Our secret medical history

by Matthew Brown, Registered Nurse, Perth, Western Australia

Most of us have seen a GP or been to hospital at some stage, and have had our medical history taken. The usual questions cover a range of illnesses that include most parts of our body. Commonly asked questions are related to blood pressure, diabetes, cholesterol, heart and lungs, any previous surgery and what type of medication we are on, which may provide a clue to anything else we may have ‘forgotten’ to mention!

I call this the public medical history, the one that is carried around like a backpack, that informs all health professionals just what type of body they are dealing with. These are the problems that are often managed with medication, and the more you are on, and the higher the dose, the greater your problems are.

But there is another history we keep hidden. This secret history is the one we keep really personal and generally don’t share with anyone, or maybe only one other person. These secrets are the vital evidence and the foundation of our ill ways, ill health and poor decisions. They may at first seem irrelevant or even minor, but they are crucial to understanding the person as a whole, and hold the clues to the kinds of events, illnesses or injuries that happen to people.

Those things that we keep secret are the things that we find embarrassing or personal; that we would never share with another. They could range from anything from early childhood all the way through life. There is often a hurt of some kind that holds us back. It may prevent us from either admitting it is there, or we may find a way to completely ignore the feeling associated with it.

They could be things like how shy you are, or how little confidence you may have. It may be that you always feel a little anxious or uncomfortable in crowds; that you overeat or maybe feel sad at times, with feelings of loneliness, or even that you get angry quite quickly. It may be that you find it difficult to sleep at night or hard to get to sleep.

Whatever they are, we keep them secret or we consider them irrelevant. Could it be out of fear of what others may say or think about us? However we soldier on, as we try to put on a public face that all is well.

Living with these fears or anxieties disrupts the natural harmony in the body. Our heart rate is affected, and our blood pressure may increase. Not to forget our nervous system that is always ‘on’, which causes stress and tension in our muscles, our connective tissue and also on the endocrine system. So we can see how issues we consider minor, irrelevant or embarrassing affect the whole body. But this is not seen as a medical issue, because it hasn’t presented itself in the body as an illness yet, even though it is actually already there. It is a medical issue and it is the genesis of sickness. How this expresses itself in the body is characterised by the individual and their own life choices and make-up. It could end up being diabetes, heart disease or cancer, or any number of illnesses, addictions, or relationship problems.

This is what creates our public medical history, the one that is eventually expressed as illness. Why wait until it’s too late?

Most of us are functioning people, we have a job, work, go out, share meals and have friends, so this private history is kept simmering in the background with a range of coping mechanisms that get us through life. We all have our way of ‘getting through the day’ and our body does try to rebalance and compensate, but it can’t do this forever.

As an example, let’s say someone was living with anxiousness, just enough that it is brushed off as maybe being nervous or shy, but ‘normal’ for that person. This subtle wash of feeling that is always there, affects every decision that is made. Often other people know some of these ways, but just accept that it is just the way people are and so don’t question it.

Other examples are the everyday things we live with, like

  • not having a loving relationship with our wife, husband or partner
  • getting frustrated easily
  • getting angry at the cars that speed
  • secretly gambling or watching porn without our partner knowing
  • daydreaming about meeting another man/woman
  • not really feeling motivated to do anything
  • constantly having to keep busy
  • moving from relationship to relationship or not wanting to be in a relationship
  • getting bored with our job
  • not getting on with work colleagues.

These are all clues to something that is brewing in the background.

Where to from here? We avoid, hide or ignore the signs and symptoms and keep them secret.

As a result we binge drink, smoke, overeat, sleep around, fight, overwork or don’t work, exercise or play sport to name a few, all to not feel the effects of not addressing the secret history. 

The truth is, we compromise our body and our lives through the choices and decisions we make, which reverberate in a harmful way through our body.

We generally don’t share many of these secrets with our GP, or anyone for that matter, but they are essential in being able to understand us. Our lifestyle and the way we live each day are the precursors that affect our public medical issues and highlight the consequences of this private medical history we keep so secret.

This secret history will cause the lifestyle choices that we make, to hide or suppress these feelings and fears that mould our life. How do we hide and suppress these feelings? We numb ourselves with foods, drinks and all manner of behaviours, and sugar coat our life to show that everything is ‘good’, whilst every choice is tainted and loaded with the energy of hiding and suppressing this secret history.

This secret history contains the gold nuggets that have the potential to allow a person to truly live, and this is where we really need to start if we are to seek true healing. If we wait until it manifests into a physical issue, it is then so much harder to treat. But even before this, a willingness to look at this secret history of ours can offer us the opportunity to see and deal with our old hurts and open us up to the possibility of living a truly healthy and joyful life.

 

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857 thoughts on “Our secret medical history

  1. It is true in those unmentioned feelings we have running through our body which we carve a life around in order to cope with them and life, and potentially try our hardest not to trigger the unwanted response in the body, is the hidden gold within us. Because once these are addressed it changes our whole perspective on life, and then we go on to see other things in our life that we have been managing and not dealing with.

    1. Yes, it is a cascade effect and I wonder if there is a part of each of us that knows the end game and so we create roadblocks along the way to divert us away from that connection, it’s crazy isn’t it?! How many roadblocks do we create to stop us being all of ourselves?!

    2. So true Julie, those ‘unmentioned feelings’ act like tinted glasses that we’re constantly peering through, everything is tainted by them. Address the things that sit festering away in our bodies and gradually the amount of tint lessens and our view of life changes until eventually we’re not wearing glasses at all and it’s at that point that what we all see will be the same. The fact that we all see life differently is evidence of the fact that we’re all wearing tinted glasses.

  2. “Our lifestyle and the way we live each day are the precursors that affect our public medical issues and highlight the consequences of this private medical history we keep so secret.” The more we are willing to open up our awareness and feel into why we are compromising ourselves the deeper we are able to know and understand ourselves and let go of the things we have taken on that prevent us from living our true potential.

    1. Our true potential is actually unlimited because we are the unlimited potential of the consciousness of God. The ever expanding body of God. Never limited unless systematically and emphatically limited by the way in which we, as humans choose to live. And yes, currently we are pretty much all choosing to live in a way that is very limiting but it won’t always be this way. One day we shall take off the brakes and then we’ll all ping back to the way that we used to live, which is as the forever expanding body of God.

  3. We all have ways of coping with life and they become part of us without us ever considering that they may be bad for our health, and contributing towards our health condition. So on visiting the GP are we only giving them a snippet of what’s really going on, the things we see as un-important and trivial, the things that couldn’t possibly be of help when making a diagnosis. If we were describing to a mechanic how our cars drive, feel and sound, we would be very thorough, because we would want the mechanic to do a great job and to fix the ailment, and yet we do not give ourselves the same attention.

  4. “We generally don’t share many of these secrets with our GP, or anyone for that matter, but they are essential in being able to understand us.” I agree Matthew, in being honest with ourselves and looking at what we are trying to override and not deal with are the very things that bring a deeper understanding of ourselves so that we are able to change our lifestyle choices to those that are truly supportive.

  5. It is amazing how long we can hold onto a hurt from the past, and how much harm it can do if it’s not dealt with. And this doesn’t just afffect us as individuals, but has far reaching consequences. When we hurt about something that happened to us, by not letting it go we build up layers and layers of protection which then turn into behaviours that can have an enormous impact on another person. Ultimately we have a responsibility to deal with our ‘secret medical history’.

  6. It is similar in the world of skincare. Customers ask for products that will help their skin concerns, but the real solutions come from taking a deeper look at their personal history in terms of lifestyle, diet, emotional health etc. The skin is purely the end result of all their choices, and yes we can treat the skin, but to improve the health of the skin we need to improve the overall health of the person. It is always worth asking those extra questions. They can often open up a great deal that the person has not explored or thought about looking at.

  7. When we do not express how we feel so much festers underneath the mask that we wear and the body begins to change and disease sets in. Releasing the secrets allows for great healing and so much more space in the body.

  8. If a practitioner develops trust with a client it allows them the space to share their ‘secret history’. This cannot always be done so easily in the short time that many medical practitioners are given for consultations. However, we can be our own practitioners by taking an honest look and being willing to take responsibility for the choices we have made and how these have manifested our condition. We therefore have the power to reverse it by making more self-loving choices and committing to true health and wellbeing.

  9. Great to bring this subject out Matthew. We do have secrets that we hide away not wanting to look at … or not wanting to give up, but the truth is that nothing is secret as everything is energetically known. So we are only fooling ourselves, as we know our ‘secrets’ and they are easily read with energetic awareness.

  10. I think a lot of the hiding comes from harsh self-judgement, because we don’t live up to a picture we have of how we should be.

  11. I’m finding that I can share my secret history with others more. It might not be to everyone, but giving voice to them releases the shame aspect, and there may not be any solution, but I am feeling freer, more open with others and less inclined to hide.

  12. Thank you Matthew, I feel you have just offered me something that will have a profound affect in my life. We don’t want to feel something and “As a result we binge drink, smoke, overeat, sleep around, fight, overwork or don’t work, exercise or play sport to name a few, all to not feel the effects of not addressing the secret history”. This is a huge key to some of the major illnesses which plague our society now.

  13. I can’t help but notice that chronic illnesses are the body’s way of highlighting something to us about the way we are living, our relationship we have with ourselves, or our attitude towards many things in life that raise a reaction within our body. Addressing and dealing with any of our issues would I’m sure have a positive effect on our total health and wellbeing.

  14. I love this blog. How big would the records be on our “secret medical history’ in our doctors records if this was the norm? How powerful would the session be with our doctor if this was one of the paramount questions that was asked each time we visited? Through my own experiences I can now look back and honestly say that my secret medical history has no doubt affected a HUGE part of my health and how I have been using this as a tool to not truly feel what was going on for me. This example is brilliant in sharing how our doctors can only support with the causes but it is our responsibly and willingness to ask for true healing at a root level when we are share our secret medical history.

  15. Oh yes our secret history…it is awesome that we can share this secret with ourselves or maybe one person in life, but whether we do or not, this secret is actually also shared with everyone, whether we verbalize it or not, as it can be felt in every one of our choices. Actually nothing can be kept hidden, it is wise therefore to deal with what is secretly affecting us and not ignore these feelings.

  16. I love what you have shared in this blog Matthew and without doubt I totally agree with you that it is actually our private or forgotten medical history that provides the clues to unravel our public history.

  17. Don’t we even keep our secret medical history secret from ourselves. Every message our body gives us is an opportunity to change the way we are living and therefore avoid the illness those choices will lead to, but because we are deeply irresponsible we ignore them all until they grow and become un-ignorable.

  18. “…Those things that we keep secret are the things that we find embarrassing or personal; that we would never share with another. They could range from anything from early childhood all the way through life. There is often a hurt of some kind that holds us back. It may prevent us from either admitting it is there, or we may find a way to completely ignore the feeling associated with it…” This is great, as it explains all those unknown possibilities of why we develop a dis-ease or illness of ‘unknown origin’.

  19. These secret medical histories we all carry around with us seems like a ticking time bomb, and just by the act of piling more things on top of others and adjusting or adapting by ignoring the warning signs the body gives us, is a sure sign of a serious illness sitting on the side lines until the burden gets too much and the body has to find a way to release our choices, just like the way the earth does with a volcano.

  20. It is clear from your blog and other comments that it’s our “secret medical history” that we shy away from, hide, don’t speak about that has a crippling effect on every part of our life. When I look at myself I can see that this is the case as well and until I started to look at and really appreciate how everything happens first because of the energy that is making it happen, I felt like life did not make sense. When you add in the truth about energy you can then start to truly heal the items in our secret medical history.

  21. ‘We all have our way of ‘getting through the day’ and our body does try to rebalance and compensate, but it can’t do this forever.” It is amazing how many coping mechanisms we have to get through the day that do not support the body or our health. Food alcohol smoking TV computers are some of the more obvious things, but there are many more subtle or hidden ones that start to stand out the more aware we become.

  22. An excellent blog. It is so true that we all have these secret medical histories which will develop into the public medical history sooner or later. When you consider that for many, you can only discuss one issue at a doctor’s appointment and you have 10 minutes only to discuss it, it is hard to see how the already hard pressed doctors could find time to consider the secret medical history. Nevertheless, this is exactly what is needed.

  23. Our bodies never lie, so even if we keep secrets of the choices we make in life, eventually it will be all exposed whether we have been living from truth and love which is truly healing or from that which is not from our essence which will be at the expense of our health and wellbeing.

  24. A revealing diagnosis of the cause and effect of the what we consider irrelevant and its effect on our health and wellbeing.

  25. This article is so important… Imagine if everyone had to arrive an hour early to medical appointments and to fill in two forms… One the obvious one, and the second, the secret medical history… And then the practitioner took both into account… The world would certainly be a different place now with regards to the stress on our health care system.

    1. Great idea Chris, and you’d only need to do it the once presumably, although it would need regular checking that it was still current, and then it could be captured electronically by the medical admin staff into one’s records so available to the doctors every time you visit.

  26. I would say that it is our ‘secret history’ that when not resolved or buried and hidden actually causes the medical history. It is our body saying how we are living is not in accordance to our truth so an illness or dis-ease manifests. So really before we even get to the medical history part we should lovingly look at how we are with ourselves, our families, other people, what ill beliefs or ideals are we holding onto, are we taking on other peoples emotions etc etc. That is why Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine are pure GOLD because not only do they teach, present and live this but give everyone the tools to heal and address the ‘secret history’ therefore enabling complete well-being.

  27. Wouldn’t it be great if the visits to the doctor could start with the doctor asking “what is your secret medical history?” Would this not change the tone of the visit and bring a level of realness that we often hide from when heading in to seek support with our health and wellbeing?

  28. How well I know these little things, the mistake in the day or the weak moment that I then get an enormous stick out and beat myself up about for the rest of the day or week. Its not something I would mention as medically it has no value… yet its a great question Matt – what effect is that having on my body over a period of 5 years or 50?

  29. Brilliant article. I have been playing and experimenting with looking at my secret history and it’s been amazingly helpful to clear some of old patterns and behaviours. It’s a pretty full history and there are many many pages within it that require looking at, but step by step as I recognise them, I have an opportunity to either deal with it or not. The more I deal with it the less difficult it becomes.

  30. From my experience once I voice my concerns, the ones I have always kept to myself (whether it is about my health or otherwise), the support is there immediately, as is the new awareness of how to best approach the situation. Upon reflection, when I take the first step, it is like my hand is held as I walk the next.

  31. Absolutely Matthew, it is time for us to be honest, ‘This secret history contains the gold nuggets that have the potential to allow a person to truly live, and this is where we really need to start if we are to seek true healing.’

  32. The liberation of honesty has shown itself to me only through greater self acceptance and deeper connection with myself. Developing a deeper relationship with myself leads to greater honesty and so the cycle continues. Superb article Matthew Brown.

  33. I found it interesting that the list of dot points about how our secret history affects us seemed so normal. We have normalised getting frustrated in traffic, having issues at work or difficulties in our relationships. Yet they are signs of the disharmony that is simmering within and in no way need to be accepted as the norm. It feels like time to raise the bar and see what is not working so we can start to discard this secret history that keeps us in disharmony.

  34. It’s ironic that the things we keep secret and hidden about ourselves are the very things we need to bring out into the light. These things are not who we are, they are merely things we have become or behaviours we have learned as we get further away from our true self. Once we step away and see them as not part of who we are, they are so much easier to let go of. Hiding and burying them just lets them fester and grow in the darkness.

  35. Its much harder to measure this secret medical history and unfortunately that is why its been largely ignored by Western Medicine. This is where Esoteric Medicine steps in and can help get to the root of why an illness manifests in the body

  36. I find it fascinating how most of us regard ourselves as being honest yet we all know that we frequently tell ourselves and others ‘little white lies’. And once we have told one, it begins to snowball.

  37. How can our daily choices not affect our wellbeing in one way or another? I know that when I have worried about something in the past and it affected my sleep I could not function properly the next day. This led to having a chest infection. This may seem an obvious example but to me it is no different to any other emotional behaviour that we carry out on a daily basis that causes an imbalance in the body which over time may lead to illness and disease.

  38. We rarely track back when we get illness but that must surely be the most important step we can take. If we look at what may have caused the ill health and be willing to look broadly at factors that don’t always get mentioned, such as our demeanour, our expression and our care for self then we may get a deeper understanding of why we get sick and how we can stop it reoccurring.

  39. “Most of us are functioning people, we have a job, work, go out, share meals and have friends, so this private history is kept simmering in the background with a range of coping mechanisms that get us through life. We all have our way of ‘getting through the day’ and our body does try to rebalance and compensate, but it can’t do this forever.” – Matthew this is spot on – we cannot keep doing this forever – at some point in time we do have to make a change in the way we are living, and all the choices we have made will be there to either back us or not. This is not an conspiracy theory, but it is a way for us to recognise that at any time that we choose to take responsibility for our well being is a moment to celebrate, for this is true change we bring about.

  40. So true. If we pay attention to and take care of, the seemingly little things as they arise we don’t have to be affected by an explosion or a ‘nuclear fallout’ later down the track. I lived with a time bomb inside of me, with the fuse rapidly getting shorter, and it wasn’t until I began to address WHY I had lit the fuse and take steps to heal that, that I was able to extinguish it and avoid the catastrophe towards which I know I was heading. I am learning to listen now and my body and being are appreciating this very much.

  41. “The truth is, we compromise our body and our lives through the choices and decisions we make, which reverberate in a harmful way through our body.” Some great points you cover in your blog Matthew, highlighting how important it is to deepen our awareness and connection with our body and listen to what it is communicating so that we are willing to make different choices that are truly supportive for our health and well-being.

  42. As bizarre as this may sound…we keep secret what we fear being exposed because there is a part of us that knows when the true source of our dis-ease is uncovered, healing is very quick to follow. And, if we are super honest with ourselves then we need to admit that, due to the fact we have spent lifetimes living a certain way and caught in this love-less momentum, to suddenly arrest it will mean that we have to let go of all that we have invested in this creation. Yes we want to be relieved of the physical symptoms that our past choices have created but are we truly ready to let go of the movements that allowed these choices to be made in the first place or, do we seek relief purely so we can continue blindly on the same ill trajectory through life? True healing is a simple choice we make to return to the love that we are, no matter the beast that may rear its ugly head on our path back home to this.

    1. This is beautifully worded Liane, and does show that we hold (often times) a huge investment in having things a certain way that is not in line with our natural pulse.

    2. This is true Liane, very well said, there is a huge element of head being buried in sand about our approach to illness and disease in our bodies.It doesn’t actually make sense how much we ignore the simple lifestyle changes we could all make. There is a big part of us that doesn’t want to embrace the way we could live that would remove the disharmony and correct the dis-ease.

    3. Very true and as both comments below illustrate, it is illogical that we choose not to see that how we love has an effect on our bodies. The way we are ignoring this as a society, and dare I say it, enabling the behaviours, now has the potential to collapse our health system. Are we ready to be honest yet? I wonder. I do know it starts with each and every one of us to be the change in our own lives first.

  43. “Often other people know some of these ways, but just accept that it is just the way people are and so don’t question it.” I love this line because it shows how much we accept each others issues and don’t question it or even see it as the character of the person. This acceptance is holding people in actually a lesser state of being than they truly can be.

  44. Matthew this is a brilliant article that belongs on the pages of major Medical Journals bringing a much needed focus on the lifestyle risk factors to illness and disease.

  45. “There is often a hurt of some kind that holds us back.” Resolving and healing these hurts enables the body to re-establish its true homeostasis.

  46. Being open and honest with our ‘secret history’ is life changing and transformational as it is a powerful component in re-establishing harmony in the body resulting in fluidity with oneself and life.

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