes Alison, it is very easy to get stuck in a cycle of being safe but this keeps us in the same repetitive place within ourselves, not allowing true healing to take place. Taking small steps out of safe is the way to go.. with consistency, this allows for a foundation to be made that supports us to continue.

109. Yes Doug we are living proof as, are others who have commented, that chronic fatigue doesn’t have to be life long or with no way back.

110. I love how this article brings the responsibility for self and commitment to life forward as the true healing of Chronic Fatigue.

111. “I gave up and my day to day living with the ‘normal’ exhaustion of life became fatigue, then … Chronic Fatigue.”
     It is interesting how this is written, it is such that chronic fatigue is not something that just happens, that in fact it has an energetic trigger, the absolute giving up on life. Could this in itself bring into our body thoughts that say to us ‘it is too hard to live’ and then our body simply follows suit with what we have allowed to be in it?

112. Ruth, it is wonderful to read how honest you are about your past choices to withdraw from life – seeing this as your only option at the time. And how now you are free from this ‘only choice’ – now being aware that there is so much more to you and from you to offer.

113. It really does sounds like you took time to really get to know yourself, to really learn to care for and nurture you. Not making your recovery about anyone but you. This is what I could feel was what ensured you really recovered and developed an amazing relationships with yourself.

114. Wow Ruth! This is such a brilliant description of what we choose, and how we choose to live, and the consequences to our body. It is so clear and has such a healing energy. To bring yourself back from that illness is a true miracle and should be documented in the Esoteric Practitioners survey or program.

     1. It really does bring home how powerful our choices are in either leading us to illness or to deeply heal ourselves, it’s in our hands and how empowering is that.. that We can turn it around, and not just our health but our life in every way.

115. Chronic Fatigue is so often underplayed and lost in the huge array of health issues that is overseen or not considered as important as other illnesses. This blog is such a simple and powerful reminder of the debilitating behaviour that can cause huge ramifications to the quality of life we are living. Thank you for bring such a great insight into this topic of illness and disease.

116. What you have written here Ruth is very beautiful and inspiring, you are a wonderful example of someone taking responsibility for their illness and their healing;
     “It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it”.

117. ‘I learned that chronic fatigue is a condition of the kidneys, that the kidneys carry the energetic life force for the body; they are about commitment to life, yourself and humanity. Because of my reactions to things that had happened in my life previously, my commitment to life and myself dropped severely.’ – Wow this sure does show a deeper level of understanding. So often we are told things just happen to us – but I always feel there is something much more than that. The body communicates in many ways and one of them is showing us when a way we are living is not working. I love how you have shared about chronic fatigue relating to the kidneys and and how the kidneys carry energetic life force. This allows you to explore so much more in how you are.

118. Our choices in reaction to life can lead to illness and disease. This alone completely shifts how we can approach healing, if there’s an ill in my life then what have I reacted to? I know then in reaction I have already withdrawn from life and from my true self that knows how to respond to life accordingly.

119. ‘A shift in me began with a willingness to look at myself and how I had been reacting to life.’ This plays a huge part in our journey back to good health – our willingness to explore our own part in any illness.

120. ‘It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it.’ I am learning too that it is my reactions that harm me the most and my love and true care for myself that are the greatest form of healing.

121. this is truly a miracle by medical conventional standards, but it is through your own commitment to healing and to truth that you have shown what is possible. It is not about ‘fighting’ and ‘beating’ illness like it is some adversary attacking us, many approach cancer with the same warfare like approach – this has the risk of making us feel like a failure and to crush us further. Rather it is an opportunity to understand more deeply where we have strayed from the truth of our being, and with love learn to let go of all that is ill within. This is true healing, and this something that I too have experienced through Universal Medicine and the healing modalities. They fully support Western conventional medicine, and through that support and our own commitment a deeper true healing is on offer.

122. Wow Ruth, what a great account of what is possible when we start to make loving choices and thus commit to ourselves to heal what is there to be healed, taking small but powerful steps back to who you truly are. And I love this one; ‘That light, bright and amazing thing coming my way was me! … I was coming back to me.’

123. This is such a great example of how an emotional reaction or trauma when not dealt with can lead us down a path of illness and disease. There is a long path we choose to walk on before we become ill. It is so important to head the warning signs and turn back.

124. What you have shared here Ruth is a lived expereince of how by making a true and loving committment to yourself, you have been able to completely turn your life around. I have seen the changes in you myself and it has been truly remarkable to witness. An inspiration for anyone who may be experiencing a similar condition.

125. it’s interesting the ‘chicken and egg’ aspect of fatigue, as the more fatigued and exhausted we get, the more we may get anxious and protective about having enough energy to get through the day, and this is exacerbating the lack of commitment and the withdrawal that then blocks us from the true energy and vibrancy we could otherwise be living – and so we continue to be drained and deeper into exhaustion. But if we can get to the root cause, our reactions and withdrawal from life and start to heal those, then it is possible to turn around an otherwise living-death sentence. Yours is an amazing story of how the steady rebuilding of trust and love is the foundation of re-commitment to ourselves and to life for all.

126. it is so deeply inspiring to read what you have shared Ruth – it is a reminder too that even less intense conditions that we may ‘manage’ but resign ourselves to, and to some extent identify as part of us – is actually signalling the possibility of a new way of living – and with great honesty, humbleness and willingness to see and let go of destructive and limiting patterns, and reactions – what is on offer is beyond measure.

127. I read another blog on here in which the author expressed exactly the same thing – that her illness was a manifestation of her own reaction to life. And here it is again. Thinking of my own experiences, I would second the notion. With this understanding and stance we can start to accept and take responsibility for our condition, be it ill or well.

128. Interesting Ruth how you knew coffee was your ‘false energy’. As an avid former coffee drinker I knew it too, just as I’ll bet anyone who uses the substance does. It’s a ‘get me through life’ drug that ravages, not restores and we all know it.

     1. Coffee is such a crutch for low energy yet it creates even lower levels when it wears off, on top of all the other toxic stresses it puts on our body.

        I found The Gentle Breath Meditation presented by Serge Benhayon gave me more longer lasting energy than a cup of coffee. I was amazed! And this done ten minutes here and there through the day and wow.. the difference cannot be denied.

129. It is so important to face, deal with and ultimately heal our hurts so that we are not run by them constantly as you describe here so well Ruth.

130. Your sharing is showing so clearly that by understanding how to commit to self love and to more work your energy level rose. This is against what normally is thought as most people would think less work brings more energy.

131. If the world stopped drinking coffee for a week, how many other cases of chronic fatigue would be revealed?

132. You are a walking miracle. No question. But there are so many others like you, who through the modalities and the teachings of Universal Medicine, have made unimaginable changes to their health and lifestyle. Blogs like these will live forever as an inspiration to thousands and slowly but surely humanity will start to see the true way – a way that has been being communicated to them for aeons through our bodies. The result of our continued arrogance and pride in ignoring this communication is there for all to see in plain sight, by the startling devastation of humanity’s health.

133. An incredible story of self acceptance, self love and self responsibility. This is how it’s done.

134. It is interesting to read your comments Doug, I am considering this illness from the perspective of a close family member who has the condition. Committing to life may be quite a hard concept for someone to get their head around, one might say I am committed already. So I wonder how it can be explained in a real sense of how they change. I guess being stuck in a certain pattern or behaviour, maybe even in the sense of looking for solutions but not addressing the way of living, be it racy or emotionally attached to an outcome. I guess in this regard an esoteric practitioner would support many people to come to the revelations they need of what patterns are harming their own life as it would each be very individual.

135. A great inspiring story showing that the physical symptoms shown by our body are not just due to physical and physiological issues. Every aspect of our life and how we respond has an impact.

136. Yes Johanne, if I had not questioned , looked at and understood why, which I was inspired to do by Serge Benhayon, I would be making the same choices, stuck in the same cycle … and still with Chronic Fatigue.

137. To discover and understand what the root of chronic fatigue is (giving up, a condition of the kidneys, commitment to life, to self & to humanity) is key in addressing the way back to establishing sustainable and vital health and wellbeing.

138. Love your example of how commitment to life can bring total turn around in our health and wellbeing Ruth.

139. ‘So I embarked on a journey to build trust in myself by making a commitment to myself and life, starting with very short walks and caring for myself, focusing on the quality of how I did things for myself, tenderly, lovingly, building this love in my body.’ It is amazing how quickly our body is able to regenerate itself with the right kind of care, and who better than ourselves to know and appreciate what is needed.

140. Wow – what a testimony to the fact that when we withdraw from humanity we become drained, fatigued and exhausted. Our bodies are divinely designed to be active, collaborative in and with humanity, and when we do this in full, the energy we tap into is limitless.

141. I love the the title of your blog Ruth and it is remarkable to read how you have changed your life around, however it could actually be applied to any health condition or even life circumstance that we might experience. As long as we are willing to look at our fundamental daily choices, and have an awareness of how these can affect our lives on a day to day basis, then there is an opportunity to make changes that will truly support and heal us.

142. Just amazing to read this change and committment to life.

143. We are so much more powerful than we realise and this can work equally for us or against us.

144. How very beautiful Ruth that you are now loving living life; what a transformation you have made. I love the joy and appreciation that comes through in what you have expressed here;
     “It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it.

145. It is a fact that when we do not want to commit to life, we are never comfortable, and much more exhausted than when we fully commit to life. Actually when we commit to life, there is a joy that cares for and sustains us, we may feel tired but never exhausted.

146. ‘…it doesn’t have to be this way’. This phrase in itself is such an invitation and opportunity to understand that we are in charge of how things play out and that the choices we make impact how the future unfolds.

147. To come back from chronic fatigue in such a way is amazing Ruth. A beautiful miracle that inspires us all. Thank you for sharing.

148. as someone who had chronic fatigue, I can firstly say that the condition is genuine, but I can also say that it can easily be reversed by not just clean living but equally dealing with the underlying reasons behind your exhaustion – and those can be many and varied, ranging from pushing yourself physically to emotionally getting tangled in life.

149. It is amazing to consider how a small reaction to a situation can start of a huge condition like chronic fatigue. So that in a way it is our choice to withdraw from life that creates the condition and therefore it is us ourselves and our choice to re-commit to life is the only way to heal this condition.

150. I love reading this article. It is a great example of the power of living with gentleness and commitment. This power is such that it is not a force or pressure, but a steady settled trust rekindled within, that is slowly but surely fully integrated into the life we have. The power is in how the simpleness of these choices move mountains of thought processes that have held us.

151. I am always so amazed at the journey you have related in your blog, one that not many people would imagine that the woman you are today was so exhausted once upon a time. There is something here of note to be looked at and considered much wider.

152. It is very humbling to experience severe exhaustion. Looking back when I was exhausted there were so many things I was doing, ways of being that I considered normal at the time that were constantly draining me. It is amazing that commitment to yourself and to simple things in life that support you can make such a difference to the way you feel. I found it is the commitment, even though it may look like it’s the exercise etc that brings about the changes.

153. It is not surprising that the rates of chronic fatigue continue to rise and in many workplaces apart from stress and anxiety is considered as one of the more common conditions that reduces productivity. Is there something here to ponder on with the foundation we have set for ourselves where we look out to the world to fill our needs rather than building the quality we have from within for the world to see?

154. Wow Ruth this is super inspiring and what is the coolest is you knew that there was another way to live and that it was you that had to make the choice. After the body loudly saying something needs to change you took that on and went yeah I want to change this and be all of who I am. I have seen you blossom over the last few years that I have known you and it truly is beautiful to see you coming out. Keep it coming!

     1. Thank you Natalie, yes once I started taking those steps out of CF there was no turning back, and now today it seems very distant in how I was a few years ago with the vitality and joy I now live with.

155. Having read what you share here “My energy was on the floor way beyond exhaustion, my body ached deeply all over, as did my joints. ” it makes me stop and really appreciate how I am, that today whilst I may be tired I no longer suffer being depleted and exhausted. It also shows the responsibility to share the way we are living as this has the answers in it for all of humanity.

156. Very interesting here Ruth how you say that before you became ill with chronic fatigue you withdrew from your life. This is very important for it shows that there might be an energetic or emotional choice or pattern/behaviour that occurred first before you actually started to get physical symptoms. It also indicates that chronic fatigue perhaps does not just happen to people out of the blue, but that it might be linked to a way of living or surviving or coping with life first which then leads to ‘side-effects’ which are unexpected and very debilitating.

     1. And from my experience Andrew, such outplays can be very subtle. I have a family member with quite sever chronic fatigue, but in medical terms and in terms of how she has lived her life there is nothing obvious, the reason would always be more subtle and require a great deal of discernment and honest self reflection to uncover. Most important like with any disease is that we look at it without being a victim of it.

157. Ruth I just read that over 30million people in the USA have some form of chronic fatigue or similar condition and are diagnosed each year, that is staggering and yet it takes doctors 3-5 years to diagnose them and then they don’t know what treatments actually work. This means that 90-150million years of peoples lives are spent trying to figure out a condition with no answers, yet you share the true answer with us in 3 minutes.

     1. This statistic shows the epidemic proportion of this health condition in our world MA, a condition the little is known about. Bringing in the energetic factor and choices in life, as presented by Serge Benhayon, to illness like this can be a turning point to change the tide on this and many other escalating health conditions. As my own experience has shown ‘it doesn’t have to be this way.’

158. Your experience shows the enormous power of our state of being on our health, never as a judgement but always the deep self-empowerment that comes with honesty and commitment to healing through the simple beginning steps of self-love and awareness. This should be front page news throughout the world.

     1. Yes Annie, this is important to not see it as a judgement but deep self empowerment, appreciate this for it is the pathway to truly heal.

159. When I do not take full responsibility for myself, I begin to feel ill at some level – exhaustion is an example.

     1. Yes Bernadette, I really appreciate that my body shows me how I’m choosing to live.

160. Thank you Ruth for exposing how our own choices are what make the most impact on our true wellbeing – our Ill-choices, lack of self care and self love, simply paving the way to illness and disease if not heeded and different choices made.

     1. …and the flip side being that when we choose to take a bit of tender care of ourselves we can really call the changes in how we feel.

        1. Yes it doesn’t take long for the body to respond when we give ourselves some tender loving care.

161. Our understanding of illness and disease as well as health is going to drastically change the more we include the energetic dimension of life. Testimonies like this are the beginning of bringing awareness to the ‘more’ there is to life than just matter.

162. I find that the more I commit to life the more energy I have. It’s the withdrawal that can be exhausting, and this can also be depressing. With commitment to life comes energy and joy.

     1. Ditto, if I avoid a task at work, avoid speaking to someone, have a lie in after I felt to get up in the morning I feel drained and more tired. Inactivity and holding back action doesn’t reserve our energy it actually drains it. Likewise over action can drain as well, connecting to the body allows us to be aware of the balance required.

163. There are many health conditions in this world that the medical profession often struggle to diagnose, let alone heal, but you have shown that healing is possible by taking another approach, and your approach was simply to begin to understand your body and what was happening for it. Yes indeed, you are a “walking miracle”, but you are not alone, as so many students of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine are now walking alongside you, with their many and varied health issues finally healed after many years of believing that it was not remotely possible.

164. A living example of the power of our choices to change patterns which cause the issues suffered by humanity which are of its own creation.

165. In a world where apparently there are no answers for chronic fatigue you’ve shown that actually there is an answer and its something that is available to all. I really love how you’ve changed your life and what an inspiration this is.

166. Super inspiring for such a time in my life personally. I really liked how you explained continue to commit, not only to sections of our lives but really take the time for what needs our attention and action.

167. A truely brilliant and inspirational sharing about how you over came Chronic Fatigue.

168. It would be incredible to write this up as a case study – as there are many people and the medical world who would benefit from this. Most people are told that Chronic Fatigue is a condition for life, something that will have to manage.

     1. ‘I learned that chronic fatigue is a condition of the kidneys, that the kidneys carry the energetic life force for the body; they are about commitment to life, yourself and humanity’. What a difference it must have made to be given a clear and simple explanation of your illness because this sets a platform for you to begin to re-build commitment back into your life. Esoteric Medicine speaks in a language that cuts through purely physical diagnosis. It connects you to what is happening energetically within the body and links this to root causes. The pathway back to health after chronic fatigue is slow, steady and step by step as you show, but you got there and your story is a source of inspiration for others.

        1. ‘Esoteric Medicine speaks in a language that cuts through purely physical diagnosis. It connects you to what is happening energetically within the body and links this to root causes’ this is key and from this is how I truly healed.

169. Inspirational. A commitment to step by simple step back to true vitality and who you naturally are.

170. Great to read how you transformed your life Ruth, and how those ‘small commitments to myself’ and ‘loving choices’ led to you being able to take on a fulltime job in a busy city. It’s heartening to read your story as so many people with chronic fatigue are trapped in the belief that they’ll tire themselves if they do something, so withdrawal becomes a habit and one that is very difficult to let go of as it gives one the illusion of comfort.

171. I love this blog Ruth, you are a walking miracle, leading the way for others to see they can be walking miracle too. Our commitment to life being the miracle pill that offers the cure to many of our ills.

172. With so many people having Chronic Fatigue and no medical answer to this, what I love is the simplicity of the fact that you changed your life and healed your condition. “I embarked on a journey to build trust in myself by making a commitment to myself and life” that is something that anyone can do and you’ve shown what the result is, very inspiring.

173. “Chronic Fatigue – it doesn’t have to be this way” as through the way you live, has everything to do with putting a stop to this debilitating condition. Thank you for sharing!

174. Thanks for sharing about the cycle which got you into Chronic Fatigue.

175. I have learned a lot from reading your blog, that when we are not committed to life, ourselves, community, humanity, that there is holding back in the body, this impacts our kidneys and life force. I know for me I don’t have chronic fatigue, but definitely have experienced bouts of extreme tiredness resulting from lifestyle choices. So bringing more awareness to how I live and choices I make is very useful.

176. You are indeed ” a walking miracle … loving living life!!” This is an amazing turnaround! I am so inspired by this blog as I have physical problems that can be quite debilitating so I can really relate to your story. We need to understand that everything is a learning and that we can grow and learn from everything that life presents to us.

177. It brings me true joy to read your story Ruth. It shows us how we are the masters of our own destiny and therefore in complete control of the quality of life that we lead. By becoming such an active participant in our life, we let go of the passive recipient (the victim) who waits for life to come to them, forever at the whim of outer influences and live instead from the inside out, allowing all that we are to be fully present and infused in all that we do. Your healing is truly remarkable, very news worthy!

178. This article presents a turn around from victimhood to responsibility and I find it ongoingly inspiring.

179. I love your story Ruth. What a celebration to be living life the way you do now.

180. “It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it.” The simplicity you share in relation to your severe conditions and life is remarkable and so empowering for all.

181. Thank you for sharing the power of commitment in our healing journey. Your story is inspirational.

182. Yes, every moment is an opportunity to change our choices.

183. We read about miracles And such a big deal was made about the occasional thing that happens that is not explainable, and yet here we have but should be recorded as a true miracle… The moving on from something which binds and weighs down so many people.

184. Ruth, I have tears in my eyes reading this, you are such an amazing woman and wow what changes you made to your life, you have such strength and commitment to healing and this has really paid off – it is wonderful to have a living example of what is possible, truly inspiring!

185. I have known people with Chronic Fatigue and seen how debilitating it is. It is quite remarkable Ruth that you have been able to turn this around for yourself in this way, simply by choosing to listen to your body and responding to what it needed. It just goes to show the power and truth that lies within is there to be accessed whenever we should choose to access it.

186. The exhaustion I feel is because of my struggle against life, it is like pitting myself as an individual against a flow that has purpose and makes sense for all of us. The less I resist and the more I play my part, the less exhaustion I accumulate.

187. WOW – this just shows me that change is possible not matter what stage we are at. And it is all to do with choice. I just love this sharing and how awesome it is to read the turnaround from committing to life. I did not know chronic fatigue was related to the kidneys and it is really interesting to be able to relate illnesses to organs in the body and start to build from that awareness.

188. What a huge contrast from being awarded disability allowance for life to working and living in London – this is a great testimony to what can happen with our health and our lives if we make some simple and consistent choices.

     1. Absolutely Julie. It is truly remarkable what can happen when we choose to take responsibility for the choices we make in our everyday lives.

     2. Yes Julie, being consistent with the caring, loving choices is very important.

189. There are a number of illnesses with physical symptoms but with very little seeming physical causes – chronic fatigue, fibromyalgia, even much of low back pain. They are clearly not mental illnesses but seem to be a combination of the physical and the mental and it then makes sense that a change in the way we live in general could have a big influence on such illnesses – the only question then is ‘what change would be needed?’.

190. Surrendering to the body brings out the power and truth that has been there all along.

     1. Wow, that is a beautiful and inspiring comment, Vicky. Simple and undeniable when I let myself hear my body’s signals.

191. This is such an important article for humanity right now. With so many of us on the brink of collapse, shored up by coffee, sugar, alcohol and other stimulants, we cannot but be inspired by this turn around and the responsibility on offer.

192. Reacting to life definitely leads to exhaustion as does over thinking or over analysing things, not making clear decisions, double guessing yourself, should I do this or that, and living from your head.

     1. And chronic exhaustion does not bode well for the body yet many of us live that way.

     2. Holding back is another one, Gyl, I can feel really clearly when I hold back from expressing/communicating something the negative affect this has on my body and energy levels .

193. Having said that… it is entirely different to it being ‘psycho-somatic’ or all in the head… it is a condition that is far from that. The willingness to heal however applies to any and every ill-condition, it just stands out in CFS because the body is so responsive to the Esoteric Therapies and the restoration of Kidney energy. Holding onto old patterns of behaviour, old dynamics and the ‘pay-off’ for being where we are in life… are all things that often need addressing I find.

194. I spent many years treating CFS in patients with all manner of supplements and herbs, often as complementary support to medical help, and I would have to say, largely without success in my view. This approach you have outlined Ruth was new to me as a practitioner… and I have to say, has been largely (if not wholly) successful too. It is dependant on another major factor though and that is the willingness of the CFS sufferer to truly want to heal. It can be a complex condition but the complexity is not in the physiology of what is amiss in the body, but rather in the willingness to heal (and all of what that entails) or not.

     1. Yes Jenny, the willingness to heal is very important and I had it, I did not want to stay in the state I had created. Once I understood what was going on and gained awareness of how it had developed I was on my way.

        1. And the result speaks for itself Ruth… well done, your story needs to be widely accessible, for those who are genuinely ready to heal.

195. I love reading about your commitment and responsibility to healing Ruth. I have a friend with Chronic fatigue whom I’m sure will be inspired by your blog, thank you.

196. Your miraculous turn around Ruth makes it possible to understand that we have the power within us to turn our lives around if we are willing to make a comittment to how we are living and what has led us to be sick in the first place.

197. This is a beautiful quote from a beautiful and inspiring blog “It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it.” I had some ongoing health issues, nothin huge, but these things build up if we do not take care of them…I can feel how my reactions to life, resulted in ill health. I notice very much how, being more aware of my body and making more loving choices has deeply supported my well-being, and I would not live another way now.

198. It’s phenomenal to see what is possible when we address the root cause of our issues.

199. ‘Chronic Fatigue keeps you stuck in a cycle that holds you back from who you truly are, separate from others and all you can bring to life. It takes will, commitment and responsibility to walk free of it, but it can be done’ – This article is inspirational, to read a personal account of taking responsibility and very lovingly addressing the energetic root cause of an ailment is reading about a real life miracle.

200. So many people are trapped in this very debilitating illness of Chronic Fatigue and you share an amazing insight into it and are living example of how we can heal our selves. The deep understanding, love and care you gave yourself wth a solid building commitment to yourself and life is so inspiring and an amazing sharing for others both with this illness and to everyone of how we can take more responsibility and care for ourselves and commit at an ever deeper level to life by living our fullness and feel our natural glory. Thank you Ruth amazing!

201. This is amazing Ruth and proof is in the pudding so to speak.I can relate to what you share a lack of commitment to life does exhaust you and create lots of complications in the body from there. But first I can say it has to start with committing to a loving relationship with yourself. For if you look outside and try to fix all the things around you, you are forgetting the one thing in the middle that stays the same – you. Focus on the middle, the core, the centre, and things outside of you, all these bits that seemed so huge, will take care of themselves. This for me is words at the moment, but there is a deeper knowing inside my body that knows this is true. The main factor in all of this is taking responsibility.

     1. Great observation here Gyl. When there is lack of commitment the body does withdraw and naturally goes into a state of exhaustion. What is interesting to observe here is… could the exhaustion be from the body not living its natural state? We are made to connect from the simplest of ways with our body from self care to a conversation with the neighbours in our street. By starting with small steps there is the potential to move onto great levels of healing as the writer of this powerful blog has.

     2. Agreed Gyl, I started with the commitment to myself, how I took care of myself, tenderly and cherishingly, staying aware of my body as much as I could as I did things, as in feeling my fingers whilst doing things and my feet as I moved around. Also getting a steady routine with my sleep was important, a good wind down and early to bed consistently supported me hugely with this.Those little things daily add up and you can gradually add in more. These helped to me connect with myself which supported me to see how I was reacting to life.

202. Such a great turnaround Ruth. Sharing your experience of the power of a steady commitment, to the little things at first and how it all unfolded is inspirational for anyone who is feeling stuck and can’t get out of their own loop

203. It is quite incredible that you turned round chronic fatique, a symptom that debilitates many people in their life. “It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it.” How you approached your life and the result is a powerful revelation. How many other symptoms could be turned round with the similar understanding? You provide a great example of how little loving steps and tenderness toward ourself is not only lovely to feel, but has a profound impact on our health

     1. Exactly Golnaz, when I get any symptom now I ask myself how am I living that is causing this ? Our choices are immensely powerful in disease and wellbeing.

204. What an incredible blog to read. The statistics relating to this condition are ever increasing. This blog is a powerful reminder of the word commitment. Starting first with the commitment to self in order to build a body that is filled with the absolute love that then can commit to the world. An amazing move from one extreme to another that shows others that there is always another way when we choose to say yes to more and of course the more important point here – we accept more!

205. ‘It takes will, commitment and responsibility to walk free of it, but it can be done; I know, because I did it, one step at a time, making loving choices for me.’ Super cool Ruth that you broke free from a way you were living that was detrimental to your health. Feeling that you are worth committing to and that in truth that commitment to self also means commitment to others is one we can all go much deeper with. Bring more intimacy with ourselves and others could support a change in the conditioned way we are living as a society.

     1. I also love the ‘one step at a time’ but which totally debases for me any sense that I am meant to have it all sorted now, or that before I can engage and connect with life everything needs to look a certain way. Basically, putting to bed the crippling effects of perfectionism. Thank you.

        1. Yes understanding it doesn’t have to be all sorted now takes the pressure off, which allows us to be more open to dealing with things at our own pace.

        2. ‘Crippling effects of perfectionism’ this is so well described and is exactly how it feels to me too, so much striving and never ever getting there, it’s very consuming.

206. ‘Chronic Fatigue keeps you stuck in a cycle that holds you back from who you truly are, separate from others and all you can bring to life.’ Ruth, that you have broken this cycle for yourself is truly inspiring. What you offer here is proof to us all that remaining stuck is actually a choice and it is very possible to become unstuck through choosing differently. Thank you.

207. We cannot but be inspired by a story like this – a miraculous turn around. The next stage for me is to observe where I apply this inspiration in my relationship with my body and its signs and signals.

208. It is deeply inspiring to know that there is another way, and that others are living it and are willing to share and support others – which doesn’t come from wanting to do good but rather comes from giving back what they have been inspired to re-live for themselves.

209. On reading this tonight, there is no doubt in me of the unmistakeable connection between how we think and behave in life and that the body’s ailments are a direct effect of these thoughts and behaviors. The more this reality is discussed and shared the greater opportunity we all will have to do as Ruth has done and support our own healing through commitment and love.

210. “my body let go of the last residues of Chronic Fatigue. It felt like it was leaving every cell of my body, it was remarkable.” how beautiful is that, a condition that is so devastating yet one that can be healed and does not need to trap us for life.

211. This would be such an inspirational read for the many people who have chronic fatigue, ‘Chronic Fatigue keeps you stuck in a cycle that holds you back from who you truly are, separate from others and all you can bring to life.’ You are a walking miracle.

212. A walking miracle you are Ruth, leading the way for the many who have given up on themselves and life. Showing that there is immense love and joy on offer if we are willing to embrace it and take the tender movements back to ourselves. You are an inspiration to many, awesome Ruth.

213. It is so powerful to read the simplicity in which you claimed ‘life’ back in full. Just committing to simply do a few activities to support yourself, gradually built the trust in your self and in your livingness.

214. What an inspiration you are Ruth and how beautiful to read your journey and amazing recovery and commitment to life. There are so many people suffering with chronic fatigue in the world and your new found understanding and commitment to life shows the difference we can make taking responsibility for ourselves and our health can change everything. Very energising and inspiring to read thank you.

215. Nothing short of a miracle. Which means that, since every step on the path of this improvement was made by you and your choices, that you are the miracle.

216. It is very inspiring to hear how you have understood the underlying energetic causes for your Chronic Fatigue and come back from a pattern of draining your energy and giving up on life.

217. How did this miracle happen? self responsibility and understanding of energy, life force, and commitment to life. Ruth, your experience with chronic fatigue needs to be studied and documented so that others can also heal.

218. Yes Shirley-Ann, when my trust dropped this triggered my withdrawal and shutting the world out much more, Serge Benhayon and Simone Benhayon supported me to build my trust in myself and others and the world again and I am deeply deeply grateful for this.

219. Your account of how you turned your life around from chronic fatigue to living abundantly in every way is one that many people who have Chronic Fatigue would benefit from learning how you did it. It also offers further insight and questions to ponder on even if the ailment is not Chronic Fatigue, because the ‘giving up’ attitude can also present in so many other displays of human behaviour, that in themselves contribute to other health issues, e.g., mental ill health. A superbly inspiring sharing Ruth, thank you!

220. It is amazing how much we can change when we truly set our hearts towards it . Nothing is ever permanent and everything can be changed if we put that and love above everything else. Something I have found is that the more I simply focus on being and living love, everything which is not love drops away and my body becomes much more harmonious. So there is no need to try to get rid of an illness or disease, but rather use it as a gift or a blessing to take the time to heal and change the way we are living.

     1. I agree James, it is about building a loving relationship with ourselves through deep care and the quality that we bring to this care and living this everyday. Fixing or get rid of illness didn’t work for me , but focussing on building love, commitment and consistency it naturally healed, as did my migraines.

        1. It is amazing what we can do and how much we can literally turn our lives around when we put love above all else. Ultimately our bodies are simply a reflection for the way we have been living and so will tell us, sometimes very loudly, if we have been living out of harmony to the love that we naturally are – the question is often what will it take for us to stop and actually listen?

221. Giving up although a very harmful attitude in life, when exposed in honesty from the body, has the chance to be truly dealt with. Covering it up and pretending that it is okay does far more destruction long term.

222. “It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it.”

     The joy in your writing and in you returning to loving choices to heal, just leaps off the screen. It is quite infectious. Amazing work.

223. Exhaustion is absolutely endemic in the world today – we have done a major cover up of this, using, most recently, coffee and sugar to keep us going – I am picturing what a day in London would look like without these two ingredients…

224. So many people are living with chronic exhaustion and think it’s normal, that it’s all part of life or their job. The only way we get through this is by drinking copious amounts of coffee, stimulating ourselves and eating sugary food or snacks. If we took coffee and sugar away from the world for one month – we would see the mess we and our bodies are in. People wouldn’t be able to function, but we would get a real view of how out of order we are with our bodies way of living which naturally energises us. This could be a very good thing. Not only that it would also expose the mass corruption and greed of the companies and people involved in the caffeine and sugar industries and trade. We would wake up a lot more, as see what is really going on.

225. What a true dose of medicine this is… “chronic fatigue is a condition of the kidneys, that the kidneys carry the energetic life force for the body; they are about commitment to life, yourself and humanity…” To understand chronic fatigue in this way, totally supports a person to reflect and be honest about the way they live, the choices they have made, And then empowers them to address and change the attitudes that precede the way they live life… This coupled with self care brings true restoration of the human body back to health… And your experience and sharing totally demonstrates this… It’s brilliant and brings evolution to medicine.

226. There are so many illnesses that we can suffer from as a result of our reactions to life events and it is thanks to people like Serge Benhayon that we have an opportunity to understand and make different choices about how we can live. Some disabilities are for life, and there may be a deeper underlying history and lessons to learn from them, but you have shown that it is possible to deal with a debilitating illness like chronic fatigue by making simple self-loving choices.

227. I wonder how much of ill health can be attributed to reactions, it seems simplistic but perhaps deeply true, being in reaction creates a disturbance in the body that has to be released through some means or other. Wanting something to be a certain way, not coping with life due to a perception of self or a picture of how life should be, how another should behave etc, all this can only be a stressor on the body and one out-with our control. So letting go is the antidote, observing and accepting things as they are and being willing to appreciate oneself and shape our life from the basis that we are enough and need only concern ourselves with that we can affect.

228. I had chronic fatigue for quite a few years and yet funnily enough I still found the energy to continue to play sport, even at the peak of the condition. This is interesting that I still was drawing energy from somewhere to get through the day, not realising that the mechanism through which I was drawing my energy was that which was actually ultimately depleting me. Like many athletes, I drew my energy from drive. By that I mean, I motivated myself by thoughts of what I could achieve, and in doing so then stimulated my nervous system to the point where I kicked in my adrenals, and boom – instant energy. Do this for long enough, of course, and eventually you experience adrenal exhaustion, as I did. However, even in that state of being, you can push yourself by relying on nervous energy, and by driving yourself with thought of grandeur. Eventually, however, such pathway causes the body to shut down entirely, leading eventually to chronic fatigue. And thus why chronic fatigue affects so many high level athletes, and is astutely referred to as “over achievers disease”.

     1. This is an amazing insight into the physiology at play when we drive and push ourselves with scant regard for our bodies.

229. What a totally different approach to engaging in life rather than using drive and nervous tension. It makes sense that the way we live and use our energy can be draining or depleting.

230. This is an amazing revolutionary blog for within it are all the keys for how to heal fully from chronic fatigue, a condition that continues to have the modern medical world stumped as to how to treat or manage it.

231. For anyone with chronic fatigue, or anyone who knows anyone with chronic fatigue, this is pure gold… honest, practical and inspiring… thank you, Ruth.

232. So well done! I felt the joy of re-commitment to life you share Ruth and your choice is so important in changing the general direction of withdrawal the world is now heading towards.

233. Ruth I can see how you would worry about doing more than what you knew was safe, however its lovely to read about how you took small gentle steps that gradually built over time.

234. In research a common opinion is to dismiss stories of very strong or unusual recoveries because anything can and sometimes does happen. I wonder if it would be worthwhile to study such occurrences and to see if there was a pattern? It would be studying what works, if what is claimed truly happened, rather than simply rejecting it.

     1. And maybe we would discover that there is a quantifiable body of evidence that does stand up to the rigours of research criteria?

235. As we go through life many of us, have built our castles to hide behind our walls to be less. Anything we do to hold ourselves back causes our body’s to adapt to something that is not natural and has consequences. When we tear down our walls we find the amazing person that has always been there, aren’t we all walking miracles… just undiscovered by ourselves sometimes.

236. What you are showing us here Ruth is how it is possible, that by first making the decision that you wnat to do something about your situation to change it, and then by commiiting to your decision you have been able to completely turn your life around, step by tiny step, until it is recognisable now, 10 years on. It is quite extraordinary what is possible when we choose to committ in full to something, regardless of how big or small it is.

237. This is literally incredible – indeed a miracle!

238. Yes Susan, life doesn’t have to be this way… in changing our choices so much can change, it in our hands.

239. The cause of Chronic Fatigue is unknown, and the treatment options not effective, so there is a great opportunity for modalities like the Esoteric therapies, and in particular Chakra-puncture to offer true healing.

     1. Yes Heather, I found Chakra-puncture very supportive in my healing process.

240. An inspiring story Ruth. Even the smallest of changes begin to make a big difference.

241. It is incredible that when you started to make some simple changes in you life, Ruth, by taking responsibility for yourself, the pain dissolved away. I had a previous understanding that pain was purely physical, this shows that pain is a complex mechanism in the brain, but you show a beautiful example of how we can change it with our commitment to ourselves.

242. I also suffered from burnout. Reading your story brought up the memory that it started many years before it became visible in my body. In my life it started with a choice, reacting to my hurts and giving up the joy I naturally was and emanated. At this stage I did not know how to gain back this joy and many years later my body stopped me from the abuse of not living this natural joy in me in a huge exhaustion. Through the workshops at Universal Medicine I understand my previous choice and its consequences and step by step return to the innate joy I felt as a young woman.

     1. Which means you look gorgeous!

243. The amazing miracle of the changes in your life is against every trend out there and such an inspiration to the world Ruth. Thank you for sharing it, I love reading it and the knowing that our choices really do make a difference and that we are responsible for our lives and so much more always.

244. What stands out in this blog is the overall effect that not committing to life has on our bodies, such as the complete exhaustive state of chronic fatigue. Which tells us very clearly that our bodies do in fact love to be in the activity of life, and that we are at our best when we are giving our all. The balance of this though is the rest time that naturally comes after periods of intense activity, the two can never be apart, like night and day, rest and motion are the essential building blocks of life.

245. It is great when we find ways to heal illnesses that seem to be at the crossover point between physical and mental illnesses like chronic fatigue may be.

246. You certainly are a walking miracle Ruth. Now this is a real success story and it shows that we are all capable of turning our lives around by taking the lead from tuning into our body. Very inspiring.

247. wow it shows that our bodies have a lot to say to us! And what an amazing experience to reverse a condition which some people would just put up with and live with. When we want to know more, as in why things are the way they are – then it starts to unfold a lot more than just the symptoms. So much can be said for how we live and the quality of that way.

248. Brilliant that your observations of your body, and acting on that, were so much a part of your healing Ruth. Truly, it can be no other way.

     1. Yes Jenny, it’s amazing what our bodies show us if we are willing to listen understand and be guided by it, deep healing can take place.

249. Your blog makes me consider than there are probably many diseases that ..’it doesn’t have to be this way..’ and could also possibly make a U-turn and an improvement in health like yourself, by having an approach of attending to emotional issues, and deepening the relationship of self love and self care.

250. Amazing story and this is not an isolated case, there are so many stories with similar miracles to what you have shared Ruth.

251. It is inspiring to read in such detail how you healed Chronic Fatigue by understanding the cause and committing to life again. I’m sure there are many sufferers who would appreciate hearing your story.

252. It’s interesting, when I read ‘Chronic Fatigue’ I actually think of the massive exhaustion and unbelievable amounts of caffeine that are being consumed, to medicate this problem across the world.

253. Thank you Ruth. What you have shared about Chronic Fatigue and your life has helped me to understand on a deeper level why it is that I too experienced Chronic Fatigue years ago after a case of glandular fever. I too have worked my way out of constantly reacting to everything and withdrawing, to stepping back into life bit by bit. And this year I went back to uni to finish my qualifications. A big step and a very powerful one.

     1. Robyn, that sounds great!

254. Thank you Ruth for this article, It brings in the fact that our illnesses and diseases don’t only stem from a dis-order from the body, but from how we react to and relate to life. If we believe that we cannot respond to what is before us, in that avoidance our health declines. Addressing these beliefs and living in response to these triggers, rather than reaction I have experienced repeatedly, does support greater healing than just the body mending.

255. How great is this story? Astonishing really, not only because of the huge turn around in health but how a simple remedy, commitment to life, can be offered and how it permeated into so many choices that could be made, beginning with a short, gentle walk. This spoke to me about how powerful it is to redirect our will from its gross misuse in the form of giving up, to reconnection with our bodies with true purpose.

     1. Simon this is great way to put it, redirect our will from gross misuse to reconnection to true purpose, with our bodies, the choice is ours and small changes bring powerful turnarounds.

256. It is Difficult to break out of the loop of Chronic fatigue as you have described you keep getting pulled back in; “It takes will, commitment and responsibility to walk free of it, but it can be done” I can feel your strong resolve here Ruth as many with the same affliction will be encouraged by your words.

257. I have read your blog many times Ruth and I am still deeply inspired by your commitment to heal, your renewed commitment to life and to change the way you were reacting to life. Knowing you personally and seeing the change in you has been phenomenal.

258. I was really interested to read how you felt your muscles ached from something that should not be there. Could it be that we either take things on from the world that we should not or are continually drained because of our withdrawal from life.

259. What a difference commitment to self and life makes, ‘So I embarked on a journey to build trust in myself by making a commitment to myself and life, starting with very short walks and caring for myself, focusing on the quality of how I did things for myself, tenderly, lovingly, building this love in my body.’ This is remarkable Ruth, a true miracle.

260. The key point about unusual medical events (miracles?) is to record them in as much details as possible.

261. I just love reading your blog Ruth! Not only are we made to be fully immersed in life, when we commit to life, we are given all we need! Chronic fatigue and other illnesses are signs that we are not living our true nature. Brilliant expose!

     1. Exactly Bernadette, it’s not about getting better but about living, connecting to, our true nature, essence, and deeply caring for ourselves that the body can truly heal.

262. This article leaves me in no doubt about the responsibility we have for our own health and well-being… and to re-claim this responsibility as a blessing rather than a curse. It puts us in the driving seat as it were and retrieves us from victimhood to engagement and empowerment.

     1. This is so true Matilda, to re-claim responsibility certainly is a blessing. It may seem a bit daunting at first but after the first few steps I could feel the empowerment and change occurring.

263. Your journey is amazing – from chronic fatigue to a life of commitment and vitality is frankly so against the trend that it is almost a miracle, thank you for sharing to inspire people to consider the possibility that a change to lifestyle can be the greatest form of medicine.

264. “It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it.” Awesome to read your account, real food for thought concerning the choices we make every day. I know when I have been slow, low and bloated, which is how I felt in the past, I did not realise it felt so bad, because it became my normal, something nudged me to try a different way, it was learning that I was love in essence, and worth caring for, I feel very vital much of the time now, and it has become my normal, so important that I do not take it for granted, but appreciate it fully.

265. ‘It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it.’ – The power of loving choices in our daily life, thank you for sharing Ruth.

     1. Yes Jenny, and our choices affect every area of our life as well as our health, powerful indeed.

266. It certainly doesn’t have to be this way. Once we are shown a way to live that is more loving we have the power to turn our lives and our energy around. Love works miracles.

267. Thank you so much for this, Ruth. I have lived with chronic fatigue since I was 18. I am now 64. It wasn’t (or isn’t) as bad as yours was, and I am slowly but surely moving away from that energy which drags me down – into a tiredness that is totally debilitating. It was just so good to read about someone going through this as well – because I had never come across anyone who had it.

268. Such a great turnaround Ruth. What stood out today when I read your blog was this sentence ‘My condition was made fun of at times, which of course confirmed the safety of with-drawing more.’ It is amazing how we can use people’s reactions as justification to bury ourselves deeper in our patterns. I know I have certainly done this and am beginning to see just how it plays out.

269. A great moment in this blog is when Ruth talks about the energetic science of the kidneys and how they relate to commitment to life. I have always found this science to be very empowering because it opens the way for more communication between myself and my body.

270. Ruth – thank you for your sharing. I can also share that Chronic Fatigue is very much about giving up. This was something I went through as well, but thankfully I brought myself back and now find myself in a space that is so much more embracing of life and enjoying everything! What a blessing to have turned this around. And then after this I encountered Universal Medicine which for me was there to give me the full understanding and offered me the ‘missing piece’ to life which was my connection to me, something I had sorely missed for most of my adult life. And from here things have not stopped unfolding.

271. I understand how we can give up on life. Unless there is a purpose to living, we are bound by a routine and demands that are like a never ending tunnel that we plod along, not knowing if and where it may end. Chronic fatigue seems inevitable, whether it is the diagnosed medical condition or the physical reality. Enter Universal Medicine and an understanding of who we are and the power that we hold in every cell in our bodies that can be lived in every moment to support others and ourselves and life takes on a charge that is liberating and amazing, clearing out all the ‘what is not’ in our past and learning to live from true vitality is our birthright. So beautiful to read how you have done this Ruth.

272. I enjoyed reading about your experience with chronic fatigue as it gave me a better understanding of those who may have it. With more understanding, I will be able to support more and judge less. Thanks.

273. Love the way you show how you supported yourself out of Chronic Fatigue Ruth. This is an illness that many find no respite from and you have truly blown that way of thinking our of the water.

274. Such a great blog Ruth, really turning on its head that these types of illnesses are there for life. They do not have to be, they can be changed, but it does take time, dedication and building a love and connection with oneself that was not there in the beginning. Thank you very inspiring.

275. Commitment to life is what helped you overcome your old pattern of withdrawing from life, thank you for sharing your inspirational story Ruth, ‘My pattern in life from a very young age has been to withdraw, if something scared me, hurt me, got too much or I couldn’t cope; with nowhere to escape to, this was my way of coping.’

276. Very inspirational article Ruth, so many people feel like they are a victim to chronic fatigue, you blow this fallacy out the window and support all to know that they can heal If they choose to commit to themselves.

277. Our body is a faithful partner when we respect it and we are willing to take responsibility for our choices and learn how truly powerful we are.

278. Amazing Ruth, you are an absolute inspiration. It sounds like chronic fatigue is not something that is easily cured but you have indeed managed to be clear of it and how you did this is a credit to you and the choices you have made. This shows that it is certainly possible to change our life around if we are willing to shift, heal and address the core issues both energetically and physically.

279. It just goes to show that reacting and withdrawing from life, and giving up can have a devastating effect on our health, and the conditions you describe here in this blog Ruth, unfortunately seem to be on the rise and not in decline.

280. Every condition we experience we have created and this is not what most people want to hear but it is true and the beauty of it is that we can heal every condition we have if we but choose to make the necessary changes in our lives.

281. When we stop being victims of life, responsibility starts to be our ally rather than a burden. And there is something deeply empowering about realising that we do make our choices and that these have a knock on effect. This is an inspiring story about a transition from given-up-ness to engagement… thank you, Ruth.

282. It is amazing the extremes we go to hold back the expression of who we truly are, be seen in the world as and connect with humanity.

283. Withdrawal may seem harmless enough, but in fact it is deeply harming both to ourselves and all others. We abdicate responsibility for our own vehicle (our body) and give up the driver’s seat to allow all manner of energies to jump in and play with us, which can then impulse our thoughts – and through this anything can have its way if we give up on ourselves enough. And it is a slippery slope once we start, but at any time we can take back the reins (or the steering wheel) and reconnect to the truth of who we are and what we can truly live.

     1. Yes I agree Annie, we can ‘take back the reins’ at any time; it takes a commitment to ourselves. I too shut down from a young age. I can remember feeling very confused at five years old and from then on it was a downward spiral. Since coming across Universal Medicine I feel a commitment to myself and others that I have not experienced before (in this life) and most of the time I am enjoying it and all that it is bringing.

     2. Ruth’s story is a great example of this Annie, she will inspire so many people around the world. It will hugely support people with chronic fatigue. When I read this blog, I was totally blown away by how Ruth managed to change her life around, from being withdrawn, suffering from a chronic illness and awarded a ‘Disability Living Allowance … for life!’ to now working full-time in London. This is unheard of and I can imagine many people would want to know how this is possible.

284. I love reading this Ruth as the inspiration to make loving choices and the power this holds is amazing as you are a living example. Beautifully shared thank you.

285. What I really take from this blog is the commitment to stay with your body in presence Ruth. It seems so easy to miss that underneath our ability to be engaged fully in life is dependent on our ability to observe and not absorb or react to life.

     1. Yes Jenny this is one I had to work on quite a bit as I had many ways to check out and not be present with my body, but step by step addressing my different ways of checking out such as day dreaming, this was a big one for me, spiritual meditation, and later on TV, my reactions got less and I was able to observe more , see and feel what was going on without taking it on. The Gentle Breath Meditation helped hugely with bringing me back to my body.

286. Diagnosis is not a death sentence, but a marker and an opportunity to learn from our choices until that point; and then choose differently.

     1. Yes Kylie, I now find diagnosis an opportunity for deeper awareness about myself, my choices, and empowerment to make changes.

287. Thank you for sharing your story Ruth, a true inspiration for many who suffer from such condition in their lives. As you have menitoned committment is the key, the simplicity of it cannnot be underestimated as when we consistantly commit we create a new flow in life that reflects the true essence of who we are.

288. There is another way to live that will change every personal, health, relationship and work issue we face.

289. It’s true – the biggest thing that exhausts me and my body in life, is not the amount of work I do, nor the time I get up, but reacting to people. When I don’t react I feel joyful, super solid, able to deeply love the other person, and have much more compassion and understanding.

     1. Yes Gyl, the less I react the more aware I am of the impact it is having on me and my body, the less I react the more balanced and sustaining my energy levels are and then I can be just me and enjoy every moment with others.

290. Yet another story about how Serge Benhayon and the teachings of Universal Medicine have utterly transformed a life. Me too. The man is the real deal. The teachings are the truth. My life has purpose.

291. If a short gentle walk around the block can wake me up and stop me feeling hungry…then what else can my choices change?

     1. Super simple and well within our reach – it is often the humble little choices and changes we make that have the greatest impact.

292. This seemingly small understanding from Esoteric Medicine that Chronic Fatigue is an illness related to the kidneys is a monumental understanding for anyone looking to truly understand how to heal it. Such is the power of Esoteric Medicine.

293. Such an amazing story – if anyone had told you all those years ago that you would be where you are today, you wouldn’t have believed it – but it is the amazing changes you have made to your lifestyle that have totally changed the course of your life.

     1. Yes Rebecca, I wouldn’t have believed it, I had dreams of what I would do if I could but it all seemed so far off and not possible. I used to imagine these things to keep me going in a way but looking back I feel I never believed them. No belief necessary now, as I am living my changed course in life and thoroughly enjoying it.

        1. Amazing Ruth, truly amazing and as you say we often dream of a day that will come when things magically have improved – often this never happens, because as your story shows, we need to commit to true change and make steps towards it.

294. It is amazing how many stories I have heard like yours of people who reclaimed and healed themselves from all sorts of conditions through the inspiration and example of Serge Benhayon and their own loving choices. My life, health and well-being has also transformed!

     1. Yes Nicola, such is the truth of the teachings of Serge Benhayon and the inspiration of his living way that so many people have transformed their lives.

295. This is very important Susan, the correct support, this I found from Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, having tried many forms of therapy the teachings, presentations, and support of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine were the key to my true healing.

296. True change requires a willingness on our part to get honest about how we are living and then committing to doing something about it. We all have the capacity to not only change but to bring great change to those around us through the power of reflection.

     1. Yes Elizabeth, I had to get honest and take responsibility before I could make any changes, which seemed a bit daunting at first but it is about understanding and an awareness that is needed, without any self bashing for previous choices, then change can start.

297. “It doesn’t have to be this way…” is a life line statement indicating that there is a pathway out of a dis-ease we can find ourselves in, and your sharing of how you healed your chronic fatigue is a testament to the fact that there is another way to live that leads one out of this to be able to reclaim that true sense and purpose of themselves. Reclaiming back that sense of self certainly reduces the burden of disease on public health.

298. Commitment. Such a strong tool and more. Great reminder Ruth – Thank you!

     1. Indeed Sandra, Commitment to living the love that we are, so important and fundamental.

299. I do really feel for those stuck in such a horrendous cycle of chronic fatigue but this blog is a real light at the end of the tunnel for such people. What an amazing and inspirational turnaround Ruth, I know it maybe wasn’t possible without the guidance of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, but it was you who had the courage and put in the work to completely change your life so much for the better.

     1. Thank you Kevin, yes I kept at it, one step at a time and I really appreciate myself for this.

300. I haven’t ever been diagnosed with chronic fatigue, but have had bouts of feeling incredibly tired, having an underactive thyroid, contributing to this physical feeling of walking around with dead weights on one’s arms and legs. So reading your blog has been super inspiring, I know that I have made a lot of changes in my life over the past number of years, but my body is still reflecting to me there is level of deeper love for me to go to. So thank you!

301. The way our bodies respond to being cared for is such a confirmation that we are naturally made to be harmonious in all ways. Nurture a plant and it will flourish, disregard it and it will die…We are truly held in the magic of God and intricately part of it. Ruth you have shown the world how understanding you are of this truth. Inspirational!

302. Very inspiring Ruth – you are a beautiful walking miracle! And thank you for sharing how it came to be.Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine teachings have lifted the lid on many ‘impossible’ medical conditions for many people.

     1. Serge Benhayon presents the truth about the body, illness and disease, it is there for us all. Thousands of people have already transformed their lives and health from the teachings and wisdom he brings.

303. Thankyou Ruth for sharing your experience and how you have completely turned your life around. What it highlights for me is that by having an understanding of illness and disease through the teachings of Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon, whether it’s chronic fatigue, or anything else that we may experience, ‘it doesn’t have to be this way’. We all have the potential to make different choices and to change the course of our lives.

     1. I agree Sandra, it was because of the understanding gained about illness and disease from Serge Benhayon’s teachings that I was able to make different choices and bring about the changes.

304. It’s truly amazing how we can begin to turn our life around once we are open to little shards of wisdom that, when the time is right, drop into our consciousness and begin to arouse our sense of knowingness that is truly always available. When we withdraw from life we are ostensibly saying no to living life and cut our connection to our life force that is forever there supporting us and waiting for us to return – life will always be there and it’s up to us when we choose to return.

305. This is so inspiring to read and really does change everything that is out there about chronic fatigue and brings a real empowerment to sufferers. As many children have this increasingly it shows the importance of instilling true commitment to life as part of our learning and education from young.

306. What was so lovely to read Ruth was the joy you now feel in your commitment to life……. and everyone benefits from this. Very inspiring.

307. This is a wonderful example of not resigning to suffering from an issue or an illness and taking responsibility to check things out, seek support, reflect on personal contributing behaviours and take action required to turn the situation round. I have noticed that it is not so much about not having the issue (although that would be nice) as some conditions such as losing a leg may be irreversible, but the way we take responsibility to deepen our understanding, engaging with life, taking care of ourself and expressing our essence is what makes a world of difference. And supports an immense healing which is far greater than just what we see in the physical.

308. It’s amazing isn’t it that the way we are affects everything in our bodies.

309. BBC news on 1 November in the UK there is going to be the biggest ever study about Chronic Fatigue in children from the age of 6.
     My questions are
     WHY are children so young being diagnosed with this illness?
     What is going on that our kids are chronically fatigued?
     Does our parenting have a direct hand in why our young children have chronic fatigue?
     Are we missing something?

     When you hear news like this it makes you stop and ask what on earth is going on when adult illnesses are now coming through fast in children and the ages are getting younger.
     Maybe it is time for the world to wake up and take note of Serge Benhayon who most certainly knows what he is talking about.

     1. Thank you for your comment Bina, these are great questions that need to be asked. The age of 6 is shockingly young for chronic fatigue. Serge Benhayon certainly does know what he is talking about as very many can attest to.

     2. Indeed Bina, Ruth’s story is an all important testimonial to the living medicine that is presented by Serge Benhayon, this study needs to know about her remarkable, self initiated return to health.

     3. Yes, that is very strange. Chronic fatigue in children???

310. Having known you now for a number of years, Ruth, I can re-iterate that you are, “a walking miracle … loving living life!!” You are an inspiration that true healing can occur from the deepest, darkest place if you are willing to take the responsibility for how one is living, for as you say, “it takes will, commitment and responsibility to walk free of it, but it can be done; I know, because I did it, one step at a time, making loving choices for me.”

311. We can indeed give up in such little increments and withdraw from the world that we can deplete and drain ourselves. However it is indeed just as possible to reengage in the world and take responsibility for our hurts.

312. ‘It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it’.- This is a powerful statement and I can feel the solid knowing of this truth in your body. Knowing that we are enough is one of biggest challenges for us, because knowing we are enough puts a stop to the endless drive and push to be something that the outside world demands – it frees us from all the standards, measurements, competition, comparison and jealousy so prevalent in society today. This has been informative, inspiring and healing to read Ruth, thank you for sharing.

313. This is a beautiful and inspiring story Ruth, thank you for having the courage to share it. You have shown the power of taking responsibility and committing to life in full.

314. I am really blown away by your story Ruth. I get the sense that the main reason you healed your chronic fatigue was because you got to a point where you truly wanted to be in the world again. Healing is a choice.

315. “It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it.” – responsibiity and appreciation in one sentence – well said Ruth.

316. “It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it.” Thank you for sharing your story Ruth, a true inspiration for us all that is never too late to make significant changes in life and it all starts with true and supportive choices for self first.

317. “A shift in me began with a willingness to look at myself and how I had been reacting to life.” – Gosh this is something that all of us can benefit from being open to; lifestyle and our relationship with life has such a big impact on our health and that of those around us.

318. Yes, Ruth, you are a living miracle, flying in the face of statistics and opening a door for others to explore their experience of chronic illness.

319. “It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it.” Ruth, it’s wonderful to read of your transformation from taking responsibility in this way and it shows how empowering it is and how we can break the cycle we get trapped in once we shift our focus from our narrow existence to the purpose of serving humanity.

320. The quality of life we live is a choice, I appreciate what you have expressed here Ruth, simple, wise and true;
     “It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it”.

321. Hello Ruth and this part alone should bring something to everyone, “At this time in 1997, I had a trauma that I felt I couldn’t cope with, my trust plummeted, with little awareness I withdrew … I gave up and my day to day living with the ‘normal’ exhaustion of life became fatigue, then … Chronic Fatigue.” So the Chronic Fatigue didn’t turn up on your door step. You made a choice, another choice and another and then it became a product of the sum of those choices. So often we are led to believe things just happen but Ruth you’re blowing this out of the water in this instance. You are giving us a map into Chronic Fatigue which then equally is a map out as well. This should be very empowering for most that would think there is no way out of this condition, thank you.

322. Ruth thank-you for sharing so honestly, i had no idea that Chronic fatigue could be so crippling. The healing you have been inspired to bring to yourself is truly miraculous and the job that was offered to you is a grand confirmation of all this.

323. From what you’ve shared, and many experiences I’ve had also Ruth, allopathic medicine as it stands seems at a loss as to how to treat such conditions as chronic fatigue and fibromyalgia (a condition someone very close to me lived with for many years). This is in no way to criticise the immense support allopathic medicine offers us all, but clearly, there is a ‘missing piece’… Enter esoteric medicine, as presented by Serge Benhayon of Universal Medicine, and we start to be able to connect the dots – and re-connect our ‘own dots’ back to what has been behind such conditions. That you have been able to recognise and address the pattern of withdrawal from life, and hold yourself so lovingly throughout, is an essential guide-post for us all, in reclaiming the missing pieces that we do know within, but our society as a rule has not allowed to hold equal importance in regards to all that true healing actually entails.

324. The embracing of life and our willing engagement in it – could this be the answer to so much of what impedes upon our health and wellbeing? Super-powerful to read your story and feel your true joie de vivre Ruth, just amazing how you have turned things around within yourself, your body and your commitment to the life you lead.

     1. ‘The embracing of life and our willing engagement in it’ – that is how I define responsibility these days and Ruth’s article is testimony to the benefits and joy of taking it.

325. Chronic fatigue is an extremely debilitating condition. If it is possible to turn this around and live a full and vital life, what other conditions do we accept or put up with that can equally be cleared from the body?

326. What really stands out for me is the notion that ‘it doesn’t have to be that way’, that there is another way that will bring awareness, love and evolution to any ailment and that that other way is founded simply upon making self-loving lifestyle choices.

327. There are so many people living with fatigue and exhaustion, let alone Chronic fatigue which is extremely if not completely debilitating your story offers so much to anyone who is looking.

328. Ruth you most certainly are a walking miracle, amazing to hear how with commitment and responsibility you said good bye to chronic fatigue. Good on you Ruth

329. It feels important to note that your energy levels improved once you committed to life more – that is a great confirmation of the connection between and the interdependence of our mental/emotional and physical states of being. It will be interesting to observe what findings psychoneuroimmunology will come up with; findings that we innately sense and already know and which will be confirmed by science, in time.

330. A super inspiring blog Ruth, showing how it starts with those small commitments to ourselves that are the beginnings of transforming our health and wellbeing.

331. An amazing return Ruth! And all starting with basic self care and developing Love in the body.

332. Thank you for sharing Ruth, this is an amazing turn around of you and your life. What you share could help many people with this condition, ‘chronic fatigue is a condition of the kidneys, that the kidneys carry the energetic life force for the body; they are about commitment to life, yourself and humanity.’ And how your commitment to life and self had dropped, and, ‘My pattern in life from a very young age has been to withdraw, if something scared me, hurt me, got too much or I couldn’t cope; with nowhere to escape to, this was my way of coping.’

333. There is a commitment to life, but as you call out, there has to be also be a commitment to ourselves first. I know for me this has been presenting recently, to go deeper with that commitment to myself, asking myself what does that look like in the detail. I had become very good at being self caring, going to bed when I felt to, not reacting and getting emotional, but could feel I wasn’t making time to exercise or really feel what my body needed in the way of movement. So I am choosing to commit more deeply to me and your blog has been just a wonderful inspiration.

334. Using the false energy of coffee is at epidemic levels now with so many people walking around so exhausted and keeping themselves going with coffee. It’s very common and in fact the ‘norm’ now for people to either walk in with their takeaway coffee on their way to work, or for it to be one of the first things they do on arrival, and it’s very common to hear people say that they can’t function before they’ve had a coffee. So we have whole workforces so depleted and just functioning with artificial stimulants like coffee, and sugar.

335. Ruth this is an incredible blog, and a huge wake up call for I would assume many many people, I know for myself this is true, it’s the line about reacting to life, this is what stuck out for me, I’m not sure we realise how damaging, exhausting and debilitating this choice is. And how much it affects other people. It is a withdrawing and giving up on commitment to life in full. This can be felt by everybody energetically.

     1. Yes Gyl, reactions have a very damaging impact on the body and wellbeing and so does taking things on, i.e someone else’s problems. I have also realised the effect this has had on others and the responsibility I have with this.

336. Ruth you are proof that our bodies are meant to be an expression of truth and love. They are meant to serve and can only do so when we honour their purpose as you have so learnt and are now living. There is more than a blog in this story Ruth!

337. Sure a beautiful energetic understanding of what has contributed and kept you stuck in the cycle to of chronic fatigue. It is equally inspiring to feel the joy and vitality that you live in and with now having committed to building loving choices and re-engaging back in life.

338. “But by making those small commitments to myself – a short walk, tenderly looking after myself, changing my part time work from self employed at home in a back room, safely tucked away, to working with and for people with the purpose to serve – I noticed that over the next 3 years as my commitment grew, my energy levels improved with it.” This is incredible Ruth and just goes to show that when we are willing to truly commit to life, we have the power within us to change so much about how we are. Beautiful to read, thank you.

339. Ruth this is such a powerful sharing and reading your blog felt like a living hell. You have shown how powerful we are when we look at the underlying cause of our conditions, in your case chronic fatigue and commitment to life. Committing to life is such a deep commitment to make that brings a quality supporting us to live our lives in full and appreciate how much we actually affect our bodies.

340. Great to re read you sharing today Ruth as it has inspired me to look after myself more tenderly and committing to life fully but not exhausting myself in the process! Thank you for a great blog!

341. This article also made me realise that there must be many many people living with chronic fatigue who haven’t even been diagnosed. The moment exhaustion and/or tiredness are considered or accepted as normal then our life becomes merely about being able to just get through the day and the true meaning of well being is lost.

342. For a world that is engulfed with fatigue and conditions of exhaustion, this article is pure gold. Thank you, Ruth.

343. You ARE a walking miracle Ruth, and it is phenomenal what you are sharing here. We can all go into the woes of any illness and get stuck in it, feeling the pain or unable to see a way out. But you have described an incredible journey over many years where when you made a difference to yourself and changed your thoughts, ideas and way of being. This is an amazing case study here.

344. From being a teenager on I had chronic fatigue and doctors said that would be a condition for life. Only until Universal Medicine. For me it changed within 4 years. Step by step back to vitality.

345. This concept that disease and illness is about our own choices really brings the concept of responsibility to a new level. Our bodies are constantly sending us messages to get us back to a state of well-being. If we are not used to listening to our body, we can ignore or misinterpret the message. As we get further away from true health it is more difficult to understand what the body is telling us.
     This is where I was 15 years ago, totally exhausted and I did not know why. With support from Simple-Living Global and Universal Medicine I began to understand what happened, and with commitment and patience I am returning to a state of true health and am taking more responsibility for my life.

     1. I agree Ken, the further away I was from my body and so my health, the less I understood what my body was telling me. It is having that understanding of what the body is saying that brings awareness and the changes of choices to take place, therefore the changes in life to happen. I would not have gained the understanding if it were not for Serge Benhayon and the sound wisdom he offers about the body, also the connection with the love and essence within that we all are, this brings profound changes to life.

346. This is an amazing sharing, thank you. I can relate to feeling tired and drained and not doing something that I felt was needed to be done because of it. We need to rest when we need to sure, but often at times I have noticed that by committing to what is needed the energy is there to complete it. By not doing it in some cases we are actually stagnating and actually making the condition worse.

     1. Exactly Joshua, I had to stop exercising for a while this year but noticed after some time that I was feeling tired even though I had slept well. I realised this was my body’s message that it was ready for exercise again, so I started it back up and my energy levels picked up instantly and my body felt so much lighter and is a great support for the day.

347. It’s often the case that we are scared to participate in life in case we get exhausted. I know that one very well. But ultimately it’s the quality and the way that we participate that matters. I love how you have managed to totally change the way you engage with life.

348. Dear Ruth,
     On re reading your article I find myself pondering how many people live with chronic fatigue and how the simplicity you share here of committing to life and supporting your body has healed chronic fatigue for you.
     It humbles me to realise that without the love and dedication of Serge Benhayon this may never have happened for you, and subsequently the wisdom you have shared above may never have been there to share.

     1. Exactly Leigh, with out the love and dedication of Serge Benhayon I would not like to consider how my life would have panned out, stuck in the same patterns, reactions and fears for the rest of my life I’m sure, and many lives to come.

349. The life we choose is a choice and the honesty and truth you have shared Ruth has confirmed that everything is possible.

350. “I learned that chronic fatigue is a condition of the kidneys, that the kidneys carry the energetic life force for the body; they are about commitment to life, yourself and humanity.” Imagine if this sort of thing was taught in schools, developing a solid foundation at that age about our bodies and the importance of honouring it. We would be in a very different state as a society if we did.

351. Life for many people can feel intense and it can feel safe to withdraw or hold back living openly in the world, but I guess Ruth’s story is a great example of why we must keep committing to life and face the challenges that confront us, for whether we have an illness as severe as chronic fatigue, or just struggle to cope, withdrawing cannot bring us good health. I am learning that even in the intense moments it is about appreciating and saying yes to whatever is next.

     1. Yes Stephen, I now know withdrawing is not the answer but getting the correct help and support to deal with what is going on and why I am reacting supports my health, body and wellbeing as well as being in the world, and part of it, in a different way, without withdrawing.

352. Hi Ruth, You are indeed a walking miracle and your story should be written up in medical journals. It would be a best seller if you write a book for many, many people suffer what you have suffered and would love to hear your story.

353. Chronic Fatigue can be an all consuming life changing experience. And many times what happens is that the person who has it is unable to get themselves out of it, which can then also in turn consume the whole family. Medical systems are barely quipped to handle such a complicated and diverse condition, as it has many psychological elements to it. But all is not lost, and we must never give up. Because although Chronic Fatigue can feel like it has robbed you of your life, it can also be a great teacher in how to transform your life back in to ways that are deeply and truly supportive for you and your family.

354. Love the simplicity and many ways we can commit in life and stop playing being less of the glory that we truly are.

355. I find it so amazing to read stories such as yours, Ruth. These are not the usual kinds of miracles that we hear about, but the everyday ones where someone chooses to turn their life around and then takes the steps to do so.

     1. Yes Naren, consider the impact on the health systems, Hospitals and Doctors if we all made steps to do this.

356. “Chronic Fatigue… it doesn’t have to be this way…” You certainly have proven the point here that it doesn’t have to be this way!… Our choices, our relationship with ourselves, and working through our emotional baggage, building practice of self care and self love most definitely are the ingredients to offer another way for it (e.g. health, life) to be.

357. Ruth, your blog shows me that when we give up on life and withdraw from it our bodies have to suffer the consequences of that and enter conditions like chronic fatigue for instance but knowing the cause, the healing from this is actually very simple and not impossible at all. Your blog is the living inspiration for many who suffer similar conditions.

     1. Yes Nico, as indeed all of our choices are reflected to us by our body, health , exhaustion, but we can change this by making different choices and so the way we live. Having true understanding of the body from Serge Benhayon’s presentations I was able to make these changes for myself learning to listen to what my body was telling me.

358. Ruth, do you know other people who have recovered from the type of chronic fatigue that leaves you feeling particularly bad after exercise? If you do, would that be very valuable knowledge for those who are still in that situation?

     1. I don’t Christoph, but there are some people commenting on this blog that have had CF that may have experienced this as well.

359. I have never had chronic fatigue, but I remember feeling exhausted most of the time due to being very depressed. I know now that I was depressed because I couldn’t express myself, and this led to extreme anger at myself which I internalised. Our energy levels are a direct reflection of what is going on for us inside, and ultimately it is only us that can turn it around, with awareness and a whole lot of love.

360. It is fascinating how we can have a pause with an illness and because it feels better than it previously was, and although it isn’t really better, we can fool ourselves that all is ok. But what you show us is the need to change the whole energy of the illness, by completely reviewing the root cause of what is truly happening in our lives, not putting a sticking plaster on and making things appear easier.

     1. Exactly Gill, if the root cause, energy of the illness is not changed, complete healing does not take place, then you have the feeling better but not healed. Sticking plasters don’t last.

361. It is quite incredible to see just how our body has the capacity to heal, and U-turn from ill health when we address emotional issues and reconnect our body to love.

     1. Yes it is profound Johanne, and the steps taken are so simple, at your own pace, changes can occur very quickly.

362. It is scary to feel the holes we can dig for ourselves (I too dug myself into a hole of Chronic fatigue many many years ago) but amazing to feel how we have the capacity to pull ourselves out of it too and empower ourselves to come back and return to life and claim ourselves more and more. One choice after another and this affects the body, in good or bad ways…and in this lies the learning for us all.

363. The strong impression I got reading this just now was how loud our bodies a prepared to become to grab our attention and acknowledge that how we are living is not working. A message of love from our Soul.

364. I love, absolutely love, how our body reflects every single choice we have ever made. When things occur within our body then we just have to face up to the choices we have made to get us to the point where the body says enough is enough. To me, this is a very simple and beautiful way to get to know ourselves.

     1. It is also a reflection of the cumulative choices we have made – a bit like the straw that broke the camel’s back. Sometimes a small action has large consequences.

365. This is a great example of how our emotional reactions can trap and incapacitate us, and it is so inspiring to read how it is possible to turn things around by re-committing to life and the bigger picture.

366. It amazes me how quickly our bodies respond to and reflect our choices.

367. It is common to accept lesser and lesser states of health and wellbeing. The moment we get comfortable with living with an illness or disease we have accepted less and resign to thinking ‘this is how it has to be’. It is articles like this that completely turn this way of thinking upside down as the moment someone can say I changed, they are equally saying that it is possible for anyone experiencing chronic fatigue, or anything for that matter, to heal and experience different states of wellbeing.

368. That is an extra ordinary experience and one which I hope others with chronic fatigue are open to reading. From what I have seen the fear and anticipation of it being something we can do something about, both in the positive and the negative, is one of the barriers. It is like a defensiveness that lifestyle changes belittle the enormity of what is felt and experienced in this illness.

369. “When I moved to London, my body let go of the last residues of Chronic Fatigue.” its inspiring to read your account of Chronic fatigue as many of the early parts are familiar to those who have had this condition or know people that have had this. However the latter part, your healing process is something you don’t hear about often and will inspire those going through a similar thing. The fact that moving to London helped you let go of the last residues due to your chosen commitment in life is unheard of. Thank you for sharing.

370. ‘It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it.’ This is profound in us understanding how we become ill and can then bring about our own healing with understanding and changing the choices we make. How we react to life and what it brings up feels super important to recognise.

371. You really have shown us that with dedication and commitment, we can turn many things around in our life. Ruth, you are a glowing example of someone who was prepared to go deeper and understand what was going on not just at a physical level and you have benefited on many levels as a result.

     1. Spot on Reagan – it is the re-ignition of our commitment to life that brings us back and then the body can follow suit. So it is always more than just a physical experience.

372. “A shift in me began with a willingness to look at myself and how I had been reacting to life” – absolutely, me too Ruth, reactions are a real killer and they completely drain to cause exhaustion or depression. This was how i lived my life for many years, and although i [thankfully] no longer live in such a heightened way today, my body remains healing the rough ride i gave it in living this way, in order to restore true vitality.

373. Yes, this article will inspire many and not necessarily only those with chronic fatigue. The way you have written about treating yourself with gentle respect and care whilst also re-claiming responsibility could be applied in many situations and is very inspiring. Thank you, Ruth.

374. Chronic fatigue is a powerful purpose and life sapper. This is an inspiring account of the walk and rebuild during and post chronic fatigue. Thank you, Ruth for the clarity and honesty with which you have shared your experience… it is very powerful.

375. I love the way you highlight how all roads regarding what happens to us lead back to our own choices.

376. “Chronic Fatigue keeps you stuck in a cycle that holds you back from who you truly are, separate from others and all you can bring to life. ”
     This holding back in the first place leads to chronic fatigue. Where there is no love there is emptiness, and emptiness destroys the natural flow of our bodies.

377. The giving up feels key to chronic fatigue and I’ve seen this in others and have experienced this myself, as well as the fatigue going hand in hand with swollen lymph glands. It makes sense that if we give up life, our lymph glands which emanate our light in our body will respond in a way that gets our attention because if you’ve given up on life, or yourself then everything in the physical body will be contracted.

378. Top Blog Ruth Ketnor and thank you for sharing it all with the world.
     Even though you were awarded “Disability Living Allowance for life” you made a choice to change and are no longer a drain on our welfare system. This in itself is huge and then to get a full time job speaks volumes about the teachings of Serge Benhayon.
     This man has a deep understanding of the human body and I should know. Having come out the other end after having an organ removed I am certain I would not be alive today if it was not for Serge Benhayon. He has answers and another way of living life that is simple, practical and makes sense.
     He would be the best Health Minister for any country if you ask me.

379. Yes Linda, the body responds so beautifully to love and care, right down to the cellular level, it really is a remarkable experience.

380. What we are given in each and every moment is a choice to continue living the way we have been or to deepen and develop the love we are. How many times do we want to keep repeating the same ill patterns with the same ill consequences. We can change things and the way we are living by changing the choices we are making – when we truly do this we can quite literally turn our lives around.

381. I love the lived example you show Ruth of what taking responsibility for our choices mean. This is deeply inspirational. I feel very blessed indeed to count you as a friend.

382. This is an extraordinary turn around story. At a time when chronic fatigue is plaguing many people’s lives and the belief exists that this is, as the name suggests, a ‘chronic’ condition that will persist, a sharing like this can open our eyes to a whole different approach to life, our health and the power we have to take responsibility and change the trajectory.

383. This is huge Ruth, what you have shared and can share about your healing is inspiring and rewriting the paradigm of approach to chronic fatigue – a condition that has been mystifying the medical profession for years.

384. Any ailment or illness is the body’s way of discarding that which does not belong to it. We can so easily get caught up in so many different reactions to being unwell or understandably being chronically ill, however once a significant number of us return to the knowing that illness and disease are ways that our bodies are actually supporting us, then we shall change our entire experience.

385. I printed off your article to give to someone struggling with a very similar illness as you describe Ruth. It felt a great opportunity to give him the option to open his mind that there may be a different way to understand what is happening to him. He continued to have a variety of mental reasons trying to analyse himself, but as I pointed out, none of them have so far helped his condition in any way. You have described a lived experience of the illness and come out the other end, well and healthy again. that is so powerful for anyone to read in a similar position. I could feel the depth of despair that no-one in the medical services has been able to help him .. so far.

386. I have such deep respect for you Ruth, for the way in which you are constantly faithful to your own body, and how you have grown to love and care for yourself in such a huge way. You are a huge inspiration to many I am sure.

387. Ruth- such an inspiring story-great to see it on a medical journal someday, clearly showing the power of committing to self loving choices. You are a living miracle!

388. Hello Ruth and I loved how you walked yourself out of your illness or fatigue. This is a way to approach anything, piece by piece building and appreciating. If we look at where and how you were and then where you ‘walked’ yourself to it is remarkable. Your dedication to rebuilding from such a chronic illness is also something to appreciate. I see the support offered from Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon was to a turning point. It would seem they both supported you to move somethings out of the way and expand your love and care for yourself. Taking note of some small things made for massive change.

389. Chronic Fatigue is considered a debilitating condition, and it is, and for some it lasts years. I thought this was going to be the case for me when I had it, but not so. Through changing how I lived and being willing to see that the way I was with myself was at the core of this condition changed everything. Having the gentle breath meditation as a starting point was the key to the beginning of the changes I made.

390. What a huge story, it shows by adopting a routine of self care how lives can change

391. Thank you Ruth, for sharing your own personal experience of commitment and willingness for true healing and offering a true inspiration for all to let go of fear and uncertainty of what that might look like and to live with the knowingness that there will always be so much support along the way as long as we stay true to our bodies.

392. The support, leadership and inspiration of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine is a beacon to humanity. The Ageless Wisdom is the way out of our self destruction, both physically and socially. We all hold the key to our health and wellbeing and step by step we must take that journey!

393. Your description of Chronic Fatigue reminds me of the chronic fatigue of humanity Ruth – until we begin as humanity to care for ourselves and connect with the depth of our potential which is love, we will languish and self-loath and make others the source of our ills. You are an absolute inspiration!

     1. So one person’s chronic fatigue adds to the pot of chronic fatigue; just as one person’s walking out of chronic fatigue opens up the opportunity for a change in our current trajectory (more ill-health and dependence on our health service to provide solutions). Thank you for sharing your experience, Ruth.

394. It is so easy to go into frustration and feel like my body is not co-operating with what i want to do but maybe it is me not co-operating with my body?

     1. Indeed Nicole, not loving my body, taking care of it, was it for me, and it sure let me know loud and clear, but when I did take loving care my body very soon said thank you and responded.

395. Chronic fatigue is one of those conditions that inherently asks you to take responsibility for your commitment to life, which Ruth Ketnor has done beautifully.

396. This blog really helps to the understanding of this (kidney) condition: giving up on life puts you full speed into exhaustion and into a way of living that is not sustainable for the body. Once the condition breaks in you have two options: to continue in the giving up pattern that brought you there and plunging even further, or to work step by step on your issue with commitment. Committing to something holds the key to start lifting the restrictions you have imposed upon the kidneys, so they can lift the restrictions they have imposed upon your body.

397. A very inspirational story that’s made me reflect on my life and see how I’m doing quite well and the bads days, weeks or months require small consistent steps to come out of.

     What I have also realised was that it took small consistent steps to get into those bad days, weeks and months also.

     1. I agree Luke, small consistent steps to get to those bad days, with an underlying pattern of withdrawing supporting those steps. Even though initially it was one situation and me reacting to it that started it, there were other triggers and reactions that meant I continued to react and withdraw more, more steps, so taking me to the degree I was at.

        1. Sometimes the right direction starts with unsteady steps.

398. Ruth you are indeed a walking miracle, and one of the many thanks to Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon. Your words about withdrawal as a pattern of response to difficulties in life and linked to CFS are very supportive. It makes sense that for some people traumatic experiences create an internal giving up and withdrawal, and if this pattern repeats it can deplete the body of vital energy by not engaging fully in life. I have also had this pattern and I find, almost miraculously, that just being with people and talking to them gives me a tremendous boost of vitality. Very inspiring reading your story!

399. Ruth, it was so lovely to feel through your words, the joy you now have as a result of your loving choices and willingness to heal at a deep level. Very inspiring.

400. We could say your story Ruth is unusual and that may be true, but I wonder how many actually feel like you? How many of us live day to day, with a level of dis-ease and disturbance in some way? How many of us have accepted this as normal and just what it means to be human being? What you show in your story here then is crucial, for we all can see that there is more, there is another way we can be. Our body can return to a deeper settlement and harmony, just from careful observation, responsibility, and healing. Thank you for sharing.

401. Before Universal Medicine, no one brought to my attention the purpose of my organs, what they mean, what they clear and how they can be sending my body messages all the time. In just mentioning here what the kidneys mean, that they are life force, makes so much sense and allows me to see the body in a whole new light. We have now, more than ever, a deep responsibility to look after our bodies. And to understand and listen to the messages they are giving us. It is with deep appreciation we have Universal Medicine to reawaken these teachings.

402. I love coming back to this because so many people, myself included, were told that CFS is a life long condition, something you will never fully get over – but for me hearing that I knew it was not true as it was soo disempowering. We have the choice in each and every moment to choose the quality of energy we are in, the quality of energy we move and express with. If we choose love them it ill naturally support us, if we choose to disregard and abuse our bodies then naturally our bodies will wear down quicker and be exhausted – so the choice really is ours! And just because we may have been diagnosed with something, or exhausted one day it does not mean that we cannot change it.

403. You are an inspiration when I see you now compared to when I first knew you. Making changes to your lifestyle and committing to life has been transformative, I would say miraculous. So many of us have now made different choices and seen our health improve. Huge appreciation for Universal Medicine therapies.

404. “I forced my body to do things, I used to drive it, then suffered the consequences afterwards with even worse fatigue.” This relationship to exhaustion, so common and prevalent with the use of stimulants like sugar and caffeine as well as with overusing our nervous system through hurry, push or a perception of pressure in our lives, cannot be sustained without serious illness taking place. Could this be the number one reason why illness is increasing and become increasingly multi symptomatic? I am sure it is.

405. Self-responsibility is such a powerful medicine.

     1. Exactly Felix, and is vitally important and key for true healing to take place.

406. We can look for relief from our symptoms never considering that we have settled for a lesser version of wellbeing and vitality.

407. Understanding why and how we have come to experience a particular condition, gives us the key on what we need to work with in addressing it. Unfortunately we do not always connect to the truth of what has caused the condition, or, fall for the false and misleading information out there – and thus may seemingly ‘work’ on the condition, although it is not at all working on the true cause.
     What you have shared here is a true miracle, in that you have healed the ill energy behind the ill condition.

408. We often react emotionally to situations, taking things personally instead of observing the energies at play. Reacting leaves us exhausted all of the time, so it’s no wonder that chronic fatigue is an illness many suffer from. Ruth’s inspiring blog helps us to understand that there is another way, that we can make different choices, and by taking small steps on the road to being fully ourselves we can regain full vitality – permanently.

     1. Yes Carmel, emotional reactions and taking things on have a huge impact on the body, I should know I did both, a lot. The more I built the love in my body by caring for myself the less I reacted, I was able to stay with the love , the steadiness I could feel within and gradually the reactions got less, I found this really helped my energy levels.

409. With the support of Universal Medicine’s modalities, its divine understanding of the human body and its teachings, you have gone from suffering chronic fatigue and on a permanent disability pension to actively reengaging your commitment to life and working full time. That is not only amazing but totally awesome Ruth. Go you.

410. ‘starting with very short walks and caring for myself, focusing on the quality of how I did things for myself, tenderly, lovingly, building this love in my body. I began listening to my body and learning what supported me, and what didn’t’ How simple to start with short walks and to begin to focus on your body and the quality in which you did things. I have noticed that in people with chronic fatigue there is often a huge focus on the outside world and sometimes a big desire to help others and the kidney life force gets drained because we are not helping ourselves first.

411. On re-reading this today what stood out was “I was awarded Disability Living Allowance … for life!” This is incredible and feels like a way of the system just giving up and then equally so giving us permission to give up on ourselves confirming ‘nothing can be done or that change is possible’. What this blog shows is that changes can happen when we change how we live and understand why our bodies are experiencing the disease or illness it is. Universal Medicine offers this possibility and is why it is so needed in our world today as there are too many people giving up and being given up on.

412. What an amazing sharing Ruth, a miracle definitely to be shared with others. The power is within us to heal our selves if we choose too, there is so much love and reflection now available to us all for us to take responsibility of your own life and living way. The more we self care and honour our body the stronger and lighter it becomes to live in this world that has so much going on.

413. It is very interesting here Ruth how you mention an emotional factor which led to the physical symptoms. So often in my clinic I see people with physical problems e.g. back pain, neck pain etc and almost always there is an emotional component to how their problems began e.g. period of intense stress, or exhaustion through pushing themselves/over-working etc. I have also noticed this in my own body. I would say the two things always go together and it is time we considered the whole picture rather than just focusing on the physical dysfunction and wondering why it does not work longer term.

414. This is an amazing healing and life change Ruth and shows how when we truly understand what is going on with our bodies from how we are living and start taking responsibility and making a commitment to change the amazing healing and aliveness our body responds with and our whole life, commitment and love of life changes dramatically slowly bit by bit to allow total change and vitality back restoring us to who we really are and so much more.

415. What an incredibly inspiring account Ruth. Not only have you shared your story but you have also thrown light onto a huge dis-ease many have today.

416. I was also, at quite a young age , ‘awarded’ a Disability Living allowance for life with an assurance that I would never be able to work for various reasons. To experience the vitality and self-worth that I do now is quite extraordinary, and the healing and evolution will continue until my last breath… thanks again to Universal Medicine.

417. Ruth, your blog is so super inspiring! How amazing that you’ve found the way back to your own power and vitality simply by making different choices and allowing yourself to feel, feel, feel.

418. I experienced Chronic Fatigue before I knew about Universal Medicine and its teachings. I knew deep inside that I needed to take really good care of myself if I were to recover, which I started to do, and started to recover over a period of a few years. It wasn’t until I came across Universal Medicine and started to attend courses, and in turn, change how I was with myself and how I lived that my health really changed. Slowly and gradually I felt more vital, and if I slipped back into my old way, I’d feel exhausted. What this shows me is that so much, if not most of our ailments are a result of our own lifestyle choices.

419. Thank you Ruth for sharing the miracle of coming out of Chronic fatigue through the understanding of Universal Medicine, of healing hurts and taking responsibility for your choices, beautiful to read how one loving step at a time your life totally changed.

420. So true Ruth, ‘it does not have to be this way’ – it is never too late to change and to start making different choices in our lives, one step at the time.

421. I love this blog Ruth – its super inspiring. What strikes me is how steady your recover seems, by slowly building your strength and understanding about the behaviours that are exacerbating your condition you have made what sounds like a true lasting recovery – one that puts you at the centre of your healing, it an amazing testament to self empowerment and responsibility.

422. This is such a beautiful and clear account of how you healed from Chronic Fatigue by dealing with the underlying issues of energetic withdrawal and reactions to life. Without this dedicated focus we can often stay with trying to relieve the very painful and chronic symptoms of different disorders only for them to return again at a later date.

423. Jobs are waiting for us until we ready, and when we are, simply apply and you will be hired. I love it, so simple life can be.

424. It’s interesting to realise our patterns of withdrawing, it can be through illness but we can also numb ourselves in many other ways, like with our choices of food for example. The knock on effect is a downhill spiral of events but it is possible to trace it right back to its origins of the choice to give up and heal it. You are a walking miracle, Ruth, having done just that with the support of the teachings of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.

425. The condition ‘Chronic Fatigue’ does feel like a complete implosion of the human body and I can feel, from my own experience too, just how much our choice to withdraw from the world impacts on us physically. The key difference I experienced with the approach of Universal Medicine is to recognise the fact that we are whole and complete first and foremost, always have been. Serge Benhayon provides us with the tools to empower us to re-connect to our core and address the implosion from a place of eternal warmth and tender nurture. And the results are here in front of us Ruth, this is what Universal Medicine is all about, restoring our willingness to be alive, to love, to take responsibility for our selves, to commit to life and work with a joyful open heart and bucket loads of vitality!

426. “My condition was made fun of at times, which of course confirmed the safety of with-drawing more.” If we all knew the true impact of how throw away comments such as being teased or made fun of about the way we are or how we do something really affected others, we would never say such things. The old saying ‘sticks and stones can break my bones but words can never hurt me’ doesn’t hold even an ounce of weight when you consider the impact of what has been revealed here. It clearly shows that we have a responsibility in everything we say and how we say it to every single person we speak to.

427. Having the understanding that everything has an energetic root cause, offers an extension to understanding the what? and the why?, in the cause of any illness and diseases. It takes the level of responsibility to new heights for those who work in the medical field, so as to not slip into having any attitude towards certain presentations as you had experienced …”My condition was made fun of at times, which of course confirmed the safety of with-drawing more…”

428. It is very revealing of the deeper causes of Chronic Fatigue that you unravelled the fact that you had a pattern of withdrawing from life when things got difficult. It is as though the body then complies and delivers the necessary symptoms that matched your psychological state, i.e. the severe symptoms forced you to withdraw even more.

429. I could relate to many symptoms you mentioned. I was never diagnosed with chronic fatigue. I certainly had conditions that were chronic and still healing these ailments.. but it was very interesting to be aware of how the mind absorbed what I was reading, and if I look back it was the same – I was absorbing what was going on around me. I agree –
     “It takes will, commitment and responsibility to walk free of it, but it can be done;”

430. Thank you Ruth, I love the way that Esoteric Medicine supported you to look deeper within and take responsibility of the different aspects of your life that were contributing to the symptoms of chronic fatigue, we can never truly heal unless we take responsibility of the choices that we make on a daily basis and learn to listen and honour our bodies for the love that we are.

431. This is such a beautiful example of how the teachings of Serge Benhayon can inspire someone who is very unwell to take responsibility for their health, and how, through taking small self-loving steps, a debilitating illness such as chronic fatigue syndrome can be turned around.

432. For someone living with chronic fatigue it would make sense for them to rest their body a lot of the time, work from home, do limited exercise and not overexert themselves, however what you’ve shared totally cuts through this belief – even when we have a long term condition it’s still important to listen to our body and assess what choices we should make based on what our body needs, rather than jump to conclusions based on the opinions/ideals of others in the world.

433. Our bodies speak to us constantly and if aware we can connect the signals it gives us directly back to an action, often immediate. I introduced an energy into my body and re-introduced a small amount of carbohydrate into my diet. Two things happened as a consequence of this choice: the fresh vibrant energy I had disappeared, replaced by a heavy, sleepy feeling. During my break instead of maintaining energy to continue with other activities, I wanted to lie down and sleep. If I want my body to be light and vital, the food I eat must also be.

434. It would be so easy to resign oneself to an illness like this, that the doctors can give no rhyme or reason for and there is no magic medication to solve it. Yet you have resolved it Ruth through a commitment to look at your part deep within it all, to question your own attitudes, behaviours and beliefs and to fully realise what must have been some very painful truths about your choice to withdraw from life. And what is even more amazing is that you found something very unexpected: you found You in all your glory and joy and that is what resides in us all, just waiting to be cherished again, because we are immensely worth it.

435. Your story is a great example of how much our bodies can be affected when we give up on ourselves and ‘do life,’ rather than living in the joy and celebration of being the gorgeous vital beings we naturally are, and which you now live Ruth 🙂

     1. Paula what you have highlighted for me if the fact that life simply reflects our choices back to ourselves. Therefore when we give up on life, life has no choice other than to give up on us. Of course God never gives up on us but as well God never interferes with our freedom to choose. It is our ‘God given right’ to choose to give up on ourselves.

436. Chronic fatigue is one of those conditions that has baffled the medical world for some time now, and in my experience there is still little real and long lasting effective treatment for it, other than coping techniques to aide living with the condition. What Universal Medicine does so beautifully, is the treatments offered there do not claim to heal anyone of the condition, but rather to support the person to deeply heal through the way they live, through choices made everyday that love and support. By these small and highly significant steps, life can be turned around – even transformed. The key is that it is all in our own hands and we have to power to change our lives.

437. Reading your blog it feels to me like the fact of giving up on ourselves when something big happens is the biggest cause of ill health like chronic fatigue. It is that moment we do not know who we are and get overwhelmed by the unpleasant event and think it is us that we get affected and ill. Then as you said it takes commitment and re-connection with ourselves to come out of it. What a beautiful realisation and thing to know in life as this happens to a degree to all of us.

438. Reading this blog again makes me very aware what happens if we stop caring for ourselves. We’re giving permission to be taken over in a way that is contracting everything within our body. No wonder that our body starts protesting and give signals that we experience as hurts. And how powerful that we’re able to turn this around by super simple, super gentle, super slow (or fast) make changes in our daily life, until we’re back to living ourselves. Wow, very inspirational!

439. “…I started to get a new understanding about my condition and in relation to how I was living through the teachings of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.” This is a huge step. There is so much that is yet to be proven by science and incorporated into medical treatments about the way we live and the choices we make and how these affect our health. Thank you for sharing this Ruth and taking responsibility for your choices and demonstrating that there is another way.

440. What an incredible and inspiring turn around Ruth, and great testimonial to the teachings of Serge Benhayon.

441. It is interesting how much our organs respond to our way of living and how much they show us where we do not love ourselves so that they are nurtured but get emptied and exhausted.
     Every movement we do adds to our health or to our exhaustion.

442. It is interesting how much our organs respond to our way of living and how much they show us where we do not love ourselves so that they are not nurtured but get emptied and exhausted.

443. love what you have shared Ruth. I may not be able to relate to the symptoms of chronic fatigue but I can certainly relate the ‘withdrawing’ and doing only ‘what is safe’. How you have presented coming out of Chronic fatigue is incredible, taking one step at a time with no self judgement, this is very inspiring.

444. Thankyou for sharing your experience here Ruth. It is quite remarkable that you have been able to turn your life around from such a place of exhaustion and ‘given upness’, to one of such vitality and commitment and with such simple and basic tools that involved taking deep care of yourself. Imagine if these easy to use and accessible techniques were introduced into recovery support information for people who were convalescing? What a difference this could make to their recovery and also future health.

445. I had chronic fatigue when I was 17 and I can very much relate to the symptoms you presented. I can also relate to how no one really understood it. People said “it’s in your head”, but I can tell you that you have very real physical symptoms. When I was diagnosed with it, the physician, who was a leader in the field at the time, showed me my blood under a micrscope. Instead of having regular shaped cells, the cell walls were no longer circular, but had lost their shape and where like blobs of jelly. No one understood what made the cells like this but what they did understand was that this was part of the reason for the fatigue. A circular cell has the perfect proportion of surface area to volume, making it easier to absorb the oxygen. Irregular shaped cells did not absorb the oxygen as well because of their shape.

     What causes chronic fatigue? I cannot say for sure, but I do know that mine correlated with a time when I was pushing my body beyond its ordinary limits all of the time, and this is a common occurrence. Competitive swimmers and athletes for example are known to get this condition, and the blessing if there is one is that once you have it, you very quickly find a new respect for your body and are forced to listen to its signals. And you become very sensitive to the slightest indication of fatigue, or at least I did. From that day onward I could never push my body the same way again, even though I technically recovered from the worst of it after only a couple of years.

446. If ever a testament was needed to show just how responsible we are for our choices and our resulting health and just how possible a life turn-around can be from making the choice to honour once again. What a beautiful blog to read and I want to just say congratulations or well done, because to heal yourself from something that could otherwise be labelled a life-long, incurable condition is a miracle and a super dooper story of inspiration for everyone. This could also be applied to those (increasingly) suffering depression, unable to see the light (their own light!) out of it and diagnosed as long-term; but with the commitment as you have demonstrated every cycle can be brought to an end.

447. This is such an awesome representation of the power in our choices every day. Even when we think they are inconsequential they are in fact life changing every time.

     1. Yes Michael, it’s not about fixing it or trying to make massive changes in one go but those small everyday step by step choices that build and build the consistency and love then sure enough those changes come.

448. I know of an Indian guru who carefully controlled the sounds, sights and smells he experienced – in India! He also spent most of his time in his bedroom doing nothing. It seems strange to see many of the symptoms of chronic fatigue in a person adulated by thousands but that is quite a plausible explanation.

449. Chronic fatigue is in fact a long term denial of the beautiful being we are and in so denying God and our own Godlyness. What if we would start with accepting the fact that we are indeed incredibly loving. In fact, that we are love, pure love. If this would be the accepted foundation than we could easily look back and address the choices that we make to offset feeling this. Then chronic fatigue is very easily explained and understood. Without any blaming, as (hardly) anyone in our youth reflected the truth, the truth of living the love we are. Accepting suffering from chronic fatigue is in itself a great step forward into living a more healthy life. Until it is recognised and accepted for what it is, we are in fact fighting something that we can’t fight, but trying to get control over. Which is in fact the biggest lie!

450. What is going on in the world? For if you suddenly took away every cappuccino and latte in this world and all the sugary sweets that exist, just what kind of human race would you see? How on earth is it we are all so tired and exhausted living our ‘normal’ life? What you share here Ruth is not so extreme or isolated but happening all over, to all kinds of people. More and more as we find our stimulants aren’t working we all may start to ask if there is another way. In my experience, the gentle breath you mention is a beautiful tool to coming back to see that there is actually a great beauty in the sensitivity of me.

451. It is quite easy to get into the downhill spiral of a long term chronic condition when we don’t have the energetic understanding of what is happening. What Serge Benhayon presents is absolute gold, so simple that everyone can do it, and re-connect to themselves. Then we learn to work on ourselves and make some changes releasing the root causes of the illness we have created. It is a miracle that we choose to do, with the guidance and help of dedicated people, you are the proof Ruth.

     1. Gill this is true, without the energetic understanding I got from Serge Benhayon I would still be stuck in that cycle for sure. It has been life transforming.

452. I felt to look up Chronic fatigue syndrome (CFS), it ‘is a complicated disorder characterized by extreme fatigue that can’t be explained by any underlying medical condition. The fatigue may worsen with physical or mental activity, but doesn’t improve with rest’ is the definition from the Mayo Clinic. How can you measure when we give up on life? The side effects do not always present themselves with a definitive source. Could it be that when we contract from life we are just squeezing the life out of ourselves and become like a dried sea sponge? As you have shown Ruth the path out is a slow but fruitful exercise to nurture the love within. You are a template for others and carrying a torch for others out of the darkness with the same disorder.

453. When we become open to our lifestyle choices, and choices in general, in how they affect the balance within our bodies it is much easier to be responsible with those choices and to see how those choices play out not just for ourselves but for others too.

454. This is such an important blog. It’s so great that this is available for all to see. There is much that can be taken and understood from this for the true benefit of all.

455. Thank you Ruth, your story is amazing! A living testament when we commit to live life with purpose, not just self but the all.

456. Quite simply life doesn’t have to be this way, we are free to choose our way out of it at any point.

     1. And what an empowering moment it is Alexis when this realisation and awareness comes. I would not have come to this if I had not found Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine where I learned the energetic truth about illness, disease, the body and how I was living.

457. What a wonderful return to vitality Ruth, and how simple. Thank you for sharing how commitment and focus affect us in the most physical of ways. We are made from energy first and so how our energy is, is what our body reflects.

     1. I am very glad as well that Ruth is sharing this blog. It is important to know that at least one person recovered.

     2. And what a blessing it is Jenny that with the understanding that my body was showing me all along what my choices were and how it was affecting me I could change those choices and so the energy allowing my body to restore the imbalance I had created.

458. Yes, you are a walking miracle, Ruth, and testament to the amazing healing power of the body if we only choose to re-connect to our true essence, as you have done.

459. It is easy to think we are alone and to hide from the world, but our evolution is through expression and the more we express, the more we can learn about ourselves and our fellow humans. Being in touch with what our body truly needs is part of that expression, moving tenderly, exercising gently, acknowledging what we feel and honouring that.

460. “My senses were heightened, so most of the time I had the curtains shut because I was sensitive to light, and I couldn’t tolerate sounds, smells or many foods.” What a nightmare really to be this overwhelmed by the five senses that simply being in the world could hurt so much. Yet what it shows us is just how immensely delicate and sensitive we are and this is not a weakness but an immense strength. When we really honour this sensitivity our bodies are a rich source of information that, should we choose to engage with, can navigate us through life in the most amazing ways. How awesome to be able to transform such a debilitating situation into such vibrant health Ruth, achieved not through pills and potions but done with the utmost tender Love, living proof that Love is the most powerful medicine in the whole Universe.

461. Our emotional health and wellbeing certainly seems to play a role in the development of illness and disease. When self-care and self-love are threaded into the way we live and interact with life, going by your massive U-turn from chronic fatigue to complete wellness, this demonstrates just how an important and vital ingredient this is in improving one’s health

462. This is incredible Ruth, reading your blog again, I realise that not many people would know that they too can take responsibility for their health and their choices to support themselves and their body in healing. I wanted to highlight this next part because it is unheard of in our society, to heal in this way and your blog shows us that it is indeed possible. ‘It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it.’ This is profound and I am grateful you are sharing this with humanity, because I can imagine a lot of people suffer from Chronic Fatigue and other illnesses that I feel can be healed from making loving choices and by choosing to take responsibility for our health.

463. It tells a lot about the world that we have here in Holland special departments in hospitals that are specialised in sleeping problems which in the end leads to chronic fatigue. How re-volutionising, caring, loving and nurturing would it be if the art of conventional doctors, nurses and specialists would work together with the art of practitioners in Esoteric Medicine, such as practitioners of Esoteric Healing, Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy, Esoteric Chakra-puncture, Esoteric Body Work and some more. They would learn so much from each other and in doing so serving humanity to an ever expanding service.

     1. Indeed Floris, Esoteric Medicine and Western Medicine working together, this would bring true deep healing to humanity. A call for personal responsibility in the healing process. Having the energetic understanding of what illness and disease are about, addressing it at this level, would certainly revolutionise the medical world.

464. The way in which we live affects everything that we do. Not only the big things like diet, exercise, work and relationships but the quality of the way in which we do these things is crucial. It may cause more harm to exercise in a way that is driven and hard on our body than to not exercise at all. This is where I have found it so important to be continually assessing the quality of how I do things so that I can work and exercise and complete all the activities in my life in a way that is truly supporting my body.

465. The precision with which our body is able to guide us back to true health is incredible. It’s constantly charting every twist and turn away from our innate loving way that we make and the only way back to true health is to trace our steps back, correcting our ill ways as we go.

466. It is incredible what a difference it can make to our health whether this be an acute or chronic illness when we have an understanding of what is causing it. I know I have felt empowered when I have this understanding rather than feeling like a victim and blaming my condition on something else. What is shared in this blog is hugely inspiring for anyone faced with Chronic Fatigue.

467. Thank you for sharing your story Ruth. This is invaluable and could be an inspirational start of a new life for many others. I have been dealing with a very stressfull situation for some time now and I can relate to how working on one’s own can be quite isolating and can feel how my commitment to life has increased since I have been working in a team and am interfacing with the public on a regular basis.

468. ‘It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it’ – The clarity and knowing in this statement is very powerful and the wisdom it calls for in us all to claim full responsibility for our lives is huge. When you also shared the comment – ‘That light, bright and amazing thing coming my way was me! … I was coming back to me’ – just makes me want to dance, smile and celebrate. Absolutely Gorgeous Ruth, thank you for sharing.

469. You are indeed a living, walking miracle, and very inspiring, as it is very easy to give up when one is in a great deal of pain, so not only is it a great testimonial to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, it is also a great testimony to your ability to take the steps towards change yourself.

     1. Absolutely Kathleen, chronic pain and fatigue are deeply debilitating conditions that a number of people I know have suffered, to come through this and turn one’s life around to the extent that this blog shows is an incredible confirmation of the power of making deeply loving choices.

470. Ruth, your blog is giving the loudest clue here to the many illnesses and diseases… and that is, the relationship we have with ourselves and with life has a huge bearing on our biochemistry, physiology, health and wellbeing. In steps Self Care and Self Love, restoring harmony back within the body.

     1. Totally Johanne, it is quite an experience to feel the effect of taking loving care of myself in my body, right down to the biochemical level in the cells, it all tingles with the tender love it receives and energises in a way I’ve not felt before taking these steps.

471. You are indeed a walking miracle, Ruth, thank you for sharing your story. It seems you made what some would see as impossible a true and lived reality. With the teachings from Serge Benhayon (The Way of The Livingness) and the dedication and commitment to ourselves, anything is possible.

     1. Exactly Rachael, Serge Benhayon gives us everything we need to know, then it is in our hands and our choices … miracles happen.

472. We are being given such a massively different insight here into what really makes us ill and our commitment to life seems to be quite fundamental. When we make our lives about Love, then our commitment will follow; it is essential medicine that heals us from the inside out.

     1. Very well said Rowena. It is so different when the healing occurs from the inside out rather than the looking outside of ourselves for the answers to our conditions.

473. When your body lives in a ‘crash and burn’ pattern where you have to drive and force it to do things beyond what it can cope with, only exhausts it further. It’s a debilitating vicious circle to be trapped in but Ruth you are a walking talking living science and definitive evidence that it can be done. Your commitment to heal yourself is both totally awesome and inspiring. Well done you.

474. Nowhere in the world is taught that chronic fatigue is in fact a condition that is occurring due to the life-style choices we’re making.

     We do have the power – as Ruth so clearly demonstrates and shares – to undo the ill patterns that withdrew us from life. Only the teaching, sharing of this fact is great medicine, isn’t it?

     Choices are energy so ill choices don’t carry the innate love that we are. So to start making loving choices might be the gateway to a loving, vital, joyful life.

475. I love how you can feel your relationship with yourself changing as you gradually introduce more steps of commitment and trust develops.

476. Ruth – this is amazing how you worked through the what lead you to chronic fatigue and turned this pattern around.

477. Our body’s sensitivity to foods changes as we refine our diet and we can feel directly the effects of what we consume. As we become more aware of the effect of everything we do on our own body as well as on everyone around us, it becomes easier to make more self-loving choices.

     1. Yes Carmel, deciding to not eat gluten and dairy became very supportive in this process, two foods that cause a lot of problems for people health wise along with dulling awareness. To be able to feel more clearly the effects of my choices was and is such a help when making changes and refining my choices as my body guides me.

478. You are indeed a walking miracle Ruth – everyday I hear people telling me they are exhausted and need their coffee, and now more often red bull energy drinks, but from what you have written this exhaustion can be reversed by addressing our commitment to life. That in itself is study worthy!

479. Just the fact that Universal Medicine supported a person to get off illness benefits awarded to them by the government for life – makes this philosophy and science of healing worth investigating on a govt. funded large scale. This is how I would like my taxes to be spent. Encouraging people to develop a new way of thinking about their illness that empowers them to change their lifestyle is the only way to begin to reduce government spending on health, instead the massive increase in spending every where in the world every year.

480. This is an incredible turnaround of your life Ruth and a real testament to both yourself and that of Universal Medicine showing what can happen if we know the truth and allow ourselves to truly heal from within and the real power we all have and hold that simply changes our life and the quality of our livingness beyond all expectations possible.

481. The state that you were in Ruth would overwhelm most people, induce them to give up. What I appreciate so much in what you have written is your commitment. But my sense is that this commitment was only made possible by you feeling so quickly the difference that even the tiniest change can make. Is that fair to say? My point being that if you have not felt the change then you may not have persevered? This is what is so awesome about what Serge Benhayon is presenting – mountains become mole hills. It’s not rocket science. It’s not complicated. It’s not hard. Super simple, self-loving choices that build us back to ourselves – and the results are amazing and very quick!

     1. Partly Otto, it was also at the beginning when I first found Serge Benhayon and listen to what he was presenting that I realised I could bring change by changing my choices, such an empowering moment, that was a big turning point for me, and then yes very quickly feeling the difference as I started changing my choices to self loving.

        1. I see what you are saying. There are times when we don’t even realise we can have the ability/choice to make the changes. We can’t walk through the door until we have seen that the door even exists, let alone where the handle is. Serge Benhayon is showing doors to thousands.

482. “It doesn’t have to be this way” – A great title to an article on the whole of life and the whole quagmire that humanity is in. Serge Benhayon is truly a world teacher in every single sense of the word. What I have learnt from him is, in its most simple terms, that it doesn’t have to be this way and the subsequent changes that I am making to my life have shown me that…and can be made by anyone.

     1. Yes Otto this can be applied to any aspect of life that is out of balance, troublesome, painful .. the list could go on, it doesn’t have to be this way, thanks to a True World Leader Serge Benhayon who’s teachings are so simple and easy to apply to life , it is but a choice to make.

483. Ruth- such an inspirational story and healing miracle witnessed by you, by addressing the core issue and taking loving responsibility for your choices and commitment to life.

484. Chronic fatigue is an illness which is very widespread today. Your sharing, Ruth, brings light to the root cause of chronic fatigue and from this how to heal it.

485. With commitment the body is strong; without it, depleted, tired, given up or withdrawn – what complete sense your own experience of chronic fatigue highlights Ruth, and the essential importance of commitment as the backbone or staple to life.

486. “It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it”.
     What you have expressed here is just so relevant for all of us who are healing our hurts and bodily malfunctions. Thank you Ruth for sharing your beautiful story of self love and transformation.

     1. Yes Shirley, having this understanding, which I got from Serge Benhayon, completely changed things and gave me something I could work with. So much can be turned around from building love in the body and adressing what is the real energetic cause, the deep hurts we carry.

487. “It doesn’t have to be this way”. It certainly doesn’t…and you are living breathing proof of the fact that there is another way.

     1. I agree, Rebecca. I wonder how common this is and if there are other testimonials on the internet.

488. If we play ‘victim’ to our circumstances, we are forever disempowered and in the cycle of seemingly at the end of whatever may happen to us in life. Taking responsibility for each and every choice puts us on the front foot and we see that nothing is nothing, and we hold the key to every facet of our life.

489. Recently my body went through some changes and i found it very unnerving, my skin and hair care routine all had to change as it felt like nothing was working anymore. I was surprised and how much this threw my daily routine out as I struggled to find new products to support my changing body. I wouldn’t consider myself a vain person or even particularly obsessed with how I look. What I did learn is that I do take care in choosing products that are simple and effective and smell nice, and are produced by a company that cares. It was interesting to learn these are important to me and it felt nice to spend time to choose the new line up to support me and how I present myself to the world.

490. Understanding that we have a unique part to play as an integral inseparable part of the Universal order, helps to bring into perspective the otherwise seeming overwhelm of a world that is designed to keep us in blindness away from knowing who we are and what we truly bring to earth. Let’s go big picture.

491. I love what you have said about building trust, and not through grand gestures but simple daily markers and confirmation of support in the little things that we can do to gently turn around a lifetime of ill-momentum, and also the fundamental commitment you made back to life that allowed such a deep healing to take place. Amazing.

     1. Annie, yes building the trust in myself and life was such an important part, the consistent daily care and love I did myself, those little things, supported me with this.

492. I always used to think that vitality only had to do with sleep. As I’m typing this I’m realising that I made life quite superficial in thinking so. Sleep is important though, because continuing doing (a lot) when our body is clearly indicating that it needs a rest isn’t very wise. But as I’ve been making more and more healthy choices, I’ve found that not going to bed at the time that my body says so – usually around 20.30 (which is not to say that I always respond to this) – and getting up a little after my body wakes me up is actually the most healthy. Lying in bed longer then (clearly) needed or have an extra turnaround usually (if not always) creates tiredness and heavyness. Quite incredible and the other way around as I’ve been told by the world.

     We’re incredibly wise if we only but followed the impulses coming through our body.

493. At present we fail to truly recognise the effects of the traumas we can encounter in life. Your experience Ruth exposes how important it is for us to consider the emotional/pyschological impacts that a trauma can have on our health. We are so sensitve and we can carry the shock for many in years in our bodies. The esoteric healing modalities established by Serge Benhayon are an immense support in enabling us to release the shock and come back to life, quite literally and in all ways.

     1. Yes Rowena, I had tried many different therapies to help me but nothing did, or with the root cause, until I found Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine then true deep healing took place, profoundly.

494. The step by step approach that you chose, Ruth, seems to be the key. I don’t feel impulsed to start as long as I don’t take responsibility to focus on just the next step.

     1. Yes Felix, taking it step by step builds a consistency with the commitment and from that trust. It’s not about getting better it’s about building the love and this is a steady process, the body heals in response to the love and looking at what hurts. To rush it or try and do it all at once would create a feeling of over load, or over whelm which could then just trigger the same pattern of withdrawal, giving up or drive again.

495. When we experience a trauma or something happens to us that is difficult to process, we shut ourselves down to life and create all manner of health issues as a result. Ruth is an amazing example of what is possible with the loving support of Universal Medicine, as through healing and awareness we are empowered to trust in ourselves again and in the truth that resides within our bodies.

496. I also at the suggestion of a practitioner considered the possibility of giving myself 10 minutes in my day to go for a walk….”So I embarked on a journey to build trust in myself by making a commitment to myself and life, starting with very short walks and caring for myself, focusing on the quality of how I did things for myself, tenderly, lovingly, building this love in my body.” That simple choice to walk with no distractions, for me, changed my life, not only the action and movement of it and the mediative way of breathing that went with it, but the actual choice of making space for me to care for myself consistently, it changed everything.

     1. It is profound the effect that these small changes can make Samantha isn’t it, we are so worth taking care of ourselves and the consistency with this brings about results that are life changing.

497. This is truly an extraordinary story and one the Government would do well to take note of – not only are you no longer claiming a life-long disability allowance, you are now a fully employed tax payer. These small, loving steps you took are so simple anyone can do the same, if they have the will, the commitment and the responsibility.

     1. Good point Carmel, you say you want to make changes, but it does take responsibility, commitment and will to be consistent with those steps for the change to occur.

498. How many people in the world are operating from a place of protection, and how much does this incarcerate us in all in a lesser life than we could all fully live.

     1. And what an illusion protection is Annie, keeping us from the untouchable pure essence within, where protection is not needed, and therefore from uniting with everyone else, humanity.

     2. Indeed Annie, and protection takes its many forms through illness, behaviour, beliefs, dramas, emotions. Gaining an understanding and awareness of how I was protecting myself gave me the choice to live differently, thanks to Serge Benhayon.

499. Ruth, you are absolute living proof that by making loving choices to the way we live, has the potential to change anything in our lives, and in doing so we are given all the love and support that we could ever ask for.

     1. This is true Sandra, all the love and support we could ever ask for thanks to Serge Benhayon, the wisdom that he shares with us and the simple living ways, all from his own livingness are there for us all if we choose to take those steps for ourselves.

500. I love reading this, it shows that when dealing with a sign of our body, we can heal the root cause. All illnesses are showing us a part of life we don’t deal with. When we choose differently we are the ones that make true healing possible.

     1. Yes Benkt, it is having the understanding of what the body is telling us that the allows us to look more deeply as to why. Serge Benhayon offers this understanding of the body like no where else I have come across. From Serge’s presentations I got a whole new level of understanding about my body and what it was telling me and then I could make different choices and get to the root of the problem, how I was living.
        Thank heaven we have Serge Benhayon here now sharing all this wisdom, a pathway to self responsibility and change.

501. This blog really shows to me the power of our lifestyle on our wellbeing and approaching it from a deeper understanding and willingness to be aware of why we do what we do – as in not just looking at what we eat or how much we exercise but exploring what it is underneath that drives us to make the choices that we do…

     1. Yes Fiona, it is immensely powerful when we bring in the why we do what we do, choose what we choose, be willing to gain that understanding and awareness to lifestyle and wellbeing, with this deep healing and transformation occurs.

502. With these sorts of illnesses, the nervous system becomes super sensitive and sparks at the slightest little thing, hence making gross reactions to small stimuli.This then becomes the normal state for it, creating the fatigue and hypersensitivity you describe Ruth. The medical system has difficulty understanding this condition but the energetic understanding of the life force from the kidneys and commitment to life explain it very clearly. You are a living testament to the truth Ruth.

     1. Yes Gill, and I would not have had this understanding and been able to make all these changes and share them if it had not been for Serge Benhayon who presents the energetic truth about the body how it works and why it doesn’t.

503. Ruth, what you share is gold – our reactions to life and how we choose to live can be both the ’cause’ and the ‘cure’ to our illnesses.

     1. And isn’t it phenomenal Carmin, that it is in our hands and things don’t have to stay the way they are.

504. I have just done a quick piece of research. It is estimated that there are 250,000 people including 13-15 years olds in the UK with Chronic Fatigue. 250,000!!!!! And that is just in the UK! I am not knocking doctors or the medical profession they do a truly incredible job but a lot of the causes of things like Chronic Fatigue or Endometriosis are not known. That is the absolute blessing of knowing Serge Benhayon as through how he lives and his innate connection to truth, love, stillness, joy and harmony (that we too can all innately connect to) he can offer a true and deeper understanding of such dis-eases and illnesses ‘I learned that chronic fatigue is a condition of the kidneys, that the kidneys carry the energetic life force for the body; they are about commitment to life, yourself and humanity. Because of my reactions to things that had happened in my life previously, my commitment to life and myself dropped severely.’ And through the true energetic understanding of illnesses and dis-eases, many, including myself, have started to heal conditions that we thought we would have for life. Ruth I really feel you have something to offer people that are diagnosed with Chronic Fatigue as you have lived this, understood the energetic reason and completely turned it around. With 250,000 people (which is probably on the increase) we need to start somewhere. What you have to offer is gold and reading your experience was very humbling.

505. You have proven to us Ruth that even the most stubborn illnesses can change when we take responsibility and choose to love and deeply care for ourselves. 17 years of feeling wasted, with chronic migraines included is a deep pit of illness to climb out of; there is so much for us to learn from your journey.

506. It is tragic the consequences that escalate when we give up on life. The bodies self-support systems shut down like falling dominos. Ruth, you are the light at the end of the tunnel for every person that suffers from this debilitating illness. You truly are a walking miracle!

507. I also know chronic fatigue and kidney exhaustion. I only started to recover when I was able to connect to my inner truth in a deeper way and brought this innate knowing into my life. The workshops I attended with Universal Medicine supported me in this process.

508. Coffee is definitely a’ false energy’ I used to drink 8 or more cups a day at one stage, just to get me through the day and at the time I was not even working. Had I not drunk this many I would have spent most of the day in bed wallowing in my self-created depression. Things would have come to ahead quicker had I not been propping my self up with coffee, the coffee hid the depression and given-up ness I had gone into.

509. Hugely inspiring and confirming Ruth of how we are the captain’s of our own vessels and we can steer our vessels back to it’s true rhythm and light and live the love that we all are. Thank-you for your inspiring sharing.

510. Feeling the impact of ones choices can be a hard one, I know I have had issues with adrenals and fatigue, not quite Chronic Fatigue, but the way I was living was making me unwell. I have since made changes to how I live and the quality in which I walk, talk and live in. This has made enormous changes to my energy levels and fatigue I was experiencing.

511. When we have a condition or even something going on in our lives that seems too BIG to deal with it can seem impossible to deal with. What I love in your sharing Ruth is how it has been a continual step after step, one at a time, looking after yourself and honouring what the body is communicating and how things have turned around for you. This is Super Cool.

512. This is such an inspiring read – how loving choices freed you from what sounds like a prison of chronic fatigue and not being yourself in full. Awesome.

513. ‘I am a walking miracle … loving living life!!’ This is practically a chorus of students of The Way of The Livingness now. That we can choose to come back from our ‘conditions’ and live lovingly is a total miracle. We are our own saviours. Huge appreciation to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, for without these teachings of the Ageless Wisdom many of us would be still in one chronic state or another and the world would be a poorer place. These teachings are available for all.

514. Ruth, this is an amazing and inspiring story and gives hope to many. It also shows me that the basis for addressing illness is in looking at the what has led to the illness, being open and honest and taking responsibility for our choices.

515. Hello Ruth and it makes you wonder with so little still known about Chronic Fatigue why medicine isn’t looking for real life answers like yourself. Why do we try and go away and reinvent the wheel and not look right under our noses. Your story is truly incredible and would go a long way to support others in a similar situations, maybe you should write a book or something.

516. Ruth, this is so gorgeous to re-read, you are such an inspiration and role model, thank you for sharing your amazing story.

517. There’s so much to share about (chronic) fatigue. We’re so used to being tired, exhausted or depleted that the mechanics, habits that we use to cover this up are seen as normal. Some simple questions reveal a lot:
     – why do we drink alcohol?
     – why do we drink coffee?
     – why do we eat bread?
     – why do we eat (tons of) sugar or sugary products?

     The answer for all the questions: because we’re tired. We medicate ourselves with choices that are actually robbing us of our vitality and sooner or later we will become sick. Could it be that we make these choices because our body is in need of energy because we’re constantly fighting with ourselves?

     I’m able to share as I’ve been over 100 kilograms and used all the above to hugely numb myself. If somebody would have told me back than that I was in fact medicating me, sabotaging me, (self)abusing me I would have laughed… Thank God for Serge Benhayon who reflected different choices than the poor ones I made for a long time…

518. ‘I began listening to my body and learning what supported me, and what didn’t.’ This is surely something we can all learn from regardless of our health status, or what condition we may have. What you share Ruth makes common sense for us all in our self-care.

519. This is an awesome inspiring blog. I hope that many who have and do suffer from Chronic fatigue get a chance to read it. I have never experienced chronic fatigue and learnt a lot from your sharing. Thank you.

520. The term ‘Burning the candle from both ends’ is well known as a way of living that exhausts us, but that lack of commitment and engagement with life, inactivity, withdrawnness is draining us as well, or maybe even more, is an interesting understanding that may confuse the one who only uses the rational but not the one who understands how energy works in the body.

521. The ‘crash and burn’ way of living is very common. I lived that way for many years and saw it as normal. You drive yourself hard and then you fall in a heap for a while and go and do it all again. Fortunately our bodies don’t respond so well to this way of living, and we get messages along the way to tell us this…if we ignore or override them, they get louder and louder, and Chronic Fatigue is a condition that completely stops a person in their tracks and offers a chance to reflect on how they’ve been living and to make different choices.

522. ‘I was trapped in a cycle of being afraid of making myself worse’ – this is a common worry for those with long term conditions and illnesses, which is why it’s so important you’ve shared what you have Ruth about how gentle exercise and strengthening the body through consistent movement/routines really supports recovery – the opposite of making things worse!

523. When reading this blog I can feel throughout that there even in the midst of the symptoms of chronic fatigue there is a part within which does not give up for it is always knowing of the truth behind the ills which we can create for our self. ‘At my worst, my day lasted only 5 hours from beginning to end, though I always got up at some point in the day, as something in me just couldn’t stay in bed continually.’

     1. Yes Michael, I always had a feeling one day I would find my way out of Chronic Fatigue, I just had to find the Truth about life .. and I did from Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, my transformation clearly shows this.

524. Yes, Ruth you are a walking miracle and your words are very inspiring. It’s amazing the power we feel once we begin to take responsibility for our conditions and begin to learn from the gentle, loving messages that we begin to feel in our body – always leading us back to living a way that is truly supportive and life giving.

525. Withdrawing from life creates a vacuum inside us, it’s like we are trying to blow out the flame of life within us, and this we can never do. Your journey Ruth is powerful evidence of this and how with the correct guidance and support, it is possible to not only reverse our decision to withdraw, but to work our way back to embracing all of life once more, by listening to and nourishing our core and tenderly, lovingly fueling our internal flame rather than attempting to snuff it out.

526. There is indeed another way to do everything and that is ‘The Way of The Livingness’, a quality of living that transforms every single aspect of life. A way of living that holds the answers to every single question. The Way of The Livingness as taught by Serge Benhayon offers everyone true salvation. It is a way of being that we have all lived before and one that we shall all return to in time. It is a way of living that will re-unite us all.

527. Serge Benhayon looks at medicine in a totally different way. He looks at it universally, taking in the whole picture, examining every aspect of our livingness. And thus he is able to present a true science, a path to true healing – rather than the ‘elastoplast’ methodology of standard medicine which, although brilliant and utterly needed will never get to the root cause of what is happening. You only have to look at the zillions of dollars invested in cancer research and then relate that to the current statistics to show, undeniably, that we are searching in the wrong place.

528. “So I embarked on a journey to build trust in myself by making a commitment to myself and life, starting with very short walks and caring for myself….” the actual decision to change one’s movements is a gigantic step towards a true evolution. And that is before the movements themselves have even been made. Just the intention can be enough to change one’s life completely.

529. There is a strong discussion going on among medical researchers about chronic fatigue syndrome as major aspects of an $8 million trial (the PACE trial) have now come under question and, as there are no known biological markers, scientific research is not sure what to look for in a treatment. Any story of recovery from a CFS sufferer, particularly those whose symptoms worsened after exercise, is currently worth its weight in gold and should be published widely.

530. No illness is random. Every illness has a reason as to why we have got it in the first place. This is an awesome sharing to help many understand the root energetic cause of chronic fatigue given it is so common these days and to know that it is possible to turn it around. Deeply inspiring.

531. An amazing change – to read how far you have come from a place many would never expect to recover from, is a testament to the power of taking responsibility for our choices.

532. The symptoms you had describing chronic fatigue sound so debilitating, and now, you do not have any symptom, actually, just the polar opposite. What is revealing from your story is the way we process or live life, can either be our poison or our medicine.

533. Working in health, I was not aware of all these other sign and symptoms that can be experienced with Chronic Fatigue. The tendency is to focus on the exhaustion, however your insights of what was happening within your body on a daily basis, provides details rarely shared. And looking at these details openly and honestly allows for the depth of true healing you now have. A truly inspiring journey Ruth.

534. This is deeply inspiring Ruth, and needs to be shared far and wide – in medical publications, social media, everywhere! From self-imposed isolation to living in the midst of a large city and loving it – that is truly a modern day miracle.

535. Ruth what strikes me when you explain that you simply gave up on life and things plummeted from there, is how your body and your senses really so accurately reflect the fact that you wanted nothing more to do with life after the trauma. “My mind was very dull, I was unable to think straight or keep up with anyone, physically or mentally. I couldn’t listen to the radio or watch TV as my mind was too dull to process the information. My senses were heightened, so most of the time I had the curtains shut because I was sensitive to light, and I couldn’t tolerate sounds, smells or many foods.” What an amazing story teller our bodies are.

536. We think we can deceive our own bodies, by tuning out to the messages life presents as a lesson to be learnt. Eventually the body will confront you with all your disregard, emotional shut down and contraction away from being in life. That’s when we will have to take the time stop, to be honest and lovingly reconnect so we can evolve within ourselves and the body is there to support us with that.

     1. Yes Merrilee, the body does not lie and it is being willing to and learning to listen to those messages whether a cold, a sneeze or chronic fatigue etc our body is always communicating with us.

537. That is the science humanity needs – a living case study – describing the condition, the personal and individual experience, the causes and the way to make choices that truly bring change and healing by taking responsibility.

538. I never experienced chronic fatigue in the same way as you Ruth but I know how much I pushed myself to exhaustion in the past, and still can push quite hard, with great disregard for myself. I have only just recently realised this. When we have an illness, it gives us a break, but we can still continue in the similar way unless we clear the old momentum that was driving the way we were living. For you, the illness was pretty dramatic and you listened and made lots of changes, well done. Life certainly feels more committed nowadays for you.

539. Too much emphasis is placed on finding a cure for an illness or disease rather than looking at the root cause of the ill in the first place. Esoteric Medicine is leading the way in encouraging humanity to take a look at how we have been living and the quality of our being that has caused the ill in the first place. Esoteric Medicine asks us to be responsible for the part we play, only then will and can we truly heal.

540. Chronic Fatigue has been a mystery for some time but to actually come out of it to the extent you have Ruth is nothing short of a miracle. Not only does this show how destructive we can be with our reactions to life and the extent to which we can withdraw, but also how powerful we can be if we claim ourselves back.

541. Being so sensitive to the environment and even to sunlight as you were Ruth must have been a huge challenge. And to be awarded living disability allowance for life must have seemed horrific and like the end of the road. How amazing that you have been able to turn it all around, and that you are now living and loving life.

542. “I had a trauma that I felt I couldn’t cope with, my trust plummeted, with little awareness I withdrew … I gave up”. This is such a common occurrence in life and affects so many people. What you have shared here Ruth is such an essential understanding of why we get sick and that it is possible to find true resolutions when we are really supported to look, feel and heal these traumas without indulging in them. And this is what is offered to us by Universal Medicine, a way to create a strong safe platform internally from which we can begin to feel, heal and release our internal shock and injury, which then naturally empowers us to address the quality of our choices and re-build our health and vitality from our core outwards.

543. How amazing Ruth to read and feel your experiences. Feeling tired or exhausted is actually a choice… A choice! How amazing is it that we’re actually choosing to be tired, without us being aware that we’re actually choosing so. And on a personal account I can share that even though I understand it, it took me quite some time to accept the fact and make the loving choices that offset the exhaustion and tiredness. And I’m still working on it.

544. This is mind blowing and a proof that there is more to illness and disease than we commonly anticipate on. That committing to life and allowing yourself to be in the middle of the business of life in the centre of London is medicine is new and should be known in the medical world.

545. Ruth this needs to be in the medical journals, it is such an incredible example and miracle of what committing to life really is, and the results of this from making the subtle yet powerful changes as you have. I can feel the energy and inspiration in you as you write with gusto, indeed with great joy about life having come from a prior given up and exhausted state. Incredible.

546. I got a sense through reading this experience of Chronic Fatigue of how the sensitivity we can have can work for us or against us. There is no doubt if we live with much reaction and spending energy trying to protect ourselves most of the time then it becomes progressively debilitating for our bodies. Yet in another way that sensitivity is a great asset if we want to open up to new understanding and feel the truth that there is a self responsible way to heal making life our medicine.

547. We often don’t like to look at the enormity of responsibility we hold in our choices, and the way in which this impacts our bodies. This is a great example of the fact that we are responsible for our lives in every detail and facet; and never are we not.

548. This is incredible Ruth. I’ve never heard of chronic fatigue described in such detail in terms of the impact on the body. The way you have chosen to free yourself from the self imposed prison is nothing short of an absolute miracle. Wow.

     1. Yes, it is quite shocking at times to find out the depth of suffering people experience.

549. ’I forced my body to do things, I used to drive it, then suffered the consequences afterwards with even worse fatigue.’ – This is very relatable, in the past, rather than admitting that there was a limit to what I could do, I would spend a whole lot of energy to cover up this fact and push myself to deliver what I thought was expected of me.

     1. It seems crazy doesn’t it to force the body to do things when it is clearly saying stop and take care of me but rather than listening I would over ride it because ‘ I ‘ wanted to or, as you say Eva, was expected to. The more we cherish, care and nurture our body the more energy, vitality and service it can do.

550. Ruth this is truly inspirational. I can easily substitute chronic fatigue for what I find incredibly challenging and learn so much from what you say when you say, ‘….stuck in a cycle that holds you back from who you truly are, separate from others and all you can bring to life. It takes will, commitment and responsibility to walk free of it…’ Thank you

551. Truly a miracle – that you took charge of your own health simply by changing your choices and making a commitment to life.

552. The way you show for everyone to heal chronic fatigue is revolutionary, addressing the root cause and putting to practice what activates commitment, vitality and zest for life – essentially connecting to true purpose, humanity and yourself as an unique part of the whole.

553. An inspiring story that serves many who deal with this difficult condition. Thank you for sharing it.

554. ‘But by making those small commitments to myself – a short walk, tenderly looking after myself, changing my part time work from self employed at home in a back room, safely tucked away, to working with and for people with the purpose to serve – I noticed that over the next 3 years as my commitment grew, my energy levels improved with it’. It is quite magical how these small commitments all add up to something so much greater than the parts. They are such simple things the complicated mind thinks that they are beneath it, but they are in fact the way to go as you have so beautifully demonstrated Ruth!

555. I love the title of this blog, the fact that “it doesn’t have to be this way.” And this is what Universal Medicine and the teachings of Serge Benhayon reveal to us, if we are ready to look, that illness and disease are messengers that show us the effects of our internal and external choices in life. Address the root quality of these choices and what grows out of them will in time completely change. Our health and well-being is firmly in our hands and studying with Universal Medicine brings an immense amount of light to bear on the real reasons why we get sick and how to, if we are so motivated, embrace our responsibility and power. And here you stand Ruth, living proof of what is possible when a person diligently applies these awesome teachings in their lives.

     1. And it really doesn’t have to be this way as the teachings of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine show us. How utterly amazing it is to have this offered to us to bring such change to our lives through our own choices and awareness. The understanding that comes from the presentations opens a door to choose differently from which the body responds so beautifully.

556. Thank you Ruth, through your blog I have a much better understanding of Chronic Fatigue and what it means for the person who has it. I love how with the support of Serge Benhayon, you were able to see what lay behind Chronic Fatigue, and you were then able to slowly build your self back up, so that you are now living life with no sign of CF. This is indeed a miracle and inspiration for the many people throughout the world who suffer with the very debilitating illness of Chronic Fatigue.

557. Ruth, every time I read this article I am blown away by your strength and commitment, ‘So I embarked on a journey to build trust in myself by making a commitment to myself and life’, this is gorgeous and shows what is possible – truly remarkable!

558. Astonishing to read this and see the dramatic changes that can be brought about by changing one’s choices. And yet the world still believes that cancer is predominantly a genetic disease and that there is nothing that can be done – it’s the “luck of the draw” as to whether we get it or not. Amazing what ignorance we will maintain to avoid responsibility.

559. ‘A shift in me began with a willingness to look at myself and how I had been reacting to life.’ Once we can get a deeper understanding of how we are behaving, and why we react, perhaps looking back to our childhood and seeing how our current life is reflecting our childhood experiences of relationships, feeling told off, not feeling good enough, making ourselves small, not being heard, and recognising that we as adults have a choice and a greater awareness of how we can choose to be, perhaps then we can move beyond those childhood hurts and be the amazing women and men we truly are, engaging in true relationships, fully open and surrendered to all that is available to us, and then the tiredness of living as we have been will melt away.

560. Thank you, Ruth, for spelling out the consequences of withdrawing from life, and for showing what is possible when we choose to embrace life again and re-connect to the love and joy that has always been there.

561. Articles like this should be featured in medical journals.

562. Ruth what an incredible turn around, from the point you were “awarded Disability Living Allowance … for life!” and having a day that lasted only 5 hours to thriving and working in London. It is quite incredible but testimony to making small step by step and deeply loving choices how the body is able to naturally respond. Sometimes you don’t really appreciate the journey that everyone has taken, the steps they have made as when you see someone like yourself today you would have no idea the past trauma. This is the power of true healing.

563. Thank you, Ruth, for bring to light the crippling disease of chronic fatigue. I had never realised how debilitating it is, and people with it just disappear from sight. Your blog has now exposed for others with chronic fatigue that they are no longer locked into the darkness that has become their life and there is light at the end of the tunnel.

564. The part about getting out of the secluded, part time work at home into a business environment working with other people is a very practical and helpful experience to share. It brings the notion of ‘commitment to life’ into a more real perspective and shows how important connection to others in a useful way is.

565. This is such an inspiring story, our quality of life is in our hands, we are the ones responsible for listening to ourselves, our bodies know exactly what we need to be a clear vessel of expression and our bodies bring us an awareness of all that we are holding onto that doesn’t serve us in being all that we are and expressing from our inner hearts. It is up to us to listen and be guided by our inner wisdom.

566. Reflecting on life I understand that the choices we make builds the platform we stand on. This platform may be solid and strong and unwavering in its holding of us as we continue to live each moment of our lives, or this platform can be shaky and unsteady always threatening to collapse every time we are challenged by something. If we re-connect and choose the truth of who we are – love, integrity, commitment and responsibility – and constantly practise and live this, then there is nothing that will challenge the solidness of the platform. If we have not re-connected to who we are and grabbed at what the world outside of us has offered, then the reliability of the platform is under something else’s control and liable to crash at anytime. Thank you Ruth for your honesty and helping me to understand the power of the choices I make everyday and their relationship to my platform in life.

567. I love how practical the changes that you made and shared here are Ruth and that it was something that you continually developed and grew with – not expecting to get better overnight but committing to what you knew felt true for you and building on it.

568. Chronic Fatigue is not well understood. The symptoms are varied and doctors have difficulty in diagnosing and treating patients. This was my experience 14 years ago. When you bring it back to energy and how a person is living, it isn’t so difficult to diagnose or treat, and a turning point in my recovery and healing was when I recognised how much sympathy and attention I was getting from having ‘chronic fatigue’ and that I was playing the victim in my ‘poor me’ story. I began to accept the state my body was in, see how it had got to this (my responsibility or lack of) and started to make different choices…and my health started to improve.

     1. Yes, Sandra. When we identify with our condition we are locking ourselves in to a version of reality that is far from the truth of who we are and our potential.

569. I have sensed this at times with people who are chronically ill, “I was trapped in a cycle of being afraid of making myself worse, so I was afraid to do more than what I knew was safe.” Some times there is holding back and fear to make things worse, by the act of trying new things or reflecting on the root of the issue. What you express here is huge, so powerful and miraculous, because you made choices and steps towards healing yourself, with amazing support around you. So much to celebrate.

570. This is absolutely inspiring Ruth. It’s amazing how simple it is to pull ourselves out of these conditions once we understand that it’s about the choices we are making, then bringing understanding to ourselves and gently taking the steps required.

571. Wow, the depth of what commitment to self, life and people means, clearly demonstrating how much the body is affected by our choices, much more than we may imagine or medicine is willing to recognize for now.

572. Ruth I love your story. Your understanding, with the support of Universal Medicine, of why you had chronic fatigue is very clear, and the simple but consistent steps you initially began to take you back to the full, energized, ‘loving of life’ you you are now are very inspiring. It would be great if you were able to share your story with others who have this condition, so wonderful to know it is not ‘for life’ and that it is reversible by your choices.

573. We live in a world where we often hear about conflict and factions fighting. We also see more and more news of illness, cancer and other diseases. But until now we have not joined the dots as you do here Ruth, that the greatest fight of all is the one we have with ourselves. Just because we are used to it, or familiar with the feeling does not make this constant reaction with the world and what we feel ok. Where could we go as a race, if we simply stopped and made a loving dedication to supporting and cherishing instead of ‘fighting and flighting’? Your example inspires me to find out.

574. This is an truly inspirational story Ruth and one which highlights the amazing healing ability within us all through the choices we make.

575. ‘It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it.’ – Ruth, this is revolutionary – this fact alone, if it was acknowlegded and applied in our daily lives, would make huge changes to the illnes and disease statistics.

576. This is a truly inspirational sharing Ruth. Having been ill with a similar fatigue some time ago and come through around 9 months of this on two separate occasions I truly relate to the pain, insomnia and fatigue and depression. I agree that you are an inspiration to all those who have and do still suffer from this type of illness and that you sharing your story with these people would be a huge healing experience!

577. This: http://www.sciencealert.com/bad-science-has-misled-millions-with-chronic-fatigue-court-order-reveals is an interesting link to an article saying that the original study that informs most medical recommendations on CFS may be badly flawed.

578. We can all get stuck in cycles of physical and mental health that keep us forever holding back, but you have shown us how, by taking personal responsibility and committing to life, one tender step at a time, everything can be turned around. An inspiring blog, thank you.

579. For those living with chronic fatigue and other debilitating conditions it’s a common feeling that the state of their body is out of their hands and they just have to ‘cope’ or ‘live with it’. For those with these conditions it would be empowering to read your blog showing that we can develop a loving relationship with our body and support it even with a condition such as chronic fatigue, and that these things can potentially help the body to get stronger.

580. Wow Ruth I am blown away by your amazing recovery and choices and the support from Universal Medicine to turn your life around so lovingly. You are a real inspiration and miracle and bring a simplicity and knowing to what most people have given up on when reaching your stage of depletion and exhaustion with life. An amazing sharing to be shown to the world.

581. Wow Ruth this is deeply inspiring to read.” It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it.”
     Its easy to see how without this foundation of self love and care in a world that heralds competition, resilience and drive, people see their deep sensitivity as a fault and choose to retreat from life, indeed your return to health is a miracle.

582. “I gave up” such tiny words but with such huge consequences. If we understood from young what it meant to connect, engage, commit and be consistent, then we would go a long way to rid the world of exhaustion and chronic fatigue, not to mention a plethora of other very common (and equally not fully understood) physical and mental conditions.

583. I am sure that often we do not consciously realise the extent to which our choices will affect our health and wellbeing however in the end our bodies will make it very clear to us. Being open to this understanding allows us to be empowered and to start to make different choices to improve our quality of living.

584. Yes Ruth you are a walking miracle. Chronic Fatigue cripples people for life, but not you…wow I love your step by step description of how you healed…this is gold for thousands of people who feel they are a victim to the disease, like you once did. You need to speak at Chronic Fatigue Seminars and to doctors and to every-one. This article is so inspirational.

585. This is an extraordinary, eye opening story. Firstly for me about the insight into Chronic Fatigue and then about the fact that we do not have to be hapless victims of what we might think are random conditions we are afflicted by. The turn around for you, Ruth, is obviously incredible – I can hear the appreciation in your words – and is a point of inspiration for many.

586. It seems to me to be so obvious now that our bodies and their health are a pure reflection of the choices that we have made; once this becomes common knowledge then we will be able to choose our way out of ill health and back into the natural vitality that we are from.

587. With Chronic fatigue still being pretty much a ‘mystery’ illness, in the why, and how this manifests in the human body, your sharing and describing of how you completely turned your life around is medical evidence.

588. ‘My pattern in life from a very young age has been to withdraw, if something scared me, hurt me, got too much or I couldn’t cope; with nowhere to escape to, this was my way of coping.’ This is a common reaction to life – in fact there is probably not one of us that has not done this, so we are all on the ‘spectrum’ as it were, even if we have not gotten Chronic Fatigue. I certainly now have way more energy, now that I am living in a way that is committed to life, people and community. It is now so simple to see the way our approach to life has thwarted our beautiful bodies and our God-given life-force.

589. “I embarked on a journey to build trust in myself by making a commitment to myself and life” Commitment to life has to start with a foundation of trust and love for oneself otherwise we will react to situations and want to withdraw when we are hurt and even though we might do a lot for others we will somehow feel left out and resentment can build. This is exhausting and then we will feel we need ‘time out’ for ourselves. On the other hand, if we have a loving relationship with ourself we can offer service with a quality of self-love as a basis and we do not get exhausted or burnt out.

590. “I learned that chronic fatigue is a condition of the kidneys, that the kidneys carry the energetic life force for the body…” Ruth, so living from the kidneys in reaction means there’s no space or energy to live/commit for life, humanity, yes that makes sense. And shows the force of emotions on the body and how devastating it is, and even more devastating when emotions are held as being ‘what makes a person’ or ‘builds their character’ through countless endeavours, triumphs, charitable causes, start up business ventures etc etc. Is not to say all that is wrong, though without the care of oneself in the process, a flat out exhausted or drained person is inevitably what we end up with.

591. “It doesn’t have to be this way.” This is so encouraging for when one starts to withdraw there is a downward spiral and we have less energy which makes us hold back further from committing to life. By not giving in to this pull to withdraw further we can turn the tide by being prepared to take responsibility for our choices instead of seeing ourselves as victims. “It takes will, commitment and responsibility to walk free of it, but it can be done.” And
     I love how you have done this Ruth, not by imposing anything on yourself, but by allowing it to unfold by being gentle with yourself and willing to listen to what your body is saying to you.

592. Ruth what a great confirmation of how our choices affect our life and can either drain us or give us energy. Your blog clearly shows how by choosing to participate in life instead of withdrawing you changed the energy you were drawing on and what a miraculous change you brought to your life! This is so inspiring and applies to all of us who have a tendency to withdraw even if we have not been labelled with Chronic Fatigue.

593. This truly illustrates the wisdom of our bodies if only we choose to honour the messages they are constantly sending us.

594. A very inspiring story Ruth… we have the power to significantly change our lives if we so choose.

595. “It takes will, commitment and responsibility to walk free of it, but it can be done; I know, because I did it, one step at a time, making loving choices for me.” I love this line because it falls absolutely at our feet and that is so freeing.

596. Reading this blog again Ruth I am deeply moved by the way you have made different and empowering choices, walking your way step by step out of an almost untenable position and condition. Thank Heavens you met Serge Benhayon and then were open to hearing the truth and responded.

597. Just by reading this incredible account of self-transformation with such honesty, it has helped me realise a certain level of reaction to the world and subsequent withdrawal, along with the associated exhaustion that goes with that in my own body. This is the beauty of the type of honest sharing that Ruth has provided here, in that it allows other people (like myself) to be more honest about where they are feeling the same things, but perhaps not dealing with them fully.

598. I have had the experience of being around people who have had chronic fatigue, and in all cases, there was a complete giving up, and that life and their health would never change. What you are sharing here Ruth is absolute proof, that by choosing to re-engage with life, and committing to yourself, it is possible to turn such a situation around. This is definitely an article worthy of publishing.

     1. I agree Sandra, it’s an article that needs exposure in many publications as there must be many people who would be totally blown away by the gold shared here from Ruth.

599. What a journey Ruth. I’m sure the medical profession are completely astounded. The difference in how you live now to how you used to live is huge, and your dedication to healing yourself is totally inspirational. Totally amazing.

600. With chronic fatigue remaining generally without deep understanding, and where there is “little known about how to manage or treat it and to a large part this remains the case today”, your story is very poignant. The simplicity of healing this condition came from understanding the energetic cause – or disposition you put yourself in, and then taking the steps to re-connect to your body, address your reactions, and care for yourself by building on those small loving details. Effective and healing in it’s simplicity.

     1. Yes, the key may not be in managing the condition but in dealing with how much or how little love we express in our life towards ourselves and others.

601. This is a very inspiring story. ” A shift in me began with a willingness to look at myself and how I had been reacting to life.” It always starts with being prepared to discover what is beneath the surface and choosing to be accountable for the impact of our choices.

602. Listening to ourselves and adhering to our body’s needs is not only a loving thing to do, but in fact a very necessary way of being with ourselves. Obviously, this is the only way to not exhaust our body. Because if we don’t listen on a daily level to the communication our body is giving us, no wonder that it breaks down at one point. The equation with my garden comes up. If I don’t take care of my garden on a regular basis it will not look so pretty after a couple of months. So if we don’t take care of our bodies, it cannot but break down. We actually shouldn’t be surprised when it does because it has given already lots of signals that something’s not right. It’s up to us to listen… Or not.

603. A deeply inspirational story, that we have the power and ability to completely change our lives because of the choices we can make – choices based on a quality of living that isn’t tied to a desired outcome

604. I was really surprised to find out how common such extreme cases of fatigue are. When I was not involved in health care I had no concept of the discomfort and suffering many people experience.

     1. This surprised me too Christoph that it’s more common than we might consider. But then when I looked at my own life and how I lived in the past – running around like a chook with its head cut off, lots of stress, little self-care etc. – I can see how this type of exhaustion can easily lead to things like chronic fatigue. What I have become more and more aware of that so many of our symptoms and disease and illness are the end result of a way of living, and that if we can be aware of the signs from our body much earlier, we can arrest the momentum and impact of these things on our body.

     2. Yes Christoph, and there many more extreme cases than mine, I have heard of and recently seen a documentary on.

605. Thank you for sharing your story, it gave me goosebumps. You are a living inspiration and miracle. An awesome testimony that shows it’s a matter of choices.

606. An amazing account of how something as debilitating as chronic fatigue can be turned around simply by choosing an intention to make loving choices.

607. ‘I learned that chronic fatigue is a condition of the kidneys, that the kidneys carry the energetic life force for the body; they are about commitment to life, yourself and humanity. Because of my reactions to things that had happened in my life previously, my commitment to life and myself dropped severely.’ What an amazing awareness to get to! The start of healing for me has always been awareness. Simply being in the awareness of something opens us up to other possibilities. From there we can observe as these choices keep playing out and are more clear as to their effects, until we get to such a point where we can make new choices feeling the positive results, again very clearly.

608. This blog could be written or taken to any factor in our lives, any way of living that does not make sense, any ailment or woe – in the sense that it doesn’t have to be this way. We have a choice. We like to think we don’t have a choice, because it simply means a way out, a ‘great I don’t have to take responsibility for myself’ and can blame everything and everyone else, total comfort – but the truth is we do have a choice, always and for many of us we don’t want to feel that or it makes us squirm because of our lack of responsibility, in our bodies we do know.

609. Almost twenty years ago, I left full-time working and became self-employed partly because I experienced a form of exhaustion,which I believed was caused by the job and thought was chronic, but having read Ruth’s blog, now know it was far from it. I experienced low energy, lethargy and heaviness that no medical or other practitioner could explain. I de-toxed my body with colonic irrigation, was introduced to a supportive complementary medicine practitioner (herbalist) and rid my gut of parasites which helped tremendously to increase energy levels. Neither of these approaches considered the root cause of the condition: ‘depleted kidney energy’, my relationship with myself and way I lived my life. Attending Universal Medicine presentations and workshops transformed my understanding of my body and with the support of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine Practitioners, now work full-time, have three active roles, have energy and participating more fully in life than I have ever done. What it took was a dedication to making self-caring and loving choices everyday and learning to appreciate myself again.

610. It is clear that so many can get trapped in a cycle of being scared of doing anything to make their condition worse and in this their movements, or lack of them, are coming from fear. It is so inspiring to read how you supported yourself back to full health and vitality by taking responsibility for the quality of all your movements. Thank you for sharing, I am blown away by your dedication and commitment and also inspired to explore how I can support myself more lovingly.

611. ” I forced my body to do things, I used to drive it, then suffered the consequences afterwards…..” Although I have never experienced chronic fatigue I can so recognise driving my body beyond what it could cope with. Considering myself to be a reliable person I never wanted to let people down, so saying yes was my default position – to myself as well as to others. As i learn to listen to my body I am taking small stops in my day if I need to. Building an evening rhythm and going to bed early – for many years now – has contributed hugely to raising my vitality levels.

612. I just get so inspired when I re-visit this blog, Ruth. There are so many people who resign themselves to physical limitations and identify with their conditions, that this really is ground breaking stuff. To read that you love living life to the full now is indeed a miracle, and a testament to the power of love and commitment to yourself.

613. The choice we have to leave ourselves, which is what we know to be true in our heart, shows itself in so many ways. Even if it is not a physical condition, such as chronic fatigue, the choice is affecting us on every level. It is these apparently unseen changes that make us think that the little things don’t count.

614. ‘…it doesn’t have to be this way.’ from the title of this blog onward it is made so clear that the choice of the quality of life we have is our own and responsibility lies with us along with the power to change those things which lead us in to misery and anything less than our naturally harmonious way of being.

615. Ruth, this article is amazing to read, reading it today bought tears to my eyes at how much courage and strength you have to completely turn your life around, you show that anything is possible, thank you for being the very amazing woman that you are.

616. Ruth your blog shows the tremendous power of bringing awareness to ourselves and our patterns, and the deep transformation that can then take place as a result. Never self-judgment, but true insight and with that the potential to see truly who we are.

617. Once we perceive or experience ‘hurt’ and make the choice to start withdrawing, then begins a relentless downward spiral as we shut down or access to our life force, try to operate in exhaustion, stimulating the nervous system, adrenals, using caffeine and pharmaceuticals to give us false energy until all is utterley depleted and the myriad complications ensue. – yet getting to the understanding of the underlying cause and bringing true healing into the equation shows, just as you have done, that we can turn even this around and begin the steps back to true health and well-being once more.

     1. It is remarkable, inspiring and for me a call to responsibility to hear a story like this. Through our choices we can bring about remarkable change… it is like I do not have an excuse, right or wish to shy away from this responsibility.

618. This is amazing Ruth. I can feel the absolute devastation of chronic fatigue and then the lightness and joy that you have discovered and connected to within yourself. Truly inspiring and a story worth sharing, your case should be written up in medical journals.

619. Ruth this is amazing and you are a living miracle. Every reaction to life is held in our bodies and this is a poison that needs to come out of the body to return to living the essence of who we are. I haven’t had chronic fatigue but I have felt exhaustion a lot especially when I’ve been emotional and running on drama. It is amazing how much more energy and vitality I feel when I’m steady and keep things simple.

620. ‘I was awarded Disability Living Allowance … for life!’ Sentenced to life imprisonment! Ruth, to have turned around an ill condition from this point to where you are now is surely a miracle and needs to be documented for the medical world.

621. I too remember the feeling of waking up in absolute exhaustion and in the dread of wondering how to make it through the day without falling asleep everywhere and at all the wrong moments, on the phone, at the traffic lights, whilst driving, in meetings, speaking face to face. It seemed irreversible, but the simple understanding of what it is to honour what the body is signalling to us, is teaching me to stop living in a way that is self-attacking, and through this the body is truly turning around and starting to heal, and I am now experiencing a level of vitality I have not recalled since early childhood. How is it that we accept and resign ourselves to lose something that is innate and so natural to us to be.

622. “I learned that chronic fatigue is a condition of the kidneys, that the kidneys carry the energetic life force for the body; they are about commitment to life, yourself and humanity.” This is an awesome understanding and one that is seldom aired. Your recovery back to health is living proof that when we look and feel deeper into any condition, we will find the real reasons for the body’s dysfunction and be able to really deal with the core issue – our commitment, purpose and care about every one and every thing in life. How much we care, how much we connect within and with each other, how much we enjoy working, all matter deeply and have an major effect on our vitality and well-being. Medication can support us, it’s our esoteric awareness and responsiveness that heals us.

623. It is amazing that there are those who are presenting and offering the reflection of a true way of living and understanding such as Serge Benhayon and others though Universal Medicine so that we have the opportunity to consider our own choices and responsibility in where we find ourselves today.

624. Your sharing is deeply inspiring, thank you. The message I can feel about having purpose to life and a commitment to contribute far out weighs the drain that occurs when for one reason or another we choose to hold back and start isolating ourselves in life. This becomes the debilitating drain, a continuous cycle that becomes a trap. Your choice out of this starting with caring and trusting yourselves is very beautiful.

625. An amazing inspiration for all and the honesty and commitment to yourself is beautiful to read as is the amazingness of Universal Medicine and what it offers to us all if we choose it.Thank you Ruth for sharing this it will inspire so many.

     1. Tricia, what I found with making that commitment to love and take care of myself was so enjoyable and this just continued to grow. Being honest with myself and looking at what hurt allowed me to deepen my connection with joy and bring the love, that we all innately are, out from within. It is definitely a journey worth taking.

626. absolutely Inspiring Ruth. The effects of commitment to life are amazing! What an awesome example of how taking self responsibility heals our life.

627. Serge Benhayon offers us the missing link in medicine to true health and wellbeing. Addressing the way we live has worked many miraculous changes in many people’s lives and to be honest, it’s a no brainer that it does. The research has been done and the empirical facts are out – the way we live affects our health. The question seems to be: will we start taking responsibility for our health in the way we live, or won’t we?

628. I was told at 15 that I would have to live with Chronic Fatigue for the rest of my life and the best I could do was to manage it. This I found very hard to accept and knew that was not true. Yet for a long time after a part of me had accepted that. I had given up on life. However, something I have learned and seen from Universal Medicine and its students is the anything is possible and that it is never ever too late to completely turn your life around – no matter what choices you have made and what state your body is then left in. After all we are all love no matter what we may think or what anyone has told us.

     1. Yes, it is quite amazing what we witness at times.

     2. Yes James, this is the case for many illnesses and diseases, to manage them, particularly Chronic Fatigue as little is known about it, but managing it never addresses the root cause or brings awareness of our choices that have brought our bodies to show our ill living way, but with the wisdom and teachings presented Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine we can have these with abundance and many miraculous life changes have been made, as you have experienced.

629. Hello Ruth and it’s interesting what you are saying about how this all came about. From experience we would like to see it as one day you wake up and you just have something like chronic fatigue, bad luck. But it’s nothing like that as you are explaining and we have had our hand in the cookie jar all along, no victims of life. It’s not that things don’t impact us but as with everything there is a part we play and the honesty of that part is the key to healing the steps we have walked before. How we move in the world is very important and we are responsible for our every movement.

     1. Yes Ray, accepting and taking responsibility for our part in it opens us up to truly heal.

630. Truly inspirational, thank you Ruth for sharing the steps you’ve taken and the amazing changes brought about as a result! You can really feel the vitality and love of life that you have now coming through your words.

631. The honesty you share your story, Ruth, the steps you took and how you dealt with your issues is amazing. You are a walking miracle indeed.

632. This is an incredible way to look at our bodies, honestly the key, and answers lie within our bodies. No matter how much we go into our head to work things out,or complicate things, it really does come back to the simplicity of our body – I am always amazed by this, and how simple it is. the question is, do we get freaked out by the simplicity and with that the responsibility that we can so easily and are being asked to live?

633. What an inspiration you are for all the world. This is true medicine being lived in such simple ways. The power of honesty and deepening our relationship with our true self is beyond words. Thank you.

634. “When I moved to London, my body let go of the last residues of Chronic Fatigue. It felt like it was leaving every cell of my body, it was remarkable.” Your story is indeed remarkable Ruth, and one that should be shared far and wide. From such simple and tiny choices you have shown that we have the power and ability to change our lives around by taking responsibility of how we are living in our day to day lives.

635. ‘So I embarked on a journey to build trust in myself by making a commitment to myself and life, starting with very short walks and caring for myself, focusing on the quality of how I did things for myself, tenderly, lovingly, building this love in my body.’ Thanks for sharing these super practical examples of what we can do to re-build connection and self love. They are not huge in themselves but they add up to a whole lot when we can do them consistently.

636. Super inspiring blog Ruth. Chronique Fatigue is one of those diseases not many people know what to do with and your testimony to what you did is actually a way to deal with it. That is amazing.

637. ‘In 2011 I started to get a new understanding about my condition and in relation to how I was living through the teachings of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.’ These teachings are incredibly powerful and are so transformative when applied to life. In no other area of education have I ever come across anything like them. If we are prepared to get really honest and down to it every question we have ever sought can be answered simply…it’s just a question of being prepared to go there! Ruth you definitely were and look at the result!

638. What a fantastic story Ruth … you definitely are a living miracle. Thanks for sharing and I hope many other people with chronic fatigue get to read it and find out that there is another way to live that will free them from their plight.

639. This is a pretty incredible story to read, and to understand how you were able to come back from such a debilitating condition.

640. Ruth, what an amazing turn around of your life! And it goes to show these things/illnesses are not in our head, we do not invent illness and disease, however we are greatly responsible for how it unfolds, and how we respond in each situation – do we disempower ourselves, and if so for how long? Or do we empower ourselves and consistently keep making the choices that love us up with deep deep care and respect?

641. Your transparency is such a gift to the world. Thank you. There are so many of us suffering in silence. We have to start being super honest about what is going on and then it will become harder and harder for humanity to bury their heads in the sands of the chaos that we are currently submerged.

642. In disconnection, it feels there is no way out, and life is a difficult downhill spiral . No wonder people get depressed and lethargic, and the symptoms fuel and feed the negative mental state. It would be amazing Ruth, to consider the possibility of taking your story to self help groups, and teach a gentle breath meditation to help people with similar illness as you had, to help them to find their own connection.

643. Everyday miracle stories like this needs to be shared far and wide – a true inspiration.

644. This is the absolute gold that Universal Medicine is. When I read this I am humbled to ponder that even if our symptoms aren’t this extreme, am I fully appreciating what is being offered to us. What I mean is WOW – if this is what Universal Medicine can do, then am I doing everything I possibly can to bring this magic to whole world?

     1. Totally agree Otto, Universal Medicine is absolute Gold as is Serge Benhayon, what is being offered to us all is TRUTH … and life changing.

645. I like what you are saying here Ruth that it takes will and commitment to heal something and from my experience as a clinician and a patient I would definitely say this was true. If there is no will to heal then no real healing can take place.

646. Ruth absolutely amazing, knowing what a committed and energetic person you are now I am astounded that this was your past not so long ago. Wow the changes you have made are immense thank you for sharing about your experience with chronic fatigue I am sure this blog will help many.

647. Ruth, your sharing of how you turned your life around from chronic fatigue is a living example of ‘how to’ restore health and well being!

648. Wow what an incredible journey Ruth – you are indeed ‘a walking miracle’!

     1. Ruth I whole heartedly agree that you are a walking miracle but I look forward to the day when choosing our way out of ill health is not a miracle but simply something that we all do. Following that I welcome the day that no one actually makes choices that lead them into ill health in the first place.

649. Ruth it is clear from your story that you have been willing to take into your own hands your healing which has played a big part in you getting better. To truly heal and shift an illness we must be honest and willing to look in the part we have played in which the illness has come about in the first place.

650. All the evidenced based practice in the world will never show us the truth until it examines openly the experience that lies in the inner heart and how self responsibility is our true medicine! What current scientific measurement do we have for that?

651. A shift in me began with a willingness to look at myself and how I had been reacting to life.” This I feel is a very common problem with so many, reacting to life and just not knowing how to deal with what we are feeling. Your story Ruth is so very beautiful to know and understand that our life’s situations can be changed dramatically through loving consistent and responsible choices to participate in life and then life feeds you back, as we are all meant to work and be together and our bodies know this.

652. In my observations, the medical health professionals who are doing their best to handle the rise in chronic fatigue in the growing populations around the world, are only able to do so much, as they have limited time and resources available to them. They are a great support, but ultimately it is the person who has to make that journey out of the condition and make those steps back out in to life again, as challenging as this may be, because all the drugs and the psychotherapy in the world cannot do what we can do for ourselves, that is – to give ourselves the love, care and nurturing that our bodies need in order to live full and settled lives.

653. This is the key – “A shift in me began with a willingness to look at myself and how I had been reacting to life.” We have to come to that point where we are willing to stop looking outside of ourselves and to start to look at how we are living that is bringing about the illness and disease. This is very humbling and at the same time very freeing.

654. Brilliant Ruth, you are a living miracle! Your testimony is amazing and for all – how we can all be this in our lives , thank you for sharing .

655. Ruth, your story will be so inspiring for anyone who is suffering with chronic fatigue. Thank you for sharing.

656. Thank you for sharing your story Ruth. This will support so many people who are diagnosed with Chronic Fatigue but don’t know where to turn. Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine are real games changers; bringing to humanity the truth of how we can change our lives from ones of deep suffering to a life of True JOY. Well Done Ruth.

657. Nine years ago you experienced something, withdrew, and started plummeting towards extreme fatigue. Yet it was one event also, one encounter with Truth, that set you back on the path to re-connection and a full life – the effect our choices have cannot be denied here!

658. What you describe sounds like a living hell and to be on the other side of that to feeling engaged and fully committed to life is really extraordinary.

659. Thank you for sharing such detail about your relationship with chronic fatigue Ruth… it is so important to give this detail so there is more understanding of what is truly going on. Working as a nurse I’ve known of chronic fatigue but I now realise that knowledge was very superficial, and from reading your story I have a much greater understanding of what it is to live with chronic fatigue, and with that can offer so much more to people who have this condition.

660. Your journey with chronic disease Ruth is so very inspiring… from living in fear and totally isolated to now living in the middle of a huge city and loving it shows the power of our self loving choices and taking responsibility for ourselves.

661. Wow – what an awesome article. A story of true responsibility. It could be called a miracle and in many ways it is. But calling it that seems to take away from the fact that it was your choices, commitment, action and responsibility that allowed for such a huge and deep healing. Very inspiring.

662. Thank you for sharing your story Ruth. It is so supportive to see people not giving up on life and taking responsibility for their choices and their body. This is inspirational for many people working with many issues.

663. That is an extraordinary blog, I cannot believe that turnaround, how truly wonderful for you. You have your life back and you can feel it as you share how you are now back in life and working in London. Big wow.

664. Yes, I completely agree with the title of your blog “it doesn’t have to be this way”. It is very empowering to know that our body responses are a consequence of our choices and therefore we have the power and freedom to change those choice or not as we choose!

665. Ruth, this is inspiring for a whole world where much of humanity is suffering from fatigue, and chronic fatigue is prevalent enough to be treated seriously by the medical profession, even though it is still a mystery to them as to the cause. This is why it is so important that you have brought your story out into the open, so that the truth about the root cause, as revealed to you by Serge Benhayon, can become more widely known and felt. This is a real case for bringing Universal Medicine and Conventional Medicine together so that dialogue about these unknown sources can take place.

666. Many people have no or little commitment to themselves or life, and give up and, or, withdraw from life, ‘My pattern in life from a very young age has been to withdraw, if something scared me, hurt me, got too much or I couldn’t cope; with nowhere to escape to, this was my way of coping.’ I love how you turned this around.

667. With illness, we tend to want to look at the symptoms of the illness and try and take them away or reduce their intensity to make them more bearable. But when we look deeper and differently, we find there is a root cause of the illness which is often how we have lived, or habits and patterns that have built up, maybe of many years of behaviour to get to the point of illness. This may have become our normal way of living so can sometimes be tricky to understand. But once it is exposed, the illness can slowly dissolve away when we make life style changes because the body is no longer being disregarded. Your journey is one such example of the major changes possible Ruth, it’s so amazing to read.

668. I know that what you have shared is going to help many others with long term health conditions, and as one of the many I have certainly been inspired, so deepest appreciation for your wonderful blog Ruth. I too know that where I find myself health-wise is a definite result of all my previous choices, but I also know that “it doesn’t have to be this way”, it comes down to me taking responsibility for my next choice and the one after that, and the one after that.

669. This is an incredible blog, how many people actually make a commitment to themselves first? Loving themselves deeply, honouring what they feel to do, say, and eat – if we chose to live this way it would change everything, ourselves, other people, communities, work places, families, health systems, governments, schools, relationships, the world, on so many levels completely. It would be a much truer place to live.

670. I love reading this account of how you turned your life around, Ruth, through a consistent dedication to yourself and your body along with the ongoing support and inspiration of Serge Benhayon. You have proved beyond the shadow of a doubt, that anything is possible when we claim love and commitment back into our lives.

671. I didn’t realise the extent of how Chronic Fatigue affects those experiencing it. Reading this has been great to bring understanding to what someone is going through and awareness that there is a way out of these devastating symptoms.

672. “I stopped trusting the world and more importantly myself.” I can feel what an implosion this causes in the body, when we dismiss even the wisdom of our own counsel. How incredible to be able to regain your inner trust and flourish in the world again, like a phoenix arising from the ashes.

     1. Losing trust in myself was a big one, it created the need to hide and protect myself to such a degree. To build and have that trust again, more so than I have had most of my life, has been totally life changing. Building that trust has come from building a connection to me, though the love and care for myself and having a foundation of this to come back to when I wobbled.

673. Many of us live with a level of exhaustion without realising that our health is totally within our control, not only is it the way we physically don’t care for our bodies, but our thoughts can be debilitating too. If we are constantly criticising ourselves for not being good enough, always feeling somehow wrong, always judging ourselves and others, always comparing, feeling jealous, all these thoughts come from a consciousness that we have subscribed to and aligned with, and it is not true, it is a lie, but it becomes our reality and it is totally draining and debilitating. I love that Ruth shows how we can live differently, ‘caring for myself, focusing on the quality of how I did things for myself, tenderly, lovingly, building this love in my body.’ And that’s all it takes, appreciation and tenderness. Simple.

674. I see the multitude of things that are tried to solve the symptoms of chronic fatigue. But neither western medicine nor alternative medicine seem to have the answers. Shouldn’t we study cases like Ruth Ketnor’s to move on as a humanity with this world plague? Shouldn’t we marry western medicine’s and Universal Medicine’s wisdom?

675. “I am a walking miracle … loving living life!!” Yes, indeed you are Ruth, and it has been an absolute joy and inspiration to watch you unfold in this way. You are living proof that we all have it within us to change our lives around if we choose to, by making simple but loving choices in our day to day lives.

676. I haven’t experienced chronic fatigue but from your description Ruth it is clear what an utterly debilitating and depressing condition it is. Despite this awareness I can only vaguely compute the severity of what living with it for years on end actually means, but I can certainly feel your joy that you have healed yourself out of this. For me there is such wonder and joy too that you have, because you are showing us all that our conditions are simply our choices and that it is possible to make new ones, and therefore change the energetic configuration of our bodies. You are also demonstrating that we are so much more than our choices and in this awareness we get to feel precisely that!

677. Just how crucial is the understanding of the true cause of our illnesses lying in our own choices which from patterns of behaviour as presented by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. This really is the missing link in understanding the illnesses and diseases of humanity. As we hear of those who are willing to invest massive sums of money to eradicate illness and disease should we not simply be open to our own part in the causing of our ills rather than investing more and more money in ‘research’ in neglect of this fact.

678. The intensity of your illness Ruth is clearly apparent from your sharing. How remarkable is your complete healing of it. If this does not classify as a miracle I am not sure what does!

679. What a great tale to express to others that are suffering from chronic fatigue that there is another way back.

680. Ruth the level of commitment to your self and your job is amazing to read about, the fact that you choose not to put up with something that you were told you would have to but did it in a way that was not resentful but deeply caring shows the world that you don’t have to ‘fight’ a condition but instead start to look at why you have that condition and how you can truly care for yourself about it.

681. To discover we can walk through beliefs that tell us we can’t and find we can is the miracle. Taking yourself from a place of withdrawal and solitude to a front line role as customer adviser in a major city is a leap beyond ordinary imagination.

682. Chronic fatigue seems to be like a deep hole from which it is very difficult to come back. Ruth, I wonder if there are others that have managed to do what you have been able to?

683. Chronic fatigue has been somewhat a mystery to many in the medical field as well as those experiencing it. There is so much to learn from your sharing Ruth. Our commitment to life is about committing to being here and operating in the world, committing to our jobs, our family our friends. Unbeknown to many, but hopefully one day it will become common knowledge that lack of commitment is a poison to the body.

684. I am blown away by your story… what an incredible contribution you have made to yourself, your health and wellbeing. Plus, you have shown that self-care works… how it makes an enormous contribution to public health.

685. ‘It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it’ – Ruth this blog is inspirational and clarifies the fact they we are responsible for the life we live through the choices we make and for our own level of health and well-being – Wow.

686. Wah Ruth, this is just incredible, what a story, what an experience and what a complete joy to read .. and how you turned around your life through [restoring] one thing – commitment, the backbone to oneself and to life.

687. Since we are the only ones that can ultimately make the choice and take steps to heal ourself, being supported to deepen our understanding of the situation we are facing, our part in the scenario and the power within us to choose a different way is a huge gift. Wonderful Ruth that you received this when you met Serge Benhayon, and hats off to you for your choice to take the steps to turn it all round for yourself. Very inspiring.

688. A miracle indeed Ruth. Your life 17 years ago sounds utterly horrendous. I’m so inspired by your commitment. There was never going to be a quick fix solution and it clearly took years to recover fully, yet your dedication and willingness to take one step at a time is remarkable!

689. Hello Ruth and more often than not the mere mention of a diagnosis knocks you off your feet. ‘Chronic fatigue’ is one of them, you would need to have a lot of care to be able to treat someone for this condition because the words alone feel like a weight on you. The way you have supported yourself in this Ruth is nothing short of stunning. To be gone and be given a disability pension and now to be working again must be close to a first. I wonder if anyone has ever recovered to this degree and quality. Thank you for sharing what is a very personal and yet very needed story. No smoke and mirrors just good old fashioned truth.

     1. Hello Ray, yes it is a diagnosis you don’t want to hear, I wanted it to be anything else accept this, it took me a while to accept it. I now know that diagnosis is not the end or final, it gives you something to work with, to listen and understand your body and then lovingly look at your choices that led you there, without self judgement or blame.
        Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine shares the wisdom to be able to do this, how phenomenal to have this wisdom here for our world today with so much global illness and disease.

690. Woah this is a miracle – from being completely exhausted and scared to try anything – to working in the thick of it and loving life. What a huge story to share – there is endless possibility if we let go of the fear of the unknown.

     1. Yes HM and when I realised that the fear was not me, it was an energy, and I had a choice to stay with that energy or me then my pathway became a lot clearer.

691. Incredible, Ruth, a living miracle and testament to taking loving responsible care of yourself. I am blown away by your story and know it needs to be shouted from the rooftops… whenever you are ready for some public speaking! Thank you.

692. Ruth – you are amazing, this is an incredible story, thank you for sharing this.

693. Much of what you have written here Ruth I can relate to, as I had a 8 year period where I had chronic fatigue off and on and it is extremely debilitating, and can be very painful. Now it all seems like a distant memory because there was a time when I thought I would never have the energy to work, let alone work full time in a very demanding job. Things started to pick up after I started to attend the presentations by Serge Benhayon and started to look at the extent of which I had withdrawn from life, especially work.

     1. Great Julie, another testament to the presentations of Serge Benhayon and The Way of The Livingness. Becoming aware and understanding our patterns and choices in life is so very empowering.

694. I find these type of sharing’s invaluable to aid in my understanding that everything, every choice has a consequence.

695. You have shown us ,Ruth, how important connection to life is and how often our disease processes (often caused by disconnection in the first place) can take us further away from this connection which actually just reinforces the illness and our isolation. This is an amazing blog which has many messages.

696. I am so so moved by your account, Ruth, of healing such an intense case of chronic fatigue. True inspiration.

     I know every word comes from what you have experienced. I had a less severe case of exhaustion and I know we can reverse it. I had withdrawn and had pain in my kidneys and I too have, with the inspiration of Serge Benhayon, chosen to re-commit to myself & come back into life.

     I have no more kidney pain and am enjoying living my part in the world.

     1. Fantastic Jo. What an absolute blessing it is to have the inspiration of Serge Benhayon, sharing the ancient wisdom from his lived way for us all.

697. There’s much I can relate to in what you share Ruth. Particularly, an over-sensitivity to the world and reacting to others by withdrawing into my own world. I once believed my home to be my sanctuary, in truth it became a hiding place. I’ve built a sanctuary within my own body so I can be in the world, but not of the world, wary or afraid.

     1. Beautifully shared, Kehinde. It is so true that we can take the ‘sanctuary’ of the body out into the world with us and so we have the same steady foundation we can trust no matter what.

     2. I very much relate to what you have written Kehinde, my home being my sanctuary but really a hiding place. Having a growing core of love in my body supports me to be in the world and deal with it very differently, not reacting all the time and being able to observe more and therefore understand what is going on.

698. A beautiful example of how we heal ourselves, not by making massive leaps but with small steady self loving steps, each one building on the one before.

699. Great you are sharing your story Ruth, I can certainly relate as sometimes when I am tired, to move my body and have a walk or do gentle exercise helps it more than lying down or sleeping longer. Also connecting to people and going out and about is always refreshing and very energising for me.

700. I just love reading your blog, it is utterly astounding how such a massive change has occurred in your life and your health though the work you have done to recommit to yourself and life – it takes commitment and dedication to make such a monumental turn around, but your story shows just how worth while it is.

701. What an incredible story Ruth – I am in awe of what you share and I feel supported by your choices as they show me that no matter what I am facing I can turn things around one step at a time.

702. I love that your story was one of a slow, steady reclaiming and rebuild rather than a miracle cure. It is real, related and inspiring.

703. A phenomenal story Ruth and huge credit to you for making the choice to reconnect and take it from there, step by step.

704. You are indeed a walking miracle and your story is incredible. It is extraordinary to read of such a phenomenal turn around based on truly committing to making loving choices to break out of the cycle you were in and now walk free of. Amazing.

705. This really is an amazing testament to the power we all hold within to truly heal and even though sometimes the physical body may have to carry the consequences of our previous choices, very often we can turn around and transform a seemingly hopeless chronic ill-condition into a faint memory as we return to our natural more joyful and vital way of being.

706. As a physiotherapist, I know how difficult it is for people who struggle to get out of this downhill spiral of a cycle you describe Ruth. This is because we attempt this from the same energy that has created it, and it pulls us back. What Serge Benhayon offers is a different understanding about energy and addressing the root cause of this illness wth love and self care. You are living proof how this works, brilliant.

707. Wow, what a miracle you are.

708. This goes to show how illness and disease can all be understood and traced back precisely to our choices.

709. ’I was trapped in a cycle of being afraid of making myself worse, so I was afraid to do more than what I knew was safe.’ – I know this feeling Ruth, it is poison to the body.

710. Ruth I never fully understood how chronic fatigue worked and how it traps people in a never ending cycle of fear and doing less so they don’t hurt themselves but all the time it’s staying in the chronic fatigue, so you improve but you remain with it. So what you’ve done is huge, taking those steps to lovingly self care and what I feel reading is how it’s about consistency and to keep going and feeling what is needed, so building the trust in the body and ourselves, thank you for sharing.

711. This really is an amazing sharing, the fact that you were given the disability pension for life but you made choices to deal with what was going on for you and to commit back to life and look after yourself.

712. Ruth this line is absolutely key ‘ A shift in me began with a willingness to look at myself and how I had been reacting to life’, not just in understanding illness but in understanding any aspect of life.

713. Ruth, your story is evidence of the healing power of Love.

714. Simply gorgeous Ruth to read about the inspiring way you have turned your life around – you are a superstar shining bright in the world. You are a walking living miracle and your commitment to life and living fully has confirmed to the world that it is possible to change our lives when we have love and support. Fatigue has daunted me for many years but I know that the more self loving I can be the more my life changes and expands. I am learning to appreciate how much has changed for me over the last few years and that there is always more to learn and unfold.

715. How amazing the body is with its ‘messaging service’ getting more insistent to bring our attention to what we have been overriding listening to for years and sensing that we are ‘full of something’ that has no place to be there in the first place!
     “I regularly had intense stinging in my muscles such that I just had to lie still because any slight movement made it worse, they would feel stiff and as if they were full of something that shouldn’t be there”.

716. ‘A shift in me began with a willingness to look at myself and how I had been reacting to life.’ I love the honesty with which you share your journey and particularly appreciate how you demonstrate that your reactions to the happenings in your life caused you to withdraw and shut yourself off and how this led to your body shutting down and not being able to support you in the activity of life. Your commitment to healing this deeply ingrained pattern is truly inspirational and deserves to be shared widely.

717. I love how you have come from a place where you were sensitive to sounds and smells and have found yourself in London of all places and absolutely loving it. What a shift.

718. What I find inspiring is that usually conditions such as chronic fatigue are overwhelming and distressing, which you shared was your initial experience, but actually there is a relationship we can build with it based on UNDERSTANDING the condition rather than judging ourselves or becoming self-critical, and through developing this relationship you were able to completely turn things around. Incredible!

     1. Yes Susie, once I had the Understanding I could then work with it and as I worked with it I gained a deeper understanding and awareness.

719. I haven’t been too great with exercise lately and I know it really supports my body and that my body really loves this. You have inspired and reminded me it doesn’t have to be 1 hour or 1/2 hour a day or a few times a week but can be something as simple as 5 minutes a day.

720. Ruth your story is incredible, quite an amazing turn around for a condition that very few people know how to change. It’s great to read and you are indeed a walking miracle.

721. ‘I learned that chronic fatigue is a condition of the kidneys, that the kidneys carry the energetic life force for the body; they are about commitment to life, yourself and humanity.’ This is an amazing revelation to have and brings enormous understanding to the condition of Chronic Fatigue.

722. I’ve never really read about nor known anyone with Chronic Fatigue, so this is a really interesting story. That said, I feel like ‘adopting self love’ is probably not one of the doctor’s orders. As you have shown, it is the foundation to true healing.

723. “A shift in me began with a willingness to look at myself and how I had been reacting to life.” And this is the crux of the matter Ruth, our willingness to look at ourselves and our relationship to life, our bodies and our attitudes. Without this willingness to look, we will remain forever locked in a self made prison, wanting someone else to fix things for us. It’s your willingness to take stock that has delivered you back to your self, supported by the infinite wisdom of Serge Benhayon who presents the real understandings of what is going on behind the scenes. Allowing ourselves to really comprehend what is presented and begin to apply the lesson to how we are living can and does result in the miraculous return to health and vitality that you have accomplished. Thank you for making that decision to take responsibility and observe yourself, it is an awesome achievement.

724. Thanks for sharing your incredible story Ruth. It is bringing some much needed understanding to a condition that is known to baffle modern medicine.

725. Beautiful sharing Ruth, thank you. It seems perfectly ironic that the answer you found to a condition known as M.E. was returning to yourself. From M.E. to Me maybe?

726. This is amazing Ruth, so many people suffer with chronic fatigue with little that conventional medicine has to offer in way of support. You have shared here the power and healing that is on offer when we commit to life and address the energy that underlies our illnesses and diseases and every choice that we make.

727. This is an amazing blog, thank you Ruth for writing it, I have goose pimples all over me. It just goes to show the living power and pure testament of living, love. This is huge, and should be in medical journals across the world. You have inspired me. A very very humbling read.

728. Who said miracles don’t exist! You are a walking example they do Ruth. We all have the power within us to create miracles, they are always just a choice away.

729. I too was diagnosed with Chronic Fatigue syndrome in 1995 and can very much relate to what Ruth shares here. I withdrew from life and gave up and ended up in a wheelchair for over four years. I began to make changes to my recovery before I came across Universal Medicine, but it is when I was first introduced to Serge Benhayon in 2005 that my health considerably improved, making it possible to have my first child in 2006. I later went on to have two more children. There are so many stories, miracles by those including myself that have turned their lives around since meeting Serge Benhayon. It is such a blessing to have come across him in my life.

730. I didn’t know much about chronic fatigue and I didn’t realise how much pain you can be in with this condition. What you’ve shared is incredible to read and supports me to understand that illness and disease is simply our body’s way of telling us something is imbalance. The way we are living and our choices are affecting our health massively, by understanding what is going on in our body is key, listen and honouring it and making loving choices to care for it can bring about miracles like you’ve shared Ruth. It is so simple and amazing to appreciate how powerful our choices are.

731. Ruth I have seen many people over the years in clinical practice who have suffered with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and what you’ve shared here is profound. There is such a stigma around the condition that it is for life, or at the very least something that takes a decade or more to recover from. Your example, and the simplicity of approach you took, is something all healthcare practitioners need to understand.

732. Your story of how you changed life with chronic fatigue to now where you are living life to the full offers so much inspiration for the many people who have chronic fatigue and similar-like ailments. A very awesome sharing!

733. What an incredible U-turn on life. Very inspiring, and shows just how much there is a relationship between our behaviour patterns and illness.

734. Thank you Ruth, what am amazing story you have shared with us, one that is worthy of being shared not only here but also in health magazines for all to have access to. You offer a huge amount of inspiration and support, through the realisation you came to that you had a choice in your illness and that your choices were your responsibility, and so you have the choice to change it. Not an easy one to admit for anyone, but you so gracefully did. You are a shining example of what is possible when we take responsibility for our health and well-being, apply the teachings of self-love to our lives, as presented by Serge Benhayon, and how when we connect to our bodies we are more aware if the choices we are making actually support us to build a quality of love through which we can truly heal from the inside out. Your strength, vitality, radiance and zest for life now is such a blessing and a joy to feel.

735. This is an amazing story Ruth – needs to be shared with the world. It is so clear now the devastating toll that reacting to circumstances has on our physical body. We have all been, at some point or another in our life, exhausted with reacting to circumstances and trauma. We react and we are then an open book to let in all those forces that do not belong to our sweet and powerful essence! Serge Behayon’s saying ‘Observe and don’t absorb’ is one of the wisest pieces of advices on earth.

736. This is so inspiring to read Ruth and would be amazing for others with this condition to read also. You really demonstrate how choosing to accept self-responsibility for past reactions and by beginning the process of deeply nurturing, caring and self-loving yourself is key in supporting this amazing transformation.

737. Thank you for sharing your amazing recovery from Chronic Fatigue so openly and honestly; no magic potions or expensive techniques, just the simplicity of the teachings of the Ageless Wisdom as presented by Serge Benhayon. You are a walking miracle and even more so because you didn’t become identified with your disease and disability label for the rest of your life.

738. Having seen you a few years ago Ruth and how you gently worked with your body, doing various jobs before you went to London, I agree with what Vanessa said, it is an incredible turnaround and yes you are a walking miracle and an inspiration for others.

739. Choices can be made in a moment and the level of investment we have in those choices dictates how they play out in our lives – everything is available to us. Choose ‘Love’. Thank you Ruth for this honest and healing blog.

740. What an amazing descriptive story that will help many. I agree to follow your impulse to follow your heart / body and give to it what it requires understanding that to heal is to change the energy – be responsible in loving yourself. I recently followed through with a choice that is out of my normal behavior or that requires a sturdy commitment to act. What came from it was a whole lot more.. I have a lot more energy and purpose. This choice was about being with people and what I need to honour in myself for that joy then to be lived from what I felt. Miracles happen when we choose it!

741. There is no miracle greater than a person returning to the love that they are. Ruth Ketnor is the epitome of this love as she has cared for and nurtured her way back out in to the world again, all due to her own and full commitment to life.

742. This certainly is a miracle and is such a beautiful reminder for us all that we have the power to change the quality of our life. Whether it is something as devastating as chronic fatigue or small like a cut on the finger, our choices are what determines what comes our way.

743. A walking miracle indeed Ruth! Absolutely inspirational.

744. What an incredible turn around! That really is a miracle.

745. Ruth, I can relate to your story. I experienced chronic fatigue 12 years ago and it was a frightening and confusing time. But it was also a blessing because it stopped me in my tracks and I had no choice but to stop and reconsider everything in my life. I became ‘functional’ again and was grateful for this, but a year after, I came across Universal Medicine. In the 9 years I’ve been attending courses, listening to presentations and applying and making changes in my life, I’ve gone from being functional to having more vitality than I had before the chronic fatigue, and I’d go as far to say as ever in my adult life (without any outside stimulation from coffee, sugar, etc). That’s also a miracle!

746. Hello Ruth and this is quite the story. You have documented it well and surely this is a road map for all those that may suffer different levels of chronic fatigue. This, “It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it.” shows the way back for everyone and particular those with this condition. There are so many parts to this but at the first point well done, your courage to lead yourself back to life is inspiring and the way you have done it is now for us all to see, thank you Ruth.

747. Ruth – this is pure gold you share, a precious living example of a miracle in healing and returning to fullness in living life with commitment and joy. There will be many people who can relate to your experience in losing connection with their life force in varying degrees. Understanding there is a way back is invaluable.

748. ‘ It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it.’ Awesome.

749. What struck me reading this incredibly inspiring story was the immense power in committing and the consistency of doing these little things every day. We tend to think committing to something like exercise has to be a big deal, yet as ruth has shown, it can be as little as 5 minutes. The key is in the commitment. A great lesson for us all.

750. I have never had chronic fatigue described in such detail before, so I really appreciated being given a personal understanding. I knew there was severe exhaustion involved but I was surprised that there were so many other symptoms. It almost sounded like your body was screaming out so you would stop hurting yourself through holding yourself back and not engaging in life.

751. Wow this is very inspiring Ruth. Thank you for sharing your story, which has expanded my understanding and appreciation of the dynamics behind chronic fatigue. I have known people living with that condition and have witnessed how depressed and desperate they were without anyone being able to offer them much understanding or clarity on the subject. This article would be a great support for anyone who suffers from that condition.

752. A true miracle Ruth, from you we learn that no situation, how ever it may seem at the time is hopeless. Your courage, honesty and willingness to look deeply at yourself a shining example for us all.

753. I did not realise the extent of suffering and pain many people live with (by choice, consciously or not) and just how imprisoning it can be, not only impacting on yourself but all those around who miss out on seeing and experiencing the real whole YOU in life. I have felt elements of withdrawal from life in my lifetime and realise the blessing it is to hear, feel and see the miraculous turn around someone like yourself has made Ruth. A truly powerful sharing, thank you.

754. Imagine a land with volcanic eruptions, loud noises and molten lava erupting from the ground. To me, this is in effect how it feels in our internal landscape when we experience a reaction. If there was a volcano that blew up in your house tomorrow you would notice it, but the fact is we have become so used to living in this state of reaction, we might not even notice that it was there. The difference comes when we bring understanding to ourselves and see reactions are not wrong or bad, but just come from us feeling things that are not Love. As we become more graceful and tender with ourselves and our body we can like you Ruth return to a steady solid, and harmonious life. Thank you for this amazing inspiration.

755. Deeply inspiring to read Ruth and it makes so much sense that Chronic Fatigue is caused by lack of commitment to life because if you do not use all the energy that is there for you to use, it stays in the body and becomes a burden. Which in time gets so heavy we get tired, I can really relate to this. Not to the extremes of Chronic Fatigue but in reacting to life and not doing what I actually would want to do and I get so tired from holding all of me back.

756. An inspirational story that lets us see that we have the power to change our way of living a hundred percent.

757. Wow, what a testament to the power of committing to yourself and to life, a real miracle. And having recently moved to London I completely relate to your enthusiasm for the city and all of the people, and to have come so far is just amazing.

758. Ruth, what you have lived here is truly amazing and so inspirational for so many of us. There is a sense of hopelessness and helplessness around chronic fatigue and you have shown that it is possible to turn this around and to live full life again.

759. This blog is so very deeply touching. Disconnection and withdrawal is rife and your miracle touches the parts that know they too have withdrawn. Truly inspiring Ruth, thank you.

760. A true story which is truly inspiring to read, thank you Ruth for sharing this openly for there are a lot of people dealing with the same problem, dis-ease from which you have turn around yourself, by committing and loving yourself and taking one step at the time. Great having you back in live and in service Ruth!

761. A wonderful testimonial. It goes to show that when we commit to ourselves, life and humanity miracles happen and Ruth, you are indeed a living miracle.

762. What an incredible journey you describe, Ruth, from chronic fatigue and running away from everything, to being a customer advisor in London and fully committed to life. This is a great success story and inspiration to others who are struggling to feel that commitment and responsibility of life.

763. Thank you for sharing this Ruth, it makes a lot of sense and having experienced withdrawal, overwhelm and a state of giving up on life I too have found that the cause of this has been and always is whenever I don’t follow my bodies very basic needs that it is constantly communicating via how I feel. To such an extent I was feeling depressed this morning and then as soon as I honoured my feelings of needing an extra layer as my body was cold my mood instantly started to improve. And the sense I get from this blog is that our bodies can work and be out in the world as a part of it and thrive but only if we support it all the way.

     1. Yes Leigh, it is profound how the body responds to tender loving care.

764. A true celebration Ruth. Yes that you have come out the other side of chronic fatigue, but mostly that we get to have the committed you return to humanity to inspire others. Totally awesome!!!!

765. Amazing Ruth, truly amazing to turn your health and your life around as you did…and now, wow.

766. The description of your fatigue does sound very ‘chronic’. And there are hundreds of thousands with similar symptoms. But there are also literally millions and millions who are living with an intense level of fatigue. It may not be called ‘chronic’, but that is just semantics and anything that requires a daily dose of drugs (caffeine) to overcome it, counts as pretty ‘chronic’ in my book. In fact, since our bodies are so absolutely designed to work and move with vitality and lightness, it is safe to say that almost the entire world has deep fatigue. This is huge. As is this blog. As is what Serge Benhayon is presenting. The level of energy that we are accepting as acceptable is covering up the most ginormous lie. Humanity is exhausted.

767. I feel very much inspired after reading your article, thank you for sharing

768. Ruth, you are living proof, true evidence-based medicine that getting to the root cause of an illness actually brings about true healing. There is such power in what you have shared because it is your lived experience.

769. All illness occurs as a result of living life as who we are not and therefore true medicine is living who we are in truth. One day we will return to a time where we don’t get sick and that will be a reflection of the fact that we are living the truth of who we all are.

770. Ruth what an incedible story. Chronic fatigue seems to take a hold of people and then not let go and yet you have demonstrated that you not only improved but that you actually got rid of your chronic fatigue completely and this you did not as a result of a complicated medication regime but through making different choices. Truely inspiring Ruth.

771. Yes, once Ruth knew the cause she had a choice and that allowed her to come out of chronic fatigue.

772. This is tears in the eyes material. What a complete turnaround and what a difference.

773. Such a great turn around Ruth. I could feel the joy you now have from the consistently loving choices you began to make and obviously still are, so inspiring. Serge Benhayon is responsible for inspiring so many people to come back to themselves and recommit to life and love.

774. What a fab story. Our bodies are made to work and to be in the world. But they do need loving support. The world is not set up to encourage this, so we have to make these choices ourselves. They are not difficult or complicated, but they do need to be actively chosen and committed to. If that is done, then magic can happen – as you have so dramatically and sensationally proven.

775. Ruth, what an inspiring story to read…one that the medical profession would benefit from reading & understanding. How we live our life & the choices we make is either our best medicine or worst poison!

776. You are indeed a walking miracle Ruth. What a turnaround. You are an inspiration for others who are suffering from this debilitating disease.

777. Indeed Ruth you are a walking miracle and a story that needs to be spread wide and far. So many people suffer from chronic fatigue yet think that there isn’t anything they can do about it. Committing to life is good medicine.

778. This is incredible Ruth, you really are a walking miracle. It’s super interesting what you shared about how committing to life increased your energy levels so hugely, and that by making more supportive choices for your body you were able to regain strength and vitality. This goes to show the power of consistency, and also how giving up when our lives become difficult confirms us in the issues and misery rather than supports us to move forward.

779. Wow Ruth you are a walking miracle how inspirational and bringing such understanding and reality to the very debilitating illness of chronic fatigue and how we can change this by our choices and commitment to living life being here and to caring for ourselves truly. The exhaustion you share is way beyond that so often felt yet you have managed to turn it all around and committing fully in life lovingly. What an amazing beautiful refection you are thank you for this enormous very real honest, heartfelt inspirational sharing and love.

780. WOW Ruth! From going to being ‘awarded Disability Living Allowance … for life!’ to where you are now is so amazing. It felt really humbling to read your experience. It shows that we can turn our life and illnesses completely around just be addressing the relationship with ourselves and life and choosing differently …. choosing life.

781. This is amazing Ruth. The commitment it takes to slowly come back from such a debilitating illness is huge. How beautiful it is to rediscover the beautiful, light you.

782. Ruth your story is inspirational! There is so little known about the underlying causes of Chronic Fatigue and your story needs to be posted far and wide…there must be thousands who would be interested in hearing how you healed this!

783. Ruth, your story is so deeply touching. You are indeed a walking miracle.

784. I can feel the joy of getting you back Ruth, and not having to live with the very debilitating illness of Chronic Fatigue.and the control it had over your life. “I was trapped in a cycle of being afraid of making myself worse, so I was afraid to do more than what I knew was safe. I got caught in this mindset for many years, “I’ll get more tired, I’ll get worse. I can’t, I’m too tired.”

785. Ruth what a powerful and inspiring blog! You wrote: “It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it.” You demonstrate the power of healing and now you are a living testimonial that everything is possible if we allow ourselves to take the full responsibility for our lives.

786. Amazing Ruth! I was diagnosed with Chronic Fatigue when I was 10 and struggled though my teenage years with it – I would constantly push myself and then end up being exhausted spending most weekends in bed. I sought all sorts of distractions to not feel what was going on. However the big turn around came when I met Serge Benhayon in 2003. I had seen pretty much every practitioner under the sun from multitudes of different modalities but none actually empowered me with the choice to change, Serge was the 1st person who gave me the opportunity to take responsibility for my life and that the way I live actually has a direct effect on the way I am feeling. He helped me see that I was not a victim. I do not see myself as an ex Chronic Fatigue person rather now just someone choosing to take responsibility for my life.

     1. That’s an awesome story, James. And I love what you say about not being a victim. I feel like there are many ailments where people feel this way, but as you rightly say it is about choosing responsibility for your life.

     2. Totally agree James, I too felt so empowered by Serge that by taking responsibility for my choices meant I was no longer a victim to my situation. I too do not see myself as an ex Chronic Fatigue person , it is not part of my choices now and so energetically not in my body.

787. ‘That light, bright and amazing thing coming my way was me! … I was coming back to me.’ – I can feel the joy in this line Ruth, the difference it makes to be present in our own lives and indeed being present in the world, is profound.

788. That is a life changing tale, of commitment, dedication and never throwing in the rag. It makes me really appreaciate the healthy body I have, as I am sure you do now! Truly amazing, thank you for sharing this with the world, there is much to appreciate.

789. Amazing turn around entirely by your own choices to be more loving and more committed to living life. This also provides a model of taking responsibility for where we find ourselves in life and not expecting this to be fixed by someone else despite the very real support which can be offered to us.

790. I loved reading this blog! Ruth you certainly are a walking miracle and a true inspiration.How many diseases would cease to exist if we could just break the untrue cycles many of us are stuck in.

791. My deepest appreciation to you Ruth, for taking the time to share your absolutely inspirational story with us. I know that there will be so many people locked in the seemingly never ending cycle of exhaustion who will finally know that, yes; there is a way out of this pattern of half living, just existing and into a life of vitality and joy. When I read this I smiled, as I could feel the joy rippling out of you for where you now find yourself as the result of those self loving choices; “I am a walking miracle … loving living life!!”

792. Beautiful Ruth – an everyday miracle, and the blog is a clear map for those suffering something similar of not just the causes of this dis-ease, but also the very gentle way to walk back out of it. Thanks for sharing this real inspiration.

793. How we burden ourselves by carrying so much weight in life – past experiences, trauma and hurts. And to hear real life experiences and the effects of carrying them can have on us. Bravo Ruth for taking life back, for choosing to commit to yourself, to serve others and to inspire all around you who have seen, felt and read about your transformation.

794. Amazing to read your story Ruth and how you took responsibility for your own healing and with support form Universal Medicine miracles happened. So inspirational As you say “I am a walking miracle … loving living life!!” Gorgeous. x

795. This is such an inspiring story, Ruth, and needs to be shared far and wide, a testament to the life-changing teachings of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine if ever there was one! I enjoyed feeling the appreciation you have for yourself, and the choices you have consistently made over the years to re-commit to yourself and to life. What a blessing to the world to have a vibrant, spunky Ruth in it!

796. Ruth, I am deeply inspired by this testimony to the true and deep healing from the crippling effects of Chronic Fatigue to true health you are living now – I am enjoying re- reading it over and over!
     I am in complete agreement with you about the reflection Serge Benhayon consistently brings in living love from the absoluteness of his living way on a daily basis. The fact is, many thousands of people have made changes to their lives and health through attending and being inspired to make changes from his presentations.

     1. Yes Stephanie, many thousands of people have made remarkable turnarounds in their lives from the teachings and inspiration of Serge Benhayon and his lived way.

797. ‘Chronic Fatigue keeps you stuck in a cycle that holds you back from who you truly are, separate from others and all you can bring to life.’ This understanding feels really important, not just for those who have the condition, but also those who support people with it in any way. I have experience of it in my family and currently am working with clients who are affected in a range of ways by the ongoing effects of this syndrome and other people’s lack of understanding of the impact. Thank you for increasing my awareness of what is behind it.

798. Wow! Ruth I love the very clear and concise explanation of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome that you write of from your own experience. Only a few years ago, I remember sitting next to you and meeting you for the first time at a presentation by Serge Benhayon in Frome and you were struggling with your health then. Over the past couple of years I have observed the sparkle coming back into your eyes and the joy and lightness in your walk as you have made choices to live a different way. Absolutely beautiful story Ruth. Thank you for sharing your experiences

799. Thank you Ruth Ketnor and this is quite a stunning journey out of what is still a very mysterious condition for many. I can really feel how that decision to give up and withdraw can and does have such a dire effect on our bodies, its like trying to die while still being alive, withdrawing our life force from a healthy body that isn’t ready to depart this world yet. You are proof beyond all doubt that the power of choosing Love in our lives is our greatest medicine and how totally amazing to feel the immense excitement of returning in full to the bright and glorious person you so naturally are, loving life to the hilt in the middle of London! You are a living miracle and the best walking advert for the common sense, plain speaking, no nonsense teachings of Serge Benhayon, a man who walks, lives and breathes his talk and empowers others to do the same.

     1. Rowena, this is true, very little is understood about this condition and although I had searched in many directions for an answer it wasn’t until I met Serge Benhayon and heard his presentations that I knew immediately that here was the Truth and the answer I had been looking for for so long.

800. You are most definitely ‘a walking miracle’, Ruth, which I can confirm. Having witnessed the changes you have made you an inspiration that truly healing is achievable through ‘will, commitment and responsibility’ as you have demonstrated.

801. Thank you for sharing your journey back to true health and vitality which brings understanding to an increasingly common condition and how it is possible to heal from it, however extreme, once the acceptance is there that it is about re-committing to life and learning to treat yourself lovingly.It is inspirational to read how you supported yourself to re-connect with yourself and life and thus leave behind the debilitating ‘crash and burn’ cycle that so many appear trapped in.

802. What a joy to read your blog Ruth Ketnor. An inspiring story of your journey from debilitating illness requiring spending much of your day in bed to living life in full and enjoying living and working in London! The commitment and dedication to healing yourself by bringing loving choices to yourself on a daily basis have turned your health and wellbeing around.A powerful living testimony to self-salvation through listening to your body.
     “It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it”.

803. Ruth, it is absolutely amazing to read your article – what a huge transformation you have made in your life, you are indeed a living miracle and a role model to people for what is possible if we take care of ourselves and commit to ourselves and to life.

804. This is a great example of what happens when we react to life and withdraw from situations we feel unable to deal with, but what you have presented here Ruth is a recipe to come out of the giving up mode and to gain back the vitality which is naturally ours, and to actually get on with life.

805. From withdrawal of life to embracing London and loving it, that’s an enormous shift. What a testament to your steady commitment to turn your life around.

806. Ruth – wow! Wow! WOW! A truly inspiring story. You are a walking, breathing, living and loving miracle. This is what true love and taking responsibility is all about. The healing you are offering others through your inspiration is huge. Thank you for your total awesomeness.

807. “It was my choices in reaction to life’s happenings that led me to have Chronic Fatigue and it was my loving choices that healed me from it.” Beautiful Ruth. When we take responsibility in understanding the underlying cause of an illness we have our own prescription to deal with it.

     1. Yes Mary, taking responsibility for our choices in life is a powerful healing prescription indeed.

808. One of the many stories of Universal Medicine students, that just blow me away. Thank you, Ruth, for sharing the miracle that you are with the world. And thanks to Serge Benhayon.

809. What an incredible journey back to the real you. You were not content just coming out of your cave; you went to the top of the mountain to shine your light that you had chosen to hide for so many years.

810. This is an amazing story Ruth. This shows the power of truly caring for yourself and addressing the underlying energetic causes of our ills in life.

811. I really love and feel very inspired by the way you shared your transformation in such details – even though we may have never had any name to what we go through and how we feel, I feel sure there’s much many of us can resonate in what you described here. For me personally, It offers a way to understand myself differently, from another perspective, and that feels very supportive for me to deepen my relationship with myself.

812. My goodness reading the symptoms you had Chronic Fatigue sounds more Acute than Chronic even if it is ongoing it is a very strong message. I too used to have very low energy levels before I met Serge Benhayon. I too have found truly committing to life, love and service provides quite miraculous levels of vitality. Yesterday I had a very joyful day working from early morning to evening. What is fascinating is how working in presence and purpose is actually energising and sleeping too much can be exhausting – things are not at all as we have been told!

813. Thankyou Ruth for sharing your story, what an amazing recovery you have made. I can really understand your story because I have had a similar health history, and reacting to life because it just feels too much to deal with is something I am currently working on. I found this line very true “Chronic Fatigue keeps you stuck in a cycle that holds you back from who you truly are, separate from others and all you can bring to life.” Really supportive to read the steps you have taken to heal this condition from your body – thankyou.

814. How important it is for us to be fully committed to life. So many of us are not really committed, we are just existing, with no true quality to our lives. When we totally commit, life can be so amazingly wonderful. It is up to us and our choices.

815. What an amazing story you have shared here Ruth, I love it. What a huge breakthrough you have made in successfully dealing with your chronic fatigue condition. You have shown that this condition can be overcome, it all comes down to how we are living in our lives. So now, it does not have to be this way that you suffered for so long, it is open to anyone who is willing to change how they are living to also extract themselves from this huge disturbance to their life. It shows just how important it is for us to choose to live our lives to the full, when we do this, then our body has the energy available to support us to do what we are meant to be doing, truly living life, connected to ourselves in all that we do. It is up to us and the choices we make. It is wonderful that you were willing to take the journey required.

816. It takes so much more energy to be who we are not for we have to constantly avoid our natural expression of love and express in emotions and reaction, it is deeply exhausting to live this way as well as deeply grievous, for we have to keep building something false to tell ourselves that it is worth it to keep pushing and driving ourselves, when our bodies know this is a lie, we have chosen for our bodies to withdraw and to eventually shut down. This is a phenomenon that we have accepted as normal, even children have chosen to live this way. As a society, do we see how devastating this is? Do we see how given up we are? We are living every day in a slow suicide and we call this life, no, this is not life at all but anti-life.
     Therefore, every person who has chosen to turn this around despite the strong force of withdrawal and giving up that the whole atmosphere of the world is in now, is saying yes again to love. These people are not special, they are not weird or overly joyful, overly expressive or overly warm, they are just being themselves, as that is the most amazing feeling inside and out that cannot be held back, and everyone can have the same if we choose to start caring for ourselves.
     Every parent who chooses to commit to life and caring for themselves is giving their children a chance to do the same; every teacher impacts their students; every person impacts every relationship they are in. No, it does not mean the whole world will change instantly, as a world that has worked hard to make lovelessness a normal will not know love in one day, so there needs to be a lot of patience, but this is the most worthwhile choice I have ever made.

817. Ruth, its really interesting that you were able to observe a patten that was playing out that you felt kept you in fatigue, I would love to read more the pattern and how you pulled yourself out of it to where you are today. It seems that chronic fatigue is a very individual condition in terms of how severe the symptoms are, but from what you share also one that has many common threads. I am sure your story could be very supportive to read for someone with the condition.

     1. Hello Stephen, it took a while to become aware of my withdrawal and understand it. I found dealing with my everyday fears of being in the world and with people and with what hurt that arose, old and current, I became more and more aware of when I would start to withdraw more or had withdrawn and with this awareness I could then make the choice to come out if the withdrawal again. It see – sawed for a while but gradually the steps out became more regular and consistent.

818. Ruth it is with great joy I read your blog – I have only known you a few years but have seen you develop in confidence and your story is truly inspiring. I have several friends who have been diagnosed with Chronic Fatigue and, like you, experience not much help in understanding the cause or how to treat it. It sounds like the presentations of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine have inspired you to completely turn your life around, which is inspiring for all of us.

819. It is true that what we have chosen to walk away from, we can always choose to walk back into. Life in our physical reality is always a choice to walk back to a deeper love.

820. So inspiring Ruth, what a remarkable transformation and testament to the self loving choices you made, one step at a time. Serge Benhayon has been presenting and offering tools for many years now and through the application and living way of these self-responsible principles so many ‘miracles’ are happening, just like you share.

     1. Yes Victoria, self responsibility is key with this, as Serge presents. It can seem a little daunting at first but the empowerment and changes it brings speak for themselves as many many people who have made these choices from the inspiration of Serge Benhayon can attest.

821. What you have shared is amazing – the fatigue we all live with to some extent in our day to day, that we learn to live and function with, totally overlooking the true vitality there is to experience.

822. You are indeed a walking miracle Ruth, and have deepened my understanding of Chronic Fatigue. I know I can feel depleted when I hide away in an attempt to avoid a situation or lick my wounds rather than dealing with it.

823. This is beyond inspirational Ruth, you really have highlighted the power of the choices we make.

824. You’re a living inspiration Ruth. I love how you’re sharing your own choices to steadily grow out of your (chronic) fatigue. Your choices, your way, based on the delicate way of feeling what was needed and (!!) possible. You’re a living example of the power we all hold inside. That your story, sharing may inspire many, many people around the world! We’re worth of delicate care and life will bring us everything we need in this process. How amazing to build up trust this way.

825. Thank you Ruth, a great blog. I suffered from a similar situation but not for so long. My body had no energy, I lost weight and found it hard to eat or do any physical activity for long. My days consisted of laying on a couch most of the time with intermittent activity that exhausted me! Anxiety and sleeplessness were also an issue. I had treatments with Universal Medicine Practitioners and slowly I was able to come out of this depression and start to function again. I found that the way I live my life in love and gentleness and listening to my body was the answer. Taking responsibility for my thoughts and self care were important too.

826. You are indeed Ruth ‘a walking miracle’, your life changes and choices are truly inspirational and testament to the body and its ability to reflect what does not support us, being able to heal and return full cycle to living a loving, vital life.

827. Wow Ruth, I can hardly believe where you have come from knowing the way you are now. The way you describe how you were living does not seem to relate or compute to the woman that I know today. What a fantastic article to be available on the www to show that there is a way back from chronic fatigue.

828. Wow Ruth you are certainly a walking miracle. It is absolutely incredible to read about your recovery, your choice to walk out of chronic fatigue and into your own light, living in your power. Your blog will support thousands and thousands of people who may be suffering from the same condition to understand how we can change our life around by listening to our body, making gentle loving choices and taking responsibility. It is amazing, from being offered a Disability Living Allowance for life to now living in London working full time is unheard of, hugely inspiring and massively supportive for everyone who reads your blog. Thank you Ruth for sharing your experience. Absolutely AMAZING!

829. What a glorious homecoming Ruth! I had a similar reaction to the world that caused me to withdraw from it to such a great degree I had no strength to live in it. Quite a good set up now I look back… It actually takes a huge commitment to be that uncommitted to life and so it makes sense that in order to heal it, we simply put the same commitment into being committed to life. This can only be done when we are willing to look at our hurts and understand that holding onto them is a poison that seeks to destroy the vessel that is our human form so that we cannot live our true selves in it. Once we get a taste of who we truly are, there is no shadow that can mask the greatness of this light. It begins with simple gestures of care for the self and the body in which it resides, which over time blossoms to true love and complete devotion not only to self but also to all others. You are a great example of this Ruth, thank you.

830. Your story is very inspiring Ruth and as you say you are living proof that by making simple but loving day to day choices rather than giving up on yourself, we really can make a difference to our own health, and not a magic pill in sight.

     1. Yes Sandra, simple loving day to day choices this builds consistency and a foundation that stopped me going back to the patterns I had lived for so long.

831. Absolutely Beautiful Ruth and so much wisdom and understanding of the choices you made and their outcome – this feels so clear to read and I can see the cycles that can be put in place further separation or re-connection.

832. I think what is also important here, in addition to the many miraculous aspects of Ruth’s mastery of her condition, is the sharing of the details of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. This disease is regularly played down by those who dismiss it as some sort of psychosomatic illness ‘all in the mind’ of its sufferers. The physical aspects Ruth details are significant, and her willingness to work with her body and what was presented is inspiring.

     1. Yes Victoria, many see it as a psychosomatic illness. ‘ yuppy flu ‘ it used to be called early on before it was recognised as an actual illness. There are set physical symptoms that are looked for in diagnosis by the medical world, I had blood tests done to eliminate the possibility of other conditions as well. My body was very clear at telling me what was going on, I just had to learn to understand what it was telling me, which is where Serge Benhayon came in, through Serge’s presentations and teachings I got my understanding and this I could work with. My body was always hurting and getting ill, I wanted anybody else’s body except mine but when I understood what my body was showing me everything changed and I got to appreciate all my body was showing me.

833. What a gorgeous blog Ruth, and a testament to you and to the work of Serge Benhayon which bring it all back to the simplicity of the choices we have made for our health to be where it is today.

834. Wow Ruth what an amazing comeback! Well done! This is a great testimony to the power we have within to make the changes we need to live life in full. It is also a great testimony to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.

     1. I agree Kathleen, as great testimony to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, for without the wisdom presented by Serge and the support of Universal Medicine I would not like to consider how my life would be today.

835. You are the embodiment of why we don’t want a quick fix. Even through it took you 3 years + to come out of your condition, it was a route worth taking. This blog highlights to me that constant dedication and commitment exceeds any craving for a quick fix to meet the ideals and tension of how we think life should be.

836. Wow, what a fabulous case study in reversing what is regularly considered a ‘mystery’ condition! Though no mystery here, is there? Ruth has explained exactly what and how went on for her and how she turned her previously dire situation and condition around. Thank you for sharing this remarkable story with the world.

837. Ruth this is an extraordinary turnaround – very honest and also miraculous! To be able to come out from such a condition would have been a mammoth task in some way and yet you lovingly step by step actually did it, with the priceless help of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. Commitment to life is an absolute necessity for life and there are many of us, including myself, who withdrew because the whole thing seemed so against everything we felt was right. Realising that we each have an important part to play and that each person is a vital part of the whole is a key awareness to act on if we are to live healthy, productive and loving lives in our human family.

838. What a powerful example you are Ruth of being willing to go deeper and understand that life is indeed, medicine! Brilliant blog and what a service to humanity it is to share your experience. Thank you.

     1. Thank you Bernadette, yes to gain this understanding from Serge Benhayon that the way you live is medicine, how we care for ourselves, our reactions to life, was a revelation to me, I felt completely liberated that it was in my hands.

839. Ruth you are amazing. Simply amazing. And you have made such loving choices that have returned you to you and life. And the world is much better with you in it, being an active member. Welcome back!

840. Amazing turn around of your life Ruth! Many years ago I too had what might have been chronic fatigue – despite many medical tests no one could work out anything wrong, yet I had gone from fit and healthy (jogging 5kms several times per week and doing hikes and walks) to suddenly being unable to walk up the stairs to our bedroom and in fact found myself crawling gradually up to get to bed. I felt so miserable and isolated and unwell with glands swollen and unable to eat yet bloated and putting on weight. This went on for almost 1 year, and then I decided enough was enough, and I decided I was going to start getting better. I started a dot painting and decided that with each dot I painted I would ‘force’ myself to get better – and I began to exercise gently and bring back my vitality. Then one day I remember thinking, ‘this is it, I am not sick anymore!’ and though my body was still weak, I knew it was over, and so I gradually built back my strength and overcame the chronic fatigue. Interestingly this is such a old and forgotten part of my past that I had not even thought of it until I read your article – so it has given me much insight into why and how I actually allowed myself to fall into such an awful situation. Thankfully I did manage to pull myself out of it and understand things so much more now.

841. A very inspiring read Ruth…whether we have chronic fatigue or not, we can all be inspired by the amazing changes you have created through your self loving choices and regained purpose in life.

842. This is a great example of how we can heal ourselves through taking responsibility for ourselves, for our bodies and for our reactions to life, and bring loving choices that support us in every thing we do.

843. A fabulous example of healing chronic fatigue Ruth which needs to be in magazines and spread wide and far.

     1. Thank you Paula. Yes, it is a grey area for the medical world, I was told by a Doctor, there are thousands of people world wide with this disease. From my experience there are two key points – Withdrawing and Driving the body, over riding exhaustion, and what is most important is to look at why, what’s beneath it and deal with that whilst taking each step back to commitment and life. If I had not met Serge Benhayon I would still be stuck in the cycle I was in , I have no doubt, thank God I did. I would like to add that it was also the unwavering love and truth of Simone Benhayon, my esoteric practitioner, who supported me with my journey, of which I am deeply grateful.

     2. Thank you Paula. Yes, it is a grey area for the medical world, I was told this by a Doctor. There are thousands of people world wide with this disease. From my experience there are two key points – Withdrawing and Driving the body, over riding exhaustion, and what is most important is to look at why, what’s beneath it and deal with that whilst taking each step back to commitment and life. If I had not met Serge Benhayon I would still be stuck in the cycle I was in, I have no doubt, thank God I did. I would like to add that it was also the unwavering love and truth of Simone Benhayon, my esoteric practitioner, who supported me throughout my journey, of which I am deeply grateful.

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