798 thoughts on “Our secret medical history”

1. This is such a great conversation to have because it gives us an opportunity to stop and consider if there are any secrets about our health that we keep to ourselves.

2. When the secret history is addressed, the healing doors are open

3. Our true potential is actually unlimited because we are the unlimited potential of the consciousness of God. The ever expanding body of God. Never limited unless systematically and emphatically limited by the way in which we, as humans choose to live. And yes, currently we are pretty much all choosing to live in a way that is very limiting but it won’t always be this way. One day we shall take off the brakes and then we’ll all ping back to the way that we used to live, which is as the forever expanding body of God.

4. Gill, I’m becoming to be aware that nothing just happens, and everything is everything. Every thought, movement, feelings has a ripple effect somewhere else. There is a huge responsibility in the way we live, as a collective we need to be the part for the others.

5. Matthew reading this about the ‘secret history’ being pertinent to our health and wellbeing, is of importance. Our lifestyle choices leads us to the diseases and illness, and many a times we seldom want to look at it let alone admit it to other people. This part is the core but also the answer to how we have become who we are.

   And I agree when we look at our past hurts, these is where the true healing can begin.

   1. If we were able to see our hurts as open wounds then we would realise that pretty much everyone on the planet is in a really bad way.

6. Compromise is the perfect word to describe how we ignore and normalize what you call our ‘secret medical history’ and I agree, the fact that we are needing those behaviours to function in life reveals that we are greater than we are making ourselves to be.

7. Because we are so used to carrying around this secret history we do not credit it as being harmful to our lives or our health.

8. Great to read this again, it connects up the dots from how we feel in life, the subsequent choices we make, and the outcomes that can present in injuries and health conditions. To me it’s an holistic approach to our health and wellbeing.

9. It is great to acknowledge that living with fears and anxieties can disrupt the natural harmony of one’s body in the way that you have done so, without any imposing concepts about what Harmony in the body is and how this should be obtained.

10. “This secret history” is there to be felt even it is not seen on the surface, rather like when you go to the beach and see the waves rolling into shore but there is a rip tide under the surface of the waves.

11. This is so relevant and so hidden, that we have our ‘tics’ say, the ways we are and we create behaviours to manage them and in doing so we set ourselves on the path to the physical symptoms we later may have. Life is indeed medicine and by being willing to unpick and see our ways and understand that they are not us and be willing to address the hurts beneath those ways we open ourselves up to feeling and being our natural selves.

12. Whenever I have been willing to be honest about how my life really is, things have always got better.

13. There are so many major disturbances in our health that to consider looking into the “minor” ones just seems worthless, but if we flip it around and start paying more attention to the little dis-eased moments, we can begin to take better care of ourselves and make major changes to our health.

14. “These secrets are the vital evidence and the foundation of our ill ways, ill health and poor decisions.” So true, for if we don’t ever share or voice what we feel and hold deep within us, we will never truly change our ways or heal our past hurts which are what cause so many of our illness and diseases that we see today.

    1. Is it possible Sandra that we are so used to putting up with something that we do not even consider it as a health issue? I work as a volunteer at the local hospital and have noticed that elderly women especially say they didn’t want to worry anyone one or didn’t consider something to be ‘that bad’ until they ended up in hospital.

15. There is so much in our own secret medical history that we have the choice to change.

16. It is in the details of our life, that are always there to point the way and return to a truer way of living.

17. I know so well how those ‘minor’ seemingly non-medical issues affect my well-being, making me feel somehow dented inside, that I am not fully myself, that I have allowed in something that doesn’t belong – definitely an onset of dis-ease.

18. Standardisation leads to a lack of reflection, or more aptly, a lack of reflection to pull up rather than reflect that everything is ‘okay’.

19. I remember when I was in hospital one time, and all the consultant wanted to know about me was how my injury had happened and what level of physical pain I was in. He didn’t want to know anything about ‘me’. I found it really hard to understand at the time as I knew there were many factors that had led to the injury I had ended up in hospital with. It will be a great day when this deeper level of understanding is taken into account and embraced with every illness or injury that presents in any hospital or doctors surgery.

20. There is so much more to any illness we may have than just the physical symptoms. Roll on the day when western medicine embraces what Universal Medicine is already doing and the two are combined in order to read the whole person and get a much deeper understanding of what is really going on and offer true healing to all.

21. If we open up to our ability to feel that secret history isn’t secret at all. It’s there in the attitude and tone of a person. A heaviness, mediocre and burdensome approach to life as they struggle to keep the mask of “I’m alright” on. When we feel this we see behind the mask and others feel it. It’s very powerful and healing to be seen without the mask as it offers space to not keep maintaining its position.

22. When the little clues the body presents are ignored over and over- that which is brewing’ behind the scenes’ is what eventually manifests in the physical body as various forms of illness and disease. It would appear that our choices play a big part in our true health and wellbeing and a wise choice to begin examining ill choices to work with and honour the body as never before.
    “These are all clues to something that is brewing in the background.”

23. What an AMAZING nurse you are. It is interesting as the ‘secret’ history affects or even manifests the public medical history … in that hurts etc we don’t heal and hold onto affect our body, organs and so therefore our overall health. So I guess what this shows is just how vital it is not to hold onto anything and as a healthcare professional to be willing to see more than what is presented to us physically but to understand everything energetically as well. .. which is why you are such an AMAZING nurse as you are already doing this ✨

24. Your wonderful blog came to mind this morning, Matthew, when a friend was sharing that her relationship with her doctor was becoming a little strained, so much so she felt she wasn’t being listened to. But yesterday she finally decided to share a little of her life, her ‘secret medical history’, and the outcome surprised her as the doctor seemed to finally understand that there was so much more to her patient than what she had previously known. I know time constraints limit what we can share with our medical professionals but if there is anything we feel is important to our current health issues we simply can’t hold back.

    1. Ingrid this ‘holding ourselves back’ from doctors is something that we all do with pretty much everybody, even our partners. I would have argued till I was blue in the face that I didn’t hold myself back, that I revealed all of me to people but was shocked to find out that the opposite was true. What I offered others was a teeny weeny sanitised snippet of me, whilst simultaneously holding back all that was real about me. Realising this was the most crucial step in changing it, followed by actively letting the real me be felt by me and then allowing the me that is real to flow on to others.

25. Even though ill health is deemed to be more than physical, in health care we really only look at the obvious things that affect our health. We are really not asked to delve any deeper and ask ourselves why or what is going on? When we just stay on the surface we rarely address anything, for things to return for us to deal with all over again. Underneath all of this is knowing that there is no need ever to be perfect and also knowing that we are doing nothing wrong if we don’t have the perfect health. But our healthcare is not about this. By delving deeper and being willing to see the underneath causes, we are giving ourselves the opportunity to release this, so that there is a greater opportunity to see the beauty that we may have tucked away.

26. This article shows a clear understanding of cause and effect; the underlying cause of illness and disease.

27. “Our lifestyle and the way we live each day are the precursors that affect our public medical issues and highlight the consequences of this private medical history we keep so secret…” I wonder, and look forward to a time when a person sees their GP or who presents to hospital with an aliment, that the medical history note taking will include all the hidden aspects that we currently keep private, because at such time, there will be more a general understanding and acceptance energetic medicine and the way it contributes to ill health and disease process on the body.

28. Everything is hidden in our society so that we can pretend that ‘life is good’ and that ‘ we are progressing’. A great veneer is put out there of the good life. And part of that is our medical history. If the truth were truly known, we would have to say that our lives on earth just do not work. It is not working.

29. A great point by Matt, showing how important the parts are that we don’t share and how they, at times, can devastate us.

30. When we hold on to our secrets, we give the secret greater power than ourselves, often because we are ashamed and therefore in order to protect ourselves we think we need to keep the secret at all costs, when we do discover that it is safe to allow the secret out it is as if a ton of weight has been lifted off us, and we then wonder why we kept it secret for so long. The body will always reveal that there is a secret being kept one way or another.

31. We try to keep this secret history… well secret, but the thing is that the body marks it, and once we have lived it for oh say 10 years, 20 years, 40 years then this pattern of behaviour has to be marked in the body. Overweight, depressed, exhaustion, anxiety. All patterns of living that make up a lot of illness and disease – definitely time we got it out of the closet and started to address it.

    1. Yes, and the earlier we do so, the simpler. The later we do it, the more we notice the change, the difference in well-being, so any time may be a good time.

32. ‘We numb ourselves with foods, drinks and all manner of behaviours, and sugar coat our life to show that everything is ‘good’, whilst every choice is tainted and loaded with the energy of hiding and suppressing this secret history.’ And this is what we call ‘normal’ because the majority of the people lives this way, it is only when we start to be truly honest with ourselves our secret medical history will no longer be kept secret and the way we make our lifestyle choices can and will be more healthy because of the awareness that is gained.

33. Looking at your list, I notice how common these things are to many people and how we then accept them as normal and we don’t even bring ourselves to the possibility of looking at them as anomaly that we can actually live without. As well, there are so many things that make us believe we are dealing with them while in fact we are burying them even further. True healing begins with accepting that we are much more than what we have settled for.

34. I have been sharing parts of my “secret medical history” with several medical professionals over the last couple of years and have experienced varying responses. Some have really listened and appreciated what I have shared and others have reacted in away that had me feeling that what I had shared was a bit ‘airy fairy’ and not what they wanted to hear. My input was definitely not valued in this latter situation. So how wonderful it would be if all medical professionals were trained to truly listen and to honour their patients sharings, as within some of the personal information may just be the key to what is ailing them.

35. We can support our GP’s and medical specialists by being honest about our secret medical history. That way they can truly support us.

36. It is so liberating to have no secrets for they keep us prisoner and inhibit our expression and communication in all relationships.

37. The things that we hold close to our heart, that we consider deeply personal and only to be shared with possibly one other, are the things that are so often the key to unlocking what is holding us back from being all of who we are. All we have to do is unlock the door!

    1. Thanks for your comment Sandra, it’s a great reminder to bring things out into the open as anything we hold back that needs addressing and healing can be holding the full expression of our true self back. Letting these things go can let who we are underneath out.

38. Because we haven’t been brought up having an understanding about energy and how what we think is energy and that if we think about something long enough, it can form into an illness or disease because we are literally telling the body, this is who we are and we walk around in that configured state which cements whatever it is we feel is true, in our bodies. So then we go and see a GP who is just as in the dark about emotions affecting our bodies as we are, hence all we address when asked the question is our physical health because that is what is staring us in the face. Little do we know, it is there to bring us a healing if we only were to explore our lives and what we have chosen to get a clear picture of why we have what we have. Perhaps the Client consent forms need to focus more on this type of questioning.

39. Why then are we not training our doctors to go to the depth of healing that offers their clients an opportunity look at the behaviours rather than limited consumption?

40. ‘Living with these fears or anxieties disrupts the natural harmony in the body.’ and that’s the thing everything matters, every little thing and that’s the beauty of what you share here, that unless we deal with our secret histories, we left dealing with the physical symptoms without having the understanding or addressing some of the contributory root causes … in other words we don’t heal, no matter how much we may be cured.

41. The funny (not) thing is that we often walk around with our deep secrets on full show. At some level we are all aware of what is going on with each other and can feel when for example a very smiley person is actually angry or sad.

    1. The other funny (not) thing is that the biggest secret that we hide is actually how awesome we are and we even keep that from ourselves.

    2. When the energetic truth is felt and read by us all on some level then when we think that we’re hiding something from others, where in actual fact do we think we’re hiding it?

42. For true healing to occur there has to be an openness to bring what we have kept secret, ever to ourselves, up into the light of day so that they can be let go of.

43. I think oftentimes people can keep things about their health secret through shame or embarrassment from judging themselves or not wanting to be judged by another. But if we can let go of the judgement and any regret for our past choices then we clear the way for us to be able to simply learn from our body and deepen the level of care and awareness that we bring to our life on all levels.

44. There is much to discover when you decide to get more honest about the secret stuff. You can learn so much about yourself and if you choose to, heal what drives this secret behaviour, lessening the load on the public life.

45. We keep secret the only thing that can truly help us because it carries the key to unlock the configuration we are trapped into. Or, we share it but not in a way that help us because does not unlock it. We have to learn how to best use our best resource in the knowing that not all paths lead to Rome.

46. It’s easy to think that the little things that happen to us in our life, and the fleeting thoughts and feelings don’t matter and are of no significance, but this couldn’t be further from the truth. It is the small details that can and do so often eventually lead to more significiant and unavoidable circumstances which then need more time to deal with and are more often than not health related, involving lengthy and sometimes complicated medical procedures. There is ultimately nothing that we can keep secret, as our bodies will eventually expose everything about us.

47. We tend to strip things down to the super basics like medicine only being about the illnesses and diseases we have and the pills we take to deal with that. Yet we are a whole multidimensional person and there is so much more to us than the eye can see, we have thoughts, feelings, insecurities etc and all of this plays a part in our health. We simply can’t just heal a disease without considering this.

48. I love this blog Matthew. Our secret histories don’t need to be shared in graphic detail with all but they do need to be acknowledged and talked about in our conversations with others and on platforms such as this. Let’s uncover our secret histories so they can be brought into the bigger picture of the medical histories of ourselves and others.

49. Everyone has a unique history that is fed directly by the secret history you speak of Matthew. It’s funny how we can fool ourselves that what we hide away and don’t want others to see is secret but there are no secrets as our body feels and records every experience, thought or emotion we feel.

50. Transparency and honesty is very good medicine.

51. “This secret history contains the gold nuggets that have the potential to allow a person to truly live, and this is where we really need to start if we are to seek true healing.” A brilliant piece of writing Matthew and is something that should be shared far and wide within any health related profession.

52. Our secret medical history is very relevant to our own illness and disease, however the more secret we make it the less we are prepared to acknowledge or look at the choices that we are making, that actually lead to illness and disease.

53. A powerful insight Matthew, why are we so dismissive of the small things? It is always the small seemingly insignificant markers, things that create the bigger problems later. We are conditioned to sweep feelings under the carpet and not address the harming emotions that often overpower us. Anxiety is a big one, and I am seeing it in more and more people, it is also something I have experienced myself, and can be as small to begin with as the body walking in tension or realising that I feel uptight. It becomes easier to spot the more we are willing to look, and then we can address things at the root, which is surely the most intelligent way to address any problem before it becomes the illness or disease.

54. Great article Matthew. – Our personal histories are so important for our health and well being , yet medical personnel aren’t trained to go deeper into root causes. They just want current symptoms they can fix. “These secrets are the vital evidence and the foundation of our ill ways, ill health and poor decisions ” One day this will seem so obvious, and the tide is turning…..

55. A great exposure for although we may keep this hidden or secret, not only do things have a tendency to surface and be exposed regardless and often loudly through the body to show us that choosing this way of being is not our true way, but we suffer in every movement when we are living less and are suppressing our own potential… an infliction we can all tend to embrace at great cost to ourselves and equally us all.

56. Wow, that really is spot on. I mean it makes so much sense, anything that is kept “secret” already screams trouble. I think the shame might be one of the biggest reasons we feel we need to hide. Another reason could be a fear that people won’t view you the same way once they know your secret…the ironic thing is, they feel it anyway, even if they don’t know it on a conscious level, we are not stupid. In fact, we are very sensitive beings, thus the reason we lean on these behaviours, foods, drinks in order to “cope” with all we know. This is a cracker of a blog, it will not be forgotten and in my book, it will go down in history as a form of preventive medicine.

57. A great exposure of what we sweep under the rug. We go to the doctor putting on the ‘I am doing OK’ face – and try to share all the positive ways in which we live, when in fact underneath is us not wanting to be honest about how we are living – our every movement that takes us away from true health and true healing.

58. My life has changed in many ways since having this ‘awakening’ to the fact that there are other symptoms in my life which affect me. It is indeed our secret little history. But by talking about it and sharing how we feel we can begin to take the steps to help ourselves.

59. You mean the unseen can affect us? Yeah, I guess loud music could damage our ears. Wait, anxiety over a 40-year period could manifest itself into something? I never thought of that.

    That could be all the conversation we need to have to consider this. For many what is not seen doesn’t exist. Clearly this isn’t the case.

60. What you are describing so well here Matthew is like the foundations under the house, the bulk of the iceberg under the showing tip – it is this part of our health that is so important as it determines the rest and detail of what shows above. A brilliant blog and well worth coming back to!

61. If we are to truly heal, all cards need to be out on the table so to speak when addressing an illness with a GP/professional, being truly honest is the only way to start the healing process by getting to the root cause.

62. I love to come back to this blog as I get to look at the ways we like to avoid what contributes to our state of health or energetic quality. Everything has an impact and therefore all of life becomes our medical history, are we not then our own walking talking medical notes.

63. This is extraordinary to read about how all of those little details in the experiences of each day, how the internal dialogue and responses to the day that happen privately just between the world and our inner selves, could be the place where the greater and more debilitating manifestations of illness and disease are first created. This is monumental in its significance and more importantly, very very empowering.

64. Being anxious and in stress should be seen as a medical issue… the long term strain this places on the body are there and can be felt in increased heart rate, tension and holding the body tightly. Over time the body will show its symptoms and distress.

65. “These secrets are the vital evidence and the foundation of our ill ways, ill health and poor decisions”. As you say Matthew, some of these secrets may seem unimportant at first. But it is these events that we don’t deal with and suppress our reactions that store up in the body and change the way we respond to life.

66. This is a loving call to take responsibility for our lives and all that has come before this moment. Rather than being a victim of circumstance we are totally able to be in our own driving seats and make our own choices.

67. Along the way to becoming really unwell or becoming dis-eased there are usually signs alluding to the fact something is not quite right, some very subtle, others not so, some chronic and persistent….. but annoying rather than debilitating. Other signs can be emotional or psychological rather than physical, and yet we rarely stop to consider these signs. Often it is not until we are really unwell that we take any notice of our body and what is occurring. Taking the time to stop and check in with our bodies regularly before we become unwell would allow us to become familiar with how our bodies are feeling, enabling us to notice any changes or niggles, early on, alerting us to the fact that something is a bit off, thereby giving us the opportunity to take notice of what is needed to bring balance and harmony back to both our bodies and subsequently our lives before things get out of hand.

68. I asked for this blog today. This is what I am understanding as the root of true healing. Because the illness hasn’t manifested in the body I never think to go to a doctor about it, but I know support is needed. The key is to find a practitioner who has experienced this and can support through it rather than brush the seemingly ‘normal’ behaviour off. The behaviour is simply masking a feeling we don’t want to feel and having the support to feel it and be OK with feeling it would be groundbreaking in terms of addressing addictions in our lives that hold us back and keep us from the connection to the stillness of our soul.

    1. There will come a time when we will consider illness to be present if we’re not constantly connected to our soul. I appreciate that currently this sounds very far fetched but it will be our reality as we are returning to a time when we will all be living in constant connection to our souls; it’s just that we’ve migrated so far from that point now that we see lumbering around with multiple illnesses as simply ‘something that we all do’. And we do.

69. We need to truly re-connect with our body messages and whatever we feel to understand our inescapable involvement into our health

70. Every choice we make impacts our body so it makes sense that our medical history weaves a clear story of whether those lifestyles choices are loving or not.

71. We like to believe that we can get away with things but the fact of the matter is that our body goes everywhere with us and experiences everything that we do. When the body then shows us signs that all is not well, for example, the slight anxiety we might be experiencing then we really ought to listen to it.

72. Our secret medical history, if we have one, is the one holding everything that we don’t want people to know. We must then consider ourselves likely to be judged by others if we hold back this information. When we bring out the skeletons from our own closet it is incredibly healing, not just for us but for everyone. We discover that we are not alone in our “misdemeanors ” and when held (metaphorically speaking) by a Universal Medicine Practitioner there is no judgement. We are offered the space to explore what lies underneath our past choices and go to the deepest place of honesty or truth that we can in that moment.

73. It’s great to come back to this blog to ponder on our secret medical history. It seems that we are great at treating ourselves once we get ill, but don’t ever consider treating our choices and actions that made us ill in the first place.

74. Matthew, this feels really important; ‘a willingness to look at this secret history of ours can offer us the opportunity to see and deal with our old hurts and open us up to the possibility of living a truly healthy and joyful life.’ I have found that I feel more joyful and more vital because I have been aware of and worked on my own self worth and generally how I feel about myself, I am much more loving and understanding with myself now and this has felt very healing, I find I have a lot more energy at work as I am not constantly trying to prove myself and wanting acceptance, I feel more at ease and confident in my abilities and in myself.

75. What you have expressed here Matthew is a wonderful reminder for us all, and so very true;
    “The truth is, we compromise our body and our lives through the choices and decisions we make, which reverberate in a harmful way through our body”.

76. Holding onto our secrets seem to be a strategy to avoid further shame and being exposed, but in reality it only keeps us stuck in the past, recreating more suffering, our medical history included.

77. You have brilliantly exposed Matthew, the underbelly of all the circumstances and choices that are going on moment by moment in all our lives, which actually lead to the exact geographical map that becomes our public medical history. This should be a lecture for all medical courses!

    1. I agree Lyndy, this blog needs to be a lecture in medical and nursing schools, in fact in any area that people are dealing with Health.

       1. Make that every single profession – as the impact is felt from everyone and expressed by so few. Thank you for taking this blog to the world.

78. Fascinating Matthew, and from one who knows. But in truth we all know, for we are all masters of our secret medical histories well before they become public. We just don’t read (or want to read) what we see unfolding in us.

79. As a natural medicine health professional, I have discovered that there is an art to gathering a person’s medical history…There are of course many direct questions that need to be asked and the answers annotated, but this is just the beginning, for from here we get to feel where a persons true healing lies – there are times when a person shares what is going on for them on a feeling level that can open up true healing for them, and this part of the conversation is no lesser in importance to the factual evidence and the numbers. When we feel safe to express and share those things that lie deep within, then we are also given an opportunity to let go and re-imprint, in other words learn to do things in a different way, a way that is honouring of our delicate nature.

80. So much in effect gets said in our silence, in other words so much gets said in the way we talk about something rather than the words themselves that we might use. Our body has a language of its own that if heeded and seen and listened to reveals so much more than words alone.

    1. Henrietta this is beautiful, it’s using our clairsentience to feel and see what is truly happening beyond the surface.

81. Many valued and important points you raise here Matthew. I know from my own experience talking to someone and being honest about what is going on is the first step to healing, in fact the art of sharing can really give you insight and clarity into what is the emotional cause in the first place.

82. Thank you Matthew this is perfect for me to read today as I have an appointment with my GP later (a rare event for me) and am inspired to be more open with what I share.

83. It is true in those unmentioned feelings we have running through our body which we carve a life around in order to cope with them and life, and potentially try our hardest not to trigger the unwanted response in the body, is the hidden gold within us. Because once these are addressed it changes our whole perspective on life, and then we go on to see other things in our life that we have been managing and not dealing with.

    1. Yes, it is a cascade effect and I wonder if there is a part of each of us that knows the end game and so we create roadblocks along the way to divert us away from that connection, it’s crazy isn’t it?! How many roadblocks do we create to stop us being all of ourselves?!

    2. So true Julie, those ‘unmentioned feelings’ act like tinted glasses that we’re constantly peering through, everything is tainted by them. Address the things that sit festering away in our bodies and gradually the amount of tint lessens and our view of life changes until eventually we’re not wearing glasses at all and it’s at that point that what we all see will be the same. The fact that we all see life differently is evidence of the fact that we’re all wearing tinted glasses.

84. We all have ways of coping with life and they become part of us without us ever considering that they may be bad for our health, and contributing towards our health condition. So on visiting the GP are we only giving them a snippet of what’s really going on, the things we see as un-important and trivial, the things that couldn’t possibly be of help when making a diagnosis. If we were describing to a mechanic how our cars drive, feel and sound, we would be very thorough, because we would want the mechanic to do a great job and to fix the ailment, and yet we do not give ourselves the same attention.

85. It is amazing how long we can hold onto a hurt from the past, and how much harm it can do if it’s not dealt with. And this doesn’t just afffect us as individuals, but has far reaching consequences. When we hurt about something that happened to us, by not letting it go we build up layers and layers of protection which then turn into behaviours that can have an enormous impact on another person. Ultimately we have a responsibility to deal with our ‘secret medical history’.

86. It is similar in the world of skincare. Customers ask for products that will help their skin concerns, but the real solutions come from taking a deeper look at their personal history in terms of lifestyle, diet, emotional health etc. The skin is purely the end result of all their choices, and yes we can treat the skin, but to improve the health of the skin we need to improve the overall health of the person. It is always worth asking those extra questions. They can often open up a great deal that the person has not explored or thought about looking at.

87. When we do not express how we feel so much festers underneath the mask that we wear and the body begins to change and disease sets in. Releasing the secrets allows for great healing and so much more space in the body.

88. If a practitioner develops trust with a client it allows them the space to share their ‘secret history’. This cannot always be done so easily in the short time that many medical practitioners are given for consultations. However, we can be our own practitioners by taking an honest look and being willing to take responsibility for the choices we have made and how these have manifested our condition. We therefore have the power to reverse it by making more self-loving choices and committing to true health and wellbeing.

89. Great to bring this subject out Matthew. We do have secrets that we hide away not wanting to look at … or not wanting to give up, but the truth is that nothing is secret as everything is energetically known. So we are only fooling ourselves, as we know our ‘secrets’ and they are easily read with energetic awareness.

90. I think a lot of the hiding comes from harsh self-judgement, because we don’t live up to a picture we have of how we should be.

91. I’m finding that I can share my secret history with others more. It might not be to everyone, but giving voice to them releases the shame aspect, and there may not be any solution, but I am feeling freer, more open with others and less inclined to hide.

92. Thank you Matthew, I feel you have just offered me something that will have a profound affect in my life. We don’t want to feel something and “As a result we binge drink, smoke, overeat, sleep around, fight, overwork or don’t work, exercise or play sport to name a few, all to not feel the effects of not addressing the secret history”. This is a huge key to some of the major illnesses which plague our society now.

93. I can’t help but notice that chronic illnesses are the body’s way of highlighting something to us about the way we are living, our relationship we have with ourselves, or our attitude towards many things in life that raise a reaction within our body. Addressing and dealing with any of our issues would I’m sure have a positive effect on our total health and wellbeing.

94. I love this blog. How big would the records be on our “secret medical history’ in our doctors records if this was the norm? How powerful would the session be with our doctor if this was one of the paramount questions that was asked each time we visited? Through my own experiences I can now look back and honestly say that my secret medical history has no doubt affected a HUGE part of my health and how I have been using this as a tool to not truly feel what was going on for me. This example is brilliant in sharing how our doctors can only support with the causes but it is our responsibly and willingness to ask for true healing at a root level when we are share our secret medical history.

95. Our secret indulgences are never a secret for our body clocks and accumulates all of our choices.

96. Oh yes our secret history…it is awesome that we can share this secret with ourselves or maybe one person in life, but whether we do or not, this secret is actually also shared with everyone, whether we verbalize it or not, as it can be felt in every one of our choices. Actually nothing can be kept hidden, it is wise therefore to deal with what is secretly affecting us and not ignore these feelings.

97. I love what you have shared in this blog Matthew and without doubt I totally agree with you that it is actually our private or forgotten medical history that provides the clues to unravel our public history.

98. “…Those things that we keep secret are the things that we find embarrassing or personal; that we would never share with another. They could range from anything from early childhood all the way through life. There is often a hurt of some kind that holds us back. It may prevent us from either admitting it is there, or we may find a way to completely ignore the feeling associated with it…” This is great, as it explains all those unknown possibilities of why we develop a dis-ease or illness of ‘unknown origin’.

99. These secret medical histories we all carry around with us seems like a ticking time bomb, and just by the act of piling more things on top of others and adjusting or adapting by ignoring the warning signs the body gives us, is a sure sign of a serious illness sitting on the side lines until the burden gets too much and the body has to find a way to release our choices, just like the way the earth does with a volcano.

100. It is clear from your blog and other comments that it’s our “secret medical history” that we shy away from, hide, don’t speak about that has a crippling effect on every part of our life. When I look at myself I can see that this is the case as well and until I started to look at and really appreciate how everything happens first because of the energy that is making it happen, I felt like life did not make sense. When you add in the truth about energy you can then start to truly heal the items in our secret medical history.

101. Our ‘secret medical history’ is akin to a iceberg .. there is always more going on (energetically) than what meets the eye, to what we are prepared to see, feel and be honest with.

102. ‘We all have our way of ‘getting through the day’ and our body does try to rebalance and compensate, but it can’t do this forever.” It is amazing how many coping mechanisms we have to get through the day that do not support the body or our health. Food alcohol smoking TV computers are some of the more obvious things, but there are many more subtle or hidden ones that start to stand out the more aware we become.

103. Our bodies never lie, so even if we keep secrets of the choices we make in life, eventually it will be all exposed whether we have been living from truth and love which is truly healing or from that which is not from our essence which will be at the expense of our health and wellbeing.

104. A revealing diagnosis of the cause and effect of the what we consider irrelevant and its effect on our health and wellbeing.

105. This article is so important… Imagine if everyone had to arrive an hour early to medical appointments and to fill in two forms… One the obvious one, and the second, the secret medical history… And then the practitioner took both into account… The world would certainly be a different place now with regards to the stress on our health care system.

106. I would say that it is our ‘secret history’ that when not resolved or buried and hidden actually causes the medical history. It is our body saying how we are living is not in accordance to our truth so an illness or dis-ease manifests. So really before we even get to the medical history part we should lovingly look at how we are with ourselves, our families, other people, what ill beliefs or ideals are we holding onto, are we taking on other peoples emotions etc etc. That is why Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine are pure GOLD because not only do they teach, present and live this but give everyone the tools to heal and address the ‘secret history’ therefore enabling complete well-being.

107. Wouldn’t it be great if the visits to the doctor could start with the doctor asking “what is your secret medical history?” Would this not change the tone of the visit and bring a level of realness that we often hide from when heading in to seek support with our health and wellbeing?

108. How well I know these little things, the mistake in the day or the weak moment that I then get an enormous stick out and beat myself up about for the rest of the day or week. Its not something I would mention as medically it has no value… yet its a great question Matt – what effect is that having on my body over a period of 5 years or 50?

109. Brilliant article. I have been playing and experimenting with looking at my secret history and it’s been amazingly helpful to clear some of old patterns and behaviours. It’s a pretty full history and there are many many pages within it that require looking at, but step by step as I recognise them, I have an opportunity to either deal with it or not. The more I deal with it the less difficult it becomes.

110. We won’t question what we don’t want to understand. It usually takes a shock to shake us out of our comfort.

111. From my experience once I voice my concerns, the ones I have always kept to myself (whether it is about my health or otherwise), the support is there immediately, as is the new awareness of how to best approach the situation. Upon reflection, when I take the first step, it is like my hand is held as I walk the next.

112. Absolutely Matthew, it is time for us to be honest, ‘This secret history contains the gold nuggets that have the potential to allow a person to truly live, and this is where we really need to start if we are to seek true healing.’

113. The liberation of honesty has shown itself to me only through greater self acceptance and deeper connection with myself. Developing a deeper relationship with myself leads to greater honesty and so the cycle continues. Superb article Matthew Brown.

114. I found it interesting that the list of dot points about how our secret history affects us seemed so normal. We have normalised getting frustrated in traffic, having issues at work or difficulties in our relationships. Yet they are signs of the disharmony that is simmering within and in no way need to be accepted as the norm. It feels like time to raise the bar and see what is not working so we can start to discard this secret history that keeps us in disharmony.

115. It’s ironic that the things we keep secret and hidden about ourselves are the very things we need to bring out into the light. These things are not who we are, they are merely things we have become or behaviours we have learned as we get further away from our true self. Once we step away and see them as not part of who we are, they are so much easier to let go of. Hiding and burying them just lets them fester and grow in the darkness.

116. Its much harder to measure this secret medical history and unfortunately that is why its been largely ignored by Western Medicine. This is where Esoteric Medicine steps in and can help get to the root of why an illness manifests in the body

     1. Esoteric medicine acts like a shovel to go deeper into ourselves and to unearth what’s truly going on.

117. I find it fascinating how most of us regard ourselves as being honest yet we all know that we frequently tell ourselves and others ‘little white lies’. And once we have told one, it begins to snowball.

118. How can our daily choices not affect our wellbeing in one way or another? I know that when I have worried about something in the past and it affected my sleep I could not function properly the next day. This led to having a chest infection. This may seem an obvious example but to me it is no different to any other emotional behaviour that we carry out on a daily basis that causes an imbalance in the body which over time may lead to illness and disease.

119. We rarely track back when we get illness but that must surely be the most important step we can take. If we look at what may have caused the ill health and be willing to look broadly at factors that don’t always get mentioned, such as our demeanour, our expression and our care for self then we may get a deeper understanding of why we get sick and how we can stop it reoccurring.

120. “Most of us are functioning people, we have a job, work, go out, share meals and have friends, so this private history is kept simmering in the background with a range of coping mechanisms that get us through life. We all have our way of ‘getting through the day’ and our body does try to rebalance and compensate, but it can’t do this forever.” – Matthew this is spot on – we cannot keep doing this forever – at some point in time we do have to make a change in the way we are living, and all the choices we have made will be there to either back us or not. This is not an conspiracy theory, but it is a way for us to recognise that at any time that we choose to take responsibility for our well being is a moment to celebrate, for this is true change we bring about.

121. So true. If we pay attention to and take care of, the seemingly little things as they arise we don’t have to be affected by an explosion or a ‘nuclear fallout’ later down the track. I lived with a time bomb inside of me, with the fuse rapidly getting shorter, and it wasn’t until I began to address WHY I had lit the fuse and take steps to heal that, that I was able to extinguish it and avoid the catastrophe towards which I know I was heading. I am learning to listen now and my body and being are appreciating this very much.

122. Bringing honesty and openness is a great starting point when looking at our ‘secret medical history’

123. As bizarre as this may sound…we keep secret what we fear being exposed because there is a part of us that knows when the true source of our dis-ease is uncovered, healing is very quick to follow. And, if we are super honest with ourselves then we need to admit that, due to the fact we have spent lifetimes living a certain way and caught in this love-less momentum, to suddenly arrest it will mean that we have to let go of all that we have invested in this creation. Yes we want to be relieved of the physical symptoms that our past choices have created but are we truly ready to let go of the movements that allowed these choices to be made in the first place or, do we seek relief purely so we can continue blindly on the same ill trajectory through life? True healing is a simple choice we make to return to the love that we are, no matter the beast that may rear its ugly head on our path back home to this.

     1. This is beautifully worded Liane, and does show that we hold (often times) a huge investment in having things a certain way that is not in line with our natural pulse.

     2. This is true Liane, very well said, there is a huge element of head being buried in sand about our approach to illness and disease in our bodies.It doesn’t actually make sense how much we ignore the simple lifestyle changes we could all make. There is a big part of us that doesn’t want to embrace the way we could live that would remove the disharmony and correct the dis-ease.

     3. Very true and as both comments below illustrate, it is illogical that we choose not to see that how we love has an effect on our bodies. The way we are ignoring this as a society, and dare I say it, enabling the behaviours, now has the potential to collapse our health system. Are we ready to be honest yet? I wonder. I do know it starts with each and every one of us to be the change in our own lives first.

124. “Often other people know some of these ways, but just accept that it is just the way people are and so don’t question it.” I love this line because it shows how much we accept each others issues and don’t question it or even see it as the character of the person. This acceptance is holding people in actually a lesser state of being than they truly can be.

     1. Yes and enables the behaviour, sometimes through the generations. A version of normal that is actually dysfunctional.

125. Matthew this is a brilliant article that belongs on the pages of major Medical Journals bringing a much needed focus on the lifestyle risk factors to illness and disease.

126. “There is often a hurt of some kind that holds us back.” Resolving and healing these hurts enables the body to re-establish its true homeostasis.

     1. It is really great to bring our emotional way of living into the picture of how our physical bodies are functioning.

127. Being open and honest with our ‘secret history’ is life changing and transformational as it is a powerful component in re-establishing harmony in the body resulting in fluidity with oneself and life.

     1. Being honest is the doorway through which we can access the deeper truth that lives within.

128. This is profoundly simple as to why we get ill in the first place…by taking care of the small detail in what we are choosing = well-being and health or not. For myself I know there is an element of thinking I have got away making an uncaring choice, but build that up over time my body is able to show me quite clearly where I have gone astray.

     1. There is no getting away with anything. Everything gets registered, however seemingly inconsequential. The Universe registers our movements constantly, not in a ‘Big Bother – we’re watching you way’ but in the most loving and nurturing way possible. It’s intention is to gently shepherd us all back to God and one of the ways that it does this is to allow us to receive the consequences of our thoughts, speech and actions both in our bodies and in our lives.

129. ‘The truth is, we compromise our body and our lives through the choices and decisions we make, which reverberate in a harmful way through our body.’ This is gold Matthew Brown. To understand what you have written here is to choose true wellbeing and health. Brilliant blog!

     1. And that reverberation runs through the whole of life making the statement ‘This is who we are not’ against the backdrop of all that we truly are.

130. Awesome Mathew. If there is anything we feel we cannot share or would not want people to know there has to be something there for us to heal so taking a good look at it is a great place to start.

131. ‘This secret history contains the gold nuggets that have the potential to allow a person to truly live, and this is where we really need to start if we are to seek true healing.’ When we no longer are satisfied with solutions alone, but are wanting and willing to truly heal, we are able to ‘go there’ and look at the things we have been avoiding/ hiding and burying for so long.

132. Some may suggest you are drawing a long bow with this one, but I would suggest from lived experience that you are pretty much hitting the nail on the head.

133. I went to an appointment with a medical specialist recently with this wonderful blog of yours firmly with me, knowing that I had a very precious hour to share everything that I felt would assist him to understand what has been happening in my body. I didn’t hold back and in turn he was able to shine a light on many questions that I had. Having an hour was so supportive compared to the brief 15 minutes that we are allocated at our doctors where we know that we have this very short space to share what’s important, and I know from my own experience that often what is actually even more important gets unsaid, and therefore any diagnosis is made even more challenging for an already very challenged doctor. So is it possible that if doctor’s consultation times were extended, giving patients the space to share more, health issues would not be missed, saving both patient and the medical system so much in the future?

134. Great to identify that all the patterns of behaviour are secondary… a response to other areas and essentially the way we are living moment to moment… and the reason that is great, is that it brings more awareness to our quality of life.

135. Part of my secret medical history is being prone to care what others think about me more than how I feel within myself and it supports all kinds of expectations and behaviours that prevent a flow and harmony in life. Taking Matthews important message on board reveals layers of secret medical history that come to the core of separation we hold to a naturally loving connection to ourselves and others equally.

136. Our secret medical history – all of the things that we feel are hidden from the world but govern our every movement. It makes me wonder if we were more transparent with how we feel to those around us instead of pretending everything is fine, then just maybe when we go to the doctors we would also have more honest conversations.

137. It’s interesting Matthew as I read your ponderings here I could not help but consider….it’s no wonder we just keep going around and around in circles in health and not necessarily get anywhere. We think that health is improving. Yes certainly technology has advanced and the way we do this has absolutely improved, but it’s the what brings us to our health care providers that hasn’t changed and in fact it is getting much worse. Imagine going to the doctor because you were overweight and said something like “Doc there is something not right with the way I eat, it is uncontrollable, I know that whenever I feel anxious about something I head straight for the fridge at the first opportunity” This is the level of honesty that is needed, so that we begin to see the patterns that keep us small and do not grow us as people. We don’t need any new scientific discovery to show us this.

138. I love how there is nothing secret about our health history as it is communicated in everything we do, say and think. We might ‘think’ we can hide this but we are only hiding it from ourself.

139. Matthew it’s great to read this blog today as I consider my own secret history. I’m about to start a consultation with a naturopath and today I was filling out all the forms and they were so detailed and I realised how much I ignore or do not consciously address. And then I read this blog about secret history, magic. One thing I’m getting from all this is our behaviours come from hurts and issues we don’t address, so it feels like it’s time to dig deeper and allow that secret history to come out and see the light of day.

140. I love all your clues that something is brewing in the background. It often seems that we take no notice of them and wait until we are sick and then we want a quick fix. How irresponsible is that.

141. Great article Matthew. Our ‘medical history’ as we present it, really is just the outplay of a deeper layer of what is really going on. We are very good at treating or managing the outer, but quickly realising as a society that this form of management is not halting the progression or rapid development of many diseases. We indeed need to look deeper, if we are to in fact heal the momentums that drive so many health issues forward.

142. It is fascinating of what you write here. Often when someone is ‘suddenly struck down with illness’ and the big or the small, often you hear comments that it came from no-where. He/She was healthy, fine, etc…. But so often we ignore the secret side of health and we don’t take the time to look at the more subtle ways that we live our lives and how that can affect our body. This is a much needed conversation.

143. The secret history is becoming more and more relevant as illness and disease keep rising with no logical reason. The emotions we carry are starting to be considered as relevant thanks to those who have shown, dealing with them has an effect on physical health. We have to be experiments ourselves and then walk the talk to give others the confidence to do the same, then science and proof will follow. The proof is in the body, or is it the pudding?!

144. Accepting stress tension, angst , etc as part and parcel of everyday life is overriding the body’s messages that these emotions are not part of our true and natural state of being.

145. It is so great to read about the subtleties of life working their way through to all manners of our existence to the point that we can find illness and disease manifest in to our conscious reality – including disharmony in relationships.

146. ‘But this is not seen as a medical issue, because it hasn’t presented itself in the body as an illness yet, even though it is actually already there.’ Understanding this is when we will start to understand the cure of our ills in arresting the root cause before it manifests into a disease.

147. For the past 10 years I have been healing my emotional hurts that I have not talked about all my life. 10 years ago my body basically said I need to deal with this stuff. I was pretty lost at the time, I did not know what was going on.
     Simple-Living Global and Universal Medicine has supported me in this process, so much appreciation and gratitude towards them.
     If I had some kind of role model(someone that was feeling their feelings) when I was a child it totally would have changed my life,because my body knows how to deal with these emotional issues if I just feel them.
     Because of this work that I am doing, I can truly give back to this world by being the role model that I needed as a child.

148. There are some things I have never shared with anyone, I hold onto them, on the surface believing it was out of fear but now it feels more like I have kept things hidden away to avoid feeling the results of my choices that have not been loving. So as such rather than address that choice I carry a pain and a hurt and hide it away so that the hurt does not get tracked back to my own irresponsibility. I say this because in the times I have opened up and shared something that I have held back for years, it’s because I get to a point where I start to feel that that which I am holding onto, and the choices made that created that hurt are no longer me, thus there is a willingness for it to come to the surface and heal and/or learn from another’s perception how to heal from this situation/choice.

149. There is no part of the way we live that is irrelevant to our health.

150. Matthew, how correct this all is… It’s those quiet undercurrents that we accustom to living with such as a constant low level anxiety and/or nervous tension, the perennial worry, frustration, fleeting annoyances, stresses over work, family and life in general that then create the bigger more ‘acceptable’ issues.
     We succumb to these ailments being part of life, part of our make-up even when they are not. It’s as if we don’t feel we are actually worthy of living every one of our days with an openness and joy, a vitality and a connection to our inner most which surpasses any physical three-dimensional frustration we would otherwise choose to carry. It’s not that life is perfect or that things don’t come our way to test us and stress us, but we know that when these things do take place that is not our normal. We know that our normal is a spaciousness, a warmth and a deep joy of stillness that comes from our inner most knowing that we are a Son of God.

151. An amazing blog here Matthew that for me defines true healing. Modern medicine is very good at managing symptoms, just as humanity is very good at managing life, but without the full honesty of what is energetically or emotionally going on in the background, we will never get to the true root cause of any illness or condition. How we live is one of the greatest forms of medicine.

152. Matthew what you share is the future of medicine, looking at the choices we make, have made. Our unfoldment of secret past history to support todays healing. There is so much in us going back and looking at all the hurts we have buried and not dealt with to help us start the process of our own healing, before we even go to the medical professionals.

153. You are so right Mathew. When we get talking we tend to say “I don’t have any problems…oh but there is that rash that I have” or “I eat really healthily” but then when you actually look at the facts with the ‘occasional’ burger and beer they don’t add up. What you show is there is rampant dishonesty in the way we are with ourselves and this thrives on the lie that our life is made up of separate bits. For what your words show in no uncertain terms is this just isn’t true, but that every moment you live is medicine and it all travels with you.

154. Wow Matthew, I feel that we must become more honest with ourselves and admit that the way we live has its end result in how well we are in our bodies. It is not normal to get cancer, diabetes and heart disease because the statistics tell us so. We have a choice to make and become honest on the fact that we are the greatest contributors to the health of our bodies and in that stop hiding our secrets to the world.

155. Brilliant Matt. So what bits exactly do we consider add to our ‘medical history’? Absolutely everything!

156. We do tend to focus on the organs of the body with health, ie. when we are sick, we can feel it in the body, or an illness or disease presents, but what you have called out Matthew is there are a lot of other things like behaviours that are key to understanding our ill health.

157. I love this blog. We focus so much on the end point illness and risk factors for disease, but never consider the things we hide or feel ashamed of that can be brewing and harming our bodies like the first cells of a tumour. To admit they are there and know they are not who we really are is very healing.

158. It’s so true that we carry our public medical history around in a backpack for all to see and feel. Even the backpack is see-through so that all the details are actually there too.

159. It could for some be possible to go through a whole life without acknowledging any of our issues, and yet if we eat sugar, or caffeine regularly, or find relationships difficult, then it might be worth considering that our life we not be all that it seems. I know for years I medicated myself on heavy foods and alcohol and the overuse of sport to bury my feelings. Yet to recognise this and gain a greater understanding of why I make certain choices and what certain lifestyle behaviours are hiding was essential to my long term health. It is through addressing this that we have access to much more energy, joy and vitality in everyday life.

160. Our lifestyle factors play a huge part in our health, and would be great to be brought into consultations with a doctor or consultant who was aware of their significance. ‘The truth is, we compromise our body and our lives through the choices and decisions we make, which reverberate in a harmful way through our body.’

161. “However we soldier on, as we try to put on a public face that all is well.” This has got to be one of the most damaging things we can do.

162. ‘Unearthing’ and being truly transparent with our ‘secret history’ is one of the best, if not the greatest, medicine we can give ourselves.

163. Looks like we need to become gold prospectors, fossicking through our secret medical history (the false gold) and revealing the real gold nuggets always there, waiting to shine brightly, when we bring our issues into the light of day.

164. Our secret medical history will actually become not so secret at some point in our lives, as eventually whats been hiding has to come out one way or another. The body can manage for a period of time, as it has a great way of managing and balancing its delicate systems until, just like a car… it needs a tune up or a major overhaul.

165. This is the future of medicine, where we look at our choices and way of living and how this can be contributing to what we are experiencing. This way the medical professionals together with their clients support the healing process and not just treat the symptoms.

166. It’s true that we often are not as honest as we could be for fear of what others might think. It’s not about making anything good or bad but about looking at what is happening or has happened and sharing this as openly as possible, this way we get a broader perspective too and healing is already taking place.

167. Thank you Matthew for exposing the underlying tensions which lead to the behaviours resulting in our illness and disease which could perhaps start to be unravelled by bringing more understanding to and being more compassionate with ourselves.

168. Great blog Matthew! As you have highlighted our secret history is such valuable information to be shared with the GP or nurse in a medical/ nursing consultation. It can help bring a deeper awareness and understanding to the contributing factors to why dis-ease has occurred in our life, and then be able to offer more loving lifestyle choices. This level of honesty and transparency also allows for a deeper healing to occur.

169. Every aspect of our lives should be studied by ourselves to unveil our secret medical history. I have found that the more I return to my past hurts the deeper the understanding the greater the healing.

170. I believe you are talking about the future of medicine Matt. Where the relationship between our choices in daily life will surface to highlight huge amount of illnesses and diseases that plagues our modern society.

171. Looking at the list of examples from our everyday lives which affect our health it becomes easy to see just why illness and disease are so prevalent – especially considering our general unwillingness to go there and discuss the things which are affecting the quality of our lives. Openness and transparency in themselves are medicine in that they stop things from being hidden and buried, later to manifest into a physical or mental illness which will affect us all the more.

172. The line ‘we consider them irrelevant’ most times for men they are just some little annoying thing we just have to live with and or we can’t be bothered to see a doctor about it and waste their time. Many years ago I was in the Air Force, and they had an annual one and half mile fitness test. Depending on age you had you run in a particular time, 14 minutes for under 35 and 16 over that age. If you were over 35, you had to sign a statement that you were fit to run. One year, there was a person over 35 that signed the paper, did the run in the time required, went home and showered, on the way back to work he had stopped by the store to buy a pack of cigarettes and had a major heart attack and was gone. He did smoke a bit, a little overweight, was a bit winded and flushed walking up stairs… that was what we could see. Shortly after this incident and others, the Military changed the annual fitness check to an exercise bicycle with measured increased tension to get you heart rate above your resting rate within a time require by the matrix. It was like rocket science, the matrix used; your weight, age, height, sex and they may have had your shoe size just to make sure. The problem was fit people failed because they could not get their heart rate high enough. So it just shows that the tests are not a good measure of our fitness for life.

173. “…this private history is kept simmering in the background with a range of coping mechanisms that get us through life…” It appears we tend to have more of a relationship with the private simmering coping mechanism to buoyant us in life, moreso than having a private relationship with ‘love’ . I wonder if the ‘love’ relationship came first, before the ‘coping mechanism relationship’, just how much illness and dis-ease there would be? This is where developing the practice of self care and self love has the capacity and potential to change the presentation of illness and disease rates.

174. True Matthew, the medical profession is reluctant to fully address the issues around lifestyle choices that lead to illness and disease. Even though the WHO presents that the majority of chronic disease is caused by just that – poor lifestyle choices. Propped up by pharmaceuticals, and fuelled by irresponsibility of patients, doctors have largely resigned themselves to managing illness rather than fully endorsing true vitality health and well-being – but the latter can be the way of our future, if we choose to look deeper at what drives our ill-choices, and take steps towards true self-care and self-love.

175. You make a very good point here Matthew, highlighting the fact that, we care way more about the externals of our lives and not so much about what is really going on inside of us. This lack of self responsibility could easily be changed around if we just stopped pretending we are travelling okay, and fess up to how we are really feeling, and bringing it into our everyday conversation like you have so well hear Matthew, is a great start.

176. What I find very revealing about this “secret medical history” that we hold onto in our hidden treasure troves is the fact that we are hiding the consequences of the way we are living from others including ourselves until it is too late and the body cannot cope no longer. It is a bit like opening the cookie jar when no one is around and not wanting to be caught. It is no different because afterwards we lie (to ourselves too) that we have not touched it.

177. We’re keen to see our illnesses isolated and alone, as ‘unexpected events’. We pretend to ourselves that these situations are separate somehow from the way we are in all of our life, yet it all feeds into our health, all of the time. And what if it is not just these things we would rather hide that fit into the history you describe Mathew, but also all the choices from our past lives? This way of understanding history brings another scale to our lives.

178. Thank you for the reminder here Matthew -as challenging as it is to come to the realisation that everything that happens in our life is all down to our own choices (ouch) and bringing more awareness to this brings us back to self-responsibility.
     “The truth is, we compromise our body and our lives through the choices and decisions we make, which reverberate in a harmful way through our body”.

179. What great bullet points of emotions and reactions that we may just take for granted as ‘normal’ and yet they are vital to become aware of, as they are keys to what may be developing into sickness and illness a little further down the line.
     “These are all clues to something that is brewing in the background”.

180. “the public medical history, the one that is carried around like a backpack, that informs all health professionals just what type of body they are dealing with.” The truth of the body that’s under examination will not be known until deeper questions are asked and honestly answered, then maybe the pieces can begin to be put together for for a bigger picture on the true health of the body sitting before the medic.

181. To actually say that if we are not feeling truly joyful and vital in life we are already in illness might seem far fetched but I feel it is actually true. I can feel miserable from being not content in myself, from being frustrated and angry and definitely can feel sick of these emotions that I can express in the day. We often call this normal or ‘our character’ but what if this is not true and we actually are not our moods and that they are actually ways of dealing with life we learned when life got tough? If we would see these moods and reactions of ours as a sign something is not quite right or going on for us – this could be a huge prevention of illness and disease later in life as well as a huge support to live a truly joyful and vital life.

182. It is what we accept as ‘normal’ that leads to all that we can recognise as so very abnormal in the world today.

183. The secret medical history that men have is the one we don’t even know about! We don’t or can’t get ill because of the beliefs we have taken on, illness becomes a sign of weakness so we just don’t go there. If we don’t know, is there a problem? I have been there in the past myself. Half the problem was being so numb the body’s messages were never heard. When we start to choose not to numb ourselves and listen to our bodies joy-full living slowly returns.

184. I felt such sadness reading your blog today realising how much of a private war so many of us are having…for some that might be a small contained war but for others it is a world-wide war in their bodies. This blog has highlighted how we need much more understanding, awareness and compassion in our world for our fellow brothers and sisters.

185. Knowing our body and the way we treat it very well can support us with the clarity we need to be able to communicate with the medical profession should some illness present itself. It also supports us to care for it more on a daily basis.

186. Really understanding that everything we do affects our bodies and how well or not they function is awake up call to how much responsibility we take for our choices and depth we are prepared to look at.

187. What have we done/are doing to ourselves with what we are hiding? As you have said Mathew, what we bury will and does not stay hidden. When we are willing to look deeper at what we have not wanted to look at is when change begins.

188. Looking at the list of issues provided here of the many issues we may be just living with is a great start. The fact is that we have let the bar slide so low that we no longer consider it an ill to wake up with a lack of joy and vitality. If every area of life is not going well, there is something to look at. Does not need to be heavy, just a healthy curiosity and openness with ourself is all that is needed. This article is a great wake up call.

189. Becoming more honest with ourselves is key to living a more fulfilling life not just for us but for everybody.

190. The problem is that I am not considering the ‘secret medial history’ that I am holding as an issue for my health while in fact they are the root cause of all the illnesses and diseases I experience in life. From me observing the medical state of being of people in our current societies I conclude I am not the only one who holds and lives with these secrets.

191. We think we are not the cause of our circumstances and look to the external to blame when things go wrong and yet we always have the choice in each moment to change the quality that we live and move in.

192. There is such vulnerability in being ill, which offers us the opportunity to consider how the way in which we have been living may have contributed to the body manifesting the issue.

193. So true Matthew, without addressing the underlying and hidden symptoms of our issues there is little hope for the malady to be addressed. There might be relief of symptoms, however all the little hidden details are the roots and beginnings of our physical manifestations.

194. I have observed many times, true healing occurring just when people are being assessed for a physical or mental health issues. It seems to me in the relationship between patient and health practitioner there is possibility where there is openness, trust and willingness to take responsibility for the issue, the process begins.

195. The secret medical history shows us that our health or ill-health is a result of all the choices we make in life. All of our choices have an affect on who we are and how we are in the world, including our health. The one little, seemingly insignificant choice still has an affect. What we do in the ‘privacy’ of our own home still affects the way we are with others.

196. Matthew – what you have written here is so profound and important. That it comes from the qualified pen of a nurse makes it all the more insightful because there can be few better placed than you to see the world’s health for what it truly is. Thank you for taking the time to bring these game-changing observations to our attention and for expressing it with such grace and clarity.

197. Books, pamphlets, papers, articles…everything should be written about this. It’s such a ginormous topic and so insane that it is so widely ignored. Within that back-pack is stored the root of so much illness and disease. If our doctors, the system and we ourselves were prepared to look inside and perhaps unpack some of it, the world would be unrecognisably different. This is gigantic.

198. For the medical profession to explore the ‘genesis of sickness’ by looking at what creates disharmony in the body on all levels, would turn medicine upside down. Then our secret medical history would be out in the open and part of our everyday conversations, to constantly be looking at and taking responsibility for.

199. I feel that sometimes the things which are not spoken about or brought to the fore are not always secret or that way deliberately so but simply because we have a culture in which we are not used to discussing our behavior and the reasons for it from what we do feel.

200. Great blog Matthew, I like how you bring awareness to all the stuff we keep hidden and some of our ways of covering them up, focusing on what may seem normal with the everyday troubles in life. There is a deeper level and responsibility to our health that lies with us that our bodies will always show us.

201. It’s interesting isn’t it, that the things we keep to ourselves like feeling anxious in crowds of people, not being able to sleep at night or having times when we feel sad are not things that we are always willing to share with a medical professional because on some level we are aware of why they are there but do not want to take responsibility for them. If these symptoms have been there for a long time then we start to see them as just being a part of who we are and as being normal to us. But by overriding what we know is dismissing the true connection we have with our bodies, and these ailments will eventually contribute to, if not cause, the inevitable physical symptoms that will follow.

202. Our secret medical history can never truly be hidden. We all know it’s there and there is an awful lot of energy that goes into numbing, distracting, avoiding and denying it. To even think it is hidden reveals the dishonesty that we can run with.

203. It is quite alarming to think that we do not (choose not to?) make the connection that stress and a nervous tension in our bodies, “living with fear and anxiety” is already a precursor to disease and illness. A body that is not in harmony is already in harms way.

204. This ‘hidden’ medical history is one that exposes that we actually know the way we live is what leads to illness and disease. Hence why we ‘hide’ it, to avoid a greater level of responsibility in our choices.

205. It’s interesting how each of us has a hidden set of symptoms which we feel are unimportant or do not hold any bearing when describing our ills to the doctor, and yet we have the expectation that the doctor should then be able to tell us what is ailing us. Maybe if we were more transparent with the medical profession we would get a clearer picture of what ails us.

206. I could say that you have opened up a can of worms and that would be correct; but then, this can of worms does need to be opened as our secret medical history (which is not so secret as our body will eventually reflect to us and others what has been going on behind closed doors, so to speak) is the energetic precursor to our obvious and on the surface medical history.

207. ‘The truth is, we compromise our body and our lives through the choices and decisions we make, which reverberate in a harmful way through our body.’ There is a great belief that we are ‘getting away with it’ when we experience a stomach ache that eventually goes away, or a strained muscle that repairs itself or a bruise that fades. Our bodies have amazing self-healing properties, but we do abuse them. Even a debilitating hangover can become a distant memory. These are all messages our body has given us to say that what we have just consumed is not good for us. Similarly when we get emotional and tension builds in our body and eventually stays there, permanently. Paying attention at the start paves the way for better health at the end.

208. Our secret medical history, being something that may not be shared, but may also be something we ourselves can feel, but are avoiding looking into or holding back. This whole arena of secret medical history is well worth a study into, in relation to how it impacts illness and dis-ease development.

209. Those ‘secrets’ that we hold within, thinking that because noone can see or feel them other than us, do contribute to how we are living and what illnesses can come about as a result. There is so much to consider here, that we really do hold all the responsibility for our own healing and health.

210. There will come a day, hopefully not a thousand years or more from now, when we will all fully understand what you are saying here Matthew and only then will we stem the tide of illness and disease and get back to a true way of living for all.

211. Are we truly willing to see that ‘boredom’ at work, or dissatisfaction in a relationship – when not addressed and accepted as our status quo, are indeed ailments?
     More articles please Matthew Brown – you write as a true physician, who considers the whole of who we are, and sees clearly the pathways which lead to the more ‘obvious’ ailments that can indeed manifest. Thank-you.

212. Matthew, this blog is the most divine music to my ears – thank-you for writing it.
     You have touched on the suffering we endure, if not allow, in our every day – that our societies have largely become accustomed to, and accepted as our ‘normal’… Yet any such disharmonies are indeed “a medical issue” and “the genesis of sickness” as you’ve described.
     We are so much more than the lives we’ve largely accepted as ‘ok’ – acknowledging this truth, and addressing what ails us, however ‘secretly’, is the key to returning to the richness that has always awaited us within, and living it in full.

213. If we were to also add things like; do we bloat, how much water do we drink / also coffee or tea, do we walk each day just for the pleasure of walking, do we communicate with others is that expression done lovingly, how do we sleep, what time do we go to sleep plus what time do we wake up, which are all extremely relevant questions. These additional questions I feel make up a simple part of our medical history that everyone would benefit from!

214. A great blog Matthew, bringing to the fore our hidden ways and choice to keep them hidden, all because we feel embarrassed, uncomfortable, feel like the odd one out and so on. But these hidden seemingly insignificant things, could mean the difference between truly living life and enjoying it, to existing and getting by.

215. Love this article Mathew, in acknowledging, sharing and expressing what is really going on for us everyone benefits. Thank you for highlighting how deeply healing it is for all involved when we have the courage to be open and honest.

216. We can all learn and heal so much if we are open to expose our secret medical history, for here lies the answers to a lot of the behaviours etc that then lead to the outside, physical medical issues. We can put a bandaid on, but what supports us most is if we look a bit deeper rather than just the surface level of what is actually going on.

217. I was just thinking of this list and other examples are the everyday things we live with, like

     not having a loving relationship with our wife, husband or partner
     getting frustrated easily
     getting angry at the cars that speed
     secretly gambling or watching porn without our partner knowing
     daydreaming about meeting another man/woman
     not really feeling motivated to do anything
     constantly having to keep busy
     moving from relationship to relationship or not wanting to be in a relationship
     getting bored with our job
     not getting on with work colleagues.

     What is a shame, is that most of our society would consider and see this as normal but it is not, and is a sign that something else is going on that is not being addressed.

218. I wonder how much we keep secret from ourselves as well, how much have we buried really deep?

219. What a great blog exposing what is really going on underneath, the secret ways we learn to cope with life and the things we keep hidden but in truth undermines all we are and do. Illness and disease is then the only way these things get a chance to be released from the build up in our bodies of the disregard and lack of caring and true responsibility we live. A great call and expose Mathew and allows a start for true healing health and joy and appreciation of who we are.

220. It’s so true that there are so many factors that influence our health. The way we live, the things we experience, the way we react, the choices we make, the relationships we have. They all contribute to what our body experiences and therefore how it feels, what it develops and how fit and vital it is. This is an awareness that is much needed in the world of health.

221. Looking underneath the symptoms we show to find the root cause is key, regardless of whether our history is ‘secret’ or not. Healing the hurts we may have previously buried can cause symptoms to simply melt away.

222. Denial is another one you can add to the list of everyday things we live with Mathew, we all know the consequences but we deny to ourselves that the statistics could well include us down the track.

223. Secrets we even keep from ourselves, because we are not willing to be responsible for our choices and behaviours that precede a diagnosis or illness.

224. Everyone personally and we as a society need to learn to track back every aspect that contributes to the final problem, illness or disease we then struggle to solve or heal, and we have to go back to the very starting point of any disharmony where we allowed to deviate from what we actually knew to be true and harmonious. Then we can heal the root causes and the consequent complications of any problem, conflict, illness and disease. That doesn´t mean that the ‘symptoms’ simply disappear but that we won´t need to repeat the same mistake again and can move forward on a new and true foundation.

225. Having a discussion with a very good friend of mine recently we talked about some of the things that we recognised we were trying to keep secret, things that we would never mention to another, but because we voiced them we started to understand more about the underlying energy which was fuelling the behaviour. Having a secret life it would seem is unhealthy and by keeping it secret only goes on to keep the pattern well and truly anchored in the body – isn’t it healthier then to shine a light on these hidden little secrets.

226. This is where I am finding the Our Cycles App so supportive, it opens up a willingness in myself to look at this secret history as an undercurrent throughout my life. More and more I am becoming aware of patterns and repeating situations again and again of when these behaviours flare up and just like a rash that may repeat again and again or hay fever that comes a certain times of the year these emotions and behaviours can be questioned as to their cause in the same way once we start to explore it more. Before hay fever was studied and understood as a histamine reaction it would have needed observation – person goes near flower, gets reaction, no flower, no reaction. Approaching this secret history is no different and starts with observing ourselves.

227. This is a beautifully revealing blog, we are so good in holding these thing secret, and think they aren’t having any long term effects, but they definitely will show in how our bodies are. It is great to get this awareness, and start to build the honesty of having them released and open to healing them.

228. In identifying our ‘secret history’ (e.g., anxiousness, nervousness, sadness, frustration) opens the door to be able to address some of these emotional dis-harmonies, that eventually (over time) could have the potential of creating ‘dis-ease’ within the body.

229. It is when we share our secret history that we can start reconnecting back to our true selves -perhaps we avoid sharing because we are avoiding the reconnection as well.

230. When visiting a doctor we have a bare 10 minutes to discuss what’s going on with our health. I know my esoteric practitioner much better and she knows much more of my ‘secret history’. Together there is a more holistic approach.

231. Reading this again has given me a new appreciation of why we have to address these things that we see as insignificant and unimportant which can then lead onto illness and dis-ease within our bodies.
     What really stands out for me is when we say we are well but underneath we can feel that we are not, that something is disturbing us and in that split second we choose to override it.

232. I read this again this morning completely in appreciation of every word being shared. This really is what living medicine is about Matthew, getting to that secret history, start to be honest about it and understand how it lays the seeds of illness and disease, or if we choose can lay the seeds of great harmony, joy, health and well being.

233. A brilliant exposé Matthew of where my diseases hail from! A headache, rash or stiffness is the end result of my ‘secret’ medical history as you have shared here. Imagine what this costs our governments each year and the difference it would make if we used the term – secret or underlying medical history and public or obvious medical history?!

234. “But there is another history we keep hidden. This secret history is the one we keep really personal and generally don’t share with anyone, or maybe only one other person. These secrets are the vital evidence and the foundation of our ill ways, ill health and poor decisions. They may at first seem irrelevant or even minor, but they are crucial to understanding the person as a whole, and hold the clues to the kinds of events, illnesses or injuries that happen to people.”
     Medical histories are always so much more than what is being shared. When I sit with clients and talk about their health, it is the things that don’t get said that I hone in on. This gives us so much more as clues as to what is really going on.

235. Matthew, your list of things we do to avoid feeling who we truly are is very comprehensive and very revealing. If we consider that most of these things are all relatively accepted ways of behaving on a day to day basis, there is much for us to ponder and reflect upon here, as it is showing that rather than really feeling what is going on in our bodies, we are using these behaviours to keep us in a state of function, rather than in true health and vitality.

236. I love re-reading this blog, Matthew, as it confirms the counselling work that I offer as a key component in looking after our general health. The unspoken about behaviours, holding patterns, ways of relating etc can contribute enormously to our state of wellbeing, and sometimes they are so engrained that we are not aware of them ourselves. To ignore this aspect in our lives is irresponsible, as it can hold the key to unlocking tension and disharmony from the body.

237. Lifestyle and our emotional health make a big difference to our health. Awareness and transparency help us to accept, look at and heal harmful habits and behaviours.

238. This is such a great article, it is very hard to compartmentalise our lives and just report on one section without considering how they all relate to each other.

239. Knowing and looking at our ‘secret medical history’ – in other words the things we carry with us on the inside and our hurts from the past, can give us a much greater understanding of our ‘public’ or more temporal medical history; our illnesses, conditions, injuries and so forth. The two can work together to make a whole picture of our and our bodies’ past, how we’ve chosen to live and the relationship we have to what has happened around us throughout our lives.

240. Reading this article again I was struck with how sad this existence we tend to choose is, when we try to hide all manner of facts about ourself, whether they are true or imagined is almost besides the point when realising how protected and separate we make ourself by stopping ourself from being transparent and also sabotage the ease with which we could unfold out of those issues. We are designed to have open and loving connection with others, it is not surprising that this protected and insular way of living undermines our health and vitality.

241. When a medical history is taken, often associated factors are also listed, for example: How much alcohol is consumed in a day?, Do you smoke?, How much exercise do you do? Family history of cardiovascular disease? All to build the picture of predisposing factors that could contribute to a potential illness. Perhaps one day, history taking will include the list of emotional responses as a way of identifying a greater detail of predisposing factors, and provide a deeper level of healing.

242. Great blog Matthew, as the ‘public medical history’ simply presents the dis-ease as being the tip of the iceberg, and yet the manifestation of symptoms has a more private and longer history in the making. Looking at and addressing our emotional health (for example, hurts, frustrations, anger, sadness, anxieties, nervousness) would greatly reduce the list of predisposing factors that contribute to dis-ease.

243. “This secret history will cause the lifestyle choices that we make”, that in itself is the mother lode of gold nuggets in this blog which itself is absolute GOLD.

244. In a way, the voting results seen recently in Britain to leave the EU are simply the manifestations of feelings not shared for decades. Had these feelings of anger, frustration and fear been openly discussed, we may be living in a very different world.

245. This blog opens up communication and connection – until we are truly honest we can go nowhere and the underlying causes of the illness continue to fester and manifest themselves into the high rate of illness and disease we see today.

246. I just adore the honesty in this awesome blog! Reading it I can feel how the world feels a sense of shame in experiencing all these feelings. We live in a world where a perfect picture is presented in so many ways; that it intensifies our feelings to be even more shameful. But they are natural! We don’t worry about admitting we have a headache, so why the concern to share we are feeling shy or anxious, or angry or frustrated? I know my open and honest manner is deeply refreshing for most I interact with as it then gives them permission to do the same and realise we are all far from perfect and actually experiencing the same things. Best to be vulnerable together and sharing than hiding behind closed doors letting it fester.

247. You have brought up a very deep and interesting subject here Matthew. I had not considered how these personal issues and ways of being in the world affected my health and the healing process! This is something that from now on I will feel more free to share with Doctors and Practitioners alike, recognising their worth in the healing process of our lives.

248. Our health is so much more than just our physical health. If the medical profession paid attention to the details you talk about here Matthew, the general state of the world population would potentially look very different from the way it does now. By looking at the way we eat and what we eat and our daily choices about how we live would be a really great place to start.

249. How we live, our lifestyle, affects our health, so if our GP brought this into the picture I am sure they would gain more understanding on our health. The problem is GP’s have very little time for a full consult, five minutes is the norm in the UK.

250. The public medical history is the one that encourages us to say we are fine when we are asked even if we are not while the secret medical history is about truth which is expressed from our bodies.

251. There are many things we live with that can contribute to an underlying anxiousness, and more often than not we may not be that aware of them until we allow ourselves to explore these things. But this anxiousness in the background over a long period of time can transform into a condition, an illness or a disease, so it is well worth attending to it before it escalates. This is a great reminder Matthew that we can indeed catch things early enough and work with what is being presented. Thank you!

252. It appears to me also Matthew that this “secret medical history” of ours is simply for the protection of so many hurts that we are carrying; hurts that get in the way of living a full, healthy and joyful life. Maybe it is that we are embarrassed to share this history as we feel we will be judged, seen as weak and lesser than others; if so, the question is why do we feel like this? The answer I feel can be found in our childhood years, a time when we often weren’t acknowledged for who we were and, what we shared was sometimes not listened to, so we gave up on expressing how we truly felt and began to keep “secrets”, building a pattern in our lives which has simply followed us through from childhood into adulthood.

     1. Spot on Ingrid, there is so much in our ‘secret medical history’ that we have yet to reveal, but I would also say that it takes a very caring practitioner to support a client in feeling safe enough to divulge and share their full story. And even with the most caring practitioner, you also need a client who is willing to go there and be super honest.

253. Opening the door to the secret ways we live that we know are not healthy, or loving, must first be done for ourselves. Once we can admit that behaviour, or that past event is not who we are, the healing can begin.

254. Actually exposing our secret medical history to someone opens us up and reduces our protection we have when we think we are the only ones thinking some of these things. It brings us together when there’s no judgement of someone speaking about their secret medical history, it’s very releasing and reduces the tension. I was not even aware this existed within me until I read your blog Matthew last month so it’s very healing thank you.

255. It feels that there are so many ideals and beliefs around our medical background of how we would like it to be and how we should relate to this with ourselves and others. Moving beyond this opens the opportunities for true healing and to learn so much from others around us – just pick any blog on this site as a perfect example.

256. Amazing dissection of our secret medical history Matthew! We all know there are things we each carry, like lack of confidence, nervous speaking in crowds etc, it is taught to celebrate our individuality, but the things that bind us, such as the divine fire within, is a truly remarkable aspect of us. Our innate connection to one another can’t be denied.

257. Beautifully expressed Matthew… And the revelation is that is this secret medical history that Universal Medicine addresses and as a consequence there is so much that has the potential to be healed in all of our lives, in fact humanity itself, and imagine the new way forward that this opens up

258. We have become so invested and used to looking at the short term, the quick fix, that we have stopped stopping – that is truly arresting ourselves and taking a deep look back at how and why we got where we did. When I take a moment to stop and work backwards to the root cause, everything becomes very clear, even the way forward. How amazing and supportive would this be if we were to bring this way of being into the medicinal world too.

259. The examples you offer of the everyday things we live with and accept as normal like; not having a loving relationship with our wife, husband or partner, getting frustrated easily, getting angry at the cars that speed, secretly gambling or watching porn without our partner knowing, daydreaming about meeting another man/woman etc. is revelatory. The resulting behaviours that come from these are also considered absolutely normal. Yet we don’t consider the long-term health effects that result from them. Your blog is great in raising awareness of how this all interlinks and makes all the dots join up.

260. “Living with these fears or anxieties disrupts the natural harmony in the body. Our heart rate is affected, and our blood pressure may increase. Not to forget our nervous system that is always ‘on’, which causes stress and tension in our muscles, our connective tissue and also on the endocrine system.”

     We need to treat he body as a whole and not only the part, as it functions as a whole and not only the part, to treat the part or symptom will never produce a vital, healthy and well body and being.

261. “I call this the public medical history, the one that is carried around like a backpack, that informs all health professionals just what type of body they are dealing with. These are the problems that are often managed with medication, and the more you are on, and the higher the dose, the greater your problems are.”

     This ‘public medical history’, is very limited as it’s only going on things like one’s blood test results, medications, scans, x-rays etc. These are all very important records, but are not looking deeper at the bigger picture of how the person is living that created the health complications in the first place.

262. It makes a lot of sense what you are presenting Matthew, there is a bigger picture that needs presenting about our medical history and health, as without this how can the doctor or health practitioner get the complete overview and treat the whole body, the person and not just the symptom or part of the body.

263. When we go and see a doctor, they are usually so busy and there is so little time for them to meet you and get an in depth consultation. When I make an appointment to see my doctor, when I feel it’s needed I will book a long consult, this way we have the time to discuss in depth all that’s going on in more detail and I get the care and professional advice that my body needs and deserves.

264. Great blog, Matthew and how the volumes of people in doctors waiting rooms may change if we brought this level of understanding and responsibility into our lives.

265. The more honest and open I am prepared to be about what is going on with my body and the way I live, the more empowered I am to make changes and be inspired by others.

266. “A willingness to look at this secret history of ours can offer us the opportunity to see and deal with our old hurts and open us up to the possibility of living a truly healthy and joyful life.” This is so true Matthew, if we are able and willing to honestly look at our life and make the necessary changes it is possible to let go of issues and prevent diseases later in life, with the added benefit of freeing up the need of family, society and community funds to look after us.

267. Matthew, what you present is a level of responsibility for our health that we can all easily step into. It makes perfect sense that the feelings in our bodies affect our health, so if I am say angry about an event I now can look more deeply about what is going on that has created the reaction which affects my body. And affect it for sure as I know that I feel tense and at a point of dis-ease. I am learning that the more I share my feelings the lesser this feeling can take hold, and small emotional reactions don’t have to manifest into larger physical problems.

268. When I feel now how I have hidden my secret history, it makes me realise how I hid lots of my life. It looked ok on the outside but how I lived was very different from what I used to show. Feeling to be more honest and transparent, I know now how much the secret hiding affected me. But that’s ok because once we know it, we learn to let the holding go.

269. Our choices have such far-reaching consequences that really determine the trajectory of our lives. In other words, do we make decisions that lighten us up or create a heaviness that anchors down.

270. How different would medicine be if we actually really honestly told the truth when we went to see the doctor, instead of a watered down version of what we wanted them to know.

271. Hi Matthew, thank you for this blog. Everything that is said here makes sense and is very easy to relate to. When I read your comment – ‘They may at first seem irrelevant or even minor, but they are crucial to understanding the person as a whole, and hold the clues to the kinds of events, illnesses or injuries that happen to people’ – I could feel and see in myself and in others around me how we were all living the choices we have made – that our past and current choices create the life we live and our future. You have encouraged us all to go a little deeper and look at how our lives have been from birth, through school and growing up and the hurts we have chosen along the way which still impact on us today. Our Medical system does an amazing job in caring for our health and if it was to include a deeper acknowledgement of the deeper ‘personal’ issues and choices affecting service users then I feel the rates of illness and disease will drop. This is a beautiful, informative and open blog – thank you for sharing the immense wisdom within it.

272. Up until recently I spent many years avoiding visits to the doctor. Not that I had anything particualrly wrong to warrant a visit, but I would even avoid check ups that I had been invited to go to. Part of the reason was that I always felt I was being short changed, that the doctor didn’t want to know about me and how I was, but only about my symptoms, as if there was no connection between the two. Over the last two or three years I have chosen to change this approach that I have had, and to go and see a doctor to simply get myself checked out, to make sure that everything is working as it should be, and at the same time have been able to ask about some minor changes that are going on in my body. By doing this I have been able to open up the conversation and to begin to introduce some of my ‘secret medical history’ for the record. It has felt extremely liberating, and also honouring of myself to do so, and along with my doctor, I am building a much clearer picture of how my body works both inside and out, and what is has had to do to support me because Ive ignored it at this level, and how I can now support it in a way I have not done before.

273. I work in a massage clinic and quite regularly new clients do not fill in the medical history in the consent form. I can turn the tables on myself and know I have done this as well when attending appointments. I have been selective about what I share determining what is relevant or not. What I have become aware of as a practitioner is that a lot of people are not aware of the contraindications of massage and can be putting themselves at risk. We seem to only want to have half the conversation when we are seeking bandaid solutions to relieve the pain, imagine feeling supported enough to look at why the pain was there in the first place

274. When I need medical attention, I cannot rely on my medical practitioner to ‘go there’ and engage about my true medical history – the precursor that I need to heal . It is my responsibility to hold that understanding as I present my ailment and if the practitioner responds, great. If not it’s up to me to continue to make choices that support my body.

275. This is one of the best blogs I have read Matthew Brown. It has stayed with me. When the symptoms are treated and not the cause, it is costly on all counts and is really a lie; an acceptable one!

276. This is a great look at disease, that it starts way before it manifests into an obvious symptom in our body. Thank you for detailing that our behaviours are a result of being already at dis-ease with ourselves and not something we do because we simply like it.

277. The little fears and anxieties that you talk about Matthew do so contribute to a disharmony in the body. When we don’t talk about these openly, we do have the situation of putting on a ‘public face’ and then soldiering on. This does not help in the long nor short run. These things ‘fester’ in us and grow till they become an illness of sorts – and then we talk about them under the guise of a diagnosis. Often we might feel we are not responsible for the diagnosis, but when we allow ourselves to feel the unwritten medical history there is much to consider in how we may have played a part. This level of accountability is far from being comfortable to take on board, and is very confronting, and asks us to really open up and be honest. But with the right support and safe environment, it is possible to explore. And from here can lead to so much more.

278. How we live our lives, our lifestyle has a huge impact on our health, bringing more understanding and awareness to our choices and what we choose to do helps us to start being responsible for our health.

279. “…this private history is kept simmering in the background with a range of coping mechanisms that get us through life…” And it is the un-dealt with, dismissed reactions, behaviours and even blame that keeps the ‘simmering’ going. Introduce self care and self love, and this is the start of the ‘simmering’ to come off the heat. Self Care and self love – A vital ingredient to medicine that has the capacity to dismantle many illnesses and diseases.

280. Being truly honest with ourself about every aspect of our health and not dismissing anything opens up the opportunity for change – to see that the disharmony doesn’t actually belong no matter how small we may consider it to be in comparison to something else. This way we can also catch things earlier before they progress into more serious conditions.

281. It is vital for our ongoing physical health that we expose and are honest about those things that have affected us but which we do not express. It can be very hard to do this, as we tend to have a lot of practice in not saying those things or admitting them to anyone, even ourselves.

282. Our secret history really is so important and not talked about but once we delve under the covers there is so much to be revealed that simply makes sense to the way we are living and the changes we can make by looking at and addressing these holdings that makes space and can free us up to live and be who we truly are, amazing loving divine beings.

283. Our ‘secret medical history’ is actually more important in the diagnosis process as it highlights the root causes of our physical medical history, without one set of history we’re not getting the whole picture of the other and yet if we had true understanding of the ‘secret’ stuff that goes on we wouldn’t even have the physical issues manifest the way that they do. This blog is profound in that it brings to the light the whole picture of our bodies, their illnesses, aches, pains and disease and shows us that in true responsibility we are best to expose, uncover, communicate about and deal with our underlying emotional issues or tensions so to support ourselves and our bodies to heal what we have carried or taken on.

284. Super exposing article Matthew, thank you. We each have the choice to heed the details, to take responsibility – or we can wait until we end up with another symptom, illness or event to throw into the backpack (our public medical history).

285. Having a real discussion about preventative medicine starts here, the detail at which our “medical history” starts is so significant. From feeling anxious (something that is common for most of us) onwards. Nothing is too small to be insignificant.

286. This article is all about the true medical history behind the paperwork – accessible to all of us if we are simply willing to get a bit honest about, and responsible for, the trajectory of our own lives and societies. This willingness can access a whole lot of important information that means our choices are better informed and impulsed.

287. “We all have our way of ‘getting through the day’ and our body does try to rebalance and compensate, but it can’t do this forever.” This is so true Matthew. We have all learned to cope with what we often perceive as our lot in life, not for a moment stopping to consider what this coping is actually doing to our body. I have learned the hard way that the damage is immense and has no chance of being healed until we take the time to stop and take a long and deeply honest look at the way we are living; then finally from this stop we have the space to offer ourselves the opportunity to begin this most needed healing.

288. What’s great about this article is that it calls out what is behind the standard aches and pains we bring to the doctor – it is the responsibility of how we are living. There is so much to say and share about our choices, how we respond to things, what we eat, how we live, how open we are – all of these contribute to our health and it is so important to look at this and be honest with ourselves of how we live.

289. I had a lovely chat about this subject this week, as in ‘what do you keep to yourself’ and why do we do this. I said that I still don’t openly share about certain things out of shame and that somebody might judge me. The thing, I judge myself about these things. That is also the reason that it does not change. These areas where I keep secrets ask for more love and understanding from my side.

290. There is much more that people say without talking. The speaking part is only one part of a medical history and also it is only one part of any conversation we have with a person. There is so much that goes unsaid, but that we are all capable of picking up on in another, if we so allow it. It is in the posture of the person, it is in the way they walk, it is in the way they talk and the thing that stays unspoken. Once a certain trust is built up, then these things can often be broached more in the open and then the ‘real’ stuff can come out. Not that the first spoken part is not important, but the complete picture is received when a person actually speaks the unspoken which we have already sensed to begin with.

291. My feeling is that doctors are aware of a lot of the stages but they may be less sure how to convey that awareness to their patients in such a way that their patients stop progressing through the stages. Much of how to avoid chronic diseases is well known but it is not well known how to get large parts of the population to live accordingly.

     1. Doug, you are quite right, but it is not happening. Something is holding doctors back severely from taking care of themselves.

292. This is powerful Matthew. Bringing to the fore the ‘secret history’ that plagues us, that we carry around with shame and discomfort, that festers in our body, exposing it to the light is indeed true medicine.

293. This is a wonderful article exposing how our secret history doesn’t remain secret if we continue loveless choices. Indeed these choice are never really secret because we all feel and see these loveless choices impact our relationships and our lifestyles so that they ultimately impact our health in a way that they cannot remain secret and we have to seek medical attention.

     I know I feel very uncomfortable with loveless choices – like I feel disrespectful not just to myself but to all others because I’m being dishonest – I’m making choices that don’t reflect who I truly am and yet I play this game of pretending all is well, all because I feel everyone else making loveless choices and I don’t want to be the odd one out. But if we’re all waiting to not be the odd one out we’re in a status quo where we’re all making ourselves sicker and sicker because no-one wants to admit the way they are living is directly connected to their health. Like we go so far and say, yes drinking, for example, harms your liver but are unwilling to look at what makes us want to drink in the first place. So this discussion and honesty needs to take place and I, like everyone else, am responsible for bringing it to the fore – else illness and disease rates will continue to rise with no other way being presented.

294. ‘These are all clues to something that is brewing in the background,’ which is when our mind is running away with us, and taking our body on a wild goose chase around blind corners, over cliffs figuratively speaking, or simply on a journey down memory lane – these are all just for the emotional up or down experience, that causes a great deal of anxiety.
     My feeling is that this type of control is felt in every fiber of our body, and our body is going stop, go back! So in essence the body is saying ‘re-connect to love’ – that love we all were as a young child. ‘These are all clues to something that is brewing in the background’ and I use these clues as a basis for my choice to bring about loving changes in my life.

295. Matthew, I love how you talk about ‘our secret history’ and all the stuff we keep hidden and rarely talk about. Perhaps if we were to talk about the stuff we don’t usually talk about we may be a great deal healthier.

296. We tend to veil our sight onto our own choices in life and the true level of our health and wellbeing. A great way to do this is to compare ourselves to times we ourselves were less well or to others. For example our chronic back pain is fine because we do not have cancer, or our glass of wine is fine because we do not drink a bottle a day etc. We trivialize our choices by comparing them to extremes and thus convincing ourselves that all is ok.

297. ‘If we wait until it manifests into a physical issue, it is then so much harder to treat.’ – so very true, what ever emotion and issue is not dealt with manifests in the physical in way of symptoms.

298. Another great point you make here Matthew is that we accept the ‘secret medical history’ of those in our lives as ‘being just who they are’ and same with ourselves, that’s ‘just me being me’. So we identify with these patterns and choices in a way that disempowers us from actually making true changes. If we dare to see ourselves and each other as much more then we have so far we can start to address life at this level and bring in more honesty and awareness.

299. Matthew this is awesome, your blog has reminded me of how much I did indeed keep secret; my lack of self-worth and confidence, self-doubt, worries, my eating habits, at times even my drug use, late nights, thought patterns… It is now all very open and very relevant, as I understand the importance of all these things and the impact on my health and wellbeing. Reading your blog made me realise though that the reason I kept it secret is that somewhere within I knew this all along.

     1. It feels great to put it all on the table, so to speak. It all pre-disposes us to a life that just isn’t who we are, a life that is forced to take the side roads of life rather than driving straight down the highway of life, knowing who we are and what we are here to bring.

300. Truly sharing our issues brings up unknown problems that then lay on the table for us to see them for what they are and to discard them, which becomes a loving choice. As with all things, this does not happen over-night but our issues are not us and when the presentations by Serge Benhayon are applied every issue is dissolved.

301. It’s so true Matthew. Far too many of us have our little secrets based on our ideals and beliefs and unresolved hurts that hide from others and even ourselves why we have made the poor lifestyle choices we have made in the past and why we continue making them today. So without doubt ‘these secrets are the vital evidence and the foundation of our ill ways, ill health and poor decisions’ that all need to be exposed for true healing to occur.

302. Matthew I like the connection you have made between unresolved hurts and illness and disease. How important is it for the purpose of evolution for this to be considered by the broader community.

     1. Yes, medical science, especially psychology, is patchily aware of this relationship. It would be useful to see just how pervasive and all-encompassing the link is.

303. It’s so true Matthew, I find if I reflect on areas of my life that make me uncomfortable, then they no longer hold the same effect over me. It is even just in acknowledging how something makes me feel, that is often enough. Talking to someone about how day to day experiences are has also been a huge factor for me. Holding back is something men in particular do, loading the body with unexpressed emotions, I used to try to release this through sport, but it was never effective in the way talking about something has been, the expressions, thoughts and feelings holds an honesty and a willingness that really allow me to feel healthier in my body.

304. Matthew you have mentioned many things in your blog that are not considered to be medical conditions yet but they are in fact illnesses that are making us sick. As long as medicine insists on dealing only with the obvious physical and mental disorders which are the extreme end results of how we are living, we will be struggling to cope with the rates and severity of illnesses and diseases. But if we start to see medicine as how we live every day and start addressing things way earlier at this point then we are getting closer to the root cause of our ailments and have the potential to prevent many of them or catch them so early that they do not become extreme and difficult to manage.

305. There is no doubt our secret medical history will be our public medical history it will be a natural progression unless we choose to take responsibility for the way we are living. The body presents to us everything that is not in harmony and if we ignore it long enough it will manifest into illness and dis-ease. Thank you for reminding me of this.

306. Imagine if this secret medical history was written down. The honesty of such a task would probably stop a lot of the uncaring behaviour in its tracks!

     1. I know Heather I agree! And we would need about a 2 hour consultation to go through them! But seriously it is tragic that in medicine today health professionals generally have so little time to spend with patients that there really is no air time for this valuable history to come out and be discussed which would be so supportive for the client and practitioner. Taking the time to connect and considering the whole picture of how someone lives is a very important part of medicine.

     2. Love it Heather, mine would be several volumes.

307. This blog highlights a finer depth to which our health can be addressed and with this in many comments are those who have started addressing this secret medical history and what the results have been. It’s amazing how sensitive are bodies truly are to our movements and choices and how by reconnecting to this sensitivity and awareness most of the public medical history is much more understood and related to in a completely different way as apposed to living in ‘bad luck’ or ‘random’ situations of poor health.

308. In simple terms the fact we don’t consider the stress of our lives, the way we interact with people, or even the way we walk as having anything to do with our medical history – our health shows how the answers to our health crisis could very well already be known, waiting for us to be willing to look at our part in our medical history. Instead of focussing on simply the list of ailments we can focus on the lifestyle that has led to them.

309. Our secret history- are we honest and truly aware of what our body is saying on a daily basis? I feel so many of us are unaware of what is truly going on in our body until we are diagnosed with heart disease, diabetes, cancer etc. We are so good at suppressing our body with food, drink, exercise, entertainment and many distractions.
     However, if this is allowed to be the norm then illness and disease will continue to rise. Until we are willing to stop, read our bodies more and take responsibility to live in a way that truly supports us, only then will true healing happen.

310. Thank you for sharing this Matthew. I feel as though our “secret” medical history is often even hidden from ourselves. We may not like to admit or look too closely at what is really going on in our lives as this may be a step too far to take responsibility for this. If we keep this secret even from ourselves we don’t have to address any of the issues but can continue to live a life that doesn’t truly support us.

     1. What you say here Lee is great. It feels like we can move through life quite broken, but still able to walk. I picture a boat that sets sail but it only has half a rudder and a few holes that leak water, yet on the surface it appears ok. Its full potential can never be reached until what hinders it is addressed.

        1. great comments Lee and Matthew, we become so accustomed to our choices that we do not see them clearly any more and they become obscure to ourselves.

311. It would seem that the hidden medical history is the one which will get to the root of all our major illnesses, and shed some light on how we arrived at the ill state health we find ourselves taking to the doctors. It must be quite frustrating for the doctors to have the sense that there is so much more people are withholding from them, but at the same time only being able to prescribe for the presented health condition. It does make me wonder though how much notice people take of the advice given out by doctors, with regards to changing diet or taking exercise.

312. Re-reading this makes me realise the enormity of what you have laid out Matthew, a revelation that could bring a true change to the serious situation of illness and disease in the world, which is forever increasing and showing more and more multi symptomatic cases. How can it be that the medical profession, doctors etc. are not taking notice of this and more actively using it in their approach to illness? Are they ignorant of the fact that we are enormously affected, as we are by our secret stories?

     1. It is enormous Eva, absolutely. At what point in our lives did we begin to deviate from our natural effervescent selves, was it ten, twelve or fifteen years old or was it even earlier when we decided to alter and adjust how we live, with contraction, shyness and anger or did we just give up to the worldly pressures of conformity. Whatever age or however we changed, it was the introduction of a rhythm that is not natural to the body and it becomes the glide path to our problems, issues and illnesses.

313. It is only by being open and honest, and to have the willingness to look at the choices we are making in our daily lives that we can begin to look at and address the root cause of why we have symptoms and disease. Without this, it is like sticking a plaster over an open wound and leaving it uncared for in the hope that it will eventually get better.

314. I love how this has been exposed – it’s amazing how we give the essential physical facts, yet the true foundations of our health status are in the other decisions we make and how we live. Incredible these questions are not yet being asked by people in health care while our illness and disease rates climb unabated.

     1. Agree Felicity, there is a whole other dimension to our lives that gets ignored or just simply not factored into the equation. We have drifted far away from joining the dots that the gap is probably to far to be joined. For now, it is still firmly symptom, then pill, potion or surgery, but there is a distant glimmer of truth on the horizon.

315. Imagine the way a medical consultation form could look if we factored in the conditions and emotions behind our ill conditions.

316. If our private medical history became the illness we sought treatment for before we manifested an acute disease; chances are we would not torture ourselves in living a life of dis-ease whilst waiting for a diagnosis.

     1. You are so right Kylie, we do ‘torture ourselves’ no end. It’s big, firstly we protect and hide (sometimes for years and even a lifetime) and at the same time hurt ourselves, when it’s put like this it seems rather ridiculous.

317. I like what you say here Doug. It will take a real shift in the way we understand illness before we begin to not feel so surprised at becoming unwell and that we cause almost everything that happens to us.

318. “If we wait until it manifests into a physical issue, it is then so much harder to treat.” It’s harder to treat these issues because we can often only address the symptoms of our choices, and not the real cause. When we begin to explore and be honest about the history of the way we live and address the physical symptoms in conjunction with addressing our history of choices, then we make it much easier to treat and heal…

319. We can no longer deny the fact that how we choose to live our lives affects our health. We are beginning to realise that our lifestyles contribute to illness and disease but as Matthew’s blog points out, it is not just about addressing our food choices, alcohol consumption or whether we smoke, but being totally honest and asking ourselves how we truly feel in our day about ourselves and what is going on around us.

     1. Well said Caroline. It feels that the remedies and fixes to our problems are just not enough anymore. We miss the vitality of living that is our natural way to live, but this vitality is just missing in many, so we are forever seeking this in the next superfood, drink or exercise regime that offers so much but really delivers very little.

320. Unveiling and dealing with my secret history is great medicine for my body, for any choice I make that is not aligned with my body will eventually catch up with me one day and present itself in the body.

     1. So our willingness to be honest and make some changes today is preventing a whole lot of issues, ailments and disease later in life, let alone the financial implications for our health services…

321. There really are no secrets as such, just those we are unwilling to see.

322. So true Matthew… ‘ Living with these fears or anxieties disrupts the natural harmony in the body.’ Our own relationship with the fullness of ourselves can hampered by our ‘hidden fears’ – that are not really hidden at all, as in truth we feel them intensely.

323. It seems to me, the longer we put up with being merely functional, the longer we will keep our secret medical histories secret. You’ve raised key issues around self-worth and linked them to the origins of our illnesses and diseases and I feel this to be true, also. Repeat a pattern of behaviour long enough and sure enough, it becomes physically evident in the body. The sooner our public medical record includes our hidden, secret ones, the sooner the origins of dis-ease will be understood. Of course, it is already understood by the body…time to listen up!

324. “They could be things like how shy you are, or how little confidence you may have. It may be that you always feel a little anxious or uncomfortable in crowds …” It is interesting that I never saw this as ill health within myself and many people would not recognise this as such. The Sacred Esoteric Healing modalities have empowered me to heal my shyness and lack of confidence so much so that these days I thoroughly enjoy being with people and getting to know them. It is an extraordinary transformation and one that informs me first hand of what an immense sign of dis-ease shyness is because our inherent nature is very gregarious, open and confident.

325. This secret medical history only exists because we do not want to take responsibility for our choices and there eventual consequences. If we were more open, honest, real and loving with ourselves and with each other, we simply would not get away with keeping these medical secrets hidden from ourselves and everyone else

326. This is such a great discussion about taking full Responsibility for our own health, wellbeing and our bodies. To stop and consider the enormity of what is presented in this blog is huge. To be at a place when you can start to be honest with ourselves and say hey I have anxiety – what is causing this? Is awesome. There are so many layers that we are not prepared to look at and to keep those secrets alive it is about time to lift the lid on all of them and be prepared to look at the ugly and feel it.

327. Our health system supports the keeping of these secrets as we are not encouraged to truly share what is going on for us. It is all about physical symptoms, and time never allows for people to truly share what they are feeling.. We deliberately do not ask questions of patients that would allow them to go deeper as this information is not valued in modern medicine.

328. Amazing enthralling blog Matthew Brown and a concept conventional medicine should take on board. How much we choose to be honest about will help wipe out our secret medical history.

329. What a great insight into the precursors of our medical conditions, the little warning signs and aberrations that we tend to ignore or brush aside. What a relief for our stressed out and overburdened health system it would be if we were willing to take responsibility much earlier and without any prompting from a physically manifest and labelled condition.

330. I remember years ago wondering how statistics work, when there are so many factors that aren’t considered. How do we know what causes cancer, when we don’t consider how people live? Your blog on our secrets confirms this theory, and opens the door to considering the whole when looking at recovery from illness.

331. Often we don’t share these ‘secrets’ because no-one seems to want to really listen. How lovely it is when someone sees you and doesn’t just give the rote ‘how are you’ but really stops to feel how you really are. This then allows you to feel yourself and be honest about what is going on. Occasionally you meet a doctor who really cares and allows the time for such things but mostly our health system gives no time for more than the medical history and the prescription – just a partial patchup job.

332. Esoteric modalities give a listening ear to this ‘secret medical history’ which is why they complement convential medicine so well. By expressing what is happening in their life people get to see that they are responsible for the choices they have made and they can then choose to take responsibility for their health. Only by doing this will the pressure be taken off our health system.

     1. Great point you mention here Sandra. Esoteric Therapies start with uncovering those patterns of behaviours that have the propensity to make us live out of balance and leading us towards illness. They are incredible therapies which one day will be coupled with modern medicine.

333. Indeed the spirit does not like to be exposed for the creator of havoc in our bodies and lives. It seems to like the glory for being able to over ride the natural order and balance our bodies have and take no responsibility for the harm it causes.

334. It is interesting really how we think if it is not spoken or seen that our non loving choices are not harming ourselves or others. Choices like thoughts, actions, behaviours and emotions are energetic so must leave an imprint, it is up to us whether we harm or heal.

335. I keep returning to this blog, and the gold that it shares so freely. It is very revealing of the attitude that so many of us live with, the one that says, “if you can’t see my illness, it doesn’t matter, but if you can see it then I want it fixed”. This limits the possibilities that we give ourselves when it comes to our own healing, and therefore we only heal in part but not in full.

336. No wonder there are now multiple illnesses presenting in our bodies. When I read the list of secret ailments, it is clear that the resulting physical manifestations will not be going away any time soon. Brilliant article Matthew, much more profound than most of us realise.

337. Our ‘secret medical history’ is the source for our true healing and you have expressed this very clearly Matthew. Thank you and it needs to be brought to general awareness of people more than it is.

338. What if it were our secret history that was a key to our lifestyle choices, and thus the ensuing medical dis-ease – and not the public history that is asked of us in our visits to our GP or hospital? That would be revelatory in the medical model of today.

339. What really stands out for me is that by having this secret medical history, is how this then erodes at the quality of our lives and in a way shapes the way we feel about ourselves. If any thing I would say that the secrets we hold so tightly onto are the main reason for the bigger illnesses which present themselves later on in life. For example what anger or sadness have we held onto for decades, which is slowly chipping away at our well-being and how we feel about ourselves.

340. Your examples and our responses to them are the comprehensive lists of what is required to commit slow suicide.

341. I recently read about a link between heart disease and living within a harmonious and loving environment and this highlights just how important our secret medical history is to our health and well-being.

342. Imagine a history of the world, written from this truth that each of us carries a whole layer of hurts and beliefs we bring to all we do. Imagine the second world reframed from the point of view of how leaders felt inside. Then perhaps we would see it is not politics or strategies that govern us but the unexpressed beliefs and pictures we hold to that are the real dictators. With thanks to you and your words Matthew.

343. It seems that as time passes our supposed ‘secret history’ is no longer ‘secret’ as we become more aware of the evidence of disharmonious energies that we allow to run our bodies. I really enjoyed reading this wonderful blog – thank you.

344. Imagine going to a doctor and telling them the real medical history and getting the support to understand the impacts that our choices are having on us. We are walking around with many secrets which effect us deeply on a daily basis. Thank you Matthew for a greater understanding of each of our own secret medical histories.

345. We’re not born with our secret medical history. But very rapidly – in most cases – we’re learning to be nice, polite and shut down. Otherwise confronted with no food, disconnection, angry mum and dad, etc. We’ve got to have a very honest look into our world as it is today and not only appreciate what we’ve accomplished together. But also start the conversation about the True Wellbeing of our Society. So so many people suffer from any form of illness and disease: diabetes, heart disease, depression, kidney depletion, burn-out, etc. And all arise from our secret medical history. Shouldn’t it be time for some honest conversations?

     1. I agree with you Floris, this really needs to be a conversation. I feel that the general population is just in the dark to the state of global health and wellbeing. Every now and then something hits the newsstand that is alarming, but what usually tops headlines are stories that are not related to our global health.

346. Thank you Matthew, one day this secret history will not be so secret, when medicine catches up with the fact that anything disharmonious in our lives is impacting our bodies, ultimately reflected in illness and disease when we choose not to resolve it but rather to ‘live with it’. And live with it we clearly do… literally!

347. This is great Matthew, there are so many things in our day to day life that we deem to be insignificant, or embarrassing that we don’t want to or think we need to expose. It is keeping us in a way of life that is unhealthy.

348. It is amazing how we can compartmentalise our lives thinking that some areas of our lives don’t matter when it comes to our health. The truth is all our choices have an impact on our bodies.

349. Love is our greatest medicine and lovelessness, in whatever form, is our greatest and primary ‘illness.’

350. I look forward to the day when this secret history becomes part of a routine medical examination!

351. It is a very clever trick to think that we can have secrets because in fact everything can be felt so everything is known. We know everything is energy from Einstein, and we all know we can feel when something is not true, when something is ‘amiss’ – we may not know the exact details but we feel the lack of truth… so in fact there are no secrets!

352. Our secret medical history is not a secret at all as it is all there for the world to see in our body. We are just choosing to shift the responsibility for the way we live to something outside of us. What we choose is the ultimate medicine and the quality of that medicine is up to us.

     1. Great point Christine. We think that keeping things quiet it is hidden, but it gets expressed somehow and somewhere in our body or what is often said it is ‘written all over your face’.

353. Many women who have been a long time client tell me personal stuff years later having kept it a secret having been too ashamed to express it sooner. Once shared they realize that they had made a big deal of something that clears easily from their body once expressed.

354. “Living with these fears or anxieties disrupts the natural harmony in the body. Our heart rate is affected, and our blood pressure may increase. Not to forget our nervous system that is always ‘on’, which causes stress and tension in our muscles, our connective tissue and also on the endocrine system.” I have often considered why we haven’t really looked at this aspect of our lives in terms of what the root cause of our ills are. It makes sense for preventive medicine to look at our emotions, fears and anxieties and deal with them so that we can look after the health of our physical and mental bodies.

355. Who would consider that one day soon the doctor may well ask us if we keep our selves in constant busyness and factor this into our medical histories? It’s quite amazing today’s medical studies, as many ignore the quality of our actions when it comes to looking at the impact of lifestyle choices.

356. “The truth is, we compromise our body and our lives through the choices and decisions we make, which reverberate in a harmful way through our body.” Matthew that is a revealing sentence. Most people think they can override their bodies because they can do it with their head/will, but in the end the body starts to speak so loud that even the head can not negate it.

357. Our secret history is the malaise that we can avoid being honest about because, more and more, it is becoming our statistical norm. Rather than this being a convenient place to hide we should be leaping to our feet in the realisation of how far off track this takes us.

358. I have found by trialling what Serge Benhayon models that the way I live has been the best medicine for me. The Way of the Livingness has been the best medicine for my physical and mental health and wellbeing. The best medicine for relationship, work and self-esteem issues. No amount of drugs or projects or operations, spiritual modalities or religions have ever come close to healing, sustaining and evolving me as living by the principles of The Way of The Livingness has – the way that developing self-love has.

359. It is these small and intimate details about our ‘secret medical history’ that give so much information about what is going on in our bodies. It will be a grand day when Medicine embraces this invaluable information, and uses it alongside the conventional approach to establish what is really going on when it comes to illness and disease.

360. The stresses we feel are the precursors to the illnesses we will experience later in life. Yet, stress is accepted as ‘a part of life’ and ‘normal’, this means that when we get really stressed and things start to break down we are often much farther down the path towards illness than we would be if we recognised that the levels of stress that we accept in our day to day lives are actually not acceptable.

361. My secret history actually doesn’t feel that secret (I can feel people can feel I’m holding back on who I am and they notice but don’t want to say as they too are also doing the same.)

     Despite this secret not being secret I try to hide it anyways so then, not only the consequences of living it but the effects of trying to hide it, both have a significant impact on my body and will result in my secret history becoming public through the ailments that arise – nervous tension, heart issues etc. So, like you say, it makes total sense to come out in the open and get the support to address the secrets because I personally know they affect my every breath and impact us all. We have so many white elephants in a room it’s no wonder people talk about the weather!

362. As you say Matthew our bodies will find a way to get through the day, but they can’t do this forever if the way we treat it isn’t in line with how it was naturally made to be.

363. “We avoid, hide or ignore the signs and symptoms and keep them secret.” Yes we do but… we all know and read this about each other in every interaction we have – we know who is bingeing at home, anxiety ridden, in abusive relationships, abusing themselves etc. “Where to from here?” great question – meeting each other and deepening our conversations. Superficiality leads to illness and disease as the body never gets to truly express its self, so where does all of that pushed down and held back energy of expression go? To me it’s like drinking poison and wandering why we don’t feel so well.

364. Great point your are making Matthew! It is indeed in the details that we ignore and consider normal where we can find the “secret” to our health, which is not really a secret at all but something we deep down know is not right but we deny or ignore it because we feel too challenged to change it.

365. It will be a good day when our medical profession has the time, space and wherewithall to take our secret histories as well as our ‘public’ ones. Then we will present our full selves for healing.

366. Keeping secrets is not so secret because eventually our secrets are written all over our bodies.

     1. The secrets that are actually written all over the walls – our bodies are our greatest allies in the journey to opening up to ourselves and a true understanding of life.

367. The greatest secrets we keep are the ones we keep from ourselves.

     1. Yes we keep them from ourselves and then we keep them from other. (even though people know the truth and see through the efforts to hide the secrets) Whatever we do to others, we first do to ourselves.

368. Anxiety is today extremely prevalent. And no wonder given the list of possible causes presented here. This blog presents a clarion call to us to sort out that which is not 100% in alignment with who we are.

369. With the World Health Organisation citing preventable diseases – those that can be prevented were we to make responsible lifestyle choices – it is worth taking note of our secret histories.

370. Everyone has a secret history – until we learn not to keep one – just as every group, race, country, historic episode and so on does. There is always more beneath that which is presented to the world.

371. It’s really interesting that we find it hard to be transparent with others – but not when you consider we find it just as hard to be transparent with ourselves.

372. It’s very much worthwhile noting that you are a Registered Nurse, Matthew. As someone who works with human suffering it is with a great amount of authority that express your views here. There is more to illness and wellness than physical malfunction.

373. What you are in effect saying here Matthew is all our behaviours and neuroses are signs of dis-ease, and are in truth steps along the path to physical disease. So they are symptoms to look out for and treat as seriously as the symptoms we would ordinarily consider worthy of medical attention.

374. Men seem to go much less often to a doctor for a general checkup and when the issues may be minor – that seems to be my experience as an insurance adviser. That means that men may have more of a secret history than women as they haven’t shared what is going on.

375. Matthew thankyou for writing about this subject with such tenderness and understanding. It is a blog worthy of any medical journal as it addresses what is really at play in our bodies. I have been quite an anxious person most of my life, although have covered it up well by appearing to others to be calm and serene on the outside, while at times my insides would be trembling like crazy. It is thanks to Serge Benhayon and the practitioners of the Esoteric Healing modalities that this has changed considerably, and now I can feel when I am anxious and can trace it back to what the underlying cause was. The more I do this and the more I connect to my true self, the more the anxiety dissipates. It is a simple tool that anyone and everyone can use.

376. I have noticed that most of us keep our physical more readily measurable illnesses secret from one another, let alone the more underlying issues we can feel are not going okay. This is a shame because if we did discuss these things more openly, we would know that all these issues are alarmingly common in society and maybe we would reverse the shut down approach, start asking why and choose to start turning it round.

377. Matthew you have hit the nail on the head by describing how most of us just get through life, pretending it is all good on the outside but carrying all these other torments on the inside that eventually take a toll on our bodies, as they can no longer cope from the lack of connection and true love to others.

378. This blog has nominated some of the things that I do and it’s a clear message to deal with the unresolved issues.

379. Matthew having recently seen you after not seeing you for a few years, all I can say is that the patients where you work, in fact everyone you meet, is incredibly blessed. You are a living, walking example of how we can be a man in the world – showing that above all the quality we live with and interact with others is the most important thing.

380. The problem with our secret medical file is it like a coat we put on and for every new item we add to this file is just another coat on top of the last. After a time, carrying all this hidden weight starts to have a toll on our bodies for real and we have the arrogance to ask: Why Me?

381. Matthew that was great to read your exposing blog. You wrote: “So we can see how issues we consider minor, irrelevant or embarrassing affect the whole body.” We have to re-learn to talk about us from the depth of our heart, because there nothing is considered minor or irrelevant.

382. Shining the light on our secret history will be the key to understanding the choices we make that become our lifestyle choices that become the illness and disease caused by lifestyle choices…. or not… Maybe this is where the focus of medicine could shift so that we can step in and defuse the gathering momentum of destruction we bring to ourselves and others, and the consequent battering of the health budget..

383. Matthew, It is great to highlight the insidious but deeply harmful effects of all the daily stresses, anxiety, hurt and emotions that people hold in their bodies steadily accumulating if we do not address them, until suddenly there is a big wake-up call, a major health condition arises and only then does it seem the medical profession can swing into action.. but there is so much we can do for ourselves before that diagnosis has to happen…

384. Matthew I find great value in revisiting this blog. Recently I had a big stopper when my ears became so blocked I could not hear properly – I was convinced there was a problem with my phone, but no, the phone was not the problem! It has taken a month to gradually clear the wax and in that time I have reflected on how much I have been ignoring my body and what it truly needs because I have not been feeling loving of myself, nor wanting to go deeper. I self-abandon. There is power in making the secret history public – it no longer owns us and we have the freedom to make differnet choices.

385. This blogs shows us the power we have for our own health – the responsibility we have for our own health – we can play such a significant part of a healthy well cared for and loved body which would become its quality…healthy and vital.

386. I enjoy coming back to this blog, Matthew, because it is a powerful reminder that the quality of our lives is entirely in our hands. It cuts through the victim mentality of life (or illness) happening to us, and puts free will and choice firmly back in our court.

387. Mmmmm, could be a game changer this question – what is my secret history?

388. Brilliant expose Matthew on how nothing is not felt and everything is to do with our choices. I was feeling to write a blog on the expose of our sayings that just are not true like ‘sudden heart attack’ – no one has a sudden heart attack, as Serge Benhayon has presented it has been a life time in the making of shutting your heart down and protecting yourself from others. It is irresponsible for us to continue believing the lies we have been peddling ourselves.

389. ‘The truth is, we compromise our body and our lives through the choices and decisions we make, which reverberate in a harmful way through our body.’ This is a signficant point here as our bodies represent us, our choices, how we live. When we get sick it is at the en of the road, a warning, an opportunity saying – you are not living well because I am sick. Our behaviours affect our bodies, all our choices affect our bodies. I know, as I really took this on board that I could really see how much I have been negating my body, yet my body is everything in terms of – I live in it and the quality of the body affects me and my quality of life.

390. Awareness is such a precious ability to have developed. Quite often we may not be aware ourselves of something that now seems second nature to us, but is actually abnormal and can be picked up by the doctor or practitioner. As you write Matthew: ‘let’s say someone was living with anxiousness, just enough that it is brushed off as maybe being nervous or shy, but ‘normal’ for that person. This subtle wash of feeling that is always there, affects every decision that is made.’ Awareness of these influences is an important key to initiate healing.

391. Matthew, this is a very provoking blog as it exposes how we can step back from taking responsibility for our bodies. When our bodies get sick we can easily take the approach that our bodies are almost like a separate entity to us and how we have been living and it was something out there that caused this, nothing to do with me.

392. It is amazing how those minor ailments we at first give no attention to until they suddenly become big monsters that stop us in our tracks.

393. Matthew I am realising that the secrets that you mention we often even hide from ourselves, pretending not to see what is perhaps the root cause of the problem we are seeking help for.

394. Matthew, how amazing for the patients that you treat that you have this level of awareness to bring to your work. It invites a deeper level of awareness for them and an opportunity to embrace a new level of honesty and care. What a gift it is that you bring.

395. From your list of examples of the way we tend to live Matthew, it seems to me that most of us are either choosing to want to live for the future or in the past, but never in the present where we have to take responsibility for the issues we have created for ourselves. So we miss out on a huge amount by not recognising, feeling and dealing with whatever is happening to clear it up and be free of it. If we don’t, it hangs on in there taking up space and energy in our minds and bodies, and prevents us moving on at an easy pace and rhythm and open to whatever comes. Said another way — the past held onto in some way clutters the future, space diminishes and we feel restricted by time, and then life becomes a struggle.

396. I had no idea I had anxiety, clearly I had it for all of my life anxiety was as part of who I was it didn’t bother me because I didn’t remember feeling any different nor did I realise I even had it until I had complications after an operation a few years ago and was forced to stop and feel what in my livingness created my health complications. When I realised the niggling feeling I had in my stomach all of my life wasn’t a part of me it was anxiety. Since deepening my love for myself and my connection with my body the stillness I feel most of the time has replaced the constant feeling of low grade anxiety.

397. ” let’s say someone was living with anxiousness, just enough that it is brushed off as maybe being nervous or shy, but ‘normal’ for that person…” yes, many physical symptoms can be brushed off by saying..”oh i usually get ‘this’ or ‘that’ when i get anxious or stressed”. Just simply, this is an example how investigating the emotional side of our medical history, could work in effectively with medical treatment.

398. Reading this really brings it home how holding onto our deepest hurts only serves to hinder us through life, and we then start to tell ourselves that we are broken in some way and beyond any kind of help, but this is so far from the truth. I used to be like this before I came to Universal Medicine and discovered that nothing in this life was as I thought it was.

399. I am considering what it would be like to go to the mechanic and tell them that the car is running fine, but the way I am driving it is not right. I am just too abrupt on the accelerator because I am so frustrated at work. And I am hitting speed bumps too hard because I am just not focussing until I feel the harsh jolt.
     The mechanic might be surprised (shocked? startled?), but they might also say “great. The car is going fine now, but won’t if you keep going that way”.
     How beautiful to learn before we wreck the engine and damage the suspension.

400. I can feel that those things which may seem more obvious now were once not so and that what feels part of the secret history now will not necessarily be so tomorrow. Our choice to be open about what we experience through our choices and what we feel means that we can constantly be open to more and more of ourselves and release that which is not us.

401. Too often we focus on the physical to the detriment of what is actually affecting our health from an emotional aspect. Our thoughts, our relationship with our self and others, the choices we are making have a key impact on our state of health. Often it’s easier and more comfortable to look at the physical symptoms and to treat those, rather than go to the core of a condition and take personal responsibility for what the body is showing.

402. Further to my comment above Matthew, you’ve raised what I see as an almost universal condition, and that is of anxiety. Its impact is enormous and insidious, draining the body constantly of energy, putting pressure on the adrenal glands first, then the nervous system, and when it continues long term, eventually contributes substantially to the involvement of the thyroid gland in ill-health. This is not medically accepted as yet, as with the understanding you have offered, but it is nonetheless a very real and self-evident pathway for illness to develop within the body.

403. Thank you Matthew, this is quite a ground-breaking blog actually, what you’ve shared needs to become part of medical training everywhere. As a complementary health practitioner I can attest to the enormous burden and ill-effect of each of those things you mention, and there are so many more. If we only but understood the impact of carrying every little thing that is disharmonious to us, we would be far more inclined to deal with it, rather than adopt the myriad of self-abusive behaviours that support keeping it just under our radar of awareness.

404. Our public history is not our full history, we learn from scratch how to fragment, reduce, manage the all that we are and calibrate us towards something we think need to be. Just who makes us think that? When the outcome is, that we are not the whole us anymore! Doesn’t that expose the underlying energy?

405. Thank you, Matthew, for revealing the “genesis of sickness’ with such a light touch. If we take these words to heart and challenge the right we feel we have to harm our bodies through the ongoing impact of our unresolved emotional hurts, there is an opportunity to change our lives and state of well being dramatically.

406. There may come a time when all the pharmacological treatments and amazing medical advances available to support a body back to health just might not be enough to curing a disease, at which point, the private, emotional health will have to be explored, and unpacked as a way to deal with behaviour patterns that initiate detrimental lifestyle choices.

407. This blog goes beyond medicine and speaks to all of life and the tendency we have to relate to each other wearing the public ‘all is well’ mask. I appreciate how this blog is not suggesting the medical system lead the way on addressing our secret medical history but rather each individual take the step of looking a little deeper at what makes them unwell and unsettled. When enough people are prepared to take more responsibility for their health the medical system will easily be able to adapt and integrate this aspect of medicine. We keep looking to the medical system and medical practitioners to come up with a solution to illness and disease but perhaps here too the ‘all is well’ public mask is at play?

408. You can put deisel in a petrol engine, and it will complain a lot, but it will function – to a point. Much the same way in which we can function quite well on adrenaline, stress, anxiety, anger, etc, and we will function. But we will not be vital, and we will not run as we could.

409. i wonder if we have been programmed to wait for someone to fix us without seeing we can take responsibility for a large part of our health. If we were able to do some research with multidisciplinary clinics that were supported by Medicare then we could really take the weight off the doctors and support the patients to build health literacy that would have a marked effect on health outcomes.

410. For me this whole blog illustrates the importance of working as a team in health. Somehow policy has to come to the table and ensure doctors have more than 7 minutes per patient (varies between countries and states) so there is time to look beyond the symptoms. It is hard for them at the moment to have time to consider opening this hidden secret history chest.

411. This is a great article Matthew, it exposes how as a society we have become avoidant of taking responsibility for our lives and instead seek quick fixes so we can continue with our indulgences and irresponsible behaviours in life. Bringing honesty and looking at our secret history is the way forth for our true healing.

412. Quite often many of the symptoms that are secret are even secret to ourselves as they have become normal things that we experience everyday. I know I have and have had various ill health conditions over the years that I was choosing to not be aware of.

     1. So true. For years I defined myself as ‘healthy’ because I did not have cancer or some other life threatening condition – totally ignoring the truth from my body and not willing to take responsibility for my choices. It has to start with self love and a willingness to be honest with ourselves – to admit our secret and sometimes not so secret medical history.

413. A few years ago I had an amazing consultation with my doctor over a medical condition I wanted help with. His first response was examine my lifestyle choices, what did I drink and what did I eat, so that we might start with looking at these factors as a possible causes, before doing more tests. As a consequence of his approach, I felt like we were in a health care partnership, both looking at my daily lifestyle choices as an important medicinal factor in my health. It seems natural that the next step will be to examine our emotional states and anxieties too, because if nothing else it brings an awareness and an empowerment to the person when they have the confirmation from their doctor that these things impact our health.

414. Adding to this I can feel my body surrendering the more I sit with this and so showing me the levels of protection I am still living in.

415. This is a stopper of an article and it really allows me to feel the importance of having quality time with myself and allow myself to really feel were I am at and how I and truly living. I have in the passed overrode my feelings so much so that I would shoulder on is such a hard forceful way that ends up really impacting all those around me so stops such as these are vital to really check in.

416. Thank you, Matthew, I can attest to the harmful impact on the body from living with a low grade anxiousness for most of my life. I accepted it as the norm and didn’t question it until recently, but am now discovering that when I disconnect from myself I feel anxious due to a lack of presence in my body. This is important to address now, so that it does not become an illness or disease, and part of my secret history.

417. A brilliant article offering the key to understanding the roots of illness and how simple it is to address these if we are willing to ‘go there’ and take responsibility.

418. ‘Those things that we keep secret are the things that we find embarrassing or personal’ it is extraordinary that we let the concerns about what other people might think of us be more important than our physical health.

419. “…“Our lifestyle and the way we live each day are the precursors that affect our public medical issues…” This could be the opening statement for any student studying medical, nursing or any health occupation. Bringing awareness and understanding that physical ailment don’t just pop up out of the blue, but are an end consequence for how we have been living, and the relationship of our emotional health, behaviour patterns has on our health.

420. How true this is Matthew – those choices, feelings and secrets we hold within and about ourselves are absolutely key in unlocking why we manifest illness and disease. It can not be overlooked how important developing an honest and loving relationship with self is and having the courage to explore and delve a little deeper into why we are making choices that in many ways do not support us. This is an absolute gem of an article that asks the reader to take the time to see that perhaps in life there is more going on with our health and it begins with our relationship to self.

421. There is much to look at in my secret medical history and why I allow it to keep running as a ‘program’ that runs me. When I do observe and not remain in the reaction to it that Matthew so well describes, I always come back to the choice to separate from the love always present and available. It makes the choice to live in a quality of movement that naturally heals, so easy.

422. Matthew thank you for this great perspective on illness as the end result of choices to not deal with our secret medical history. It is the denial and burying of a way of living that we can instead use to deepen our awareness, express about and as you say come to the underlying hurts that keep us in issues that are nothing to do with our true purpose for living. Serge Benhayon has presented many times we either deny, defend and bury or we bring awareness and honesty to life. The result is in the first case remaining in the illusion that makes us ill or choosing the truth that heals. It is great to have this simple understanding brought into a medical model as you have

423. You have written it so well and simple Matthew. It is a huge problem that it is seen as normal that one person is shy, one person get angry easily and the next person is always busy. Because it is ‘normal’ or common, we do not see a problem with it, yet if we would say it as it is that our true normal is living in harmony, joy, love and stillness all of the time it is actually not normal at all to be one of the above and already, as you say, an illness in the body.

424. It will really benefit us all when the medical system, but actually everyone, would start to see the importance of our secret medical history, our hurts, emotions, reactions, moods etc. If we would realise that these can all lead to ill health this will completely change our way of living and dealing with illness and disease. Which is so important.

425. Keeping secrets, especially guilty secrets, makes us less – less love, less expression, more fear, more anxiety.

426. What you share here Matthew is so simple really and yet we ignore the secret medical history and even when physical symptoms emerge we do not question the possible root cause. It is a complete set up that we do not look more deeply into the origins of our ills, so invested are we in having someone diagnose an illness for which we can be prescribed a potion or lotion, often never questioning our quality of life!

427. ‘This secret history contains the gold nuggets that have the potential to allow a person to truly live, and this is where we really need to start if we are to seek true healing. These gold nuggets are what the medical system start ‘mining’ for Matthew!

428. This blog highlights the huge links that we know deep down are true, that when we choose not to deal with our emotional well being, the angst and pain we carry with these secrets reveal themselves sooner or later.

429. “The truth is, we compromise our body and our lives through the choices and decisions we make, which reverberate in a harmful way through our body.” Now this is true education. If only we were all taught this by our parents and at school – it would change the world!

430. If we are bored with our job the first thing we do is try and find another, why is it not the fact that we first look at how we are in our job? Or in fact anything in life let alone consider our approach to work or cooking or friendships is all part of our medical history, our movements and actions, our commitment or lack of is all the bedrock of our health. What a completely different way to look at our lives, health and future.

431. “Our lifestyle and the way we live each day are the precursors that affect our public medical issues”. Thank you, Matthew, for spelling out the reality of how we are collectively overwhelming our health services due to irresponsibility, in not seeing how our personal choices affect our bodies and the whole.

432. Honesty in expression starts with ourselves – making an honest assessment of how we are living and allowing ourselves to feel what impact that is having on our bodies. When we take care of ourselves we can inspire others to do the same.

433. Ah, quite a different way of exposing the illusion of the white picket fence and well kept lawn – that all is well, when clearly it is not.

434. How truthful are we… your heading ‘ Our Secret Medical History’ could be expanded to ‘ Our Secret Life’ because we all are hiding behind a guard of known secrets, but there are also the impacts of many hurts and much sadness that drive our behaviours that we are totally unaware of. This conversation is the foundation to bring profound change, and if I shift to transparency it will be by reflection there for others to bring this necessary change.

435. Matthew this is the conversation I have been wanting to have with people, it is so clear the choices we bring into our lives, to not have us feel the underling issues, are the cause of our illnesses you have so aptly described. I am witnessing a series of illnesses in a person, that reflect exactly the way this person has lived. The symptoms of the illness are anger, irratibility, lethargy and memory loss (disconnection) which are no different to the way I have known this person to behave throughout their life, but now they have diminishing ability to control. It is fascinating to connect the way we cover up our secret history, only to be revealed in the end.

     1. That is what is so cool about our bodies – they show us very swiftly the impact of our choices (giving us the opportunity to review and change). The problem is we have mastered the art of not listening so initial symptoms are overlooked and we are then ‘surprised’ victims when things get worse.

436. Very true Matthew, the root of all illness is the undealt with emotion or energetic configuration held in our body.
     I have experienced recently a deep sadness that was coming up to be felt and cleared after receiving a healing session.
     My first response to this was to reach for food to dull it down, however I stopped the momentum to do so when I became aware of my tendency to not want to face and feel what I was really experiencing in that moment.
     Allowing myself to acknowledge and yet not become personally identified with the grief, allowed a space to feel and move on without the need to distract and push it down.
     Although I feel a lot more is there to clear, I know it’s the way I respond that makes the difference to allowing a clearing or adding another layer to the already held trauma in my body.

437. Our private medical history, as you share here Matthew, is the real marker of our health disease and well being. Allowing ourselves to truly feel what is going on for ourselves,to be honest and pay real attention to how we are living, and to introduce more loving evolving ways of being is so important, and our real marker of our health and true medical history worth recording.

438. They are exactly that, ‘clues’ that tell us much about how we feel and how we are caring for our health in all areas. “These are all clues to something that is brewing in the background”. I know I got used to a having issues in relationships, work and life in general and did previously ‘think’ there as little I could do about it. That it was normal. I am turning it around and bringing a new ‘normal’ into life and with that my health has also improved enormously.

439. Thank you Matthew, I completely agree, the more we expose those ill choices and emotions situations the healthier our body will become. Exposing ourselves to the truth in this way is a great start to deal with our issues.

440. Matthew, I love this blog. you’ve captured a level of irresponsibility throughout all of society that no one talks about because no one wants to expose their own cache of secret behaviours and coping mechanisms. A beautiful, simple reveal of the truth beneath the shiny veneer we call ‘getting by.’

441. Awesome blog Matthew. Secrets come with such a heavy energy – they feel like lead balloons. The best known antidote to secrecy is honesty. Being honest and transparent are fundamental qualities which are vital for our wellbeing. Honesty feels simple, pure and featherlight.

442. We think we can hide what we do behind closed doors from others when it is actually really obvious.

443. How we feel makes such significant difference to our health and well-being. ‘The secret history’ of this is spot on. I have recent experience of hospitals and it was clear to me that these aspects of the long term patients health history were not being addressed in the way they could be. Having a go at just curing the aliment but not its true root, leads many to have relief but not long term recovery. I also felt how significant it would be concerning their true health and well-being if they were truly met and connected with by staff. This does happen in some cases, but in many cases the patient remains a body of symptoms to cure rather than meeting them in the divinity, love that is their origin. May staff members seek connection and to support others, but I could feel the frustration and overwhelm of working in the environment and how it had become a stress to the staff bodies and so their own medical history.

444. A great article Matthew outlining the root cause of illness and disease. The rise of illness and disease is not going to change until the causes are addressed. This is where the marriage of Western Medicine and Esoteric Medicine work so beautifully together addressing not only the symptoms presented but also our private medical history.

     1. Yes, the ultimate marriage of modalities to offer support to the body as well as true healing is already available to us, however, embracing this on a wider scale would ask humanity to get honest about their ‘secret history’ and even to admit that they have one.

445. My own experience tells me the this is so true, I used to have anxiety, stress, feel lonely in a room of people I knew, my body responded to this, I ate food that did not support me and my nervous system was out of control ” It is a medical issue and it is the genesis of sickness.” And now, it is rare for life to shake me in the way once did. It is interesting because I feel more, I don’t ignore the energetic emotional abuses that occur around me, and I take more responsibility for what I am putting out to other people, but because I have reconnected with my inner heart I hold this foundation and I observe more and do not absorb as I once did. I am healing and staying more healthy. It is a natural evolution of inner heart reconnection.

446. “How do we hide and suppress these feelings? We numb ourselves with foods, drinks and all manner of behaviours, and sugar coat our life to show that everything is ‘good’, whilst every choice is tainted and loaded with the energy of hiding and suppressing this secret history.” This shows the reason we keep failing at quitting our various vices, such as changing our food choices, our drinking habits and our behaviour. Only when we choose to look at what those behaviours are masking will we stop falling back to using them for numb ourself.

447. The limitations in terms of communication and treatment offered by conventional medicine may help restore what went wrong (and has to be appreciated for that no doubt). It does not offer evolution though.

448. Even at the level of understanding, in the case of a person whose gallbladder is about to explode is it irrelevant to know that the patient is a very frustrated person?

449. It feels like a deal: I do not go there says the doctor. In exchange, I will do my best to help you to carry on whatever brought you here.

450. We ask the medical profession to fix us based on very limited information (like this is all you need to know) about me. In doing so, we reduce ourselves, we reduce the scope of communication and not surprisingly, we get a reduced treatment (a curing at best).

451. Our secret history is an interesting consideration, Matthew. Even one incident where we have felt hurt can alter the course of our life and make us a lesser version of ourselves. Looking at our secret history is something we should all be doing, and supporting each other to do so, so that we remove any limitations to our full expression.

452. You have exposed so well the shield we all run with. The one we put up to make ourselves look good and to hide all the other bits going on for us in our lives. We say we live ‘good’ lives but are they truly good in any way, our bodies are saying otherwise.

453. Your list of everyday examples reveals how much our thinking affects our health – if we are daydreaming about having a new partner, or we’re unhappy in our work, for example, that is purely in our heads, it’s not a real, physical experience, but our thinking creates a physical reaction in our bodies such as tension, that in turn leads to an illness. The source of the tension can be very subtle, but our bodies are so delicate that even the smallest hint of dis-harmony does harm which initially we are completely unaware of, and when we eventually get ill, it’s a surprise, and we blame everything else except the true cause, which was our choice to think those thoughts.

454. We all have them Matthew the secret medical history as we were never told that these actually are more important to know by our GP than our public medical history. The last one is only presenting the result of what the secret medical history has caused so actually the way we live, our lifestyle is much more important to know by our GP for him or her to be able to truly offer their services for assisting us in making our lives more healthy and sustainable.

455. Great Blog Matthew, as You shows us that there is more going on behind the scenes of what our symptoms of ill health are. The relationship between emotional wellbeing and dis-ease is an aspect of human health that is well worth unpacking.

456. These aspects of our secret medical history, are the silent sleepers, often things we consider so insignificant, or parts of ourselves as we have lived with them for so long, that are the basis, the precursors to our illnesses and diseases, and become that which make up our public medical history.

457. This blog highlights for me all of the areas of my life that I attempt to hide away particularly from myself it makes me realise I can’t change what I won’t acknowledge and it is my responsibility to feel into these areas of my life where I am in denial of the truth and get really honest by letting go of the shames and guild I often feel that lead me to be hard on myself and choose love instead.

458. With G.P’s only having 15 mins for each consultation they are often not interested in the secret history unless there are actually clinical manifestations of disease, because they are already overbooked with clients to see and treat.

459. This is something that we do not fully appreciate the effect of yet, that “Living with these fears or anxieties disrupts the natural harmony in the body.” Our body, our nervous system, hormones, immune and digestive system cannot but help react to our emotional anxieties and our every thought. We can keep our selves in a state of perpetual stress just by our thoughts alone, draining our system of precious hormones and taxing our immune system to the limit. So much will change in medicine when the true effects of our thought patterns and ensuing emotions on the quality of our health are really understood and taken into consideration when taking someone medical history.

460. I find that when the time is right, sharing my small thoughts about myself with someone is extremely beneficial, and supports not only me in moving through it, but often is inspiring for them as well.

461. If we have things like not feeling comfortable in crowds, that may in itself not be an issue, we may simply notice the devastation of others. What matters is how we respond. Do we numb ourselves by becoming emotional? Do we avoid crowds and heavily adjust our life to avoid common experiences, do we stifle ourselves?

462. You describe our ‘secret history’ so well Matthew. The details that we hide can only be ignored for so long before the tension that builds up in the body releases in ways, illnesses that we often don’t relate to the original cause.

463. For us to truly be well and vital we cannot have any secret pockets that we resort to. If we do then we are already in dis-ease.

464. I have occasionally been asked some of these questions by a Doctor but certainly not all. I can see what you are saying and the difference it would make to get the full picture of just what is influencing our lives and therefore our health. Hopefully these more personal questions will seem more a normal part of our medical history and natural to be asked, or offered by the patient, and the Doctor accepting the sharing as important to the illness or injury presented.

465. Your list of everyday things we live with is a real window on what’s actually going on in society that’s not been spoken about, in the terms of the impact and huge effect they have on our health and wellbeing. Take “constantly having to keep busy” as an example, we applaud a person who is hard working or busy but often don’t notice if this is true productivity or a coping mechanism with dis-ease already in the body.

466. Matthew, this summary explains so much about how we end up disconnected from our bodies and what is really going on inside. I cringe yet am open to admitting the things I have done or used, “to not feel the effects of not addressing the secret history.” We would make life so much easier for ourselves if we were simply able to be honest about what we feel.

467. I am starting to understand how being transparent about all our hidden issues and getting everything out on the table so to speak, is far more healthier for us and those around us, than it is to hold on for dear life protecting and feeling ashamed for what might seem huge to us but when we actually bring some light to the hurt it resolves very quickly.
     These little things we hold onto re-shape us into being unconfident, maybe less outspoken than we would naturally be, hold us back in life – in a way stunt our growth and change us to such an extent that we grow up to be a shadow of our true selves – it’s just not worth it.

468. Matthew well said and a great blog to ponder on what we keep hidden and secret. For me I found the longer I kept or keep something hidden, the harder it is to say it, and somehow it has a bigger grasp or hold over me but then as soon as I express it, it is as if it was nothing, yet I have been scared to say it. It also makes a difference when you do share something you have kept hidden for a while, that you share it with someone who is not judging you, as that can further bury it if they react to what you are saying.

469. The link between these hidden behaviours and hurts, and what eventually gets expressed outwardly as an illness or disease is important. It is earth shattering. Western Medicine is awesome at treating the outward expressing illness, but without the link to deep down ‘Why?’, it is always going to be fighting a losing battle.

470. “As a result we binge drink, smoke, overeat, sleep around, fight, overwork or don’t work, exercise or play sport to name a few, all to not feel the effects of not addressing the secret history.” It’s interesting that we accept this behaviour as being normal, so much so that we don’t question what we are choosing. For myself the realisation came when others showed me through their behavior that life didn’t have to be played out this way…. that in fact there was ‘another way’ and by dealing with my secret history my behaviours naturally began to change.

471. Thank you Mathew you have covered an extremely important part of how we override our life and how we do not deal with our actual issues and instead we focus entirely on anything but. It is fascinating how common this is and how we find it hard to either talk about this or be honest about it.

472. We ignore so many little signs and wait for a big stop to instigate a reassessment of the quality we are living in, hence it is very supportive to give more attention to these seemingly smaller matters.

473. In our hearts we have the full story and it is painful to move around trying to keep this contracted on the inside, moulded according to society’s ideals, must and must not do’s.
     This pain is expressed forth in our illnesses and diseases.

474. It is our response to an issue that hurts us far more than any issue itself, judging ourself / judging another / closing our heart / choosing to be less. And what a perfect set up this culture of hiding our issues is to make sure that we never get to face the issue and do not get to heal or resolve it. It is great when someone starts the conversation and takes the lid off for themselves, because it sets a precedence and gives permission to others to start going there as well.

475. I know from experience ‘my secret medical history’. I would feel a lot of tension and anxiety but dismiss it and bury it. It never occurred to me to talk about it as it seemed normal. I knew that everyone around me felt this too and to me it just seemed that that was the way life was! I remember always feeling a lot of tension and pain in my shoulders and constantly asking friends to massage them for me, but I am sure that wasn’t the half of it – there were many other aches and pains that I dismissed too. What you are uncovering here Matthew is hugely important. It is not ‘new age’, ‘airy fairy’ or ‘weird’ to expose that we all carry within us childhood hurts and that there is also a lot of shame around these. These translate to tension in the body as you say and are the precursors to illness and disease. This is very much common sense to me and I can hardly credit they are kept so secret and that we defend them by our silence.

476. “Living with these fears or anxieties disrupts the natural harmony in the body. Our heart rate is affected, and our blood pressure may increase. Not to forget our nervous system that is always ‘on’, which causes stress and tension in our muscles, our connective tissue and also on the endocrine system. So we can see how issues we consider minor, irrelevant or embarrassing affect the whole body.” Such common sense really. Medicine seems to have gotten side tracked from what, in its origins, was completely known. As an example, Plato’s words about never treating a part of the body in isolation without taking into consideration the whole.

477. Such a wise and insightful sharing. How much unnecessary hurt and ill-health can be prevented by addressing what comes up for us initially. Developing an environment that is safe, supportive and absolutely natural and normal to share and talk about what ails us before it manifests to a disease could so easily be part of everyday lives. It seems that if it isn’t a visible cut, brake, un-well organ or part of our physicality then it’s a no go zone. However we are so much more than cells. It’s what goes on between the cells that things start to get really interesting and it’s in this space that the connection to our cells and their well-being our founded. Let’s be open to what’s behind the 5 dimension visual and we may discover the secrets of the universe.

478. These blogs are amazing as I can see myself sharing more and more of the Truths that are going on in the world. And the more I talk about it, the more obvious it becomes that we are all responsible for ourselves. And that the choices that we make, actually add up every day determining if we’re getting any form of illness and disease sooner or later. One day not taking care of myself these days – whether this is going to bed later, eating too much or something my body doesn’t need, etc. and I experience the (negative) consequences the next day or days. Where as, years ago I would not even have a 2nd thought that taking less care of myself would actually influence my state of being. And that there is a certain – very important – responsibility in this…

479. Most often we don’t want to hear the full extent of what our bodies are revealing.

480. ‘The truth is, we compromise our body and our lives through the choices and decisions we make, which reverberate in a harmful way through our body.’ You have expanded on what these choice are here Matthew. It is the less obvious ones you have exposed that are perhaps more of a health risk than the so called acceptable ones. Awesome expose!

481. Thank you for highlighting the importance of this secret medical history Matthew. All the things that you mention give the complete picture of who we really are, how can we have a full or holistic health assessment without this? This is looking at the complete picture of health and wellness not just the absence of disease.

482. In the Women’s Groups I have presented for the last ten years it was profound to hear when women started to share secrets they had never talked about with anybody. Then other women would open up and share, what became obvious was that many had similar secrets and they not only unburdened themselves but they got to hear and learn from each other as to how others have dealt with a similar situation or event in their lives. The healing that occurred for all the women was immense.

483. What struck me when I first read this sharing is how many times I have shared how I was feeling or what was going on in my life at the time, as you have shared here, but my doctors were not interested. It is like if it has not been ‘proven’ then it is overlooked in medicine. But what you say here Matthew is very much the truth and if the medical practitioners are not yet open to this truth, it doesn’t mean we are not able to do this for ourselves as part of our own healing. The responsibility ultimately lies with us.

484. This is a wonderful portrayal of how the way we feel and the way we live creates the symptoms that we experience. It is evidence that is lived and the reality of it is there for all to see. It is strange how the medical profession do not take this more seriously.

485. Mathew this is brilliant and exposes the absolute importance of all the little things, the details that we keep hidden that really affects our lives, our health and the way we are living.vOpening up and being honest with ourselves is the start to true healing before illness and disease even manifests itself, and is always there for us to see when we choose to.

486. How powerful is the fact that simple things like being frustrated have a big impact on our health? That there are things we don’t even consider are part of our medical history that are in fact large contributors to our health. I know from your blog and list of aspects that are “secret” I have or have had many of these, areas of life that I thought just happened, areas of life that I wanted to be out of my control, yet all these are areas where I had choices but chose not to deal with them.

487. This blog offers us much food for thought Matthew, seldom are we encouraged to look deeper into our emotional and psychological welfare to pinpoint the causes of cancer, heart disease or diabetes for example.

488. It is phenomenal how easy it is to ‘sugar coat’ life to appear fine when all the while there can be deep unrest simmering underneath, affecting all the choices made. I could relate to this very clearly and can see how I can choose to not see or feel what is happening underneath the facade as I carry on with the mechanisms of daily life – a trap perhaps that I allow by not taking the time to check-in with myself throughout the day.

489. I feel as if we sometimes use the ‘public’ health aspects which we have as a diversion away from those that we would prefer not to reveal openly if at all, even to ourselves.

490. I wonder if a lot of people choose not to realise that our day-to-day neglect is causing us harm, medically speaking, over time? Or, as in my case in the past, being well aware of it but trying to manage the harm as we have no idea what else to do as there seems to be no point in behaving lovingly towards our body as it is a discipline and just makes us harder?

     Once we know that we are love, a knowing that is in the body, it becomes easier and easier to live it in our day-to-day life because it feels so natural and confirms us in who we are.

491. What about our secrets that are known but still not questioned? We all know someone with an OCD and just accept it as part of his or her nature. The compulsive behaviors can be severe to mild, but all have that cloud that shadows every aspect of life. Do we ever ask, what is the origin of these behaviors? What would be the result for someone to look at the golden nugget that has always been there? Possibly to find the key that unlocks the room they have confined themselves into for so long.

492. I am currently studying for a diploma in chakra puncture and I have done a diploma in herbal medicine in the past and I really love the fact that there is time and it is encouraged to know more about our clients than just their physical symptoms. In getting to know someone really well and how they feel and how they live makes it so much easier to understand them, understand what is going on for them and support them in the best possible way.

493. ‘Whatever they are, we keep them secret or we consider them irrelevant. Could it be out of fear of what others may say or think about us? However we soldier on, as we try to put on a public face that all is well.’ I agree, there is certainly a fear not only what others could say, but also what consequences would be there, for our own life, as when we express it we our selves get more awareness and need to take responsibility for it whilst when kept in the hidden, we can sometimes do like it would not exist.

494. A great concept prevailed. Our private medical history is what becomes our public medical affairs. When we deal openly with what we have kept as private in the past, then perhaps there will be less illness and disease.

495. This blog needs to be read by everyone including the medical profession pondering on what you say here about the secret medical history the underlying issues that lead to our public medical history makes me realise how little time my current GP gives me during a visit and how she is just ticking boxes due to the limited time she is allocated per patient. I have never deliberately kept how I really feel from my doctor but am very aware she doesn’t have the time to hear about it. The secret medical history is my responsibility the livingness I choose either heals or harms my body so I see this as my responsibility to be present with by body and listen to the messages of dis-harmony with my body and make more loving choices to nurture myself before I create a public medical history.

496. Thank you Matthew, this is such a brilliant blog to re-read. You uncover so much about responsibility in health, something that so often flies under the radar…

497. I can really start to feel how living with this secret history is actually doubly harmful. There is the disharmonious act that which we are choosing to indulge in and then the act of hiding it or trying to keep it concealed from others, both of these things are not harmonious to our natural way of being and so cause disease within the body.

498. How awesome would it be to go to the doctor and have them ask questions such as – how well do you sleep at night? Do you feel anxious in large crowds? Do you get frustrated easily? By no means is our health in the hands of the medical profession as we are the one responsible for our wellbeing, but if they were to start asking these questions, perhaps it would stir the public into realising that these things are part of our medical make up.

499. Great article. Many of the examples of our secret medical history are things that we would call behaviours. In this category, they become less of a health issue and more of a social issue. Yet we are simply playing dumb if we think they do not affect our health. When I get frustrated or anxious or don’t sleep well, my entire physicality is affected. If this is ongoing, it is only logical to assume that it will lead to a physical illness. Given the state of the general health of the world, perhaps its time we got honest – about what we are keeping secret and about how it is impacting our health.

500. You have illustrated here the different levels of illness and disease. Looking upstream to see why we have the consequences downstream. For me this is essential and starting this conversation in our own lives and supporting others to do the same is a vital public service.

501. Brilliant blog Matthew! Our secret medical history, the one we aren’t likely to share with someone except if we were dying or if it was someone really really close. The fact that we live with such lack of transparency shows that we inevitably don’t understand the relationship between all of our choices and our own illness and disease, and how even a moment of anxiousness, hardness is crippling for the body. A young child could easily tell you this but we grow up and accept all of these failings and holding back expression as being normal. This will be a great future study to be incorporated into medicine!

502. Our secret history disrupts the harmony of our body. Gosh, Mathew this is taking medicine and self care to a whole new level and it needs to go there as what we have now is not working. I love this level of responsibility.

503. “Those things that we keep secret are the things that we find embarrassing or personal; that we would never share with another.” But this blog really highlights the importance of being open, honest and truthful, for to our own health, and that of everyone else.

504. You have captured so many little pockets of our lives that we like to tuck away from the public eye. The shame and guilt around some of these behaviours can be more destructive than the behaviour itself. The drama and excuses that we use to hold onto something that no longer supports us can be much more complex than a simple choice to longer harm yourself.

505. Matthew I love what you say here “But there is another history we keep hidden. This secret history is the one we keep really personal and generally don’t share with anyone, or maybe only one other person. These secrets are the vital evidence and the foundation of our ill ways, ill health and poor decisions. ” – these words are gold, and are there for us all to ponder one and sit with and see how much we each can play into this and how much we are all being honest about. For in the end if it is the way that we are living that makes us sick, surely by correcting the way we are living will also offer us a healing and allow us to bring more health and wellbeing to the whole.

506. “Our lifestyle and the way we live each day are the precursors that affect our public medical issues and highlight the consequences of this private medical history we keep so secret.” Such an important point Matthew//All our choices affect not only us – and our medical history – but also everyone else.

507. This is so true Michael, we all have things about ourselves we prefer not to share with others, or even ourselves. We can be so cunning to keep ourselves busy and distracted to not actually allow ourselves the space to stop and consider how we really feel.

508. Thank you Matthew. You have inspired me to look into my secret medical history.

509. Thank you Matthew for writing about what we prefer to keep secret, even from ourselves.

510. Awesome Matthew!! In so interesting how we are willing to answer any medical history question about high blood pressure running in the family etc etc….but if a doctor asked how we really are in ourselves and our daily lives, it would be a lot more confronting.

511. What a wonderful turnaround it would be in many people’s lives if they were able to acknowledge that so much of what they experience on a daily basis could be incredibly relevant to any medical diagnosis. It is being shown in medical statistics that people’s lifestyles are behind so many illnesses and diseases, so it is crucial to let go of any barriers that prevent us from sharing what is going on in our lives when we are with the one person who could discover what is behind any health issues. Let’s not leave it until it’s too late!

512. Health professionals have a great role to play in not just asking the usual health questions but the ones that allow their patients to consider the everyday things they live with that feel ‘jarring’ in their lives. Then the awareness of the disharmony begins.

513. The question that comes up for me Matthew is why do we all have secrets? Secrets from ourselves and secrets from others. Bringing honesty to ourselves and understanding to others is a huge step forwards in being open about what is going on underneath the surface of our lives.

514. “…a willingness to look at this secret history of ours can offer us the opportunity to see and deal with our old hurts and open us up to the possibility of living a truly healthy and joyful life.” What a difference going through this process can make! Initially it can be a daunting process, but one that is so worth going through and the end results speak for themselves.

515. Feel first, and share how you feel with another. Sometimes asking the simple question ‘ how are you?’ supports another to reveal how they’re feeling, that in itself is a release, to vocalise, not conceal. We have a responsibility in all our relationships to support others to express honestly (if able to) how they’re feeling and share inner anxieties. it is the first step towards healing.

516. This blog to me is a great place to discuss how awesome it is when we combine esoteric modalities with western medicine. I have experienced the rush and short time that doctors have seen me and the space has not often given me a sense of safety to open up and share all the other things that are going on in my life. What I have often felt is that they are in a rush and need to fix me up fast so they can attend the next patient. I know that this is not something they even like but is a system that many doctors are stuck working within. This is where I feel so supported with esoteric medicine because in these sessions I am able to take the time to express and feel all the other areas of my life and address them. So together, western medicine and Esoteric medicine are very powerful and one without the other really doesn’t work….and the most important in this picture is the patient and the willingness to be open and honest both in life and in the session or doctors room.

     1. Beautifully said Rosie the combination of western medicine and complementary medicine can support us all.

517. Matthew this is an incredible blog, thank you for writing this. It is saddening that we choose to live like this.

518. I can really feel just how much effort and energy we put into managing life when we live with all these issues, always attempting to ‘pull the covers’ over them so no-one else can see what is really going on for us. The daft thing is that we cannot hide them, these personal issues are stuffed into our bodies and will always make themselves known, but we are not encouraged to make the connection between ill health and our emotional state of being. Thank you Matthew for pointing out the obvious and exposing just how much our personal well being nourishes or impacts upon our health in a very non judgmental way.

519. I love this blog and more recently have been wondering what is it that stops me just saying out loud to someone all those things that niggle me about myself or those behaviours that I know have an effect on my everyday life, even though I have made many supportive changes over the last few years. This is great to read as it brings this choice to not be fully honest back to the body and the ongoing impact on our health. Thank you.

520. A great sharing in this blog, Matthew, and I agree, we all have a secret medical history. All of us have things that have hurt us through our whole lives, and when we are interacting with others, we keep these secrets to ourselves. We don’t want others judging us,we hide that we feel ourselves less than others, that we are not the confident people that we may appear to be, so truly, we all living a lie.

     It is great that you have pointed out how damaging to our health these secret medical histories are, when we do not deal with the issues that lie behind our history. Your example “Living with these fears or anxieties disrupts the natural harmony in the body. Our heart rate is affected, and our blood pressure may increase. Not to forget our nervous system that is always ‘on’, which causes stress and tension in our muscles, our connective tissue and also on the endocrine system. So we can see how issues we consider minor, irrelevant or embarrassing affect the whole body.” certainly resonates with me.

     For all of my life I have been a very shy person, felt less than everyone else, would find it very hard to speak to people, and my mouth would dry up, hindering my speech. Since meeting Serge Benhayon and attending Universal Medicine events etc., I have at last learned to deal with many of the hurts that are behind these issues, still very much a work in progress, but I am certainly a very different person to that I was 10 years ago. It is great to expose our secret medical history, I can attest to that.

521. Our secret medical history is written all over our body – our weight, our posture, our face. It may not be so secret.

522. ‘We generally don’t share many of these secrets with our GP, or anyone for that matter, but they are essential in being able to understand us’, Matthew I found this to be very true of myself and was quite startled to discover fairly recently that it was because I hadn’t shared my secrets with myself, they had remained ever so slightly out of reach.

523. Matthew your use of the terms ‘public’ medical history and ‘secret’ medical history is pure genius.

524. This blog is so powerful as it uncovers the illness that lurks under the history that we carry but “think” doesn’t have an effect on the quality of life we live. Time to ‘think’ again.

525. It is beautifull how you highlight the simple things that we see as irrelevant like ‘it may be that you find it difficult to sleep at night or hard to get to sleep.’ are actually deeply important. Also that what we consider as embarrassing is great to share with another that holds no judgement so we no longer hold, dismiss or hide it in our bodies. No only that, having these secret histories puts up a barrier in all our relationships, always keeping a little bit of ourselves hidden away.

526. “Living with these fears or anxieties disrupts the natural harmony in the body. Our heart rate is affected, and our blood pressure may increase.” The more open we are about how we feel, not bottling things up or pretending everything is fine when in truth it is not, the less stress we will carry around in our body. Our body knows harmony and anything less than harmony is an assault on the body.

527. “They could be things like how shy you are, or how little confidence you may have. It may be that you always feel a little anxious or uncomfortable in crowds; that you overeat or maybe feel sad at times, with feelings of loneliness, or even that you get angry quite quickly. It may be that you find it difficult to sleep at night or hard to get to sleep.”.

     When I read these words I first realised that I actually am familiar with all of them. Yet, I’m not so used to talk about them, nor am I used to hear people talking about these. Yet, most – if not all – are experiencing these emotions. When I observe from a distance it’s like a huge secret, yet every-body’s holding these same secret(s). We’re all fighting them and pretending that they’re not there, yet for many along us – it’s there everyday.

     It’s time to stop the secret medical history as no wonder we end up with so much illness and disease. These energies have to find a way to get out of the body…

528. ‘Living with these fears or anxieties disrupts the natural harmony in the body.’ I can attest to this as I have lived most of my life in an anxious state that has affected not only my nervous system but also more recently revealed my endocrine system. Everything is related, it’s all connected, we’re all responsible for our choices that lead to these imbalances in our bodies.

529. The world would be a very different place if we were all willing to be open and honest in every relationship we have with every person we meet.

530. How exposing our secret medical history is. It’s no surprise we keep it a secret. It’s one of those things that we are all actually very aware of because if we weren’t we would air the dirty laundry without any reservations….but we pretend we’re not aware and we keep it all piled up in the corner with a blanket covering it in an attempt no one will notice.

531. ‘The truth is, we compromise our body and our lives through the choices and decisions we make, which reverberate in a harmful way through our body.’ This is the absolute truth Matthew. Every single choice we make has a direct impact, either positive or negative on not only our body but everyone around us. If as a society we understood this, we’d be living very very different lives.

532. Just recently in an esoteric breast massage session I was able to feel that I have always been quite shy but I have never wanted to admit this. There was a part of me that wanted to keep this secret as if it was a bad thing to be shy but it has been really healing in understanding myself more and accepting this way that I am. Reading your blog made me really appreciate the esoteric modalities as they really do dig deeper than the superficial symptoms we may be experiencing at any given time and allow us the time and space to bring up and discuss the more secret issues that we often don’t share with our doctors.

533. We let things get too far away from that wonderful feeling of vitality and health. The little things we ignore and put up with over time slowly disconnect us from the real harmony we are capable of feeling in our bodies. After a while we forget how being truly healthy feels and what we have learned to live with e.g., stress, anxiousness, etc becomes our new normal.

534. Interesting that you give an example of someone living with anxiousness. I used to suffer with it a lot and would cope by drinking alcohol and over eating. The thing is the coping mechanisms never get rid of the problem; they only mask them and in many cases exacerbate the issue.

535. The secret medical history that you write of Matthew is one that we can even keep secret in a way from ourself! We can be so used to living with conditions (physical and emotional) that we dismiss them as being irrelevant and don’t consider further what it is that they could be reflecting to us.

     1. Not only that but the layers upon layers of dishonesty, even with self, that we have come to live with and accept mean that we don’t even realise we are keeping our histories secret.

536. Great article, how many of us have not stopped to even consider these hidden secrets to why our behaviour and health could be a particular way. If we just take the time to stop and consider these, we will be able to start addressing any physical symptoms and start to heal our bodies to truly live a healthier life.

537. A great blog Matthew. Once we start to open up about our secret medical history, my experience is that it’s been very healing.

538. Many of us hold on to these secret histories for dear life and can be consumed with thinking it is who we are. This in itself is illness and disease, as we are walking around carrying something that is not who we truly are underneath the noise, drama, hurts etc. Over the years I’ve felt this as like an anchor wrapped around my waste pulling me down, and therefore the anxiety builds and get stressed at the smallest things. Even the sharing of this secret history, as you share Matthew, is a great support for practitioners to have a clearer picture of what is truly going on…. and it is also, just by exposing what is not us, a healing.

539. I can relate to the secrets as I still have secrets, some things I tell one person, but not the other or I don’t tell anybody. What I am learning is that when I do tell, it feels very liberating and also that I am not the only one who is walking around with this secret. We are never the only one as many people are struggling with the same things.

540. It is interesting that the gold lays in the willingness to at least be honest. What I have found that usually gets in the way of this is shame. If there is any shame, then the hiding and dishonesty comes in, and with that what is there to be dealt with, gets pushed away, or buried under the shame and denial. This is when the term ‘bring light to the issue’ would be appropriate, as opposed to keeping it in the ‘dark’.

541. When we are used to looking at our coping mechanisms as part of our medical picture, we’ll have far more clue as to what is behind any illnesses that manifest later. To be open about our secret history will allow us to stay more healthy or to heal more quickly.

542. This is great Matthew, so well explained and brings the simple truth about how important it is to notice and express about these secret emotional disturbances running like a program underneath the surface of our lives. Even if this begins with expressing to ourselves it is surely a great contribution to healing before they manifest as ill health.

543. It would be great if we could all be open and honest about everything so we didn’t have to bottle even the smallest things up so even the small things wouldn’t escalate and the bigger things could be made smaller by everyone being a bit more loving and understanding. Medicine will never get a full handle on things until it takes many more factors into the equation of health and well being, which only Universal Medicine seems to be doing at this present moment in time.

544. An underlying feeling of anxiousness can feel like ‘normal’ but the tension it constantly creates in the body is damaging long-term. The causes can be our own thoughts or, they can be our environment and how we react to it, for example, a house that is full of clutter brings up thoughts of ‘I must clear this, but where do I start?’ with the result that nothing gets done and we feel more and more drained and too tired to start anything.

545. What you describe so clearly Mathew is the possible energetic link between some underlying causes and the effects i.e. illness and disease. The quality of our choices in each moment can either support us in vitality and well being or contribute to lack of well being and ill health.

546. Indeed Matthew it is so easy to get caught up in and only deal with the manifested symptoms of disease and illness. With people’s medical history becoming more complex and more symptoms to treat, medicine or treatment can become all about relieving or getting rid of symptoms rather than exploring the underlying causes.

547. Matthew what a joy to read this blog and how relevant it is! Wow – you have hit the nail on the head here – that we all seem to hide or mask what we feel, what is going on in our bodies beyond what is registered on a medical chart. There is so much to be said for how we value ourselves, what we allow in our bodies and put up with, and how this slowly seeps out into numbing comforts. To start to look at this, to start to be honest of why we eat certain things, have certain behaviours, how we truly feel, helps us to start to as you say, truly heal before something turns into a physical ailment. How brilliant that we have this opportunity, presented by our bodies all the time.

548. “Our secret medical history” I love it. It is so true. When we go to the GP it is usually the physical symptoms that are discussed, but there is so much more to us as human beings, and it is the way we are in our day to day lives that contribute to the illnesses we take to the doctor. If this were even simply dipped into by the medical profession it would have a profound effect and create change.

549. Matthew I feel that our secret medical history is often secret even from ourselves.

550. Reading this blog really puts into perspective how many things we keep hidden and see as unimportant, or is that what we tell ourselves so that we do not have to re-visit the hurt we experienced and buried so long ago. It makes sense to me now that it is not just the physical things we do to ourselves but the emotion hurts which also register in the body, and then later manifest as illness and disease.

551. “We numb ourselves with foods, drinks and all manner of behaviours, and sugar coat our life to show that everything is ‘good’, whilst every choice is tainted and loaded with the energy of hiding and suppressing this secret history.”
     Imagine how different our world would look and feel if this is something we were aware of from the outset? From every direction we are sold this lie, confirmed in our current choices, manipulated and coerced into thinking a certain way. But unfortunately it is a way that feeds the rot.
     Understanding our secret histories and not being scared to look at them is a great place to start the journey back to our true, vital, selves.

552. It is such a relief when we can actually face, own and share our secret ills and even more amazing when we can feel the pain behind them and understand the behaviours we have chosen in order to avoid the pain. And when we are prepared to ‘go there’ the harmful habits we were choosing to hide behind simply fall away, revealing in turn more of who we truly are. This may seem challenging to some, as relinquishing the ills confronts many beliefs and identities we hold about ourselves, but what I know now is that what lays buried beneath all these clandestine habits is more glorious than we can ever imagine.

553. With out the support from Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon I would not of healed my secrets that I played ignorance to. It has blown me away to actually feel how many layers that I had protecting me from not feel the underling hurts that I was holding onto. This freedom that I have chosen has allowed a space for me to continually have this open relationship with myself and to keep addressing what ever comes up along the way.

554. As we open up and become as transparent as we can be about our so-called ‘private medical history’, we offer ourselves and others a dose of good medicine.

555. Yes Matthew, these issues we present to our doctor are like the doors on our houses. Locked behind are a whole lot of experiences, beliefs and behaviours we tend to think are safe and unseen behind ‘lock and key’. Yet the great irony of this ‘secret’ stash is that it is actually not secret at all, but discernible and tangible and fully conveyed everywhere we go. So is this not the true ‘secret’ we need to share? That actually our way of being is around us everyday just like the air? So the idea that we keep anything hidden or apart is just a big circus.

556. Thanks Matthew, your blog highlights how there is a relationship between emotional traits or patterns and dis-ease. When you take a step back and look at the scope of emotional behaviour patterns and illnesses, it would be very interesting to see the correlation between the ‘secret medical history’ and the manifestation of certain dis-eases.

557. I totally agree with you Matthew that it is our secret history which may be the beginning of dis-ease if undealt with. Unfortunately the medical system is already so overburdened that a treatment is only given when an obvious problem has manifested in the body. I believe in “prevention is better that a cure” motto.

558. We are ‘all’ that we live and this blog reflects the shame we can hold as a society about our lives and how we go into comparison regarding what is acceptable to live thus keeping so much hidden. It is this shame that many hold in common and I love how you have exposed this Matthew. We all have a part to play in allowing the space for others to bring out what is hidden and to remind them that the ‘hidden’ and claimed medical history is not who they are. It is time to uncover the truth that will begin a deeper healing process. Thanks Matthew.

559. Yes Matthew this “private medical history we keep so secret” – and that eventuates into illness and disease like those you mention, highlights just how closed we are as a race within ourselves and so with each other. For me, it boils down to trust, and being able to feel that we can trust… when there isn’t this, then protection and shut down i.e. not expressing, happen and life or living is disharmonious to perpetuate the trust issue.

560. I had not fully reflected on the secret histories we carry with us, not being disclosed to others before now. It is not that we do not know – we are actively choosing to keep things tucked away out of sight.

561. Matthew it’s insightful of you to raise awareness of something we all share ‘a secret medical history’ and express it in the way you have. We often communicate superficially (dishonestly?) not only with doctors, but also family, friends and colleagues. Not really expressing what needs to be said and using words that convey a small fraction of the full picture. Doctors unable to accurately read the client will prescribe medication based on what is said, not felt. An insightful young doctor asked me during a consultation, “Is there anything in your life that could have caused this?’ I was thankful to have been asked. With self reflection, I shared more about myself and my life, and could relate my feelings of dis-ease with personal circumstances at the time. Consequently, there was no need for prescription medication: healing came from being honest about my life and sharing this with the doctor. Without the support and inspiration of Universal Medicine over the years, I would not have been willing to reflect and open up in the way I did.

562. Spot on Matthew, I know for a fact that many of the issues you have listed I simply took for granted because everyone I knew, including myself suffered from quite a range of them. We never consider issues such as anxiousness, shyness, watching porn, over eating or binge drinking as an illness yet it is vitally important that we do because “The truth is, we compromise our body and our lives through the choices and decisions we make, which reverberate in a harmful way through our body.” These are the real issues behind the diseases we suffer and stopping to take a look at the real why is very empowering. There is a lot that needs to be exposed here in order to support people to even perceive that is it not only possible but entirely normal to live a joyful life without these issues. When we are honest with ourselves about the quality of our secret medical life, we afford ourselves the opportunity to make truly wholesome choices that will underpin our health and vitality for the rest of our lives.

563. ‘This secret history contains the gold nuggets that have the potential to allow a person to truly live,’ this is huge. It’s time to pull back the rug and see what’s driving the behaviours we know are harming us but we accept because we tell, well I accept them because I tell myself I wouldn’t be able to get through the day without them and I need to be sane for my job to pay the rent etc. But where’s the quality that could be there if I’m sweeping things under the carpet? What if I no longer accept it’s ok to do this because I seem to be functioning?

     1. Yes, Karin, I too loved this quote from Matthew’s blog, which as you say is ‘huge’. It certainly does feel like time to ‘pull back the rug’ and take an honest review of how we have been living for aeons. When we stop we can feel that this is not something that has happened overnight but has taken many lifetimes to accumulate and cement itself into our body. Everything is there for us to feel and to change the way we have been living. As you say we are deserting the quality of how we live life and avoiding the truth to protect our pride. Is pride worth all that we are foregoing when we know deep down we are so much greater and grander!

564. It is completely the ‘norm’ to keep the lid on all those areas that we find uncomfortable about life, but are not medically recognised physical ailments. Secret or private history seems quite apt as a description, and perhaps that is part of the problem. Because when we are not prepared to speak about something, when we deny that there is an issue, often even to ourself, then we miss out on the opportunity to proactively deepen our understanding, address and heal the issues. It will just sit there and fester until our back is against the wall and we have to face it.

565. Hello Matthew and when I read this it came to mind a saying, “prevention is better then cure”. I remember this as a saying often used and here we have a blog dedicated to prevention and not leaving it to such a time where you are searching for a cure. You are asking us for a deeper care, a deeper listening to the subtleties or not so subtleties of our body, well before the outward appearance of an illness or disease. You are asking for a deeper relationship with ourselves as well, and all this flows on to every relationship we have. This list goes on with responsibility, presence (in the moment) etc. We so often seem to walk in the world ‘doing’ things and not fix things until they’re broken, but yet we are more broken then ever before. From my experience what you are speaking of, when done really works and this is ongoing.

566. ‘a willingness to look at this secret history of ours can offer us the opportunity to see and deal with our old hurts and open us up to the possibility of living a truly healthy and joyful life.’- beautifully said Matthew. What we seek in the world through our lifestyle choices will never reach or come close to the fulfilment that is found when we choose to look within, to how we are truly feeling, and deepen our connection to ourselves. Our bodies are always guiding us to heal that which holds us back from living the fullness of who we are, so we can then live with the vitality, radiance and joy that we are all born to live.

567. We really need to unveil the illusion that we believe we can hide, ourselves, how we feel or anything. Energy cannot be hidden regardless of wherever we are. We, our bodies, are transmitters of energy and so firstly we cannot hide from ourselves and everything we do, every choice we make has an effect on our bodies and is reflected as such. No hiding is truly possible as we all, whether we choose to admit it or not, read bodies and get a sense of what is going on for ourselves or any person we meet. We are only choosing to fool ourselves to think that we are hiding, simply to avoid and ignore feeling the truth that our bodies are always reflecting to us.

568. I love this expose on the “Secret Lives of Us”. It is so real what you share that I can relate to it in a few ways and since reading this yesterday I have already ‘shared a secret tension’ that I know was going to hold me back from truly being present with people. When I’d done this I had space and permission in me to just be without an internal tension. I know this flowed into other activities during the day, as there was a lightness and flow to a full day.

569. There is so much more to us than our physical bodies. And how we feel in the lives that we are living has a huge impact on the choices we make and why we make them. Yet most of us are not willing to pay attention to what we are feeling and think that hiding how we feel is a great way to deal with it. This has become the ‘norm’. But clearly there is no hiding, as our bodies are showing us the effects that burying and hiding what we feel has on us through illness and dis-ease. The choices we make every day either support us to live in vitality or hinder our vitality and well-being. Our bodies reflect this constantly and if we are willing to look deeper into the choices we are making, we will discover that our physical ill-symptoms are the end result of an unresolved hurt, emotion or an unease that has been playing out in our lives and influencing our choices.

570. ’Those things that we keep secret are the things that we find embarrassing or personal; that we would never share with another.’ – Indeed, the things that I kept secret from others were things that I often did not even admit to myself, I refused to feel it and pretended it was not there.

571. ‘The truth is, we compromise our body and our lives through the choices and decisions we make, which reverberate in a harmful way through our body.’ – If the conventional medical system considered this fact and supported their patients accordingly, the statistics of illness and disease would change rapidly.

572. You have presented a gold nugget Mathew. A clear and simple explanation of the causes of illness and disease, highlighting the extent to which our secret history affects our overall health and wellbeing.

573. This is such a great blog Matthew. You are spot on – it is indeed those things that we accept as being normal for us, be it being shy, getting over anxious, over eating or not eating, not sleeping well etc etc are in fact the things that can and do lead to physical ailments, and it is incredibly important that these things are taken into consideration when looking at our medical history.

574. ‘Living with these fears or anxieties disrupts the natural harmony in the body.’ And it shows in our faces, bodies, the way we walk, talk & express ourselves. The lights are dimmed on our natural life’s vitality.

     Are we then an energetic map of all our little secrets. Not so secret are they?

575. Our emotional issues are making us sick and yet we still think we ‘catch’ a cold from someone?
     We have this way of blaming something or someone else for our dis-ease but there is no mistake, our health does include our inner harmony and well-being.

576. So true Mathew, I know the anxiousness I was in all my teenage years and up until a couple of years ago affected my choices. I would drink and take drugs as I seemed to get some relief and was more confident when I was under the influence of an illicit substance. Of course the anxiousness was worse when the drugs wore off and I would seek more relief rather then take responsibility for my anxiousness.
     It was not until I came to Universal Medicine and understood that the cause of anxiousness is knowing that you are not living your potential. These days I am living this more and more and my anxiousness is less and less. When I do get anxious I now explore why, rather then reach for something to mask it. If humanity were to own up to even this one ailment – anxiousness – and get support for it instead of being in reaction to it, people’s lives would be different like mine is.

577. How can we expect to be aware of all the ‘minor’ issues when seeing our doctor when we don´t even talk about it with our family or friends? To raise awareness to the importance of our well-being with every aspect of our life, we probably need to start already in the early years at home or school, to make it part of our everyday conversations.

578. Today I had a conversation with my tax accountant that resembles the doctor – patient situation. She mentioned that most clients have an idea of what they think is right or the way to deal with something and hence don´t know to ask questions that would explore the bigger picture or don’t mention details as they don´t consider them to be of interest, so it is the accountant’s task to bring awareness to the situation by asking further questions and the client’s responsibility to be open to more than their limited view – both to the best of their ability. Point is, both have a responsibility and can contribute to the extent of their collaboration for the benefit of the work.

579. ‘This secret history contains the gold nuggets that have the potential to allow a person to truly live, and this is where we really need to start if we are to seek true healing’. This is such a profound statement, Matt. Our secret hurts are usually kept secret so we do not get hurt again, but as you say here, the truth is that we are hiding the things that are the keys to us being so much more than we think we are.

580. Love this hypothesis Matthew it really is a great example of what a huge impact there is on our life when we leave something hidden or just running in the background: “let’s say someone was living with anxiousness, just enough that it is brushed off as maybe being nervous or shy, but ‘normal’ for that person. This subtle wash of feeling that is always there, affects every decision that is made.”

581. Unravelling the things we do to not feel, the things we want to bury, is an essential part of true health. So many are seriously devoted to the pursuit of numbness, yet it is so rewarding and wonderful to bring awareness to our lives in this way. There is plenty on that list for me to consider and to bring that secret history to the light of my gaze.

582. Wow Matthew, what you have presented here is huge – that there is so much more going on than the symptoms that may present in the medical sense. But this isn’t scary, it’s actually empowering because, as you say, if we are willing to look at this “secret history”, to feel what is there to be felt and heal, we no longer have to live a life of constant tension, reacting to this history yet at the same time trying to pretend it is not there.

583. Having worked in hospitals for the last 20 years, sometimes the secret medical history sneaks out and it is something that health staff do not know what to do with. Give us a good old physical condition and we can do something about it…medication, procedures, surgery, IV fluids, antibiotics – but you start talking unresolved hurts it get staff running head on into the nearest chip and lolly machine. We can’t deal with it either, because it brings up all of our secret medical history too – straight in our face. Having said that, this history is a very important one, because it’s the underlying reasons why we become unwell in the first place and until we begin to uncover these hurts for ourselves, our health will continue its current trajectory.

584. This is true, we are very good at ‘functioning’ in life and kidding ourselves that all is well, but the smallest signal from our bodies is nevertheless a signal that something is in dis-ease and we would do well to pay attention there and then.

585. Learning to be more open about my secret history since attending Universal Medicine presentations has enabled me to heal many of my hurts. Huge appreciation to Serge Benhayon for inspiring me to choose another way to live.

586. It seems like we have become very used to living our lives on the surface, walking a very thin line, not allowing us to feel and see the depth that there actually is in our bodies, the way we live and in life as such.

587. This is a great blog Matthew – I wish you could publish it in a column in a newspaper or a women’s magazine – at present so many of us are still looking at all the ailments we get as separate to each other and definitely separate to our thinking patterns – it is time to lift the veil on this awareness and educate people to realize they already know within themselves what they are doing that might lead to poor health later on. It is almost like offering them a key.

588. These hidden symptoms you speak of Matthew that we don’t reveal to anyone could be potentially be the start of some serious illness! I thank you for bringing this important subject to light for us to take a serious look at!

589. When we keep things as a secret we make sure they stay with us. So every hurt and dream born out of a lonely chest will stay with us till we let it be seen and let it go. Children who are abused have the tendency to collect little treasures and hide them in a box in a secret place – later we have the tendency to accumulate all sorts of things, be it porcelain figures, stamps, sexual conquests, drama-situations or what ever. It is a way to try to deal with a hurt. But in that way we make it stay. Honesty, Flexibility and Openness are not supported by collecting mania but are necessary to grow out of our hurts, back into a true connection to us and each other.

590. We deny the ill potency of hiding our secret medical history from others and even ourselves. The body has to absorb it and the being ill-at-ease eventually catches up with us and makes us ill. I am amazed at how robust the physical body actually is before eventually our secret history takes its toll and we get physical symptoms. I am also amazed at how quickly the body can heal when the underlying cause is dealt with and the great support offered to us by the medical profession.

591. Perfectly said, Matthew. It is those gold nuggets of honesty that lead the way to true health.

592. The “genesis of sickness” is of much consideration if we wish to address the root cause of ill health. From my experience just talking about such things as overeating, or not expressing my feelings enough, or acting shy or any of the many examples you gave Matthew is a step towards better health and wellbeing.

593. This is in truth massive, as they are seen as little things, that even can seem normal. But in truth have a great effect on our bodies, and our health. I feel all that is there is there to be looked at, and not to be ignored. Thank you for presenting this fact so clearly, the secret medical history is not there to just be, but is telling us something we need to work on. So many diseases could be prevented this way.

594. The words ‘most of us are functioning people’ stood out of this blog for me. It seems this is a baseline marker for so many of us – are we able to function so we can go to work, tend to our responsibilities at home, go on holiday etc. But are we just here to function – or is there something deeper to discover in life? For me the latter is most certainly true.

595. There is an interesting parallel here with something I teach in my work. It is around ‘behaviour scales’ and those who use what we call ‘challenging behaviour’ as a form of communication. Using behaviour scales, we learn to identify the earliest signs of agitation so an intervention can happen then, rather than wait until the behaviour gets ‘louder’ and potentially aggressive.

     The same can apply to our health. We can learn to identify the very first signs of disharmony in our body and respond then, rather than wait for the body to shout louder with an illness or disease. Further still though, there is another more proactive level of intervention where the focus is entirely on the quality of life and wellbeing of the person concerned. With health this relates to our choices around self-love and self-care. If we want to work with our bodies rather than just get them fixed when they communicate a dysfunction, this would seem to be a common-sense way forward. Living in harmony with the communication of our bodies is a beautiful thing.

596. Matthew, this article is so interesting and so true, ‘This secret history contains the gold nuggets that have the potential to allow a person to truly live, and this is where we really need to start if we are to seek true healing. If we wait until it manifests into a physical issue, it is then so much harder to treat.’ Reading this I can feel how it is so common for us to have these secrets, to live with anxiousness, lack of self worth, lack of confidence – the list goes on, it is great to make the link between how we live and feel about ourselves and illness and disease, it is important to be aware of and talk about everything that is going on for us without embarrassment and shame, if we were all more honest and open we allow the opportunity to truly heal.

597. These days, when something is ‘brewing in the background’ I am learning to go deeper with it and feel what is there. This is very different to how I once approached such things when I would choose something from ‘the list of distractions’ like drinking alcohol, eating or playing sport. What I have found is that opening up to feeling more can reveal nuggets of wisdom – truths that have somehow been buried. It is quite the opposite of the old belief that I need to protect myself from what might be there. It is an opening up to the wisdom of the body and part of that healing Matthew shares about here. Thank you Matthew for your blog.

598. It is interesting that the things we want to keep secret can bring the most healing if we are willing to go there. If we made it our norm to admit when something has hurt us instead of burying the emotion, life and our health would be so much more simple.

599. “This secret history will cause the lifestyle choices that we make, to hide or suppress these feelings and fears that mould our life.” This is must read for everyone, young and old, to get behind the causes of illness and disease and liberate ourselves from our self-created suffering.

600. As I allow more love into my life and allow myself to be more loving with others, I’m finding that I’m more willing to unpack and look at my ‘secret medical history’ with more understanding and awareness. This alone is a significant step towards healing. The protective barbs I’ve encased these secrets in, can start to melt away.

601. Often we are numb to our life style choices , which are harming us or do not know how or feel tooo weak to stop them, that we have given up on the possibility that something would change. We have given up on the power we carry inside of us, which supports us to make healthy lifestyle choices. The easy thing is to go to the GP and get a pill against the symptoms.

602. What an amazing way to look at the gold mine that lies within us all! This can be the ultimate preventative medicine that has been the Holy Grail solution that has been searched for everywhere outside of us. When we do not have to look too far, for the answer that has always be with-in us all the time.

603. You have made a great case for the fact that everything that happens or that we experience is actually relevant information for our healing, Matthew. I know that often something someone has said in passing in a session can be extremely crucial in understanding and reading what is going on for a person. As Lucy has said, our secret history can be something we deny so deeply that we do not even know it consciously ourselves.

604. Great revelations in this article about the ‘pathway of disease’ and our responsibility. This ‘secret history’ is something we even try and keep from ourselves – the override of how we truly feel in favour of fitting in with our belief systems or expectations of ourselves.

605. Thank you Matthew, great sharing, and I agree our secret history contains golden nuggets, which all comes down to our choice to take responsibility for every-thing we do! Our life style choices, which are connected to our emotional issues in life, show us if we are discerning enough to not override what our body is sharing so we can bring about different life style choices. To follow simple self-loving and self-nurturing decisions is emphatically life changing.

606. Holding onto stuff just incarcerates us in a self-created prison as we have to try to control the world more and more to not let these hurts and issues get exposed. But in letting them release and let go we become free once more to be our true selves.

607. From whom or what do we think we’re saving, from keeping these very real parts of ourselves a secret?

608. With all of the money, expertise, intelligence, time and precision that goes into medical research, why is our ‘secret medical history’ and its consequences, not being studied? Preventative medicine is clearly the way forward (through the marriage between conventional medicine and esoteric medicine), but this conclusion may only come about when health systems of the world totally hit the wall and start to bankrupt nations.

609. If we truly understood the significance and the purpose of our bodies, as vessels for God’s light, and appreciated them as the evolutionary instruments they actually are, perhaps then we would be prepared to stop at nothing to reveal and heal our secret medical history. A very inspiring blog, Matthew. Thank you.

610. The amount of time that is wasted through non-disclosure is phenomenal.
     If we simply were open and honest, a lot of our processes in society would be fast-tracked, or better yet complex issues around working together would dissolve instantly.

611. A humbling reminder of the importance of honesty. Honesty costs nothing (except our willingness to let go of what stands in the way of us being prepared to go there), and yet it could save the health systems of the world trillions, through the illness and disease it could prevent.

612. As you say Matthew, we tend to as a society brush aside and consider normal feelings of discomfort, tension, pain and unease. It’s just the way life is people will say. But underneath there is the deep giving up, of a way of being with ourselves and each other that has the harmonious joy and expansion a baby feels when it stretches its arms to greet the day. That way is actually our true way, and it’s by being honest about the fact that the tension and suffering that characterises daily life today is far from what we ought to accept as OK.

613. Letting go of shame or embarrassment about how we are, the imperfections or flaws we have, is a great step towards acceptance. I find if I’m ashamed, embarrassed or feel I have to hide something then it gives it free reign to run my life. I’ve also realised through the work of Universal Medicine that these things are not who we truly are, which has supported me to observe and accept myself exactly as I am, and with a sense of ease attend to whatever the issue is.

614. This ‘secret history’ is the basis on which all physical symptoms are manifested in the body, so to me it makes absolute sense to begin being more honest about this. The power of modern medicine would dramatically change if we were to consider this an equal part of medical history disclosure (ie the way we are living or have lived) when it comes to treating illness and disease. Esoteric medicine is what offers this missing link.

615. This is an amazing blog, it seems the only true choice to make is to look for the gold nuggets instead of burying them, we all have them, we all know they are there, we are a rich resource.

616. Every detail is a detail worthy of our full attention and care. What you’ve presented Matthew is perhaps how medicine will one day be – inclusive of our choices and the understanding that they lead to much more than we realise.

617. It is great that your article exposes how we compromise our bodies through the choices and decisions we make and the inappropriate coping mechanisms then used to avoid feeling them. There is much wisdom that our bodies are crying out to tell us that we are denying by living in this way.

618. It is absolutely astounding that so often the general way is to carry on regardless of what we ultimately all know to be true as to how to live in a way that our body feels vital and well cared for. Yet we settle for ok or ‘good’ at best totally dismissing our deserving of feeling amazing as a normal way to being.

619. Love what you have shared Matthew and the way it has been communicated, so easy to understand and makes so much sense. We can influence our medical history by opening up and going more deeply into our ‘Secret’ History. We can claim all the parts of our life we have denied or hidden and appreciate all that this offers us – don’t have to pay for a prescription to get that. My experience with others that know us is that there are times they can clearly see what else is going on but hold back the truth and do not challenge us to look more deeply. Sometime being exposed in a loving way can also initiate a checking in with the truth. There is a much bigger picture available to us and one that holds the many nuggets of gold available to us – I love it that the choice is ours and we can choose to act rather than give our power away to another source.

620. Thank you for writing so clearly on how “issues we consider minor, irrelevant or embarrassing affect the whole body.” Would it be great to share about these things with each other in support to let them go and take care of our bodies in this way.

621. The sad thing is that our secret history can be something we deny so deeply, that it is even secret from ourselves. Of course it isn’t really, but long term denial of something eventually turns into ignorance, for we never truly do not know something, we have in truth chosen to ignore it and pretend it doesn’t exist. Universal Medicine reminds us of those things we have been ignorant about, and in our reawakening the responsibility then rests with us to look at what it is we have held as secret for so long, bring it into the light and support ourselves to heal.

622. I wonder how much us lacking love in our life (our secret medical history) then leads to our public medical history – still confidential but manifesting in our body.

623. This is a ground-breaking offering, Matthew, that if noted and acted upon would save countless manifestations of illness and disease down the line and relieve the burden on our already stretched medical support resources. Our secrets are just that – secret, embarrassing, humiliating traits that we’re too uncomfortable to air and raise, so we bury them for an even more impactful hit on the bodies further on in life. Put like this, it makes absolute sense to face head-on all the hidden secrets we’re harbouring and accept that our long-term health prospects are our responsibility.

     1. And when we do choose to do so, shame, guilt and embarrassment fall away. We are held by our love which doesn’t critique or judge but consistently asks us to shine more and more the truth that we are.

624. “This is what creates our public medical history, the one that is eventually expressed as illness. Why wait until it’s too late?”. Our secret medical history creates our public medical history. So here we have the answer to all our woes, questions, doubts, etc. Why is it so random in the world that we really feel that somebody connects to us and genuinly appreciates us just for who we are. In my life I’m still surprised and touched whenever that happens. This is confirming to me just about everything what Matthew is talking about in this blog. Because we don’t have an intimate and appreciative relationship with ourselves, we’ve got nothing else but the soldier way of being. Toughen up, being competitive, etc. It is actually quite obvious that this will lead to illness and disease in time… Boy oh boy do we have a responsibility to express and just be ‘our one self’, rather than having a secret face and a public face.

625. What you are presenting definitely makes sense to me Matthew. I know that while I have cleaned out a lot from my secret medical file I am constantly discovering more things that I have filed away in it over the years. It does take honesty and commitment but the reality is that none of us need the contents that go to make up this secret file. What a difference it would make to illness and disease rates globally if we all made the decision to work consistently with ourselves to erase the contents of our secret medical files!

626. Thank you Mathew for illustrating so clearly that the little things we do not mention, ‘our secret medical history’, lead to the illnesses that become our ‘public medical history’. It is great article through which to introduce people to the causes of illness and disease.

627. From the way you describe it, our secret medical history is the basis of our ‘official’ medical history, with all its symptoms and interventions – wouldn’t it be great if we caught it early and did something about our hurts and distractions before they become physical?

     1. Yes, imagine if we opened up about all our ‘secrets’ with the innocence we had as children… How would our state of well-being and medical history then be like..

628. It is true that the history that we are embarrassed about and protect to our chest is the key to our evolution. The deeper we go the more we let our hurts go. Thank you for sharing the gold nugget of wisdom

629. I love the playful distinction between the public medical history which conventional medicine is interested in, and our secret medical history which esoteric medicine works with. What you have shared about how our secret medical list of ways we have adopted in our life impacts the various physical aspects of our body and hence the medical history we offer to our GP is profound. This offers a deeper understanding of our own responsibility.

630. Matthew this is such a great understanding of what is exactly going on for many people. I can feel pockets of this in myself as I read. In fact it is so clear to me now what is required to support my well-being and that is to discuss with the people concerned about the areas I am holding tension. It’s subtle but it is there every moment. When we live like this it must put enormous load on our nervous system and I can feel the urge to resort to some go-to-behaviors to dull the tension. Thank you.

631. “This secret history contains the gold nuggets that have the potential to allow a person to truly live”….
     Mathew, what you have shared here is truly a gold nugget for us all and a timely reminder about what health truly is. Sharing our secret history is the key to reversing the terrible health statistics that are present in the western world and we can then be offered a choice to live in a more responsible way.

     1. I totally agree with Anne, your blog is such a Gold nugget – pure wisdom and truth expressed. Everybody should read it and it is so supportive and clear for me to understand even deeper so. Thank You Matthew.

632. This brings the true meaning of the ‘The Secret’. The fact that is not really a secret at all – we are just choosing to avoid what we have buried so deeply or maybe not so deeply and not wanting to look at the truth. Peeling back these layers and from my experience their are many layers we slowly start to feel the true person who we naturally are. Universal Medicine has been an intrinsic part in supporting me to let go of the layers and I am eternally grateful for the Love and Light they had offered as a reflection that it is possible and it is ok that you don’t need to hang on them for dear life. That the layers are not what makes you who you are, that underneath all the layers is a gold mine of joy, harmony and a quality that is so pure and divine and this is who we are.

633. Thank you Matthew for opening my eyes to the underlying medical history that are the emotions that we hold, the issues we have, the unfulfilled feeling we might have in life and so on. I can so see that by brushing these away or thinking that they are normal, we allow ourselves to live a life that is so much less than how amazing our lives can truly be when we go there and be honest that we are not truly well. From there we can change our ways to live without these ill conditions mentioned above.

634. The sooner we understand that all aspects of life are part of our health and also part of our medicine, the sooner we will start paying loving attention to every aspect of our life. Then true change and healing will occur.

635. Without having role models who reflect true health we settle for what we see as normal around us. So how can we supersede that false limitation and figure out what actually is possible? We need to seek a way of living that is actually supportive of our potential, that is harmonious, loving, caring, honouring the bodies natural messages, that makes common sense to every aspect of us (and not just some in ignorance of others). We know deep inside that something is not right with the ‘normal’ way of life as it presents itself today, but do we start questioning the wrongs or do we seek ways to ignore and bury the inner inkling? Our body knows, we have to learn listening to it.

636. Our current medical system is great when it comes to measurable illness and disease; then they can make a diagnose and have a fantastic range of possibilities to treat the symptoms or even cure the physical cause. We need to understand and appreciate its strengths and clearly know what it can do, so that we can recognise what such system doesn´t consider and deliver. One major point is that medicine and we as society don´t know what true health and well-being really are; we have settled for the norm and consider it to be natural without ever having lived the full potential of who we are by cultivating a lifestyle that supports us to unfold the best in us.

637. How often do we wonder or are surprised how we can get ill, then finding the reason in weather change or environmental issues, yet hardly taking our daily living into account of how much of an effect everything that we do or do not do has on our well-being.

638. Thank you Matthew, I like how you bring us a step closer to the actual cause of the illness and disease we are faced with. It is like having a look behind the curtain where the actual action is happening and not wait until it eventually presents itself with no way to hide anymore.

639. As we have no marker for true health and wellbeing we accept less as normal and as long as we don´t suffer too much or don´t have a medical diagnosis we ‘live’ with it.

640. I find it very freeing to be honest and share my secret medical history. Not something I was used to doing before coming across Universal Medicine. The more I love myself, the more I accept all the parts in life where I don’t feel solid yet. I don’t have to improve myself in any way, I just allow myself to love myself more and the rest is taken care of by doing just that.

641. This is gold dust, or perhaps even diamond dust. When we look at health we often if not always ignore how a hurt, an anxiousness, anger or worry is actually there all the time, creating the later stages of illness and disease. How incredible would it be to bring attention to anything like this as it arises, any of our “secret medical history” and deal with them. No longer in shame, not shared but with support.

642. What a great read Matthew. Our secret medical files are clearly the most important ones to be taking notice of. Even if we think we can hide them from ourselves and others, our behaviours are giving them away anyway. These secret files are the key to getting to the source of medical issues or preventing them from becoming a medical diagnosis.

643. “The truth is, we compromise our body and our lives through the choices and decisions we make, which reverberate in a harmful way through our body.” It is time to take more responsibility in our lives, be open and transparent with others. As stated so brilliantly here Matthew. It is deeply moving to think our choices are affected by all of this.

644. “We numb ourselves with foods, drinks and all manner of behaviours, and sugar coat our life to show that everything is ‘good’, whilst every choice is tainted and loaded with the energy of hiding and suppressing this secret history.”

     This is very true, yet bizarrely, there is no hiding in the world of energy but we choose to remain ignorant to this fact and ‘forget’ that what is playing out on the energetic level will eventually precipitate into the physical where we continue to live under the illusion that we can hide our ‘secret history’. When really, what was once purely energetic in the form of undealt with hurts, now becomes physical ailments and illnesses. Not so easy to ignore when they present as physical symptoms but even then we blink and scratch our heads and think it is sheer bad luck or blame it on genetics that we are in pain. Just a clever trick of the spirit running rampant in us all to not take responsibility for previous choices we have made.

645. A simple and revelatory presentation Matthew, that sheds a whole new light on the term ‘preventative medicine’. What we hide most is what hurts us most, and what hurts us most is what causes us the most harm. Our secrets are killing us…literally. What may start as a small issue gets magnified the longer we leave it unattended, the genesis of disease as you point out. Yet we are the cure we so desperately search for, and it starts with making what is veiled, known.

646. By looking at our secret history we are taking responsibility for our own health and well-being – before disease manifests in our body. Surely this responsibility is where current healthcare needs to go, as the current model of fixing the already manifested disease is overwhelming our healthcare system and health professionals.

647. This all makes so much sense Matthew… Having secrets, no matter what they are, creates a tension in our bodies that leads to dis-ease and disharmony, and if the underlying tension and its root cause are not dealt with, eventually disease will emerge.

648. What you say is very true Matthew and when I read: “We generally don’t share many of these secrets with our GP, or anyone for that matter, but they are essential in being able to understand us.” it occurred to me that we often even keep these things secret from ourselves. Instead of facing and dealing with our hurts and issues we often prefer to avoid, hide, numb ourselves or look for relief, and then it is our bodies that cop it.

649. It is so true the way you explain how we medicate ourselves to not feel what is going on in our bodies – we can’t bear the pain, the ‘secret’ and so we check out from our bodies to cope with life. Myself, I started experimenting with alcohol and cigarettes at the age of 13 and it made me feel that I wasn’t an outcast (I was convinced that I was the only one with a ‘secret’) and that I ‘belonged’.

650. “Often other people know some of these ways, but just accept that it is just the way people are and so don’t question it.” This was a very powerful observation Matthew and one which highlighted for me each of our potential to be ‘a physician’ to the one we notice these things in. To openly question, or start a conversation that gently raises what has been noticed, has the potential to bring awareness and change from that point onwards.

651. Very true Matthew, what you have named as our ‘secret History’ are in fact the areas of question our health practitioners should be asking about. The answers given are vital clues to a) how the acute illness has arisen and therefore b) hold the key to making changes that will bring true healing.

652. A “secret history” is so spot on Matthew – I have had not just one but several secret histories in my life. I had no idea how seriously this was affecting my health and wellbeing until I met Serge Benhayon. This inspired me to start being honest and take responsibility for my own health by my everyday choices.

653. Mathew, What an awesome quality, understanding and gift you bring to the Medical Profession. True Medicine of the future as these two aspects of diagnosis of symptoms and energetic causes are aligned as one.

654. Mathew – I love the simple truth and fact you present in this blog to understand from another angle that we are the creators of our own ill health through the ill choices we have made over aeons of time. From personal experience, I know that it is only as I/we begin to be honest about my/our ‘secret history’ that true healing is possible and permanent, amazing changes can be made in our way of living, if we so choose.
     ‘”This secret history will cause the lifestyle choices that we make, to hide or suppress these feelings and fears that mould our life. How do we hide and suppress these feelings? We numb ourselves with foods, drinks and all manner of behaviours, and sugar coat our life to show that everything is ‘good’, whilst every choice is tainted and loaded with the energy of hiding and suppressing this secret history”.

655. Mathew – What a powerful and truly relatable blog for all to have a deeper insight and understanding of the actual causes underlying the symptoms of illness and disease that we present to the medical profession and others. Functioning, to get through life changes, as we make different choices for bringing self-care with love to ourselves and a willingness to bring honesty to expose and heal the ‘secret history’ that we have kept hidden within for a very long time.
     “Most of us are functioning people, we have a job, work, go out, share meals and have friends, so this private history is kept simmering in the background with a range of coping mechanisms that get us through life. We all have our way of ‘getting through the day’ and our body does try to rebalance and compensate, but it can’t do this forever”.

656. We don’t think of these things as being an illness or the potential start to an illness, for example, it’s normal for many of us to occasionally be ‘not really feeling motivated to do anything’ and at other times ‘constantly having to keep busy’. What we may not realise is that this stop-start routine can lead to adrenal exhaustion which in turn can lead to endocrine problems later in life. A steady, healthy way of living, with a supportive rhythm works wonders for our vitality and general well-being.

657. Yes Matthew it is sometimes as simple as voicing our secrets, coming out of the closet, so as to speak, as this breaks the hold they have on us. I remember when I was a young mother I would hide down the back of the yard and sneak a cigarette and feel that it was giving me some space from the demands of four children. Once I was outed it did not have the same appeal at all, if I was totally embarrassed and got to realise that this was not a great way to be with myself!

658. I love the deeper look at medicine that you’ve presented here Matthew. In my experience how I respond or react to life has a big effect on my wellbeing and physical health.

659. Matthew this is so very true, everything in our bodies is affected by our secret history. It is beyond imagining how much our society could change if what we have kept secret, began to be normal every day talk. With the understanding that each of us have our own, and as we talk about ours, we support another to reveal their own. With this level of honesty health and wellbeing would not be measured by doing ok, but by instead a vitality and engagement in life that such honest communication can bring.

660. I love how you write about our secret history that causes us to choose the various lifestyles that enable us to hide or suppress our feelings, burying our hurts. If not dealt with it is no surprise that disease will manifest at some point. Epigenetics is now showing this in mainstream medicine.

661. Awesome Matthew, a subject that should be expressed by all. Who do you speak to if you suffer from a mild case of anxiety? If you went t the doctor with this ailment, you would be told you are a time waster even though getting to grips with it at such an early stage would actually save a lot of time further down the track. Prevention is far better than cure and by dealing with our issues or our secret history as you put it we are definitely taking the prevention option.

662. Matthew I love how you have written about the things we don’t discuss with our GPs as our secret medical history. I am wondering why we don’t bring this out into the open? is it possible that we have divorced the idea that our emotions and physicality are linked? I think it would be fair to say that we have all recognised the damage being stressed has on our health. It makes sense to extend this thinking and look at how other emotions affect us too. Dealing with the emotions that cause the illness in the first place offers tremendous healing and I have been amazed at how my body has responded and recovered from its ailments!

663. You have blasted something apart here Matthew. The secret history..the precursor, the source of our ills that we tuck away in the recesses, too ashamed to say them out loud.
     But why shame when we are all carrying a book full of tales that are more similar in nature than they are different?
     Sometimes it takes catastrophe to open the pages of our secret text, share its contents and discover the path to true. Never was there a need to be ashamed.

664. Yes Matthew, this secret history is likely the actual key to our health and wellness. Issues will be evident in this history long before they manifest in our physical ill health and disease. If we reflect on our own secret history I feel that this will offer an opportunity to address these issues before they translate to a medical illness – this is truly preventative health.

665. “we soldier on, as we try to put on a public face that all is well.” This is so true, we don’t allow ourselves to feel what is truly going on and present that to the world. As a result, we are continuing to feed into lies about how we live and what we feel. Thanks to the work of the ageless wisdom and Serge Benhayon, I no longer place all this importance on putting on a face to the world that is not authentic and responsible.

666. Thank you Matthew for highlighting the effects of not dealing with our hurts and how they can then manifest into the types of illness and disease we most likely will end up with. Universal Medicine over the years has helped me to identify many of my childhood hurts which were still running the show well into my forties, and as a result my physical health has improved 100%, with no exaggeration.

667. This is such a great article Matthew , so much we keep hidden from others and ourselves, so as to look good on the outside to be seen as coping with life and being on top of everything, and not until we get a disease or illness do we even consider how we have been living and what type of lifestyle has led us to this point. Being honest about how we are truly feeling, and taking responsibility for our actions are the first steps in our healing.

668. It’s interesting to note how most of us feel the same way around our ‘secret histories’ and yet by staying silent we keep ourselves isolated and in shame and closer to illness and disease. The more we talk about what is really going on for us and admit to them, the more we would realise we are all trying to protect ourselves from everyone seeing in us what everyone else is feeling within themselves too. The irony in this is laughable and yet we are happy to be blind to the farce we are taking part in on a daily basis! Honesty really is the best medicine.

669. There is so much that is considered normal now that is really far from being a normal way to live. It isn’t normal for a human being to need a coffee to get going in the morning – a heart starter, as it is often referred to – or a glass of wine at the end of the day to relax and unwind. This shows that a person is stimulating themselves to get going, and then needing something to bring them down again. It’s very common (and I used to live this way) but it is far, far from normal for our bodies.

670. This is an amazing expose of our ‘secret medical history’ – I love it! It is fascinating that so little attention is given to these things, when as you’ve shared many of them can in one way or another lead to lifestyle related conditions – our ‘public history’, which are on a steep rise in society. I wonder how things would change if it became the norm to talk about these things with our GP – I think it would give both them and us a better insight into our health and what is going on in our body.

671. We all have this ‘secret history’ and I know from experience how much shame is felt and how much low level anxiety this can lead to. Having the courage to feel into the original hurts and to let them go has supported no end with this and those moments where I want to curl up or beat myself up for making mistakes are practically non-existent! As a result the amount of tension I feel in my body has dramatically reduced.

672. Fantastic blog Matthew that highlights that there is so much that affects our health that doesn’t get a mention in health checks. By the time the condition becomes a physical ailment and needs treatment, we’ve had signs along the way to let us know there was something not quite right, but we don’t always pay attention to them. It’s a bit like waiting for our car to break down when we’ve heard a rattle or something else for some time, but haven’t done anything about it.

673. Thanks Matthew. This is a super blog. ‘So we can see how issues we consider minor, irrelevant or embarrassing affect the whole body. But this is not seen as a medical issue, because it hasn’t presented itself in the body as an illness yet, even though it is actually already there. It is a medical issue and it is the genesis of sickness. This beautifully simple point (as indeed your whole blog) encapsulates the grand scale in which we as a humanity brush over, ignore or deny those hurts so much so that we live with disharmony in the body and call it normal. An incredibly pertinent point well made!

674. This is a fantastic blog Matthew. It is amazing how we hold these things hidden from others and try to hide them from ourselves too. I thought I was fine even though I was at the end of my tether with exhaustion about 13 years ago. I hid how I felt because I thought was supposed to be some kind of superwoman. I was comparing myself with other women I knew who also were portraying that they had it together, whilst underneath it all I eventually discovered, they were no different to me.
     I understand completely what you mean by ‘secret history’ and though I have begun exposing that within myself I am finding there are still sneaky little ways I try to keep my secret history that way.

675. We can live with feelings – or should I say suppressed emotions? – for so long that we forget that they do not really belong to us, they are not who we are. They contribute to the discomfort and disease that we hide even from ourselves until, as you say, it finally erupts into a public condition that cannot be hidden any which way. Beginning to express and communicate these secrets is vital, especially to those who could support us out of this miasma. I can see, looking back, that keeping things to myself has not served.

676. Our secret history of which we all have one, ways of living that perhaps we are not proud of. I can say for sure that when I eat foods I know are not good for me I can feel a bit ashamed of this and wouldn’t wish to share with anyone the quantity or type of food I have indulged in, the same goes for many of my thoughts, if they are unkind I wouldn’t wish to share in case someone judged me mean spirited, a horrible person. Yet all these things define our wellbeing so it does seem common sense to at very least acknowledge their existence ourselves and consider them as being part of our health. Thank you Matthew.

677. Matthew, this is a great article, i can really relate to this, ‘Whatever they are, we keep them secret or we consider them irrelevant. Could it be out of fear of what others may say or think about us? However we soldier on, as we try to put on a public face that all is well.’ I can feel how we dismiss things such as anxiety, lack of confidence and lack of sleep as causing problems for our health, if we could talk honestly and openly about these things and be aware that they are very much part of ill health now or later on in our lives then we could heal these things rather than hide them.

678. Our secret medical history, imagine if what you pose Matthew were the questions that were also included in the doctors assessment and not just questions about our ailments. Then our secret history would not be so secret and it would give us an opportunity to ponder on the questions asked and the relevance to how we live to the illnesses we have.
     As a society I don’t feel we are quite ready to have this level of exposure, but this could one day be the way the medical profession go. Illness and disease statistics are rising daily, trying to get a doctor’s appointment takes weeks now rather than days, there are more complicated illnesses than ever before. We are looking at the symptoms and not the underlying cause, this to me Matthew is the medicine of the future.

679. This blog is a great call to be transparant, to not hold back anything, that every choice we make on a daily basis has an effect on our health and wellbeing. It is as you say Matthew; ‘We all have our way of ‘getting through the day’ and our body does try to rebalance and compensate, but it can’t do this forever.’ Our secret history is undermining our health and we will have to admit this one day or another and we are the only ones who can make a change and start caring for our own body and the whole of our being.

680. Matthew – what you have written is so stunning. I’m no doctor, but you don’t need to be to see that these medical experts are dealing with such a tiny proportion of the picture. We all have a responsibility in this; the medical profession for asking the wrong questions and us for so desperately clinging to the illusion that everything is OK. The difference that it would make to our well-being and the effectiveness of the medical profession if we acknowledged and they accepted this secret history as the gigantic influence that it is on our well-being is unfathomable. It would totally change the game. This is such a powerful article. It needs to be read by all.

681. When we actually start to address the secret history which stems from the choices we are making it makes the public history make much more sense. As such there is less reaction and a greater willingness to support oneself with illness and disease, with the knowing that our choices created it and that same ability to choose can support the process.

     This came up yesterday as I felt a high level of anxiousness and ate to stuff down the feeling – it didn’t help but actually made me feel worse. But rather than self-bash for now feeling worse, I questioned what is it that I didn’t want to feel and the bottom line came to having made the choice to not be me in the moment that was presented before me, that choice sparked the unsettlement that then continued to play out as I pretended that I couldn’t handle what I was feeling. The unsettlement never comes from the outside, but starts within us and how we choose to be.

682. Thank you, Matthew, for this cracker of a blog. I could not stop reading it, and a bit like Pandora’s box, once opened one cannot close the lid again. Getting these secret choices out on the table clears the way for a truer relationship with ourselves and the world.

683. The genesis of sickness starts with how we live. Illness and disease is therefore mainly and foremost a question of responsibility and not a question of genetics, environmental impacts and so-called bad luck.

684. Being willing to expose our secret medical history feels like the key to preventative medicine, rather than reacting once a disease has already manifested, and the medical profession is playing catch up with treating the symptoms, rather than getting to the root cause of what caused the disease in the first place. For me shame has played a huge part in not sharing my secrets such as the level of anxiousness that I would have vehemently denied I lived with until fairly recently, but can now see how this and the associated behaviours created the lack of vitality and openness to viruses that debilitated me with increasing regularity. Openness on both sides is needed to explore how the secrets we hide or feel are not worth sharing can inform lifestyle changes that can transform health and wellbeing.

685. Thank you, Matthew. I look forward to the day when the GP sits with us and asks us about our secret medical history. There is a need to take things much deeper with how we view illness and disease so that we do not continue to live the way we are living now which is to consider it “bad luck’ if we get ill rather than look at how we have been living and the impact that actually has on the body.

686. Many of us I feel Matthew will have at some point if not for long periods in our lives put on a ‘public face’ to share with the world that on the surface all is well but underneath, a bubbling cauldron of mixed dis-eases of the body brewing away just waiting to be acknowledged in truth to come to the surface for a true healing to begin. Vital information that if expressed/acknowledged and shared would be the magic ingredient for our return to ‘good health’. Our unhealthy choices could be transformed back into healthy ones. The amazingly inspirational teachings/healing modalities of Universal Medicine/ Serge Benhayon, with the Esoteric Practitioners have been the one vital ingredient for me to choose to stop hiding away from the truth of how I’ve been ‘existing’ not fully engaging with life. Really enjoyed reading this today Matthew thank you – a great blog to open up even more expressing of truth and how I still at times hold back with quite relevant information that relates to a true healing within.

687. ‘As a result we binge drink, smoke, overeat, sleep around, fight, overwork or don’t work, exercise or play sport to name a few, all to not feel the effects of not addressing the secret history. ‘ Matthew thIs list you describe from not addressing our secret history is depressing and yet this is how so many of us live and we live this way because it is seen as ‘normal’. This website and other websites such as everydaylivingness.com are full of testaments from students of the way of the livingness who are choosing to live a new normal where the list above does not exist.

688. I have found huge healing when we express our secret history to one another. I recently experienced this in a sacred movement group and was blown away by the power of this simple choice to openly share and how deeply profound the results were.

689. If we do not have an illness that requires medical support (drugs, surgery, tests etc.,) then we describe ourselves as ‘well’. Yet most of us live with a deep level of anxiety in our bodies which becomes more or less intense depending on what is going on in our lives and we call this healthy? If we were all a little more honest about what we keep to ourselves we would start to change what we qualify as ‘well’.

690. ‘Our secret medical history’ – I love the way you describe it. Clear as day we all have a medical history that in the main is not being addressed. This is a great reminder to look at my own secret medical history and start getting honest about the true state of my health.

691. Universal Medicine has inspired and supported me to become honest about my secret history and to open up, share about and deal with it. True health and wellbeing can only be there once we become honest about what is truly going on and heal the issues and hurts we carry with us.

     1. Yes, Mariette, Universal Medicine lifts the lid on our secrets, because when we understand ‘universal’ means everything and ‘medicine’ means anything that is truly good for us, then secrets have no place to hide.

692. At my very first meeting with Serge Benhayon I realised that my secret history was no secret to him and that he read my whole book. Once exposed I knew I had to look again and make changes to the choices I was making so that I would have nothing to hide.

693. Thank you Matthew. I’m in email conversation with a niece in another country who has expressed interest in knowing more about Esoteric Medicine and what it really means. Such a big topic it has been hard to know where to begin. Sending her your article is a perfect way to give her a really good insight in to the truth of illness and disease. It will then be easy for her to understand why I say “The way you live your life is the best medicine there is.”

694. This blog is brilliant! Exposing the lies and how they are part of the harm of our medical history. There are so many hidden parts to our history that we are just starting to uncover when we decide to be honest and up front with our health and wellbeing.

695. Very powerful points you are making Mathew – it is so true that we use so many ways and methods to self medicate ourselves. What I mean by this is that we choose certain behaviours that act as a medicine to numb ourselves out. And then when the situation escalates we get to a point where we actually need real medicines to manage the situation. It is a very exposing list that you have given too – a list of what many of us might label as ‘normal’ such as being shy, a little anxious or not getting on with people at work etc etc, but this is so true, as the little things are what leads to the big things. This means that at each step we can make a choice, make a change and actually make a difference in our lives but also the lives of others by inspiring them with it all. Thank you for opening up the conversation Mathew, a very well needed conversation for us to have!

696. “A willingness to look at this secret history of ours can offer us the opportunity to see and deal with our old hurts and open us up to the possibility of living a truly healthy and joyful life” – I completely agree. Instead we cultivate and adopt our own coping mechanism to manage our secret history and to avoid hurt and call and accept as a part of our ‘normal’ and I can see how that is not just kept as a personality, but actually extends to have affect on our physiological and physical state. The more ingrained it is, the more normal it is considered as. It is a real shame while all we have ever wanted is love, we often end up burying ourselves deeper into mud because we are surrounded by all kinds of devices and substances that can medicate ourselves away from what we don’t want to look at.

697. Great point you address here Matthew, that secret medical history we conveniently consider to be not relevant for our medical records. As you say, they can be the “gold nuggets” that will actually help us to truly heal our bodies form the holding back that we carry for the whole of our lives, that restrict us from living our full potential, that when not lived is the cause of all our illnesses and diseases.

698. Our ‘secret medical history’ is not only overlooked by the medical profession but often by ourselves as ‘just the way we are’ with little understanding that our emotions, tendencies to shyness, over dramatising, wanting to always be in control etc. are the underlying causes of what we later experience as illness. Thank you Matthew, your great blog does much to bring this issue to our attention.

699. This is brilliant Matthew and so exposing of all those little secrets that we keep so tightly held to us, in spite of the chaos often raging in our lives. I have recently realised, during an extended period of “ill health”, that these secrets may just hold the answers to so much of what is going on in my body and now I am beginning to share them with my doctor; that in itself was a big step, breaking through the long held belief that they will figure out what’s wrong with me without me divulging the secrets – how wrong could I be. So my “secret medical history” is secret no longer and it feels amazing to finally be able to use it to put all the pieces of my medical puzzle together.

700. What you are addressing in part Matthew is the deeper level of responsibility we can go to with our medical history and the part we have played in creating it. This does not mean going into self blame or judgment but starting to observe and join the dots of how our ‘normal’ yet harmful behaviours affect our body.

701. Even though we like to think we can get away with things in private, we really know that we don’t get away with anything and there is always a tension created by this behaviour. Our body feels and registers anything that is not loving, not in line with our true essence. Holding onto our secret history creates wear and tear in the physical and mental body and allows us to lose sight of who we really are.

702. Presenting Esoteric Yoga, I have found keeping the secret history secret cements the perceived power it has over us. It is tangible to feel the opening up and releasing of that harmful pattern when a participant expresses one of their secret histories before the session begins. It is not a confession, but a gaining of some distance and perspective. When we keep things secret, there is a belief that that is us, and we judge ourselves for having that trait. When you step back and see it as not you, it is easy to express it and let it go. I also find there is a great deal of relief from other participants, that they no longer have to be perfect and hide their secret history.

703. This is such a fabulous blog and it would be revolutionary if we included the secret history with the medical history. Imagine our GP asking us as standard how we treat and perceive ourselves and how this makes us feel and behave. This would give a lot of clues to start to undo the root of the harm in our bodies (our public health history). At this stage because this is not the norm for patients or health professionals, it may feel a bit weird. But this could easily be integrated and accepted as normal practice over time.

704. When I connect with what you have exposed here Matthew I can feel how I have in the past carried shame about my imperfections. I wouldn’t do that if I cut my foot or developed the flu. ‘I get jealous and anxious sometimes and I would like support’ could sound as open and honest as ‘I have cut my foot and I’d like to address my carelessness! Making our secret medical history a normal part of being human would be a life changer – instead it is probably the main cause of mental illness?

705. Thank you Matthew – I loved reading this blog. You have me wondering what the world would be like if our doctors were trained to be as interested in our secret history as they are in our public medical history. Imagine research projects etc based on this!

706. Awesome blog Matthew, the ‘secret medical history’ predisposing the body to eventually developing a physical condition, opens up the whole realm of a way of approaching health care for people. Addressing personal issues such as anxiety, through complementary therapies / bodywork, have the scope to change the course of potential dis-eases developing. Wouldn’t this be cost saving to the public health system…that is, addressing the personal issues before they became expensive medical treatments?

707. Love what you have expressed here HartAnne it made me laugh for I could relate to what you were saying as I also considered myself a ‘healthy person’ even though I had a bad back, mild depression, lack of self-worth and confidence issues and deep hurts that I was unwilling to address to the point of not even wanting to be aware of how they were affecting the way I was living.

     Having now chosen to open up this can of worms and bring them (admittedly maybe not all yet) to light to willingly deal with, “has gradually transformed my life” which has occurred with the continuing loving support I have received from Serge Benhayon, from his wonderful presentations, workshops, and through the books he has written and also from the other amazing Universal Medicine Practitioners.

708. What a brilliant blog Matthew, thank you. Interestingly it’s our secret medical history that causes us more harm than we realise, if we choose to bury them and pretend they do not exist. The general medical history is based on our physical assessment but the secret medical history is really about what is truly going on. By being honest, willing to take responsibility for our every thought and actions, we are then able to work on clearing our secret medical history to make it transparent and accessible to allow true healing.

709. It is truly possible to heal our selves and live without ill patterns and momentums and to have a very conscious relationship with illness and disease. It is not a fantasy but a very real way of living that has now been made possible by the work of Serge Benhayon. Nor is it difficult. The hardest part is letting go of our attachment to things remaining as they are and opening up to the possibility of true change; and allowing the fragility that comes with this.

710. We need to shake ourselves out of the illusion that we are happy and life is good when we are engaging in numbing, distracting and dulling behaviours to the exclusion of being aware of what is really going for people. I am learning what it means to wake up and see what is needed and how I can actively contribute to that, from the base of support I now offer myself in being honest about my day to day choices.

711. A natural medicine practitioner, one that has an Esoteric understanding that underpins their chosen field, will ask such a medical history from their clients and engage with issues such as motivation, relationships, the way we are at work and the incessant need to keep busy. This is the work that marries beautifully with the work of the Medical profession and I see these two fields interacting so much more with each other in true support of patients as the way of the future.

712. We are not transparent about the patterns and behaviours that we run with because they are not called for and seen as insignificant in the practice of medicine. Medicine today is the study of and treatment of disease, so significant information is only considered as such once it has already become a physical condition. Yet we have given our power away to this system, convincing ourselves that we are fine if we do not have disease, and in fact, putting an enormous pressure on our Doctors to fix things for us when in fact, we have been unaware and irresponsible of the factors that have led us there.

     Matthew, your blog is fabulous to draw our attention to the ill ways in which we live and to re-develop honesty with ourselves so that we can live in harmony with our bodies, rather than conflict and constant abuse. We are so sensitive, our body is so sensitive, and we need to begin to live in a way that honours this sensitivity, because it is the key to unlocking our vast and yet untapped capacity.

713. Great expose Matthew and quite true, however, where do we go to find assistance to bring out these secrets. Doctors aren’t trained to understand anything like this, in my experience, and consultations are short. Most psychologists I have had anything to do with don’t know how to address these secrets either, sometimes they have their client blame a parent or someone else. What is missing in all of this is responsibility for the choices we make.

     The answer I feel is for each of us that know and understand how the body is the marker of our truth to start reflecting this back to humanity, by communicating and expressing this truth in whatever way is appropriate at the time. Each time we express truth from love it makes a difference, whether we see it or not, because it is a vibrational frequency that expands to bring these secrets out in the open.

714. Amazing Matthew, we all have a relationship with a private set of things. It’s slightly different for everyone, but it is all one and the same, they do not belong to who we truly are.

715. A great article Mathew, thankyou.
     Suffering from servere anxiousness from a young child and sleeping always restlessly was something I thought that I had to put up with and that I was the unlucky one to be born with it.
     I developed many behaviors to numb the raciness and anxiousness in my body and found the “magical cure” later in life smoking weed heavily which lead giving up on life, myself and people.
     It wasn’t until I came across Universal Medicine teachings that I learnt anxiousness was no bad luck, but a choice to not feel what was going on around me, instead of dealing with what I did not want to feel.
     The sugary foods I was eating were feeding the anxiousness in my body that lead to all other problems to my health.
     Anger was also a huge part of my life that I used to numb my body and “protect” myself from the world and to hold people at bay.
     It amazes me how we can trash our bodies with food, drugs, alcohol and emotions etc, etc and then cry “victim” to illness and disease without even considering, could it be our bodies lovingly showing us enough is enough and that there is another way?
     I thank God for Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine practitioners reflecting the true joy that can be lived from a daily basis – living from our essence, now that is true medicine.

716. Absolutely Matthew, this is brilliant! There was maybe a time when our ‘private medical history’ was a big deal in our lives and things like anxiety, stress, lack of confidence, embarrassment, emotions did not just fly under the radar and they were noticeably there. We learn to bury this even further and to function ‘normally’ in life even though we have filed all of this away in our backpack, that’s why it all has to come out in ‘public medical history’ because the ways which you describe are inherently unnatural are not made for us.

717. Matthew, I love how you have said ‘This secret history contains the gold nuggets that have the potential to allow a person to truly live, and this is where we really need to start if we are to seek true healing. If we wait until it manifests into a physical issue, it is then so much harder to treat. But even before this, a willingness to look at this secret history of ours can offer us the opportunity to see and deal with our old hurts and open us up to the possibility of living a truly healthy and joyful life.’ We are so afraid to look at these things and actively bury and go into denial about them, and yet they are, as you have pointed out ‘gold nuggets’! They look like ‘lead’ but in fact the admission of the fact of them leads to the gold of health.

718. This is brilliant Matthew! Thank heavens there are nurses out there in the hospitals who have this awareness of the secret history of our disease. What you have revealed is that in fact we spend much of our time and energy suppressing and hiding our secret history – it can almost become a life goal and way of living, leaving very little room for anything else! It is certainly time for all of us to admit that we have a secret history and start paying attention to it. This is a the key to good health and to taking the burden off our very burdened medical system.

719. Matthew, what a deeply insightful blog, we absolutely have the secret history you speak of and it’s only when it shows up in our ‘public’ history that we address it and even then we do not consider to trace it back and consider the impact of the ‘secret’ we’ve lived and its impact. And what I also feel is at times it suits us to ignore that secret history as we can avoid our responsibility and seeing the impact our choices have on us, we don’t always want to see and feel this, and yet our ever honest body is always ready and willing to show us which is wonderful.

720. A fabulous article Matthew bringing to light the importance of us getting honest with ourselves and being transparent with all of the little things that we like to hide because we are ashamed or embarrassed about them. What I have found is that the more I expose behaviours that I feel ashamed of, share them and talk about them openly, they lose their grip on me and they start to dissolve as I have realized that I can’t truly heal them unless I am open about them. If I keep them a secret, they sit there brewing, waiting to rear their head.

721. Mathew this is brilliant. It’s so true my secret history does drive my behaviours and damage my health – I am very inspired to really be honest about them and how I feel about them – shame, sadness etc; to be honest about what secondary behaviours I go into as a result of the shame, which creates further shame and the spiral continues. Understanding what’s going on without judgement is the first step in my taking them out from the shadows into the light where they can be healed.

722. Matthew this is an important blog. Until I met Serge Benhayon (about 10 years ago) I always considered myself a healthy person, as did my medical practitioners. Sure, I was overweight, unhappy in my job, highly emotional, drinking small amounts of alcohol daily, had raised cholesterol and osteoporosis setting in. I couldn’t easily fall asleep, depended on coffee to kick start me in the morning. And that doesn’t even touch on self-worth issues and various hurts from the past that I was carrying. Now when I reflect on this situation how could I have considered myself healthy? Fortunately after a few sessions with Serge I asked him for a reading on why things were not flowing in my life and he described some impending health conditions related to my endocrine system being over stressed. His description of how I was operating my body was clear and accurate and all encompassing; it was the most thorough health assessment I had ever received, and it showed me a clear way forward to making the necessary changes. As a result, and with the ongoing support of Universal Medicine and my willingness to make the necessary changes, my life has gradually transformed.

723. I love how you’ve expressed so beautifully and simply the Truth of our secret history. And of course I can relate. There are definitely parts of my secret history that I choose to ignore and push away. Even for myself. So I pretend they do not exist, but of course knowing deep inside me that I’m actually fooling myself. Thank you for such a clear writing with so much understanding to every single one of us!

724. Hmmm, gets me contemplating the history (story) i tell about myself publicly and the one that I hide, that ends up driving range of my least productive behaviours.

     1. Spot on Joel – we can be very good at hiding behind the facts such as I got this condition from smoking or I got this condition from eating these foods. But the real story is about why we did what we did which lead to the condition later on. The why is a big thing to ponder on and can leave us feeling rather raw when we realise the part we have played in it all. And makes us realise the two faces we can have!

        1. Personal responsibility is certainly something I thought I understood, until I began studying energetic responsibility through Universal Medicine and it blew all I thought I knew out of the water in the best possible way.

        2. So true, Joel, as it is not about ticking boxed and looking like we are doing the right thing. For true integrity and true responsibility come from the quality that we bring first to what we do. And this does blow things out of the water!

725. I love what you have written here Matthew. There is absolutely the public history and the secret history and I love that we are having a conversation around how the secret history really does effect us. It runs through our body all the time – going around and around, through varying parts of our body – asking them to perform in different ways because we are anxious, frustrated, bored, sad, angry etc… But often when the doctor says – anything else? We go nope- all fine here. Actually we say that to most people and also to our selves. I was super anxious during the week and when people asked me how I was, I was like ‘ fine’. I kept it a secret. And when I allowed myself to feel my body that day, I could feel the nervous tension running through it like a electrical current. That’s gotta have some effect!

726. A great expose on life Matthew, I think for most of us we have come to accept that living with these issues is just a normal part of life so don’t even really think about questioning it. I know this was the case for me until I met Serge Benhayon and he showed me there could be another way.

727. Matthew Brown, this is Brilliant. Thank you. What a beautifully supportive way to share how our choices and our secrets contribute to illness and disease.

728. ‘The truth is, we compromise our body and our lives through the choices and decisions we make, which reverberate in a harmful way through our body’ ~ this we do…yet so interesting how it is not considered an illness until it has a physical symptom, where the body can no longer internalise the reverberation from our disharmonious ways.

     1. Spot on Sara! It is only when the physical body shows clear signs and symptoms that can be recorded or tested in a pathology laboratory that we allow for a diagnosis of a disease that in reality had its infancy in our first choice to not support the body. It is the continuous and consistent harmful choices that then accumulate and manifest as a condition or disease. But in realising this, it means we have the power to put an end to dis-ease right from the start from the first step away from a loving way of being. Wow what a responsibility!

729. Brilliant Matthew! Our public medical history is merely an outward manifestation of the secret history that we hide away. It’s like we have the key to truly heal yet we keep trying to work it all out without it, thereby delaying and creating even more ills to manifest into our public history record…

730. There are never any secrets in life, why hide in the first place? Anything that we think is kept secret is actually all there transparent in our bodies and in our movements. Nothing can ever be hidden, and it is wise to just be honest about them.

     1. I agree Adele, nothing can be hidden even when we think we are doing a great job at hiding our secrets in life. When we read the energy behind everything, truth is always revealed. Our body and our movements never lies.

731. Our bodies are the most honest markers of what true health is and so being aware of what is felt at any point in our lives and understanding that it is about taking back the responsibility of our own health, is simply respect to ourselves and to the medical industry (it is abuse to ourselves and to our medical system if we are reckless in our living but expect medicine to treat what we do not want to take the responsibility for). Living with the foundation of simple respect is the beginning of building what is a relationship

732. The way we live has a massive effect on our health. I love how you have referred to it as our secret history, as often we don’t share what ‘goes on behind closed doors’ with others and think we can get away with whatever, but it catches up with us. and instead of changing the type of fuel that’s put in, they just clean the wipers. Not looking at and addressing the root cause, just clearing up the symptoms.

733. I wonder what you describe here is the impact emotions have on us and the consequences of us thinking that these are ‘our’ emotions and we therefore have to manage these emotions.

734. This ‘secret history’ of us as a species is not so secret as we think, as the results of all these seemingly hidden and small ways of being are woven into literally and very physically into our past. They are not incidental, ‘normal’ or mistakes, but absolute reflections of how we choose to live. You help us see Mathew that we have been like scientists peering into a microscope at the wrong end and saying ‘Hmmm I’m not seeing anything! – the truth is not clear’. Wow, we have effectively been looking at life the wrong way round.

735. Hello Matthew I also wanted to say how great it is to see a registered nurse speaking like this. With this approach to your care in the medical system this would surely create a space for people to share with you exactly what you are talking about. You give a great understanding from where you are and I am sure people will feel to share more and you will also hear more. Then the diagnoses, treatment and care they receive will truly get them back on their feet, again great to see.

     1. Yes, Ray. This article is wonderful exposure of the underlying causes of so much illness and disease in our society and would be welcome from anyone …but to have it come from a Registered Nurse adds weight to what we know to be true cause. It’s inspiring to read and heart warming to think of the lives this RN will touch with his open understanding.

736. Wow what a beautifull person you are, how lucky are people to have you as their nurse. I love what you share it is so true and very important but told in a simple and clear way everyone can understand. You should be training the doctors ✨

737. Hello Matthew and what you are talking about gives the whole picture and is self care and medicine at it’s best. Taking care and talking about this ‘secret history’ in detail is possibly the best way to prevent illness and disease. It’s a different relationship with your body and medicine and I agree, thank you.

738. The secret history contains the gold nuggets as you say, the nuggets that can help give us the clues to what our path of evolution holds for us. Each person’s path is unique, though there may be common elements, and knowing what there is to “shine the light on” is the first step to evolving past it.

739. Matthew, this is such an important posting you have offered here. You have brought up a subject that is seldom looked at by the main medical profession, or only very lightly touched on when making a medical diagnosis, the secrets that we don’t share with others, that we may feel ashamed of, or for whatever other reason. “These secrets are the vital evidence and the foundation of our ill ways, ill health and poor decisions. They may at first seem irrelevant or even minor, but they are crucial to understanding the person as a whole, and hold the clues to the kinds of events, illnesses or injuries that happen to people.” We all actually have these secrets that you describe, many of them holding us back from living the full and true person that we are. We do not realise that it is the way that we are living with these hidden secrets that can eventually cause us to suffer various illnesses. For example, we may be living a very frustrated life, which could in the future emerge as a serious gallbladder issue. And maybe many of the increasing number of cancer cases can be traced back to one or more of these secrets that we have hidden from others. But the possibility is there for us to be prepared to open up these secret issues that we are holding, and expose them for much deeper scrutiny. If we are prepared to deal with these secrets, deal with the hurts that are exposed, maybe we can avoid some of the serious health issues that may otherwise ensue.

740. Great exposure Matt. It is like we are lying to ourselves endlessly, trying to say we are ok and yet meanwhile despite the ‘good’ outer looks and perhaps the picture that we are coping with life ok, underneath lies the rising abuse rates, extremely high levels of corruption and mistrust and the excessive and exorbitant rates of illness and disease. We do have to start to open up and see that we are not truly well at all as a species

741. “Our secret medical history’ – what a great way to describe the underlieing cause of most, if not all, illness and disease.

742. This is brilliant and so so so true. This secret history is held so tightly to ourselves, like a hand of playing cards, that we can’t show anyone because we don’t want them to know what hand we are playing. We hold it so tight that often we are not even considering or looking at what we are holding in the secret history, the whole time not wanting to admit how much it is effecting our whole life. The only way out of illness and disease or depression, anxiety and lack of satisfaction of life is to dive deep into the bag, dig deep and find ourselves beneath all of this, throwing out anything we are holding onto that is not who we truly are and any experiences we have had.

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