Congratulations! You have Cancer

by Eva-Maria Anja Daniela Förtsch, M.Sc.Klin.Psych., Psychologist, Neuropsychologist, Psychotherapist, University Lecturer, Bochum, Germany

Hello. My name is Eva-Maria. Lovely that you choose to read these lines. If you read this because you have cancer, your life might not be easy right now. Perhaps you are worried, in anxiety, angry, sad or even in desperation. If yes, I am totally with you because I have also gone through that. But also if you don’t have cancer and you are just interested, I would like to invite you to read on and feel into what it might offer to you. In the following I want to share with you my experiences with cancer and how it changed my life and my relationship with my body through a big clearing and healing process.

The Diagnosis

I was diagnosed with a very dangerous form of skin cancer (melanoma) when I was 28 years old. This diagnosis came all of a sudden, after the removal of a birthmark on my upper back in between my shoulder blades. When I heard the word “cancer”, I was shocked. Panic arose in me and countless thoughts flooded my mind – and not a single one of them helped me to cope with the situation; all of them were full of anxiety. I was frightened of what would happen next, of the cancer spreading in my whole body, of chemotherapy and of dying. I already saw myself in hospital, thin, pale and with no hair, believing that I would not have much time left. The emotions coming up were overwhelming. I had already spent so much time in hospitals and had had so many surgeries in my life. Hospitals were horrifying to me and reminded me of much pain, anxiety, sadness and helplessness. ‘Why again me?’ ‘This was not fair!’ ‘Why can´t I have a healthy body like others at my age?’ These thoughts did not stop and my anxiety grew.

Although I am a successful psychotherapist and well-trained at supporting others in dealing with their difficulties, I had no idea how to cope with this situation.

Choosing to ask for help and support

Because I needed help I called my closest friends and my parents. All of them were shocked and worried. They wanted to help me but they didn’t know what to say or do. I could feel their helplessness and anxiety. This made me even more emotional.

At that time I had been a student of Universal Medicine for about four months and so I decided to ask Serge Benhayon (the founder) and his family for support. Through the e-mails I exchanged with Serge Benhayon I realised that all my panic did not help me at all. Far from it! It made everything much worse and kept me from dealing with this big issue. But, still, I did not manage to get out of it. The upcoming time in the clinic and the surgeries were frightening me too much.

At that time Natalie Benhayon was in Germany and I asked her for a session. This session was huge for me. Within two hours of talking and bodywork I was able to really embody what Serge already offered me in the e-mails. I understood that cancer was my body’s way of clearing harmful energies I had taken on. By that I mean, that I had for years been living in a way that was not very loving, indeed it had been quite abusive and those choices had consequences for my body. All of those choices had been energetically harming for my body and cancer was my body’s way of getting rid of them. I knew that I could now support my body and this process by accepting everything that comes with it, loving my body more and trusting in its deep wisdom.

I suddenly knew that my time in the clinic was given to me to heal my numerous experiences with surgeries, pain, anxiety and helplessness in the past. This time I would not panic, I would stay with myself and my body, and I would get all the support I needed.

Finding true support

And it happened exactly like that. Students (of Universal Medicine) were visiting me every day, supported me with sessions, especially Connective Tissue Therapy, and brought me healthy food that supported my body very much throughout those days. This healed some big issues in my life such as doing everything on my own, never asking for support, not showing that I can be weak and fragile and also my anxiety about being in hospitals healed deeply. It was an amazing feeling to be held in true love by the Benhayons and the students during the whole process. The energy also noticeably influenced the doctors and nurses. They treated me in a very loving and caring way and stayed for a chat with me and other students quite often.

Although the doctors removed a big part of my lymphatic system and therefore expected that it might not be able to compensate after the surgery, that my arms and hands would be swollen and life long lymph drainage would be necessary, my lymphatics never caused any problems like that. After the cancer was all cut out, the doctors put me on a strong medication regime to boost the immune system so that it fights with all its power against any malignant cells left in the blood that could turn to new metastases. They said I would have to have three injections per week for the next one and a half years. After the first few injections I experienced very strong side effects like severe exhaustion, fever, shivering and headaches that made me feel weak and depressed. Therefore I was quite frightened of this medication. To be honest, I hated it. But I kept on taking the medication because my anxiety that the cancer might come back was too big. Some weeks later I was in the UK to attend a course of Universal Medicine even though I felt totally exhausted. The Benhayons supported me with healing sessions, which really helped me, and I rested a lot and strengthened my connection to myself.

Talking to Serge Benhayon about the cancer and my anxiety felt more calming than anything I have experienced before. I came to realise that the cancer is a way of my body showing me choices I have made in the past, and that it offers me a huge possibility to heal important issues. Then I knew deep inside of me that if I am willing to really face these issues and change my life in a way that I truly love and honor my body, come to a stillness within (something I had always avoided) and allow myself to be who I truly am, there would be no reason to be afraid of cancer anymore. Even if I were to die, I would know that my body would have cleared the harmful energies I had taken on.

Accepting and Deepening

I came to the point where I was able to accept everything; even the possibility of dying. I understood that my body had already tried to show me essential issues for so many years and that I have never really listened to it. I have been so absolutely ignorant and tortured my body through loads of work, permanent self criticism, never really going into stillness, being hard, smoking, drinking alcohol, taking drugs and in many more ways… and nevertheless I expected my body not to cause any health problems and to function in the way I wanted it to; quite blockheaded of me, considering the fact that I have an excellent university degree, wasn’t it? Suddenly all my surgeries of the past began to make sense and I felt that now it’s time to stop all of that disregard and to commit to love in its true essence.

I started to be in my body, instead of just being in my mind, and build up a connection with my body which felt absolutely new and amazing to me, especially that I was more and more able to read what my body was telling me. With the help of Serge Benhayon I was able to see that in terms of Esoteric Medicine it made a lot of sense that my cancer was right between my shoulder blades (wings) and in my lymphatics. Our lymphatics are the physical representation of our Divine “light”, and I have attacked my light during my whole life. Serge then also helped me to understand that it is important that I let my medication in as a support, instead of having the injections and hating them at the same time. This led to a shift of energy and an enormous reduction of the side effects, so that I was able to really live and also work again – with much more stillness and loving choices.

So I learned in a very fascinating way to connect to the deep wisdom of my body and to trust it even though it was very ill. I feel better now than I have ever felt before in and with my body. This huge clearing and healing has been one of the most amazing experiences in my life.

A profound Healing

The cancer has not returned, yet, physical healing is not the purpose of true healing as I understand it now. True healing is much deeper, much more profound and really life-changing. I feel that without this deep understanding and without addressing the root cause of cancer, which is always a certain way of being with oneself and others, it is possible for the cancer to return.

This True Healing is possible for each and every one of us.

No matter which illness or disease we have, we can choose to accept it, to look at what our body shows us and to clear and heal deeply. It is absolutely amazing to have such a chance.

Thank you, Serge Benhayon.


Read more:

  1. Is cancer just bad luck or is there more to it? 
  2. How esoteric healing can support people with cancer.
  3. Is cancer a blessing in disguise? 
  4. One woman’s experience with breast cancer and how it influenced her choices.
  5. How cancer can change a life.


1,048 thoughts on “Congratulations! You have Cancer

  1. I found myself nodding as I read ‘the root cause of cancer, which is always a certain way of being with oneself and others’ – as I can feel the truth in that so deeply and recognise this maligned energy in a way I can be at times. I may not have had cancer, but I can feel how an ill-energy can build up and take over what is natural and harmonious for us, and start manifesting physically and behaviorally.

  2. This is so cool that you are prepared to be open and share what you have experienced and that with the support of Serge Benhayon and the teachings of Universal Medicine you have been able to look and feel your part in the process why the cancer has come along. What a freeing opportunity to be able to heal the root cause and then let go of it. So empowering and you can see that we have to take responsibility for what we choose.

  3. What a learning we can have from reading and understanding what you are sharing here. “if I am willing to really face these issues and change my life in a way that I truly love and honor my body, come to a stillness within (something I had always avoided) and allow myself to be who I truly am, there would be no reason to be afraid of cancer anymore.” This makes absolute sense and is transferable to life in general.

  4. This is very healing to read; how you totally changed your relationship with cancer from panic, fear and overwhelming emotions to one of acceptance of everything: the illness, the reasons and choices behind it, and then acceptance of the possible end result. I feel that this approach of changing our relationship to something, by building a more loving and consistent connection to our body, can be applied to anything – from how we feel about an illness, to a medication, to a relationship or a work situation. When we establish that connection to our body, and get to feel that depth of stillness underneath any surface emotions, we are much steadier and stronger, and it feels easier to deal with difficult situations that come up in life.

  5. Changing how we feel about the medication we need to take and accepting the support it offers, makes all the difference and side effects can considerably lessen if not totally disappear. And it gives us a chance to really feel into what dosage we need, taking everything and especially individual physical and physiological differences into consideration.

  6. It’s inspiring how you describe the change in your relationship with the injections of medication and highlights for me the big part we also play in how we are with any medication that we take…

    1. Yes, I can relate to this, I used to be very anti medication and in that way was basically instructing my body to not agree with the medication whereas when I take the medication in full awareness and appreciation of what it is supporting me with the body can absorb and use it in a much more easy and effective way.

  7. I can really understand that your family and friends wanted to help you but didn’t know what to do. In this situation you can feel so emotional about what is ahead for the person with the cancer, all you want for them to recover but at the same time you feel you need to do something to support them, anything. That’s when honouring their healing process and continually letting them know that you are here for them is so important. It is their body and their life and so it is their choice as to what they are ready to accept.

  8. We are constantly being presented with opportunities to evolve and some of these opportunities, no doubt bring challenges. What we do with these challenges is our own making – do we embrace what is being offered or do we dig in our heels, delay and avoid what is potentially a wonderful gift for ourselves and humanity.

  9. It might sound a little strange saying congratulations you have cancer, yet if we understand the true healing that it brings, and the clarity that the way we have been living has been detrimental to our health, it is easier to bring change to our choices from understanding the true consequences of our past choices.

  10. This is an inspiring read for anyone dealing with a serious illness, understanding that it is our body’s way of clearing the consequences of our past choices and healing in preparation for our future lives.

  11. A very inspiring and beautiful account Eva-Maria on the power of true healing, to reflect on our choices and to see how they have impacted on our health over the years is a very important and responsible step in the healing process.

  12. ‘I knew that I could now support my body and this process by accepting everything that comes with it, loving my body more and trusting in its deep wisdom.’ Thank you Eva Maria, inspires me to deepen my relationship with what my body is communicating with me and accept what is on offer while I am sitting here with a fractured wrist.

  13. Just reading the words of how you choose to stay present with all the interventions and take all the support on offer, is calming and inspiring to not remain in an emotional reaction when we are diagnosed with a serious illness.

  14. What I find amazing about this sharing of Eve-Maria’s cancer experience is the broad array of issues that were healed during the process, from the physical removal of the cancer, to drawing the connection between its location on her body and the fact she had been attacking her Light with her unloving choices, to the acceptance of help from others and ability to be fragile, the healing of past hospital experiences and understanding that the cancer is clearing out a massive load of non-physical energy that does not belong in her body. This is truly a massive healing on so many levels, but was only possible through Eva-Maria’s openness to the truth of what was going on and her ability to accept it in full with the support of Universal Medicine and modern medical practice working together.

    1. We cannot treat the part without treating the whole and this is really felt in this blog. As you share in your comment, it is such a vast array of issues on the plate for healing from anxiety and fear to the physical choices of treatment and yet the way Eva-Maria deals with it is step by step and not pretending any of the issues are not there. The combined support of Universal Medicine and the Doctors means the whole is what is addressed and that goes way beyond the physical body.

  15. ‘No matter which illness or disease we have, we can choose to accept it, to look at what our body shows us and to clear and heal deeply. It is absolutely amazing to have such a chance.’ I totally agree Eva-Maria, the teachings of Serge Benhayon give us the understanding of what illness and disease is truly about and with this there is then the opportunity to heal ourselves on a much deeper level than just looking at the body.. with how we are living.

  16. Wow what a gorgeous experience this is. Cancer is a scary thing when you are diagnosed with it. But what you explain here is a healing that is so profound – that brings true understanding to why these things come about, and that illness has a direct relationship with our choices and how we are living.

  17. This is an amazing story. It is an incredible medicine in itself when we can accept and even appreciate a life threatening disease like cancer as an opportunity for deep healing. Such an inspiring sharing. Thank you, Eva-Maria.

  18. It is deeply inspiring to feel how a true understanding of having cancer brought the opportunity for so much healing in facing the real issues and the root cause. It is also beautiful that there is such an appreciation for this and that being afraid also stopped being a factor.

  19. Your blog offers such a blessing to all those who read this, illness and disease are always God’s way of offering us evolution and healing.

  20. With the willingness to embrace one´s illness comes a sense of humbleness and insight that by its very nature becomes an essential part of the healing itself. It is an aspect of healing not yet honoured and understood for what it actually means by conventional or most forms of complementary medicine.

    1. Yes, humbleness and alignment to the greater purpose and the part our physical body plays within it are very good medicine indeed.

  21. When we are able to come to the understanding that our diseases are a blessing and not a curse in the sense that they support the body to clear the toxins of an unloving way of living, we open the door for great healing to occur on many levels.

  22. The support of the Esoteric Student community during times of need is something truly magnificent, I have witnessed, and received it, and it is a model for society in the world.

    1. Yes, this just goes to show that we do not have to ‘do it on our own’ and nor were we ever designed to. When cataclysm hits, be that in our body or our environment, humans have a natural tendency to come together and help each other. This should not only be observed but also deeply appreciated and valued for it is the truth of who we are.

  23. “loving my body more and trusting in its deep wisdom.” Understanding the cause and effect of the way we live and that illness and disease is a healing offers an awareness of our responsibility in how we treat ourselves. Thank you Serge Benhayon.

  24. To ‘let my medication in as a support’ is really key to make a drug work at its best for us with often having lesser side effects. It is the willingness to heal, to cooperate with the medical necessities that can make a real difference in one´s process of recovery. Advise and help on how to do that should be part of the prescription and patient information leaflet.

  25. What incredible support you asked for and received from the Benhayon family. I was struck by your blog the effects our choices have on our bodies and feel you wrote an important message to us all, (perhaps not your intention), to take great care of ourselves, and to treat ourselves so preciously, as to listen to the wisdom of our bodies.

  26. A deep and true understanding of what is going on, why we are feeling and acting as we do can help much to no longer be overwhelmed. And sometimes we may need a reset (with the help of a treatment or conversation) back to a state of being where we feel settled within ourselves to be reminded that nothing is really lost, we can come back being who we are without the distress and approach the challenging situation fresh on a solid base.

  27. Everyone wants to be healed, ie is to be free of the suffering that comes with illness and disease but not everyone is willing to heal. It is the willingness to heal that opens the body and begin to heal just as you did when you made the choice to accept the fact of having cancer, to face the root cause and do whatever it takes.

  28. Thank you Eva-Maria – a truly inspiring account. It seems to me we negate and or ignore our bodies at our peril, for they are constantly communicating their wisdom to us. Learning to listen to them is a beautiful place to get to, and one from which we can live life in a different, more loving and supportive way.

  29. ” I felt that now it’s time to stop all of that disregard and to commit to love in its true essence. ”
    So lovely and so simple , thank you so much for sharing.

  30. Just imagine being empowered enough to have such a what is considered usually dire diagnosis, and then to be living in a way that reflects the understanding of what is actually being offered by one’s body. This is the reconnection and the clarity that The Way of the Livingness offers to humanity.

    1. cjames2012 its world changing in the way cancer is being approached, something that embraces all that the medical community has to offer whilst also understanding what is behind the condition and what personal choices can be made to ensure a true healing takes place.

  31. “I came to realise that the cancer is a way of my body showing me choices I have made in the past, and that it offers me a huge possibility to heal important issues.” An essential part of the diagnostic process that empowers us to understand the real ‘why’ behind the illness and empowers true change within us.

  32. ‘No matter which illness or disease we have, we can choose to accept it, to look at what our body shows us and to clear and heal deeply. It is absolutely amazing to have such a chance.’ To look at your illness and disease this way Eva-Maria is unfathomable to the vast majority of us… to see cancer as a great opportunity breaks a vast consciousness about illness that is not yet our normal.

  33. “It was an amazing feeling to be held in true love by the Benhayons and the students during the whole process.” Eva-Maria what a testimony for the truth of what the Benhayon family offer to society.

  34. The lived wisdom that is offered here is profoundly healing whether we have cancer or not. Thank you Eva-Maria.

  35. ‘ I came to realise that the cancer is a way of my body showing me choices I have made in the past, and that it offers me a huge possibility to heal important issues.’ Your blog is hugely inspirational and shows a different way with dealing with such traumatic disease such as cancer.

  36. ” I understood that cancer was my body’s way of clearing harmful energies I had taken on. By that I mean, that I had for years been living in a way that was not very loving,” This makes so much sense. Disease is always a way for our body to discard what does not serve.

  37. What incredible words of wisdom you have shared Eva-Maria. You have shaken something in me to step back into a solid commitment to live a life of love and nothing less.

  38. Cancer can be a real blessing because it gives us an opportunity to change the way we have been living and the choices we have made, a beautiful time to clear what is no longer needed.

  39. If we all accepted that illness and disease was how our body clears and heals itself back to harmony it would bring much more understanding to the root cause of why we manifested the disease in the first place.

  40. The choice to accept and deepen is such a powerful tool for healing that has been shared in this blog. Inspiring at all levels in aspects of our lives.

  41. We often do not look at the deeper root of our sickness, behaviours and issues, if we did, we would enable ourselves to clear them and heal them to a much greater level within our bodies. Even for one moment we allow ourselves to feel how we got to be the adult we are, for myself a woman, if I sit with it and feel what I celebrated and what hurt me along the way, then I feel why I respond, react as I do with life, from that I get to heal and not be owned by reactions. It is a choice that offers us a true freedom and health and is well worth exploring.

  42. It is rare that people experience cancer to be the blessing that you have allowed it to be for you…. becoming aware of and stopping disregarding and unloving behavior and choosing instead to build a true connection to yourself where you now listen to and honour your body like never before. This is a truly remarkable healing of not only cancer but also the way you move through life.

  43. I am very honoured to have read this blog, it is raw honesty, with loads of lived wisdom and experience. I have not had cancer but it is still very relevant and I know that what you have learned can be applied to our lives at anytime, we don’t have to wait for a major diagnosis. Your steadiness is felt and in that you are already healed, regardless if the cancer returns or not.

  44. Eva to approach Cancer in the way that you have presented this is quite life changing not only for yourself but also everyone in the world, those who don’t have cancer and those who do have cancer. We often think life just happens to us but what you show is clearly there are our choices that happen and then we are left in the consequences of those.

  45. Thank you so much for sharing your inspirational approach to disease Eva, the word cancer scares a lot of people but what if it’s as simple as you put it – the body’s way of clearing what it doesn’t need? I’ve never had cancer but I can relate to other illnesses and even difficult situations that have helped me clear and change a life-long pattern and a way of living that was not supportive to me. It’s actually the toughest situations I’ve faced in my life that I consider the biggest blessings.

  46. If our essence is love, and we are not willing to live that in the world, and as a consequence becoming hardened, reckless, abusive and wild in our ways – eventually the love will know on the door and at first it may be asking us to make subtle changes, to eventually build a body of love one day, but it also has a big stark knock on the door that causes major things to shift in us, illness and disease being one of them.

  47. In a world where cancer and other such conditions are increasingly on the rise, having reflections of how to be with the process and be truly embracing and supported through it is HUGE. There are few who embrace cancer for the true healing it is and even fewer who can call it a blessing. Hearing your experiences here Eva-Maria has been very profound and very healing. Thank you.

  48. Eva-Maria, I love the way your write about your experiences. I have not had cancer but I used have a huge fear of hospitals and a lot of my family have died of cancer. It is very healing to hear how you dealt with your fear, so different from everyone I have known, and how you were able to support your body in the process. Very real and inspiring.

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