830 thoughts on “Medical Diagnosis and how the mind can take you on a scary roller coaster ride…”

1. I got caught out the other day of not feeling enough, that I was not doing enough and so therefore I am not enough, it feels like a spiral that takes me down into more thoughts of giving up now before I’m found out as fraud. Our minds trick us into thinking all sorts of rubbish it does not care one jot for the body and yet we rely on it more than we would our bodies.

2. My mind when trying to go solo, never works, everything turns into a stressy, painful mess. Lead by the body and the mind makes much more sense, it’s not designed to take charge and be dominant but to work together with the whole of the body.

3. Thank you for this blog RB as it is perfectly highlights what happens when we go off with the thoughts we have which are usually very negative. For many of us we do not realise that we can change the thoughts we have. I have been experiencing some very negative thoughts recently and I know they are not me, so where are they coming from? It’s interesting to observe how they just drop into my mind and I am constantly saying no to them. I remember those negative thoughts; they lead to giving up on life and depression. And there is no way I’m going back to that way of life again. This is showing me that we do have control over what we think we think.

4. I have fallen into the trap of looking to google when I am concerned about something – this always is a big mistake!

5. The mind can take us literally anywhere apart from to ourselves and the yet the incredible thing about the body is that it can take us nowhere other than to ourselves. I back the body every time.

6. It is often the mind that gets us into a pickle and trouble, it thinks things that takes us to anywhere we choose to go to, from the surreal to the aggression.

   I can totally relate to being frightened and needing to control, it’s been placed in us from a very young age, our survival thing. Purposefully done to keep us far away from our bodies as possible, so as not to feel.

   When we truly connect to our bodies, only then can the communications channels open and that connection requires you to openly communicate and then we live from a different place that is more nurturing and loving and then the body can respond.

7. ‘My body has given me signals in the past, but living by the beliefs and ideals of being a “solo parent”, and a “good strong reliable worker” has made me override, and not listen to what my body is asking so clearly.’ We have made life so much about function that we can be in complete denial of the fact that we are sensitive and fragile and need to take nurturing loving care of ourselves. With no investment in the quality in which we do things sadly our bodies have to scream at us, sometimes incredibly loudly, before we stop and pay heed to what that communication is telling us.

8. I know from personal experience if you let your mind loose when there are body symptoms, pulling out all sorts of stories through searching the web, and all sorts of thoughts that tie you into a knot – and all along you get taken further and further from the stillness and connection that helps you feel, observe and learn from what the body is reflecting.

9. “there is no way I can go back to living life as I was before.” When we realise that it is the way we have been living that is the cause of the problem we are offered the choice to make changes and live with love and responsibility to care for our whole body.

10. Our mind can come up with all kinds of things to distract us, but the body has the final say and eventually even it may not be in this life time, we will be made to stop and listen.

    1. Fumiyo, what you have stated is so true. The ‘body has the final say’. Look, listen and feel and it will respond and it will not let you down, your best friend forever.

       1. When we are in the rush of doing our minds are in control because it intentionally runs our bodies this way so that we do not stop to feel what is actually going on and how controlled we all are. If we slow down and to start with this may mean that we have to look at the way we are living frame by frame to catch the wilyness of our spirit then the body has a chance to respond and it will because as you say Shushila it will not let us down as the body never lies and is the constant we can actually rely on.

11. We often take the stance that the body doesn’t know what it’s doing and that we have to fix it or get it back on track but in fact, it does know what needs to be done in order to discard the abuse we have inflicted onto it.

12. I know all too well the roller coasters of fear, worry and blame to mention a few. There is such a great healing that occurs when I sit, be still and listen to my body for the answers.

13. It’s great how you say the medical diagnosis and treatment was just the beginning for you, because often that is seen as the end, whereas what if we took what had happened and used it to start afresh and find a new way forwards instead of just going back to our old ways?

14. I can easily relate to ‘how the mind can take you on a scary roller coaster ride’, and at several stages in my life I seemed to spend more time on the ride than off it. To have finally figured out that the mind is the ultimate trickster that cares little for the body has made so much sense of my life, and these days, listening to my wisest friend, my body, makes even more sense.

15. It can be difficult to surrender from the mind, afterall we use our mind to make our decisions, we’ve made it the fundamental tool of life and to let go of that and try something else which we are not so sure works, can be daunting – the mind always comes up with ideas, solutions & innovations. Whereas the body is there in its simple truth.

    1. ‘ the mind always comes up with ideas, solutions & innovations. Whereas the body is there in its simple truth.’ And as RB did, we can always come back to that simple truth, which can be achieved with honesty, love and appreciation for that simplicity we always have access to.

       1. ‘The mind always comes up with ideas, solutions & innovations’, it sure does, but none of what the mind comes up with is new even though it likes to think that it is. Everything that the mind comes up with (including ‘new’ inventions) is regurgitated. We humans like to think that we’re pioneering new ground in medicine, in transport, in technology etc but we have lived a far more advanced way of life previously, the building of the pyramids is a prime example of how we have achieved things in the past that we haven’t yet been able to catch up to.

16. The worst thing we can do is to start thinking about the possible illness or disease we may have because the what if’s start to take over, our head ends up in a whirlwind of possibilities. However if we stop and take one moment at a time, we stop being overwhelmed by all the possibilities.

17. Thank you RB, reading this again I can see I have made a lot of changes to listen more to my body but there are still pockets in my life that I let the mind take over and I leave that settled, still feeling inside myself. When I am with my heart and whole body I can connect to a sense of knowing, it’s a steady and still feeling, but if I let the mind take over with all its possibilities and worries then I often go into nervousness and anxiousness which is very depleting.

    1. Melina Knights I have come to the understanding that when we go into nervousness and or anxiousness then we have given ourselves over to the astral consciousness rather than staying with the consciousness of the universal intelligence. There is no nervousness and or anxiousness in the consciousness of the universe, only universal intelligence that far surpasses what our minds can know. If we stay with our bodies and do not go into our minds then we have the capacity to know everything as the universal intelligence does not hold back what is known. The mind can lead us down Rabbit holes of self doubt, overwhelm etc., and these are just distractions to keep us from feeling and knowing who we are by the truth of the universal intelligence we all come from.

18. We can learn and appreciate so much from having illness and disease if we are willing to see the bigger picture of what is on offer.

19. It is interesting how when we let our mind take over it is as if we become the disease rather than trusting our bodies to communicate with us what they need to heal. I have often got caught in the rollercoaster of my mind and part of me has enjoyed the drama and irresponsibility of it but nowadays I am more and more willing to explore what is underneath any pain and to commit to healing that rather than getting lost in the fear of being incapacitated and the ridiculous ‘what if’ stories I weave to distract myself.

20. We ‘feel guilty when we stop’ because in a world where everyone is living in excess motion, those who pause to draw true breath stand out and this is not always a comfortable position to be in, so even if we have managed to take pause, (return to our true breath) we often don’t hold it because of this tension. However, if we are to truly evolve it is a tension we must learn to live with if we do not want to go under again and enjoin the ill way we as a global society have been living for centuries. What this reveals is that the ‘stop’ we seek is an arrest of an ill momentum that many are still ensnared by.

    1. In this world, “where everyone is living in excess motion”, it can be very challenging to step off the rapidly moving ‘escalator’, one because it is become the normal way to live and the other because suddenly you expose yourself as saying no to it. I have found that it is of the utmost importance that we take time to stop to assess how we are feeling and how we are living, but then comes the choice whether to say no to this way of living forever, or continue to allow it to run us – into the ‘ground’.

       1. Ingrid Ward that choice you mention whether to say no to this way of living forever, or continue to allow ‘it’ to run us – into the ‘ground’.
          When we finally come to the realisation that we are completely played by as yet an unseen energy that thinks nothing of running the body into the ground by destroying a body it en-houses. Then we can say enough is enough and start to make those choices to stop being played like a puppet and take back responsibility for the way we are in life. The only way I feel to do this is to stay close to our bodies and deeply respect the fact that our bodies also en-house our soul that is always in constant contact with us ready to guide us back from the lies we have been saturated with.

21. The what ifs can drive us crazy – but as you say – what if we let our bodies surrender and allow, what if we start to change how we are living, what if we spend the time listening to our bodies rather than research. All of this could help with how our bodies handle illness and disease

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22. We live our lives feeling the stress and the exhaustion, but accepting it as ‘normal’ or justifying it by saying to ourselves that it’s a particularly busy time with work or the kids.. but when we constantly put our bodies on the line, it takes its toll and we actually slow down and become far less effective at what we’re doing, if we’re not taking care of ourselves as we go along. Learning to say no – especially to the good causes and things we think we should or need to do as a loyal friend, parent, daughter, whatever, is so fundamentally important in learning to love and deeply take care of ourselves, to live with the full vitality that we all have access to, when we respect our bodies.

    1. Great point Bryony and why would we not want to live with ‘full vitality’? It is only when we release ourselves from the burden of ‘normal’ that so many have settled for that we can return to true health and well being.

23. I have noticed that so many people can’t wait until they are cured of whatever is ailing them so they can go “back to living life as” it was before. Yes, that is their choice but why would you want to return to a way of living which was probably the cause of the ailment in the first place? Now that doesn’t make sense in any way but learning from the experience and making different, more caring choices as to the way we are living, definitely does.

24. Thank you for sharing this experience. What I love most about it is how the body and the soul know exactly what is needed to support us to have a stop moment, to re-evaluate our choices and to heal.

25. The mind can take us all on a roller coaster ride of fear. Creating half truths and ill truths all in the search for disconnection from the marker of truth – the body!

26. Thank you for sharing RB. Whatever happens our minds can’t ever prevent anything from happening or prepare us enough for the worst case scenarios in life. I found that being present with our body and deeply caring for it is the best way of being prepared for whatever happens in life. As we can only deal with life when it happens not before it happens.

27. Engaging the mind in disconnection from the body can be a complete distraction from what is happening around and within us. Only through engaging the whole being can we really be in control, for the lack of a better word.

    1. Each and every time the mind is engaged in a separate activity to the body then the body is at the mercy of the pranic consciousness, a consciousness that will happily flood through the body the moment the body has been abandoned. The antidote is to stay connected to the body, thereby inhabiting the body which in turn allows for the divine consciousness to flow through the body and therefore impulse the body in a completely different way to how the pranic consciousness makes it move. The divine consciousness is continually leading us back to Oneness and the pranic consciousness is forever trying to drag us away.

28. I can so relate to this. A lack of information signals uncertainty, but the question I guess is from where and how we then are going to source the information. We can put so much effort in gathering information from outside while being disconnected and ignoring the wealth of much wisdom our body is trying to communicate. We arm ourselves to be head strong but I often find that what I have accumulated is actually totally irrelevant and not applicable to what is going on for me.

29. What a great insight and awareness you have gained through your willingness to ask the deeper questions of yourself and the way you had been living. Addressing the root cause allows us to truly heal as you share RB.

30. When we stress ourselves out over something it puts more strain on the body, and our body has to then deal with this and the illness and disease, which means the more we allow our mind to run away with different scenarios the harder we make it for our body to cope.

31. Sometimes you read about people who have had heart attacks and then chose to turn their lives around because they realise they have been given a second chance. On the other hand, some people carry on as if nothing has happened.

    1. Yes, and when we ignore the body and don’t change it has to get louder and louder to get our attention.

32. When we live our lives being busy, busy and continue to bring the past and the future into the present all the time it is no wonder we get exhausted. We live in our heads and think that the body can look after itself. Well it can only put up with so much dismissiveness before the lack of care and support for it begin to show.

    1. And show it does, and that is why so many seek surgery and the lift and tuck and that lift to try to hide the reality that their bodies are showing so clearly.

33. Our mind can take us all over the place when we start going into the what if’s, and one what if leads to another and before we know we have almost put ourselves on our death bed. Yet if we take one day at a time and allow ourselves to rest in order to heal we heal much faster.

    1. It’s true, the what ifs just get in the way of our healing.

34. “Why do we listen to those voices that are telling us we are lazy, when we know so well that we are far from lazy, and that to stop and rest is just a natural loving thing to do for the body? Why do we feel guilty to stop?” Listening to our body makes far more sense than listening to my mind which can try to bring me down and feel guilty. Saying no to those thoughts and instead returning to how my body feels – is still a work in progress, but recognising these thoughts aren’t true or loving is a great first step.

    1. I agree Sue, just being aware that we are having these thoughts in the first place is a great start. We know we are not lazy or we know our body just needs to stop and rest and all we need to do is honour that.

35. Our minds love drama and identification and these traits can come to the fore in any crisis, and with the vast knowledge now available via the internet we can really go crazy with this. But our minds cannot take us to the understanding our bodies can, and when we stop and listen to our bodies, they show us that next step and often when we are stopped, it’s our body’s way of saying ‘heh, try another way’ and a loving prod for us to consider how we live and treat ourselves. A super loving parent, that’s what our bodies are.

    1. Our bodies really are like a super loving parent, repeatedly reminding us, again and again.

36. I agree but can also see why we like the roller coaster and the constant stimulation as it is a great distraction so that we don’t have to connect to ourselves and the amazingness that we are.

37. Reality is we are constantly being distracted, in so many ways so it’s good to just see it. It happens not just when we are sick!

38. The mind can play games only because we allow such games to enter. Become aware of the games we play not just within ourselves but with others too and they no longer have a hold like they used to. Continue the awareness and they no longer become a part of our lives that is worth giving attention to.

    1. Yes, it starts with a willingness to be aware. I know for myself for the longest time I didn’t even want to be aware because I didn’t really want to be responsible or have to do anything to make the changes.

       1. So true, I can relate but opportunities are arising in every moment to support us to evolve. The cycle keeps on going round and round until we say yes and yes and yes… Sometimes we have wake up calls and these wake up calls can come in various ways but they are never to be condemned, no matter how uncomfortable they may at first appear to be which is what I am learning. I am being supported much more than what I truly realise and am willing to see.

       2. Good point Caroline, the lessons do keep coming back around, so if we miss them we get another chance and another until we are ready to wake up to what has always been there for us all along.

39. I’m just about to move house and have noticed how my mind would love to organise this and work it all out. It freaks out that I may make the wrong decision or that it won’t work. All I have learnt is if I stay with my body it tells me everything I need – it’s my constant home – my heart and eyes so I’m never ever apart from truth.

    1. Everything that comes our way supports us to evolve in one way or another. If we choose to go into our mind it delays our evolution and golden opportunities we miss out on. We know what is true, 100% in the body regardless of the obstacles that we may or others try to put in the way.

       1. I was just thinking that even the obstacles that come our way… that is what we think but reality is they don’t come our way, we actually create the obstacles on some level.

    2. It is so much more simple when we let go of the control, yet the individual us gets off on the identification too, so it’s interesting when we let that go.

    3. Yes the mind likes to make it so complicated and we can get so caught up in it all yet when we don’t allow those thoughts to rule, all sorts of magic happens.

40. Whatever it takes for us to learn to surrender it will be given to us as it is the only direction we are going, like it or not. The less we are willing the more we are offered in ways we may not like but need.

41. The mind loves the roller coaster rides, it keeps it going and going and going and thus gives it more power and meaning as it actually deserves. The moment we come back to our whole body the mind is given its rightful place as part of the whole again, but no longer is it the leading, dominating and for sure not the all-knowing apparatus it at times likes to be.

    1. Yes the mind loves it and it gets stimulated by it and then like a hungry beast, it needs more to be fed. When you stop feeding it though, ahhhh then things start to change!

42. So easy to allow our minds to get completely out of control and unhelpful to descend into catastrophising. To cut this debilitating energy, step back and return to you in the way you did is a lesson for us all and confirms we can take back control from a mind we’ve allowed to consume us.

    1. Yes it really doesn’t matter how far gone we have gone… or allowed our mind to take us, if we want out, it is there. We just actually have to want it as for some, they prefer to stay in the drama, complication or the highs and lows of the rollercoaster and thats okay if that is what they choose. For me personally, I am done with rollercoasters!

43. “there is no way I can go back to living life as I was before.” an ill-health scare made you aware of yourself and how you were living and as a consequence you’ve taken responsibility for your own health and re-aligned your body to heal itself. Very powerful.

44. Wow it just shows us what we can create with our minds. We can take on something and start believing we are it, and this can magnify the more we think about it. Enough to drive us crazy and make us ill. I love your return to the body and to stillness and your inner knowing. We do have command over our health, and the best thing we can do for ourselves is stay with our body and look at the way we are living. Deep respect to you for being able and willing to do this in such a frightening time.

    1. I have never been anorexic but I just read your comment and thought of someone who really thinks they are fat when they are not. They are so convinced and yet it is just their mind feeding these crazy thoughts.

45. Staying present can seem simple but it is actually not always so easy with our busy mind. It is simple but we fight the simplicity, we don’t want to feel and then go off in our minds times and times over so we get to the situation overwhelmed and exhausted even before it actually happened. Being in the moment and not thinking about the future is a really beautiful thing to learn because we can deal with the now but never with what is coming before it is there before us. It makes life also more simple.

    1. It’s true Lieke, it’s not so easy, especially if we are addicted to complication and don’t know how to surrender and let go. It takes practice, and I still practise and am not perfect!

46. With the plethora of medical information that is available on the internet these days, it is so easy to get all wrapped up in the possibilities of a serious or even life-threatening medical condition. I know I have done this a few times myself, but when I stopped and really felt what was going on for me, it was never as serious as I made it out to be, perhaps even in an attempt to get sympathy or caring attention from others, rather than look at what choices I had made to get me to that point in the first place!

    1. Interesting how we want to look outside, blame and get attention much more than to stop and look within, to trace the steps and choices that we made as no one is actually forcing us to do anything.

47. If I had a pound for every time, I thought I had something really serious I’d be very well off. Going off and attaching to the drama of a medical diagnosis can be very scary and cause us unnecessary worry, and if I have learnt anything, it is not to go looking for the worst case scenario, especially on the internet.

48. “What ifs” can drive us absolutely crazy, what if… instead of conjuring up all the bad scenarios in our heads we instead surrendered to the opportunity of healing and learning that’s on offer?

    1. What if we accepted and appreciated instead of resisted and criticised.

       1. I love that “what if” – definitely worth an experiment. What if we started the day knowing we were amazing?

       2. Then each of our choices would originate from that rather than doubt or in any way uncertainty.

49. What a journey you have had RB, and a great blessing as you say to be given a stop moment to re-evaluate the way you had been living that was causing harm to yourself and others around you. Well done for using that time to address every thing in your life that was creating complication and drama, and for allowing the space and grace so the body could begin to truly heal.

50. I understand, and it is quite normal, to want to know everything when an illness happens. We have, after all, been mainly raised to gather information as a way of knowing our world, and so this can also apply to our bodies when they start to communicate on a big level.

    1. I agree, it’s definitely normal to want to know everything and part of taking responsibility for the position we’ve got ourselves into too, but if every single person’s body is different and how they arrive at a condition or disease is different, is it possible that every person’s condition is slightly different and unique to them and all our researching and our googling will not provide us with a full and comprehensive answer?

       1. You are spot on Meg because underneath each illness and disease is the energetic factor of why you are experiencing such and such in the first place and it is more important that the actual disease itself.

51. ” For me, it was a blessing that my body took the use of my legs away. ”
    Its so great you came to the understanding of illness , illness is the healing , its our opportunity to accept it or not.

    1. I still look back today and appreciate this time of my life. It was life changing.

52. That must have been really scary and NMO could have stood for Not Me Ooops.

53. Yes Rosie, we are so easily rocked by diagnosis into a fearful and apprehensive state. But what if we were to receive the true report of our condition today? Surely the prognosis would be we have as a race a seriously extreme case of ‘doingitis’ – a deadly disease. The only known cure for this is to cherish ourselves and move in a way that supports our body to truly be. Perhaps it’s about time we actually heard our true condition rather than pushing on pursuing our material dreams?

    1. Oh Joseph I laughed when I read the “doingitis” as I was trying to push and cram and whole lot of things to do before I head off to work this morning. It really is a disease I need to ensure I don’t come down with too seriously.

54. Let’s face it… The mind is taking the world on an enormous rollercoaster ride… with its outrageous highs, it’s abysmal lows and its contractual motion going nowhere… The guaranteed no evolution fun fair that keeps sucking people in.

    1. When you explain it like that, why would anyone want to partake!

    2. Agreed Chris but we are the ones that keep paying for the rides that go nowhere.

55. With the Internet being around, gathering information has become so easy and we can so easily overwhelm ourselves with it. What I often find myself doing is I might start with one thing but it branches out to other subjects and a few hours later somehow I find myself with something that leaves me thinking ‘How did I get here?’ Everything we read comes with energy, and the control we like to think we have over our thinking, doesn’t really seem ours.

    1. I know what you mean Fumiyo, its like you get lead astray without even realising and you find yourself reading something that is not what you need to be doing.

56. This is brilliant. I wonder how often I would allow what a doctor says to forgo responsibility on my part forgetting that doctors are very knowledgeable and experts in medicine, but we I am the expert of my own body.

    1. Yes, it is so important that we don’t give our power away to anyone, expert, knowledgeable or not.

    2. Yes Fumiyo, important to acknowledge the medical knowledge of health professionals but not give our power away to them, As you say, we we are experts of our own body, or at least should be.

57. Sometimes the things that happen in life that seem awful at the time turn out to be our greatest blessing.

    1. Yes they are, and more often than not we learn the most in the most uncomfortable and challenging times.

58. ‘So I treated myself like a cute child that had to be reminded that there was no need to go there, telling myself, “ just stay here with your body.”’ I love this RB that’s the way we should treat ourselves, calling us back to the body lovingly when our thoughts are very obvious not loving at all.

    1. And it’s a good practice to get into, connecting back to the body, as I have found that it is quite often that my mind wanders and I end up with all kinds of weird thoughts!

59. RB I was particularly interested in how we research an illness and that we allow images of what we have read to become our expected reality, and react accordingly rather than taking one moment at a time, and dealing with them as we go, and not panicking ourselves by reading into too many ‘what if’ scenarios.

    1. In putting all of this in writing, I am seeing that I am not the only person who has done this. It is great when we see what we can get caught in.

60. To lose the use of one or both of our legs and then be able to use them again is a great opportunity to reassess the way that we walk. Has it been in push and drive and if so, what adjustments do we need to make so we can move in a way that is not creating discord in our body and the space we walk through? Each seeming tragedy is a small blessing when viewed in this way.

    1. Yes this was a blessing and often I find myself going back into an old way of pushing and I remember how crippling it was to only have one leg… and just that slows me down!

61. It’s true – we have made life about ‘doing’ and not ‘being’ because we doubt that the quality of our presence, when we live in connection with our self and the all we are a part of, is enough to get the job done in the sense that all that we need to complete it will be provided through this connection. This does not mean we sit around idle waiting for some ‘higher power’ to tell us what to do, but more so we begin to engage with life is a far deeper and much more meaningful way.

62. I agree it is a totally different experience to be with the body and listen. It does not mean that we don’t need to engage with medical interventions rather we are even more fully informed what treatment is right for us to follow.

63. As consumers of health care we need to take responsibility for ourselves by allowing ourselves to become very informed about things but also by being honest about how we are living and how that is contributing to the illness/disease process that we have.

    1. Exactly, we can’t just live recklessly and expect someone else to fix us.

    2. And as in the UK we are told today the NHS needs an extra £50 billion to function properly, there is still no emphasis on disease prevention or support for lifestyle medicine, or any notion of us taking personal responsibility for our own health.

       1. It is sad that so much money is wasted in trying to fix rather than investing on prevention and by this I mean, healthy lifestyles and diet. Its so simple and there is no money in it so its not something that everyone talks about. Shame it doesn’t make front page news.

64. How interesting to observe the fact that when our bodies are offering us the time to sit and be with them, to connect and feel what is going on we nearly always run to the solution, to the fix or to google and then get super scared. What it shows me is that if i spend my time running from one thing to the next and not being with myself then automatically I will not be willing to feel why I have got sick in the first place.

    1. It is that constant searching outside of ourselves, when in fact, we have all the answers within.

65. ‘The extra stress, the energy wasted on the “what ifs”…. all of this was just a distraction from me being able to really rest and just allow myself to feel.’ I can relate to this and it may take a while but when we truly stop we allow a surrender that makes us even more aware of what our body has to share and the amazing wisdom it holds can come to the fore and honoured.

    1. Our bodies hold so much wisdom, much more than we can imagine I feel.

66. We can never ever underestimate ‘how tricky the mind can be, if you let it take over and take control’ for it will always serve to undermine us as opposed to our inner heart which will always build us up and lead us to the pathway of understanding and acceptance.

    1. For the longest time, up until I was in my late twenties… I remember really thinking that I should not let my heart lead my way as it would lead me astray… and I would get lost if I was in emotions, but truth is emotions is not my heart, because emotions comes from my mind, it is my head that creates all the emotional pictures and scenarios for me to get lost in. When I live from my heart and my body, as opposed to my mind, I have as you say, heaps more understanding and acceptance and I don’t get caught up in things like a I used to. Definitely worth experimenting with and even studying.

67. I see it over and over again in life that we can be presented with something and rather than just staying with our bodies and feeling our response we go into our heads and react. Reaction will never get us to truth so we have to come back to the body for support us.

    1. I know for sure that I have a lot to learn about my reactions, why I react, what triggers me to react and I sure am aware of the consequences. It is something that I am really learning a lot about lately and starting to see what an impact they have on my life.

68. It is incredible how once a thought gets in, how it can escalate into something that can get out of control very quickly, and particularly how easily this can happen when it is related to our health. But equally, if we are open to understanding that there is so much more on offer than the state of our physical health in such a situation, how quickly we can turn these thoughts around, bring them to a halt, and truly appreciate the bigger picture that is there for us to see.

    1. I love that we can quickly stop these thoughts, they are only as powerful as we allow them to be.

69. The access to so much information on the internet has its benefits but as you show in your blog, it is how we process the information and consequently how this process can grab and separate the person from their innermost providing the avenue to go off on a tangent. The ‘roller coaster’ is quite destructive to the body, its great how you managed to step off that ‘ride’ and see the forces at play when we hand ourselves over to the head, to knowledge, as opposed to staying with the body.

70. Wow RB, what a massive learning. It’s incredible how much is on offer for us to review, observe and learn from when we are sick. There is always more than our physical ailments to consider and your blog beautifully exposes that.

    1. Yes, the physical is just one small part of a much bigger picture.

71. What an awesome stop moment, which clearly showed that there was more to be healed, than just the physical.

    1. We are seriously short changing ourselves if we think life is purely physical!

72. I love how life sometimes offers you stop moments that give you a chance to recognize that how you were living was not supporting you… and that distractions away from feeling what your body is trying to show you only denies an exquisite wisdom that will guide you in how to move through life in a way that is true for you. Regardless of how painful the lesson, it is still a lesson worth it’s weight in gold.

    1. This stop moment, like many others are blessings in disguise and I wouldn’t want it any other way.

73. This is the perfect example of fully embracing Western Medicine without getting lost in the mind or giving your power over to it or to people that you perceive to know more than you. Although your experience was not perfect I really admire how honest you were willing to be and how much you have learned and grown from your experience. I must say, getting on the internet and scaring yourself is a pretty natural response but the difference is you were able to quickly arrest this and regain your relationship with yourself before making any panicked discussions

    1. Yes I did stop the crazy internet searching but that only happened after a few days of getting totally lost and on the roller coaster ride…. luckily I stopped that and changed as I had already started to plan who would adopt my daughter when I would be dead.. Today I look back on it all and think whoa, did that really happen. And at the time, it felt like the end of my world… but luckily it was just another end to an old way of living and a new beginning.

       1. I am a bit of a sucker when it comes to googling my so called possible “illness”. I know I freak myself out when I start surfing the web for “answers” but at the same time I convince myself I am educating myself to find out more about what might be happening. The thing is, the energetic quality in which you search for the answers is equally important as the answers themselves. If you are desperate or freaked out when you are looking for the information, what you find simply confirms that feeling. In saying that I am here, on a Saturday, with a huge swollen hot bruise on my leg and I don’t recall bumping myself or falling over and all I can think is should I go to hospital or should I just have a quick google and not waste a whole Saturday afternoon, after all, I can see my GP on Monday. So I have reached the point where my curiosity may land me back on the stupid roller coaster of “what if’s”…cancer of the leg?? After reading this blog though I might just go get it checked out rather than wasting my time on a false self diagnosis, you have to laugh don’t you!

74. I love these lines: “I may have treated it with disrespect, but I can change that now. It’s up to me. I can either make this next part of my life one that is full of drama and fear, or I can enjoy each moment” It’s how we deal with challenging and difficult situations that shapes our lives going forward, it’s in these moments our principles are defined and it’s up to us to choose exactly what quality of life we want – and it’s inspiring what you chose.

    1. It was good to go back and be reminded of what I wrote. We come across challenging and difficult situations over and over in life, there is no way to avoid them so really it is all about how we respond to them rather than how we react to them and that is all up to us.

       1. Exactly, in fact I find they tend to bring out qualities and principles in me that I didn’t even know I had.

       2. Yes and we grow from each confronting or challenging situation and since realizing this, I welcome them even more!

       3. Yeah the potential these situations hold is unlimited, they can give us a whole new awareness about life and a whole new strength to stand with what we know is true.

    2. “It’s how we deal with challenging and difficult situations that shapes our lives going forward, it’s in these moments our principles are defined and it’s up to us to choose exactly what quality of life we want” and could it be Meg that by changing the way that we react to ‘challenging and difficult’ situations that they no longer present as either challenging or difficult but as opportunities to evolve and to bring even more of ‘us’ into life?

75. It’s horrible when we let the mind go off and create the worse case scenario, and then when we find out the results it’s nothing like we imagined, and then realise that we have put ourselves through a trauma unnecessarily.

    1. The emotional drama and complications we can go into are so exhausting that it doesn’t help the body it just stresses it further.

76. Wow this is an incredible sharing of where we go when we are not with our selves. The mind is simply a vessel to the energy we choose to align to, and when we align to chaos and fear our thoughts will provide more and more reasons why this is the truth! Beautiful learning about being, and that is everything.

77. Yes RB there is a lie that we are fed, that life is about pushing on and ‘getting ahead’. Like hamsters stuck in a wheel we rush along hoping to get ‘there’. But this way of living does not work – it doesn’t matter what you achieve there’s an emptiness inside at the end of the day. But if you’ve ever stopped and stood in the middle of a forrest or gazed at the ocean or a field of flowers flowing in the breeze, you will feel God and the universe stretching on eternally. Then you know there is nothing to stress about and nowhere to go, just Love to be.

    1. Just reading this comment, feeling the field of flowers, or picturing the leaves on a tree with the sunlight shining through brings a moment of stillness for me and to remember that I am part of something much bigger allows me to step outside of the busy wheel that I often get stuck in, going around and around and around again. Sometimes we just need to stop. Again.

78. It must be quite an intense and vulnerable time when you are undergoing a medical operation and there is uncertainty as to your life thereafter. To put ourselves in the hands of our wonderful Surgeons and Nurses really is quite astonishing. What you have shared is a different and added kind of magic , because now going into this treatment with a knowing deep inside that is allowing personal healing has got to be something supportive for the client AND medical practitioner.

79. “there is no way I can go back to living life as I was before.” If we drive our car too fast round a corner and crash, would we go back and drive in the same way again when the car was patched up?

80. This is an excellent blog. The way we can become so disregarding of our body, and so reckless even sometimes not wilfully so is eventually going to be stopped by the body. There has been a disconnect between the activities and happenings we call ‘life’ and the very body we live in, thinking that we do the life things how we want to and the body comes along – has simply failed us. The connection between the body is simple, it has a natural way of being harmonious and anything that is not done harmoniously is attacking the body.

    1. I like that line Harry, anything that is not done harmoniously is attacking the body. If we take this into our day, it is a simple reminder, to question ourselves with… are we attacking ourselves as we do this? It’s great to ask these questions, as it is so easy to get into autopilot and not actually feel what we are doing in any given moment.

81. Amazing Rosie, the outcome in this instance has been pretty good it would seem, however that is not and was not the point, which I love. Surrendering and letting go the need to control and fix is not easy when you’re facing something potentially debilitating or life threatening, but you show how powerfully healing it is when you do. What unfolded for you and the insight you were able to have as a result, is worth it as the quality of your life is impacted from that point on. In the end that’s what counts, as I have seen in many clients over the years who end up living which chronic illness, but live a life full of meaning, connection and beauty.
    We have long since lost our understanding as a society that we are not our illnesses and ailments, and that we can have a rich and wonderful life regardless.

82. When we are confronted with a condition, of course, understanding it as much as we can help, but above everything else, understanding why do we have it and what does it mean, provide two very different places from where you can stand in the process of dealing with it. In the first one, we go ‘micro’ and in the second one we observe ourselves from the ‘macro’, a place that is condition–free.

83. It is through learning to love ourselves that we can say ‘No’ to the thoughts that enter the mind and the more we do, the easier it gets, as we get to know the what is and the what is not.

84. When we get caught up in the mind and enter that roller coaster ride, it’s hard to come off. Better to not get on the ride in the first place. When we allow ourselves to rush off into the future we create worse case scenarios that can be self perpetuating.. The only way is to be consciously present in the now and observe what is going on, without attaching to or becoming the symptoms yourself. If you do, it’s all downhill from there.

    1. This is a great point, when we rush off into the future, we can’t be here in the now and feel what is true for us in that moment. And if we are not here, right now with our body, then who is running the show?

85. When we start to research our illness on the internet we become obsessed by what we read, and become unable to decipher the difference between what is useful information and the actual symptoms we have, we end up convinced we have something we don’t. If we just stop and take each moment as it comes we become more aware of how we truly feel.

86. I had a similar experience recently when I had intense crippling pain in all my joints. The doctor at one stage wanted to rush me into hospital to have a multitude of tests as they did not know what was causing the reaction my body had gone into. I had the sensibility about me, even with all the pain and uncertainty I was in, to not go to hospital as I had a feeling I would then get caught up in the medical system. I researched my own specialists and eventually found the right ones for me. The first was a heart specialist who ruled out that I had rheumatic fever, which they thought I may have, which I knew I did not, but still needed to rule it out. Then I went to a rheumatoid arthritis specialist who gave me a diagnosis. I needed to do an in depth reading on why suddenly I would have a disease that was so left of field. Once I had read it correctly, with support from Natalie Benhayon and Serge Benhayon, and realigned to the true energy, I arrested the energy feeding the disease and immediately I started to heal. Weeks later there is only a trace of slight pain in my shoulders and the more I express all of what I want to say, with out holding back for fear of a reaction from others, this is dissipating. I have learnt that calibrating down to a lower vibration poisons my body and then the poison being released causes extreme pain. My learning, and for any one else who would like to learn from my experience…… do not say yes to a lower vibration.

    1. ‘I have learnt that calibrating down to a lower vibration poisons my body and then the poison being released causes extreme pain’. Very powerful sharing Mary-Louise that shows us to not just focus on the disease but become aware of what feeds the disease and address that energy. We are first and foremost energetic beings and need to read energy first and move from there, not the other way round.

    2. Thank you for sharing so openly Mary Louise, I read your comment right when I needed to most! I have often found myself lowering my vibration, to fit in, to not get reactions or jealousy but when you explain how your body reacted, I think to myself, it is just not worth it.

    3. I just was thinking how great it is that you followed what felt true to you Mary Louise, and didn’t just give yourself over to the medical world to be a medical experiment. I love that you sought the support you needed rather than went into fear and gave your power away. Inspirational.

87. There is so much in this article, it clearly defines that we have a choice. Our minds can very quickly over ride, control and consume our thoughts and subsequently mold our body to fit them, or we can stop, surrender and hold our body as the super precious organism that it is and allow it to communicate how it feels with any choice we make.

    1. We need a bumper or fridge sticker:
       STOP, SURRENDER and hold your body as the super precious organism that you are!

88. This is profound, thank you for sharing. The simplicity of living from our body and listening to it. The wisdom that came to you from your body, because you gave yourself the space to listen.

    1. The body has so much to share with us, every single day but I have not always been very good at taking time to listen, and to be honest, sometimes I don’t want to hear what it is sharing as I want to get this or that done so will ignore the fact that it is tired or feels tension. Just got to keep seeing this and become more and more honest and aware.

89. “for me to take responsibility for my part, which is to surrender, listen and allow. I may not have listened to my body in the past, I may have treated it with disrespect, but I can change that now. It’s up to me. I can either make this next part of my life one that is full of drama and fear, or I can enjoy each moment, and really focus my energy on the real things in life – the people around me and the love that is there.” This feels like the turning point for you. The stop moment that losing the use of your legs gave you was an opportunity for you to heal an outmoded past momentum of overdrive. This was unloving to your body and needed to be reassessed. Beautiful healing RB. Well done you for listening to the wisdom of your body rather than choosing the mental controls.

    1. Thank you Irena, I do still have to be careful as that pattern of over drive is very well ingrained into me… so I have to be aware not to fall back into it.

90. It is beautiful to read how there can be a different approach to illness when it occurs, that it can in fact be taken as an opportunity to be more responsible in life and to bring in changes that are basic and very caring.

91. I could relate to your reaction to your first and second diagnosis and of wanting to be on top of it, to know everything there is to know and be in control. How different this is to being connected to ourselves and trusting that all we need to know will be there when we need it, to trust our impulses and follow up on things when we feel to, as you did.

92. The overriding of the body because of beliefs like parenting and working hard is a fairly common thing. So much so that many people don’t even know they are doing so – it is simply what is done and you are considered a good parent and a good worker, not just by yourself but by society also. But where does that leave the being inside? Honouring that being does not then mean we are a bad parent or worker, in fact it means the opposite as we then give all of ourselves to each part of our lives. But in the transition phase to honouring the body the mind has a lot to say about it and has a bit of a freak out.

    1. It is interesting how we have been brought up to honour our commitment to work or being a good parent as more important than our body, when in reality the others cannot exist or be done well if we don’t take care of the body first and foremost.

    2. Well said Nikki. The mind does love to control the body and overmaster it. A balance of mind and body seems to be essential.

93. Beautiful RB – it is amazing how giving a name, and a specific set of symptoms to a medical state, can send us into a panic and a belief that it is ‘our fate’ to suffer (or even die) at the hands of some terrible or horrific outbreak. Our mind can certainly conjure up all sorts of scenarios. When you look at this, you would have to say that the greatest disease we suffer from is the point of view that illness is ‘bad’ and something to be feared. Ultimately, our true diagnosis should have much more to do, with not living in a way that we know to be true. These melodrama’s we create are part of the same soap opera that we lived before we were ill. So much better can come as you show, if we just get honest and cut this rollercoaster show.

94. Wow, what a story – and an incredible healing. No doctor can prescribe what you learned. I related to what you said about using the internet to learn more. While it can be a helpful tool, of course, it seems that it can also always lead you to believe the worst! Your story is a real lesson for everyone.

    1. The internet is not always true and is often sensationalised and full of emotion and drama. I still get caught out by it often.

95. When life gets intense for any reason we have a choice. We can go into reaction to it and then seek the myriad of different behaviours out there to relieve ourselves of the tension, whether it be food, or hobbies or knowledge seeking or exercise, booze, drugs whatever. We can feel completely justified in doing this of course but does it really help or support us to deal with the situation? Or the other option is to stop and connect and feel what is really going on and why it might be happening and then respond by moving in a way that supports this learning and deepening our connection with our bodies and with ourselves.

    1. I just realised that we really do justify way too much instead of just being honest and knowing. There really is no need to justify anything….. especially not beating up our bodies because we have had a tough time.. that is like hitting it harder than what it was already hit with!

96. A great example of how we can be lead by our mind’s pictures, and how these pictures can really run amok and create havoc in our lives…. At some stage we all have to return to the connection within that frees us from this dysfunctional tyranny.

97. This is a great presentation of how what we are feeling/experiencing is not ‘all in the mind’ but rather how our mind can be the cause of what we are feeling/experiencing.

    1. I wrote a quote the other day…Left to itself, the mind can be reckless and cause a lot of havoc and should come with warning signs. Do not let loose, only use in combination with body at all times! RB

98. It is rare to hear someone say that they feel blessed for having an illness, but could it be that by being open to what the illness has to show us and then taking responsibility for how we are living, there develops a deeper understanding of the situation, along with appreciation.

    1. I agree Julie, it is rare for people to see their illness as a blessing, this is a level of responsibility that many avoid, if more embraced what their bodies were clearly showing them, many would begin to heal the root energetic causes of the illness or disease and not just the symptoms.

99. ‘I can either make this next part of my life one that is full of drama and fear, or I can enjoy each moment, and really focus my energy on the real things in life – the people around me and the love that is there.’ This is big as a lot of people identify themselves with their illness and become their illness, there is nothing but their illness, working in the community as a nurse I have seen how this is not only detrimental for their own health and wellbeing but puts an enormous pressure on the people around them because from that moment on, the focus is on the illness and the ‘what if’. You could say they stop to truly live life but are caught in their own small world.

    1. Yes we have to remember that we are who we are first and foremost and yes we may have an illness or be going through some form of disease, but that illness or disease is not who we are and we don’t have to give ourselves over to it.

       1. There is so much in life that we ‘give ourselves over to’. We give ourselves over to ethnicity, level of education, social status, gender, age etc rather than seeing ourselves as the glorious everlasting consciousness of the One Almighty God. We are all made from the same dazzling brilliance it’s just that we continually keep ‘giving ourselves over’ to beliefs that dull our light.

100. A great picture of how we can be so lead by our minds into whole worlds of ‘this may happen’…. These thoughts really are insidious and have to be taken to task, as it can be so easy to ‘entertain’ these pictures, with the resultant stress that is literally conjured up out of nothing.

     1. Yes and now 3 years later, I am not in anyway, blind, in a wheel chair or dying… so the pictures I had, and the fear that I went into were all a waste of time and energy!

101. Reading this line, I can feel how we can get into identifying ourselves with anything ‘I get so into it, that I become it. I am no longer me’ … it can be a disease, a job, a role in life, a way of seeing ourselves which is not true, a behaviour, but none of this is us, and often times we are offered those things which might initially freak us out as a stop to consider how we are and how we live and to take the time to feel our bodies and the truth they show us of how we live.

102. That old saying of – “your legs were taken from under you” certainly came to mind when I was reading this blog. Sometimes our body has to get a bit more dramatic to make us sit up and take notice. Thank God for the body and the truth that it can and does reveal to us.

     1. Exactly Elizabeth, and I often remind myself that if I don’t listen, my body will be very loud and I think back to when it took my ability to walk away as a massive wake up call!

103. Don’t get me wrong: I love and appreciate medicine and doctors but I also know science is not the be all and end all and it of course skips over a prime factor in all illness and disease – the root energetic cause, without which a condition cannot emerge. It also overlooks the possibility of an outcome that defies the odds, and that in illness lies a message and a healing for us, if we are prepared to go there.

     1. I agree with you completely, and that is why both Esoteric Medicine and Western Medicine, when worked with together, can offer the most supportive way of healing. We need both at times and one without the other really is not going to work. I know this from my own experience. I most definitely needed both to support me to heal.

104. A mind left to wander does so at great expense to the body and the wisdom contained therein. I’m sure we can all relate to your experience RB, of withdrawing from our body in the sense we are not so consciously present in it anymore so that the mind, which seems to have a will of its own, takes us on a nightmarish ride ‘to hell and back’, while our body simply waits for its return so that together they can be working in synergy with each other as one harmonious unit of expression.

105. When we leave our bodies that is when anxiousness creeps in, so staying with the body, listening to its needs and honoring that we come back to a presence that is more powerful than any disease.

106. The guilt of not stopping is a BIG one for women. Being caught up in the “busy mode” is socially acceptable as the way to be. For many stress and not coping with life or always being “on the go” is often championed as the way life is. Thank you for exposing that the body speaks another language and illness and disease is the true marker and the stop moment that gives all an opportunity to take two and the choices to change the way we live.

     1. No one is going to stop us for us… We have to make that choice and in doing so, we become role models for others, letting them know that they too can stop.

107. The mind has a way of filling in all the pictures, and as you say RB we can live into the drama or stop and go to the body and surrender to our own wisdom from within in trusting the messages we are being given loud and clear.

108. We can be easily mis lead and taken on a scary roller coaster ride if believe all that we read on the internet!

109. It is quite scary how our mind can take us on a ‘roller coaster’, taking us away from listening and responding to what our bodies are telling us. Thank you RB for the reminder not to override the messages from our bodies.

     1. It is quite simple, the more we over ride, the louder the body becomes. From my experience it pays to listen even to the subtle messages.

110. Rosie, great blog with lots to discuss here and I am sure something many can relate with especially with the technology we have today and the term ‘google it’ in that if we are diagnosed with something how quick are we to jump onto the internet to research it and then as you have shared the mind goes off on a rollercoaster with the information found. I have done this over many different things and it is so harming for us, aiming to take us away completely from the truth that we hold within our bodies. You are spot on when with this ‘I started to realise that all this thinking and doing was not actually helping me at all, and in fact it was harming.’ The moment you took to be still and listen as you did that one time in the sunshine reading one of Serge Benhayon’s book was a moment of you coming back to you and the truth within. Also I have seen this so many times with people especially with ‘solo parents’ where there is a constant stress that is put on themselves that they have to ‘do everything’ ‘but living by the beliefs and ideals of being a “solo parent”, and a “good strong reliable worker” has made me override, and not listen to what my body is asking so clearly.’ What I have learnt and am starting to learn even more (from Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine) is that if we accept, embrace and surrender instead of trying to control and fix, this is what gives us the space to be more of ourselves and to also feel and see that we are supported and loved and not ‘doing it on our own’!

     1. Yes, it is up to me to accept and allow others to support me. In the past, I didn’t ever allow that and therefore was stuck on my own and in my own created isolated situation of being a solo parent.

     2. The mind can be very harmful when we put it into a state of fear. The potential for ideas and stories to build can occur instantly putting the body into great stress and alarm. It is interesting to note here that when we go into reaction logic can often go out the door and true understanding is nowhere in the equation. The truth is no doubt within and a simple moment of coming back to ourselves may seem daunting at the moment of panic or fear yet it is this knowing that gives us the opportunity to connect to the truth.

        1. Logic comes from the mind and not the body and can often get in the way from what we naturally know and feel.

111. The mind just makes up stories while the body knows the truth. The more we listen to the body the more we will give the mind its rightful place. We have denied the wisdom of the body for far too long whilst giving reverence to the mind but where has it gotten us? The state that humanity is in right now is surely an indication what we are doing is simply not working. We cannot think our way out of the mess we are collectively in; if we could we would have done it long ago. Isn’t it time to consider that what we carry in our bodies, for example our hurts, is in fact affecting how we live and that if we healed those hurts we would in fact change the way we are in life?

     1. As I was reading your comment Elizabeth, I was thinking of how much mental ill health is on the rise and how we have so much knowledge these days but as you say, the mind and all that it knows is not changing the statistics on health. We really do need to come back to our bodies and from there, feel and make other choices as the current ones clearly are not bringing very good results.

     2. Those mind games are often what leads us on to the path of doubt that when fueled, sends us on a goose chase that long term can present itself through overwhelm and anxiety. We just have to observe the rates of fatigue and illness and disease in our current world to note that something is not quite right anymore.

112. A great reminder to not go into our minds when we have some concern but listen to the body instead and seek professional advice, so that we can weigh up how we feel with what we have been offered as support.

113. The more I have learnt about energy I have realised that it is not that my mind that is making up these thoughts, it is in fact that I have chosen to operate on a different energy, and because of this, I am fed these thoughts. It’s a hard one to grasp when we think we think, and we are identified by our intellect, but I know it now and understand because I can feel when a thought is running through me and I know that it is not mine and the more aware I am of this, the more I am able to stop, shift the energy and allow for a different energy and therefore different thoughts. So.. if I am in drama and in the turmoil, I just have to stop and change the energy that is giving me those thoughts and all I need to come back to is awareness in the present moment. Constantly.

     1. I agree RB. When I am not connected to my body then there is a ‘gap’ and it is this gap that then gets filled with thoughts that don’t support me, in fact don’t support me at all. So what I have learnt is to stay as connected as possible to my body, which closes the gap and prevents unsupportive thoughts from coming in and then taking hold.

114. Yes and each time you ignore or avoid what your body is signalling to you, it gets louder and louder or just stops.

115. I love the analogy of the mind as a nervous little Chihuahua that has had too much coffee and keeps yapping away and finding any and every little way to go…haha. A great sharing and learning, valuable reading for us all.

116. another great example of how the mind is like a nervous little Chihuahua that is had too much coffee… It will just keep going and going and going, finding every nook and cranny that is there to be found, never stopping, never allowing us to truly rest

     1. Yes that is so true…. I can just hear it yapping away and not stopping even when I have told it to be quiet again!

117. What a valuable lesson to learn, and to share – it is so easy to get carried away with what if’s and start to imagine the worst, only to find out later on that all is ok. Your experience of coming back to your body and choosing stillness just goes to show how powerful it is.

118. ‘I even start to wonder if I am making up the symptoms because I am reading about them!’ Going into the tunnel of fear is the surest way to not take the time to listen to the body. It’s a great lesson you have shared RB, taking yourself back to stillness, stopping the momentum and fear and allowing the true healing to be revealed.

119. We can spend our whole life fearing what might happen and this prevents us from feeling what is true for us. It is like we prefer the irresponsible route of imagining what could go wrong rather than focusing on what is right before us.

120. What an amazing learning Rosie – there is no comparison between outer knowledge and inner knowledge – we just have to surrender and trust what our bodies are communicating to us and let go of our need to control.

121. Our bodies are so loving, they are always communicating with us and sometimes when we won’t listen they have to speak louder.

122. Roller coaster rides are scary and designed to be scary, so why do we go on them, and even pay to go for the ride? Is it because the fear takes us away from feeling who we are? Our body is a very patient physician that consistently gives us the diagnosis of how we are treating ourselves and when we stop to listen we know it is telling the truth.

     1. That is an interesting question about roller coaster rides. I wonder is it just a way to escape reality?
        I personally have never liked them but have still allowed myself to be talked into going on them, but recently I said NO. Even after walking up all the stairs to get to one, I said NO, turned around and walked past everyone and they all knew I was in their minds chickening out but for me it was really powerful to be able to honour my body and not worry about what others thought.

123. Isn’t it amazing how our bodies will reflect to us exactly what it is we need to learn. What I get from this sharing is that we can push on through life, expecting our body to clean up after us and then we are surprised when it can no longer cope with what we’re dumping in it. What we don’t seem to understand though is that it’s not just us who have to suffer the consequences. Our every choice affects everyone else and this is a responsibility we really don’t want to see most of the time.

124. Great blog RB showing how our mind can take over and make things worse rather than listening to the body and all its amazing messages. The more we go into our head to try and fix things and make things better the more the body has to tell us we are heading in the wrong direction as you showed RB with the lack of mobility with your legs. Your blog is a great reminder of how much we can over ride our body in favour of our mind.

125. Once we really understand what that constant drive and push is doing to our bodies, our hearts, and our relationships, we have the opportunity to stop and reconfigure and to live life in a totally different way

126. “Why is it that when we are not doing, we do not feel as though we are enough?” Wow, great question, there is such a stigma attached to everything we ‘do’, and we are rewarded accordingly, so we are constantly feeling that if we aren’t ‘doing’ then we aren’t worthy. This is something that plagues many of us, myself included. Until i learned that your worthiness does not come from what you ‘do’, far from it, but from who we are.

127. Wow, what an education and an inspiration. The fact that we can let ourselves be defined by an illness in order to be in control, to understand it so well that we become it is so true! I have seen it with people who can’t see beyond their diagnosis and I have been the person sucked into knowing so much about my diagnosis in an attempt to stay in control of the debilitating fear of being out of control!

128. What if we had collective surgery and what was removed with precision and care was this consciousness we have around being ill? What if the surgeon’s knife was able to withdraw all the panic and fear and ‘fight for your life’ idea? Perhaps then we would see a race of people humbled and growing, expanding and truly evolving knowing that every part of what our body reports is a gift for us to unpack, and every sensation is not an inconvenient obstacle but here for a God-given, super specific reason. Thank you Dr RB for beginning the procedure here.

     1. I like your What if much better than the panic and fear! Our perspective and how we see things really changes how we respond to any situation.

129. It is amazing how much we can either embrace what our body is telling us or we can fight it. And then if we choose to learn the lesson we are being given, how long do we then implement it in our lives and do we truly change our way of living that led us up to that point of needing an illness to stop us? I have seen it in so many people with cancer or life threatening diseases, they have the operation or whatever is needed, make changes, but as soon as they feel better and recovered go back to living the same way they were before. And we call ourselves an intelligent species!!

     1. Thanks for the reminder James, it’s been a few years now and if I am brutally honest, I too have gone back to many of the old ways without really being aware. Sometimes we have patterns of behaviour that we go back into slowly without even realising. No need to beat myself up about it… but great to have the awareness!

130. It is so easy to get carried away by the ‘what if’s’ in life, creating all sorts of stress, anxiety and drama that has absolutely no need to be there. A beautiful example RB of what happens when we accept and surrender, coming back to the body and it’s inherent wisdom, there is such richness on offer when we do.

     1. The ‘what if’s and the trying to control things really are a struggle, yet when I let go and surrender, things happen that I hadn’t planned or imagined and I am very grateful. This is not just with my body but with life in general.

        1. Yes agreed RB, letting go of our grip on and control of life has enormous benefits for everyone. We allow a flow to occur when we do this, a flow that comes from a source of energy that is harmonious not just with our own bodies, but with every other body too.

131. The “what ifs” will always take us down a dangerous path. The only way to avoid going into our heads and creating a story is to stay connected with our bodies.

132. The truth is our body knows it all, it holds a record of our every move, no one else knows that. Understanding and accepting this supports us to listen to and seek the absolute truth.

133. RB, you pose some great questions here worth taking the time to ponder. Why don’t we realise that our being is enough? Why do we feel guilty to stop? etc. What I can say is that when I do live in the appreciation of my true beingness, life feels very different. Ok, beingness doesn’t receive the recognition of others in this world, but seeking recognition can be an endless trap that doesn’t truly fulfil. Our true being is already fulfilled and brings that fullness to what we do. To me this is a vital part of living more truly as we are, rather than constantly seeking ourselves in a world that to be frank, doesn’t have the answers.

134. It seems that sometimes we need events like this to get us to listen and to see how we are living – and to make different choices. Interesting that the doctor should say ‘go back to living life’ as you were before. Perhaps one day, with greater wisdom our medical professionals will say, ‘use this as an opportunity to reflect on how you can make more self-loving choices in life’ – or something of that ilk.

135. I have had a similar experience of late, my mind took me to places that I had’t been for many years. The one way that has lead me back to me, is through feeling my body and confirming what it knows as true.

136. If we are at the point that the body is showing symptoms then the body is obviously already trying to get our attention, if we but listen we will know what to do…so why is it we often choose the complication and drama….is it easier to give our power away to knowledge and others, rather than trust that we have deep knowing and love within that is more than willing to communicate with us.

137. Gosh, googling can be a dangerous thing. We run to it because we are brought up on knowledge always being the answer. Unfortunately it doesn’t ever give us the whole picture. Having an understanding of who we are and why we make the choices we make is key to the healing of any disease or ailment we have.

138. What a great lesson RB. It takes enormous strength to exercise fragility. You learnt the hard way, as I’m feeling very confident, we all do. But what matters is that it’s never too late make those loving choices.

139. What a great learning for you RB to realise that by going into the mind to get the answers for your illness was in fact not getting you anywhere but causing more stress for the body. How often do we let our fears take us to the more extremes of illness, by imagining we have cancer or something equally as serious – never is it a thought of allowing and surrendering to what the body has to tell us and heal from.

140. Is the internet a blessing or a curse when it comes to investigating various illnesses we are told we have? We get graphic photos and the complete list of all the bad things possible that with happen as the ailment progresses which is just fuel for the worries in our mind. How much stress do we cause our bodies? The long-term stress can manifest a whole raft of real problems. When we stop listening to our body and are told that there is a chance we have ‘X,’ our mind becomes a packed movie theatre where someone shouts ‘Fire’, if we don’t stop and feel what the body needs.

141. “This experience has been the beginning of a great healing for me”. How beautiful that you have come to this realisation and awareness RB and how wonderful that you could still the chatter in your head to feel the healing in your body.

142. “I treated myself like a cute child” what a beautiful antidote to the fear and mental projection you describe RB. We all deserve the warmth and tender care you would show a son or daughter no matter what age we are.

143. Right from the start… In kindergarten, and earlier we need to bring the true respect and love for our bodies that is essential for the well-being of society, but of course to do this everything must be respected, cared for and loved… Everything and everyone.

144. The internet can be great, and a good resource at times, but is important that we don’t get sucked into it, or led astray to pages that do not speak the truth.

145. Strangely, it seems that our minds love this rollercoaster feeling… Bizarrely to the point where it will actually create scenarios for us to experience this… our children are not safe, my job is not secure, all these people hate me, I left the iron on, whatever it is, it seems that unless we do connect to that which is still within us, then we can be literally run by this part of us that seems to literally lose connection with truth and reality and wants to lurch around in this strange world of its own making.

     1. Yes, so true a strange world of its own making! It is amazing what our minds can make up.

146. A great lesson for you RB and a great lesson for all of us. Thank you so much or sharing.

147. I know that too RB, going into the fear of having a disease with a certain outcome and trying to find a way out through reading and researching on the internet, actually finding that what is presented to me is just to consider to stop with what I am living and to connect with what is living within instead, the connection with my soul through my inner heart. I have also experienced this as a way to go, and together with my GP to let it unfold and to show its meaning for me to be. And as you say it it is mainly about surrendering to what my body is telling me and to not fight it but to become honest with it and for this time to choose to allow my body to be my guide in life instead.

148. How the mind does travel! It seems that we tend to jump to worst case scenario where Health is concerned RB, I know because it is what I have done on a few occasions. The way you suggest to deal with a wandering mind is to counter it by reading something as healing as Serge Benhayon’s Books and allowing ourselves to be in our bodies again, feeling the Love that we are.

     1. Great to bring it back to a practical level Roslyn. It reminds me of when I lost one of my best friends not too long ago I found that listening to Serge Benhayon’s meditations and reading his books greatly supported me in staying in my body instead of losing myself in grief and painful thoughts. I was even able to stay in touch with myself all through the funeral, whereas in the past I would feel totally overtaken by grief and would not be present at all.

149. RB your question “Why do we feel guilty when we stop?” is such a powerful question that a lot of people would be asking. To go from the “doing” to the “being” comes with a lot of letting go – removing the worthiness and replacing it with the values.

150. It really is profoundly startling how our minds can catapult us into extremely intense scenarios… and literally in the blink of an eye, and how our whole body suffers as a result of this purely manufactured un real ‘reality’.

     1. Yes and what is interesting is it can happen to anyone, no matter how “intelligent” you are.

     2. As you so accurately pointed out cjames2012 our body suffers in a big way from living in a fake reality. Once we experience what it is like to stay present and feel our body as much as we can, we start to get a feel of our true potential. We still get catapulted by our minds but we can then consciously choose to return to where we would rather be.

151. My mind can easily dominate in just the ways you have described RB. I have lived most of my life feeling that if I stopped the ‘doing’ I was being lazy and certainly didn’t have any concept to just ‘Being’, let alone a feeling that Being was enough and was the first and foremost way of living. Your blog has given me a timely reminder to check in with myself more over the course of my day today and see just how the balance is going between listening to my body or if I am allowing my mind to run amok. Thank you!

152. There are so many points in your sharing, I can relate to like “All this thinking was in fact a distraction from just feeling what my body was signalling to me. ” I was very good at it, by checking out I overrode everything what my body was telling me. Since I attend workshops from Universal Medicine, I deepen my relationship to my body more and more and that feels awesome.

153. It is so important Roslyn that we honour and listen to what feels right for us, rather than just do what others have done. Our body knows what it needs, and we are the only one who can reallly listen to it.

154. It can be a very scary roller coaster ride as you say RB, when given a diagnosis that is not totally confirmed. I have a condition that sent me into a spin, but after the initial scare and fear I decided that I needed to know just enough to understand the disease but not go looking at the worst case scenario. The Specialist was of the same mind, people thought I should join as support group etc., but I didn’t feel that was necessary, as my condition is not at that point of needing support yet. If in future I need to then I will be ready to do so, in the meantime I intend to look after and support myself in the best way possible, with the help of wonderful Universal Medicine Practitioners.

155. Our bodies do what they need to in order to offer us a stop and bring an assessment of where we are and how we are living. And if this is heeded and understood then our relationship with our body can develop so that we can begin to address small symptoms of disregard or disharmony instead of having them build up to large ones. The possible extension of this is evolving levels of wellbeing where even a slightly ‘down’ day without any actual illness becomes something to address until a point where joy is the standard, consistent quality of life. Thank you Universal Medicine for offering this greatly expansive viewpoint of medicine.

     1. Very good point, a down day can be as simple as noticing that I am over eating and then stopping to figure out why… what don’t I want to feel? For me, I have used over eating as a way to feel numb and heavy but the more I become aware of that, the more I use it as a warning sign to stop and ask myself “what is going on?”

     2. Yes I agree Simon – it would be great to recognise the smallest of changes in our behaviour thus avoiding having to deal with the bigger stuff. Thank goodness Universal Medicine has brought this awareness that how we live impacts on our health.

     3. Yes thank you Universal Medicine for offering this amazing knowledge which is already supporting so many people including myself. And I like to quote ‘..even a slightly ‘down’ day without any actual illness becomes something to address until a point where joy is the standard, consistent quality of life.’

156. Thank you for sharing what you learnt on your roller coaster ride(s) Rosie. “To just let the doctors do their best, and for me to take responsibility for my part, which is to surrender, listen and allow” is a very powerful message.

     1. I like how you put a s to make it plural for the roller coaster rides! Yes, I am still learning and still find myself on another ride at times until I stop and get off AGAIN!

157. The mind can lead us down some very dark alleyways if we let it. How ironic is it that these out of control thoughts can be brought to a stop by coming back to our body – feeling our feet on the ground, the movement of an arm, the way we are holding our shoulders etc. Imagine, if when we were little we had someone say to us ‘get back into your body’ when we got scared or worried.

     1. The irony is that the mind tells us that it is impossible that something so simple can be the answer to all of our problems. But it is and it can be.

     2. Ah, such a great point Vicky… it can be easy to totally get ahead of ourselves and to let our thoughts go into over-drive, fear, reaction, anxiety etc. when we lose that connection to our body, however as you express, we also have the ability and choice to just as easily stop these out of control thoughts by simply bringing our awareness back to our body.

        1. Complication versus simplicity. Why is it that we so often get caught in the complication? It is a choice after all.

158. You make it absolutely clear RB, when we seek control its a sign that we are being controlled. Beautiful to read how your soul gave you this experience to understand and heal this issue, and see how this drama, concern and worry isn’t true.

     1. Indeed Joseph, there is not an ounce of truth in the drama and concerns created by our minds. The truth instead is in our inner heart, in our connection with our soul. When we receive these kind of lessons through experiences in life, these are one of the many blessings that our soul is providing to us continuously for reminding that we are from soul and not our minds.

159. A great learning indeed RB, thank you for sharing your amazing story and your wisdom.
     Thank you also for highlighting how important it is to listen to our bodies, bodies that have an inner wisdom for us to tap into.

160. ’I may not have listened to my body in the past, I may have treated it with disrespect, but I can change that now. It’s up to me’. We are never too old to learn, nor are we ever too old to start treating our bodies with the respect and dignity it deserves and to heal our past choices.

161. There’s a great opportunity each time we catch an emotion or a reaction to know that actually things are as you say RB: “I was so sad and scared the other evening and then I had a moment of realization. I felt for a moment that I was a puppet being played and I was not actually in control.” The realisation offers the space to actually chose to disembark the roller coaster. What a very different way to actually take ‘control’.

162. Thank you RB for such honest sharing re your medical diagnosis and your response to it- isn’t it crazy how the mind can allow us to go into ‘control mode’, to then increase our fear and sense of helplessness and despair. Only by stopping, surrendering to what our body is trying to say to us, and acting on this do we start healing from within.

163. It is hard at times not to let the mind take you on the most outrageous roller coaster rides. It’s like the quote from Mark Twain, “I had a lot of worries in my life most of which never happened”.

     1. Yes and staying in the mind, and getting lead astray with all the thoughts and pictures popping in really is so distracting and keeps us from feeling and being in the present and in our bodies.

164. How amazing is the body, if we just listen, it was great that you finely listened to what your body was saying RB . It is so easy to get caught up in the stories of what we think is happening so we can fix it, when the body already knows what is needed.

165. I so loved reading this RB. Walking us through your experience is so beautiful and supportive. Giving us great insight to what is really going on when we let our fears and our mind run the show. To absolutely honour that your body did what was needed to pull up your way of living is showing us all, that to live not honouring the body and providing what it needs to support it is why disease and illness manifests in our bodies.
     Thank you.

166. Our body has this amazing intelligence, is able to connect to a source of wisdom is so deep that we need no longer have that sense of helplessness of not knowing… The thing is we actually have to connect to our bodies and to really listen

167. I totally get how we can waste our energy on ‘what ifs’ and how much of a drain and distraction this can be. How different it felt RB when you instead chose to put that energy into awareness of your body and like you say doing your part in the healing.

168. What a story RB. On re-reading this blog I was drawn to your comment about how we are being a puppet when we allow ourselves to indulge in a mental feast of ‘what if’ scenarios with our health. The anxiety levels sky rocket and I start to go around in circles, adding further stress on my health. Just ‘being’ is a very timely message for me at this present time. Thank you.

169. And that… just confirms how undeniably exquisite we are.

170. I love how our bodies are our best friend. They lovingly tell us off or call us to a stop to be accountable for our choices. They are there as a constant, never leaving our side and in fact always encouraging us to love them deeply, They speak a subtle energetic language, always chatting to us and every now and then they will shout loudly just in case you have been dismissing their dedication to you. They put up with our rude and often reckless behaviours towards them but never ever will they love us less.

     1. Yes and even when have abused them over and over (our bodies) they are still able to have a complete turn around as soon as we want to reconnect to them and care for them.

        1. So true Rosie,
           The moment we reconnect our bodies make huge changes, sometimes in a matter of moments.

171. “I decide to just be still, to not keep doing what stresses me out and does not actually make me feel good.” it is this moment, this choice to halt a destructive pattern and turn to that which we know will support us to be. The power in this one turn, inspires another and hence begins our journey back to love.

172. I loved your aha moment and your decision to take responsibility for the part you could control in letting your body be by just surrendering, listening and allowing… Simple and profound and clearly what your body was desiring for you to embrace so it could truly support you to heal. An amazing blessing for the way you walk now will never be the same.

173. Just beautiful RB. I love how you share ‘just how tricky the mind can be, if you let it take over and take control’. You are also correct in saying it can treat you like a puppet and get you totally caught up in the ‘what if’s’. What ifs that can vary the scenarios in our heads from simple and mundane distractions to scenarios that are crazy, irrational, totally catastrophic and fear based.

174. “I want to run and research, but before I do that, I decide to just be still, to not keep doing what stresses me out and does not actually make me feel good.” It’s truly astonishing how this one small choice can be so powerful and enriching. You have denied your spirit the food it wants to feed from, honoured your body in the stop it has called and allowed yourself the space and stillness to see what is truly at play.

175. What a great healing RB, to tame your mind and listen to your body and simply go deeper is true medicine. And what a blessing for the doctors you encountered too – taking responsibility for the way you were living and how you approached your medical appointment/treatments is inspiring.

176. I have really enjoyed reading this blog and the wisdom you have shared. Our minds can go crazy, telling us all kinds of things that are not true, but when we connect to that Still place within, and take one step at a time, as you did, we can allow life to open out from there, without us trying to control everything.

     1. This is so beautiful Shevon,
        “when we connect to that Still place within, and take one step at a time, as you did, we can allow life to open out from there. And open it does, in ways that I never imagined. How much do we actually miss in our lives when we are trying to control everything? From my experience, a lot.

        1. Leigh, that is a great question and one we should often stop and reconsider. How much do we actually miss in our lives when we are trying to control everything?
           In control there is no flow or allowing and it creates tension in us and tension in another as they are expected to be a certain way. There seems to be no room for understanding or allowing or just accepting that we are not perfect. So much pressure in all of that.

        2. Dear RB,
           There is a lot of tension in wanting and needing to control. Each day I am being shown just how much a waste of energy this tension is. The more I discover this, the easier it is to let go of and live, accepting my life and fully owning the choices I make.

177. On re-reading your blog today RB, this sentence really stood out – bringing a deeper understanding of just how powerful the mind is, to simply remove us from ourselves and the connection to the body and what it is truly asking of us. How much vital energy is squandered away by investing in and dwelling in (indulging?) these thoughts of the future (or past).
     “I then research this, join Facebook pages and really investigate it. I get so into it, that I become it. I am no longer me. I have suddenly allowed myself to be NMO. I am planning what will happen with my 10 year old daughter when I am in a wheel chair and who will take care of her when I die”.

     1. What a reminder Stephanie, I have not re read my blog in a long time and just read your comment. It is now well over a year since this incident and I had to laugh as in that moment I was totally and uterly consumed by NMO and thinking that was it. And today, its just a small memory, a mark in an old calender. Just another moment.
        We really do have to be aware of the mind and not let it take us away from our connection to our body.

178. There is much in your blog I want to comment on! The importance of not making the mind the one in control; the importance of working with doctors and what science can offer, but knowing they do not have all the answers and should (most do) welcome input from the patient; Why indeed is our value placed on what we do? Why is it that doing gets kudos and being gets coined lazy or selfish?
     Above all, I loved how you decided, even when your initial instinct was to go into research again when receiving the second diagnosis of your condition being other than NMO, to sit and read one of Serge Benhayon’s purple books and feel if your body has something to say. The choice to not go into doing but rather be with yourself and listen was priceless. So much conflict and drama in the world can be alleviated if we all chose to do this too.

179. ‘Just stay here with your body’ – that is something that I will take with me today as I go off to the hospital! I allowed my head to take me on a roller coaster yesterday anticipating and while I know this is not supporting me it tends to be what I have done. Like you, RB I am slowly learning that driving myself to extremes does not offer me a full life – just many ticks on all the endless lists of life. By staying with myself I can build a true relationship with me and appreciate the present moment.

     1. Staying with you is the only place to be… why would you want to go anywhere else! And what I always think of is the amount of energy we waste or invest in not just being ourselves.

        1. I can feel this is true Rosie, but I am pondering on why it is so difficult to stay with myself, in my body, while I do have the experience that all the answers in life are there. And the waste of energy when we invest in not being ourselves is exhausting us, because finally we are not able to keep up with the demands that come from outside us. It is the investment I have in life as we currently live in our societies that withhold me from staying with myself, in my body, as the answers I got from my body do not support this investment in life, but instead ask for an way of being that is impulsed from my inner-heart.

180. Thank you Nicola, we really have to not give our power away to anyone. I agree, to take the advice from the medical world but not put ourselves as less than them, or to not trust what we know from our own body.

181. What you share here is absolutely GOLD and full of amazing revelations. It is worthy of being read several times as there is such value here. On the subject of how you became aware of being played and taken over with the diagnosis of your condition (which anyway later turned out to be something quite different) I also had a very similar experience recently. Just for a moment someone read a test result I had, and told me statistically I was x% worse off than everyone else in the population and this terrible thing could happen to me. For a split second I could feel that label and those numbers trying to take ownership of me and a giving up energy descending – but then I saw what was going on and reclaimed myself and said this is complete rubbish. Actually I am super healthy, this is just a warning for me to take care of certain things and also a clearing of some past behaviours. The point being exactly as you have said – I am fully in favour of taking the advice of the medical profession, doing whatever is need to sensibly and lovingly support my body – but then it comes back to me being responsible for my part and truly listening to and connecting to what my body is telling me. Thank you, your experience is not only a great healing for you but shares that opportunity and healing for many others.

182. The incredible relationship that we can have with our bodies! This is testament to how much support the body can give when we truly need to change something within our lives, like a ‘stop’ moment. Some people would not be open to seeing just how healing a dis-ease like this would be, but living in a dis-eased state will always lead to illness and dis-ease in the body. Our bodies though have a natural correction system as they want to be harmonious! It’s just our choices that make us totally reckless or super caring and self loving!

183. An amazing realisation, RB – your sharing has helped me to recognise my own pattern of going into “need to know, need to control” which has been preventing me from feeling and accepting what is going on in full.

     1. Great, I am glad that you were able to see your own patterns from what I shared.

184. The ‘control beast’ is very common and leads us completely astray as we become so vigilant in trying to make life fit our expectations and desires. Of course this never works and, similar to you RB, I have been learning to get off the roller coaster rides and am learning to appreciate all that my body has to offer me in terms of connection, joy and healing. There is no comparison.

185. It felt healing to read your blog RB that confirms my own experience. I have been living in a great state of anxiety and nervousness due to what felt like an overwhelming need to control – and finding that the control was not offering me the illusion that I was seeking. Now that I have been forced to stop and see how I was living life in a way that was in a constant search for perfection, which in itself is a delusion! Being with myself is a new and beautiful experience – and these moments are ones that I am beginning to treasure and fully enjoy.

186. The mind can really make you run fast away from the body and enter into panic zone, a state that makes it really difficult to feel what is there to be felt, to heal.

     1. Yes our mind certainly has a wily way of conjuring up all sorts of dramas, pictures and stories that have nothing to do with the simple reality of being with the physical presence of our body and ourselves.

        1. I love that Marcia ‘the simple reality of being with the physical presence of our body and ourselves.” It is this simplicity that I can feel is true and is what is there to always come back to no matter where we have gone.

187. Thank you RB for sharing your story. With a rather extensive medical history myself, what highlights in your blog for me is what I have come to understand ever so slowly, and that is that no matter what my body is going through, no matter what lessons it is offering me to learn and what it is releasing; I am always still ok. My essence, my love, my grace, it is always there untouched and there to be expressed.

     1. Yes so true Carolien, we are more than just our physical bodies!

     2. Beautifully said Carolien, “My essence, my love, my grace, it is always there untouched and there to be expressed.”

188. This article shows what a very wise physician is our own body. It knows when we have to stop and we just have to learn to listen. The question that resonates loud and clear with me is “Why do we feel guilty to stop?” Perhaps it is because we do not have sufficient self-love to treat ourselves with true tenderness.

     1. Yes true Mary, and the stopping is something that I have been practising more and more of late and even if it is just for 5 minutes, the effects are amazing.

189. Thank you RB, I like how you say you couldn’t go back living your life as you had done before and took this as a learning to stop and see what needed to be changed to truly heal.

     1. Thank you Esther, it is now over a year later, and my life has changed beyond what I imagined possible. It is fantastic.

190. This is a beautiful reminder of the healing we are offered when we stop, listen to our bodies and honour what we feel is true.

191. What a lesson in being versus doing. Stopping in our tracks and taking time to feel rather than to think can inspire others, and perhaps the world will then move at a gentler pace.

192. This is an amazing lesson in staying present! I particularly loved the list of questions of why we don’t think being is enough. We are sold the doing as ‘it’ from walking age pretty much, sitting there is no longer enough – you have to move! Crazy! So amazing to be walking back to being ok and actually feel amazing for being still, and feeling my body!

193. A wonderful and revealing example of how we can just ‘run’ with things until they ‘run’ us. Societies are based on this sort of collective dysfunction that is now running viral and rampant through media and the internet. We do need to simply stop, and be.

     1. Thanks cjames2012, what I just thought of from reading your comment is how much of an impact that has on society and on all of us. How many people are being “run” just like I was in this instance, and how many have no idea, just like I did. Makes me even more thankful for what Serge Benhayon has written, presented and shared with the world. And with each of us becoming more aware and simply stopping, we one by one make a difference and inspire others to stop.

194. Whow thank you for sharing RB, awesome confirmation of the benefits when we choose to communicate with our bodies and also when we choose to ignore and listen when our bodies are screaming at us.

195. Beautiful honest sharing RB, which is very revealing that we are not what we think.
     That energy is constantly being fed to us- clearly shown by your different scenarios in how you approached the medical diagnosis. From reaction/emotions, and coming from your head- resulting in more apprehension, anxiousness, or from your body in stillness- resulting in true wisdom leading you to recognise that the way you were living was not healing but harming, for you and others. Great lesson for all to learn from.

     1. There are quite a few events in our life where their meaning is transformed when we see them as a learning opportunity we have presented to ourselves. This is especially true for medical scares where, for a while, we are told it could be something very serious but then there is relief. Could it be like a warning that choices have consequences?

196. Beautiful what you share here RB, the love we have for our bodies is so important, and trust what it shares with us in the form of disease. Often we don’t want to stop and feel, and go on this roller coaster to get distracted from what is there to feel.

197. “I can either make this next part of my life one that is full of drama and fear, or I can enjoy each moment,” How simple. And coming back to tune into the body, feeling all that I can, I am able to focus and breathing gently bring the spaciousness back that I have lost through the trickiness of the mind.

198. Thanks for your comment Marion, recognition and a need to be needed has been massive for me, even though I never wanted to admit that.

199. Yes! “Why do we feel guilty to stop”? Is it because we do not like letting go of ‘control’ or to get recognition for our achievements? A need to be needed? To be seen to be doing? so many scenarios – For me when in the doing of one job the next was being planned way ahead of schedule( multi-tasking) – no wonder our bodies get to a point of showing us those old patterns/habits have to stop. This beautiful sharing highlights clearly how the mind still wants to chip in and continue those old thought processes even when the body has registered all is not well. Thank you RB sharing your journey with us all, it is so inspiring and clearly shows that we can make a difference by truly listening to our amazing bodies and not getting caught up in the ‘what if’s’ of life.

200. RB, your story is a great reminder to me that the body does have a limit and will let us know very loudly if we override its messages. It’s inspiring the way you realised you were getting caught up in the ‘what ifs’ and re-calibrated yourself so that future decisions were made with a very different quality of energy. Thank you.

201. Even when we are sick and brought to quite a stop, it is amazing to see how the mind can continue in a very driven way. Even if the body isn’t moving, the nervous system can be kept completely stimulated. Fortunately the body is much more honest as it has to suffer the consequences of a mind that can run at the expense of the body.

     1. Yes, my nervous system was running a super marathon even though I was unable to move.

     2. Very true Vicky. My nervous system was very active in the last years, I know what you are talking about. And the fact, how easily the mind can take over and the body has to suffer the consequences. Even today I’m still struggling to live a surrendered life, but I’m getting better and better.

202. HI RB, thank you so much for sharing your experience – sharing your “great learning” provides allows everyone else to apply that learning to their own lives. I have also experienced putting myself “…on a number of roller coaster rides that were unnecessary had I just stayed with my body and the present moment…” – it’s incredible the state you can put yourself into when you give inordinate power to your thoughts. The reminder to “just stay here with your body” is the perfect antidote – it really can be that simple!

203. Thank you for sharing RB. So amazing how the body has to make us stop and how lovely it must feel when the person actually listens this time and does start to tune in more and treat it much more lovingly – congratulations and enjoy the moments that unfold.

204. RB it is great that you made a loving change in your life in listening to the wisdom of your body, thank you for sharing.

205. There is so much to learn from in this article. I so enjoyed reading it. It really shows the wisdom that is there in the body. RB’s body told her to slow down whereas her mind was telling her to speed up. It seems like her mind was setting her up to continue to be in overdrive whilst her body just wanted to support her. Very interesting.

     1. Yes it is interesting – a clear ‘conflict’ of mind and body which I know happens to me. But the more I honour my body, the more I can support myself.

     2. Yes, and the learning was profound. It may be easier to listen to our body when things are going well but to be able to do it when panic would be much more natural is quite an achievement.

        1. Thank you everyone, it is with the support and what I have learnt from Universal Medicine that I was able to come back to my body, rather than get carried away with the crazyness in my mind.

206. This is a beautiful sharing RB of a glorious unfoldment back to you. Thank you.

207. Great blog, thank you RB. I could so relate to what you have shared – that scary roller coaster ride can kick off so quickly and easily if we let it. I love the way your story unfolds and the healing that it offers..

208. One of my favourite blogs, thanks RB. I can identify completely with the wild and controlled mind taking me further away from the body’s signals about what’s underlying the illness, to identify completely with the drama of it all. The body can be presenting something as an opportunity to go deeper and into true healing and the mind can work to take me away even further from the body. It’s great to trust and rely on the medical world but at some point I have to trust and rely on what I truly feel alongside that medical care. Lots of great insights from your blog, thanks.

209. Reading your story a second time around RB is even more powerful. It is possible to overcome the distressing thoughts that the mind pushes forward and instead embrace our body and care for it as for a new born, with wonderful results.

210. This is a very inspiring article RB and a testament to your inner strength to move through the boundaries that you realised your mind had made for you. Once we surrender into our bodies and listen to its innate wisdom we can trust the flow of life again and say no to the distracting thoughts from our mind.

211. Great sharing of your hospital experience RB. It is so easy to let our minds run wild and lead us astray making us feel overwhelmed with fear from “what if’s”.
     And all along the truth is deep within our hearts and body if we are only willing to stop, gently breathe, connect, and listen.

212. What a fantastic description of the difficulty we can all face when confronted with a medical diagnosis, and what a wonderfully real way of dealing with regaining your steadiness and finding a way to support yourself through the process. The cracker line in this blog is how you had learned so much that you knew you would not go back to life the way it was.

213. I recently had a similar experience, and relate to what you share RB. Reading your words I felt that this ‘understanding’ we go off hunting for is based on the truth that we know there is a bigger picture to what is happening in our life. But this pursuit of the fine details has started to feel like a wild goose chase to me. It seems like a distraction from a reality I don’t want to face. What if we actually know exactly what these illnesses and events mean? For in my experience the truth we seek is right underneath our nose the whole time, living in our heart.

     1. And what I just felt was, I often feel this and know this… but then I doubt myself and go off on the wild goose chase!

214. Its crazy what the mind can do when you let it run and have control – you really can blow a situation out of control by not choosing to stay with yourself and connection to your soul.

215. This such a powerful story and lesson about how our bodies do present us with what is going on for us in our lives and the choices we make – yet when we connect and take responsibility and feel how to change, we open up to an enormous amount of love. It may be that an illness is advanced too far to recover, or it may be as in this case, a total turn around of a diagnosis. Either way, quite amazing what the outcome can be when we surrender to that love.

216. What a great healing indeed! Our body is the true marker and embracing our illnesses and diseases allows us to enfold and reconnect iwith the beauty-full person we all are deep down.

217. RB your blog is really powerful. The lines, ‘This time I decided not to go into fear, not to go into the story and drama of it all, but to just let my body be. To just let the doctors do their best, and for me to take responsibility for my part, which is to surrender, listen and allow, ‘ are really standing out for me today.

     I feel the surrendering in myself as I read what you have written here. I feel that actually I can apply this to my life where a lot of change and unfamiliarity is happening and I am wanting to control it all rather than let new relationships develop, to let work unfold naturally and the next steps to reveal themselves – rather than go into overdrive or overwhelm.

218. I often find that my thoughts tend to go to the ‘worst case’ scenario and the ‘what ifs’ which are totally unfounded. Dealing with things as they arise is far less stressful than thinking them up!

219. Thank you, RB, for opening up this topic. I am sure most of us experienced something similar in our lives. For me it was couple of years ago when after a mammogram, I’ve been asked to take an additional screening test. For the few days in between I was getting crazy – I couldn’t sleep, I was constantly thinking about my children, how they are going to be, what are they going to do with my things, shall I throw away everything now to ease their life after my death etc.etc. My mind was kind of paralysed.
     I needed to make a conscious choice to stop those thoughts, to feel what’s happening in my body (I knew that there is nothing wrong with my breasts) and do it again and again before the day of the test. When I was told that everything is fine I felt a relief. At the same time during those days I learned that I am in charge of my choices, it is utterly up to me, what I allow in my body and in my brain.

     1. Yes Elana, for many, if the mind is allowed free reign, even the perceived threat of a serious illness can have the mind off on a tangent conjuring up the worst case scenario. As you say,’ I learned that I am in charge of my choices, it is utterly up to me, what I allow in my body and in my brain’. It is interesting that it sometimes takes the possibility of an illness before we learn these simple lessons, which apply in each and very moment of our lives. If we do not learn the lessons then the soul has a way of bringing them to our attention until we listen, take notice and apply the lesson.

220. Hi RB I often find myself slipping into my head, especially when something is happening that takes me out of my comfort zone, but going into my head never helps. Just like your blog showed us, it runs away with stories and exaggerations and to come back to the body and feel is so much simpler, that I wonder why I ever go into my head!

221. It really is extraordinary how much energy is consumed by holding onto fear, tension, stress; how the rigidity in the body takes its toll, and much energy it takes to hold the mask on our face that we think is protecting us, but that just keeps ourselves separate.This is a great story exposing, recognizing, and releasing the control that is generated by fear, and finding a place of stillness recognition and strength within

     1. ah yes cjames2012, that mask on the face, that attempt of creating an illusion that everything is fine and I am great when underneath you are living and feeling quite the opposite. And oh the amount of energy I have wasted in that trying to be what I am not!!

222. RB awesome blog and I too can relate to being in my head and the control thing. When I surrender to my body and listen to what it has to offer my life becomes so simple.

223. A beautiful testament to what simplicity comes from being present with our bodies in each moment of our day. It becomes a merry-go-round of never ending complexity compiling again and again till one day something has to tell us STOP, and see it again for what it truly is. No wonder why our bodies communicate to us in this way, it is actually an amazing offering of a true healing.

224. I have always lived in my head not knowing what problems this was causing me until I realised I had a body that wanted some attention too. My awareness now is learning to listen to what my body is telling me and not go into my head first. When I get this right it feels amazing, I’m looking forward to bringing this more consistently into my life.

225. Thank you RB, the take home message for me here is even while your mind has you in the spin and you recognize you are not thinking clearly you can still bring yourself back. Focus on the breath, the little things, and the things that are real right at the moment. You come back look at the spin from a distance and say that was a load of rubbish, it does not belong in my head.

226. RB, thank you for this wonderful blog. It struck me what you were saying about getting so caught in researching and trying to know everything about the possible illness and trying to ‘control everything that is happening, instead of simply connecting to what our bodies are communicating to us. I’ve also been tempted and taken on the temptation many a times to look up what’s wrong, get worse case scenarios etc, and when I do that I feel so much worse afterwards. Whereas taking the opportunity if and when illness arises to truly listen to why our bodies have brought us to a stop is so precious, and what we can learn during the times of illness can be truly priceless.

227. “I felt for a moment that I was a puppet being played and I was not actually in control”, this is so huge RB especially for people who like to control or perfect things. The statement is so applicable to absolutely anything in our daily lives and just shows the controlling outside force of something else at play that is not naturally us. But when we’re honest to see and admit as you did, and how we are being owned by this force we can transform our lives, health and wellbeing. Inspiring story about – connection to the body, the communicator of Truth.

     1. Thank you Zofia for highlighting this line. It helped me feel how completely out of control we are when we try to control. So different to the freedom and ease of being that comes from being with our body.

228. Something I realized after reading this blog is how our minds start running with thoughts and trying to control what happens when it can’t run its regular show of daily life, always running and doing to be good enough.. Very interesting.

     1. So true Benkt. If we have any openings, even the smallest one, our mind will use the crack to slip in and try to run its show by controlling the thoughts we then have. This is particularly the case when we are faced with the diagnosis of life-threatening illness and disease. Yet, as this blog so clearly explains, we always have a choice in every moment to listen to what our bodies are saying. . .the body speaks loudly when we stop to listen.

229. This is such a powerful story for everyone.

     RB, have you ever thought of sharing your story and what you have learnt as an update and a thank you to all the doctors and nurses who looked after you?

     It is such a powerful story.

     Thank you for sharing.

     1. Thanks for prompting me rebeccapoole, it is now a year later… and I have another story… I will have to write the update now that you have asked.

230. While I haven’t had this experience with a diagnosis of any sort, I can still relate to the way our mind can go on a roller-coaster ride of pure torment if we don’t put a stop to it and get back in our body.

231. Interesting how we can drive ourselves crazy by believing all that is said, whether by doctors or on the internet. The biggest and truest authority is our body.

232. I remember getting my first diagnosis of something permanent (wheat allergy when I was 30). This feeling I wasn’t immortal anymore and things could happen that wouldn’t go away. I was not aware of Serge Benhayon at the time but this intimation of mortality was quite profound at the time.

     1. Yes, it does make you stop and appreciate and re evaluate.

233. The body is a great reflector for how we are living. If we stop and feel what is going on then there is the opportunity to make changes with how we care for ourselves. Loved what you said RB about staying with the body and the present moment. We would have all the answers if this was the way.

234. The mind has only as much power as we choose to give it and in the moments when we are not connected to ourselves – the mind has a lot of power. I loved the comment – ‘This time I decided not to go into fear, not to go into the story and drama of it all, but to just let my body be’ and the true healing commenced. Thanks RB for this insightful sharing.

235. The mind can take you on some interesting rides RB for sure. I loved your sharing in your unfolding of your journey on how the mind can really get you to focus on misery and what ifs vs how just stopping to feel your body, surrender, listen and allow leaves you feeling just you and nothing else! I’ve gone down the path of mind leading my way, and am learning each day on a deeper level to listen to my body and heart and live life from there. Thank you for you detailed journey and return back to you.

236. Thank you RB, your honesty jumps off the page, and rings so true. I can completely relate and what a healing it is to read your blog post – a moment to also stop and re-evaluate, not needing an accident, ailment or illness to make me stop…and really taking the time to understand what you have gone through, and how you have learned from it and changed your ways.

237. This is a beautiful example of what is possible if we allow ourselves to truly reconnect to our bodies and feel what the body needs. All we need to do (as you did) is “..surrender, listen and allow..”

238. Your inner strength is awesome. The way you have turned a very difficult situation around is a great example. Listening and learning what the body has to tell us and not overriding it anymore.

239. This is very true Ariana.

240. This is a miraculous story. Thank you for sharing your experience. We all seem to have these dramas that we play out on our mind. And if we can just realise them for what they are, we are much better off. Great and simple psychology!

241. I can really relate to what you have said about the mind. How much energy do we waste on thinking about stuff that never actually happens.

     1. Agree Kev, I have spent an extraordinary amount of time over the years wasting energy on, a). thinking about future scenario’s (and all the permutations that could arise but which never did in real life) and equally, b). in looking backwards with ‘would’ve’, ‘could’ve’ and ‘should’ve’ as constant (very picky) companions. It is far less exhausting staying present with and appreciating whatever we are doing and being right now.

     2. Oh my gosh Kev you are spot on. Our minds can take us down a never ending warren of questions and drama that will never actually happen. But we all have the power to stop the mind taking hold and embrace the wisdom from within our own bodies.

242. RB, what you have highlighted here is the challenge that humanity face. The game between the head and the heart is constant, especially when we begin the choose heart over the head and make conscious presence the game changer. We have allowed ourselves to be dominated by the head to a point that it seems it is normal and at the expense of the body.

     1. Absolutely Matthew. The mind can be a very dangerous place if we let it run wild – meanwhile the body gets dragged through battered and beaten along the way. Keeping our mind with what we are doing (conscious presence) is the game changer.

     2. Matthew you’ve hit the nail on the head with the fact that we think being in our mind is normal. I know I certainly did and before developing my connection with the gentle breath meditation as presented by Universal Medicine. Now the difference is marked and what I consider is normal is the opposite of what I thought before.

        1. Very true Matthew, Vicky and David.
           If we let the body be the one that leads, we would be living a much healthier, vibrant lifestyle. The results are obvious and all around us.
           The changes in me since I gave more respect and listened to my body instead of my mind are enormous.

243. It is all about surrendering to our body, to stop and listen what it tells us. What to eat, when to rest, when to come in action. I know the voices in my head, a very stubborn pattern to go on and on, even when my body is not coping. Choosing my body as a point of reflection the last 6 years has brought me so much more (love) then all the years I have lived in my head.

     1. Spot on Annelies. We really do know how to let our mind be in complete control and reaction of our body – but I know now it is about the 2 working together – and that requires us to first ‘be’ not ‘do’. A very deep blog that shows the extremes of this way of living, and the huge lesson that we can all learn from.

     2. I just read a great blog, that shares about our inner knowing and how we get influenced from the outside world. To me I could really relate because our inner knowing knows, but we often ignore that and go along with the outside world like a blind sheep.
        http://truthaboutsergebenhayon.com/2015/04/22/what-to-do-with-my-life-listening-to-my-inner-knowing/#more-4211

244. “The level of exhaustion that over time I had just gotten used to, was what was causing my body to react in such a serious way and I could not continue to exhaust it in any way or entertain any form of crazy thinking.” This blog shares so much, the quote above highlights an awareness of how getting used to be exhausted and living in exhaustion can be so detrimental on a persons health. Thank you for sharing, the ‘doing’ and the ‘what if’s’ can wear us down if we let them. I can feel this in myself, I have ‘wrestling’ with them for awhile and I now more regularly feel great in my own skin with out having to prove anything.

     1. Its interesting the whole proving something thing. Who do we need to prove ourselves to in the first place and why?

245. Thank you RB, I appreciate the lessons and learnings you have shared in your writing. I have commented on this blog before and I felt the need to read it again.
     What a ride our minds do take us on when we are not connected to our bodies, for me it’s like breaking a very old habit and pattern. Thanks to Serge Benhayon and the practitioners of Universal Medicine, I am learning and choosing to slowly connect and stay present with my body, and what a blessing that is.

     1. Me too Thomas, and old patterns can be so stubborn so they require my awareness and consistency to be able to break them.

246. RB there is such a tangible releasing back to self that is felt through reading your story. Such equisite simplicity in what you say. Go back to the wisdom of the body and don’t enter into the charade of the mind. I love it x

247. Thanks RB I was really inspired how you took responsibility for your health issue from such a still non dramatic place and entered in a relationship with a doctor equally engaged.

     1. Jenny, it was so dramatic at first, but that was when I was on the roller coaster ride and couldn’t get off. I was riding as the Drama queen!… but once I stopped, and chose not to let the mind run me… thats when things changed drastically.

248. I love your whole blog RB and these lines in particular stood out for me when I read it this time.
     “Why do we listen to those voices that are telling us we are lazy, when we know so well that we are far from lazy, and that to stop and rest is just a natural loving thing to do for the body?
     Why do we feel guilty to stop?”

     A while ago I had an injury which prevented me from going to work for a few days, I resisted stopping though, telling myself it was a great opportunity to carry on with some things around the house that I needed to catch up on. (Embarrassing to admit that!) So I attempted with only one useful arm. My injury got more painful, almost unbearably so, so that I was forced to stop. I was feeling like I was lazy and ‘unproductive’, and a bit anxious that I would ‘get behind’, it was pretty horrible. I had to lie down, nothing else worked to relieve the pain. It finally dawned on me that I needed to actually surrender to being stopped, surrender to what my body was telling me and just let myself ‘be’ with me and feel. When I finally did that I got to feel why the injury had happened. I felt my whole body respond to the realisation. I woke the next morning with an arm that felt entirely normal, pain free with the slightest tenderness in my shoulder and the ability to gently use my arm again. I had a cry feeling sad about how I had continued to push my body when it first happened with no regard for it whatsoever.
     That, and now this, great reminders to stop and rest and just be, before being forced to, resting is natural and a loving thing to do.

     1. Thank you Jeanette, it is interesting that we have those thoughts of we will get behind…. because in reality, we always end up right where we are meant to be, and it doesn’t really matter if certain things aren’t accomplished right there and then. For me it is a pattern of control and wanting things to be a certain way. Great when I don’t let that pattern rule my life!

        1. I agree RB, it is a pattern of control for me too and how wonderful to be noticing it and learning to not let it rule. A wise friend recently said that surrendering is the most needed and most loving thing we as human beings can do (in many ways) and also the most resisted. Crazy isn’t it.

     2. Hi Jeanette, I can relate to what you say although on a smaller timeframe. Often during the day I will feel tension in my neck or shoulders, or back and firstly ignore it, then ‘try’ and release it so that I can carry on with whatever ‘needs’ doing, and then get to a point where I surrender to it, stop what I’m doing, and allow myself to actually stop and listen to my body. Funny how it takes all those steps to actually get there. These can take minutes, hours, a day, and of course weeks…
        Thank you RB and Jeanette for exposing how the mind gets in the way of us naturally connecting with our bodies.

        1. I love what you have added here Paul. How amazing will our bodies feel when we listen sooner and allow ourselves to stop and surrender rather than push on? Come on mind, get in line with me not against me please!

        2. I can definitely relate to the ‘inconvenience’ of pain or injury – and wanting it to be sorted out so I can get on with things. This article has reminded me of the power in surrender and I intend to put it into practice wherever I can.

     3. Another great lesson for us all Jeanette, Thankyou for sharing.

249. Thank you RB for sharing your experience with us all. it is so very important we look into how we have been living and what causes us to have illness and aliments just as you have “I walked out feeling a sense of “there is no way I can go back to living life as I was before.”

250. Thanks for sharing RB, I can relate to what you share here in that I can let my mind run wild with ‘what if’s’, and get so anxious and wound up that it can make me feel so much worse than what’s actually going on. Whilst mine haven’t been about life threatening diseases, it is still something that takes me away from my body and how it is feeling – a great reminder to stay with ourselves no matter what!

     1. That is so true, the mind can take you on all kinds of roller coaster rides if you are not present in your body.

        1. That’s so true RB, in the past I have totally allowed my mind to roller coaster all over the place, any little ache or pain would escalate into “something more serious”. I would visit my GP only to be told there was nothing wrong with me and my “symptoms” would miraculously disappear. It was then that I realised the power of my mind and the hold it had over me. Now that I am choosing to be more present with my body, my mind knows its game is up.

251. Oh how our minds can take us off down tracks we really don’t need to go to rather than staying connected to our bodies and feeling the wisdom that is there showing us what is there to see. When diagnosed with Osteoporosis in my mid-forties, I initially went into my head about all the ‘what ifs’ and it created fear, anxiety and almost an obsession of how to ‘fix it’ but with no true clarity. The healing process began when I came back to my body and was able to regain my clarity, leading me to work with a specialist, a GP, a Naturopath and Esoteric Healing practitioners as part of an ongoing healing program. The wisdom of my body is far greater than the thoughts that whizz around in my mind.

252. Dear RB, what loving learning for you. How true that we go straight into the doing of the research instead of allowing the stillness and wisdom of our body to guide us.

253. Dear RB, thank you it is so true how our minds can just go for it. I recently had a total knee replacement operation which definitely had to happen. Of course I did the research.. and looked at statistics of post-operation risks, the percentages of this and that, possibilities of what could happen, and there was definitely the potential there for dis-empowering mental processes to run rabid. There was also amongst my friends a continual reference of going to the famous orthopaedic surgeon up the coast. This had the potential to introduced a feeling of “this is what we must do to have a successful outcome.”
     What we did however, was to follow our feelings, and have a consultation with a local surgeon recommended by a local doctor. We felt listened to, a sense of great equality and connection, and a lovely feeling of trust of being in the very best hands.
     The outcome of this was such a great experience that I have written a letter of thanks and commendation to the CEO of St Vincent’s Hospital Lismore, cc’ing to everyone who cared for me there, thanking them for their high level of treatment and care.
     Learning to trust that our body is indeed the marker of all truth, as taught by Serge Benhayon, is always liberating.

254. Hello RB, I enjoyed reading how you unfolded all of this. From the first diagnosis until the final appointment with your doctor. It is amazing what we can create in our mind with even the smallest bit of fact. I’m glad you took the time to stop and listen to your body because heaven knows we need more people like you in the world. Thank you.

255. I too found myself doing this mind search, trying to find out all about what I thought was wrong with me. Until, months after doing all of this, I decided I had had enough of all this constant searching. I stopped and decided to listen to my body and take better care of it and my health is so much better.

256. Just staying with your body and the present moment, that is the focus of my day today (and all days to come!).

     1. I agree Mariette – whenever I manage and when I manage it is amazing.

257. WOW what an amazing blog thank you for sharing this. I could really feel the depth of the changes you made and felt empowered by your ability to not get caught up in the drama with the second possible diagnosis. This is huge for us to know it is possible to make different choices even when there is a big issue right in front of us.

258. A beautiful tribute to the fact that the mind, in isolation from the rest of our bodies, is like a truant child, running around unchecked by the whole picture. Without a relationship and awareness of our bodies and the signs they share with us, we are at the mercy of our mental wanderings rather than the master of our choices.

259. Thank you for sharing RB, I bet there are lots of people who could learn from your experience. Let the body be and the scary rollercoaster becomes a cruise to understanding and healing.

     1. Bernie I know how easy the mind can take over and suddenly everything becomes a disaster. RB shows how much stress we put ourselves under worrying about things that are not even reality. That surely has to take a big toll on ones health.

260. ‘For me, it was a blessing that my body took the use of my legs away. It was the only way my body could get me to fully stop and re-evaluate how I was living’. That’s enormous, what you are sharing RB. That we override our bodies to such an extent, because we don’t want to stop and listen and feel that maybe the choices we are making, the lies we’ve been fed, are all leading us up the wrong path.

261. This is so relevant to everyone, how twisted the mind gets to want to know ‘Why?’, or dwell on something, unnecessarily holding back or pushing away what really needs to be felt. The need to know ‘Why?’ so much is a distraction away from your body. Feeling the body brings understanding to the physicality and the mind.
     As you said RB “surrender, listen and allow” – for the body.

262. Thank you for sharing RB. It’s amazing how the mind will take you on a roller coaster ride, taking away the time you need to stop and heal and creating even more stresses to the body. Great aha moment.

263. Thank you for sharing, I have found in the past that waiting for a medical procedure or the test results to be very stressful. Especially if I let my mind run the show and then my mind will go into being busy so that I do not have to think about it. Choosing to be with my body helps to keep everything in perspective and the ‘what if’s’ at bay.

264. I love your honesty in sharing your story…..one I can truly relate to. It is so easy to allow the head to take over, and create so many different scenarios that can tie us into knots. So great that you did make the choice to listen to your body. Thank you for the reminder.

265. Isn’t it amazing how much we can prioritise over the very thing that matters the most – our quality. I love the honesty you have come to with yourself RB and the fact that you have taken this opportunity to listen to your body, instead of yet again, overriding it. Beautiful.

266. I love your ‘aha’ moment – Science as we know it does not have all the answers, and the answers we do have are forever changing. The doctors don’t have all the answers either. I can either accept this, embrace it and surrender or I can continue to want answers, to try to control, fix and go into my mind again. – such a understanding as this is Gold. All that expectation you put on the medical system, the doctors, yourself for understanding on what is going on and why just slips away… Then true healing can take place – Thank you for sharing.

267. Reading this for the first time, and loving what you wrote, I can’t help but smile at the awesome timing. I am going through a painful physical issue at present, so your very wise words; “This time I decided not to go into fear, not to go into the story and drama of it all, but to just let my body be”, are such a timely message. I realise that I have allowed the pain and discomfort to overwhelm me, and even though I know that my body is talking very loudly right now, I have not been stopping long enough to hear the message it is trying to give me. It feels like I have be trying to run away from the pain, which of course hasn’t worked, but now I know it’s time to stop, and “just let my body be”, and embrace the healing in whatever form it comes. Thank you for sharing your inspirational story; I know that I will be reading it again.

268. There is a great lesson in this blog where, we need to control and look up all the information we feel we need to inform ourselves, only to make fear another symptom of the disease that we think we have. On the flip side is not wanting to know about the disease that we do have or in other words denial which doesn’t work either. So as you decided to do sit with your body and come back to yourself in a loving, self nurturing way.

269. It is wonderful how the soul can create a stop in life so we have an opportunity to reflect, heal and change. The question is do we listen?

270. A very powerful testimony of how we are supported by our body (and Soul) to truly heal the root cause of what is not true and loving. But even with these kind of offers at hand it needs a choice to embrace the message and to make the necessary and loving changes, something not many people are willing to do. You give inspiration to how it can truly work.

271. RB your blog has shared so much in terms of healing not only for yourself but also for me. Thank you.

272. It’s crazy what our minds can roller coaster through… I’ve been having this trouble lately and I love how you explained it as a little child – keeping on saying no to the thoughts wondering far away and bringing back to focus. Great confirmation on just keeping it up as it won’t happen in a day

273. I’d like to pick up on the point: “Why is it that when we are not doing, we do not feel as though we are enough? Where does this idea come from? Could it possibly be that society has brainwashed us into thinking that we are not good enough unless we are ‘doing,’ so that we don’t get close to feeling who we really are? Something I will ponder on some more..

274. RB, this is a great reminder to us all, as I too have struggled with the notion of being still and in my body. Being in the head, as you describe is when the drama begins, so a pertinent question here may be, why do we like drama in our lives? Could it be that we don’t want to take responsibility for our lives?
     It feels lovely how as you stayed in your body, the drama disappeared and I could feel a calmness come through your writing.

275. I can so relate to your blog RB, and how key it is to stay connected with our bodies and not allow our minds to run amok. Sometimes our bodies have to stop us in our tracks before we listen (speaking from experience) and as you have so beautifully shared, it was actually the beginning of a great healing. The responsibility you take in regards to your health moving forward is very inspiring.

276. This is beautiful and I love how you claimed you cannot go back to living life as you did before. I can relate just in the fact that I have been sick this week, it was a strong stop for me and I too can feel I will never go back to living how I was before getting sick. The symptoms, the intensity, the insight into the way I had been with myself whilst I have been sick have all been powerful, loud and too rich and precious to discard or ignore and go back to how I was previously living. That would be a waste of the amazing learning I have received via being sick.

277. Thank you for sharing your transformation from living life from your head to connecting with your body and just being.

278. RB it is awesome how you used this experience to look deeply at your life and areas that where not working for you. It is a true evolution for us all when we are able to see what we create for ourselves, and then consciously choose something different. “I walked out feeling a sense of “there is no way I can go back to living life as I was before.” Thank you for sharing

     1. Yes, it is wonderful to say yes to evolution and choose to make different choices. The expansion that reveals itself in the following days, weeks and months is often remarkable and just shows there is really nothing limiting our lives but ourselves and what we settle for.

        1. Yes Josephone I can agree with your words in response to “it is a true evolution for us all when we are able to see what we create for ourselves” -and I am finding it is forever unfolding in it’s own rhythm, as I learn to listen to my body for lovingly.

279. Thanks RB for your very frank and honest account of your healing journey. I related to so many of the behaviours you revealed when faced with uncertainity. I particularly appreciated your tip about picking up a book and allowing yourself to feel what was, rather than go into overdrive with thought.

280. Thank you RB for the honesty of your blog and your process of reconnecting to your own wisdom in letting your body be and surrendering to being in it, and taking care of it like a ‘cute child’. And to see the reflection back in the results being so different to what you might have imagined.

281. RB you describe the the tricky mind and the drama of illness so well. I recognise that need to control out of fear of the “what ifs”. How simple to stop what is stressing and quietly sit in the sunshine, that in itself is a healing, and “surrender, listen and allow”, which so beautifully opened to another level of being.

282. What a great sharing of how the mind can want to control the outcome of the body and therefore not want to feel, what is really going on. I like the bit about surrendering to the body.

283. If I get too absorbed in an ache or a pain in my body I go into “What if’s” – I get distracted and taken off into a story (as you mentioned) – realising this as a little reminder now for myself, as soon as a “what” comes into my head, it’s time to re-connect to stillness and allow all of me to feel what’s truly going on. Thank you for sharing RB.

284. Great blog RB and so true. As with everything we can focus on the issue and get caught up by it, and then we become it, and then we are totally lost and our life is ruled by the issue, which can be an illness, workload, hurts, whatever we carry around. I can so much relate to it and it is so amazing to have learned through Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon how to always reconnect to myself first and live life from my connection first.

285. So true, guilt for doing nothing, recognition and acceptance for pushing through. Great to hear you have found a new way to walk this life. I am sure it will be a valuable life lesson for your daughter to start hers with.

286. Dear RB,
     I can so relate to what you are saying here. I too had an experience many years ago when my children were young, where I found myself laid up in bed for 6 weeks. I had a bulging disc low in my spine and the pain was indescribable. Unlike you at the time I was desperate to get fixed, so I went and had Bowen Therapy treatments. While having these treatments I felt that I wanted to learn this therapy, and I did. When I say ‘unlike you’ I mean that instead of stopping and re-evaluating my reality, I continued on in the same drive that I had been in, only I added to it, by committing to the study and practical needs to become a Bowen Therapist. I no longer practise Bowen Therapy, as not once in all of the time that I spent learning and practising it, did I ever feel any connection to my soul; I only felt superiority, something that my feeling of not being good enough really sucked up. I now know how draining it was to practise a healing modality in this energy and am super grateful that I am now choosing, as are you, to connect and to listen deeply to my body. Once upon a time I needed to have regular Bowen treatments, as my body was in constant niggly pain. Now if I feel a pain, anywhere, I know deeply that this is an indicator that I am holding tension in my body and I then stop, even if it is only on the toilet and let myself surrender into my body. The pain doesn’t always go away, but what does happen is that I feel a deep sense of being in my body, with this sense there is a stillness within that is very joyful.

287. I can relate especially to the part about why we feel guilty when we do nothing. It’s like saying, when I am not in the doing, I don’t exist. I loved (and sometimes still do) to worry about almost everything: my son, my work, my relationship, my money etc etc. Great way to not connect with stillness! I am learning a lot about how being still is the key, also in the doing. There is always this ‘untouched and unshakable’ place inside where I can connect to. Makes life so much simpler and accessible.
     Thanks RB.

288. It seems easy for me to get too involved with what my mind is thinking instead of listening to my body, especially when something medical comes up. Thank you for the reminder RB.

289. That’s true Gill, and it also stops the tension in the body that is created by the giant spin, that can lead to forms of illness and disease.

290. The topic here RB that you bring to our attention, of the mind and its wandering or willful ways is really interesting and pertinent for our times. I have also recently recognized the falsity that we can lead ourselves to believe when the mind goes off on one of its tangents, grabbing onto something or anything to identify with. Coming to the sense that its best to more often observe it, feeling what its up to, before engaging with it.

     1. Love this blog RB and the reminder of how our minds can take us on a roller coaster ride to begin a downward slide and get into the fear of “what ifs” – how tricky the mind can be if you let it take over and control you. And then constantly be driven by endless doing and never feeling enough.
        When deep down there is a knowing in the body and signals that we can choose to listen to or not and the choice to embrace the messages and willingly to make that loving choice.
        What a great reminder for me each moment to feel everything and not give over to the tricky mind and its distractions as Lisa shares it is best to more often observe it, feeling what it is up to, before engaging with it .

291. I love your blog RB, what a great reminder to stay out of our heads and stay connected and listen to our body. Our body is continually communicating with us, all we need to do is take the time to connect and listen. It comes back to responsibility once again.

292. I really enjoyed reading this RB and found I could really relate to the solo parenting with all the running around in disregard to the bodies signals to stop and listen to what’s being felt.
     I have also felt myself letting go of debilitating thoughts as I connect more deeply within myself and return to a feel a deeper connection with my body and those around me.
     I have let fear guide my way many times in my life when what I was really looking for was the love and wisdom that resides within the acceptance of myself and what’s occurring.
     Your blog demonstrates this beautifully thanks RB.

293. Timely reminder for me to simply stop and listen to what my body is telling me. I have been caught up in mind thoughts whilst ignoring my bodies signals these past couple of weeks so thank you RH for and inspiring blog.

294. Thank you RB for sharing your experience here. It was timely for me to read this particularly, “making a choice to be in my body instead of lost in my mind over this time was really healing.” Just the medicine I needed to take this morning, with several spoons of commitment and a reminder “just stay here in my body” when needed : )

     1. Yes, it is so simple. Just staying with my body makes it much easier to make big health decisions, makes recovery easier when things go wrong and helps make the body more vital when everything is ok. Just staying with my body and listening to my body is very powerful.

295. I loved the list of questions that RB asked herself…..specifically “Why is it that we don’t feel that Being is enough?” I’ve often sat with this when I’ve felt a drive to complete something, when my body is telling me to rest. Each time I challenge this I’m beginning to truly appreciate and love myself for who I am, and not what I do. I feel this slows down and eventually stops the never ending doing drive.

     1. Yes Danielle, we have all fallen for believing that we are ‘what we do’ and not ‘who we are’. No surprise when most if not all of us have been raised by being recognised and praised for ‘doing’ and rarely if ever for just ‘being’. Hence we grow up under the illusion that our self worth is measured by what we do and we develop a momentum of ‘doing’ until we stop and challenge this as you say. Yet just ‘being’ instead of ‘doing’ is a more simple way to live!

        1. Exactly, Anne, just being is a much simpler way to live but it can take a while to undo the attachment to doing as a mark of our value.

        2. Imagine if we started asking one another “how are you being?” instead of “how are you doing?”…haha it just makes me realise how our whole language is based on doing, and nothing on being.

296. A great reminder to “listen to your body” and “being present in each moment”.

297. That story shows that our bodies are divine instruments. Your symptoms showing up as something much more serious to start with surely was deliberate, so that you could learn the lessons you needed to learn.

298. That’s an inspiring story RB, how wonderfully truthful our bodies are.

299. Thanks for the sharing RB, very inspiring.

300. I have just had to stop and surrender and rest myself so it is super timely to read your blog! Beautifully expressed and like you I can be such a drama queen and go into motion and drive to cover up feelings of unease etc. It is such a blessing to know how to come back to the body the way that has been presented by Serge – it is truly the most profound support.

301. What I realize reading this blog is the enormity of the power of the mind if it goes unchecked.. A very insightful blog.. I also like the comment regarding doing what feels good in the body and not overriding those feelings, a great reminder, Thankyou.

302. Wow RB, what you went through and what you come to, knowing that if you continued to let your mind control and go into fear that your body would be under the same stress, pressure and exhaustion prior to this stop. So inspiring to read and feel, your stillness and commitment to yourself, when you stopped and read a part of Serge Benhayon’s book and reconnected to how you actually felt in your body.
     Such a great question to ask – “Why is it that we don’t feel that Being is enough?” Very timely, as I’m just realising a pattern when I get into a routine after being busy or having extra work, then I start to feel like I’m not doing enough. Your blog and what you have offered is a great support.

303. A big thank you RB, for sharing your insights and experience with honesty,
     It has been a big healing for me to read your article and gain insight into the way I have pushed my body and what it’s now showing me.
     I still have such an identity in ‘doing’ constantly and assess my days by how much I do. Rather than how connected to myself have I been and what was the quality of energy or presence that I did it in.

304. I loved reading this, thank you RB. And I read from my bed – where I have been for the past 3 days because I had a very small surgical procedure that I have had once before. Last time I listened more to my head and said – it’s just a small thing – you are fine – get on with it. Not this time; I too decided to deeply listen to my body and it was saying, I need to deeply rest, and I have not been out of bed really in the past few days. Inspiring story you shared. Well done for stepping off the roller-coaster.

     1. Great to read your comment Sarah, that you have lovingly given yourself time and space to give your body the deep rest it needs.

305. Awesome blog, I too have gone through medical scares. I doubt there are many who have not. When health is threatened, it causes a stop and leads me back to an intuitive knowing that nothing is coincidence -everything my body reflects to me is telling me something. This does not mean, as the writer said, ignoring the medical information or use of treatments. However, it does mean also conducting my own healing from being more in tune with my body. Learning and reconfirming this through Serge’s presentations has been a God send for me. It has supported me to go beyond listening to my body only when it feels distressed, to listening to it more often than not and this has helped take my wellbeing as well as health to a greater level.

     1. Thanks Simon, and what I get from this is that we don’t have to wait to be sick or have a major illness to listen to our bodies, in fact we can avoid a lot of this, if we were to listen to our bodies in the first place.

306. Thank you RB for this wonderful open sharing. Your realizations about the huge effects of your mind taking over control and overriding what your body is telling you are inspirational. I wonder why we don’t learn from a young age to honour what our bodies are telling us and to not ‘do’ so much at the expense of our bodies. I can relate to your keep going, keep doing and building up exhaustion from that. And just like you I remind myself to keep coming back to feeling my body and make choices based upon that. This can be very simple choices like not visiting friends/family that live far away when my right arm is too painful to drive the car and my body is feeling too tired to take the train or travel at all. And consider what (support) I need when my body feels like that.

307. For me this blog describes so well the fight that goes on when we are not allowing ourselves to be in acceptance of what is unfolding for us in life. This is so beautifully outlined in the line, “…I can either accept this, embrace it and surrender or I can continue to want answers, to try to control, fix and go into my mind again.” We can spend a lot of time in the ‘fight’ or ‘resistance’ but in the end, when we eventually let go and allow ourselves to accept what is unfolding, the way for healing is clearer and unencumbered, which allows us to heal in a much deeper way.

     1. Yes robynjones11, and once we do let go, the healing can actually happen quite quickly. It is the resistance that causes the delay.

308. Thanks for sharing. A beautiful article which has a lot of learnings for all of us.

309. “…. living by the beliefs and ideals of being a “solo parent”, and a “good strong reliable worker” has made me override, and not listen to what my body is asking so clearly.” I too have ignored my body in the past and am now learning to listen to its (sometimes not so subtle) messages, and make different choices. Great blog, thanks for sharing.

310. RB, thank you for sharing your experience with this medical situation – it’s so clear that illness is often the only way to make us humans stop; full stop. It’s awesome to read how different the experience is once you let go of the need of a name of a disease and claim that; but when you chose to just respond to what the body was actually telling you; to stop and stop pushing yourself so hard. This is very insightful; true research actually…..

311. Thank you RB for sharing. I am in awe of what our bodies can do to help us see something we do in life that is not caring or loving towards ourselves.

312. thank you very much RB, I always love the honesty in your expression. It is extraordinary that sometimes we simply have “to drive the car into the wall” to actually stop and reflect on ourselves and the life we are leading. For most people it takes a big shock before we stop and ask yourselves, what actually our priorities are and what are the values we want to accept in our lives from here onwards. To answer that question with sincerity we have to take responsibility for our choices which have led us to this point of break down…….that experience has motivated me at the time to choose a lot more awareness in my day to day and the way I am living since.

     1. I love how you write “drive the car into the wall” Karin, because it is so true.. there are many ways that our body makes us STOP!

313. Very inspiring story, as I too like many tend to think the worst of a situation. However sometimes that may be the worst thing to do even though you think that you are doing the best thing for yourself because you are preparing yourself for what is to come. But it all cases why would you stress what is to happen with out first assessing how you are at that very moment. Because what you are in that moment will affect you in the future.

314. What an amazing story, thank you RB. Our bodies are constantly speaking to us, we just have to allow ourselves to listen and then to respond lovingly to what we hear.

315. RB thank you so much for sharing your story. There are so many gems in it that we can all learn from. Listening to my body and not my head. Letting ‘wanting to control’ everything take me away from what is actually unfolding. And the deep level of appreciation I can feel in you. Never will life be the same again because this kind of experience allows us to go deeper with our self-care and truly celebrate ‘being’ in a body.

316. I too have sometimes found myself so caught up in an ideal I have set myself about how I should be living or working, that I end up pushing past my tiredness and head straight on in to exhaustion. This seems to be a pattern which I set up for myself as a cycle of living. It is amazing to recognise now that even though I may not be fully clear of this old way of thinking, there is definitely another way to live, which is perhaps not so self destructive, and is in fact more harmonious with every aspect of life. Thankyou RB for sharing.

317. Thank you for sharing this RB. I could very much relate to the drive and push that you describe. Just today I was feeling how this was shifting in me. The effect is a life of much more ease and allowing as things unfold naturally. This line simply and powerfully expresses the relief our bodies must feel when we surrender to its amazing wisdom: ‘This time I decided not to go into fear, not to go into the story and drama of it all, but to just let my body be.’

318. There is so much in your blog RB that resonates with in me. Thank you for putting together the steps of the game we can allow to play us. You remind and re-affirm that the truth is in our bodies, we just have to slow it down to hear and then listen and respond to what we hear. An ounce of self-loving prevention is worth a ton of cure.

319. RB, amazing. Having heard this story from you and now reading it again is so beautiful. The willingness you have to take full responsibility for how you are in your body, and the relationship you have of listening to how your body is communicating to you is inspirational. I can so relate to all you talk about with needing to ‘do’ things, even at expense of the body. Continuing on ‘autopilot’ and overriding what my body might be saying is something I’ve always done. Reading articles like yours, and also being inspired by the work of Serge Benhayon now really has me stopping and reflecting – and listening. Thank you for the awesome reflection and reminder, you are pure gold.

320. Dear RB,
     This is such a powerful blog you have written – what you have shared here is really something that could have happened to anyone of us! I love how you talked about the different stages you went through – it is so common for us to be the ‘diagnosis’ when something ‘goes wrong’ with the body, and for us to take on the symptoms that we read about…crazy what the mind is capable of if we do not put a stop to it. But I also love how you have shown that there is another way to handle this – a way that allows the body to speak and allows the being. This too is something I am learning to do, the being over the push and drive and doing. I may not have experienced such an extreme stop as loss of leg function etc, but I too know that my body is calling out for me to change the way I do things, to allow the being and the surrender. I am in fact aching for this being, and realise that I am in a position to make the change. And though this at times feels like a monumental shift and a monumental stepping on the brake to slow down the wheel, I know that with the intent to keep working on it and keep checking in with the body, it can be done and lovingly so! Thank you for your healing blog RB – you are magic!

321. Thank you RB for your Blog – I too am experiencing exhaustion at the moment and know that it is from me not being with me when I am doing what is need. It’s draining me every moment that I am not being in my body. Like you I also have to re-train my mind, to bridle it and pull it into line with where I am and give my body the lead. Today I spend a good part of the day practicing this, and appreciate that I can do this even more lovingly than I have been as I have a tendency to be a little hard on myself for making mistakes. So lovingly I will cease the endless thoughts that take me away from being with me.

322. A great healing and a great learning for us all.
     Many years ago I had been seeing Doctors and specialists about dizzy spells. The final diagnosis was the possibility of either bleeding or a tumour in my brain.
     In the 3 days that I had to wait to have further tests, I too went completely into my head, developed a migraine, which to me confirmed the diagnosis, and could not sleep.
     I was a complete mess, fell off my motorbike going around a round-about, was angry with everyone around me and could barely function, not because of my condition, but because of the stress and anxiety that I had created in my body via my out of control thoughts.
     The test results ended up showing that I had no problems at all in my brain – that was, with the exception of the crazy thoughts that I had let myself indulge in for 3 days.
     The dizzy spells turned out to be a combination of exhaustion and a poor diet with way too much sugar. Funny about that!!!
     Thanks RB for sharing your story

     1. Thank you Rob, I just had to have a giggle as I read your comment. Thanks for sharing… seems like my crazy thoughts are like yours at times.

323. It is amazing how our mind and the stories it creates can get so out of control. Thank you RB for the lovely reminder that coming back to feeling our own bodies can be so life changing

324. What an amazing experience you had and learnt from, and from which to inspire others – the importance of stopping and really listening to the needs of our body as our body is the marker of truth! – I too am now choosing to do this, and feeling more vital and joyous.

325. Great article RB. I suppose you really have to feel deep inside, when you’re faced with a illness, to what you’re being shown.

     1. You sure do, but what supported me was the practitioners at Universal Medicine and some of the students of The Way of the Livingness. Inspiring.

326. I felt to also share that you really exposed that classic doctor’s line “you can go back to living how you always have”. This is for many doctors and patients seen to be like the ultimate successful outcome after illness – to go back to the way of living that led to the disease!! How awesome for you to state that “there is no way I can go back to living life as I was before”.

     1. Great point. What a classic misconception and mistake to make. With greater awareness of the whole picture I’m not sure many would choose to walk the same path again.

     2. I wonder if this suggestion is something doctors learn at Uni, and have not stopped to consider that the fact that their body asked them to stop is a perfect opportunity to take a look at the way they were living and make changes.

327. Oh my – RB I can so relate to your story. It is a powerful one, especially in this age of the internet and the ability to google your diagnosis. As I sit here I can feel millions of people on the planet at this very moment online doing just that – trying to ‘figure out’ with their mind what is wrong with their body and what to do about it, rather than just being still and listening and responding to the body’s messages through loving and tender care.

328. This is an awesome sharing and what’s jumping out for me in reading this is how much I try to control my life. Not only my life, but everything and everyone in it. When something unexpected ‘pops’ up I immediately begin calculating how I can ‘control’ it. As I write this I realise that life is full of ‘pop ups’ and I feel exhausted with the amount of controlling I attempt.
     Aha, exposed!

     1. I hear you Julie, my addiction to control is long and old! It is only from becoming aware of this that I am able to decided whether I want to give it up or not.

329. Your blog RB is a powerful read! Our roller coaster minds can really take over if we don’t pay heed, but by stopping, paying attention and listening to the messages from our bodies we can learn so much.

330. Thant you R.B. for this presentation of your experience. I feel what was confirming for me was that we have to come back to listening to the body, appreciating truly the gift we have in this body and work with the medical profession not necessarily handing over the responsibility for them to ‘fix’ the problem. I have had recent experience where my doctor and specialist were mystified as to how my body healed in two different instances, bringing forth a question from my general practitioner ‘what is it that you do?’ on seeing my body unexpectedly becoming well again.

331. Once we take responsibility for our choices and our body, amazing healing can take place.

     1. So simple and so true

332. Awesome blog, thank you for sharing the healing available in saying no to drama and no to letting the mind run away with itself and surrendering to the wisdom of being connected to the body. Our bodies are amazing!

     1. Our bodies really are amazing and worth celebrating every day. In with celebrating, and out with beating our selves up I say.

333. The way the mind rushes ahead to come up with all the answers and ‘put it all together’ is astounding. It can happen in a flash, like a ‘storm in a teacup’, or can build over a long period of time. Your blog opens up something we can all relate to.

334. To stop, listen to your body and take responsibility for what you have put your body through in the past, and then choose to change and honour your body, is a lesson we all can learn from. Thank-you RB for sharing your experience.

335. What you have written is so familiar. I am appreciating more and more that my body beautifully reflects whether I am living in a way – whether it is harmonious, loving, evolving and true to myself or not. Whenever an issue shows up with my health, if I take the time to really feel the message that it holds, I am gracefully guided in how to fine-tune the way I am living. Yet I have a long track record of ignoring my body and overriding the feelings, however strong they are, with thoughts and drives. The going into the spin of looking things up on the internet and letting it all go out of proportion is such a clever way of reinforcing the habit of ignoring my body and forming thoughts and strategies in disconnection. I too am noticing this pattern more and more and weaning myself off it.

     1. I love how you say weaning yourself off of the habit, because that is all it really is.

336. Medical diagnosis can be very intimidating – I made this experience too. And I learned to don’t give up on my responsibility or give my power away to it or the doctor. The illness/diagnosis, the doctor and I – We are all building a team and its my choice for who/what we play…

     1. Now that makes you the one in the driving seat, taking full responsibility and not just being taken for a ride. I love it.

337. A wonderfully healing blog to read, and very inspirational.

338. I too went into my head over a serious diagnosis I had about 18 months ago , but instead of looking into the website, support group etc. that I was told about, I just freaked out for awhile. Talking to the Specialist about it, he was pretty reassuring that I wasn’t going to be severely disabled till I was in my 80s (still not a pleasant thought )but having talked with Serge when I was in my freak out, I was reassured that I was in good hands with the Specialist and Universal Medicine was there to support me at all times. Not looking into websites etc. was the best thing for me, as too much information can overload and frighten the brain and we go to worst case scenario!!

339. “I can either make this next part of my life one that is full of drama and fear, or I can enjoy each moment, and really focus my energy on the real things in life – the people around me and the love that is there”. So true RB when we take out the drama and fear there is so much love there waiting for us and the joy that comes with this revelation is palpable.

     1. And why is it that we so often choose the drama, without really realising that we actually have a choice.

340. Thank you for sharing your story – it was very touching. I felt it is one that all patients should read. We believe that we need to keep doing, to stay in control, to know everything from our minds, yet it is the letting go of that and allowing ourselves to stop and feel which is where the healing occurs. How beautiful that by doing that we get to feel the real lesson and gift that our body is sharing.

341. Wow RB thank you – what a powerful experience in learning from your body the wisdom and truth that it always tells us if we stop as you did and listen to it. Nobody – not the most experienced studied medical specialist – can know our bodies as much as we know our bodies. I have been working in physiotherapy for 30 years and I know how well the medical professionals can support and assist someone’s body to heal, but we don’t have all the answers. The more I work with people the more I let my client and their body show me how I can best support their healing. If I get into the mind story – just as RB learned – I am lost. I am constantly appreciating that our bodies do tell us the truth of how we are living – which gives us the opportunity to make different, more self-caring choices, which supports our own healing.

     1. When we listen to our own body, and then take that to our physiotherapist or to our doctors, we can heal a lot faster as we take out any guess work and also I love how you share that you do not have all the answers. Our bodies do, if we just stop and listen and listen honestly.

342. Incredible to read this blog, the mind has a lot to answer for, and giving ourselves away to its ceaseless activity without the master “puppeteer” of our inner heart and the innate wisdom of our body sets us on a crazy path. It is very heartening to read how amazingly powerful sitting, being still and allowing has brought you deep healing. A true example of dis-ease as a blessing.

343. This great story confirms my belief, get out the way, and let the body do the talking and let the body be the driver of you, not your head

     1. Yes Phil and to allow this is a great surrendering that I have found my mind is not quite so willing to let go of! Great to see it like that – who are you going to let drive, the mind or the body?

344. Thank you RB. Isn’t it interesting how our minds are so quickly willing to to take us on a ride, ‘roller coaster’ or ‘off into the great blue yonder’ rather than staying with ourselves and what we are actually doing. Attach to one thought and and before you know it your in the middle of a movie that becomes more epic by the second with plots and subplots galore. I’m all for staying present and allowing the body to write and direct the script moment by moment.

345. It’s amazing that sometimes it takes a large stop to make us look at what we are doing.

346. Thank you RB for sharing your experience with such honesty and truthfullness. No excuses, no poor me, just this is what happened this is how I reacted and this is what I did to come back to me. So very power-full.

347. RB I love how you shared your experience of letting your mind take you over and then the choice to come back to your body. This is such a strong pattern in people and what you have presented is truly inspirational!

     1. Sharon that is so true it is a pattern for many when our mind takes over our body. It is inspirational to hear how RB brought it back to her body I know I have got caught in that where my mind is racing ahead, but with the understanding I have now with the support of Universal Medicine, I am able to catch myself and bring myself back to my body.

348. Thankyou for sharing your story, I know all too well of these mind controlling roller coaster rids we can take ourselves on. Always thinking but what if .. Great to hear about the changes you made

349. I love what you have shared, as going into the mind really can take you on a wild ride! Coming back to the body, truly connecting has always had an amazing effect on me and it is evident from your story that if we take the time to stop and come back to the body (leaving the mind to it’s own devices) true healing can occur. Thank you for sharing and giving me another “stop” moment to feel how I have truly been living.

350. Thanks for your great blog RB , opens up a whole new understanding for what disease and the labels we give it truly offer , if only we take a moment in stillness to feel what our beautiful bodies are communicating to us ,life would not be the struggle we thought it had to be.

351. It is wonderful to realise that the wondering and meandering thoughts in our mind have been a waste of time and energy. It initiates the fact that we can replace this with appreciation for the beautiful bodies we have and how wonderful they are, every single day.

     1. Thats so right Matthew, and the more we appreciate our bodies, the more they seem to blossom and move like beautiful flowers. I so appreciate that I have full movement back in my leg, but my level of appreciation on all levels has changed and deepened.

     2. Our bodies are so wonderful, even when we don’t treat them right. When we listen, hear what they are telling us, and give them a rest, a break, or a change of diet, symptoms of illness change and they are often able to recover without a lot of intervention. Absolutely amazing!

        1. our bodies sure are the marker of truth if we will just listen! Love this blog RB!

352. What a stunning story. A great example of how our bodies truly hold all we ever need to really know.

353. Amazing blog! An inspiration for me to become more aware of how I am with myself. To not go into busyness and overdrive with my everyday life. It is truly amazing and inspirational you have chosen to change your way of living from this experience.

354. I so related to your story RB, whenever I get the slightest ailment I’m straight onto the Internet going into my head about what’s caused my pain or dysfunction. I have found the real truth lies in how we live on a daily basis and I have found the biggest factor for me is the type of energy I choose to run my body in. When I am more connected and present I simply feel better and symptoms flare up if I fall back into too much motion and operate from my head. The saying “the body is the marker of truth” really is so true..!

355. ‘I may not have listened to my body in the past, I may have treated it with disrespect, but I can change that now. It’s up to me. ‘ This is something I have learned with universal medicine too and it makes such a huge difference to how I feel. Even the simplest of things like pushing through tiredness to stay up until 10:30 watching TV shows or eating that extra little bit even though I am so full – changing all of these little things, really listening to my body, and caring about how it feels has taken me out of extreme exhaustion, it is quite amazing really – yet so simple! Ha. Great blog RB, inspired to look again at any ways I might not be listening to what my body needs.

356. It is fabulous to read that you didn’t go back to living as before. To be filled with enough awareness to recognise that your symptoms were a warning from your body to change your lifestyle. Our bodes give us signals all the time, big and small, within this I feel we can choose either to step further into, or out of the dis-ease in our bodies that we are being warned about.

357. Very interesting. You have reminded me to listen to my body and get back to self care. My knee has been aching for days. Tonight I rubbed essential oils into the spot and gently massaged the area. If the knee belonged to my child I would have tended it immediately, why do we resist helping ourselves? Thank you for the timely reminder to slow down and feel.

358. Wow RB your story is really inspiring. You made your own choice. This approach would make a really interesting study.

359. The key is to stop and listen … and then heed the messages from our bodies, not override them as we all so often do. Great blog RB, you are a shining example to us all and a living testimony to the efficacy of the Livingness and Esoteric Medicine. I am inspired by you to never go back to the way I’ve been living either. And I wonder, does that ever end, is that the path of evolution – to continuously adapt our lifestyles until we are nothing but love?

360. Beautiful blog RB. I love the level of appreciation you show with what you have learned from your body, so simply by stopping and listening and the crazy tactics we use to avoid this is quite incredible.

361. Thanks RB the simplicity of just allowing to feel what’s happening in the body is what I take away from your blog

362. Thank you RB for your powerful blog. It has taken me sometime to allow myself to rest when my body is clearly telling me to do just that and nothing else. I used to feel guilty – so much to do and so little time to do it was my mantra. Not any more! I now give myself permission to rest as often or as little as my body needs, and my body has never been healthier.

363. Woao! Thank you so much for sharing this story with us! It is so great to be reminded how precious our body is and how much sense it makes to pay attention to it and not allow the mind to take over and push on. Something I need to remind myself of every day.

364. I laughed quite a few times reading this RB as I can so relate…especially the googling of diagnoses, even my father told me this morning that I shouldn’t do it! He knows me well, and this blog, a timely reminder as I feel my pattern of drive re-surfacing!
     I have now moved my body and am sitting comfortably and instead of reading and writing from the drive, I now have a sense of my whole body as I write this…so Thank you!

365. Thank you RB the blessing of knowing you is a miracle that I cherish every time I see your smiling face!

366. Great blog here to revisit. So often when things go wrong or we have a medical problem it is easy to go in to drama or fear and understandably so. But this blog shows so clearly and simply that there is another way involving letting go and accepting and surrendering and going deeper to feel what our body is actually trying to say or what needs to change, and if we listen to this it is true healing.

367. Brilliant article RB. And yes – our bodies are truly powerful in showing us what we need to see in ourselves to support truly healing and evolution. Thank you.

368. Such an honest account of the way our mind will take over when we receive a diagnosis or a possible diagnosis.
     I relate to every word RB, as I am currently experiencing an issue with my health that is simply my body saying “STOP Rachel”. I have run myself on nervous tension since I was young, and this beautiful body has let me know, in no uncertain terms, I can do it no more.
     I have learned, as you have, that the answer will never be found searching Dr Google. It is in the care of an excellent doctor and our willingness to search deep within.

369. Thank you RB, you present the simplicity of coming back to be with and feel the body with so much power.

370. We have all lived from and been that puppet of fear of what ifs and it is a dreadful feeling. Lucky there is another way… the universal medicine way. I also agree that after living through any illness you are never the same and so can never go back to exactly how you were living before you got ill. That to me is clearly the true gift of illness. For us to simply learn and evolve from all our experiences and for everyday us to take more and more care of ourselves and as a consequence of that care, take better care of others too.

371. Really enjoyed your article RB, it has so many points to ponder on that I feel are relevant to me and how I have been living my life. Thank you!

372. Such great questions you have posed – why is it we that we feel less when we aren’t doing and on top of that add another layer of guilt? In the ‘doing’ comes distraction and exhausting seeking of approval, the need to be needed, acknowledged and valued. Choosing ‘you’ and saying no to the ‘doing’ has found the greatest gift one can experience and that is the total love and nurturing of self, beautiful you.

373. Thanks RB for sharing what your body brought home to you. I have and still do get stuck in the ‘doing’ and do not stop until I get a migraine. Even when I have a migraine I will still keep going, and the grace that my body has offered me to surrender to is missed until the next time. It was lovely to read how you no longer will allow the ‘roller coaster’ of your mind to take control and instead stay in control by staying with you.

374. How interesting that when we give power to our mind in panic, that we do roller coaster in fear in these situations. Such a good reminder to stay with the body. It will always tell you the truth. And funny the Doctor telling you to go back to your old ways. That’s something I’ve noticed that a lot of people champion after you’ve been unwell. It seems to make people uncomfortable when we claim to learn from our bodies and change our ways.

375. Gosh, what a learning! How awesome you came to the understanding of ‘why’ and how the aliment related to you and your life/patterns. A great, scary at times, stopper, but certainly a gear change in the way to move forward in life. Inspirational, thank you xox

376. I am sure that it is common knowledge that under a great deal of stress, our brain reaches overload just like our muscles do when they are exhausted. Alcohol appears to numb out, medicate and act as a temporary relief, followed by a few strong hits of caffeine for a pick me up. Eventually the whole being will reach its use by date.
     So what then? Do we slip into Dementia to escape or checkout from life.
     I witnessed my dear mother over the years swinging in and out of depression, pain from the past war era which had coloured her perception of living in the present. She eventually went into dementia but never came out again.
     However Doug your awesome honest journey back to being present thanks to the support of Serge and the support of the Universal Medicine team. The rapid rate of growth in the area of Dementia I have seen with my own eyes from some of my work with nursing people is Aged care.

377. Jonathan, I feel like a miracle! It has only been 9 months and if you met me in the street, you would have absolutely no idea that it was not so long ago that I could not walk. My body is amazing and has healed so well. I do still have a tingle down my left leg, where the nerve damage is still healing, but I have full function and movement. I walk like everyone else, do exercise classes and dance.

378. Thank you for sharing such a life changing experience RB. It is so important we see illness and disease as an opportunity to truly heal and the absolute blessing it is.

379. Very great article, thanks a lot… I know this anxiousness quite well- how you keep yourself busy all the time with that could happen, instead of trusting that I am all equipment in every moment for everything.

380. This article reminds me of how I used to allow my mind to be the control freak driving me. Constantly driven by thinking I had to be seen to be doing something useful to justify my existence – no wonder I was exhausted. I am learning that the surest way to feel healthy and vital is to slow down, feel the stillness and listen to my body and the messages it is always lovingly giving me and understanding that sometimes the truth hurts.

381. Thank you RB for a great and courageous sharing. It reads like a modern-day miracle! I can imagine it as a film script because of all the to-ing and fro-ing of feelings as a result of believing first one thing then something else entirely. it’s a great demonstration of how the body knows best and how conventional medicine is sometimes left floundering.

382. Thanks for sharing this RB, I used to be terrible at letting my mind run away on me, and at times I still am. It’s amazing where it will go if you let it. What a great stopper you had and it’s so great you see it for what it was and heeded its warning.

383. “Why is it that we don’t feel being is enough?” I still wrestle with this one, it having been deeply ingrained in me since childhood that stopping means I’m lazy. However I do now listen to my body and rest when I need to. Learning to be not do all the time.

384. Thank you RB for this thought provoking blog. “The extra stress, the energy wasted on the “what ifs”. This is something I experienced last night. My mind went into a spin about a possibility, not an inevitability, but I took it all the way and got myself into a state. This morning I feel very tired because of the energy I wasted on imagining the worst. It was lovely to read your blog. It helped bring me back to the present moment.

     1. I agree Debra, I had this too recently, my mind going through the what if’s and worse case scenarios, I felt drained from it. Then I made the choice to come back to my body and stay present , my energy restored. It was so clear the impact of letting my mind take over.

385. “Why is it that when we are not doing, we do not feel as though we are enough?
     Why is it that we don’t feel that Being is enough?” I have had these thoughts all my life, first engendered in me in a boarding school when sitting doing nothing was called being lazy. When I see people recover from a serious illness it seems their first thoughts are often to return to their busy lives of doing. Listening to my body and going deeper to find the cause of an ailment has been life-changing for me. Taking responsibility is now important, rather than just trying to fix the symptom, which will invariably return if I don’t address the root cause. Learning to be a human be-ing, not a human do-ing.

386. What a great sharing RB, that you have learned a lesson from your body instead of treating it as an object which you use and needs repairing when it gets broken. This is mind shifting from how we have learned to act to an ailment of the body. When we truly connect to the body and surrender to it we know what to do, and with the help of the doctors true healing can take place.

387. Thank you RB for a powerful article. I like many can recognise the behaviour you describe – riding the mind and its roller coaster. I have come to understand that living very closely to my body and how it feels is a healthier way of living life.

388. The stuff I get in the way of dispensing with the critical, doubt-seeding chatterings of my mind is, ‘Do I deserve this quality and simplicity in my life?’… over time and with much support I am coming to ‘Yes’, I am coming to love the responsibility and magic of mastering my mind and it’s choices. Thank you, RB, for the clarity and open-ness with which you share.

     1. Matilda I love what you share ‘deserving the quality and simplicity of life and coming to love the responsibility and Magic of mastering the mind and its choices.’ Yes we do deserve simplicity and we can master the mind,

389. It’s an ongoing journey for us all to take, being open to learn and grow, and understanding there is no going back to how we used to be, how crazy would that be?

390. I thought you brought up a great point … Surrender… Yes, something too that I am learning I can do , and boy oh boy does it make a difference when we surrender to life and it’s processes. Far less exhausting.

     1. Absolutely far less exhausting, and when we look at the levels of vitality that is being lived in the world today almost everyone is living in a state of exhaustion. Surrendering and being open to learning is one of the great places to start.

        1. Natalie spot on it is far less exhausting when we start to surrender to life and it’s processes. As I started to surrender, I felt the exhaustion just release from my body. I do get tired now and again but no longer get exhausted. Most people out in the world are caught up in some level of exhaustion, but often don’t know how to change it, they are caught in a repeat cycle.

     2. Thank you mm. I love the word “surrender”. In surrendering, we don’t have to do anything, just be and feel which makes space for magical outcomes to happen like, in the case of this blog, there is actually no health scare anymore.

391. Great point Julie. The opportunities open to us are endless, should we take the time to feel it for ourselves.

392. I loved the facts that when you left the hospital that there was no way you could go back to the way you had been living before. This is a great example of how we can learn and grow from the illnesses of which we manifest in our bodies – ultimately taking responsibility for the conditions being there in the first place. Thank you for this great sharing.

393. RB, I can relate so well to what you are writing about, I have allowed my mind to take me into a complete spin with a potential medical condition in the past by just ‘googling’ something! I have allowed myself to get completely caught up in the drama and the ‘what ifs’ without allowing myself to feel that it is all of my own making. I have been listening far more to my body recently and catching myself when I go into the drama of my mind, it is amazing how much difference it has made to my energy levels.

394. It’s a great example of how we can completely give our power away from our bodies knowing what’s happening inside us, to the mind of another person who may or may not have the medical answer. It’s great to get a medical diagnosis from a specialist but we can also sometimes mis-interpret what is said by our own minds working over time. When we choose to look at how we’ve been living, a completely different diagnosis can been shown by the body, when we care to listen. I have been through both examples as you describe RB, and I know which one has supported me. Combining the Western Medicine and Universal Medicine is definitely the answer.

     1. Yes the combination of western medicine and universal medicine is definitely the way. both give invaluable information, practical application and knowledge that can support us.

395. Being given a medical diagnosis or even hinted at can certainly take the mind on a roller coaster of what if’s and if we choose this can escalate beyond all reality. Alternately we can take it for what it is, a simple wake up call which points out something we have been living that is not good for us and allows us to make changes if we choose to. What a blessing and a great sharing thank you

396. There is so much drama to go into when it comes to illnesses, especially unusual conditions which seem to have the medical profession stumped – I have experienced this myself and my immediate reaction was to find out everything I could about the suspected condition and symptoms, only to later find out that the condition wasn’t serious and the illness cleared up on it’s own.
     I liked the part when you choose to let your body just be and not go into the drama.

397. I consider my mind and it’s ‘chatterings’ like I would consider a pesky little terrier: persistent and loud but, on close reflection, powerless and simply in need of guidance and loving management.

     1. I love your comment Matilda, ‘simple in need of guidance and loving management,’ beautiful.

        1. I love it too, my own ‘pesky little terrier.. needs more guidance and loving management’ too, but thanks to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, I now have the tools for more loving training sessions.

     2. Matilda this is so spot on and love the way you have brought the Terrier in as a metaphor: one that needs constant love, attention and guidance. My mind is always wanting to take charge but trusting my guidance and love it is starting to realise that it is not the one in charge… Feels amazing and super freeing.

     3. I love this comment too Matilda, ‘simply in need of guidance and loving management’ with persistant gentle reminders we can really feel how powerless our minds to be

     4. Great metaphor Mathilda. The more I know how my mind plays tricks on me the more I am open to nominating the ways I have allowed the mind to dictate, and as you say in need of guidance and loving management.

     5. ‘ Guidance and loving management ‘ this is great Matilda. I am finding the more I listen to my body and what I feel those chatterings dissipate.

     6. Such a gorgeous comment Matilda. Yes we need to lovingly manage our chattering minds. Beautiful.

     7. Beautiful and very apt comment that inspirers the reader to understand we have power over our minds.

398. Beautiful blog, a great reminder for us to stop and evaluate how are we living our lives, how hard have we been pushing, what are the impacts if we don’t stop. If only we listen to our body, we have a chance to make different choices that are more loving and supportive.

399. To live with that knowing there is no “cure” or treatment for your condition could for some bring the burden of fear that makes them withdraw from life, but you are showing us there is a different way, RB, to embrace it as an opportunity of fundimental change in how you live your life, which can only be expanding. A great article that supports us all to come from a very different viewpoint about illness.

400. What a great article about the roller coaster ride of life and your journey with it, thank you for sharing this and your choices and how you live. The messages to stop and re-evalulate how we are living through illness and disease are amazing and should be seen as this for us all and the valuble clearing it brings.

     1. Yes, how different to view illness and disease as a valuable clearing and what a blessing it can actually be when we are supported by both conventional medicine and being supported to hear the wisdom of our body’s communication.

     2. Yes, it makes sense and such a difference to understand that when we get ill it is because our bodies are giving us a message to look at how we’ve been living. This has helped me enormously and I continue to listen and learn from my body.

401. Hi RB, thank you for sharing your insights with us. And boy oh boy can I relate to impact controlling has on our body, our life and the connection with the people around us. This not letting go and trying to know all that is coming kept joy away for a long time in my life and is still work in progress.
     I love when you write: ‘All this thinking was in fact a distraction from just feeling what my body was signalling to me. I feel it is asking me to slow down. It is showing me that the way I have been living, in constant push, always busy, always taking on more than necessary, is not okay.’ It nails it completely.

     1. Monika, I haven’t been feeling well this weekend. Is it flu, or a virus, or is it a symptom of something more serious, even life threatening. No its my body letting go of the rubbish I let in last week by not listening to what it was telling me.

        1. Remembering that, Catherine, makes such a difference and turns things around, and immediately the perspective on it is changed we start to engage in the healing process rather than suffering from it. I am often aware that it is something I have chosen that has taken me into that driven-ness and control which has opened up the opportunity for me to catch the flu, or cold, or stomach upset.

     2. I agree Monika, RB has written an amazing article, one I can most definitely relate to and many others can to. Our minds can work at a million miles an hour, but it is the body that carries us through life, and is the one that will bring us the contentment we often look for with our minds but never find.

402. Thank you, really connected with this blog, the busy body and mind are something that I am learning to rest, and so come back to ‘being’ rather than ‘doing’ I really enjoyed the quote “I walked out feeling a sense of there is no way I can go back to living life as I was before.” I smiled, chuckled and also picked up on how you are in deep appreciation of the situation that had come up for you and the clarity you gained from it, very lovely.

     1. Yes, in a similar vein, today I found myself finding all that had to do today was a chore and not a joy because I was into the doing and not the allowing of myself to be in what I were my jobs for the day. I knew I had to turn things around and come back to me, be honest about something that was upsetting me before I took another step.

        1. I can relate to this Karin. It is so easy to slip into doing something and being busy to avoid feeling what is really going on me but if I momentarily stop and ask myself what’s really going on here, I give myself the opportunity feel what it is, release it and come back to being me.

        2. Hi Karin it was a gift reading your comment to this super blog. I have a busy day ahead of me and have already started to get tense looking at my list of things to do. I have just taken a breath and realised it won’t help me one bit if I spend the next few hours stressed and worried. I’ve decided to take my time and just be with each task and have fun today.

     2. That made me smile too Samantha. I am having a healing through a common illness, flu, and it is teaching me so much about being delicate, fragile and vulnerable. My mind also ran through the worst possibilities, and I suddenly felt – if it’s time for my soul to call me home, well it’s not very convenient, there’s all sorts of stuff not done, but you know what? I’ll just let it all go, someone else can finish the job. And I felt so calm and free. So when I’m back on my feet, they won’t be rushing me here, there, everywhere, trying to get stuff done. They will be gently carrying me from one place my body feels to be, to the next.

     3. Samantha I too love this line ‘ I walked out feeling a sense of there is no way I can go back living life as I was before’. I too have this appreciation in my life, I cannot imagine living life as I was before, my life has changed so much, the level of joy and love I have now is beautiful.

403. Awesome points that you bring up RB… it sure is a roller coaster and it is like we enjoy the adrenalin that comes with it. Like the cork screw that you are yelling through but at the end of it you feel on a buzz but also in shock. My body has gone through that and boy oh boy is it draining and exhausting. Once I started to let go of this ‘addiction’ when I go into it and started to develop a consistent steadiness here I feel AMAZING.

     1. yes great point Ariana ‘It’s what we then do with our amazingness that matters.’ I have been for quite some time feeling amazing but not wanting to show it to anyone because it will make them feel uncomfortable which in turn makes me feel uncomfortable!! Crazy when you think about it. Now I am allowing myself to be what I am around everyone that I meet each day and they get to see that there is another way of being… Serge has been an awesome inspiration for me and I can be the same to others.

     2. It’s fascinating how we become used to this roller coaster existence, when really all we truly deserve is the steadiness that we all come from. We only need to see and feel a baby throughout its day to remember the stillness we all are.

        1. True Jenny. If we are not vigilant the mind has a field day. When we are lost in the mind, the body is nowhere. I remember distinctly walking in such a hurry, I walked ahead of myself, not with myself. When I caught myself in this state, I realised the overdrive I was in It felt awful! I knew that if I didn’t re-connect with myself, I would be stopped. I love walking with me now.

        2. Jenny so true what you share, when we work on ourselves to bring that stillness to our body how beautiful it is. I remember for a very long time by mind would control my body, I was always on the go and doing. It is only over the last few years I have connected to my body to bring stillness. It has really changed my life.

404. A fantastic example of how the body talks to us and can force us to stop for our own good if we choose not to listen to it. When modern medicine starts to view the body as a whole rather than focusing on the part, it will be taking a step towards what Plato taught us over 2,000 years ago: “that as you ought not to attempt to cure the eyes without the head, or the head without the body, so neither ought you attempt to cure the body without the soul.”

405. Wow, this is so incredibly powerful and highlights something I’m sure many of us do. It is so easy to let our mind take control, to override our body, and always we pay the consequences. What you have shown is how with a little commitment to the process you were able to keep these detrimental thoughts at bay. Not only that, but that this whole experience has been a blessing for you, something to learn from, something you can carry forward with you and that is incredible.

406. Hi RB I love this blog and I’d like to take into my day one line in particular ‘So I treated myself like a cute child that had to be reminded that there was no need to go there, telling myself, “ just stay here with your body.”’ when I read this I felt the love in which we hold children and the playfulness and it felt like a lovely way to treat myself and others.

     1. I agree, Judy, a friend said to me recently to hold myself as the 2 year old self in my own arms for a cuddle to treasure, nurture and reassure myself I was ok. It feels beautiful to do. It’s a great blog to read to respect what the body is showing us, and not to beat ourselves up with those internal voices.

407. RB, I loved re-reading your blog again and this part was a timely reminder for me: ‘I may not have listened to my body in the past, I may have treated it with disrespect, but I can change that now. It’s up to me.’ Thank you for such an honest and inspiring blog.

408. I know just what you mean Bina, it’s like we had to have permission to be allowed to stop. The issue was deeper in the past, and I find it’s still ingrained sometimes that I can fall back into. This is another such supportive blog thank you, to remind me of this issue.

409. Having just re-read this RB – I had to stop at the questions you ask – Why do we not feel enough just being? This has been my issue in the past and it was ingrained as if I was born with it. I had a family who confirmed to me that stopping and resting was lazy and I used to feel so guilty if I ever did. In my marriage I used to recall having a go at my husband because he would take what I know today is a ‘self love break’ and stop during the day for a short rest. Thank God I met Serge Benhayon and the medicine he gave me that really has worked is that my start point each day is I AM Enough and so the doing has over time got less and less and the drive is definitely not there. My being gets my love, appreciation and attention more and more as the days unfold. No more pushing and feeling exhausted.

     1. Hear hear Bina, I too was in constant drive until I listened to Serge and started to grasp that the drive was harming my body in many ways and not the same thing at all as true purpose. I am enough is a great starting point to each day, thank you for that.

410. I can relate to this RB, “The rushing, the pushing, the constant drive was not allowing me to feel a thing”. I’m coming to understand that by being ‘on the go’ I am not allowing space in my day. If I’m not allowing space, I’m avoiding the moments to feel what’s going on. In this doing I can keep my self unaware of how I truly am and can therefore just merrily (ignorantly) carry on doing. It is no wonder that our bodies just have to give up on us to bring this to our attention. But also with that consistent doing we are actually stopping ourselves from feeling everything else around us too, and in consequence depriving ourselves of appreciating the many wonders in our day (and within ourselves!).

411. Thanks for a great article RB. Our minds can really take us off on a crazy journey if we let it. Learning to listen to my body is only one of the great gifts I have received from Universal Medicine and it’s practitioners.

412. Our bodies give us feedback about what we are NOT doing as well as what we are. In my case, I know I need to do exercises to strengthen the muscles around my joints in order to support the movement. I have been told this by several practitioners and by my doctor. I tend to forget or only do the exercises when I feel stiff, and that helps, sure, but how about I do them everyday anyway, so I don’t get stiff in the first place? Why do we wait for the consequences to happen before we do anything about it?

     1. I love what you have shared here Carmel, and I have just started writing a blog about this… because I feel that part of my recovery and my ability to walk so well now, is because I had started supporting myself with exercise before having the nerve damage, so my body already had a level of fitness as a starting point, and from there, I have been able to rebuild it.
        Taking the time to exercise to support the body, and to build strength is a beautiful way to care and support our bodies.

     2. I agree Carmel. After using some exercises my hip became much stronger and I was able to walk long distances again, so job done, I stopped doing the exercises. But my body knew otherwise, my hip became very painful, I couldn’t walk – job undone.

        Crazy, I am willing to do whatever it takes to maintain my car!

        I am back exercising again, not to ‘get’ fit, seeing it as a destination, but with more of an appreciation of looking after my body as an ongoing and ever unfolding journey.

     3. Good point Carmel, what is it in us humans that can so easily override what we know to be the truth? I used to be very good at that and then wondered why I ‘suddenly’ had an accident or I hurt myself. I listen to what my body tells me much more these days but I am still prone to overriding. Listening to what our bodies are telling us is very easy, but its making the right choice that counts.

413. I love this blog, RB. There is so much to reflect on here. I can relate to getting ‘carried away’ by what-ifs after hearing a diagnosis, and have come to realise how being in my head about what’s going on in my body takes me further away from connecting with what my body is truly telling me.

414. So beautiful to read of your journey in this, RB and that you found yourself stopping and listening to your body’s truth. It’s amazing the lengths it has to go to, isn’t it? But thank God it does!

415. RB you mention ‘the energy wasted on the “what ifs”’, for me that can be so huge.

     One question in some current research I am doing asks respondents whether looking back they feel they have worried too much in the past week. Not one person so far has said no.

416. I have had lots of incidences recently where I have allowed my head to take over and run amok. What is now beginning to happen that is different, is that I pull myself up at a junction so to speak and give myself a moment to ponder. Do I let this continue knowing full well where it leads or do I take a different path which although less familiar heralds a new way of living that is not dictated to by the chaos of my thoughts that are often just the re-running of stuff I have heard about how things should be done or look? Since working with Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine the opportunity has been loud and clear. If I listen respectfully to my body I will be guided wisely. Since everything is energy my body feels instantly and acutely the energetic quality of everything and I can say it has never been wrong…all I have to do is listen. This is an ongoing lesson as I unlearn old habits and create a rhythm and foundation for the new. Thank you RB for the clarity and openness with which you have shared your experience.

     1. Matilda, reading your comment opened my heart with the appreciation that when we chose to ‘listen respectfully to our bodies we well be guided wisely’. ‘It has never been wrong’. This is so true.

417. Reading this blog this morning was such a blessing for me. Wow. This could be said for every single situation that presents in life. We can either get swept up in the drama, go into the head, the fears the what ifs and all that, or we can make the choice to surrender and stay with the body, keeping our focus as you say RB on the love that is there around us. How majestic that you share this with us – heaven sent.
     I am currently experiencing a situation that is creating a lot of stress in my body, and I know this is because I haven’t completely surrendered and allowed myself to accept what is happening in full, the fears and the fixing wants to take over. Your blog has offered me a new appreciation of how to be in this time and in times like this to follow, to know that regardless of all that is happening, I am enough, and I deserve that rest and surrender and not to fall prey to the stress and tension of what is happening.

418. Wow this is a great blog, so many of us can relate to your way of coping with life! I recently realised how far I had moved away from that when I was awaiting tests results for my child I didn’t google anything, didn’t go into the what ifs. It was a great appreciation for how far I have moved from living in that way. But as far as your question go why do we not value being, I was in a group and felt like I was dead wood because I wasn’t doing anything, just being in the meeting – my job hadn’t started yet – and I expressed my concern that I was doing nothing, and therefore adding nothing — wow did I get it I was like but I am living this everyday, so I am doing in something in the being and living that brings a quality to the group that would not be there if I was not, I am bringing so much in just being!

     1. I feel there is a great lack of appreciation of beingness in the world. I remember a job interview where we all were given a subject to debate and every candidate including myself had to get their two bits worth, their in-depth analysis in so they could score points. The competition was fierce and there came a point where I felt we were just going around in circles not getting anywhere. I got completely caught in the got to do something to prove I was worth employing and did not support the group or the discussion. I completely lacked appreciation of what amazing, dynamic support to a situation I can bring by my being present.

        Since then I have experienced a group that supported each other by all being present and with themselves which I could tangibly feel. It was so different to how I have experienced team meetings for example. The insights and learning we came to in that meeting would not have been possible if we’d not appreciated how our being with ourselves had allowed whoever was speaking to speak what was needed in consideration for the group as a whole.

419. Hi RB. I am really inspired by your blog to trust and listen to my body no matter how alarming any symptoms may be. Thank you so much for writing about your experience and being so honest and courageous in what would have been for me very challenging circumstances. I love your commitment to yourself and will indeed practice reminding myself, ‘“ just stay here with your body,” even in everyday circumstances that may not resemble crisis stations but just not running off in my mind down a thousand scenarios. Thank you for this.

420. RB the questions you pose relate to all of mankind – “why is it when we are not doing, we do not feel we are enough”. That simple sentence covers my entire life and everything within it. So when ever I have been stopped and can no longer “do” I always find that a challenge!

421. So true Jane, ‘My own stop has made me realise how unnecessary all the pushing and trying is.’ This is something that I’m discovering too.

422. Thank you so much for this very timely blog! Recently I too was made to stop, having not listened to my body telling me how exhausted I had become from all the pushing and trying as a single parent. How amazing and wonderful our bodies are that they do communicate so beautifully with us. My own stop has made me realise how unnecessary all the pushing and trying is. Although it felt strange at first I can now feel how lovely it is to rest fully and how when I rest fully I get to feel that I am already enough without the need to feel I have to harden and struggle to get through my day

423. “what is it that we don’t feel that being is enough”
     just re-read your blog RB and the above stuck out. For me it was all about the doing and the doing gave me something – I did not have to feel me at any point and then if you repeat anything you get good at it and rewarded for it, be it recognition, acceptance, identification and this is exactly what I was doing. I had no idea at the time about my hidden agenda. I thought (there is my mind) that the doing will give me value, respect a sense of self worth. Who and what am I if I don’t Do something. This stopping which you say is a natural thing was not even on my radar.
     It took a tumour and then burning my hand soon after that eventually forced me to stop. I doubt I would have stopped even then had I not met Serge Benhayon and applied some of the simple practical ways of living that he presented.

     1. Love what you say here Bina “stopping wasn’t even on my radar”. So relate to that. Why stop if the engine isn’t broken? And if it is, just get it fixed and off you go again. Still today I have to be very diligent in giving my body proper rest (and I mean, PROPER rest). Still today I can get wrapped up in it all and days can go past without me just taking some time out for my body to talk to me, to tell me how I’m going, to steer me in the right direction. In truth, my body is talking to me the whole time. The skill is learning to stop and listen to it.

        1. When you saying that stopping wasn’t even on your radar Bina I think you speak for almost everyone. Before I came across Universal Medicine I had no idea what stopping and real rest was. For me it took a doctor after a carcrash to explain that rest actually meant doing nothing – no TV, no movies, no music. I fully agree with you Otto that taking the time to stop and rest and listen to our body is a crucial daily practise. I know for me this is definitely part of what steers me in the right direction, and without taking that time I am very likely to go off course.

     2. I too thought that the doing would bring me value, not realising that in truth I was so far from valuing myself simply for who I am. Now I am beginning to value the ‘being’ within me and with that, just being is becoming easier. This blog has again deepened my understanding of what it is to simply allow ourselves to be – to surrender, to stop, to allow, to listen, and to appreciate all the love that is within and around us. So simply put RB.

424. I love your comment that you realise that there is no way you can go back to living life as you were before. The body knows everything and we can learn to listen to its messages. My body is making me re-evaluate how I have been living too, and I am letting go of frustrations that I’ve been hanging on to. For me too, there is no going back to how I was living before.

425. Great blog thank you! I agree the mind can conjure up the worst situations, when our body’s are actually working miracles in terms of healing. My favourite part was when you wrote that the doctor said to you to carry on as before and you thought no way was that happening. Its so true! Why would you want to go back to a way of living that made you seriously ill! It’s inspiring for us to read, that we can make real and positive changes from paying attention to our bodies in situations like these.

     1. Yes. How many times do we hear the doctor say “carry on as you were”. Or, looking at this more….I realise that we all do this. A mark of a good doctor or good operation is “how quickly it will be before I’m back to normal” – the whole aim being to return the patient to his/her old life as swiftly as possible – Job done!! It’s crazy. Our bodies are trying to tell us something and we over-ride it with the sole intention of returning to our same ways.

        1. I agree – our body’s are clearly showing us the effects of our choices, but so often this is seen as fates cruel hand, and something that just needs to be fixed and overcome as quickly as possible, rather than really appreciating – this happened for a reason, and our body’s are very honest when it comes to telling us what’s not right.

426. A real revelation RB about listening to our bodies and all they are telling us thank you for sharing so honestly.
     I have found throughout my life people around me from school teachers to mother in laws helping to confirm the guilt about stopping and resting and listening to ones body.
     Maybe it is because they were not listening to their own bodies and so reflecting this to others to feel ok about it themselves.
     I too have driven myself and not stopped to listen – going against my body and my own knowing as a pattern. This is changing and is very freeing as I honour my own loving choices for me more each day.

427. This feels like a tribute to our bodies as messengers, and as I sit here this morning feeling the ache across my shoulders I am willing to learn not to tense up in my day (big study day yesterday where I sat with furrowed brow trying to work stuff out!) and to practise staying in relationship with my body what ever is going on.

     1. Thank you for sharing your journey RB and I agree that it ‘feels like a tribute to our bodies as messengers’. The reminder to ‘practise staying in relationship with my body whatever is going on’ is something I am working on and choosing to recognise the constant messages that my body is giving me rather than waiting until my body forces me to stop.

428. Well said Stephanie, only WE can know what the body is feeling, no matter what the qualification of the experts. It is our full responsibility to listen to it for our true healing to occur.

429. Great sharing. Yes it’s important to realize that modern medicine does not ‘have it all’, much as we have been conditioned to believe it so. Medicine has great stuff that can benefit us, but also has uncertainties and makes mistakes. It’s a process. Sure we can do some research of our own, but not plunging in over our depth out of fear. Our choices as patients includes making time to be still and listen to our bodies, taking full responsibility for our healing process (no-one else should or can), discernment in choosing our doctors and treatments, stepping up and being an equal partner on the team that is assisting us with our health, not lesser just because we don’t have the ‘qualifications’. Our qualification is that we are a human with the body that is needing assistance and knowing what it needs.

     1. Thank you Dianne for your input – such beautiful wisdom with regard to our choices in our own healing process and the balance with conventional medicine. I love your statement about equal partnership on the health team –

        “Our choices as patients includes making time to be still and listen to our bodies, taking full responsibility for our healing process (no-one else should or can), discernment in choosing our doctors and treatments, stepping up and being an equal partner on the team that is assisting us with our health, not lesser just because we don’t have the ‘qualifications’. Our qualification is that we are a human with the body that is needing assistance and knowing what it needs.”

     2. Thank Diane your beautiful wisdom is so awesome. Like you say medicine is a process and for ever evolving. We all can do our parts along the way for this ever evolving and healing process.

        1. Very wise words Amita, and it is our responsibility to do our part and what a joy it is to know that this is the case.

     3. A beautiful tribute to self responsibility Diane.

430. What an amazing blessing you had; the opportunity given to you to completely re-evaluate life

431. I agree RB, I am often stunned at the amount of scenarios I can come up with for possible future events, and if I let them play out, they can actually effect how I feel, even if the scenario is complete nonsense.

     1. Great point Rebecca, it is incredible how we can let the mind run scripts and scenarios and how they affect us back with anxiety, worries and expectations.

432. Thank you RB, I can relate to letting the mind take over and worry myself to death that I may have this disease or that condition and then in the end find out it’s not that complicated.

433. Yes, Michael, our body is the greatest teacher when we remember to be taught by it. It is easy to ignore the loud lessons our bodies try to convey, but from my own experience I have learned so much by paying attention to what the problems are that my body shows me. My patterns of behaviour and choices get highlighted and spotlighted for me to look at. We do ourselves such a great disservice by assuming illness and disease is random and almost drops out on us from the sky above, without realising we are the cause of it all through how we choose to live.

434. I can really relate to what you’ve shared here RB, being one to try to control things by “understanding” an issue fully through research etc., when all along our bodies are the greatest teachers, as you have proven by example, since you may not have come to the same understanding without the initial loss of control of your legs.

     1. Control is such an interesting concept, that we all put so much effort into. Why is it that allowing ourselves to simply be is not seen as being as important or as strong a call. It’s effortless and connected to everything that is going on around us. The benefit is that we can then feel everything that is going on.

435. Thank you for sharing this RB. Wow – the more our bodies really talk to us and show us things, the stronger the mind becomes – like a competition of what we should trust!
     But what’s lovely here is that you aligned your mind as part of your body, not the answer to your body’s cry for help. And what a difference you share here.
     This is a great lesson for all of us! Thank you

436. Thank you RB. Your sharing here relates to what happens when our physical body causes an involuntary STOP for us. This sharing took me to the old patterns and beliefs that if not STOPPED, will keep the same behaviours playing out. Developing responsibility and awareness is key. You have ‘woken up’ from the nightmare of go go go. Well felt YOU and a great lesson for all.
     Thank you again

437. It was so insightful of you to learn the roller coaster journey of your illness. I know in the past, I could’ve gone done the line of blaming the doctors in a similar situation for getting the diagnoses wrong. The extra stress and energy on the ‘what ifs’ is crazy but I have been there too, focussing on completely the wrong message. With the understanding now, similar to yours, there are so many messages to take from this, for us all to grow. Thank you for sharing it.

438. It’s amazing what a journey the mind can take us on, far far away from reality. We call ourselves intelligent, but that intelligence is not something that is there in the mind. It comes from the body and feeling what is really going on.

     1. Yep, and I now choose to follow my body and not my mind.. and when I get off track, I just have to remember that if its simple… its probably my bodies best option.. If its complicated… it just could be my mind trying to take me off on another roller coaster ride!

     2. So true Simon, how far our mind can take us from reality. What I am learning to feel as soon as I have a raciness in my body I can feel I have gone into my head.

439. Totally hear what you are saying RB about the stress the mind can play on medical situations. A fear of being human I feel. I have recently started to understand that this fear is born out of the fact that up until that point I abused my body as if I was immortal. Any ailment I feel is a reminder I am not and my mind can’t stand to see the truth. I have recently learnt to love my body so much and understand the signs it gives me and now if stuff like this comes up I love learning about it (from both Medical and UniMed practitioners) and applying the deeper loving choices to help support what my body is telling me. Even writing this now feels amazing because as a guy and knowing my past I sometimes find it hard to believe I have come so far back to taking care of me. What an awesome appreciation. Lovely.

     1. Wow! A great observation Phil -“I have recently started to understand that this fear is born out of the fact that up until that point I abused my body as if I was immortal. Any ailment I feel is a reminder I am not and my mind can’t stand to see the truth.”
        I am enjoying seeing the changes you are making from your choices to take more care of you – a gentle, real cool guy!

        1. I agree Stephanie, I loved that observation too and its so true. Love the blog RB

        2. Yes Judy it is so true…..and a continual unfolding learning curve!

     2. Thanks for your comment Phill. I love what I have learnt from Universal Medicine as it has given me a real insight into taking real care of my body, and being responsible for it, along with what my doctors have suggested.

        What I also noticed with your comment, is that taking care of ourselves is not just something that women do, but is something that supports both men and women equally.

     3. That ‘s amazing Phill.

     4. That’s a great point Phil, thank you for sharing.

     5. I agree Phill, the fear that comes up for me whenever I feel ill or feel that something might be wrong, is simply born from the fear of being caught out in the way I was living.

440. Thank you for a great blog. What struck me was the mention of being a control freak and wanting to look everything up, but then when you just let it be, everything turned out all right in the end.

     1. I know that feeling. Anything that is wrong and its been a quick hop onto google for the answer!

        1. Yes, I know this one too! Sometimes the ‘quick hop to google’ is not supportive at all – my mind can go into worrying more about outcomes and ‘what if’s….’ when seeing the list of symptoms etc. I am finding as I listen to my body more, I really do know if it is something requiring a deeper investigation – all work in progress !

        2. I’ve definitely done that one before… however the worldwide web is a vast and distant library and I often find my own particular symptom I’m looking for is linked directly and indirectly to millions of conditions all over the internet…

441. Love your blog RB. I can completely relate to how the mind can take control if we start to doubt or question ourselves.

     1. Oh doubt yes, I have recently seen how incidious this can be. I saw how it took me away from feeling my body and what I know to be true, yet I have let doubt rule me quite a lot in my life . Not anymore though.

     2. I definitely agree, Susie. It’s crazy the thought processes that go on as soon as one drop of doubt comes in..

     3. Yes it is as if our mind has been waiting for a chance to take control: “we have self doubt switch the engines on”. And then it just gains momentum from there. Until, as some earlier comments mentioned, we choose to get off the ride.

442. This was lovely to read. I could feel your power when you started talking about approaching it all in a different way and the whole energy of your writing changed. What a beautiful reminder of how simple things can be if we choose to leave ourselves alone and just be. A lovely honest blog, thank you

443. Great point Mary – time does seem to be there when we don’t get caught up in things. When we do however there never seems enough!

444. It is amazing how many people push through the pain and warnings. I always thought I was the only one to search up the stuff that can possibly happen but apparently not. So I can relate to this article a lot. Thank you for sharing.

     1. Ben, and imagine how much information we now have easily available in the internet and how this can only adds to our confusion when we are lead by a roller coaster of thoughts from our minds.

        1. Yes, and not everything that we have access to on the internet is true. In fact, there is no regulation so anyone can write anything about anything and we really do have to be careful with what we believe or even just what we read, because unconsciously we somehow take it on.

        2. Yes there is so much information on the internet these days with no regulation which can lead to many unrealistic thoughts and imaginings of what could be happening.

445. So true, RB. I too pushed and pushed until I had a heart attack and only then did I start listening to my body and truly and honestly change my way of living and all thanks to Serge Benhayon and my partner. But the interesting thing is that before then there had been plenty of warnings, which I chose to ignore because there were more ‘important’ things – and each time how wrong I was to go back to my former life as though nothing had happened. This is such a learning and great to expose it.

     1. Hi Michael, This is a great point you have about how great it is to expose the choices we make to override the signals that our own bodies give, and the consequences that follow.

        1. And I think we can all relate to that… our body giving us the signals but we don’t listen, and instead make other things and other people more important than the body we are living in.

     2. It is remarkable that so often we feel ill, or experience pain and discomfort, wait for it to ease off and then go straight back to what we were doing before. Completely bonkers! It is a wonderful moment when we suddenly get it that we need to change tack, that perhaps what we were doing isn’t such a great idea after all! It is so joyful to hear that people can make major life changes and choose a new way to live because of something their body very definitely pointed out to them.

     3. I feel blessed to have access to blogs and comments such as this: So I can gain a greater understanding of the signals my body gives me BEFORE something like a heart attack happens.

446. Thanks RB for this very inspiring and honest account of what you have been through. We are how we live and we all need to take the same level of responsibility for our own health and well being as you now do.

447. I love the analogy of a roller coaster – fast, dramatic, scary at times and it always follows the same track, repeating it over and over again. It is such an ingrained pattern to go off into my head I often forget that I am the one that got there in the first place, as such I am also the one that can get off the ride and stay off.

     1. Leigh, thank you for your very timely reminder I am the one that can get off the roller coaster ride that is my mind. I love how you say that it always follows the same track. Its the one that never takes me to truth. Sometimes it skirts close by to trick me, but it never takes me all the way there.

     2. ‘I am also the one that can get off the ride and stay off.’ – that is very true Leigh.

     3. Leigh so true – If we choose to get on, we can choose to get off the crazy ride at any point. I also find it’s been important for me to learn to live without the thrill and stimulation of such roller coaster rides, that just elevate my nervous system and make me feel exhausted, and appreciate that life is more than enough without it.

        1. Absolutely Meg…and that WE are enough without the roller coaster. Often I know I have used the roller coaster as entertainment because I have felt empty without the drama. Learning that I am enough as I am without the whirlwind has been a big healing.

        2. Very true Meg. If I don’t apply conscious presence at every moment of the day, it is far too easy for my nervous system to go back to previous patterns of wanting to be stimulated. I am constantly learning and understanding that I am enough.

448. I know the roller coaster ride of my mind so well… it makes life so much harder and tense. Far simpler, and a lot more enjoyable, to just be me!

449. Going back to living life as before is a common practise and outcome many want from treatment be it medical intervention or healing modality or both. Many practitioners and individuals have been fooled into thinking this is a good thing and the ultimate outcome.

     One of the best lessons I ever learnt when I had a healing crisis was identifying this desire to get back to my life and way of living as soon as possible was merely a way for me to not take responsibility for getting myself to this crisis in the first place. Allowing true universal medicine into ones life does not allow you to get away with this, just as you describe RB, and reveals the gift the illness brings. Once I surrendered to the healing being offered it made it thousands of times easier to work with the medical profession and allowing them to also assist in my healing. The experience has been truly profound.

     1. Yes and yes Suzanne, my experience of illness was one of an overriding desire to return to ‘health’ with little or no reflection and/or responsibility for getting sick in the first place. When I learnt to let go of being in control of the outcome I began to understand what true healing is.
        Thank you RB for your insightful article.

        1. Hi there Jacky, thank you for your comment.
           It is really a big step to take, the letting go of control part but it is amazing what then happens, once we allow, and get our mind out of the way.

        2. This is beautiful wisdom shared here Jacky and RB, I feel touched and blessed reading this just now. My experience is not medical as such but what you speak of here in terms of letting go of the control, the mind and allowing for the surrender, and as you speak of Jacky ‘the desire to return to ‘health’ with little or no reflection and or responsibility for getting sick in the first place’. This is gold for us all.

     2. I have just read an article in the UK asking should we let our children play rugby because of the dangers and injuries in the sport. Part of the article was on a boy who, in a rugby tackle lost the feeling in the right side of his body and was in hospital for 4 months. He still has not got feeling in this side of his body yet he feels it will return and when it does wants to play rugby again! I was reminded of this after reading your comment “one of the best lessons I ever learnt when I had a healing crisis was identifying this desire to get back to my life and way of living as soon as possible”. I think many of us still need to learn this and do not truly listen to illnesses or what our body is trying to tell us. We just want things to go back to the way they were. This is a big lesson for us all.

     3. Reading about how often we just want to get over the injury or disease simply so we can return to where we left off, reminded me of the first time I heard the statement that stunned me: “If someone falls off a horse, you’ve got to get them straight back into the saddle”!!! I could not believe my ears when I heard that. Of course they were right from where they stood, mind over matter (i.e. mind over body) and all that. If the person was not pushed back into the saddle, they might have enough time to feel the situation and their body and decide “nah I don’t want to do it again.” And that was seen as a failure, to be avoided at all costs, even at the cost of the person’s body.

        1. Being an ex horse rider I can vouch for the complete madness of that statement Golnaz and its true. If you didn’t need to go to hospital, you had to clamber back on before you could even feel how your body felt otherwise you would saying ‘nah, not doing that again’. It just shows how much we deny and override our bodies and push them to extremes. All our bodies are really asking us to do is to take great care of themselves in every moment! Simple really and we make it so complicated.

        2. I’ve bought into that one Golnaz, But it was falling off my bicycle, stepladder,or tripping over when walking. I would leap up , so as not to look vulnerable, or a fool. and carry on, pretending to be OK. Afterwards I would go into shock, getting shaky and unbalanced. I gradually learned to listen to my body yelling to be taken notice of. I no longer ride a bike, nor want to, only go up stepladders when my body feels ok to do it, and the last time I missed a step and fell full length down a garden path, I lay there on the path until my body felt right to get up. I still get caught out by the odd bump or trip, and see it as my body’s way of helping me to be more aware of how I am being with it.

        3. Oh thanks for sharing that one Golnaz! How many times did I not listen to the pain and even the fear.. and I would get back in the saddle, toughen up and carry on. I actually did that in many ways throughout my life. I never stopped to feel, wouldn’t allow myself to cry and didn’t want to be aware and definitely didn’t want to have to take responsibility for my choices!

        4. Good point Golnaz, ‘If the person was not pushed back into the saddle, they might have enough time to feel the situation and their body and decide “nah I don’t want to do it again.” We are always told to get straight back in there as if nothing has happened. If you don’t, then you are labelled as weak or scared. If we actually stopped for a while and truly listened to our bodies we may even decide to look at why we had the accident in the first place.

450. Thank you RB for sharing this great story. How wrong can we be and go off and actually create more stress in our life. I can really relate to you when you speak about the push and drive and not feeling enough. I had a huge guilt issue with doing nothing and my family were all hard workers and resting was always seen as lazy.
     Like you I am glad my body made me stop as I doubt I would have changed as my behaviour was so ingrained it was like I could not stop.
     Even after being diagnosed with a tumour and having major surgery I could still feel a tension to want to get up and move. Being still and doing nothing was a luxury for others and not me. Today I deeply value my rest time and as often as possible I will take a nap during the day if I can. This new way of Being and Living has allowed me to slow down enough to stop and Appreciate daily what really matters and how simple life can be if we choose it.

     1. Being still and doing nothing is something I’ve found really hard. Being still is fine, but doing nothing? There was always a bit of sewing, knitting, a book, tv, computer,etc that I used to justify the fact that I was sitting down. I am slowly re-patterning that one, love the idea of that nap, thanks Bina.

451. Thank you so much for sharing your journey with such honesty. Very inspiring the way you pulled out of having to find the fix, the cure and control everything, to blessing your body for making you stop and re-evalute your life and your choices. It’s so gorgeous when we can appreciate and thank our bodies for showing us that the way we are treating them is not working and even more amazing at the shifts our bodies can make when we finally get it and start loving them. Miraculous.

     1. Great reminder Rowena and RB. I’ve often seen my body not functioning properly as a sign of weakness and something to fix rather than seeing it and appreciating it for what it is truly showing me about the way I am living. That is changing but it is a very strong pattern from using my body for what I want to get (or think I want to get) rather than honouring it.

        1. Very poignant remark David – using our bodies for what WE want rather than honouring our bodies for what they do for us and how to keep them well.

452. This is a brilliant article RB showing how our bodies are so clear with us with the messages they give us if we listen. I can relate to this, my body has shown me very clearly that I needed to look at my life and how I was living. And I know that one, the mind chatter that kicks in to distract me from it with those ‘what if’s’ and amplifying it taking me off further away.

     1. Agree Ruth – my mind had a life of its own until I finally got the many messages from my body that it didn’t have to be the mind in control. Looking at how I was living was a big one, being honest with myself and trusting I knew the answers brought a whole new way of being into my life. Great blog RB and totally inspiring.

        1. Yes so true. We let our minds take control because really we want to ignore what our bodies are telling us because it mostly likely means we have to clean up our act!

     2. Oh Ruth, that mind chatter. It used to nag away at me until it got its own way! Now I am more likely to tell it ‘go away, thats not me’. And, most times, it does. But it’s work in progress, because the mind can be really sneaky, ready to grab any opportunity to dominate.

453. So often we wait for an illness or disease to slow us down, or stop us completely from our ‘normal’ life before we notice the things we do all the time that don’t support our bodies. My body is always showing me things like little aches or discomforts and I’m working on noticing these little messages more and even more importantly, not ignoring them, so that I don’t wait for a more serious sign to stop me in my tracks before I pay attention and be more careful with my body.

     1. Well said, Laura. The little signs are there all the time if we listen.

        1. exactly it is like that with most areas of our lives, we always know what truly is going on but are masters of turning a blind eye!

     2. Hi Arianna, I am laughing at your comment as I look back and see how many times I had to be stopped by my body (by a pain, an accident…) and how I would fight against it, wanting to continue to do the exact same thing that got me pain or the accident.

     3. Laura, thanks for the great little reminder here to pay attention to those seemingly small aches and pains before they turn into something bigger than perhaps we’d like… Prevention rather than cure really is amazing if we catch the signs before they develop into something bigger and potentially more painful…

     4. That is so true Laura, I know my body has had to get pretty serious with me before I would listen! It is a much better health plan to be paying attention to the little things before it all gets out of hand and we end wondering how on earth we got so sick. My health has improved no end from choosing to feel what is going on in my body in relation to all the things I ask from it. The feedback it gives me these days is much less extreme!

     5. Well said Laura, we do not need to wait for something big to happen to force us to stop, rather we can notice when we are not in harmony, or are not being tender with ourselves and make the change then and not ignore all the signs, simply reminding us of the love that we are, that we get throughout the day.

     6. This is a great reminder Laura, that any little sign or symptom is our body telling us to pay attention. It’s saying, ‘uh, hellllloo’, I’m trying to tell you something here so are you going to listen, or ignore me until you can’t ignore me any longer because I hurt too much!’ I am definitely learning to listen more acutely to my very clever and wise body when it sends me a signal.

454. This is a great blog RB, thankyou for your honesty and openness. I too can relate to how easily I can allow my thoughts to take over, and before I know it have got caught up in something complex and unnecessary instead of listening to my body and allowing what it is telling me to unfold lovingly. A great reminder to stop and truly listen to what our ‘best friend’ is telling us!

     1. True. I have also recently noticed how my mind can think up all sorts of prognosis but when I listen to my body itself, it is all very simple and I find an intelligence and perfect organisation behind all the seemingly random responses my body is showing me.

     2. Very true Ariana we can cook up all sorts of scenarios left to our own devices and it is very humbling when we are brought gently back to earth with very simple remedies. And we wasted all that time and effort concocting all manner of outcomes and results when all we needed was to rest or eat differently or exercise a bit more!

     3. So true Rowena, the mind concocting things uses so much energy energy, exhausting in fact! Work in progress for me, gently ‘bringing my mind back to more awareness to be able to work with my body rather than in opposition to it.

     4. RB’s blog highights how the mind can lead us astray, away from the knowing of our bodies. We get out the diagnosis books, check on the internet, worry, get anxious, tense and irritable, which affects those we live with, when as Sandra says, all we have to do is stop, and listen to our body and allow ‘what it is telling me to unfold lovingly’. Just reading those words invokes a sense of calm. Thank you Sandra

455. Thank you RB for your very honest share with us all and timely reminder of our choice…mind or body?

456. RB your line, ‘ really focus my energy on the real things in life – the people around me and the love that is there,’ is so inspiring. Time for me to get off the roller coaster ride of uncertainty and anxiety and just surrender. Thank you.

457. Hi RB. It is inspiring to read how you turned things around and chose to connect with yourself rather than succumb to the mind and its tricks. What an amazing healing process for you – thank you for sharing it with us.

458. Thank you RB deeply inspiring and something that I will ponder on as I am one that will easily go into my mind rather than stay with my body. You have raised some very important questions to reflect on and something I know is now important for me is to let myself surrender rather than constantly keep on going.

459. A beautiful sharing RB. Great to see that the stop your body provided really was a blessing. An inspiration that you embraced it so. Thank you for sharing your experience.

460. Thank you RB for your beautiful and revealing blog. Like you I can get caught up in the games that my mind can play when I dis-connect from my body. It is so lovely when we recognise that we do have a choice in this.

461. What a great insight RB. I can take a lot from it! Thank you

462. Wow thank you RB what a powerful blog. I have totally been there where I have allowed my mind to run away with possibilities and fear factors rather than staying present and feeling what the body is telling me. Thank you for sharing your experience it is a strong confirmation that we are able to learn and grow through any situation if we so listen to the wisdom of our bodies and what it is telling us.

463. Thank you everyone for your comments, it feels great to read and share with you all.

464. Thank you for sharing RB, very inspiring to read. It is soo easy to go into my mind, get caught up in the story, go into a panic and forget about me and feeling what is really going on.

     1. Yes James, what a roller-coaster when we choose the mind over our bodies.

465. Thanks for sharing this RB. It was beautiful to see how the stop that your body provided for you actually was a blessing in disguise. Something I can relate to – having needed to be pulled up by my body to recognise that the way I was living wasn’t harmonious.

466. Thank you for sharing RB, so many of us just keep pushing and going, only stop when our bodies bring us to a stop. I know I have not stopped, until I started to have health problems, that I realised if I continue my life the same way I was heading for a disaster. Only when the scare happened I made a conscious choice to change the way I lived and my self care.

     1. Yes, I only stopped with the scare.. even though I knew I needed to slow down for a long long time… I was just not listening.

467. Absolutely Ariana. Powerful questions, why indeed…?

468. Amazing, I can completely relate, when ever I make time to rest, I feel like I am wasting my day, and that doing things is far better use of my time, except it isn’t and it is taking the time out to rest that allows us to keep going in the future. It is amazing how the mind can run away with us and comes up with a million scenarios and answers in a few seconds flat, and its so easy to get caught up and not be able to see past them. What an massive learning and brilliant experience, thank you for sharing.

469. Wow, What a powerful healing you have allowed your body to give you. I can really relate to how the mind can take over, and how, more recently, I’m stopping it too. Well done, what an amazing journey.

470. RB. A. Wonderful blog, telling us of your experience, and how the mind took you on a roller coaster ride. You them took control of the mind games, and listened to you body.You are in inspiration to all who may go through some kind of illness.

     1. Thank you Mike, we don’t even need to get ill to see how we allow our mind to take us on roller coaster rides, in many different ways.

471. Hi RB. I have been through a similar experience over this past year, and it is really lovely to read how you have embraced your situation with such love and clarity. And I really admire how you have been able to write about it as well, sharing your experience with such honesty with everyone. Thankyou.

     1. Thanks Shami, I love writing, I find it to be such a great experience and I am really enjoying reading everyones comments.

     2. It is amazing when you read an article you can so relate to, and feel like you’re not alone in something, or get inspiration from how someone else has lived. That is why I so love reading these blogs, they are ceaselessly amazing.

472. Yes Ariana, strange how we are not asked these questions from a young age. It is actually sad how so many of us are identified by what we do, instead of being seen and appreciated just for being ourselves.

473. This is great RB, I love ‘for me to take responsibility for my part, which is to surrender, listen and allow.’ This is so simple compared to the control, the drama, the struggle and the fear.

     1. Simple..yes.. but sometimes can seem like it is not even possible.. but it is!

474. Great to hear that you were able to choose stillness even at the time of such stress, when fear had started to get a grip, and would for most have had total control. It is very inspiring and affirming to know that even at times of crisis there is another way, and that we do not need to loose ourselves.

     1. Thats right Catherine, and I am still a work in progress..

475. What resonated with me most in this article was where RB shared on the importance of us taking responsibility for our part in the healing process, which is to surrender, listen and allow. Recently I had some medical procedures where I made the shoice to surrender and allow and the experience was much less traumatic than when I tried to control similiar situations, which was my way in the past.

     1. Thank you Elizabeth, Traumatic being the keyword. I was making it traumatic not just for myself, but for everyone around me… but I too had the power to change that. And what a relief it was once I chose not to go into drama.

        1. I have experienced this too, RB and Elizabeth, all through my life I have made a drama about any physical symptom, magnified it in my mind, gone into fantasy and the “what ifs”, and then tried to blame it on a belief that I must have suffered a serious trauma when I was a baby because I have always been so frightened of what my body is trying to tell me. Consequently I gave myself many unwelcome and unnecessary symptoms. But now I know that pattern I am more able to stay with the symptom and see it for what it is, a product of the way I have been living, and when I do manage to stay still and feel me inside, and that I am greater more powerful than the symptoms, then they fade.I have had numerous medical investigations this year, but you know what? there is nothing wrong in my system! That just shows what I have been doing to myself by trying to control my body with my mind. Now it is up to me.

     2. I absolutely agree Elizabeth – taking responsibility means that we experience the situation as a healing rather than that life is against us or ‘that something has happened to us’. This then empowers us as we further unfold by looking at how maybe we have not been so self-loving and self-caring in our lives and what different choices can be made.

476. Great questions RB for us all to consider;
     Why is it that when we are not doing, we do not feel as though we are enough?
     Why is it that we don’t feel that Being is enough?
     Why do we listen to those voices that are telling us we are lazy, when we know so well that we are far from lazy, and that to stop and rest is just a natural loving thing to do for the body?
     Why do we feel guilty to stop?
     Thank you so much as I was a creator of roller coasters in my mind as well and this has given me so much migraines in the past, it is great to learn to listen and trust that our bodies are telling the truth.

477. I love your story RB, so great to remind ourselves to stop and not to take everything or even life for granted!

     1. OH YEAH!!! Each moment is precious, and is an opportunity not to be missed.. not to be numb, but to feel it.

478. An amazing sharing, thank you RB, inspirational revealing the power of the mind and the roller coaster way of living.
     I too have lived this in my own way and seeing this and learning to trust and love myself and live from my heart connecting to myself is my journey I am on too and the changes are beautiful and loving to feel.
     Learning it is enough to just be all of me and appreciate that is an amazing way to be.

479. Thank you for sharing this, RB. This is such a powerful reminder of the power of listening to our bodies and the dire consequences when we do not and instead listen to our mind.

480. I know the roller coaster ride of my mind so well and you raise some great questions in all of this. Thank you.

481. Great blog, thankyou RB. My mind can take me off in all directions until I notice and bring it back to my body, something I never used to do, indeed never really noticed – just thought ” this is how it is”. Focusing on the present has helped me so much to stop my mind careering off into imagined scenarios that will in all likelihood never take place, especially relevant re health issues.
     Another point: “Why is it that when we are not doing, we do not feel as though we are enough?” We are after all human beings not human doings. So many of us – myself included – are still dealing with this one. A very empowering article for anyone, but maybe especially for those going though a health crisis.

     1. Thanks Sue, your comment made me remember being told, “don’t follow your heart, always listen to your mind as it is smarter”… and I can see how damaging that could be.. as it just takes away from feeling our body.

482. This blog resonated very clearly with me. The disturbances caused to our body by a roller coaster mind are enormous. Recently I allowed fear of a possible physical problem to grip my mind and suddenly felt pain in my body where a scan had shown up something. I had felt no pain before the scan and when I let go of my mind and was gentle and accepting of myself, the imagined pain disappeared.

483. To quote Serge Benhayon, ” The body is the marker of truth.”
     So true, our body can reveal so much if we stop, feel and listen to it.
     I’ve had times when my body has forced me to stop through accidents and illness. Like you RB I am now paying attention to my body and how I treat it.

484. This is a very timely piece! I too have struggled with being in my head and allowing my thoughts to run how I feel (It’s like they take hold and literally run me!) This then affects the physiology of my body and makes me racy but also has a numbing effect. I allow the thoughts because I don’t want to feel what is there to be felt or to accept some of the choices I have made. Instead as you say it’s like reminding a child all the time, no stay with your body and just feel what is there.. When I do this it allows a space for observing those feelings and more often than not I get to some awesome realisations, some great aha moments too that offer up opportunities for making different, more loving and truly supporting choices.

     1. Michelle, I love how honestly you wrote this:
        I allow the thoughts because I don’t want to feel what is there to be felt or to accept some of the choices I have made.
        Ouch! I still do that! … awareness is a great start..! Thanks for your response.

485. What you share is very supportive. To stay with the body, to feel and appreciate all that it is showing rather than going into the head and creating drama. Also to look at how we live that creates the ill in the first place and finally just allowing the body to be. Thanks for sharing.

486. Thank you RB for a great article full of so much awareness. If we could only accept that when our bodies are not functioning properly it is a BLESSING to allow us to come back to who we truly are and not stay on the roller-coaster of mental thoughts.

487. What a great sharing RB, for who could blame you or anyone who found themselves in the dire situation you did for worrying… as this is our ‘natural response’ or so we think. This beautiful piece of writing though has shown us all another way… through your ability to contemplate your situation so wisely and observe yourself so honestly you have exposed the damage that we can add to a situation if we refuse to surrender to the simplicity of staying with ourself, right smack in our own body, feeling all that is to be felt in each and every moment and honouring these feelings instead of the so called ‘natural response’ of totally deserting the body once again after it has called us to attention – for having not fully considered it to date… then taking off on another wild ‘roller coaster ride of the mind’ –  that is even worst than the ride we are usually on to pushing us to ‘do more’… that had overridden the distressed body in the first place. Such an easy trap to find oneself falling for. Thank you for your brilliant insight.

     1. Thank you Kathleen, I love this part:
        surrender to the simplicity of staying with ourself, right smack in our own body, feeling all that is to be felt in each and every moment and honouring these feelings instead of the so called ‘natural response’ of totally deserting the body once again after it has called us to attention.

488. I can really relate to this, how I have let my mind run away with something and not actually felt what my body was saying – which is normally saying something completely different if I give it half a chance. I am slowly learning this more and more, to listen to my body and not my mind.. although this is still work in progress.

489. How beautiful to read how your body changed as you listened to it and nurtured it more, an inspiring blog, thank you RB.

     1. Nothing short of miraculous.

490. This is such a beautiful blog RB, I’ve not had a health crisis like you describe but I so identify with what you describe of being tyrannised and lost in my mind to the detriment of my body, and I had many aha’s as I read seeing that I don’t have to do this – how I can be with my mind; how I can feel how I have to do to have value (that one is very insidious). As you say our minds if we allow them can take over and run us like puppets. It’s really inspiring to feel the steps and love you’ve taken to stop and truly see what doesn’t work for you and commit to making the changes to support you in that. Thank you you’ve reminded me that my mind doesn’t have to rule me.

491. This is such an awesome reminder of the controlling power we give our minds vs the true power that is found in connecting with ourselves. An amazing blog. Thank you for sharing!

     1. Yes Naren, and the more awareness that we bring to it, the more we are able to not let our “minds” lead the way.

492. How awesome that this physical impairment actually helped you realise that how you had been living had to change, and that your body was teaching you, ‘to fully stop and re-evaluate how I was living. The rushing, the pushing, the constant drive was not allowing me to feel a thing and in that, I was not aware of the damage I was causing to not only to myself, but to my daughter and everyone around me.’ What a great understanding you allowed for yourself, what a blessing indeed.
     I can relate with the initial diagnosis how you went into anxiety, so allowing the mind to go into overdrive, and then you realised that, ‘All this thinking was in fact a distraction from just feeling what my body was signalling to me. I feel it is asking me to slow down. It is showing me that the way I have been living, in constant push, always busy, always taking on more than necessary, is not okay.’ What an amazing teacher our body is if we allow ourselves to just stop and listen to it.
     Great sharing thank you RB and I definitely agree, “there is no way I can go back to living life as I was before.”. This was an incredible deep healing for you.

     1. Thank you Lorraine, I agree, this whole experience was a blessing. At the time that was hard to see and appreciate but now it is very clear and I wouldn’t want it any other way.

493. I feel inspired by the vast differences between letting your mind run the show, and actually what was possible for you when you stopped and listened to what your body was telling you. Thank you for sharing.

     1. Thank you Cheryl, I wanted to share, as I felt so many would be able to relate, as I know I am not the only one who lets their mind take over!

        1. I shared this recently with someone and they got back to me today saying they could really relate to everything you were talking about, so that was pretty cool to hear about.

494. When I have been in similar situations and let my mind go off out of control, it has not been fun, it’s been a downward spiral. Wonderful to read how you stopped in the midst of doing that. The contrast shown by your acknowledgement that this behaviour was “a distraction from just feeling what my body was signalling to me” and later on you choosing to appreciate and honour the loving messages that was being offered to you by all of this, is inspiring. Thank you. What a great friend we have in our body – forever giving us wise clues about life. This friend is not appreciated nearly enough.

     1. A great friend indeed Golnaz. And RB’s article showed how embracing, and appreciating that friend allows us to stop, breathe and not allow the mind to take us into that downward spiral of ‘must do’. Its certainly helped me.

     2. Yes Golnaz, this friend of mine – my body is getting more and more appreciated daily. Nothing quite like not being able to walk for a wake up call.

     3. Thank you RB and Golnaz, for every moment we listen to our bodies we are blessed with insight and wisdom.

     4. This is so true Golnaz, beautifully written, ‘what a great friend we have in our body -forever giving us wise clues about life. This friend is not nearly appreciated enough.’

     5. Loved you the way you put this Golnaz – the beautiful thing about this great friend is that the body never lies!

495. Such a great article RB! Thank you so much for sharing your experience. It’s incredible how we do just let our minds run the show without stopping to consider what it’s doing to us! I certainly relate to what you share and know that there are times when I allow my mind to go into over drive (it’s been quite a familiar pattern!), taking me on this epic roller coaster, fueling the ride and exasperating situations even more with imagine outcomes! Phew- exhausting!! You clearly show the value in stopping to ask some great questions which naturally lead us to seeing that there is another way and that it’s simply a matter of staying with our body and living from there. Truly inspiring, and so simple!

     1. Exhausting it is! And oh the places you end up going! Miles away from where you actually are.

496. Thank you RB – this is so inspiring to read and also a great reminder that when we get stuck in our minds, it is at the expense of our body. When listening to the body, we are able to respond accordingly e.g. by resting when required rather than pushing or trying too hard.

     1. Exactly, and the more we listen, the more we are able to feel. Quite a lovely experience really.

497. Thank you RB for sharing your roller coaster ride with your medical diagnosis. It is amazing how much the body is able to send messages to us to slow down or stop. Your blog has made me stop and think how much I over-ride and go into my head to finish a task rather than listening to my body. This line resonated with me “I can see now how I put myself on a number of roller coaster rides that were unnecessary had I just stayed with my body and the present moment – a great learning.”

     1. Thank you Alison, all I can say is from my experience… take the time to listen to the small messages from your body so that it does not have to speak so loud and clear as it did in my case.

498. Love how you expose the antics of the mind when all that’s really needed is a deeper connection with the body.

     1. And what I have found is that there is no limit, there is always an opportunity to deepen that connection with my body.

499. I really appreciate this post, it brings home to me just how powerfully I can let my mind control my daily life and keep me away from just feeling what is going on. It is so easy to fall into the story and the drama and I admire how you stopped that and brought it back to the simplicity of what your body was telling you with the dis-ease you felt. And it’s a real testament that you know you can’t just carry on as before, there is a change to how you live required, which the body so beautifully presented.

     1. Yes Stephen, in the past I have ignored what my body has tried to tell me loud and clearly, by ignoring all the obvious signals. This time, not being able to walk really put a halt to that!! No more of that I say.. I love being able to walk again and I am prepared to listen to my body every day.

500. A beautifully written blog RB, with an awesomely wise message – one that each one of us can continually revisit. I have been the queen of the roller coaster ride, one that took me down many ruinous paths, and now I just want to stay with me, abide with me, the most beautiful place in the world.
     Thank you for sharing your incredible story.

     1. Thank you Lyndy… it is amazing where our mind can take us if we allow it…

     2. Lyndy, absolutely a wonderful blog to revisit. I am laughing whilst I read some comments, including my own comments as in a moment of roller coaster we can forget how the mind can trick us.

501. Yes it is totally amazing the messages and lessons that the body can give us and for the most part we tend to ignore them completely. It is as if the mind is saying “don’t pay any attention to that. It’s not important”. It makes me ponder on why the mind shouldn’t care about messages the body is sending us.

     1. So true Doug, its as if we say, everything else is more important than this body that we live in.

502. Thank you RB. Your choice to be in your body and not lost in your mind was the beginning of a great healing for you…and your story is indeed a great healing for us.

     1. Thank you Rod, it has been an amazing healing experience.

     2. Certainly Rod, an inspiring and very practical sharing.

503. Thank you for sharing RB – I too have used my mind in the past to send me on a ‘roller coaster’ of emotions, turning something that has happened into a huge deal unnecessarily

     1. Awareness is the start.. to just even realise that we are on another roller coaster ride is enough to stop it.

     2. Yes Jessica, I can relate to that too, such a drain and waste of our energy, and how damaging in sense of we lose our connection with our bodies. Total disregard for what our body is telling us.

     3. Jessica, this is my experience too and it is incredible how the mind can create another version of what has really happened, distort facts and in the end we are worried about something else we have created ourselves – this is what I call the ‘roller coaster’!

        1. Well said Priscila

        2. Yes well said Priscila, I had to chuckle as I know that one so well, how my mind used to distort what was really going on and create some way off scenario draining my energy. Now I find the more I listen to my body the more clear, simple and and easy to deal with things become.

        3. Definitely! We are then ‘sick’ with something we’ve made up – the mind can be so misleading.

504. An amazing journey RB. Thank you for sharing. I too am experiencing the same thing in feeling how much drive and mental activity have been exhausting me. In the last few days I’ve decided to be lovingly firm with myself. As a start I’ve been preparing for bed and not focusing on computer work when I come home from work. This I’m finding is a very practical way to make a different choice, as you have shared and interrupt the ingrained pattern of over working.

     1. I so understand… experts at over working.. and we champion that.. instead of seeing it as the self abuse that it can be. Work is a great thing to do, but there has to be a balance, and not at the expense of our bodies.

        1. Love it RB, how we can put ourselves into self abuse and the worst part is that this then affect the quality of our work.

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