Our secret medical history

by Matthew Brown, Registered Nurse, Perth, Western Australia

Most of us have seen a GP or been to hospital at some stage, and have had our medical history taken. The usual questions cover a range of illnesses that include most parts of our body. Commonly asked questions are related to blood pressure, diabetes, cholesterol, heart and lungs, any previous surgery and what type of medication we are on, which may provide a clue to anything else we may have ‘forgotten’ to mention!

I call this the public medical history, the one that is carried around like a backpack, that informs all health professionals just what type of body they are dealing with. These are the problems that are often managed with medication, and the more you are on, and the higher the dose, the greater your problems are.

But there is another history we keep hidden. This secret history is the one we keep really personal and generally don’t share with anyone, or maybe only one other person. These secrets are the vital evidence and the foundation of our ill ways, ill health and poor decisions. They may at first seem irrelevant or even minor, but they are crucial to understanding the person as a whole, and hold the clues to the kinds of events, illnesses or injuries that happen to people.

Those things that we keep secret are the things that we find embarrassing or personal; that we would never share with another. They could range from anything from early childhood all the way through life. There is often a hurt of some kind that holds us back. It may prevent us from either admitting it is there, or we may find a way to completely ignore the feeling associated with it.

They could be things like how shy you are, or how little confidence you may have. It may be that you always feel a little anxious or uncomfortable in crowds; that you overeat or maybe feel sad at times, with feelings of loneliness, or even that you get angry quite quickly. It may be that you find it difficult to sleep at night or hard to get to sleep.

Whatever they are, we keep them secret or we consider them irrelevant. Could it be out of fear of what others may say or think about us? However we soldier on, as we try to put on a public face that all is well.

Living with these fears or anxieties disrupts the natural harmony in the body. Our heart rate is affected, and our blood pressure may increase. Not to forget our nervous system that is always ‘on’, which causes stress and tension in our muscles, our connective tissue and also on the endocrine system. So we can see how issues we consider minor, irrelevant or embarrassing affect the whole body. But this is not seen as a medical issue, because it hasn’t presented itself in the body as an illness yet, even though it is actually already there. It is a medical issue and it is the genesis of sickness. How this expresses itself in the body is characterised by the individual and their own life choices and make-up. It could end up being diabetes, heart disease or cancer, or any number of illnesses, addictions, or relationship problems.

This is what creates our public medical history, the one that is eventually expressed as illness. Why wait until it’s too late?

Most of us are functioning people, we have a job, work, go out, share meals and have friends, so this private history is kept simmering in the background with a range of coping mechanisms that get us through life. We all have our way of ‘getting through the day’ and our body does try to rebalance and compensate, but it can’t do this forever.

As an example, let’s say someone was living with anxiousness, just enough that it is brushed off as maybe being nervous or shy, but ‘normal’ for that person. This subtle wash of feeling that is always there, affects every decision that is made. Often other people know some of these ways, but just accept that it is just the way people are and so don’t question it.

Other examples are the everyday things we live with, like

  • not having a loving relationship with our wife, husband or partner
  • getting frustrated easily
  • getting angry at the cars that speed
  • secretly gambling or watching porn without our partner knowing
  • daydreaming about meeting another man/woman
  • not really feeling motivated to do anything
  • constantly having to keep busy
  • moving from relationship to relationship or not wanting to be in a relationship
  • getting bored with our job
  • not getting on with work colleagues.

These are all clues to something that is brewing in the background.

Where to from here? We avoid, hide or ignore the signs and symptoms and keep them secret.

As a result we binge drink, smoke, overeat, sleep around, fight, overwork or don’t work, exercise or play sport to name a few, all to not feel the effects of not addressing the secret history. 

The truth is, we compromise our body and our lives through the choices and decisions we make, which reverberate in a harmful way through our body.

We generally don’t share many of these secrets with our GP, or anyone for that matter, but they are essential in being able to understand us. Our lifestyle and the way we live each day are the precursors that affect our public medical issues and highlight the consequences of this private medical history we keep so secret.

This secret history will cause the lifestyle choices that we make, to hide or suppress these feelings and fears that mould our life. How do we hide and suppress these feelings? We numb ourselves with foods, drinks and all manner of behaviours, and sugar coat our life to show that everything is ‘good’, whilst every choice is tainted and loaded with the energy of hiding and suppressing this secret history.

This secret history contains the gold nuggets that have the potential to allow a person to truly live, and this is where we really need to start if we are to seek true healing. If we wait until it manifests into a physical issue, it is then so much harder to treat. But even before this, a willingness to look at this secret history of ours can offer us the opportunity to see and deal with our old hurts and open us up to the possibility of living a truly healthy and joyful life.

 

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858 thoughts on “Our secret medical history

  1. Because we haven’t been brought up having an understanding about energy and how what we think is energy and that if we think about something long enough, it can form into an illness or disease because we are literally telling the body, this is who we are and we walk around in that configured state which cements whatever it is we feel is true, in our bodies. So then we go and see a GP who is just as in the dark about emotions affecting our bodies as we are, hence all we address when asked the question is our physical health because that is what is staring us in the face. Little do we know, it is there to bring us a healing if we only were to explore our lives and what we have chosen to get a clear picture of why we have what we have. Perhaps the Client consent forms need to focus more on this type of questioning.

  2. We accept our coping mechanisms as our new normal and learn to live with them even when they feel wrong such is our reluctance to not want to deal with our underlying issues. But as you say – why wait until it is too late? In letting go of issues far sooner than we do we would experience a far different outcome.

  3. ‘Living with these fears or anxieties disrupts the natural harmony in the body.’ and that’s the thing everything matters, every little thing and that’s the beauty of what you share here, that unless we deal with our secret histories, we left dealing with the physical symptoms without having the understanding or addressing some of the contributory root causes … in other words we don’t heal, no matter how much we may be cured.

  4. The funny (not) thing is that we often walk around with our deep secrets on full show. At some level we are all aware of what is going on with each other and can feel when for example a very smiley person is actually angry or sad.

    1. The other funny (not) thing is that the biggest secret that we hide is actually how awesome we are and we even keep that from ourselves.

    2. When the energetic truth is felt and read by us all on some level then when we think that we’re hiding something from others, where in actual fact do we think we’re hiding it?

  5. For true healing to occur there has to be an openness to bring what we have kept secret, ever to ourselves, up into the light of day so that they can be let go of.

  6. I think oftentimes people can keep things about their health secret through shame or embarrassment from judging themselves or not wanting to be judged by another. But if we can let go of the judgement and any regret for our past choices then we clear the way for us to be able to simply learn from our body and deepen the level of care and awareness that we bring to our life on all levels.

  7. There is much to discover when you decide to get more honest about the secret stuff. You can learn so much about yourself and if you choose to, heal what drives this secret behaviour, lessening the load on the public life.

  8. We keep secret the only thing that can truly help us because it carries the key to unlock the configuration we are trapped into. Or, we share it but not in a way that help us because does not unlock it. We have to learn how to best use our best resource in the knowing that not all paths lead to Rome.

  9. It’s easy to think that the little things that happen to us in our life, and the fleeting thoughts and feelings don’t matter and are of no significance, but this couldn’t be further from the truth. It is the small details that can and do so often eventually lead to more significiant and unavoidable circumstances which then need more time to deal with and are more often than not health related, involving lengthy and sometimes complicated medical procedures. There is ultimately nothing that we can keep secret, as our bodies will eventually expose everything about us.

  10. We tend to strip things down to the super basics like medicine only being about the illnesses and diseases we have and the pills we take to deal with that. Yet we are a whole multidimensional person and there is so much more to us than the eye can see, we have thoughts, feelings, insecurities etc and all of this plays a part in our health. We simply can’t just heal a disease without considering this.

  11. I love this blog Matthew. Our secret histories don’t need to be shared in graphic detail with all but they do need to be acknowledged and talked about in our conversations with others and on platforms such as this. Let’s uncover our secret histories so they can be brought into the bigger picture of the medical histories of ourselves and others.

  12. Everyone has a unique history that is fed directly by the secret history you speak of Matthew. It’s funny how we can fool ourselves that what we hide away and don’t want others to see is secret but there are no secrets as our body feels and records every experience, thought or emotion we feel.

  13. “This secret history contains the gold nuggets that have the potential to allow a person to truly live, and this is where we really need to start if we are to seek true healing.” A brilliant piece of writing Matthew and is something that should be shared far and wide within any health related profession.

  14. Our secret medical history is very relevant to our own illness and disease, however the more secret we make it the less we are prepared to acknowledge or look at the choices that we are making, that actually lead to illness and disease.

  15. A powerful insight Matthew, why are we so dismissive of the small things? It is always the small seemingly insignificant markers, things that create the bigger problems later. We are conditioned to sweep feelings under the carpet and not address the harming emotions that often overpower us. Anxiety is a big one, and I am seeing it in more and more people, it is also something I have experienced myself, and can be as small to begin with as the body walking in tension or realising that I feel uptight. It becomes easier to spot the more we are willing to look, and then we can address things at the root, which is surely the most intelligent way to address any problem before it becomes the illness or disease.

  16. Great article Matthew. – Our personal histories are so important for our health and well being , yet medical personnel aren’t trained to go deeper into root causes. They just want current symptoms they can fix. “These secrets are the vital evidence and the foundation of our ill ways, ill health and poor decisions ” One day this will seem so obvious, and the tide is turning…..

  17. A great exposure for although we may keep this hidden or secret, not only do things have a tendency to surface and be exposed regardless and often loudly through the body to show us that choosing this way of being is not our true way, but we suffer in every movement when we are living less and are suppressing our own potential… an infliction we can all tend to embrace at great cost to ourselves and equally us all.

  18. Wow, that really is spot on. I mean it makes so much sense, anything that is kept “secret” already screams trouble. I think the shame might be one of the biggest reasons we feel we need to hide. Another reason could be a fear that people won’t view you the same way once they know your secret…the ironic thing is, they feel it anyway, even if they don’t know it on a conscious level, we are not stupid. In fact, we are very sensitive beings, thus the reason we lean on these behaviours, foods, drinks in order to “cope” with all we know. This is a cracker of a blog, it will not be forgotten and in my book, it will go down in history as a form of preventive medicine.

  19. A great exposure of what we sweep under the rug. We go to the doctor putting on the ‘I am doing OK’ face – and try to share all the positive ways in which we live, when in fact underneath is us not wanting to be honest about how we are living – our every movement that takes us away from true health and true healing.

  20. It makes sense that adopting coping mechanisms to soldier on through life is not addressing the underlying issues we have that we often dismiss as not important but actually causes the stress and tension that our body goes into and the illness or disease we experience later on.

  21. My life has changed in many ways since having this ‘awakening’ to the fact that there are other symptoms in my life which affect me. It is indeed our secret little history. But by talking about it and sharing how we feel we can begin to take the steps to help ourselves.

  22. You mean the unseen can affect us? Yeah, I guess loud music could damage our ears. Wait, anxiety over a 40-year period could manifest itself into something? I never thought of that.

    That could be all the conversation we need to have to consider this. For many what is not seen doesn’t exist. Clearly this isn’t the case.

  23. What you are describing so well here Matthew is like the foundations under the house, the bulk of the iceberg under the showing tip – it is this part of our health that is so important as it determines the rest and detail of what shows above. A brilliant blog and well worth coming back to!

  24. We have come to view medicine as a pill or a potion or an injection etc. Something to give us relief from an illness. One of the many beautiful things about Esoteric Medicine is that it redefines medicine to be or include life or how we live and it also introduces the very valid concept that everything is either good or bad medicine. Through this redefinition we can start to realise that we are in control of our lives and of our health, we are not the victims who have ill health thrust upon us but rather the architects of our own health whose choices lead us to either good health or ill health.

  25. If we are to truly heal, all cards need to be out on the table so to speak when addressing an illness with a GP/professional, being truly honest is the only way to start the healing process by getting to the root cause.

  26. I love to come back to this blog as I get to look at the ways we like to avoid what contributes to our state of health or energetic quality. Everything has an impact and therefore all of life becomes our medical history, are we not then our own walking talking medical notes.

  27. This is extraordinary to read about how all of those little details in the experiences of each day, how the internal dialogue and responses to the day that happen privately just between the world and our inner selves, could be the place where the greater and more debilitating manifestations of illness and disease are first created. This is monumental in its significance and more importantly, very very empowering.

  28. Being anxious and in stress should be seen as a medical issue… the long term strain this places on the body are there and can be felt in increased heart rate, tension and holding the body tightly. Over time the body will show its symptoms and distress.

  29. “These secrets are the vital evidence and the foundation of our ill ways, ill health and poor decisions”. As you say Matthew, some of these secrets may seem unimportant at first. But it is these events that we don’t deal with and suppress our reactions that store up in the body and change the way we respond to life.

  30. This is a loving call to take responsibility for our lives and all that has come before this moment. Rather than being a victim of circumstance we are totally able to be in our own driving seats and make our own choices.

  31. Along the way to becoming really unwell or becoming dis-eased there are usually signs alluding to the fact something is not quite right, some very subtle, others not so, some chronic and persistent….. but annoying rather than debilitating. Other signs can be emotional or psychological rather than physical, and yet we rarely stop to consider these signs. Often it is not until we are really unwell that we take any notice of our body and what is occurring. Taking the time to stop and check in with our bodies regularly before we become unwell would allow us to become familiar with how our bodies are feeling, enabling us to notice any changes or niggles, early on, alerting us to the fact that something is a bit off, thereby giving us the opportunity to take notice of what is needed to bring balance and harmony back to both our bodies and subsequently our lives before things get out of hand.

  32. I asked for this blog today. This is what I am understanding as the root of true healing. Because the illness hasn’t manifested in the body I never think to go to a doctor about it, but I know support is needed. The key is to find a practitioner who has experienced this and can support through it rather than brush the seemingly ‘normal’ behaviour off. The behaviour is simply masking a feeling we don’t want to feel and having the support to feel it and be OK with feeling it would be groundbreaking in terms of addressing addictions in our lives that hold us back and keep us from the connection to the stillness of our soul.

    1. There will come a time when we will consider illness to be present if we’re not constantly connected to our soul. I appreciate that currently this sounds very far fetched but it will be our reality as we are returning to a time when we will all be living in constant connection to our souls; it’s just that we’ve migrated so far from that point now that we see lumbering around with multiple illnesses as simply ‘something that we all do’. And we do.

  33. We need to truly re-connect with our body messages and whatever we feel to understand our inescapable involvement into our health

  34. Coming back to this article I love what you say here “But there is another history we keep hidden. This secret history is the one we keep really personal and generally don’t share with anyone, or maybe only one other person. These secrets are the vital evidence and the foundation of our ill ways, ill health and poor decisions. They may at first seem irrelevant or even minor, but they are crucial to understanding the person as a whole, and hold the clues to the kinds of events, illnesses or injuries that happen to people.” And we all know we each have a secret history – and even in medical, healthcare or dental consultations there is a knowing that this is there, but it is usually not probed. While it stays secret we are not taking responsibility for what is going on in our lives, or for truly getting to the bottom of our ills.

  35. Every choice we make impacts our body so it makes sense that our medical history weaves a clear story of whether those lifestyles choices are loving or not.

  36. We like to believe that we can get away with things but the fact of the matter is that our body goes everywhere with us and experiences everything that we do. When the body then shows us signs that all is not well, for example, the slight anxiety we might be experiencing then we really ought to listen to it.

    1. We should indeed listen to our bodies but the global size fact is that we do not and the question is why do we not? There is a huge arrogance to the human being who is living from the head as we have all been conditioned to do. Would we be so arrogant if we connected to our hearts and lived from there? No of course we would not. We should all try it, it would be better for us and better for everyone else too.

  37. Our secret medical history, if we have one, is the one holding everything that we don’t want people to know. We must then consider ourselves likely to be judged by others if we hold back this information. When we bring out the skeletons from our own closet it is incredibly healing, not just for us but for everyone. We discover that we are not alone in our “misdemeanors ” and when held (metaphorically speaking) by a Universal Medicine Practitioner there is no judgement. We are offered the space to explore what lies underneath our past choices and go to the deepest place of honesty or truth that we can in that moment.

  38. It’s great to come back to this blog to ponder on our secret medical history. It seems that we are great at treating ourselves once we get ill, but don’t ever consider treating our choices and actions that made us ill in the first place.

  39. Matthew, this feels really important; ‘a willingness to look at this secret history of ours can offer us the opportunity to see and deal with our old hurts and open us up to the possibility of living a truly healthy and joyful life.’ I have found that I feel more joyful and more vital because I have been aware of and worked on my own self worth and generally how I feel about myself, I am much more loving and understanding with myself now and this has felt very healing, I find I have a lot more energy at work as I am not constantly trying to prove myself and wanting acceptance, I feel more at ease and confident in my abilities and in myself.

  40. People can often state how many units of alcohol they drink per week to their GP but wouldn’t it be interesting if they were then asked why they felt to drink ? It would give a greater insight into what’s really going on..honesty goes a long way into understand ourselves more.

    1. Why then are we not training our doctors to go to the depth of healing that offers their clients an opportunity look at the behaviours rather than limited consumption?

      1. The responsibility isn’t just on doctors, it’s a huge issue because we live in a society that accepts alcohol. The responsibility is on all of us, any one of us could ask the question..

  41. What you have expressed here Matthew is a wonderful reminder for us all, and so very true;
    “The truth is, we compromise our body and our lives through the choices and decisions we make, which reverberate in a harmful way through our body”.

  42. Holding onto our secrets seem to be a strategy to avoid further shame and being exposed, but in reality it only keeps us stuck in the past, recreating more suffering, our medical history included.

  43. You have brilliantly exposed Matthew, the underbelly of all the circumstances and choices that are going on moment by moment in all our lives, which actually lead to the exact geographical map that becomes our public medical history. This should be a lecture for all medical courses!

    1. I agree Lyndy, this blog needs to be a lecture in medical and nursing schools, in fact in any area that people are dealing with Health.

      1. Make that every single profession – as the impact is felt from everyone and expressed by so few. Thank you for taking this blog to the world.

  44. Fascinating Matthew, and from one who knows. But in truth we all know, for we are all masters of our secret medical histories well before they become public. We just don’t read (or want to read) what we see unfolding in us.

  45. As a natural medicine health professional, I have discovered that there is an art to gathering a person’s medical history…There are of course many direct questions that need to be asked and the answers annotated, but this is just the beginning, for from here we get to feel where a persons true healing lies – there are times when a person shares what is going on for them on a feeling level that can open up true healing for them, and this part of the conversation is no lesser in importance to the factual evidence and the numbers. When we feel safe to express and share those things that lie deep within, then we are also given an opportunity to let go and re-imprint, in other words learn to do things in a different way, a way that is honouring of our delicate nature.

  46. So much in effect gets said in our silence, in other words so much gets said in the way we talk about something rather than the words themselves that we might use. Our body has a language of its own that if heeded and seen and listened to reveals so much more than words alone.

  47. Many valued and important points you raise here Matthew. I know from my own experience talking to someone and being honest about what is going on is the first step to healing, in fact the art of sharing can really give you insight and clarity into what is the emotional cause in the first place.

  48. Thank you Matthew this is perfect for me to read today as I have an appointment with my GP later (a rare event for me) and am inspired to be more open with what I share.

  49. It is true in those unmentioned feelings we have running through our body which we carve a life around in order to cope with them and life, and potentially try our hardest not to trigger the unwanted response in the body, is the hidden gold within us. Because once these are addressed it changes our whole perspective on life, and then we go on to see other things in our life that we have been managing and not dealing with.

    1. Yes, it is a cascade effect and I wonder if there is a part of each of us that knows the end game and so we create roadblocks along the way to divert us away from that connection, it’s crazy isn’t it?! How many roadblocks do we create to stop us being all of ourselves?!

    2. So true Julie, those ‘unmentioned feelings’ act like tinted glasses that we’re constantly peering through, everything is tainted by them. Address the things that sit festering away in our bodies and gradually the amount of tint lessens and our view of life changes until eventually we’re not wearing glasses at all and it’s at that point that what we all see will be the same. The fact that we all see life differently is evidence of the fact that we’re all wearing tinted glasses.

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