To Breathe my own Breath: Healing from Asthma

by Maree Savins, Australia

When I was very young, about 4 years old in fact, I regularly had trouble breathing. I was diagnosed with asthma and could not go anywhere without my medication.

The doctor said that if I hadn’t outgrown asthma by the time I was 21 years of age, then I would have it for life.

My siblings outgrew their asthma symptoms, so there was all hope that I would do the same. I waited for that magic year to come along, only to discover that the asthma persisted into my 30s and beyond.

I needed my medication morning and night and sometimes during the day, particularly if I exercised or laughed a lot, and usually this was enough to keep the attacks at bay and my lungs breathing clearly.

I really didn’t pay a great deal of attention to my health and wellbeing until I met Serge Benhayon. It was here that I came to truly appreciate the significance of the body and to listen and note its limitations rather than just pushing on through. I became more gentle with myself and in the way I was living, challenging the many false ‘beliefs’ imposed by society about how I should live and how I should be.

I made many small changes to how I was living in day-to-day life, making different choices to those I had made in the past, and over a period of time, I became aware just how big a difference these small changes had made. I began to enjoy my life.

I felt some foods no longer supported me and I chose to remove them from my diet. In addition, exercising changed to be less driven and more gentle, I began to speak up more and my relationships became more loving. This all stemmed from changing how I felt about myself, and as I learned to care for myself, my natural gentle ways became my true expression.

Despite all of these changes, however, my asthma symptoms persisted.

The start of true healing

After five years of living a more gentle and caring way, I noticed the first significant change to my asthma symptoms.

The medicine I took was a preventative medication – meaning that I would take it to keep the symptoms of asthma away. However, on one occasion, when I forgot to take my medicine, I realised that it was now ‘holding’ me, supporting my lungs, for a couple of days.

I continued to take my medicine every 2 days and at this time I didn’t even contemplate whether there would be further improvements. In many ways, I was still held by the belief that I would have asthma for life and I never entertained thoughts anymore that it would be otherwise.

Some time later I attended my GP for a new script and on this occasion I asked for a lesser dose (half in fact), which was prescribed. I noticed that there was no change, the medicine kept the asthma at bay for the same period.

Another great step indeed.

Re-establishing my connection with God

Although amenable and committed to listening to the presentations of the Ageless Wisdom, as well as making lifestyle changes and being more loving with myself, I still wasn’t prepared to embrace God.   I would say to myself that “I will do it on my own, I’ve always looked after myself”.

I wasn’t always like this. When I was young I felt my connection with God was very strong, but growing up and feeling great disharmony around me, I convinced myself that I had been abandoned by God.

I was angry at life being the way it was, and instead of just observing the disharmony as something outside of me, I shut myself down to love and to God’s communications because I did not like what I was feeling in the world.

In Truth, God had never abandoned me; it was me that turned away, it was ME who abandoned and shut down myself to God. God was patiently waiting for ME to be open to love again.

I had spent a number of years mending my relationship with myself, with others and with humanity at large … re-connecting to the love of God was a natural next step and its development began with walking.

The power of walking in connection

Although I would go for a walk most afternoons, I recently came to realise that I was mostly caught in my head trying to figure out problems, and not resolving them at all. I wouldn’t have been able to tell you what I had observed on my walk, as I was so very focused on my issue-of-the-moment.

Earlier this year, however, I began walking at sunrise and sunset, and I decided to just focus on the world around me; to see life in the bigger picture that it presents.

I watched as flocks of Ibis made their way to the top of five gigantic pine trees to prepare for the evening, and then in the morning they left, all following a leader and swirling and changing their configurations.

I watched the moon faintly appear in the sky, tracking its position and shape each night, and the stars as they populated the darkening sky.

I saw the changing colours of sunset in all its different shades, and the clouds making funny shapes.

Sometimes on the walk I would feel pearls of wisdom, or have an insight to my life, and the kookaburras would start laughing. It felt like they were confirming whatever it was I had felt at the time.

I so enjoyed being in the stillness of nature at these times of the day; I felt very much amongst it all, so very alive and connected to the grand scheme of life.

Wow, I had really missed out on so much over the years, with my head busily trying to work problems out; so disconnected from myself and the world around.

Keeping myself invested in the antics of thought was the perfect checkout from life, and I could go to that place anywhere and at any time. My head, was the ultimate place I could hide.

On these walks I knew without doubt that I was connected to nature and to God and that I was well supported.  Whatever I needed to learn or understand about myself or life, whatever I needed to introduce or let go of, would be shown to me, and it would be felt clearly in the body.

I soon realised that it wasn’t just on these walks – these moments of reflection and connection were there throughout each moment of my day. Moments of true connection were reflected when – the ducks met me at the door of my workplace, the bunnies ran under my window, or when money flowed in just when I needed it. Other incidents may remind me that I have disconnected – as in, when I knock my knee on the desk, find myself fixated on a task on the computer, get booked by the Police for driving an unregistered vehicle or even to the extreme of a car accident on the way home from work.

God is continually communicating and supporting us, if only we are open and aware.

Nothing is a coincidence … everything is perfectly occurring just for us to remember who we really are, and sometimes to put a stop to living what we are not. That IS the ultimate Love.

Living more connected to my body and less in my head allowed for a miraculous shift in my anxiety levels, which were always notoriously high, and made way for a newfound steadiness.

Slowly it has become a little easier to allow myself to observe and feel the disharmony in my relationships or in situations around me. Although still perhaps uncomfortable, I am not necessarily running and hiding or pretending that I don’t feel what is really going on. These were ways I had learned to manage conflict and life, but they didn’t serve anyone well at all. What was needed was for me to openly talk about whatever it was that I was feeling at the time, even if I knew that another could resist it.

It began to make sense to me that living in such a contracted state, so distant from the true me, living like I had to fight to get through the day, impacted on my ability to breathe my own breath and, with the sadness and grief now gone from my body, my lungs were free to breathe without restriction.

On reflection I can say, that the more contracted from love that I was, the more contracted my airways became and the more difficulty I had in breathing. It was like my lungs were mimicking the way I was living.

It has now been months since I have had any asthma medication, despite exercising and living as normal.

On a few occasions I have felt the subtlety of its onset, and it was always at a time when I was upset or uptight about something; where I became consumed ‘in’ a problem rather than ‘observing’ it like an outsider, and in these times I was in my head and not connected to my body.

Finally, I can breathe my own breath, not having to rely on daily medication to keep the pathway to my lungs more open and steady … more open and steady, now just like me.


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668 thoughts on “To Breathe my own Breath: Healing from Asthma

  1. “I made many small changes to how I was living in day-to-day life,” Those small changes in the way we are living make enormous ripples in how we feel within ourselves and to everyone we meet.

  2. Being out in Nature at sunrise and sunset, those twilight times, is very special, thank you for the reminder. I have not been treating myself to this simple activity for a while.

  3. It is interesting how we blame God for leaving us whereas in actual fact it is us that turns our back on what we feel. Then we have this attitude that we are punishing God which is all illusion as God cannot be punished but waits ever so patiently for us to turn around and start walking back.

  4. How deeply beautiful to read, feel and understand how our breath reflects how we live, and how through connection with us and living from that connection we can come back to living our true breath. We are so held and loved and our connection allows us to know and live this.

  5. It’s these small changes that we make on a daily basis that really support us to evolve. One choice builds on another and the quality of our life is far richer and we have made no big declarations or New Years resolutions just a continual caring and nurturing of ourselves.

  6. The body is an incredible reflection of every single one of our choices: we cannot avoid the honesty and transparency of what it shows us.

  7. “Slowly it has become a little easier to allow myself to observe and feel the disharmony in my relationships or in situations around me.” The more observant we become the more we are able to see what is truly going on, and respond accordingly.

  8. I too used to love my little head cave, thinking that the daydreams were the safe place to go when life got too much. These days I feel a buzzing in my chest or a drained/exhausted feeling in my body when my focus is too much in my headspace and not in what my body feels.

  9. This is such a great reminder and an invitation to understand what it is to breathe our own breath. And it makes me realise a lot of things that we identify as us/ours – our thoughts, ideals etc. are not what they appear to be.

  10. When we are able to truly appreciate the significance of the body and listen to what it is communicating we deepen our awareness of how to truly hold, treat and be with ourselves that supports us to live in our true rhythm and in connection with our essence.

  11. “challenging the many false ‘beliefs’ imposed by society about how I should live and how I should be.”

    It is quite exposing when you do this because you can realise how many false beliefs we are up against. The odds are stacked against us to live the truth of who we are. It takes a lot of courage to do that. But it is possible.

  12. Many people recover from childhood asthma, so why does it persist with other people? Is there a way to compare the two populations so we can learn from the differences?

  13. It’s true that we can start making very small changes and gradually these build and after a while we realise how much we are living a very different life than that before. As we set new standards for ourselves we really don’t want to compromise and go back to what now feels so uncaring and unsupportive – this shows up in conditions that heal of their own accord as in your asthma. Thanks for sharing Maree Savins

  14. I’d never really thought about how I was breathing, or really paid attention to any part of my body: living from my head seemed like the easiest option. As I start to build a connection with my body, I’m seeing more and more the extent to which I’ve been so deeply disconnected from it, from what I can feel: have chosen not to see, not to feel, not to be aware of. This is an uncomfortable reflection, knowing that this has had an impact on others, and being semi-aware of what I was doing but not taking responsibility for it or being willing to see it in full. But at least with honesty, no matter how ugly, there is a place to start from, to re-commit from, in full transparency, with everything out on the table.

  15. Nothing is worse than being disconnected from Love and God – just the very thought makes it hard to breathe.

  16. I had always had a sense that there are no coincidences in life, that everything happens for a reason but it was during the presentations of Serge Benhayon that I finally accepted in full that what I had known was true. And how you have expanded on this has simply added to my inner-knowing “Nothing is a coincidence… everything is perfectly occurring just for us to remember who we really are, and sometimes to put a stop to living what we are not”. How wonderfully supportive is that?

  17. “I really didn’t pay a great deal of attention to my health and wellbeing until I met Serge Benhayon.” Serge Benhayon presents the truth of ‘breathe your own breath.’

      1. Yes, it may not just protect us from asthma but open up a whole new vista of awareness when we let go of all that interferes with our breath.

  18. When we take responsibility for creating our ill conditions and healing their underlying causes, we naturally pave the way towards living a more harmonious and fulfilled life.

  19. I have found the deeper I build my connection with myself and God, the more aware I have become of my own breath, and the fluid natural movement between my inhale and exhalation, the body has an amazing natural ability to work without our conscious input, however the more attuned we are in supporting it, the more it often astounds us with its results.

  20. Thank you for sharing this story, it’s inspiring to read that longterm health conditions can be healed, and medication is withdrawn. This is something that should be written about in all the medical journals.

  21. I have never not accepted God, I am left feeling how I may have been keeping Him at arm’s length all my life, and this is felt how what I call my ‘normal’ actually feels in my body.

  22. Maree, it is almost unheard of to heal from asthma if you have been told by the doctors you’d have it for life. What you’ve shared is inspiring and shows us how much we can heal when we allow our body and the messages from God to guide us.

  23. If we can keep making steps towards deepening our relationships, looking after ourselves more and living a greater quality then we will always be evolving but without the need for perfection/”getting it” straight a way.

    1. Very true Elaine. Living with anxiety has been a big one for me allowing it to manifest in my body in many areas of my life but I am learning to overcome it proving to me that it is not who I am but something I have created and introduced into my body!

  24. I too have found that since I have attended Universal Medicine and started to live The Way of The Livingness all sorts of conditions and issues I used to have, have just disappeared, my body has regained its natural healthy weight and shape from having been overweight and bloated and I am much fitter and healthier. Best medicine ever!

  25. I am also now appreciating the significance of the body and how it communicates very clearly when something we have accepted is not truly in harmony with our natural rhythm. The more lovingly tender we are with our body the more it truly supports us to let go of the outer hardness we have built up in pushing our body out of sync with our natural flow.

    1. This is very true, I have heard people being instructed to take ownership of their illness, but in truth one only needs to take responsibility.

  26. “I shut myself down to love and to God’s communications because I did not like what I was feeling in the world.” I remember the choice to do this myself, it was a very serious decision I made and it has taken me a long time to come back to the fold. I still feel at times I hold God to ransom. The more I open up again though the more fulfilled I feel.

  27. What does breathing our own breath mean? What does moving in life without tension really mean? We cannot work it out with our heads but when we feel it in our bodies it is the most amazing feeling of being home and that is the only way ever we will want to make a true choice to be breathing our own breath.

  28. ‘…everything is perfectly occurring just for us to remember who we really are, and sometimes to put a stop to living what we are not.’ When we are open to the grace and opportunity to learn from the apparent mundaness of our daily lives we can be blessed with the magic of both healing and the growth of evolution.

  29. ‘Earlier this year, however, I began walking at sunrise and sunset, and I decided to just focus on the world around me; to see life in the bigger picture that it presents’ This is something I have also to remind myself to keep stepping back and look at the picture and not get caught up in the drive and the minutiae of the so called problems. I have been walking out to see the stars and that has been very nurturing and feel that walking at dawn and dusk would also be supportive of the transitional times we are facing.. Thank you for the inspiration and a lovely blog.

  30. ‘I began walking at sunrise and sunset, and I decided to just focus on the world around me; to see life in the bigger picture that it presents.’ Beautiful to read how you became more present when you walked and how making more loving choices can have a positive affect on our health.

  31. Amongst the Universal Medicine student body we see many miracles that defy what science had conceived as possible through healing the body.

    1. With hospitalisation and everyday problems, I always thought asthma would be a part of my life forever; something that wouldn’t heal, or couldn’t possibly heal. I accepted it as part of me. Along came Universal Medicine and that all changed. I no longer have a single wheeze even when I experience the most severe of chesty colds and coughs. This to me is a miracle.

  32. We like to get a quick fix to not have the discomfort but you show that it can take much longer period of time to truly heal and that it is totally worth the time.

  33. It’s amazing how making small changes in our everyday life can result in medical miracles. It is also great that the medical fraternity are now beginning to accept that lifestyle changes have their place alongside the conventional medicine approach.

  34. It is gorgeous how the developing awareness you chose once connecting deeper to yourself and all around you supported you to be open to the many offerings constellated for you to address what was there to clear, including your lungs… which is an amazing example of the healing that can take place when we begin to embrace the learnings on offer.

  35. To not ‘breathe our own breath’ is pure poison and invites into the body a disturbance that wreaks greater havoc than we give notice to until that disturbance becomes so magnified we cannot help but notice it.

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