To Breathe my own Breath: Healing from Asthma

by Maree Savins, Australia

When I was very young, about 4 years old in fact, I regularly had trouble breathing. I was diagnosed with asthma and could not go anywhere without my medication.

The doctor said that if I hadn’t outgrown asthma by the time I was 21 years of age, then I would have it for life.

My siblings outgrew their asthma symptoms, so there was all hope that I would do the same. I waited for that magic year to come along, only to discover that the asthma persisted into my 30s and beyond.

I needed my medication morning and night and sometimes during the day, particularly if I exercised or laughed a lot, and usually this was enough to keep the attacks at bay and my lungs breathing clearly.

I really didn’t pay a great deal of attention to my health and wellbeing until I met Serge Benhayon. It was here that I came to truly appreciate the significance of the body and to listen and note its limitations rather than just pushing on through. I became more gentle with myself and in the way I was living, challenging the many false ‘beliefs’ imposed by society about how I should live and how I should be.

I made many small changes to how I was living in day-to-day life, making different choices to those I had made in the past, and over a period of time, I became aware just how big a difference these small changes had made. I began to enjoy my life.

I felt some foods no longer supported me and I chose to remove them from my diet. In addition, exercising changed to be less driven and more gentle, I began to speak up more and my relationships became more loving. This all stemmed from changing how I felt about myself, and as I learned to care for myself, my natural gentle ways became my true expression.

Despite all of these changes, however, my asthma symptoms persisted.

The start of true healing

After five years of living a more gentle and caring way, I noticed the first significant change to my asthma symptoms.

The medicine I took was a preventative medication – meaning that I would take it to keep the symptoms of asthma away. However, on one occasion, when I forgot to take my medicine, I realised that it was now ‘holding’ me, supporting my lungs, for a couple of days.

I continued to take my medicine every 2 days and at this time I didn’t even contemplate whether there would be further improvements. In many ways, I was still held by the belief that I would have asthma for life and I never entertained thoughts anymore that it would be otherwise.

Some time later I attended my GP for a new script and on this occasion I asked for a lesser dose (half in fact), which was prescribed. I noticed that there was no change, the medicine kept the asthma at bay for the same period.

Another great step indeed.

Re-establishing my connection with God

Although amenable and committed to listening to the presentations of the Ageless Wisdom, as well as making lifestyle changes and being more loving with myself, I still wasn’t prepared to embrace God.   I would say to myself that “I will do it on my own, I’ve always looked after myself”.

I wasn’t always like this. When I was young I felt my connection with God was very strong, but growing up and feeling great disharmony around me, I convinced myself that I had been abandoned by God.

I was angry at life being the way it was, and instead of just observing the disharmony as something outside of me, I shut myself down to love and to God’s communications because I did not like what I was feeling in the world.

In Truth, God had never abandoned me; it was me that turned away, it was ME who abandoned and shut down myself to God. God was patiently waiting for ME to be open to love again.

I had spent a number of years mending my relationship with myself, with others and with humanity at large … re-connecting to the love of God was a natural next step and its development began with walking.

The power of walking in connection

Although I would go for a walk most afternoons, I recently came to realise that I was mostly caught in my head trying to figure out problems, and not resolving them at all. I wouldn’t have been able to tell you what I had observed on my walk, as I was so very focused on my issue-of-the-moment.

Earlier this year, however, I began walking at sunrise and sunset, and I decided to just focus on the world around me; to see life in the bigger picture that it presents.

I watched as flocks of Ibis made their way to the top of five gigantic pine trees to prepare for the evening, and then in the morning they left, all following a leader and swirling and changing their configurations.

I watched the moon faintly appear in the sky, tracking its position and shape each night, and the stars as they populated the darkening sky.

I saw the changing colours of sunset in all its different shades, and the clouds making funny shapes.

Sometimes on the walk I would feel pearls of wisdom, or have an insight to my life, and the kookaburras would start laughing. It felt like they were confirming whatever it was I had felt at the time.

I so enjoyed being in the stillness of nature at these times of the day; I felt very much amongst it all, so very alive and connected to the grand scheme of life.

Wow, I had really missed out on so much over the years, with my head busily trying to work problems out; so disconnected from myself and the world around.

Keeping myself invested in the antics of thought was the perfect checkout from life, and I could go to that place anywhere and at any time. My head, was the ultimate place I could hide.

On these walks I knew without doubt that I was connected to nature and to God and that I was well supported.  Whatever I needed to learn or understand about myself or life, whatever I needed to introduce or let go of, would be shown to me, and it would be felt clearly in the body.

I soon realised that it wasn’t just on these walks – these moments of reflection and connection were there throughout each moment of my day. Moments of true connection were reflected when – the ducks met me at the door of my workplace, the bunnies ran under my window, or when money flowed in just when I needed it. Other incidents may remind me that I have disconnected – as in, when I knock my knee on the desk, find myself fixated on a task on the computer, get booked by the Police for driving an unregistered vehicle or even to the extreme of a car accident on the way home from work.

God is continually communicating and supporting us, if only we are open and aware.

Nothing is a coincidence … everything is perfectly occurring just for us to remember who we really are, and sometimes to put a stop to living what we are not. That IS the ultimate Love.

Living more connected to my body and less in my head allowed for a miraculous shift in my anxiety levels, which were always notoriously high, and made way for a newfound steadiness.

Slowly it has become a little easier to allow myself to observe and feel the disharmony in my relationships or in situations around me. Although still perhaps uncomfortable, I am not necessarily running and hiding or pretending that I don’t feel what is really going on. These were ways I had learned to manage conflict and life, but they didn’t serve anyone well at all. What was needed was for me to openly talk about whatever it was that I was feeling at the time, even if I knew that another could resist it.

It began to make sense to me that living in such a contracted state, so distant from the true me, living like I had to fight to get through the day, impacted on my ability to breathe my own breath and, with the sadness and grief now gone from my body, my lungs were free to breathe without restriction.

On reflection I can say, that the more contracted from love that I was, the more contracted my airways became and the more difficulty I had in breathing. It was like my lungs were mimicking the way I was living.

It has now been months since I have had any asthma medication, despite exercising and living as normal.

On a few occasions I have felt the subtlety of its onset, and it was always at a time when I was upset or uptight about something; where I became consumed ‘in’ a problem rather than ‘observing’ it like an outsider, and in these times I was in my head and not connected to my body.

Finally, I can breathe my own breath, not having to rely on daily medication to keep the pathway to my lungs more open and steady … more open and steady, now just like me.

 

Read more:

  1. Your body and disease – what does it all mean?
  2. Gentle Breath Meditation in Daily Life  
  3. What is the gentle breath meditation? 

608 thoughts on “To Breathe my own Breath: Healing from Asthma

  1. I can relate to missing out on many things around me when I was focused on issues from my head. We have constant opportunities and true reflections around us offering us so much to ponder on in life when we open up our awareness and connect with our body through our breath.

  2. ‘I really didn’t pay a great deal of attention to my health and wellbeing until I met Serge Benhayon. It was here that I came to truly appreciate the significance of the body and to listen and note its limitations rather than just pushing on through.’ Maree this is so true for many of us who have come across Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, until then I did not relate the way I was living to illness and disease, however there are many of us that have successfully changed our way of living and reaped the benefits of those changes, something the rest of humanity needs to hear about.

  3. Learning to connect to my breath and consciously breathe my own breath was my way in to understanding contraction and giving my power away. It was the simplest of techniques known as the Gentle Breath Meditation, and it was indeed the door to my way back to God.

  4. There is so much wisdom resounding from this blog. Where to start? l so appreciate your contribution of love and insight shared here. Overall l feel the point you’re making is, that one has to action the changes they wish to see in their world. Paying lip service to making changes is simply perpetuating your own stagnation and delay. This revelation is a profound one for me. Thank you for this most powerful and inspirational blog.

  5. “Nothing is a coincidence” – when I first heard this I challenged it in every way I could. I now see and understand everyday that there is a greater meaning behind everything, it’s just a case if we’re willing to be aware of it and to read the situation. And it’s awesome. Life is alive and always communicating with us.

  6. A beautiful blog Maree, reminding me that when we walk, and take observation of all the majesty of nature, the movement of clouds, the touch of wind on our skin, the sound and movement of birds, noticing our in and out breath we take, we are observing and a part of, the most incredible orchestra of God and in this moment we can say and feel we are walking with God. This feeling of connection is something we have all the time and can re-member whenever or wherever we move.

  7. “In Truth, God had never abandoned me; it was me that turned away, it was ME who abandoned and shut down myself to God. God was patiently waiting for ME to be open to love again”.
    In truth God is always with us; as you so beautifully say Maree we choose not to notice or be aware, or we choose to be inspired, expanded and freed by the forever presence of God. The choice is always ours!

  8. This blog has been like a roadmap for me to understand how the aspects of my life impact on my lungs. I appreciate what you share here “On reflection I can say, that the more contracted from love that I was, the more contracted my airways became and the more difficulty I had in breathing. It was like my lungs were mimicking the way I was living.” A very powerful observation.

  9. Beautiful Maree and so inspiring especially for anyone who suffers from asthma. From what I have observed in those who do have asthma is their attachment to the belief that they will have asthma for the rest of their life and their reliance on medication for fear of dying. Medication is essential for anyone suffering from asthma but like any other choice we make in life, we are never a victim; illness and disease arise from our own making.

    1. I have observed this too Caroline. Reading your reply I read meditation instead of medication and it made me realise that perhaps meditation is essential as well as medication. Some meditations do not support our healing but are more like an escape or a relief or comfort. The Gentle Breath Meditation is different because it offers us a direct connection to our bodies (in a very unimposing way) and a bridge to the love that we are.

  10. I have really enjoyed re-reading this blog today –a well-timed reminder of the power of simply ‘breathing my own breath’ and being with my body and from this, the magic happens – my body instantly feels open and expansive as contraction is released – a great preparation for a harmonious day.
    Thank you Maree – your wise words are much appreciated.

  11. It is a wonderful confirmation reading your blog today as illness and disease is definitely on the increase and I have noticed this within my circle of family, friends, work colleagues and clients, most of whom are not ready to hear or accept that they have a part to play in their health and wellbeing. I must admit I get a tad frustrated with some of them when they put up the brick wall but it only takes me a few moments to stop myself going into judgement and remind myself that a little understanding goes a long way.

  12. Because breathing happens so automatically, it can become easy to not take notice of the in and out breath, .. unless we experience a bad cold, chest infection, asthma or lung diseases, and then we can’t help but notice it. It is very inspiring to read how through developing self care, how this has healed your asthma and you are very aware and claimed in breathing your own breath. The connection to your body through self care has certainly made a connection and awareness to your breath.

    1. This is a great point to consider Johanne. For even though we think of our breath or our heart beating as an automatic bodily movement, there still is a quality of energy that is determining the quality of its movements. As you say, it is all about the quality that we are connected to, the quality of energy we are aligning to and as such the vibration that is moving us, which is what defines the quality in which we breathe or our heart beats.

  13. I had a small example of this a few days ago, big ouch moment for me, ‘ I can say, that the more contracted from love that I was, the more contracted my airways became and the more difficulty I had in breathing. It was like my lungs were mimicking the way I was living.’

  14. ‘In Truth, God had never abandoned me; it was me that turned away, it was ME who abandoned and shut down myself to God. God was patiently waiting for ME to be open to love again.’ I can relate with this comment, I am choosing to re-connect to the love of God, and have found walking in nature to be a great support with this.

  15. Great blog Maree, thank you. As you have pointed out, irrespective of the illness, breathing your own breath and connecting to yourself and God is the key to true healing.

  16. “…Sometimes on the walk I would feel pearls of wisdom, or have an insight to my life, and the kookaburras would start laughing. It felt like they were confirming whatever it was I had felt at the time…..” The timing of those ‘A-ha’ moments with nature are no coincidence are they when we recognise that everything… that means absolutely everything, is energy, showing that everything is connected and communicated, emitted and received.

  17. “… After five years of living a more gentle and caring way, I noticed the first significant change to my asthma symptoms…” The association shows that the way we live and the relationship we have within ourselves has a huge impact on the die-ease state of the human body.

  18. When I live in my head I have noticed that I stop breathing! I hold my breath in while my mind’s focus is fullfilled. It’s like putting another before myself and even the act of breathing is put on the back burner! Feeling this today and reading this blog has reminded me that all the answers the mind tries to find are all around us, we only need to let our bodies be and breathe to pick up on these messages.

  19. A beautiful sharing showing how we live affects our body, the fact that you chose to connect with your body, nature and God had a big impact on your symptoms.

  20. By your living example you bring to life a very profound question: is illness and disease a result of living dis-connected from our bodies and thus from God?

  21. I have never had asthma, but I am aware of how my breathing is affected if I get stressed, angry, anxious and even if I eat the wrong food. It’s an indicator of how I am living and the great thing is, it’s something I can focus on and readjust so that it feels more like me than the emotion that caused it to change. It’s an inspiration that you have been able to heal this medical condition by examining and making changes to how you live.

  22. “I came to truly appreciate the significance of the body and to listen and note its limitations rather than just pushing on through.” Allowing ourselves to be honest and listening to what our body is communicating to us brings a greater awareness of the choices we are making and the huge impact they have on our body. The game changer for me was in learning to breathe my own breath so that in connection with my body I am deepening my awareness of how my body truly feels and how it naturally responds the more caring and nurturing I am.

  23. “I became more gentle with myself and in the way I was living, challenging the many false ‘beliefs’ imposed by society about how I should live and how I should be.” Through reconnecting back with myself, I have come to realise that it is at great detriment to our body when we hold onto false beliefs in how to live and be in society not realising that this configures our body to move in a way that leads us further away from our natural gentleness.

  24. What an awesome story, I always love what you write. The word that really came up for me as I was reading your post was ‘surrender’. When we surrender to ourselves and are open to seeing the signs before us, so much is revealed. Your story is miraculous and shows that it takes time and commitment to change old patterns.

  25. ‘My head, was the ultimate place I could hide’…. getting lost and distracted in our thoughts only serves to feed our unresolved patterns all the more. Great blog Maree.

  26. To breathe my own breath was one of the most profound and life changing tools that I was taught by Universal medicine – it is an incredible feeling to feel your own breath amongst the busyness of the world.

  27. You know what, I don’t breath my own breath 90% of the time, I hold my breath a lot, and in reading this I can feel there is a lot of grief and sadness in my body. It’s not to do with a recent passing of someone close to me – as some may think or even I did too – but it feels much older than that and grief and sadness at choosing to leave God. Not that I can ever truly leave him, but I can choose to separate from him. I’m gonna look at where, why and when I hold my breath and don’t breathe.

  28. I love the description of everything you would see on your walks – the Magic of God in nature, supporting us to return to who we are in our essence. Divine beings with our particles forever part of the universal rhythms and cycles.

  29. Learning to observe and not absorb allows us to breathe our own breath and has supported me to breathe more freely and embrace life rather than constantly holding myself against what felt like the onslaught of humanity’s problems.

  30. It is beautiful Maree how you have expressed your forever and developing connection with yourself and God, a great inspiration for us all, thank you.

  31. This should be at the frontpage of every newsletter of the hospitals and newspapers as a start and example to expand more and more one every specific disease and the connection with reason behind the illness.

  32. More open and steady, what a gorgeous and loving way to live Maree. A beautiful sharing inspiring us to live with openness and steadiness in every moment.

  33. Thank you Maree, for this sharing of just how incredibly valuable our relationship with our bodies are. Regardless of the dis-ease or disconnection we are experiencing, it is incredible to feel the magnitude in which we are supported to return to being in connection to who we are. Our bodies are always reflecting the truth of how we are living, and ever-present is the wisdom to know how to return to a state of harmony. We only need to allow ourselves to be guided by the communication that serves only to unify our body and being.

  34. Beautiful revelations Maree! Thank you for sharing your transition from breathing in the world and wanting to hide from what you were breathing in to being able to breathe your own breath which instead allows you to observe, appreciate and learn from the world around you

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